If Tomorrow Was My Last Day On Earth… I'd Stop Running From This Conversation With God

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SPEAKER_00 0:00

Different wealthy people who happen to be Christian. So the whole thing was like, Do you believe in God?

SPEAKER_02 0:06

If people are on their deathbed saying that they wish they had a courage to live a life true themselves, how about we don't wait to be on our deathbed to actually have the courage to live a life that we care about? So whether there's doubt or not, this is what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life. Every day I grow deeper in my faith. And that doesn't mean that I don't I don't wrestle with God.

SPEAKER_00 0:23

When you wrestle with God, it's probably when you are the closest. But one thing's for sure and two things for certain. I think that where I stand is very clear. Hey, what's up, you guys? It's Michelle. Welcome or welcome back to Chats with Michelle. So every week I say that this is the last week. I mentally tell myself that. I'm just like, yeah, I think we're done here. In full transparency, it can be really difficult to continue on a path to do the thing that you feel like the Lord tells you to do or has told you to do when you don't feel like there's much or any fruit to what it is that you're doing, right? There's no fruit to the labor. For the last like couple months, I would say, I'm just like, yeah, you know what? I think I think this is this is it. I think I'm done with doing this weekly. However, before I just throw in the towel, every single week I just pray, I say, Lord, what is it that you want me to say today? And like clockwork, I feel like the Lord does what he does, and he he gives me the theme, he gives me the topic, etc. So I go with that. With that being said, I'm going to be sharing a few clips from an interview I recently seen online. It's from a young man. He basically his whole thing is that he goes around and he speaks to very wealthy people and he asks them how they became wealthy. Now, I've seen his stuff before, I think, on my timeline, but I've never really watched them per se. Like maybe little things here and there. However, this interview in particular, he kind of stumbled essentially upon different wealthy people who happen to be Christian. So the whole thing was like, Do you believe in God? And it kind of went along from there. So let's go ahead and jump right into the first one.

SPEAKER_02 2:01

We all know Dr. Bronny Ware, right? Top five regrets of the dying. If you don't remember, she palliative careters, right? Studying patients in the last eight weeks of life. The number one regret of the dying is I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me. If people are on their deathbed saying that they wish they had a courage to live a life true to themselves, how about we don't wait to be on our deathbed to actually have the courage to live a life that we care about? So it's not thinking about it, it's not talking about it, it's actually doing it. And so for me, do great things is my ethos, has been, will be until the day I die, and you know, that's part of God's plan. I hope I'm here a lot longer. But if not, I feel like I've done great things and I'll continue to do that, and uh grateful for every day I wake up.

SPEAKER_00 2:40

That really stood out to me and was pretty much the thought or the saying, most people on their deathbeds said that they wish they had the courage to do what it is that they wanted to do or that they knew that they were called to do rather than what other people expected them to do. And I would even also put a a comma or add an extra to that and saying, rather than the fear of what people would think if you do the other thing, if you decide to pivot, if you decide to pursue a dream, if you decide to go steadfast after the things that you feel like the Lord is calling you to do. I just was like, oh my goodness, because like quite literally the very way that I I started this, like just being like, Yeah, God, I don't I don't know that I see the fruit in all of this, but it's still like having the courage to show up, even though you know you don't necessarily see the fruit, or maybe or maybe not, people may have opinions and different things like that, but it's still just having the courage to show up and do the thing that you know that you're called to do, your God-given assignment. And I wanted to share something else that really stood out in this interview to me as well.

SPEAKER_02 3:45

So, whether there's doubt or not, this is what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life. You can't fail when you know why you're here. This is God's plan. You believe in God? Of course. You believe in Jesus, you're a Christian? I am, you are. Yeah. How important has that faith been for you throughout your career? I'll tell you this every day I grow deeper in my faith. And that doesn't mean that I don't I don't wrestle with God. In fact, the the service I went to a couple weeks ago, they talked about by definition, if you're wrestling with God, you are closer to God. If you're accepting everything that you hear, everything you read, and you're yes, yes, yes, and you think you're living a godly life and you're not questioning in some way, you're not wrestling with God. So I think I continue to wrestle with God, I continue to ask the questions that I think are important to me, things I may disagree with at times, but I'm always growing deeper in that faith through that process.

SPEAKER_00 4:29

Wrestling with God. Man, that was the realest thing that he could have said, and I couldn't agree more. That when you wrestle with God, it's probably when you are the closest. I think that many people, there's a fear of quite asking God questions, and the best way that I've heard it before was that it's okay to ask God questions, just make sure that you know his character, right? So his character being like God is a good God, right? He really does work all things out for my good, and it can be hard to feel like, you know, because you think about it, right? It can be hard to feel like, well, Lord, do you actually work things out for my good? Because right now, this doesn't seem like my good, you know, right? This season that I'm in, this struggle that I'm dealing with, this heartache, disappointment, all the things, it can feel as though it's not necessarily working out for your good. But I think it's when you're wrestling with God, it's it's a good place to be. It's a hard place to be, but it's a good place to be. And I think that we shouldn't be afraid to wrestle with God. And I just I just thought like this was so timely, like I say again about like showing up each week and being like, oh hey God, well, what do you want me to talk about? Because you know, and I feel like the Lord works that works this out with me, and and I don't know if you're the same way, but I would have consistent conversations around like the same thing, and the Lord will show it to me again. So, like this whole conversation about wrestling with God, I feel like I've had this conversation three to four different ways, different people, different situations within like the last like week or so. And for me to randomly, what felt random to me anyways, right? Stumble up stumble across this video. And for this man to talk about the realness of wrestling with God and being like, hey Lord, like I don't get this, I don't understand this. I I don't even understand this in your word, but I think it's having that conversation and not being afraid and not just suppressing it or just saying the right thing, not just gonna go, yeah, well, God is good, you know, you saying what you know to say is right. I think it's having those true conversations with the Lord. I will say for myself, when I began to really get free and started to feel free and started to feel like, oh, like I'm not just saying the things, but like I know that I know that like I for real know that I can trust God. I feel like I just had this epiphany within like the last six months for real, that I know that I can trust God is because I finally started, I started, I sat down and I started to tell God the things. I started to tell God the things that hurt me, that was hurting me, the things that I was struggling with. And I felt like the Lord He met me where I was at. And instead of just saying all of the vernaculars and the the right things, I share God my heart and what was hurting me and where I was having a hard time. And I feel like God honored that and he began to show his self and his face to me. So I encourage you to do the same, is like don't shy away from wrestling with God if you are in a tough season, if you are having a hard time, sh talk to God about I mean, if if there's anybody you're gonna talk to, talk to him about it.

SPEAKER_03 7:36

Let me ask you this right here. Do you believe in God? I sure do. I'm a devout Christian, I owe everything I have to uh Jesus Christ, and it's been the journey of a lifetime. I love it. You're not afraid to say that either. No, I mean I'm so grateful. How can I not mention it? To think that I did this by myself would be a huge mistake. How did you know God was real? Well, he showed up for me again and again. I grew up, even though we didn't know where we could live, there was always the sense that God had a bigger purpose, that he had a plan, that he loved me. So just gave me confidence to start a business, to take a risk, to know that there was the favor of God coming behind me and going ahead of me.

SPEAKER_00 8:13

It was the point for me when he said just the Lord showing up again and again and again of just like God's sovereignty and his kindness. You know, when people asked me or when I have different conversations with different people and they say, Well, like, how do you know God is real? I've shared this before with you that I actually didn't grow up religious at all, whatsoever, not super Christian, none of those things. And for me, when God met me where I was at, and just like the sovereignty of God, the kindness of God, and just him showing up again and again and again. When I speak of God, I always say that the Lord is a promise keeper because he's kept his promises to me and the sense of like just being a provider and taking care of me, and that has been something where he's been consistent. And like I said, ironically enough, and I'm now that I'm sitting here, I'm realizing nothing is ironic, it's all working together. But um, my the during my quiet time this morning and the devotion that I read, it was talking about the Israelites and how when it came to that point of the journey where they became frustrated with what it was with Moses because Moses was the one you know leading them out of Egypt, and they were saying, Well, at least in Egypt, we were able to eat how we whenever we wanted, and our bellies were full, and all the different things, and and then in devotion it was sharing. How, like, isn't it funny how when we are in a tough season or a tough time in our life, how our past that we just came from that actually was not great, that actually was super stressful, that we were pleading and asking God to take us out of now that you're in this new season and it's not looking the way that you think that it should look. The past, for whatever reason, just seems so sweet. It seems like like maybe I was just better off back then. And it's like, no, actually, no, it's trusting God in the season that you're in to provide you with mana, which it sucks. Like, can we just say that it can suck when it's seemingly not going the way that you would hope to, but it's just working your brain muscle to remember to remember. That's why I talk all the time about journaling, right? I don't think that you necessarily need to journal every single day, however, it's keeping a track with God so you can be reminded in the seasons when it's tough, where the Lord took you from, and in that being reminded, like, okay, well, God took me from here, then I know He's gonna show up here too. And it may not be when you want it to be, how you want it to be, in the season that you wish it would have been, or as quickly as you would have liked it to be. But it's like I said, it's just remembering God's character.

SPEAKER_01 10:42

Jesus is either a liar, a lunatic, or he's Lord. That was something C.S. Lewis came up with many years ago, but it's still just as profound today. But I would encourage the next generation to seek, go and see if he's really who he says he is, if he's really who he claims to be. And then I would say, Man, make your life count, make it matter for things that are really important. It's so easy to get caught up like I have in this rat race of just the next thing. But at the end of our lives, those things aren't gonna really matter. You're not gonna be thinking, Man, look at that one more deal, that one more business, that one more company. When our life is over, are we gonna be more focused about the inheritance or the legacy we left? Because inheritance is what you leave for someone, but I believe legacy is what you leave in someone.

SPEAKER_00 11:21

Did I not just talk about this last week? Legacy and inheritance. So there's this phrase that I I've coined, right? I don't know if anyone else uses this, but this is something I've been saying for the past few years, and I like to call it God wings. And I'm gonna bring your remembrance back to the beginning of this whole chat, right? And where I said, I literally said in the beginning, I'm like, you know, Lord, what do you want me to say? Like, Lord, tell me what you want me to share, and I would just share it because at this point, I'm just like every week for these videos, that is my mana of like, okay, God, what do you want me to say now? Because I don't know. Anyways, I said all that to say, like, when I heard this part of the interview, I just felt like that was such a god wink because I had no idea this was gonna be said. It's not like it was in the beginning of the video, it wasn't in the promo or anything like that. I literally talked about this last week, and if you did not, um, if you do not watch or listen to that chat, I'll be sure to link it in the description box below so you can go check it out. But I was literally, literally talking about the difference between inheritance and legacy, and he literally said it perfectly. He said inheritance is what you leave for someone, and legacy is what you leave in someone. And I feel like we can just wrap up this whole chat right here with that. What is the God-given assignment that you have that you know that the Lord has called you to do, but maybe there's an embarrassment, or you have been checking along and you want to throw in the towel? Listen, I if anyone understands it's me. At the end of every interview, he asked a wealthy business person, if you were to die tomorrow, what is one piece of advice you would leave for a young person? And I would ask you this question to kind of put a tweak on it. If you were to die tomorrow, what is the legacy that you think that you would leave for the generation behind you? And I sat and I thought about that and I said, you know what? If I were to die tomorrow, and then and I pray that I don't, right? I pray that I have tons and tons and tons of years behind me. However, if I were, I believe that I have left a legacy. I think that where I stand is very clear. If we are going based off of the definition of legacy being something that you leave in someone, I have years and years and years of footage here for my friends, family, loved ones to go back and they can say, hey, like this is where Michelle stood. And it's not that her faith was perfect and it's not that she always got it right, but one thing's for sure and two things for certain is that she trusted God. And I believe that whoever was to come behind me, whoever is to see this, right, whether it be my own loved ones or just random people online, I think that is something for them to take with them and to wrestle with themselves, however, also a guide, right? And not to say that I have it all figured out, however, I think it is a legacy nonetheless. So I challenge you to sit and think like, okay, well, what is a legacy that I'm leaving behind? You know, it's like I don't think it's a coincidence that this is coming up again for the second time um this week. So, with that being said, thanks so much for chatting with me. Listen, if you found this chat valuable, please consider sharing it with someone who may also find this chat valuable. And while you're at it, please be sure to like, comment, and subscribe because listen, we've got so much to chat about. Bye.