SPEAKER_00: Tuesday of Holy Week takes us deeper and it gets uncomfortable real fast.
SPEAKER_00: Yesterday we saw love poured out.
SPEAKER_00: Today we see what happens when the heart resists that love.
SPEAKER_00: The first reading from Isaiah is striking because it reveals something we don't often talk about in spiritual life discouragement.
SPEAKER_00: The servant says, I thought I had toiled in vain for nothing, uselessly spent my strength.
SPEAKER_00: That's not weakness, that's honesty.
SPEAKER_00: It's the experience of someone who has given himself and it feels like it didn't work.
SPEAKER_00: And yet right there, the turn happens, yet my reward is with the Lord.
SPEAKER_00: In other words, fruitfulness in God's eyes is not the same as visible success.
SPEAKER_00: God is not measuring outcomes the way we do.
SPEAKER_00: He's forming the heart, and his plan is always bigger than what we can see.
SPEAKER_00: Then comes a line that changes everything.
SPEAKER_00: It is too little.
SPEAKER_00: I will make you a light to the nations.
SPEAKER_00: What feels like failure in a small mission becomes the doorway to a universal mission.
SPEAKER_00: God doesn't waste anything, not even our apparent losses.
SPEAKER_00: Now hold that in your mind as we go to the gospel.
SPEAKER_00: Jesus is at the table, but this is no longer the quiet intimacy of Bethany with some friends.
SPEAKER_00: There's tension in the air.
SPEAKER_00: Gospel says he is deeply troubled.
SPEAKER_00: That word matters.
SPEAKER_00: This is not a detached Christ moving pieces on a chessboard.
SPEAKER_00: He feels the weight of betrayal.
SPEAKER_00: Then he says it, one of you will betray me.
SPEAKER_00: Notice he doesn't expose Judas publicly.
SPEAKER_00: He doesn't shame him.
SPEAKER_00: He doesn't stop him.
SPEAKER_00: Instead, he offers him something shocking, the morsel.
SPEAKER_00: In that culture, that gesture is a sign of intimacy, even friendship.
SPEAKER_00: At the very moment Judas is turning away, Jesus is still reaching towards him.
SPEAKER_00: That's the tragedy of Judas.
SPEAKER_00: It's not just that he betrays Jesus, it's that he refuses the love being offered to him even in that very moment.
SPEAKER_00: Then comes one of the coldest lines in the gospel, and it was night.
SPEAKER_00: Yes, that detail is about time, but it's more than that.
SPEAKER_00: It's spiritual.
SPEAKER_00: Judas steps out of the light and into the darkness.
SPEAKER_00: And here's where the gospel presses even harder.
SPEAKER_00: Because it doesn't stop with Judas.
SPEAKER_00: Peter speaks next.
SPEAKER_00: And Peter is not a villain.
SPEAKER_00: He's sincere.
SPEAKER_00: He loves Jesus.
SPEAKER_00: I will lay down my life for you.
SPEAKER_00: That's not fake, that's real.
SPEAKER_00: And yet Jesus tells him, You will deny me three times.
SPEAKER_00: And now you have both sides of the human heart in one scene.
SPEAKER_00: Judas, who rejects Christ, Peter, who loves Christ but overestimates himself.
SPEAKER_00: One betrays, the other will deny.
SPEAKER_00: If we're honest, we have fallen into both camps.
SPEAKER_00: There are moments we resist grace close in on ourselves, choose darkness.
SPEAKER_00: That's Judas in all of us.
SPEAKER_00: But there's also that moment when we have when we're full of zeal, full of promise, convinced of our strength, and then we fall.
SPEAKER_00: That's Peter in all of us.
SPEAKER_00: Holy Week strips away illusions.
SPEAKER_00: It forces the question: what is my discipleship actually made of?
SPEAKER_00: Because saying, I would never betray you or I would die for you is easy in theory, but Jesus is not asking for dramatic declarations.
SPEAKER_00: He's asking for fidelity.
SPEAKER_00: He's asking for small moments of fidelity, humility, and weakness, and the courage to stay when things get hard.
SPEAKER_00: The difference between Judas and Peter is not that one failed and the other didn't.
SPEAKER_00: Both failed.
SPEAKER_00: The difference is this Judas runs from mercy.
SPEAKER_00: Peter runs towards mercy.
SPEAKER_00: And that's the decision sitting in front of us today.
SPEAKER_00: When you see your weakness, when you see your inconsistencies, when you see the gap between who you say you are and who you actually are, do you walk into the night?
SPEAKER_00: Or do you come right back to him, Jesus?
SPEAKER_00: Because the truth is this Jesus is already knows.
SPEAKER_00: He knows the names and he knows the betrayal.
SPEAKER_00: And still, he stays at the table.
SPEAKER_00: Still, he offers himself.
SPEAKER_00: And that means this your failures at the end of the day, at the end of your story, does not define you unless you decide that it does.
SPEAKER_00: So today on this Tuesday, as we draw closer to the Passion of Christ, ask yourself Am I running towards mercy or am I running into the darkness?
SPEAKER_00: Amen.