SPEAKER_00: Happy feast day.
SPEAKER_00: Today we celebrate the feast of Saint Augustine, our patron saint.
SPEAKER_00: There's something wonderfully ironic about the readings the church gives us today for this feast day.
SPEAKER_00: Saint Paul says, Christ did not send me to preach the gospel with the wisdom of human eloquence, so that the cross of Christ might not be emptied of its meaning.
SPEAKER_00: As we celebrate one of the most eloquent Christians who ever lived, Augustine made his living with words.
SPEAKER_00: Long before he was Father Augustine, Bishop Augustine, or Saint Augustine, he was a professor of rhetoric.
SPEAKER_00: He taught people how to speak persuasively.
SPEAKER_00: He knew philosophy, he knew logic, he knew how to construct an argument, he knew how to win an audience.
SPEAKER_00: He was very good at it.
SPEAKER_00: But here's what makes Augustine so fascinating.
SPEAKER_00: For all of his intelligence, Augustine could not think his way into holiness.
SPEAKER_00: And that may be one of the most important things we can learn from him today.
SPEAKER_00: Because sometimes we tell Augustine's story too simply.
SPEAKER_00: We make it sound as though he was an unbeliever, that he heard some good arguments for Christianity, became convinced, and all of a sudden got baptized and became a saint.
SPEAKER_00: Well, it's much messier than that.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine's great struggle was not simply is Christianity true?
SPEAKER_00: No, his deeper struggle was if Christianity is true, am I willing to surrender my life to it?
SPEAKER_00: Those are two very different questions.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine tells us in the confessions that when the first began listening to Saint Ambrose preach in Milan, he was fascinated by Ambrose's eloquence.
SPEAKER_00: I love that image.
SPEAKER_00: The future Saint Augustine sitting in church evaluating the bishop's homily.
SPEAKER_00: Is he any good?
SPEAKER_00: How does he use language?
SPEAKER_00: Is it convincing?
SPEAKER_00: Augustine came to evaluate the preacher, but somewhere along the way the preaching began evaluating Augustine.
SPEAKER_00: He came because he was interested in the words, and through those words he encountered the word.
SPEAKER_00: Gradually, some of Augustine's intellectual objections to Christianity began to fall away.
SPEAKER_00: But something remarkable happened.
SPEAKER_00: Once his intellectual problems began disappearing, Augustine discovered the real problem.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine himself.
SPEAKER_00: His own desires, his ambitions, his attachments, his pride, the life he did not want to surrender.
SPEAKER_00: And that is where Augustine becomes incredibly contemporary, because we live in a world overflowing with information.
SPEAKER_00: We can know more theology from our phones than generations of Christians had access to in an entire library.
SPEAKER_00: We can listen to Catholic podcasts all day, we can read scripture commentaries, we can follow theologians, we can quote saints, we can know the catechism, we can win an argument about the faith, and still not surrender our lives to Jesus Christ.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine discovered that there is an enormous distance between knowing what is true and allowing that truth to change you.
SPEAKER_00: And that's why today's first reading is perfect.
SPEAKER_00: St.
SPEAKER_00: Paul says, Jews demand signs and Greeks look for wisdom, but we proclaim Christ crucified.
SPEAKER_00: Paul is not against intelligence.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine certainly was not.
SPEAKER_00: The Catholic tradition has never been afraid of the human mind.
SPEAKER_00: But Christianity makes an extraordinary claim.
SPEAKER_00: The deepest truth about God is not ultimately an argument, it is a person, and that person is hanging on a cross.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine spent years trying to climb upward towards wisdom.
SPEAKER_00: Then he discovered that wisdom had come down looking for him.
SPEAKER_00: That's Christianity.
SPEAKER_00: God does not stand at the top of a mountain shouting, hey, climb higher.
SPEAKER_00: No, God comes down.
SPEAKER_00: He takes flesh, he enters our mess, he kneels before his disciples, he washes feet, he carries a cross, he stretches out his arms, he dies for us.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine eventually realized that the cross was not beneath his intelligence.
SPEAKER_00: The cross contained a wisdom greater than his intelligence.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine later used a beautiful image when preaching about Christ.
SPEAKER_00: He described humanity as people trying to cross a sea to reach their homeland.
SPEAKER_00: We know there is somewhere we belong.
SPEAKER_00: We cannot cross the sea by ourselves.
SPEAKER_00: And Augustine tells his people not to despise the wood by which they can carry across the sea.
SPEAKER_00: The wood is the cross.
SPEAKER_00: In other words, stop trying to swim by yourself.
SPEAKER_00: Let Christ carry you home.
SPEAKER_00: And perhaps there are people sitting in this church today who need to hear that.
SPEAKER_00: You've been trying to swim for a very long time, trying to control everything, trying to understand every aspect, trying to fix everything, trying to carry everybody, trying to make sense of something in your life that simply doesn't make sense.
SPEAKER_00: Well, Augustine would tell you, stop despising the wood.
SPEAKER_00: Hold on to the wood.
SPEAKER_00: Let Christ carry you.
SPEAKER_00: And then Jesus gives us this strange gospel about ten virgins waiting for the bridegroom.
SPEAKER_00: They all have lamps, they all look prepared, they all fall asleep, but only five have oil.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine actually preached about this gospel, and he asks the question we should ask today what is the oil?
SPEAKER_00: For Augustine the oil points us towards charity, towards love, towards the interior reality of a Christian life that cannot simply be displayed on the outside.
SPEAKER_00: But notice something the lamp is visible.
SPEAKER_00: The oil is hidden.
SPEAKER_00: Everyone can see the lamp, everyone can have a lamp, but only God knows whether there is oil inside.
SPEAKER_00: It's a frightening good examination of conscience for all of us.
SPEAKER_00: Because we can have beautiful lamps, we can come to Mass every day, even daily mass, we can know when to stand and kneel, we can belong to a wonderful parish and serve in the community, be part of different ministries.
SPEAKER_00: We can know the language, the Catholic vocabulary.
SPEAKER_00: We can even have St.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine's name written across the front of our church.
SPEAKER_00: But the bridegroom is not coming to inspect the name on the building.
SPEAKER_00: He's coming for your heart.
SPEAKER_00: And the question will be, is there oil inside?
SPEAKER_00: Is there actually life with God?
SPEAKER_00: Do I pray when no one's watching?
SPEAKER_00: Do I forgive?
SPEAKER_00: Do I love?
SPEAKER_00: Do I serve?
SPEAKER_00: Do I surrender?
SPEAKER_00: Have I allowed grace to change the parts of me that I would rather keep hidden?
SPEAKER_00: I come to Christ with empty hands.
SPEAKER_00: Or have I simply learned how to carry a very impressive lamp?
SPEAKER_00: That's why Augustine matters.
SPEAKER_00: Not because he was perfect, he wasn't.
SPEAKER_00: Not because his conversion made everything easy, it didn't.
SPEAKER_00: Not simply because he wrote brilliant books, Augustine matters because he is living proof of what God can do with a human life once that life finally surrenders.
SPEAKER_00: And that's something we sometimes forget about conversion.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine was baptized in three hundred eighty seven.
SPEAKER_00: He died in four hundred thirty.
SPEAKER_00: There were more than forty years between baptismal font and the grave.
SPEAKER_00: Forty years of preaching, forty years of prayers, forty years of controversy, forty years of pastoral problems, forty years of trying to lead difficult people, forty years of discovering more deeply the God to whom he had surrendered.
SPEAKER_00: If you remember that famous scene in the garden was not the end of Augustine's conversion, it was the very beginning.
SPEAKER_00: And perhaps that's the teaching we need our patronal feast today.
SPEAKER_00: Conversion is not merely something that happens to Augustine 16 centuries ago.
SPEAKER_00: Conversion is the ordinary vocation of every single Christian sitting in this church.
SPEAKER_00: There should be something in me that Christ is converting.
SPEAKER_00: My pride, my relationships, the way I use my money, the way I forgive or I don't forgive, something in my prayer, something in my ambitions, something in the way I treat people, the way I respond to people, something I've been protecting from God.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine's great breakthrough came when Christianity stopped being merely something he was examining and became someone before whom he was willing to kneel.
SPEAKER_00: That's the difference between knowing about God and knowing God.
SPEAKER_00: And so today in a church bearing Augustine's name, perhaps our patron asks us a very simple question.
SPEAKER_00: What part of your life have you still not surrendered to Christ?
SPEAKER_00: Because there's only probably one.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine had one, I have one, you have one, and holiness begins when we stop pretending that it isn't there.
SPEAKER_00: Saint Paul gives us the cross, Jesus gives us the lamp.
SPEAKER_00: Augustine shows us what happens when a human being finally takes both seriously.
SPEAKER_00: Hold on to the wood, fill the lamp with oil, and keep allowing Christ to convert you.
SPEAKER_00: Saint Augustine, pray for us.