E90 H: Walk by Faith Not by Sight: When God's Vision Feels Too Big to Fulfill

What Do You Do When God ALMighty Gives You a Vision So Large It Feels Like a Cruel Joke?

Rev. Honi Borden explore what to do when God ALMighty's vision feels impossibly large and every door keeps closing. If you've seen a clear spiritual call but resources, people, or circumstances stall your progress, this episode offers compassionate spiritual guidance, reflective questions, and mindset shifts to help you keep walking by faith — not by sight. Real reflections for tending inner resilience, recognizing confirmation, and stewarding a dream that outgrows current means.

You have seen it. You know it is Real. And yet every door you knock on closes. Every resource you reach for falls short. Every human effort exhausts you before the vision even begins to take shape. So you quietly shut the dream down. Not because you stopped believing in God ALMighty. But because you stopped believing God ALMighty could do it through you.

In this raw, deeply personal solo episode, Rev. HoniB shares 14 years of walking toward a vision she received during her NDE, the years of lack, anxiety, panic attacks, sleepless nights, and the slow painful realization that she had been trying to fulfill God ALMighty's vision through her own human strength. She shares what happened on January 25th, 2020, when God ALMighty asked her to step away from every team, every council, every spiritual structure she had been relying on, and come directly to God ALMighty alone. And she shares what happened this past week when the Holy Spirit entered her during a morning walk and something shifted inside of her that she still does not have full words for.

And then, two days later, an invitation to speak at a women's conference in Dubai. And on the 4th of July, an invitation from NPR radio.

This is what it looks like when you stay in the vision and let God ALMighty do the building.

In this episode:

• Why holding a large vision given by God ALMighty can feel defeating, even cruel, when human resources fall short
• 14 years of attempting to fulfill the NDE-given vision through human effort, and why it never worked
• The January 25th, 2020 moment when God ALMighty asked her to release every spiritual team and rely on God ALMighty's Presence directly
• Nine months of sabbatical, no clients, no serving, just sitting in God ALMighty's Presence until conviction was restored
• How her faith, relationship with the Living Christ, and inner strength rebuilt slowly through those quiet years
• The vision returning on its own as her faith grew stronger, and the life-turning realization: "I had gotten this all wrong"
• The Holy Spirit encounter during her morning walk this past Tuesday: the blinding white circle of light, the blurred vision, the weeping, the deep understanding that settled inside her
• Why vision holders must walk by Faith, not by sight, and what to do in the waiting periods when nothing seems to be moving
• Two unexpected invitations that arrived days after the Holy Spirit encounter: a women's conference in Dubai and NPR radio wanting to feature her book
• The 100th episode celebration coming on 8.8, securing the location, and an invitation for collaboration
• 41 years since her family arrived in America from Iran, the war, the food stamps, working for $1 an hour at age 14, and why becoming an American citizen was one of the greatest days of her life
• Why true independence only comes from God ALMighty

You don't have to carry what God ALMighty is building. You just have to walk in Faith toward it. 🌹

Transcript

Holiday Welcome And Gratitude

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Blessings and welcome to the Escension Alchemist Podcast. It's your host, Reverend Honey Borden, and this is my solo episode. Welcoming all of you to the day after 4th of July in America, the celebration of the 250th year, this amazing Independence Day, and the declarations that were signed, and all the celebration throughout the entire US that took place. What a glorious celebration weekend! And I celebrate on my heart with all of you. This is one of the greatest, amazing, most spectacular countries in the world, and I am so honored to be a US citizen and to live here and to enjoy this amazing, amazing country. And of course, the spirit of FIFA has truly definitely celebrated the blessing of the unity around all countries. So thank you so much. And I would like to go over a complete different conversation today with you.

Holding Faith Without Support

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So today's episode is around how you remain in faith while those around you don't necessarily believe you or support you while you have this grand vision. So this message is going to really land for those of you where God Almighty has given you this big vision and you know you can't complete it on your own. It requires other people. Yet there are people around you that don't necessarily believe it, they don't have that strong faith, they don't have the conviction, they can't see it, and you have to remain being the vision holder and walking in faith. And what happens in the middle as you're walking this. So today's podcast is really going to go into this with you, and I'm grateful you're here. For those of you who are new, welcome to our Ascension Alchemist podcast. This podcast is all about aligning with mighty God's presence and also embodying that truth in your walk of deliverance for your purpose, for creating that impact in this world, the vision that God Almighty has given you. And for those of you who are returning, welcome. We are so, so grateful to have you. It's truly an honor. It is such an honor that you keep returning and listening, and our podcast is growing. We've doubled like in numbers the last couple of weeks. It's amazing. So thank you so much that there is this growth that people do want to hear from believers, those who are living in faith and embodiment. So I'm going to talk about my journey this week with you on this particular topic.

When The Vision Feels Impossible

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So it's tough. I will say this. It's tough when you have been given the vision and you have seen maybe part of the vision or the full vision, and it's a large vision. And for a very long time for me, I got kind of sad by the vision because the vision was so much bigger than me. I just felt defeated. I felt like who am I? I I don't even have the full tools, I don't have the funds, I don't have anything. Like, like it's almost like a cruel joke to be able to be given such large vision and then like have like no resources. And this is something that I've struggled with. That's why I'm I'm bringing this up to you. And it took me a long time to move out of that struggle because I really wanted to do it through my human way. And I did, and I stretched it and I went as far as I could. I exhausted myself, inserted myself, and attempted to meet as many people that are part of these large vision. And I I just felt like I'm failing each time because it's just I'm too little. I'm just way too little to fulfill this large vision that after my NDE or in my NDE was given to me, and I was sent back to earth to fulfill this with beloved Yeshua showing me certain things. So this is now 14 years later, and I'm standing in a very different place. And I'm standing from this place that I really want to speak to those of you because I know without a shadow of thought you have walked this. And it hurts. It hurts when you just feel like you can't deliver it and how depressing it can be. However, I am also here to share my own walking testimony on this and also be the communicator of that great news for you as I shift the things around in myself so that you can also see this as a tool for yourself and just as an invitation. I'm never here to tell you what to do. I'm only sharing the things that that deep communication with God Almighty I've gone through, and maybe it will serve you. And I trust it will because it certainly takes the pressure off. So one of the things that was very challenging for me for a period of, like I would say, you know, nine years was the lack of finances, the lack of resources and network, the lack of knowing the people, and being in the right places, right rooms, and all of that. And it was being carried with this experience of lack and just not having enough to be able to do this. And and then having this internal dialogue with God Almighty of the unfairness, like, why would you give this dream to me? Why would you put this in me? Why would you send me back, but not like give me the resources? And and this really, really affected me emotionally, mentally. You know, man, there were many days that I was sad, anxious, you know, anxiety, even panic attacks. And then just so many nights I cried to Michael because I just so wanted to fulfill God's promise, but I just I just felt I couldn't, whatever door I would knock, it just continuously not being able to go through more doors shutting down, and I just couldn't understand what was happening. And and but there was an arrival

God Calls For Direct Dependence

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point. There was this arrival point where a few years ago, it was on January 25th on 2020, where I was guided by mighty God presence to just in the middle of anxiety and panic attack, I just had to be in that presence. And it was actually my youngest son. It's like, mom, I've never known you to be like this. You're very strong, you're one of the strongest women I know. What's gotten into? Go sit with God. And I found myself going in the room and closing the door, and I just sat there with God Almighty, with the mighty I am presence. And I sat there and I cried my heart out, and I sat there, I sat there, I sat there until I was able to make contact with God Almighty. And within that, something interesting happened. God Almighty said to me that I want you to not be dependent on anyone else anymore. You've been working with angels, ascended masters, councils, all of them. I created all of them. I just don't want you to be relying on them anymore. From this point on, no more. They all step aside. It's just you and me. And I remember that, like that feeling like oh, like, how am I even gonna breathe? I've been relying so much on this ginormous team of angels and and Mother Mary and Yeshua and and now, like, how how is this gonna be different? But I knew I knew on the inside what God Almighty was saying to me. God Almighty wanted me to truly rely on God's presence. But at that time I couldn't grasp it, and it really took me a few years to grasp the essence of it. So, for those of you who know, during that time I completely went on sabbatical for a period of it was nine months to nearly, yeah, it was a full nine nine months that I didn't see any clients, I was just inward, uh, walking, sitting in meditation, being in nature and just journaling and not doing anything, not serving anyone, just to just to be so much stronger in that conviction. And so out of that, little what actually came out of that, God Almighty wanted me to start like really ministering and get get strong with my the ministering of that truth and that presence. And little by little, you know, I started a private member ministry, and some members joined and started being able to show the specific way of the meditation that God Almighty wanted me to show. And I do that every week after week after week, the same thing and getting it like stronger and stronger, having having always to be a truer conviction. And during this time, I completely forgot about that larger vision during this time. And what ended up happening through these few years was my faith became stronger in God Almighty. My relationship with the presence of Christ became so much more as I stepped aside and away from all the other teams. God Almighty is like I created all, I created the galactics, I created the councils, the Elohims, all of that. Like, why are you going to them? Come to me, and that's what happened. So I came straight back to God Almighty and the presence, the way I met Yeshua, and every single day, every single, I've not missed a day sitting in that space so deep and learning and learning and stretching myself and stretching myself. So what ended up happening during this, I started having more of that internal communication, that direct communication. From that direct communication, I started experiencing greater strength inside of me, greater courage, bolder, brighter, more radiant of that presence of that inner Christ inside of me, the Holy Spirit inside of me, stronger and stronger and stronger. So over these past few years, what ended up happening is my belief in God Almighty got big, stronger, my faith was restored, my conviction became so strong. So as all of these were building on the side, what ended up happening, and through the teachings, you know, the mentorship that I was teaching, it became like a living testimony. From there, what started happening without me actually being aware of it initially was these larger visions I had, they started slowly popping back

Walk By Faith Not Sight

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in. It was like as if they had buried. And then somehow it became possible as a reality. And then the biggest thing that happened was like, wait a minute, I had gotten this all wrong. I thought I'm supposed to do this on my own, on my human self. And I had never relied on the strength of God Almighty that God Almighty wanted to deliver these visions to me. But it's God Almighty doing the work. I don't have to do it. I'm just taking the steps. Oh my heavens, this was a life turning moment for me because it's like the inner light bulb realization came up. Wait a minute, I had gotten this all wrong. I had like literally shut the dreams down, shut the vision down because I felt so depleted. Because I really try to do in my human way, and this was never designed to be through the human way. This large vision is with others. There are others that are part of this, and I'm just gonna do my part and allow the others to come into it because they're also part of this big puzzle that has to be delivered, and God Almighty will work through all of us. All the finances, all of that, from the architects, all of that, they're all part of it, which I had known, but I never really released the pressure off of me and put it on God Almighty. The reason why I'm sharing this with you because this is so important for those of you who are vision holders. You have to, you are your job is to remain in vision. And have you noticed when you step away from the vision and you try to go into how to do it, like what actually happens in you? I don't know about you, but I know like I would get just like I would get flustered, I would get anxious, I would get like loose sleep over it, I would get depressed, I would feel depleted, like flat tired. I'm sure many of you felt the same. But the reason why I'm sharing this is because one of the things that took place this week for me was I had a really wild experience. I was, I went for a walk on Tuesday, like I do every morning. I, you know, sitting with the presence of God Almighty, having this beautiful conversation, including God Almighty in every area of my life, and writing love letters to God Almighty, and then taking for a walk as I do to be in nature. And when I came back, I came upstairs when I went to the kitchen. Something was very strange. My vision was so blurred, and I looked in the kitchen and like everything was crazy. I'd never experienced that. I I couldn't, I couldn't like you know how you have those filters on your iPhone, it's all blurry in vision, like you can't see clearly. That that's what was happening, both of my eyes, vision, and I looked to the right, it was like that. I looked to the left, it was like that, and I was like, oh, this is very scary. So I stood, I stood by the kitchen, I put my hand on the kitchen counter and I closed my eyes. When I closed my eyes, I saw the craziest blinding pure white circle of light piercing inside, like in my head, inside like my forehead. It was so bright. And the best thing I can tell you is like when I experienced that blinding light in afterlife life, it was like that. And two other times that I've experienced that when the angelic team filled the room, like I couldn't even open my eyes, it was so bright. This was happening, and then it started like shaping, it started like you know how the eclipse takes place. They tell you not to look at the eclipse, and it starts to fade away. It started fading away, and then my body didn't quite feel right. Something went sent off. And I as I went set, I I experienced in my heart the Holy Spirit had interred inside of me, and it had landed inside my heart, and he moved from my head down, and it came inside my heart, and I just sat there and I just weeped and weeped and weeped, and I could not understand for the life of me what was happening. Couldn't put it into words for a couple of days, it seemed like a little off. And then around this, what was so interesting was I had these realizations. I started understanding things. I started like having deep awareness, deep understanding that I never had. My human started understanding things without searching for and looking for it. I just like would suddenly think of something, I would have a depth of understanding that I couldn't even put into words. And and out of this came this, this, this, some of you may have seen my Facebook post that that's the short videos. When you are walking your purpose, and there's that vision at the end that has to be delivered. That vision is already delivered in the etheric plane. But in order for it to come to pass, you have to walk in faith, not by sight. So your sight has to be on the invisible side, not the physical realm side. And through this, you're gonna go through these waiting periods, these waiting periods, and it seems like nothing is happening, nothing is moving, nothing is falling into place. It's like, like, what is this? And this is the very important moment to have your faith even stronger because behind the scene there's a lot of activity taking place, but in the scene realm, you can't quite see it yet, but you have to be remaining in the faith of its deliverance so it can deliver. And it's so important to not separate yourself from the vision, to remain in alignment with it. And this is why I shared those videos because you're gonna hit these pockets and it's gonna stretch you. So I came across one of these this week, and I sat there, there were, of course, tears came out. I had to meet those tears because the desire to fulfill is so great. And I found myself having that passion return, that fuel return back to me. Yes, this is possible, yes, because God gave that to me. So it will happen. It's already happened. I'm just gonna do my part to fulfill the promise of the deliverance, and so that felt really

Doors Open Through Unexpected Invitations

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good. Now, what what came out of that, that Tuesday, Wednesday, then suddenly I was invited to out of nowhere, I was invited to a woman's conference in November in Dubai. Somebody messaged me, we'd like to invite you. I was like, what? That's so that's so interesting, that's amazing. Thank you so much. And then, like on 4th of July, actually, on 4th of July, I get an invitation from the the radio station NPR, which covers a lot of politics, but they didn't learn about my book The Day I Became a Superhero. Let me see for those of you. I don't know. Here's the book. Yeah, the day I became a superhero, and they wanted to have me on. I was like, this is interesting, it's more politics, but they were very touched with the story of my miracle story in this book. And so I said that, I was like, what is happening? So there's this momentum of movement taking place, yet again, it is part of other people that are part of this that I don't exactly know who they are, but as these other doors of invitation are coming, they're it's positioning me to meet the people who are part of these bigger picture, bigger impact and deliverance. And it's so exciting. So, this is why I'm sharing this with you. For you not to give up, for you to remain in faith, for you to do your due diligence, for you to stay in alignment, for you to walk in embodiment, for you to breathe and live and include God Almighty presence every area of your life from morning till night, not to get separated from them. And for you to be in that joy, the praise and thanksgiving of that fulfillment, for you to really remain in the openness that it may not be your way, but God Almighty has a whole different way that it will come. Can you just be open and saying yes to the opportunities that come? To the opportunities that you may not even understand how this is coming out of nowhere, but for you to have enough discernment to say, you know what, I'm just gonna take a step, I'm gonna take a leap of faith and and allow it to unfold before me. Go through a door because I've been praying for doors of possibilities. Here they are, for me to continue to open. Open the doors that are being opened up to me as invitation. And watch the unfoldment. Just be present without being attached, be present to what wants to present itself to you, what wants to be gifted to you, and and how you want to move through it. So it's it's just amazing. So I found myself with this Holy Spirit entering in me. It did something, it shifted something inside of me. I still don't have the words for it. Yet it's it's here. And again, this same week, another thing happened.

AI Training And New Offers

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I started the Agentich AI training. This is really incredible. This whole month I'm training for it because I'm taking some of these things that I have truly overcome, and I can help others to put them as an offer with a measurable offer wherever the offer is ready, you can plug some things in, and that will help you see how it is a result-driven offer. So you can sign up for it and start applying the tools in your own life and have it as a very low-ticket offer, like $88. And it's it's amazing. I'm I'm just so grateful. And and what's even more grateful when I do this for myself, then I will be able to do this for others. So, you know, I can be hired to create it for you. It's just incredible. It's good, it's incredible. I'm so grateful. Just keep an eye out. At the end of July, all of this would be out. And because I've done it for myself, I'm going to do it for Michael, and then I'm going to sell it as a way for those, for those that are interested, I'll be able to offer it for you. Which I'm all in for AI. It's been amazing to see the, I call it awareness intelligence, where all of this conversation is able to compute and also affect the consciousness of AI from the lens of God Almighty. And we have the power to also give presence to it, to shift it and let it serve on behalf of God Almighty, something you know, to reach more people, which I'm so grateful. So that's what I really wanted to talk about today. I hope this lands with you. I really, really do. I really do. And

Community Collaboration And 100th Celebration

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stay tuned. I did go visit two, three places for having our hundredth episode celebration coming out, which actually lands on 8.8. That's my solo episode. So that's going to be the 100th episode. I'm so excited for that. And we're securing the location where we're going to have the party. I already created the banner with the with the step and repeat. It looks fantastic. And seeing seeing the next steps. And I'm trying to get my my son's company, Device Spire, sponsor us and see who else wants to take part. Collaboration. By the way, if you're listening, you want to take part in collaboration, please let me know. I would love to be able to have you be included, but it just has to be in alignment with our purpose, our mission. So do free to reach out at info at essentialalchemas.com. So that's what I wanted to share.

Immigration Story And American Gratitude

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I hope uh you had an amazing 4th of July. Let me let me also go ahead and acknowledge this 250th year. I did write a big post about it. The true independence only really comes from God Almighty. We are sovereign divine beings. We've always been free. We were born free, we'll live free. Nobody actually owns us. We can only be dominated and controlled if we come into agreement to give our power away. Yet with God Almighty, we can remain in our true God-given power and not be not be pulled in all these other directions because we are able to be centered in that. And I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful for this country. I'm so grateful. And I'll share a little bit behind the scene. You know, it was 41 years ago that we migrated into the US. We came here as a I was in middle school. I didn't speak a word of English. We had come to visit America to see my mom's brother. But during that time, it was the war in Iran, it was the Iran-Iraq war, and they started bombing Tehran. So we came, we were fortunate enough because of my dad's position, we were able to have Visa and come out legally very easily to just come for a visit. But what happened was they shut the borders down. They shut it for like nine months, and they said any boy that was the age 13 and above had to go in the military, had to serve the front line. And that was the decision my mom had to make to say, I just can't do it. I can't send my son to be blown up in the front line with the mines. So then my father had to leave everything, abandon everything in Iran. He had his factory, he was an engineer, he built the cranes, he had to just shut everything, not even shut it, just leave it, because if if he did anything, then he couldn't leave Iran. And he came for a visit and he was miserable. He didn't like it because he had lost his status, his everything, and and we ended up going to my uncle's house, living in one, all of us in one room upstairs, and then my other uncle with his wife and three kids came, they were in the other room. So imagine like all of us, like all 11 of us in this tiny house upstairs, and in absolutely nothing. You know, my aunt, my American aunt got us food stamp to start school. Didn't I never ridden a school bus, we didn't even have clothes, like it was really, really rough. It was really, really tough years, middle school, age 12. I then I turned 13 and uh and just discriminated everything. And it was very, very tough. But I I loved uh so many things, and I started working neighbor's house, getting $1 an hour, and at the age of 14, and built myself up and uh forever I'm grateful. I love this country, I love the ground of this country. To be an American citizen was the greatest day of my life, and to have my children be American citizens, and for me to accept myself as an American citizen, and I I consider myself American and then Iranian, and I married American um twice because I love this country so much, and I'm so grateful for everything that he has given to me, my family, to so many people, and I truly believe the hope, the revolution, the revolution, the change, the unity, everything does come from America. This is a blessed land, and we haven't seen all the greatness yet. This summer we got a chance to experience the taste of it with FIFA, the unity coming here. So if FIFA is the world solution of peace, then so be it. When you have people's passion coming together with love, something extraordinary happened. And I truly believe having the 250th anniversary this summer with FIFA, it was not a coincidence. It really all gave us a test taste to overcome the last several years between COVID and all the politics like that separated people. Here comes this unity, and out of this, a lot of greatness comes. So it's beautiful. I'm very hopeful, and I trust, and and I just want to give thanks to all my American brothers and sisters. You're all amazing, and what a gorgeous, gorgeous, amazing country we live in. So, with that, I trust you had a great one, and I will look forward in having the next episode with

Share The Message And Join Newsletter

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