The Dire-Rie of a Sane Black Woman
Ever felt like your darkest fears of being watched were actually true? Marie's powerful documentation pulls back the curtain on life as a targeted individual—where privacy becomes fiction and safety an illusion.
Marie begins her raw, unfiltered account by describing how traditional authorities—police, FBI, employers, and school officials etc.—have failed her, offering therapy referrals instead of protection. "To me, that's just a nice way of saying you're crazy," she explains, highlighting the profound isolation that comes when systems designed for protection become another form of gaslighting.
The Dire-Rie of a Sane Black Woman
Reflections on Tragedy: When Free Speech Turns Deadly
The assassination of a public figure jolted me into deep reflection about the state of our discourse and the dangerous tactics used to silence differing viewpoints. This episode departs from my usual format to examine my reaction to this national tragedy while connecting it to my personal journey as a targeted individual experiencing harassment and intimidation.
When violence becomes the response to speech we disagree with, we've crossed a dangerous threshold. I share my momentary fear upon hearing the news – knowing that as someone breaking silence about my own experiences, I could become more vulnerable. Yet that fear quickly gave way to resolve. As scripture reminds us, God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power and a sound mind.
The digital landscape has created a troubling disconnect where real humans with families and feelings are reduced to abstract entities deserving of scorn. I've experienced this firsthand through algorithm manipulation, cyber stalking, character assassination, and coordinated campaigns designed to shame me into seclusion. These tactics share a common goal: silencing opposition through fear and isolation.
Despite these challenges, I'm strengthened by faith and encouraged by other Christian voices who refuse to be intimidated. We overcome through our testimony – which explains why those opposing truth often desperately try to silence it. I'm committed to documenting my experiences not from fear but conviction. As the Creole/French saying goes, "Abraham dit c'est assez" (French) or "Abraham di sa ase" (Haitian Creole).
I close with prayers for our nation, its leaders, and a return to respectful dialogue across differences. While this episode offers glimpses into my personal story, I invite you to continue following this documentary series as I break my silence and share the truth of my experiences. Join me in choosing courage over fear and dignity over dehumanization.
Hi, so I'm back. This episode is going to be a little different. This is just a reflection on just general current events around our nation and specifically it's a reflection on the assassination of Charlie Kirk. My condolences to his family, his wife and kids. I was very sad to hear the news.
Speaker 1:I believe on Wednesday, as I was working on, you know, getting my podcast together, I saw the headlines on the internet just sort of like in my feed, and I just thought it was a hoax. To be honest, I didn't think it was true because oftentimes people have pranks around about going around about celebrities' deaths, so I didn't think it was true. But on Thursday morning when I woke up, I said let me look at the news and see what's going on. And I actually found out that it was true. And I did not actively follow Charlie Kirk I haven't really listened to him or anything of that nature but I'm very familiar with the face and the name definitely rings a bell. So when I saw the name and I saw the face, I was like, oh, I've definitely seen this person around, he's very well known and it was just. It was just very sad and that just shows you how you know. That just shows you how you know we're just as humans. I just pray that God may have mercy on our souls.
Speaker 1:I'm very saddened by the entire situation. I think, even if someone has a different point of view from yours, a different perspective, you don't agree with them. Taking someone's life, let alone celebrating that person's death, is just unacceptable. It's just, it's inhumane. It's inhumane. I think we've come to a point where social media posting things online it's as if it's not real, as if people don't have feelings, they don't have a family. I feel like we have reached a point of lasciviousness where anything goes. Yeah, that's just very sad.
Speaker 1:The other thing that kind of struck me was two popular Christian voices that regularly post online. One is named Marcus Rogers and the other one is Tiffany Montgomery. They reflected on the situation and what they said really resonated with me in terms of just the way that his life was taken, but also the fact that I don't know if it's still up, but I believe it was mentioned that the video of the actual act was up and they had not taken it down, and she mentioned that it was just kind of like a sign to scare people from, you know, speaking their truth and just coming out and you know speaking what's uh, stating what's on their mind and you know speaking the truth and sharing their's on their mind, and you know speaking the truth and sharing their perspective on things, even if it's opposing to the other side, and I really felt encouraged by her message. You know to speak my truth, you know to say, to tell my side of my story and basically to uncover what has been going on, because there have been a lot of different tactics used to try to silence me. From a digital perspective, definitely, I'm you know nonstop digital attacks trying to mess with my algorithm, poisoning my algorithm with nonsense and obscene information. Also, as I previously mentioned, the you know the cyber stalking, but also the in-person stalking, and also, as I mentioned, this is because it's still going on. This is a global campaign and propaganda to basically target me as an individual, and so I'm not going to lie, since this is a documentary and this is my diary how I felt.
Speaker 1:I think for a moment, there was a bit of fear that crept in when I heard that, because I said to myself I know that one of the tactics of the enemy is to and I just use that term loosely, especially as a Christian, I think you know the opposer, the accuser of the brethren. We just basically generically say enemy is to silence you, isolate you, and so by, unfortunately, unfortunately, any means necessary, and so for me, one of the tactics that they've used was to basically assassinate my character, my reputation, shame me into going into seclusion and things of that nature. So you know Nas in his song, hate Me. Now there's a bar that says they hate what they can't conquer, and so they'll try so many different things to try to conquer you, because they hate your point of view, they hate your perspective, they just hate your existence for God knows what. So anyway, as I was saying, I'm not going to lie, when I heard the news, I just reflected briefly and I said, okay, now that I've basically I'm coming out with my story and what's going out, what's going on and my experience as a targeted individual. And I know a lot of the things have been happening underground group chats, secret group chats and things of that nature, secret communities online where they're basically exchanging information about me and disseminating that information, so forth and so on, and basically sending out foot soldiers to monitor me I said, well, now that I'm actually coming out and posting my truth, my story, my face, online. It will make it a lot easier for people to track me and find me. And so I felt that brief moment and I said you know what? God has not given me a spirit of fear. He has given me a spirit of power and a sound mind, and I'm not going to let fear creep in.
Speaker 1:And the message from Tiffany Montgomery and Marcus Rogers really encouraged me to continue with this documentary. I was still going to do it, but it was just basically a confirmation and a reinforcement to not be silenced. To not be silenced because that's what the enemy wants you to do. The word of God says that we overcome by the blood of Jesus and the word of our testimony, and so if the enemy can try to silence your truth, they'll do anything to try to silence you, and that is definitely not going to happen. Now, as I mentioned that this is not your traditional testimony me going through, you know my whole life story and things of that nature. You will be getting snippets of different aspects of my life and who I am as an individual, because it's just kind of inevitable as I go through the documentary, just to make things a little bit clearer for you. I do again. I just want to reiterate that I will. There will be a point in time where I will actually go through my actual testimony, but it will not be in this forum. It will probably be in a different format or forum. Well, we'll just kind of see where God leads and where the Holy Spirit leads. But you know, that's kind of like what I wanted to say.
Speaker 1:Just come on here and say that I'm praying for number one, america. May God bless America, but I'm praying for humanity, I'm praying for our nation, I'm praying that God may have mercy on our souls and on the whole world and that, despite opposing views, different beliefs, I think one of the things that we can agree that this country gives us is the freedom of speech, the freedom of expression. And to see that someone who actually was fighting for their freedom of expression and to see that someone who actually was fighting for their freedom of expression and freedom of speech came and decided that what their, their solution was to basically take someone else's freedom of speech and and expression by taking their life away, that's just, that's just baffling to me. And so I, I, I, I, just I'm at a loss for words and even more at a loss for words for how social media has reacted to this situation with the celebration of someone's death. Yes, there is something called freedom of speech and freedom of expression, but, at the end of the day, I think that we all have souls, we have a heart, and I just think that it's sad and, unfortunately, your freedom of expression, you know, is hurtful to someone that is actually living in real life. It's not just a random post on social media. You're affecting someone's family and their loved ones, family and their loved ones, and it's just sad.
Speaker 1:I think we see things go viral, we see challenges and things like that, and that's what I've been experiencing and I'll go into that a little bit more in a different episode. But how people? They basically target you. They tarnish your name, they post all sorts of things about you, whether it's subliminal or not, as if you're not an actual human being, as if you're not living and breathing, and so they turn around and they hurt you and basically, because they're upset, because they're hurt, so then they hurt you.
Speaker 1:This is just a very, very sad situation and I just wanted to reflect on this, not necessarily related to my documentary, but to a certain extent I just, but to a certain extent I just I thought it was very important to reflect on what occurred and just, you know, praying for peace, praying that people can peacefully express their opposing views without having to fear that someone is going to come and actually take their life away. So, very sad news. Again, my condolences to his family. I'm praying for America, I'm praying for our president, our leaders, our law enforcement, the other authorities that basically are in place to protect us. So I hope there is a change, there is a shift in humanity in terms of how we react to things, regardless of whether or not we agree with someone or not. And I don't think it's about forcing someone to show empathy or sympathy towards someone that you don't agree with, but I think it's just the mere fact of celebrating someone's actual death and something that was that very recent Right, something that occurred very recently. It's not like something that a lot of time had passed and so now it was a matter of oh okay, so forth and so on, not that it would have justified it either way, but I just think it's just a sad. It's just a sad thing.
Speaker 1:But I'm just here to say I will not be silent. I will not be silent. I will not be silent. I will not be silent. I have broken my silence. Enough is enough. As they would say in Creole, abraham dissetase, which means Abraham said enough is enough. And so I am speaking my truth and, figuratively, I am getting.
Speaker 1:I have already made my way out of Egypt, working my way through the wilderness into my promised land. The purpose that God has for me is definitely higher than I can ever imagine. God knows the plans that he has for me, a plan to prosper me and not harm me. I thank you, god, I praise your name that you have given me another day and that your hedge of protection is around me and that you are going to continuously bless me and that no weapon formed against me will prosper and no tongue, lord God, every tongue that has risen against me, lord God, shall be condemned.
Speaker 1:I thank you for your word. I thank you, lord God, for your peace that surpasses all understanding, and I thank you for your mercies, lord God, your mercies that are new every morning, unrecycled mercies, father. I thank you, lord God, that your hedge of protection is around and all around our nation, lord God, and all around our nation, lord God, protecting every leader, every authority figure, lord God, everyone that is preaching your word, lord God, regardless of their opposing view, lord God, may you give them additional protection. Lord God, your guardian angels, may your guardian angels be around them, lord God, protecting them, lord God, from every evil snare. I thank you, I thank you, I thank you, I thank you in Jesus's mighty name. Hallelujah. Thank you Lord, hallelujah. Thank you Lord. Thank you, father, amen, amen and amen. I'll see you all in the next episode. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, father, amen, amen and amen. I'll see you all in the next episode. Thank you for listening.