Dear Daddy God: Healing the Places Only God Can Reach🦋🤍

Sometimes the deepest healing begins with honesty before God. 🤍

This episode came from a personal letter I wrote in the middle of wrestling with trust, disappointment, unmet expectations, emotional exhaustion, and learning how to stop expecting people to do what only God can do.

Maybe you’ve felt:
✨ misunderstood  
✨ emotionally tired  
✨ afraid to hope again  
✨ afraid to trust deeply  
✨ overwhelmed by disappointment  

This conversation is for the person carrying silent emotions they don’t always have words for.

God sees you.  
He understands you.  
And He is not intimidated by your healing journey.

🎙️ NEW EPISODE:
“Dear Daddy God: Healing the Places Only God Can Reach”


“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3 🤍

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Transcript

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Good morning, good morning, good morning, and welcome to the Beautiful Me Empowerment Ministry Podcast.

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Of course, I'm your host, Monique Anderson, certified empowerment coach, licensed therapist, and a vessel surrendered to helping you walk in healing, wholeness, and your God-given identity. This is a safe, faith-filled, and transformative space where we do the deep work spiritually, emotionally, and practically, so you can become the man and the woman God has created you to be. Hallelujah. Ah, I'm so grateful today. You know, uh, God has been so good. I mean, God is good, and if we were in church, we would say, God is good all the time, all the time, God is good. I just want to do a little check-in to see how you are all doing. I hope that you are all doing well. Uh, I know that you know life is happening. However, the other day, as I sat having a conversation with a friend of mine, and you know, I was saying to the person, I was saying, honestly, I'm just taking life one day at a time, and you know, the person responded and said, To be honest, at this point, we are literally taking life moment by moment, and that is true, right? Uh nonetheless, even though life is happening, you know, and things are coming at us, but God is still good, God is faithful, God is true, and God is still guiding, even in those situations, in those places where you don't feel like God is God in at all. He is God in, he is working behind the scenes, and he is perfecting everything that concerns you. He is working on them. The Bible tells us that he is working them all for your good. Heavenly Father, this morning we want to thank you for this moment. I thank you, God, for every listener under the sound of my voice. Thank you for being near to the brokenhearted and close to those carrying silent pain. Father, we invite you into the deep places, the hidden places, the weary places, the misunderstood places, the places where disappointment and fear and rejection and unmet expectations have left wounds on our hearts. Holy Spirit, breathe on this conversation. Let this not be another episode. But God, this morning I pray that it will be an encounter. Quiet, anxious minds, soothe emotional exhaustion, heal the places where people have felt unseen, unloved, abandoned, or forgotten. And Father, teach us how to stop looking to people for what only you can truly provide. Wrap every listener in your love today. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen and amen and amen. Today's episode is one that is deeply personal. God has been doing his work in me, and I am going to say to you that it is not the most pleasant season of my life, but I am trusting the process or I am trying to trust the process. And as I, you know, try to navigate, I am inviting the Holy Spirit, I am asking God, you know, for direction, I am asking Him for clarity, I am asking the Holy Spirit for help as I navigate the season. And I'm not even I don't even want to use the word I am going to say we navigate the season because God always has a way where as you go through those difficult places, those difficult, difficult seasons of your life, where He sends a word, and this word it could be in the for it, maybe it's a song, um, maybe it is a scripture, maybe it is a butterfly. Like I I have mentioned that two years ago, I uh the Holy Spirit told me that it it is my butterfly season, and as I tried to navigate the season, you know, I was like, God, this really don't look like a butterfly season. But he reminded me that you know, even butterflies they experience summer, winter, autumn, fall, they have moments when the rain comes and they have to seek shelter and the wind will come, and so sometimes they will have to pivot, they'll have to turn around, right? Uh, they would they they rest, and so the important thing that we should focus on, or that I should focus on, is that the butterfly never goes back to becoming a caterpillar, yeah. And so uh God, from that point two years ago when that revelation came, God has somehow I don't know, and and when I say that a butterfly shows up in my life, I don't mean it's it's summer now, so you go outside and you see all these beautiful butterflies. No, I mean in the in the spaces and places where I'm least expecting to see it's either an image of a butterfly, uh, maybe it is a song that pops up on my Spotify, and a butterfly pops up. It is in the weirdest of places, talk to we, and it is just how he always brings my attention to these butterflies as a reminder that it is your butterfly season that I am with you, it doesn't matter what the season is that you're trying to traverse or navigate, I am right there with you, and so God He is so intentional. I always say that He is intentional as it relates to every single one of us because as we navigate different seasons in our lives, He will send a word. Maybe it is somebody that is praying for us, and I want to share with you. So the other day, maybe a week ago or so, I was I'm navigating seasons, all right, and so it was a difficult day for me. You know, I woke up and I was just I was just in tears, like emotional exhaustion, I I'll I'll call it, and I went to I pushed through, you know, I did my exercise because exercise is therapy. I had my coffee, I went to work, but I was just feeling so heavy. And I called a friend of mine and I said, you know, I I need a session, I just need to talk, and let me remind you about the importance of community, just having a person that you can actually trust, and I don't mean any and any any and anybody, right? Allow God to point you to that person that you can trust and that you can talk to somebody who can pray with you, right? And for you, and so I called and uh the person made space for me. I'm going to say that the Lord provided because the person had an appointment, and somehow it was cancelled right there in that moment, and I was just sharing how I was feeling, you know, just defeated, and it is okay, you know, it is okay. People somehow seem to think that you know, if you're crying or if you're angry, if you feel exhausted, you know, you you it's like you're not supposed to be that person, you're not supposed to have those moments of weakness, but the Bible tells us that it is in our weakness that his strength is made perfect. So this is literally telling me that it is okay to have those moments of weakness because that is the moment, or those are the moments when God just jumps in and he does some of his best work in those moments of weakness, because his intention is for us to move from that place of dependency where we're depending on ourselves, so self-sufficiency, and we now depend on him, and so I was just in that space, and I was just talking to my friend about it, and I felt defeated. And right as I was having the conversation with the person, and the person said, Let us pray together, and we prayed, and then my phone rang, and this was a lady I had not spoken with in about two years or so, and she came on the phone and she said, Woman of God, keep lifting your head high, you're a daughter of the king, and keep bigging up your daddy god, and I was just like, Oh my god! And I even said to God, you know, I said, God, you know, easy, you know, because he answers some prayers like right there in the moment, and then there are some things that he takes so long to respond to, but I'm understanding in the season. Our pastor spoke yesterday, and he said, No season is wasted, your waiting season is not wasted, and I've been learning and just really studying different characters in the Bible, and I've been drawn to Joseph and his journey, and the fact that God had to build his capacity for his calling, and it's the same thing with David, because when David was called at a young age, David did not have what it took, what it or what it would take, sorry, to to rule, neither did Joseph, and so Joseph had to go through those moments where God had to build his capacity for him to have become king later on in the future, so no season is wasted, and so I said, God, I understand that yes, there are gonna be some prayers that you're going to and you're going to answer those right there in that moment, right? And then there are those answers that we're going to have to wait a little because you don't want to give us something prematurely, right? And so, you know, uh God is just so amazing and He speaks in in little ways, you know. As I was saying, it is uh a scripture, it is a it is a song, it is just having someone to pray with you, it's somebody calling because your God placed them in your spirit, and you know, so God is intentional towards you, and so this morning, as I said, this episode it is deeply personal, as it you know, I started writing in this season that we are trying to navigate. Myself and the Holy Spirit, we are trying to to navigate, or the Holy Spirit is helping me to navigate. You know, I sat and uh I'm I'm writing my letters to God, and the other morning, you know, as I sat, these are not letters that are are polished, but they are just honest conversations from my heart, and I do believe that many of you might be able to relate to this feeling of wanting love, wanting safety, wanting reassurance, so wanting to feel understood, uh, but also feeling exhausted by disappointment. And what I've realized is that sometimes we ourselves don't even realize how much pressure we place on people emotionally, and as I was writing the other day, I had to say, God, I am sorry, I am so sorry for uh humanizing you for having these expectations of people, and as I sat there, I was like, it's like we expect people to heal wounds they didn't create. We expect people to meet every emotional need, to never disappoint us, to always understand us, to always show up perfectly, and then when they don't, it triggers abandonment wounds, it triggers rejection wounds, trauma responses, fear, insecurity, and anxiety. But human beings were never designed to carry the weight of our God, only God can hold that weight, and I encourage any and every person, start writing. I know that some persons will say, but I'm I'm not a writer, I don't like writing, but I am telling you, when I sit in my space with God, and maybe this is just my journey, and this is how God works on me and in me. But as I sat there and I was writing, I was like, Oh my god, is like I have been putting all of this weight on another human being who is just as flawed as I am, who is experiencing difficulties just as I am, and I have is almost like I'm turning them into a god because I'm expecting them to heal me, to, to, to, to, to meet my emotional needs. I'm expecting flawed human beings to never disappoint me, to understand me. When the truth is sometimes we don't even understand ourselves, and that is why the Bible tells us that the Holy Spirit understands the groanings of our heart, those emotions that we don't have language for, and he intercedes on our behalf. So sometimes we don't even understand what we are feeling, sometimes we don't even know what we want or what we need, but yet still we're placing so much pressure on another human being to meet these needs, and then when they don't live up to these expectations, when they don't meet these needs, then we start talking about how we are feeling rejected, or or it brings up those wounds fear, insecurity, anxiety. And again, I will say human beings were never designed to carry the weight of our God, and I had to be like, God, forgive me, please. Please forgive me for turning people into gods or having these high expectations. Only God can hold that weight, and one of the most powerful parts of healing is being understood. There's something deeply comforting about knowing that God sees me, God hears me, God understands me, and David wrote in Psalm 139, he said, Oh Lord, thou hast searched me and known me. God knows the version of you nobody else sees, the version that smiles publicly but cries privately, the version that overthinks, and you will always hear me say that my overthinking is overthinking. God knows the version of you that fears abandonment, the version that struggles with trust, the version that gets triggered easily because life has hurt you deeply, and yet he stays. People may misunderstand your intentions, people may misread your heart, people may fail to see your pain, but God never misinterprets your tears. And honestly, as I sat and I was having this conversation with God, I was like, Whoa, God have literally put you in a box, and I'm having these expectations of others. But as I sat and God just started to speak with me, I realized that healing started, you know, those attachment wounds, just realizing all of that started to just uh strip layers and layers and layers of attachment wounds. The truth is psychologically, many of us develop anxious attachment patterns because of inconsistent love, abandonment, rejection, criticism, betrayal, or emotional neglect, and so we become hyper aware in relationships, so we find ourselves overthinking text, fear, disconnection, we need constant reassurance, we fear disappointment, we struggle to trust consistently, and sometimes we unconsciously expect another human being to regulate all our emotional pain, but no human can carry that responsibility perfectly. That pressure eventually breaks relationships because what we are truly longing for is emotional safety and ultimate emotional safety, my friends. It is only found in God, or it can only be found in God first and foremost, and it is not because people are unnecessary, but it is because God must become the foundation before our external relationships can become healthy, and so we need to get to that space where we stop asking humans to be God. I realize that sometimes I am expecting people to do what only God can do. I never wanted people to never disappoint me, I never wanted people to never understand me, never trigger me, never hurt me, always know what I need emotionally, but again, humans are imperfect, and sometimes our deepest heartbreaks come from idolizing people emotionally. And that's can't that that can be hard to admit, but emotional idolatry happens, it happens when someone's approval, their presence, attendant, attention, or consistency becomes the source of our stability instead of God, and then when they fail, we collapse emotionally. But the Bible tells us God says, Come unto me. He didn't say come unto people and make them your savior. There are wounds that only God can touch. And if we think about the woman at the well, the woman at the well, she was searching for fulfillment in relationships. I've been there. But Jesus tells her, Whosoever drink of this water shall never um this water shall thirst, that shall never thirst again. And Jesus wasn't referring to to physical water, it was what she was experiencing. It was an emotion, it was it was about emotional thirst, where God was basically saying to her that people can comfort you temporarily, relationships can soothe you temporarily, validation can satisfy you temporarily, but only God satisfies the soul fully. Let me give you the living water so that you will not thirst again. Maybe there has been so many disappointments in your life that you have been afraid to believe or trust or even hope. And I want you to know that that's trauma talking, and trauma it makes hope feel dangerous. I was in a space the other day and I wrote and I said to God, God, I am even afraid of hoping because I've been disappointed so many times, I'm emotionally exhausted because I have been drinking from empty wells, and empty wells have been disappointing me. I've been experiencing so many uh what what we see through our naked lenses, rejection and disappointments. There were so many. And trauma makes hope feel dangerous because when you've experienced repeated disappointment, your nervous system starts protecting you from expectations, and so you stop dreaming, you stop asking boldly, you stop trusting deeply because disappointment feels unbearable, but healing requires vulnerability, and that's where God is calling us. Vulnerability is saying, God, I'm afraid, but I still choose to trust you, and that is faith. And just remember, faith is not the absence of fear, faith is trusting God while fear is still present. One of the names of God throughout scripture is refuge. A refuge is a safe place, it's not a temporary escape, it's a safe dwelling. God is not asking us to suppress our emotions, he's asking us to bring them to him. The Holy Spirit comforts, he teaches, he reassures, he convicts gently and restores identity, and healing begins when we stop performing strength and start practicing surrender. And so this morning, I want to encourage you. Maybe today you feel emotionally exhausted, maybe you feel disappointed or misunderstood. Maybe you are afraid to trust, you're afraid to hope again, you are tired of carrying emotional pain silently. God wants you to know this morning that He's not angry with your struggle, He understands your humanity, and He is patient while teaching you how to heal. You're not too much for God. You are deeply loved, you are fully known and fully loved by God, and so the Holy Spirit is calling you this morning into that place where He wants you to release the unhealthy emotional dependence on other human beings because other human beings are flawed and they're imperfect, and it is quite possible that those human beings that we are so dependent on to meet those needs that only God can meet, they too are probably having the same expectations of us, where they too are emotionally exhausted, and they are even looking to us too to meet those needs. But only God can meet those needs, and he is calling you this morning. Move away from that place where you're expecting things from an imperfect person. He doesn't want you to live in that place um of expecting from these from imperfect human beings. He is your safe place. The Bible tells us that he is our refuge and strength, he is a very present help in times of trouble. Your trouble today may look like emotional exhaustion, and he is calling you to say, Come, my daughter, come, my son, I am your safe place. The Holy Spirit wants to heal your heart, he wants to release you from the fear and the anxiety and the emotional exhaustion where you can get to the place where you can trust him again, where you can hope again, where he where where you you you become whole. But he wants your honesty this morning, he wants you to come to him. The Bible reminds us seek first the kingdom of God, and all other things shall be added. He wants you to seek him first, he sees you in those moments of emotional exhaustion. I mean, it is okay. Jesus experienced exhaustion, David experienced exhaustion, Elijah experienced exhaustion after having a mountaintop experience. Elijah was like, Okay, God, this is it. I am tired. Take me now. I want to die, I don't want to be alive, but in that moment, God didn't um God didn't um curse him out, God didn't turn his back on him. Instead, God wasn't mad at him. Instead, what God did, God called him into a place of rest, and what God did was God fed him. You know, God just got the Holy Spirit. I imagine in that moment, the Holy Spirit just wrapped up Elijah in his comforting arms and brought him comfort and encouraged him and strengthened him for the journey. And that is where God wants to take us. That's God, that's what God wants to do for you today. And God is just so amazing. As I sat and I wrote the other morning, I was like, God, I thank you that you see me, I thank you that you know me, I thank you that you hear me. And I said to God, I said, God, I pray that every single person that I have been having these expectations from poor oh my God, help them to forgive me. And I said, Daddy, I'm so sorry for humanizing you because we humanize God, we put God in this little box, so we humanize God and we make people, we turn people into gods, and we have these high expectations of people, and we should have these expectations high expectations in God. He is our provider, he is our father, he is our protector, way maker, miracle worker, he is God, omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresence. And so this morning I pray. Maybe I was a little bit all over the place with the episode, but I am just flowing as the Holy Spirit leads, and maybe this is just for one person, but God is just inviting you into that place and that space. Be honest with him so that he can heal every wounded place within you, he can restore your ability to trust, he can renew your mind, he can teach you secure attachment, he can teach you healthy love, he can teach you how to stop seeking your identity in people and rest securely in him. Hallelujah, Father. I want to thank you, Daddy, for meeting us here today. Thank you for your loving kindness, thank you for your tender mercies, thank you for your grace, thank you for your favor, God, thank you for understanding us. The Bible tells us, I mean, in Psalms it says that God knows our innermost parts. Oh my god, and I want to thank you, God. Thank you for loving us in our weakness, in our in the confusion, in the fears and the emotional struggles. Father, we ask you this morning to heal every place within us, restore our ability to trust, renew our minds, daddy, renew our hearts, teach us healthy love, teach us secure attachment, teach us, God, how to stop seeking our identity in people and rest securely in you, Lord. Break every false belief system that have been shaped by trauma, rejection, abandonment, and this disappointment, and remind us daily, Daddy, that we are loved, we are chosen, we are seen, and we are never alone. And the other day, as I wrote to you, God, I just told you how good it feels to be known and to be loved and to be seen and to be chosen by you. Like it is such a beautiful feeling, like even just praying, even in this moment right now, it is just bringing those little butterflies in my stomach. My God, I pray, oh God, that this morning you will encounter somebody as they listen to this podcast episode, Abba Father, and they will feel you. Oh my god, they will experience you, they will encounter you in a different way, God, that will totally transform their life, Abba Father. And God, I just love on you and I just big you up, Daddy God. You are just so amazing, and I thank you, oh God, for the word that you have started in every single listener and knowing fully well that you will see it until completion, until the day of Jesus Christ. We love you, Daddy, and we tell you thanks in Jesus' name. Amen. I want to thank you for joining me for another episode of the Beautiful Me Empowerment Ministry Podcast. If this episode blessed you, share it with someone who may be struggling silently. And remember, healing is not becoming emotionless, healing is learning that God can hold every emotion safely. I love you all so much. See you for the next episode. And remember, you are good and loved, you are seen, you are heard. I love you, but God loves you even more. Have an amazing day in the Lord.