The Hard Reset: Healing, Balance & Living Fully

In this heartfelt episode of Hold My Stethoscope, Felicia and Brittney open up about life after adversity — the emotional highs, the unexpected lows, and the challenge of finding balance after everything changes.

From navigating health struggles and emotional exhaustion to learning how to reconnect with joy, this episode is an honest conversation about healing in real life. They discuss the pressure of balancing responsibilities while still making space to truly live, laugh, rest, and appreciate the little moments.

Whether you’re moving through grief, burnout, anxiety, illness, or simply feeling stuck in survival mode, this episode is a reminder that it’s okay to slow down, feel deeply, and choose joy anyway.

✨ In this episode:

•  Life after crisis and the emotional “crash” 
•  Why connection and support matter 
•  Learning to live in the moment again 
•  Balancing responsibilities with happiness 
•  Finding gratitude in ordinary days 

🎧 Perfect for healthcare workers, caregivers, survivors, and anyone trying to rediscover themselves after a hard season.

Transcript

SPEAKER_02 0:02

This is Hold My Stethoscope. Hey everyone. Welcome back to Hold My Stethoscope. We took a little bit of a break, but we are back. I'm Felicia. Or I'm Felicia. She might be. I'm a girl Brittany.

SPEAKER_03 0:18

I'm going through it. I'm not Felicia. I'm a girl Brittany and I'm not my girl Felicia. And we are back. We are back. Clearly a little out of practice, but we're back.

SPEAKER_02 0:28

Yeah.

unknown 0:28

We're back.

SPEAKER_02 0:30

So this episode, we are gonna do our favorite part, the whole episode. We are dropping our stethoscopes and we're just gonna open up about our life. So, you know, if you don't like the two of us, maybe you just tune out for this episode. But otherwise, like, well, we're both freaking awesome. You shouldn't, you shouldn't, because we're both awesome, and like you should like hear our shenanigans that are happening in our personal life. So, you know. So the last episode we filmed was a couple weeks ago, and we just both like needed a little reset, and life got super busy, so we uh didn't record for a couple weeks, but we're back. So the last time we were on, we were talking just about like you know, feeling exhausted and just the mental load and kind of everything, you know, kind of just not feeling good or just not feeling normal.

SPEAKER_00 1:26

So just feeling exhaustion, not tired sleepy, but just a combined overload of everything, exhaustion.

SPEAKER_02 1:36

That's how I saw her. Everything. So what's what what's what's the update in these last couple weeks?

SPEAKER_00 1:42

You know, I took some time to reflect, you know, and everybody knows. And I will always tell you, I have so much to be grateful for. I'm so blessed, and I don't take that for granted. So don't please don't misunderstand me. My overload of exhaustion, as I was saying last time, was just, I think, being on this adrenaline high with everything that was going on with my body. And now we are getting to that point where don't you it's absolutely fabulous news. It is amazing. I couldn't ask for better, and this is what I wanted. But it was almost like an adrenaline drop. So it the connections that I had with all the people, all the blessings, all those angels that God sent to me, definitely in my time of need, have done their due diligence, their job that God sent them to do. And then everybody goes back into what they would normally do: everyday family, life, work, and that's the way that it is. But I felt this like loss of connection, this feeling of sadness and alone. And I couldn't understand why I felt that way, and I felt weird about feeling that way, and it was not something I really wanted to share, but I felt like I needed to share. Somebody benefits from this. I was like, why do I feel this way? And it is honestly a legit feeling. Um, and it happens. So it's sort of like when you dealt with something life-threatening that you really didn't know what the outcome would be. Um, you're on this like high all the time all the time because all the outside noise that you used to feel like this is getting on my nerves or this is bothering me. Oh, why did it was no longer noise that I could obtain. Like I just couldn't hear it because the focus was on getting back. So with the noise being gone and that focus, that's kind of where I was. And now things have quiet down and the noises start to come back. And I think that is where the exhaustion came from. But two weeks later, guys, and you know what? It did me some good just to take some time and just kind of reflect. I feel better because I realized that what I was feeling didn't need to be a loss. It really didn't. It needed for me to just continue to do those things without the attention being solely on what's going on with me. You know, but yet I could still continue those connections, you know, um, and have that time with friends and everybody, and not have to feel sad and alone because those same friends, all of you, are still there for me. So I just had to have a little talk with myself and my good Lord above and say, you know what? Yes, you have a lot to be grateful for. And those things don't have to change. And I feel better today, and I think it reflects in my home, in my in my job, in life, and with my friends, because I'm not putting off this energy of sadness, because I don't I don't want to be sad. I have so much to be happy about. And I think it's important to express that. But please, those who are ever out there hearing it and need to hear this, if you do feel sad, like I felt sad, it's okay. It really is. And I didn't think it was, I thought it was weird, but it's not. It's just life and having to now cope with now having that other noise back in there, but kind of eliminating that too, and putting things more on a positive note. So that's kind of where I am today, and I feel really, really good about that. Feel more energetic, and I don't know. So, how about you, Brittany?

SPEAKER_02 6:14

Well, it's kind of funny you're saying that. Like, you know, you you your outside noises were gone for a little while because there was a hyper focus on something else, and then when that quieted down, those noises came back. That's a that's a really like a deep thought. I like that though.

SPEAKER_00 6:32

And it's true though. You know, you don't have time. So with dealing with everything, you all made sure I didn't have time to hear outside noise. It was, I don't know if if you all were keeping it away from me, or because everybody's focus was on making sure that I got the best care. I just didn't hear the outside noises at all. And I have to tell you all, as you know, I'm gonna stop saying it's weird, but a time in my life when it was so meaningful was the best time of my life. You know, like when I was dealing with everything, life was amazing for me. Like, I don't know, like it just was. And life is still amazing, but it's just different, you know, and it doesn't need, it doesn't need to be different the way that I'm really like how I was saying two weeks ago, different, different in the sense of we don't need to concentrate on the nilness, but we can still take away that outside noise. Like those out the outside noises is what exhaust us. I'm I'm sorry. It can really create exhaustion. And I just didn't like that feeling. So I feel better and I'm blocking out the the noise. I'm I'm really I'm trying. It's not always easy, you know.

SPEAKER_02 8:03

So it's kind of like the the the you know, I don't know. I'm you were saying this and I was thinking of the Tim McGraw song, um, Live Like You're Dying. And it's you know, I feel like in a way you kind of that sounds terrible, but you know, you had that like I'm gonna live every day, like it's you know, my last and my you know best life, and then like you weirdly, I don't even know how to say this without probably saying it wrong, but then you like recover and it's like I have to go back to normal life again, like yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 8:41

Brittany said perfect, like that was the perfect way to describe it. I remember saying, you know, what am I saving for retirement for?

SPEAKER_02 8:51

Yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 8:53

I need to live my best life. Now, don't get me wrong, people. You need to live your best life. Like, honestly, tomorrow's not promised to any of us. Yesterday's the past. So we do need to live our life to the fullest. But it's so interesting because now that I am in more of a recovery like stage, I don't think about girl, take out your like those thoughts quickly vanished. Yeah. Yet I still feel like I need to be, I need to live. I want to make sure I'm living, but I already feel that not just me, like we've converted back just that quick to, you know, um, let's just wait till we get this stuff paid off before. Whereas we weren't doing that. You know what I mean? During it was sort of like, this is what we're gonna do. This is the way that it is.

SPEAKER_02 9:47

That's in that yeah, that's such a battle, right? Like now, I like I feel like now that we're talking about it, I'm like, I can understand more and more because you get in that phase where you're just like, yeah, I'm living my best life, and then you have to come back to reality, and you're just like, no, I don't know, this sucks. Like, this sucks, man.

SPEAKER_00 10:06

Like, and it's so crazy, right? Because you're like, I don't want to come back to this, but I don't want to be sick, but I don't want I don't want to come back. I don't want to come back to this. Like, I must have floated in everybody's pool. I'm not kidding. Like, every time you turn around, I was somewhere. I was skating. I mean, I've done so much in such a short period of time. It hasn't even been a year, guys. Mother's Day weekend will be a year. Can you believe it? And I'm just telling you, like, I just think back on how blessed I cannot emphasize, you know, even being in New York and receiving treatment there, my husband and I talk about this often, was probably one of the best times of our lives. It's so bizarre. Like, I'm there for radiation and treatment, but I think we must have gone everywhere in all five bureaus. We were all in Connecticut. We were like living our best lives. I'm not kidding. Like saying, oh my God, I want to do the Michael Jackson thriller parade. I want to be in that. Like that happens every year, October 31st for Halloween. I'm like, yeah, that's that's what I'm saying. I want to be able to do all these things, and I'm gonna do all these things. And that's exactly what I meant and how I felt during it. And then now it's sort of like You go back to reality.

SPEAKER_02 11:34

Go back to reality. Because it's like, how do you find a balance between the two? How do you find a balance between living your best life and being responsible adult? I don't know. Because when you're saying that, like I kind of feel like that was like in my travel nursing life days, like I was on a contract for 13 weeks, so I lived my best life, like for two, three years. Like that's what I did. And then I came back to reality, and I'm like, okay, well, now I have all this debt, and I have to, you know, like we were responsible for that.

SPEAKER_00 12:08

And that's what we right, and that's exactly how it is. Like, I remember saying to my husband, we're gonna sell this house, honey, and we're gonna live downtown or gondo or whatever, whatever. Like, we don't need any of this. Like, I mean, and we don't. I mean, I still feel that way, but nothing's been pursued. Like, it just all just goes silent again. Like, these were all the things you say, I'm gonna do, because I don't know if I'm gonna be around in a year. I mean, and still we don't. So why do we stop?

SPEAKER_02 12:43

I feel like it's trying to find a balance because you can't just like like it's hard because you can't live every day like it's your last, because you have to prepare for the future, but you don't know if you're gonna have a future. So, like, how do you balance that? If anybody knows.

SPEAKER_00 13:00

That's actually a good question, Brittany, because I never expected that in the first place. Which of course always sits now in my head. It's always scary every time I do any kind of testing because it's that fear of my God, what else would they find? You know, then sometimes I wonder. So everything that happens to you isn't always for you. It can sometimes be for those around you for whatever the reason may be. You know, it just depends on how people see things. You know, whatever. And so a big part of me is like, could this be God's way of saying? I I need you to just live life. Yeah, I'm gonna get you through this, but yeah, I don't want you like putting life on hole for this. Here's the bottom line we will forever in life, everybody's gonna be in debt. You can't take it with you. That's the bottom line. It just kind of gets whatever when you pass on, right? So why do we not live our best life? But not always is it about spending money all the time either. Because some of my best life was as simple as floating in everybody's pool. And I'm not kidding, like literally on afloat in the pool. And I thought that was everything. You know, doing that, going skating, like I hadn't been skating in I know 10 plus years, and just getting back out there with people that I hadn't seen in many years that I'd worked with over the years was amazing. Just everything, having a slumber party, like that would have never happened, of course. We know, right? That never happened. Who's having a slumber party? And then it was like at my house, but it was a surprise. Like, I had no idea who was coming and anything about everything was taken care of. Like, just when I reflect back on everything that that I actually experienced in this journey was just absolutely the best ever. And I'm telling you, I can't even, I don't know if I've ever in life felt so free felt like I was on top of the world. And that birthday party was everything. Do you hear me?

SPEAKER_01 15:44

Everything.

SPEAKER_02 15:46

But it's so crazy to believe, like, if all of this feels like it was forever ago, but it wasn't even a year ago. Like it's wild.

SPEAKER_00 15:55

It wasn't even a year ago. It does feel like I know what you mean. I feel that way too. It feels like it was a long time ago, but it wasn't. It's weird. But you know what I did realize is that I wasn't the only one feeling this way. Oh, some of the people in my in the circle with me actually didn't say they felt this way until I said I felt this way. And then they said, Oh my God, I thought it was just me. And I'm like, you felt that way? But I really do believe that it was almost like people took on what was going on with me, even though it wasn't happening in their body, they really did like take it on as if it was. And I do think that it really has exhausted many people. Like just coming down off of the the high in that way, like coming down from all of it. It's like, oh my God, what do we do with ourselves now? That's what it is. Yeah. It's interesting. It is.

SPEAKER_02 17:06

It's okay. I thought, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 17:08

It's been a very interesting couple years, so like it's but I do say I still believe in my heart everything happens for a reason. And the journey that I am on it's so hard sometimes to describe it. And the people that are in my life, God put them there. A hundred percent. And most of us did not ever see, even prior, that they would be in my life or I would be in theirs. I mean, you can honestly say you never would have. We, you know, I saw you at work, I mean, it was my educator. Yeah, like Exactly. Who knew? Who knew? Right. Nobody could have said, oh, you and Brittany gonna be like just other than like probably not. You know, like Brittany was having a ball. I was like, I'm gonna, probably not. I mean, I like her, but probably not. But who knew? Like, that's what I'm saying. And then God bringing you into my life and the way it happened. I remember you dashing out of the office saying, Oh, have you been? I'm like, okay. It was so interesting. And then that right there was the beginning of us.

unknown 18:36

Right there.

SPEAKER_03 18:36

This amazing friendship that we like have now. Right.

SPEAKER_00 18:40

Like nobody would have, I never, I said, I say Britney King there for me. But you know, you don't know why, but like I put her there, but you you have to go through other people first to meet the person that you're really there for. No lie. Like, you're gonna go through with other people, and then you're gonna meet the person that you're supposed to that is oftentimes never expected, like seriously. And then look at the people that we've become like closer with in our in our group. You know what's interesting about it, and I thought about this was when I started in the position, was when you had decided. I think that all of us need to come together and clap. It is so weird, right? The time never like it's all God's timing.

SPEAKER_02 19:34

But that's what it is, it's all God's timing. Like you know, we're just limiting over here, and he's the one like steering the ship, so staring the ship, kind of. I'm with you. It's all like it's just uh whatever is supposed to be will be, and God will put it there when it's supposed to be there. And so, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 19:52

And remove those who are not supposed to be, no matter how hard you are trying to keep them in your circle. God is like, mm-mm, I hear things you don't hear, I know things you don't know, and I'm going to remove this person out of your circle. They've done their time with you, their seasons passed. And that is something that I I am always learning. Because, you know, you don't sometimes, you know, you're sometimes in shock with just kind of how people could be in your circle for like every day, all the time, for years, and suddenly no more. Yeah. It it's, you know, and then you're like questioning, but you don't need to question because you don't God hears everything, God sees everything, you don't.

SPEAKER_02 20:51

Yeah. So I think that's it too, because you like you question things, but like at the end of the day, like we're not meant to question, we're just meant to say, okay, you you know best, God. I trust you. Yeah. But it's crazy. I was gonna ask you like earlier offline, but have you gotten your test results back yet?

SPEAKER_00 21:12

Not for the MRI. So, guys, I did an MRI on Thursday, but I was even told by the MRI tech that it's taken like a week. I've actually heard two weeks prior to that. I keep looking with hopes that somebody will say, you know, but let me go ahead and read these results. But you know what? It's for some reason a really busy season right now in some hospitals. I mean, like, I don't know what's going on, but like I was at one of the hospitals on Saturday, I just went by there, and um, I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I was so busy. It was really busy. And so I just think things are busy right now, and I'm just trying to be patient. But I will tell you this, I have not had Creon in over a week, which is huge for me. I couldn't go. I couldn't go at all. And that occurred because the pharmacy had to actually, they didn't have it in and they needed to get it in. So that was just gonna be like a day. And I was very, very nervous. I was like, like I haven't been without this creon. Like, you have to know that I don't go let along a day, like, not a meal, not a snack. Like every time I was popping creature. So I was a little nervous when she said it. And she asked me, she said, Well, do you want us to send it to another pharmacy? And I was like, No, I I think I'll be okay till tomorrow. And then the next day I received a text from the pharmacy saying that they still didn't get them in and that it was gonna be another day. And I'm like, my God. So then next thing you know, it's three days and I'm great. And then it's a week. And I picked it up when they came and I still have them, but I have not. Wow. So I am very, very happy with that because I what I have to be honest, was worried that that would be something I would be on for the rest of my life. And look at God.

SPEAKER_02 23:13

When do you have your follow-up with the the oncology teams?

SPEAKER_00 23:17

Um next month for MSK in New York. I will have a um follow-up with them. And I see my oncologist here every six weeks anyway, because we have to flush my porch every I go to the infusion center. I'd rather go there and just get it flushed or whatever. So I go every six weeks. But hopefully they will get these results in, and that will define more of what's going on with the vessels with the tumor. But I feel in my heart like what tumor? Like, what tumor? I honestly feel like me. I do. I feel like me again, and I'm like ready to just bust out and just I'm telling you guys we need a big party. Like what when this stuff is finalized, I'm no, I want to rent a venue. I want a DJ. I want all out people dressed nice. And I just want us all to celebrate.

SPEAKER_02 24:18

Okay, so this is really a side note, but you made me think about this. So we went, we were like shopping the other day, and we were at, I don't know, TJ Maxx or Ross, one of those places, and I saw this gorgeous. I was like, I love, I was like obsessed with it, this gorgeous dress. But I was like, I'm gonna wear that. Like, you know, I was like, it's gorgeous. And you made just me think, but I was like, I could have got that dress and worn it. Telling you now.

SPEAKER_00 24:44

I know I gotta go back. I gotta go back and see if they still have it. Oh, yeah. You know they don't keep things, so you have to run and get it back because I'm telling you, and I'm and I said this even after my my birthday party. I was like, this that was an amazing celebration. I said, but guys, when this is all said and done with, we are celebrating. We are partying, like, I don't know what. It's it's it needs to be one big old shindig, and we're celebrating everybody because everybody plays such a significant role in this, and I'm not just saying it. Like, just when I think back, the things that were done, you know, people were bringing food and sending things and just the love and support. I'm like, we are all celebrating this because it was a lot on all of us.

SPEAKER_02 25:43

I can't wait. It's gonna be so fun. I can't wait.

SPEAKER_00 25:46

We could dress Brittany. I know.

SPEAKER_02 25:47

I gotta go back and get her.

SPEAKER_03 25:48

Be like, I have an excuse to wear that now.

SPEAKER_00 25:50

You're gonna wear that dress. I'm telling you right now, you're wearing that dress. So it's gonna happen. I'm gonna start looking for then you, I'm not kidding. I don't know if it'll be. I would like to do it maybe by my birthday. Uh let's see. I don't know, but I I'm gonna want it, huh?

SPEAKER_02 26:08

Yeah, definitely. I would feel like by August for sure. Yes.

SPEAKER_00 26:11

I it need so it when I get these results from this MRI, we'll you and I will figure out a plan. We are going to. I love party planning. Let's do it, girl. I can't wait. Yes, don't wait because that thing will be gone.

SPEAKER_02 26:28

But you know what? Also, I'm just thinking about this now, too. I was like, my mom's gonna come meet you in person too.

SPEAKER_03 26:36

Mama Bear, when it's coming, you're you'll get to come dotted to me.

SPEAKER_00 26:40

I cannot wait. Oh, see, that's what I'm saying. Yeah, I love this. I love it. I absolutely love it. Um, it's gonna happen. Like, we are still living. We it's gonna happen.

SPEAKER_02 26:54

Oh, yeah. It's not like it's not a matter of if it's a matter of when it's gonna happen.

SPEAKER_00 26:57

Everybody know what you're ever listening, because all are invited. Get your dress or your pants or your whatever, but we're gonna be dressed to the nines when we come. It's gonna be like a Met Gala. Be ready. Oh, I love it. Like a Met Gala. Oh, Brittany, we gotta think of a thing. I love it. Oh my God.

SPEAKER_02 27:20

It's gonna be so fun.

SPEAKER_03 27:21

I literally can't. And now I can't wait. See, you give me something to look forward to, too.

SPEAKER_00 27:27

God, look, I want everybody to know. I'm telling you, everybody's invited. If you listening or you listen to us, you're invited. Yeah. We're partying. We're excited. Okay, guys. To the utmost, to the fullest. We're gonna have a blast. So get ready. Learn your line dances, learn whatever it is you need to learn. But we're partying.

SPEAKER_02 27:52

That's exciting. I'm so excited.

SPEAKER_00 27:55

We get you taking and everything.

SPEAKER_02 27:57

Ooh, a little photo booth. Ooh.

SPEAKER_00 27:59

Yes.

SPEAKER_02 28:00

We got this.

SPEAKER_00 28:01

I'm excited, guys. I'm excited. I'm excited for us. I am.

SPEAKER_02 28:06

It's all for you, but yes, for all of us too. It's gonna be fun.

SPEAKER_00 28:10

Yes.

SPEAKER_02 28:10

Yeah. I'm excited to get your results now and see them.

SPEAKER_00 28:14

These are the things that are uplifting. Gives us something to look forward to. I just didn't feel that way two weeks ago. And I'm so glad to have gotten out of that. So don't get me wrong. There are days I still be like, but then I I come back around. I really, really do. And that's my goal is, you know what, building, building on it and just not feeling that sentence and being like, okay, you want to go get a cup of coffee? Or you want to go to TJ Maxx, Brittany? Or that's our thing. That's our thing. So I'm just saying, floating in the pool with this person, going out with this person, going to dinner with whatever. Guys, let's continue to do it. We don't need to stop these things just because your girl over here is the her.

SPEAKER_02 29:10

Yeah, we gotta um I know. Speaking of that, I was like, we need to plan our next little like dinner thing. We do.

SPEAKER_00 29:16

We do. And and we do. We I think we've been doing pretty good. We were doing think about it. We were doing those even during and those are the things that we need to continue to do. Because I think we all need that. We do. We need time and just, you know, to be able to chit-chat and talk with one another and sometimes vent and you know, kiki and whatever.

SPEAKER_02 29:42

And well, yeah, I was like, I was telling her too. I was like, you know, I was like, you talked about it a couple weeks ago, and then I was like, last week I was feeling it too. And you know, like we've our other friends, you know, appreciating different things, and like, you know, everybody kind of goes through things at different points, and it's just important to be there for each other because they do it. It doesn't matter who you are, somebody's yeah, somebody's going through something.

SPEAKER_00 30:06

Always. So just knowing that you have friends to be like, look, guys, I'm feeling sad. Like, I don't know why I feel this way. Help, like, in some way or whatever. Sometimes it just helps to just talk about like what you're feeling and get it, get it out.

SPEAKER_02 30:23

Feeling 90% of problem problems are like just just talking about it, just getting it off your chest. That's what it is. People feel better. It's like, oh, I don't have to hold this weight myself. Like, I can just like spill it out, and then it's just like you, you're just like, okay, I can breathe again.

SPEAKER_00 30:44

You know why? Because what happens is when you're already feeling overwhelmed or sad about things, things pile on that really aren't any different than what they've been, and but you exasperate, like you make it huge because you're just stressed out, like, or you're just you know, exhausted as as I was, you know. You know, and you will have to remind me of these things, Brittany, when I come back and say again, I just haven't been feeling, you know what I mean? Like you need those reminders. Uh it's okay.

SPEAKER_03 31:18

Girl, we all take turns. We do, we do, it's so funny.

SPEAKER_00 31:22

We do, we do all take turns. It's it's so funny.

SPEAKER_01 31:27

We're like, this person's down this week, this person's down this week. Yeah, I it's like a trickle.

SPEAKER_02 31:35

It is, it is. We like to take turns in our little group, uh just you know, having mental breakdowns every other week, so it's fine. But we all rally.

SPEAKER_03 31:43

We're all good at the end of the day. It's just you know. It's true.

SPEAKER_00 31:46

It is so true, you know. Um, but it does make you feel better about everything pretty much in life. Things that you really just couldn't see being any better. It's like you don't even need to stress about it when you're feeling good. You know, it's just you Yeah, you know, like you're like, No, okay, that's fine. Whatever. You know? And I like that. I like it when I'm that girl. I don't wanna be. I wanna be, you know. Because honestly, nothing's gonna change. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 32:20

Same. So I got you, girl. I I feel like I actually do that a lot, but there are definitely times where it gets to me too, and I'm just like, no, yeah, we're pretty good about for the most part, yeah. I feel like I'm I have a very laid back personality in general.

SPEAKER_00 32:37

Yeah, yeah, just 55,000 jobs. Like, I'm like, I don't know how this girl is doing this. Well, how come she's not tired? I'm exhausted. Why is she not tired?

SPEAKER_02 32:47

I'm tired, I'm tired, and I don't even have two, and she's got like okay, so that's a good segment because like whenever we filmed our last podcast, like I was like, okay, yeah, yeah. You know, like I had the energy and you were just like, I'm down. And then I feel like it flipped because last week I was just like, I'm like, Well, what can I do?

SPEAKER_03 33:11

I'm overwhelmed. It's too much. I don't know what's going on right now. You haven't been overwhelmed.

SPEAKER_00 33:17

I don't understand. Like, I'm overwhelmed. I'm like, ah, is she keeping up well?

SPEAKER_02 33:22

I yeah, it is because I I just feel like for the most part, like I just try to try is the optimal world to keep things like sort of segmented and like knowing where I focus is at. But yeah, I have a I have a lot, and it got to me last week because I was like, I don't have any time to like reset and recharge my battery. Like I'm constantly doing something for something. Like I have um obviously my everyday normal job, the nurse educator, and you know, do that four days a week.

SPEAKER_01 33:57

And a lot of people, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 34:00

That that's a large job. I do a lot of, you know, also system level things and and you know, work at a very busy ER. So and I love it. It's great. I I absolutely do. But you know, exhausting. And then I do my clinical instructor job for one of the universities around here. This term I haven't been, I've just been picking up days, but like that's usually one day a week, and then I have MedMac CDU and I do TNCC classes.

SPEAKER_00 34:31

I adding ENPC, like it's just growing.

SPEAKER_02 34:36

Yeah, no, so yeah. If you need TNCC, obviously come see me. I'm also adding ENPC, so that's but another thing is I have to get, I was having to reach out and schedule time to become a course director for ENPC, so I can start offering that through my company. So scheduling that, because that's another four days that I have to take out of my schedule to go get that, you know, director status. I also been kind of at the national level with ENA. I did the TNAC or the Trauma Nursing Advanced course, which was wonderful. And I mean, I'm very, very lucky that I am. I did that. That was when I went to Dallas in January to do that class. And then they they asked, you know, they were like, Do you want to be an instructor? So I said, Yes. So I'm going literally, okay, so it's kind of funny because I'm actually going on vacation, but usually we do an annual like family vacation because my family's all in New York. I'm the only one now down here in Florida. So we usually like rent a house in the Outer Banks for a week over the summer. So we're going to do that in a couple weeks, like mid-May. Okay. And it's literally this is where my schedule is just my brain hurts too, because two days before we go on vacation is when the course is in Chicago. So I go from whatever I'm doing here to Chicago for two days to North Carolina. So, but it's gonna be okay because that's my relaxed time. That's true. That you have something to look forward to. I do, but I was like, that's another two days I had to I had to find a schedule for, and then I did the NTEP. Um, I'm doing that instructor course too. So like that was more time I had to find around. I try to accommodate people as best I can with TNCC requests. I'm doing like another course this Saturday because somebody couldn't do the last course I had. So like there is that people pleasing part of me, but also like trying to make smart business decisions, trying to, you know, continue to make customers happy so they come back. But that's that I mean, having to schedule all of these other things, it's exhausting. Plus, trying to keep up with like social media is honestly like a full-time, like literally a full-time job. So I've been really trying to like build my social media presence um and helping grow Med Max because of that. I've been doing like some other like you know, user-generated content things, working, you know, kind of like behind the scenes with a lot of different things with that. And so having, you know, posting every day and filming videos and like answering people's messages and trying to like that's I mean, that's honestly it's a lot, it's a lot. And then I I also I don't know if I've said it on this podcast before, but I also got my real estate license.

SPEAKER_01 37:31

That's right.

SPEAKER_02 37:32

Sometimes I'm like, what are you doing with your life over here? I don't even know.

SPEAKER_00 37:36

So I've been trying to kind of like the course sitting there.

SPEAKER_02 37:40

Yeah, you just gotta get it gotten done. So this is that's me and Felicia's next career is real estate.

SPEAKER_00 37:45

So I need to get it done because I don't know I can sell a house, honey.

SPEAKER_02 37:50

Yeah, so like I'm dipping my feet in. I've obviously got way too much on my plate. So I'm like dipping my feet in, but not like full on real estate. So I'm just kind of doing referral-based stuff right now and trying to really focus on like healthcare providers that are relocating to Florida and then trying to help them the best I can with some you know inside knowledge.

SPEAKER_00 38:11

Relocation. Somebody told me that you were doing, they were actually inquiring about it. Son son and mother said they were saying Britney needs to find somebody to rent my house or something. They were saying, like, you know, like, yeah, let's let's let's do it, girl.

SPEAKER_02 38:32

Let's talk on the outside. Yeah, so I got a lot of things, and then I was no, I think I told you that we might have talked about it last course or offline, I don't know, but CN is my next project. Really need you to give that. Yeah, that's after ENPC and I get that up and going. My next project is to get I mean really to that point of my cause you need to teach this shock that you love. I love shock. So one of the trauma lectures is we talk about shock, and I just love it because for the long for the longest time, like being in the ER, you hear about shock, it seps us all. Oh yeah, and like you kind of understand it, but I don't think you fully understand it.

SPEAKER_00 39:19

That's what I'm saying. Like, I'd be the first to say, okay, yeah, I know like with shock, we think of like hypotension and we think, you know what I mean? But no, it's it's more in depth. I need to understand it the way I now understand EKGs and interpreting them rhythms and doing them make a codes. Like, that's how passionate I need to feel about shock. Yeah, and I'm not there, and I can admit it. Like, because it just it's like when you're reading it though, you're like, oh, okay. But no, I needed this stick, and it's just going to take a method that somebody's gonna use that it'll stick, like it did for me with EKGs. Like I was taking them for 20 plus years. It was like I would learn it, dump it, learn it, dump it, and then one day.

SPEAKER_02 40:13

But it's like the other thing is I've been like one of my biggest hacks per se for learning things is teaching it. Like, and I think that's what came from you. It's like you learn one, see one, teach one, but when you teach it and you keep having to say it and repeat it, right? There's something that clicks and you're like, oh, and then it finally makes sense to you so that you can start having it hopefully make sense to others.

SPEAKER_00 40:39

No, you're right, because that's exactly what happened. It was I was actually like not teaching a class, but like teaching some team members. And then I just felt like, girl, you got this. Like it just really clicked for me. And I felt like I am so eager to want to give this this to somebody else. I want them to feel as passionate about the blocks as I do because people hate them. And I'm like, you hate them because you are not comfortable. Remember what our boy said. When you're not comfortable with something, you have a tendency to stray like push, push back. And it's true, and this is why I want to start getting my feet a little more in with these pediatric, because it's it's not a comfort. I'd be the first I've done adults my whole nursing career. So when I think about the children, love the kids, but it's a fear because they're small little humans and I don't want to hurt them. Adults, you inflict your own pain half the time. But these maybe these babies don't. So I need to get past that fear by doing, by jumping and by getting more involved, just like with EKG. And that's how it's gonna need to be with shops. I can't wait for the CE interview. Maybe I'll go take it. Who knows?

SPEAKER_02 42:07

Excited, because I mean I still have a really big passion for like especially emergency. Like, that's obviously my thing. That's it. Because I have a passion for it, and I and it's kind of like you, like I wanna like give people knowledge and give them information that's hopefully relatable. Like, I feel like when I teach, I try to make it relatable and make it so and try to break it down to make it make sense for people. I mean, you're obviously not gonna be 100% of the time, but like that's when go.

SPEAKER_00 42:38

And I think as an emergency room nurse, you already understand how emergency room nurses have a tendency to think like a true emergency room, like because we're like visual people can't give us too much because they didn't, the ADHD and stuff sits in, and we just, honey, it's gone. Like all that, you gotta give us just enough. But enough to get it and remember, like that's how it has to be. It can't be too much verbiage, it can't be just reading off stuff. And I don't think that you, I don't feel like you do that anyway. I can't.

SPEAKER_02 43:13

So, like when I do stuff or when I try to like make stuff, you know, infographic, whatever it is that I'm trying to make, like I keep myself in mind because I have like ADHD, and I'm like, if there's too much going on or and then there's too much, I like I can't focus on it. So like I try to make stuff that I know I can read because I feel like I'm a pretty typical ER nurse, and I'm like, no, I just like we can't handle that.

SPEAKER_00 43:40

So this is what I'm saying. Like, I'm getting that fever again, and I go through this. This is what's bad. I get a fever, I get this fever of like, okay, I'm gonna do this. And then I start to read the material, and then I get bored. So I just feel like I need you to go ahead and get started. Real soon with this CEO where I'm still feeling this fever. Yeah. But I like I want it, but I I just don't make it past so many pages.

SPEAKER_02 44:12

So my goal is to have like a study guide, but my like my actual goal is to do micro videos, so like a one-hour videos on each topic and kind of go through it that way so people can watch the different topics whenever. But that obviously is gonna take a little bit of planning and time. So I will I will get there, Felicia. I'll promise you, girl. I don't need you to start with shock. I love shock. I do. I love shock because I love CNA and I like being able to try to explain it to people now.

SPEAKER_00 44:40

I didn't know that till the day you was teaching a class. And you goes, I love and I'm like, and I'm looking, I'm looking, I'm looking at Nicole like she loves shock. And Nicole. And I'm like, I'm like, well, I'm gonna need you to make sure that we love shock. Like, tell us what it is that's making you love shock. Cause I wanna love it too. Yeah, because I do feel like it is a you know a big part of it. I want to make sure that I'm real comfortable with it. Like, seriously. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 45:15

Well, that reminds me too. So I've been also, you know, kind of using my resources within the emergency nurses association. So I've been um me and Florida, I we know this, but me and Felicia are both based in Florida, you know, or in Tampa, Florida, with our Florida Nurses Association, Emergency Nurses Association. I am actually going to be presenting a pediatric education topic for FINA, which is the Florida Emergency Nurses Association, in August. So as the date gets closer and we, you know, get more information, I'll share it on our like social media pages and obviously my own social media page. But yeah, I'm I'm excited about that too. Yeah. I don't know, girl. I'm I don't know. I mean, I told you, I've been doing all these things because I have these big lofty goals and aspirations. But you're gonna get tired sometimes.

SPEAKER_00 46:06

Well, you won't have too much because you are doing a spade to spade. You are doing it like it's it's tweeting it to me. Maybe I'll gain some more, you know, energy to to want a little more because I'm feeling a little better about something that I'd share with you like a while ago that I didn't necessarily feel maybe was my fit, but I just think I was feeling resistant. You know, sometimes you just feel resistant when but when things feel good, you like, I got this. You know what I mean? Because it is alright, enjoyable.

SPEAKER_02 46:42

Yep. That's and that's what I think it is, is because like the things that I'm like pouring into now are things that I actually really love and things that are really enjoyable to me. I mean, there's times where like it is a job and like I'm exhausted by it, but it's still like I'm doing right now and I'm on a path right now of doing what I really want to do. And it was funny because I was talking to this uh gentleman about his like one of his Facebook groups and you know, potentially advertising and doing that stuff on there, and like we got on a call and he was just like, he's like, I looked at your profile, he's like, How are you doing everything? And I was like, Some days I'm not doing it well, but I know right now, like it's like hustle mode, you know. It's like I'm like, I I'm doing all of this right now because I see the future. Like I'm I'm hustling right now so that in a couple years I can relax because I can hopefully have built my brand and my business and kind of be where I want to be. Because it's like you said, most of the time it doesn't necessarily feel like a job because it's just stuff I like to do. I like to keep doing it, show. Yeah, I love emergency medicine. I love talking about trauma, I love taking about pediatrics, like I love doing that stuff, so it doesn't feel like a job to me, but it is a lot, and like that's when I get overwhelmed.

SPEAKER_00 48:08

You're also fast with it once you set your mind to what it is that you're doing. Like, we we're gonna be having something in the future coming up. And then it was like, I knew you were like, Yeah, I'm gonna go ahead and put this together. I didn't expect what I received. And I was like, hey, let me just go ahead and put this, like, keep bringing, keep bringing it on. I mean, like, just that quick, bam. Like, it was all done. So I do feel like your your passion for it, and then you just zone in and you just get it done.

SPEAKER_02 48:48

I mean, well, that's one of those things with like ADHD people, like they really hyper focus. That's true. It's like when you get hyper-focused, you get hyper-focused. And like that's what happens to me sometimes. It's like I'll be so distracted, but once I get focused, like I'm in the zone. Like, I go for it. And that's hard because I'm not sure.

SPEAKER_00 49:08

But that's true because in a sense though, because when you're passionate about it, like everybody knows to reach out for you. Like, no matter how much we have been talking about pediatrics, you know, throughout the system, I still just come to you. Like, that's kind of where I lean and zoning, I feel like you're very passionate about it. And that for others, not knocking anybody, it can sometimes just kind of be like a job. Like it's a part of, and I don't want that. Like, I want to know like from somebody that's passionate because I'm fearful of that area because I'm not comfortable with it. So I need to have somebody that is that loves what it is that they are doing with that. And that is like your baby. That is something separate than the rest of us educators really kind of have, even if pediatric are seen and are it's not the same. It's different. Like yours, yours is more it's different. So I love that because I'm always like when they ask a question, you guys should ask Britney. When it comes to stuff like that, or I will ask Brittany, you know.

SPEAKER_02 50:27

What's happy to be a resource? Like, and that's why, like, even when I'm not working, like I'm always kind of working. I I actually am though, and on my vacation to the Outer Banks, I'm actually disconnecting. Like, I might turn my phone off a whole time. And you need to be there because I do need to recharge a reset. Because I am also the type of person that I'm like, if you have a question, like I can be a resource for you because I always preach, like, know your resources, and I can be that person, reach out to me. But you know what? I mean, I'll do it. Like, right.

SPEAKER_00 51:01

I want everybody to be comfortable as much as I can. And if we need a resource in your absence, there's gotta be somebody else there that can somewhere. You know, I'll call, I'll call my girl. Don't get it twisted. You know, so honestly, you have to disconnect. That's you know what? I can thank you for that because you remember I was the work-life balance really wasn't good for me. And now I don't even pop it open on a weekend or or on my day. Like, no, no. I mean, no, no. I actually told somebody and I felt a little weird. They texted me about something on my day off, and I was like, Well, I'm actually off today. Like, it was one of them. I said, but you can go on to this page and this is where that is found. Like beforehand, I probably would have been like, given all the details. I didn't go here. And and by the way, oh, this is what it is no more. I'm trying to I am trying to teach independence, you know, because that is something that seems to have been lost.

unknown 52:12

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 52:12

Because we've been providing these things, and we don't realize that we are hindering people by not having them read where you know what I mean, like the instructions are there, but they just really want you to tell. So I get people that'll be like, and what was the education for? And I'm like, it's posted on. So if you go here, find out half of my team members had the channel it was hidden. No wonder you don't know what that, you know what I mean? So that was a little educational moment. But I think I think that we're there. Cause I'm I'm that's that's a goal. Is to make them more independent and so that I can trust them in advance.

SPEAKER_02 53:02

That is the goal is to teach people to fish, right? It's like you teach them to fish so they know where to go.

SPEAKER_00 53:08

Yeah, you're talking to a girl who before coming into this job right here, I only knew how to get to my Outlook emails. Then don't ask me nothing else. Don't I'm not building, I don't build spreadsheets. What are you talking about? Look, to now, me and Microsoft, I got you, Microsoft. Literally, we might be at that, honey. I mean, seriously. I can be whatever. A few years ago, just had me check my emails. That's it. But so I know I've come a long way with that. So I'm gonna need everybody else to grow with me, keep growing. You're sex with me sometimes. It's crazy. It's but it's true. It's true.

SPEAKER_02 53:48

Oh, I forgot. So my brain, I this also though what happens is my brain gets really scattered. But there's too much in there. Yeah, there's there's a lot in there, there's a lot going around. But uh Tony and I, Tony, my boyfriend, um, our anniversary is this weekend. So we are I try to take off most of this weekend, but we are gonna do I think we're gonna do Disney one of the days this weekend. So that's gonna be also a nice little reset. And I'll try to like really be present because um, yeah, like that's been another great, you know, piece of a person coming into my life that I wasn't expecting a couple of years ago now.

SPEAKER_00 54:28

And remember, you was like, I just can't. I was there was rough, there was wrong. And and then suddenly.

SPEAKER_01 54:39

I know.

SPEAKER_02 54:41

Look at that, but yeah, like you're saying, people come into your life for a reason, and it wasn't I just had to wait for the right moment.

SPEAKER_00 54:48

I wasn't ready before, so wait for the right moment. And look at that. Are you both like Disney people?

SPEAKER_02 54:54

So it's so funny. When I first met him, he had never been to Disney, and now like I took him actually last year for our anniversary. We went for the first time, and then he's like, and then we got season passes, so we've been we now go to Disney Pass holders. He loves it. I feel like sometimes he's like, So should we go to Disney this week? I'm like, yes, yes, we should.

SPEAKER_00 55:19

My god, I love it. You love it. I love it.

SPEAKER_02 55:21

I also was like, Oh, I need somebody who loves Disney. Like, I'm a Disney adult, I'm not afraid to admit that. I love Disney, like it's nostalgic. It just brings me back to like that fun time in my childhood. I love it. I love it. I love going to Disney, and I was like, Oh, you need somebody who like can understand that passion in me. And he's a Disney guy too now, so it's crazy.

SPEAKER_00 55:44

Because you presented it to him like you showed him. I don't he never that see, that's the good part about him never going prior because he could have had a bias already. Like, I don't want to go and he didn't know what he didn't know, and then you like show him the fun that a person can have there now. I think you might have a Disney.

SPEAKER_02 56:08

Listen, also out there, if you're listening and you don't like Disney as an adult, I understand it, but you're missing out, man. That's all I gotta say.

SPEAKER_00 56:16

But Brittany, maybe you should tell them what they're missing out because I sort of feel that way myself. Oh my god, no.

SPEAKER_01 56:23

First of all, Disney.

SPEAKER_00 56:26

I think it's because I haven't experienced it like that.

SPEAKER_02 56:30

It's okay, so it's different as an adult than obviously as a kid because A, first of all, you understand a little bit more, and it's not just about the characters, like the characters are around. No, but like the rides are fun, the worlds are fun. Like Disney does such a great job of like the parks are always clean, like you know, they're the customer service is on point, like they're and you know, like you go to the and you immerse yourself in these different like lands and worlds, and it's just the decorations they have, like it's just it's hard sometimes to describe, but like it's just fun, it brings you back to a more like happy, whimsical time. You can go into like the Hollywood Studios as one of our favorite parks because he's a big fan of the right, yeah. I do like I have a whole Star Wars world, you know, and then they have Toy Store. I love Toy Stories, so they have a whole toy world too.

SPEAKER_00 57:27

I do, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 57:28

And you could go, and you know, you can go drinking. This could be like a donkey, honey. Yeah, fun, like it's a day, and it's I will say it's obviously expensive. I have a uh annual pass, so it's not as bad, but you know, I live. I live an hour away. Is it better to have the annual pass? If you go there, so we kind of were talking about it, like we can just if we go once a month, we can justify the cost of our pass. Because like that's basically what it is. Okay. And if you live close enough and you go more than a couple, yeah, I know. I was like, we live a little over an hour away. So I was like, if you go enough, like you're almost like, why wouldn't you? Because it's it's also like just something fun. Like, we honestly we're so blessed here in Hama Bay. We have so much to do. Say the words out of my mouth. We have vacation in our backyard. It's yeah, I mean, we've got no life. We've got fun city things, we've got Disney and I like it's the best. We got 25 million beaches here. It's the best. I like you can't even say it's not. It's the best. I love it here. It is.

SPEAKER_00 58:32

Like, vacation in our backyard, honey. No excuses. That's true. People have to save up.

SPEAKER_02 58:42

But that's what I'm saying. So I'm like, so if you're a healthcare worker and you're looking to come down to Florida, let me know.

SPEAKER_00 58:46

I can hook you up with a girl, it's hustling. Do you hear me? I'm about to be the spokesperson for Britney. I am.

SPEAKER_03 58:55

If Alicia's gonna come by, be the representative of the Britney brand.

SPEAKER_00 59:00

Yes, it's Britney. It's Brittany. Okay, Britney. I got you another person that needs to come to bed. There are people who want to take some of these classes.

SPEAKER_02 59:10

So good, tell them to come on down. And our organization, if you're listening from our organization, it is covered through tuition reimbursement.

SPEAKER_00 59:18

So is it really? Yeah. So you were able to do this through the organization.

SPEAKER_02 59:25

And they team members of our organization can make it outside the system and get reimbursed for the credit. That's true. The outside credit, absolutely, and then they can get tuition reimbursement. Okay. I'm not poaching anybody, but if you want to, obviously, I'm a really fun teacher.

SPEAKER_00 59:41

So And honestly, you're offering it, you know, where it is not offered a whole lot. Yeah. Certain ones aren't. So, you know, I'm excited for you.

SPEAKER_02 59:55

We're just here doing the best, you know, the things you can. I love it. I'm just gonna be able to do that. And I think, you know, moral of the message is if you're tired, it's okay to be tired. It's okay to not be okay, but like, don't wallow in it, you know.

SPEAKER_00 1:00:08

I was a day, boo. Have your day. If you need to cry, have a day. That's what I said.

SPEAKER_02 1:00:14

I said just posted a TikTok earlier, and I was like, all right, I'm gonna talk about some burnout patch for T. And I was like, you know, I was feeling it last week, and then I cried against my boyfriend, got that release, felt better, and I was like, pick yourself up, girl. You're gonna go get yourself tanner on, you're gonna go do your hair, you're gonna put your nails, like you are gonna go feel yourself. And so anybody needs to hear that right now. Wallow, have your mouth, wallow, have your mouth, and then get back on it.

SPEAKER_00 1:00:42

Because that's what I was told with cancer. Have your day, go ahead and cry. But tomorrow we fight. Just don't live there. You can be there for a couple days. Oh no, we can't listen. We don't do the negative lane now. We don't, oh no, no, no, no, no. We need positivity. We both definitely Brittany and I have to have that. We can't be sucked in to the negative because it will really suck the life out of us, and I'm not kidding. So we can all have a glad day, but tomorrow is a new day, and we gotta get up and start our work again.

SPEAKER_02 1:01:20

Yeah. So, well, that's the end of our episode. We literally, I said, I was like, girl, we're just gonna talk about ourselves all day.

SPEAKER_00 1:01:27

But uh we just am glad we did. Thank you guys. We love you dearly, all that's watching, and just get your dresses, pants, whatever, since everything ready, because we're gonna party, everybody.

SPEAKER_02 1:01:41

I can't wait.

SPEAKER_00 1:01:42

I can't even.

SPEAKER_02 1:01:43

We might be talking party planning dress cookie in the next couple months. We're gonna talk party planning. But we'll probably party on the podcast.

SPEAKER_00 1:01:51

Okay. Whatever we need to do, but it's gonna happen. So get your clothes, everybody. I gotta go uh run to TJ Maxx.

SPEAKER_02 1:02:00

I'll see y'all next week.

SPEAKER_00 1:02:01

You sure do because it's gonna be home on it. Look at that. You didn't know that that dress that you saw you really was gonna need. Look at that. True story.

SPEAKER_03 1:02:10

All right, everyone. We'll see you later. Bye, guys.

SPEAKER_00 1:02:14

Bye.