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Episode 26: what fears do you have?

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In this episode we explore our own fears.

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Oh god, like I'm like sweaty. My heart my heart's pounding.

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Oh god, what's wrong with you?

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I'm scared.

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What what are you afraid of?

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Paying taxes.

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Oh shit.

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Same.

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Welcome, everybody, to Comedy Vale Horror Podcast. We are your host. I'm Russ. I'm Tosh. In this week's episode, we are talking about fear.

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Fears.

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A very broad subject.

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Yes.

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Um, but we all have them. Just like uh assholes and elbows, everybody's got at least one.

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That's right.

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Unless well, yeah.

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Maybe you would hope.

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Can you that's almost a fear of mine, is my fear is to not have an asshole.

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Yeah.

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What if what if I didn't have an asshole anymore then Well you'd have a bag which is also a fear of mine. A closed me bag. Oh yeah, for sure. Oh, let's talk about it. So um taxes, that's a huge fear.

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I just like really just paying anything.

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Inflation fear. I actually have my red, white, and blue koozie because I'm afraid of what's gonna happen to the United States of America right now. I'm just fearful of life in general, but I do have like specific um fears that sometimes give me night terrors.

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I had a dream last night. Uh I have a big uh it's like a stock tank that like I have goldfish and stuff in. Like there's nothing in it right now.

SPEAKER_00

Oh yeah, the ones that died and committed suicide?

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Yeah, but fucking I had a dream. I don't know why, but I was carrying this fucking giant like stock tank around like the fucking desert.

SPEAKER_00

Oh my god.

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And it was so fucking like the cause it's metal, yeah, and it was so fucking hot to touch, and I'm like, why the hell am I dreaming about this?

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Why are you in the desert?

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Yeah, exactly.

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That's it. I hate the desert. Did you watch something that made you think of the desert or like well I was I have been watching like the show? Weren't you gonna tell me that you or you were gonna go see some movie?

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Oh, I was well, I might watch it tonight.

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Is it on something to watch at home?

SPEAKER_01

No, it's in the movie theatre.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, the theatre.

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The theatre but no, I did I did see the bride movie.

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Oh, cool.

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Uh with Christian Fail Slater.

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No.

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But it was uh Jeg Gyllenhall's sister directed it.

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Oh, cool.

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So it was like really feminist.

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But you said it was good.

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Yeah, I enjoyed it, but it really it was like two hours. But it really it was entertaining the whole time. But it wasn't like a horror movie.

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Oh.

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But it was funny because the the bride, she was like a a prostitute uh in when she was alive, and then they reanimate her, and she comes back alive and she's still a whore.

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Oh good. But um, speaking of fears in movie theaters, I do enjoy going to the theater, but I always have a fear that I'm going to get bed bugs or some from a fucking movie theater? Like lice. Do you really think that they clean those loungers?

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That was like my first job was working at a movie theater in I'm not gonna say the name of the town, but it's a real little town. Okay and it had two screens. Oh, and it was like the super old school, like uh where the the chairs are like tiny and it's just the little tiny oh like the flip like the flip-down seats?

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, yeah.

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Uh did not have cup holders there, so the floors were perpetually sticky. Yeah. Because it was just slanted. There wasn't like tears or anything. So, like literally everybody spilled their drinks because they had to put it on the floor and it just would go all the way to the front. I think it's like a fucking a thrift store now.

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Like as you walk, you're like, it's so sticky.

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Yeah, exactly. It just everywhere.

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I just came.

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Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

Exactly. It's fucking there's just cum everywhere.

SPEAKER_00

Ew. I mean, that's right, like that's a fear. Like, I don't need to be sitting in other people's chiz. Like, if I go to the theater, I immediately take my clothes off when I get home and like it's like.

SPEAKER_01

Oh, I was I was gonna say, like, why don't you go to the theater and take your clothes off?

SPEAKER_00

I mean, I think that's why people bring blankets though.

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Is like so they don't my my wife always brings a blanket because she's always fucking cold.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, well, I would just put it behind me, like oh and then burn it.

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You bring a plastic tarp. Yeah, and you drape it over.

SPEAKER_00

This is perfect. Thank you. So I probably have some pretty fucking weird like fears, things I'm afraid of.

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Um what did you have a childhood like fear? Like something that like you broke, like where you were like scared of as a kid, but then like as an adult, you're like, why the fuck was I ever scared of that?

SPEAKER_00

No, because I'm still afraid of it. Styrofoam.

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What the fuck?

SPEAKER_00

It's terrifying. Jesus. I'm not kidding. So styrofoam? Yes. So when I was young, I don't know, maybe like three, four. I remember mom took me and brother and sister to a store that was like closing, like a department store.

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Yeah.

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And so everything was like on clearance. And they had all of these huge cardboard boxes of styrofoam peanuts and things that they were putting away. Like to, I'm guessing like the, you know, like the clothing displays and like all that stuff that they were putting it all. And I don't know which one said, Here, Tosh, shove this up your nose. And it was a styrofoam peanut. And I lodged it up my nose and kept sniffing. And it by the time mom figured it out, it was so far lodged up there. And she just kept taking her, she would always put these really long red fingernails. She had great hands, but they were so like skinny and long, and she just kept trying to do it. And I was like freaking out because like I felt like she was going into my brain. And I had to go to the emergency room. And I remember being under like the huge light of the emergency department.

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Yeah.

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So they could see up there. And they took like the longest tweezer and just like pulled it out, but it felt like my brains were coming out with it. So at this point in my life, one would think, as an older lady, um, that I that fear would go away. Uh-uh. I can't touch it. I don't want to touch it. Like they give you the to-go boxes at a restaurant. I'm like, mm, mm-mm. Half the time I don't even take my shit home because I don't want it.

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I I hate the to-go boxes because it always turns your food into shit. Like it steams in there. Remember like the fucking doggy bags? Why did that go away?

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Why you just need a bag? Because they were so flimsy.

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Well, yeah, but you like pour the soup in the bag and then you have a bag of soup.

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Sick. You cut the corner.

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Yeah, exactly. Like it's like icing. What was that thing uh with the fucking the bagged wine, like slap the bag or whatever that kids were doing?

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The Franzia?

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Yeah.

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Oh man. I would use that.

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They were doing like they were like chugging it and like slapping the bag. It was a thing for a while.

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Oh, I don't know. I used to drink that stuff and it could double as a pillow in your tent if you didn't drink it all.

SPEAKER_01

Well, yeah, I was gonna say you have to have some. That's it.

SPEAKER_00

No, I mean if you drank the whole thing in one night, you would probably die.

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I'm a fucking professional drinker.

SPEAKER_00

Oh. I was like a hundred pounds soaking wet back then. So um so yes, that's one of my weird fears.

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Um when I was when I was a kid, I always had a fear of heights. Oh, yeah, I still to the point where it's like if I was like fucking like on a ladder, I'd be fucking shaking like a leaf. And then you know what? Like in high school, I started rock climbing.

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Oh.

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And it's like, well, that's stupid. Like if you're afraid of heights, why the fuck are you rock climbing? Yeah, I was like, But you know, like you just fucking do stuff that makes you uncomfortable, and then you're a better person, I guess. Not like, don't do things that make you uncomfortable. I mean like that. I feel like that's bad advice.

SPEAKER_00

What else have you done? Let's talk about it.

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But you know what I mean? Like, do do things that like terrifying out of your comfort zone. Yeah.

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I mean, heights, I get ver like vertigo, I think it would be if I look up. So if I'm on something that's high up, I can look down just fine. But if I looking up, it like makes me feel like I'm gonna pass out. I have to like hold on to something to look up. That's that's I don't know what it is. I think it's called I think it's considered vertigo.

SPEAKER_01

The looking down is where it's like, oh fuck, like I could fall. You know what I mean? But looking up, it's like, oh, I'm literally just right here. Like I can't fall any more than what I'm already at.

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I don't know. Probably a weird I don't know.

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It's probably like you you lose fuck it, you look up and like you lose blood to your brain or something.

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Oh probably probably don't have a lot in there. Um I'm also I'm I have a fear of anything in my eye, like touching my eye, so I don't wear contacts.

SPEAKER_01

See, and that yeah, like uh that is the one of the the things like you see in movies like of like uh needles or like something like going into the eye, like that freaks me out. But I wear contacts and I literally touch my fucking eyeball all the time.

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Oh no, I can't.

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It's it like That's another one of those things like we just fucking get over it. Like you do it enough and I don't know.

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I'll just wear glasses, it's fine.

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But you know, just like everything, it's you do enough of it, then it's not it's not as scary as you thought it was.

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Yeah.

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You know? I mean I I have like a a fucking type of phobia of like talking on the phone.

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Really?

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Yeah. Like it's you and our brother. It's not so much of like uh talking to people that like I know. It's like if you have to like call somewhere, like you have to like make an appointment or something, or you know what I mean?

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Really?

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It's like strangers that like I absolutely fucking hate.

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It like is it a phobia or is it you just don't fucking want to do it?

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No, it's like literally like my heart fucking races, and I'm like, I don't want to fucking do this.

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Really?

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Yeah. I it's I've always been that way.

SPEAKER_00

Like is that why it took you so long to finally talk to me?

SPEAKER_01

Probably.

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Oh my god.

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Well, and at the beginning, it was kind of like I didn't know our dad at all.

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Yeah.

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Uh there's just I had pictures of him, you know, and it was like, well, like I've I've lived this much of my life without knowing any of that side. So like what it was kind of like, well, what's the point of like uh getting to know your sister? I know, right? Like, luckily we have a podcast now.

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I know. Look, aren't you so glad?

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So fun.

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Yeah.

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But it was I don't know. And even even talking to dad the first time, uh, because I was at your house.

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Yeah.

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I think I was on your phone.

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Yeah.

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Uh talking to him, that scared the fuck out of me.

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Did it really?

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Yeah.

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Oh, he was a good guy. Just all those lady friends ruined him.

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He was a guy.

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He was a good guy.

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I well, that's the thing, is I don't even know if he was good.

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I mean, I think he was. I think he just um, like I know from my like our standpoint, like, mom just kind of said bad things about him and then didn't allow him to talk to us. Yeah, because for a long time, my life was so you lied about a lot of stuff.

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Yeah, like my mom hated him because he would drink.

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Yeah.

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And so she made him seem like such a bad guy, and then like you become an adult and you're like, I fucking love drinking. And then you're like, Oh, yeah, we were just like him.

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Well, and to be completely honest and transparent, I mean, same with mom, right? Well, your dad's just a drunk, whatever. Well, okay, so he's a drunk, but I don't know, mom. You may have done some quailudes in your time. So let's talk about for tat for tat.

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I wish my mom would have done drugs or something. Like to give a reason for her to be so fucking crazy. You know what I mean?

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Where it's like there could have been something going on.

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I don't she she didn't even fucking smoke cigarettes or anything.

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Maybe it was like antipsychotics that she needed to be on that just made her go loony.

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My uncle swears that uh I told the story before, but she had a a windowsill uh in her bedroom when she was young, and back then they used lead paint, and she would bite the windowsill and probably fucking eat a bunch of paint chips.

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Came like how old was she?

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Like, I don't know, like seven or something. I don't know. And she claims that she fucking died. She got like pneumonia and she died. She's fucking insane. Actually, so for Mother's Day, we're planning We are gonna do uh something.

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Yeah, we're planning something so you can get to know a little bit about um how we were raised.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um So I think another fear of mine would be, and not that like, and sorry, mom, but that she was a bad person. I just don't want to I don't want to turn into my mom.

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Like I don't wanna that that is a big fear of like I think a lot of people have is the fear of stuck accidentally cycle. Yeah, like accidentally becoming a bad person. You know what I mean? Like I think that's a big fear of like, oh fuck, like what what did I fuck my life up with? You know what I mean?

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Like uh Or like mental health clearly runs rampant in probably my mom's side of the family for sure.

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I think fucking everybody nowadays.

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Right.

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But I feel like all the fucking preservatives and food, man.

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I don't know. I think there was a lot of other shit happening like back in back even maybe like generations that I'm kind of okay with like being away from that. You know, like we don't really have any relatives, mainly. I mean, other than like one, two on my mom's side who are alive. So really it's kind of like since mom's done died at such a young age of 51, I'm just like, maybe if I'm away from all of the nut nuttiness, then I won't become a nut myself and like need to be in a psych ward and shit. Like, I don't know.

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That's that's kind of a a thing too. Like uh it's sad and like kind of scary, like uh our dad's last name.

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Yeah.

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Uh so I have his last name.

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Yeah.

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Uh my daughter has the last name.

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Uh huh.

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And she's the last generation. If she gets married and changes her name, it's gone forever. There will be no more, right?

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Yeah. Well, because dad's lady still has dad's last name.

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But she's Yeah, but there's no more kid, like it that that name is not continuing.

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That we know of.

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Well, can you give anybody any last name?

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I I mean, I think you can legally have your name changed.

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Well, but I mean, like, uh, I swear, like the fucking the process of like naming my daughter was like they were literally like, all right, what's the name? And just wrote it down. That you could fucking say anything.

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Oh, yeah, trust me. I've seen some names in my days. Uh-huh. I had a student walk in back when I worked at the university. Maybe I told you this. Her. So you had to go out and like you would read, like if it was a walk-in, and I was in admissions, so they just wanted to talk about the programs. And I walk out, and I'm like, um, there's a couple people in the waiting room. And I'm like, is um La Uh here? La Uh.

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Ladasha?

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It was Ladasha. It was a fucking hyphen. Literally, that was her legal name. I'm like, you've got to be kidding me.

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I've heard that before where it's uh you pronounced the dash.

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Yeah. I'm like, okay.

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Sorry, that was very racist. Um, it's probably a white woman.

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Yeah, she was. Um, yeah. So yeah, apparently you can. And it's very weird to me in like different cultures how they take like both the like mother's maiden name and the father's last name. So like I think it's more of like in a uh Hispanic culture. So like I knew someone and like the last name was Ramirez Ramirez.

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Like well, they're probably related.

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Yeah, or like um, uh I think he was African or something, and it was like thought, thought, thought.

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I know uh I've I've seen uh like in Hispanic culture, like the daughter is named after the dad.

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Mm-hmm.

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Uh because I've seen like it was like it was like my friend's wife, her name was Guadalupe.

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Oh yeah.

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And I'm like, that's kind of a a man's name, right? And he's like, she was named after her dad.

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Oh.

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But like sometimes they'll change it into like a feminine, sometimes they don't. It's just like Jose.

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Yeah. But wait a minute.

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Yeah. Juanita.

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Yeah. So I don't know. Those are just some of my fears, though. I I'm really hoping that um, you know, that cycle is broken and yeah.

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I'm hoping I just get the good traits from both of our parents or my parents, and that that's a big fear though, is a fear of the future.

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Yeah, the unknown.

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Because we don't know. So, like with the like our parents and like traits and stuff, it's kind of like I am I know I'm gonna have fucking ass cancer.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, good.

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Or prostate cancer.

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Because like well, uh dad, that's how dad started.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, exactly. So and I have it on both sides. My grandpa had it.

SPEAKER_00

So do you get your prostate checked regularly?

SPEAKER_01

Well, I do it myself. Oh yeah, I'm I'm to the point where a whole fist Oh good that way it's easier to check.

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That might cause a problem later on in life.

SPEAKER_01

Well, and that's I am scared that like this is why I don't fucking go to the doctor. Because you don't want to know. Yeah, exactly. I'd rather not know and live my life uh totally fine than to be given like, oh shit, there's nothing we can do about it.

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Yeah.

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That that I would put so much fear into me where I would probably go out and just fucking do a bunch of meth.

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But meth, really? I don't think meth is a good thing. If you're gonna die, like I don't feel like so it's like gonna cure pain. You might as well do like opium or like heroin.

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Is opium even a thing anymore?

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I don't know. It's gotta be, right?

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I don't know any Asian men.

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What?

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Like opium dens.

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Well, I know, but I feel like those all those like massage places where it's literally like written from like a five like they put their five-year-old kid out there and be like, just write massage on building and like give them fucking handies. There's probably there's happy ending and an opium den, more than likely.

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Mm-hmm. Should I ever tell you about the fucking uh this massage place in El Paso when I lived there?

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Oh my god.

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I drove by it every day, like on my way to work, and I was like, this fucking this place is weird. Like it was like r a run-down building.

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Okay.

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I'm like, what the fuck? Like, it didn't have a sign on it. Like they took all the signs down.

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And that's the problem.

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Yeah, and I'm like, there's always like one car there.

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And a light on.

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Well, it I would see it during the day.

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Red neon light.

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But well, and so I asked like one of the guys at work, like, what's up with this fucking place? Like, it's like run down, and there's always like somebody there. And he's like, Oh yeah, that's a massage parlor. Oh where uh the front of it, like, so you go in and it's just I guess a tiny like room.

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Okay.

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Um, that's the the massage parlor that's on the up and up.

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Okay.

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And it's just like a a front where, you know, like if they think it's a cop sort of thing, then that's the only place that they go.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, but then there's a hidden wall.

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But yeah, it's like you go into the back and there's all these uh rooms with just beds.

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Hmm. That's called happy ending.

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Yeah.

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I'm like, Jesus fuck. Like this this place is insane.

SPEAKER_00

I mean, but I feel like there's places like that everywhere.

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Uh they couldn't confirm, but they said it was possibly a mother and daughter team.

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No. Yeah, that's fucking gross. That's so gross. Oh. Um well that would be scary.

SPEAKER_01

Mm-hmm. So Why don't we talk about you? You're outside all the time. You love nature.

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I do. How do you feel about this? Get that fucking thing away from me. Oh my god. I know, but it doesn't it doesn't move like a rubber one. It's fucking disgusting.

SPEAKER_01

It does kind of like it. It wiggles a little.

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It's disgusting. I am petrified of snakes.

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Like, I don't even know. I know your your house had a a snake uh I've seen, let's just put it this way. Fornication bush.

SPEAKER_00

Yes, let's just say until that sucker was cut down. But I have seen snake balls, like a fornication ball of the sort of garters.

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Do snakes have fucking a little tiny nut sack that just like scrapes.

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I don't even know, but apparently. So um garter snakes are just right, they're like everywhere.

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There's little tiny fellers for anybody that no, these ones were not.

SPEAKER_00

And if you would research snakes, they are one of the few North American snakes. I think there's like two or three that actually give live birth. For one garter snake, I did research. Yeah, like they don't like. Yeah. For one garter snake, typically they have up to 50 babies. So if you're seeing a snake ball, fornication ball of 30 just in a ball rolling around.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, the math of that is like, so let's say 15 of them out of 30 have 50 babies.

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I don't even fucking care. I want to burn it. Light that shit on fire.

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Yeah.

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That's so many.

SPEAKER_01

Although, like, so what about pet snakes though? They are way different.

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I don't care. No.

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Uh, my brother-in-law, my wife's brother, uh, his girlfriend has a ball python that is so fucking chill.

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Okay, so here's the weird part of this whole like fear of mine that doesn't make any sense because somewhere, I was trying to find it. I wonder if my sister has it. But I don't even know. And I nor do I know why mom even allowed this bullshit to happen. But I think we were at a mall again.

SPEAKER_01

Back what's a mall?

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Back in the the northern land where we were, like I grew up. And there was like some like weird petting zoo thing. Like it was like some exhibit that somebody brought in all these animals. There is a picture of me somewhere where I put a python, ball python, like just around my shoulders as a small child. That thing could have ate the shit out of me.

SPEAKER_01

A ball python? A ball python is little, like they don't give very a boa.

SPEAKER_00

It was a boa. I think it was a boa constrictor.

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Like a big fucking thick one. Yes. Yeah.

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I'm like, when was this ever fucking appropriate? And when was I like, yep, okay, let's do it. But I think that was the start of no, I I was fine. I was like, yep, let's do it. I have was totally fine. They I also remember they had tiger cubs, and so I have a picture, like a picture of me was it fucking sitting. It was a baby tiger cub.

SPEAKER_01

The fucking tiger king? I was he there?

SPEAKER_00

I have no idea. I mean, mom's dead. I can't fucking ask.

SPEAKER_01

Super, super fucking gay guy. Nor would she with a fucking handlebar mustache.

SPEAKER_00

I know who the tiger is.

SPEAKER_01

He's so funny.

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But it's just so weird that like and again, being outside with dad all the time. Like, I remember going to dad's trailer and when we would go fishing, like literally walk across the little road and go to the trailer or go fishing, that there would be water snakes.

SPEAKER_01

There would be that that lake was real bad with them.

SPEAKER_00

Oh my god, there were so many.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

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And then dad would be like, just stay away from it.

SPEAKER_01

If he still had that trailer when they when they dredged that lake, they've dredged that fucker like four times, I think. No, it would they did a real big one where they completely drained it and dug super fucking deep all along the Yep.

SPEAKER_00

I remember that because I remember going out there and it smelled so bad. Yeah. And there were huge fish, dead fish, like carcasses everywhere. It was crazy.

SPEAKER_01

That's so crazy that we were like so because like uh my grandma lived in in that town, you know.

SPEAKER_03

I yeah.

SPEAKER_01

And that it was kind of like it was like we were we were so close, but like so far away. Yeah, exactly. We're like uh kind of like we just like spend more time.

SPEAKER_00

Well, I mean, I'm what almost ten, nine and a half years older than you, so but but yeah, I remember the water snakes. I remember like walking, or we would take our bikes, and if you would go back behind, so like literally if you're looking across the lake, there was that trail, that like grassy trail, and we would take bikes by the railroad tracks, yeah. Yeah, and we would take our bikes back there, there'd be bull snakes, like it never really bothered me. But then I think it was in my first house um that I lived in back behind was uh old apple orchard. And so they say that if there's apple trees, and there were still like apple trees back there, that the root system is super like windy, and there becomes like these pockets of dens. And so there would be fucking garter snakes everywhere. Like I would walk out in in your house?

SPEAKER_01

No, because I can see that becoming the fear is seeing like a snake in a place where it shouldn't be. Yeah, that no, I would like outside, it's like I would have burned the fucking thing down.

SPEAKER_00

Are you kidding me? But even outside, like there was a time when there were so many snakes. Um like when I would let my dogs out, because it would like startle them, that the grass would just be moving. And I'm like, nope, absolutely not.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

No, absolutely not. So I don't know. I think um, yeah, I'm just terrified.

SPEAKER_01

I think uh, well, it's it's not so much a fear. Uh it's more just getting scared uh in the moment. Um, have you ever been just walking and like you're kind of like looking at the ground, you know? Uh and then there's like a dead squirrel or like a dead bird or something, and you're like, oh fuck. Like it yeah, like it scares you. Like you're just, you know, just walking along, oh shit. Uh even then it's like, I mean, there's nothing, it like it's totally fucking dead. Like it's it's literally half of its body is flat, you know, like shit like that. Right. But like it scares the fuck out of you.

SPEAKER_00

Mm-hmm. Um, I also have a weird fear of birds. Like I think they're beautiful and everything, but if it's like You had birds as fucking pets. Oh, those are moms. Fucking I mean, the parakeet were pretty much mine because I would like train them to do weird shit, but um, but yeah, I think well, and I know where that fear came from too was when I remember pop, me, me and papa, I was with them, and Papa wanted to go for a walk, and he had a shiny bald head and a blue jay landed on his head and started like pecking, like it like kept coming down and like pecking at it. And I was terrified, and that that was bleeding all over. Oh my god. Like those, what are the birds that like dive bomb you? Swallows.

SPEAKER_01

Oh yeah. The birds like at fucking like you see them like at like lakes and shit where they're like swooping.

SPEAKER_00

They build the mud nests, and they have like these beady little eyes, and they just like will fucking dive bomb you. Oh man. I would I used to see fucking assholes. I used to see um mom always had them on the side of the house for whatever reason. And I I wasn't allowed to mow the lawn because I would get stuck under the lawnmower, apparently. I don't fucking know what stuck under the lawnmower? Yeah, and I was like, I'm fine with that. Thank you.

SPEAKER_04

Jesus.

SPEAKER_00

So our brother always had to mow the lawn, and I would see him like ducking, like going like this, and I'd just be laughing because I'm like, I'm not going out there. No, thank you.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, you're out there with a stick, like, get the fuck away.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, like zombie birds. Um tell me some of your other fears.

SPEAKER_01

I don't have any. I don't have any fears at all.

SPEAKER_00

But what? What about oh fuck this thing.

SPEAKER_01

Look at oh, he's got a fresh hole.

SPEAKER_00

You need to turn his head so it's not eyeballing me.

SPEAKER_01

Okay, this thing if you're listening to it, uh it tops you can't see it, but this is a a giant, like fucking uh sick.

SPEAKER_00

With like a rock on sign.

SPEAKER_01

Is this a I guess it's a doll.

SPEAKER_00

So I think it's like the old chatty Kathy doll, is what they're called.

SPEAKER_01

He's got a giant shirt on.

SPEAKER_00

Well, yeah, because okay, here's the story. Number one Oh my god, sick. So here's the terrifying thing about this doll. There's there's multiple.

SPEAKER_01

Oh, his legacy.

SPEAKER_00

So in oh my god. Is it a boy?

SPEAKER_01

I don't know.

SPEAKER_00

Or did someone it looks like it's clearly a girl, it's just hairs buckled.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, it looks like someone gave it a haircut.

SPEAKER_00

So here's the there's a couple of terrifying things about this. Um, when I knew that we were gonna do this podcast about fears, I actually called up one of my friends and I said, Hey, I think your daughter has a rubber snake that I need to use. And then as she brings out the rubber snake, she also brings this terrifying fucking doll out and then puts it in my back seat and straps it in the seatbelt.

SPEAKER_01

Um and I was like, But if it had like a little car seat, get it, yeah, get it out.

SPEAKER_00

So this will be going back on her porch immediately or somewhere, hopefully by her bedroom window. Um so I'm like, what the hell is this thing? And she's like, I don't know. Uh they found it in an old storage unit. Um I think her husband did, and then put it in her front seat of her car. So when she got in her car, that's where it was. Does this eyes it one eye is fucked up? I don't even know. It's so gross. Hopefully, it's not haunted. Um, it's dirty as shit. But the other thing that's terrifying is that it is missing an arm. And I know, oh god, no, mm-mm. Get it in.

SPEAKER_01

Um no. It wants to be that way.

SPEAKER_00

I am terrified of amputees. Can you get this thing terrified of amputees? Um, obviously, now if you've listened to the podcast, I work. Oh fuck, it's staring at me. I work in a turn in stop it. Just have it look at you.

SPEAKER_01

And it it's a little cross-eyed, actually.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, cool. That's also a fear. Um cross-eyed people. But right, those of you who have been listening, uh I work in healthcare. And so I've seen my fair share of amputees, and that fear probably happened when I had a gentleman um come and move into a rehab facility after a like probably mid-thigh amputation.

SPEAKER_03

And he picked his uh staples out.

SPEAKER_00

His stitches and his staples. And I walked in and it was the most gory scene I think I have seen in quite some time.

SPEAKER_01

You know what will fuck that. I was done. What will give you a fear of amputees? You ever seen uh the video two guys one stump? I I won't show you the video, but I'll I'll tell you about it.

SPEAKER_00

Great. Can't wait for those nightmares.

SPEAKER_01

There's uh there's a a a man on a swing like thing, uh, doing the uh the change my diapy position. Uh with a gaping asshole, and there's another man who's gonna happen if you keep fists in your prostate. Is uh he's got a an amputated leg and he's shoving it into the guy's asshole.

SPEAKER_00

Uh-uh. No. No.

SPEAKER_01

The stump, the stump into the asshole.

SPEAKER_00

What kind of weird shit are you watching?

SPEAKER_01

You don't want to know.

SPEAKER_00

I don't. I don't want to see your history on this.

SPEAKER_01

My fucking uh internet search history is probably criminal.

SPEAKER_00

I don't even yeah, you don't be arrested if anyone looked at your history.

SPEAKER_01

And there I need a uh disclaimer, there's no like child stuff, but it's like Thank God. I I like finding like the most fucked up shit. That's it. And it's a lot harder though to find it now. Like in the early days of the internet, it was just fucking everywhere.

SPEAKER_00

You know, I mean there was yeah, you could find like faces of death and like Yeah, that should be a movie that we do.

SPEAKER_01

Do you know that they're remaking it?

SPEAKER_00

Oh my god. Faces of death?

SPEAKER_01

It's gonna be completely fictional, which uh so also I remember those videos. A lot of uh those are terrible. A lot of the original faces of death, I believe, is fictional. Like it's stage stuff. Like it's not real.

SPEAKER_00

Um I remember they did like horse quartering in one. That was not fictional.

SPEAKER_01

Uh a lot of it like like the monkey scene where they're like eating the brains and stuff, like it wasn't real.

SPEAKER_00

Like it was Well, they didn't have AI back then.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, but it's like even when you look at like some of the camera angles, you're like, oh well, that actually doesn't make sense.

SPEAKER_00

Well, it was always like right, like they had like the like it looked like it was taped. Like it was taped and untaped.

SPEAKER_03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

You know, I don't know, but um I have so many fears. I am afraid of lake water.

SPEAKER_03

Or lake water.

SPEAKER_00

If I can't see, like below me, that's terrifying. Because I know what I catch in some of these lakes and the shit that I've seen that I'm like, I don't know about getting in there. Every time I go on my girls' trip to the Ozarks, terrifying. Right, right by my house is really fucked up.

SPEAKER_01

Uh lakes that I can swim in, but it does like kind of freak me out. Like not seeing what's on the bottom. People fish there. There's fucking hooks and shit in there.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, I'm not worried about the hooks. I'm worried about the fish.

SPEAKER_01

Like fish, I mean I I do like when I skinny dip, the problem is is they think my tiny little penis is a worm and they go after it.

SPEAKER_00

You skinny dip in that shit?

SPEAKER_01

Well, you have to.

SPEAKER_03

That's sick. Uh-uh. Uh-uh. But uh, I was gonna say art.

SPEAKER_01

This is more of like a I mean it's not really funny, but are you afraid to die?

SPEAKER_00

I don't I don't think I'm afraid to die because I know how peaceful it can be. I'm afraid in what aspect my death would be.

SPEAKER_01

See, and that's like that's kind of the thing because you you're around it quite a bit, actually.

SPEAKER_00

I just don't want to like I have a fear and I have a a recurring night terror that I'm buried alive and I can't get out. That is one of my biggest fears. And since I was little. I don't know, I'm sure it was one of the fucking horror movies that mom made us watch to be like, this isn't real kids, look, this is why, and whatever. Like she would just dissect everything from her like medical background. But I remember once.

SPEAKER_01

Because I believe if you are buried alive, you would die fairly quickly from uh carbon monoxide poisoning, basically like uh because all the oxygen would turn into carbon dioxide.

SPEAKER_00

Right.

SPEAKER_03

So it'd be actually like pretty painless.

SPEAKER_00

But I feel like I watched a movie where they had a tube or something, and so they were getting oxygen, but so it was just like you're just gonna like wilt away in there.

SPEAKER_01

What was that, fucking David Blaine? I don't remember. Remember he fucking buried himself for like fucking 55 days or something. Something stupid like that.

SPEAKER_00

I know. You know what's so funny? I was just watching a whole thing on Harry Houdini.

SPEAKER_01

Oh, I love Harry Houdini.

SPEAKER_00

And I didn't know, I guess I was under the impression that like he died from like not being able to escape, but no, he actually died from an appendicitis. At like 54 years old or something like that.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, he wasn't very old.

SPEAKER_00

But that he all of these crazy things, like the one where he puts himself in the crate and like nails it shut and using chains and handcuffs underwater. Like, do you know how many magicians have tried to like reenact that and have died? Like it was a really cool documentary.

SPEAKER_01

Is it the milk can? I think that's what it was called.

SPEAKER_00

Where he does where it's upside down?

SPEAKER_01

No, where it's he's just in the The can thing with the lid on it with the water.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, and he's like uh Yeah, he didn't he did that one, but he would actually go to lakes.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. Like and like he's done like Niagara Falls and shit, I believe. But he uh he was a a big debunker because his uh mom died, and then a medium uh came up to him and was like, I can talk to your mom for you or whatever. And so like he kind of believed in it, but then he was like, Oh no, this this person's full of shit, and they just took my money. So then, like, for a lot of his life was uh showing people like how it's fake.

SPEAKER_00

Really?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, and he uh I think he was like one of the first magicians. I I I'm probably wrong.

SPEAKER_00

He was like an illusionist, yeah, exactly.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, like it wasn't because back then it was like uh it was like the scam artist sort of like magicians where it's like this is magic. I'm a wizard type of shit.

SPEAKER_00

Right.

SPEAKER_01

You know, ancient Chinese secret sort of thing. Yeah, but he had but he was like, This is a stunt. This is uh an optical illusion, or you know, like you never like hid behind it.

SPEAKER_00

And um oh, what was the other thing that they said? But in this documentary, like they were kind of talking about how they would try to debunk like for years, right? I mean, he's been dead for a long time.

SPEAKER_03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

But like still to this day, all of these like very well uh uh trained, I don't even know if you train, but whatever, illusionists and things still can't figure out like how because he would get out of the handcuffs, the nails would still be in the crate, he would be out of the water, and then the handcuffs would be closed, and the nails are still in the crate.

SPEAKER_03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Like, I don't know. I mean, so they were thinking like he was like almost had like these mystical powers.

SPEAKER_01

That that's something that I have always absolutely loved is the the figuring out how to make illusions. I wish I could have become like that, like not so much the fucking showboatie guy, but like the guy that creates tricks.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, the illusions. Like I gosh, you were so our brother because he also I remember had like so many magic the like fucking pen and teller kit. Oh my god, yes.

SPEAKER_01

I love Penn and Teller so much.

SPEAKER_00

He had so much shit and would constantly be trying all of these tricks, and he was sorry, bro, you were kind of terrible at it.

SPEAKER_01

So he doesn't listen.

SPEAKER_00

You fucking listen to one episode, whatever. But I was the kid that did like I was more of the practical joker where like I would get like the fake vomit and then be like, Mom, the dogs grew up, and then she'd be like, God damn it, and then I was like, ha ha, it was just fake. Or like shit on the carpet.

SPEAKER_01

My favorite one uh was you know, the the hose sprayers on sinks. Oh, it's a rubber bandit, yeah, to put a rubber band on it, and I would get my mom all the fucking time. Oh my god, she would scream and beat the shit out of me.

SPEAKER_00

I mean, that's about right.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, but it was it was worth it.

SPEAKER_00

Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_01

So uh I think that's um those would be my biggest fears, so yeah, and I don't have any at all. Um stop it. I'm just kidding.

SPEAKER_00

I give me one. I mean, obviously we know you making a phone call to strangers.

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I'm terrified.

SPEAKER_00

I'm gonna make you place an order when we're done here.

SPEAKER_01

We can do it online now.

SPEAKER_03

Oh fuck.

SPEAKER_01

Whatever. You can order anything online.

SPEAKER_00

Um, that is true. Um give me one more. You gotta have something that like or that you remember.

SPEAKER_03

I'm definitely afraid of Oh no.

SPEAKER_01

I I will cut that out. Yeah, there's no way that I can have that in this uh No you can't.

SPEAKER_00

What are you afraid of?

SPEAKER_01

I don't one of the I think biggest things is that like I am actually like afraid that like I'll be forgotten.

SPEAKER_02

What?

SPEAKER_00

You know, like it's No, you took this to a sad moment.

SPEAKER_01

Oh, I know.

SPEAKER_00

No, I'll never forget you.

SPEAKER_01

But no, you've had people die in your life, right?

SPEAKER_00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

Uh like your mom, our dad, fuck it, like everybody. And it's it's kind of one of those things like in every everybody's life is that you kind of get to a point where like you stop thinking about them. You know, and it's kind of just in the back of your mind, and then it's like eventually you stop remembering the things that you remembered of them. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_00

You know, I have I I do.

SPEAKER_01

And then it's kind of like, oh, like that's gonna happen, like I will be completely forgotten.

SPEAKER_00

Well, now that we have these podcasts, we'll never be forgotten.

SPEAKER_01

That's that's what I swear. Like when I die, fucking just play these goddamn podcasts.

SPEAKER_00

Seriously.

SPEAKER_01

Well, I don't even want a funeral. Fuck that bullshit. But you know what I mean. Partey. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Um so I will say uh I don't have anything with mom's voice on it. I have I have saved multiple of how she sounded even the only time. Because that was so long ago that the only time is when I went to the Veliska. And remember, I told you we were using that stupid thing that you were trying to tell me was a bunch of bullshit.

SPEAKER_04

It is a bunch of fucking bullshit.

SPEAKER_00

Whatever, bitch. Um, and when that voice said, Natasha, like it was totally her. It like it was like that that trigger, you know?

SPEAKER_01

Where yeah, it's kind of like you forgot it, but like once it happened, you're like, oh fuck, that was yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. Um, I think before that, I mean, I've I have had very vivid dreams. Normally it's when like, I don't know, something's happening in my life that's like stressing me out, or something where I'll wake up and I'm like, oh, that was super vivid, and like that was mom. But I don't ever really remember what she says or her voice in the dream.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, that's the thing too.

SPEAKER_00

Like I know she was there.

SPEAKER_01

You you probably have more of a a memory of her, or you know, like a a memory of like I mean, I was 20. How do I say it? Like uh it's more of like the idea of her than like actual like a whole bunch of like real memories.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. Well, and I think we had a very like tramult. What is it with traumul? I can't ever say it. Traumatizing. Yeah. Um last few years, you know what I mean?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Like, so I think that was really difficult just to like wrap my head around as like a 20-year-old losing your mom at 51. Um so I think for me to really, really recall all of the good times and all those good memories, it was literally when I was younger.

SPEAKER_01

What do you think your mom would say like today? If like Oh God. No, let's um I don't know how your mom sounded, but so Tash, Natasha, what what did you do today? What and like uh what are we doing today?

SPEAKER_00

Oh well, we're recording a podcast and what's a podcast? Yeah, I would have to explain that.

SPEAKER_01

Like what do you think she would like about like doing a podcast?

SPEAKER_00

Because she would be she would like it because she loved horror movies.

SPEAKER_01

How how old would she be like right now if she were still alive?

SPEAKER_00

Hold on. I know this. Uh seven seventy-five. She would be seventy-five years old.

SPEAKER_01

Because I bet there's there's no way that she would know what a fucking a podcast is.

SPEAKER_00

No, definitely not. I mean, she passed in 2001.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. Fuck, we didn't even have the internet back then.

SPEAKER_00

I'm not crazy, right? 2001. So it's been a long time. But I um she would love this. She would absolutely love it because she loved horror movies. Um she just she enjoyed talking about the things that people don't typically want to talk about.

SPEAKER_01

And that's kind of what we do here. Yeah. Just mysterious things.

SPEAKER_00

Mysterious things. I mean, you know, like I said, she would have all the medical dictionaries and be like, go grab me that dictionary. Let's talk about this.

SPEAKER_01

Let's talk about penises.

SPEAKER_00

Um, but yeah, like there was there was just nothing that wasn't like ever off the table. Like she, and that is me. I mean, that is a part of her that I definitely have that I probably talk about too much shit that I probably shouldn't talk about with a lot of people. Um, I know.

SPEAKER_01

I I say wild things.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, same, same.

SPEAKER_03

Um, but yeah, what do you think dad would say?

SPEAKER_01

I think he wouldn't understand it.

SPEAKER_03

He'd be like, you're fucking doing what?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, like I think, and and with him, well, at least from uh my uh interactions with him, yeah, it would be having to explain to him every fucking time what a podcast is.

SPEAKER_00

Well, I think though he would be happy that we are spending time together.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Because he always wanted, he would always say, I just want all you kids to get along. I just want all you kids to be together.

SPEAKER_01

And so I think Well, why that doesn't that would be It's not like we live in the same fucking house.

SPEAKER_00

Well, no, but he would just want us to like even if like right, like our other siblings were having like a disagreement, he never wanted to hear about it. He would just say, You guys just need to figure it out and get together.

SPEAKER_03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

And then when he found out that you and I connected, he was just so happy.

SPEAKER_03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Like he truly was. So I think that a lot of that, you know, was and maybe a lot of this is like dad's dad's doing too, just to like get us to connect more and yeah. We've taken this to a very emotional level.

SPEAKER_01

I know this is like sad, very emotional level. It's uh for like uh fears, it's very sad. I know God. Oh well.

SPEAKER_00

Well, I mean, I think we talked about some of the fucking whack wack-a-doodle fears I have, but whack-a-doodle. Um but I don't think you'll ever be forgotten. And I think now everyone can remember of it.

SPEAKER_01

But also at the same time, it's like, man, just like fucking forget me.

SPEAKER_00

Oh, stop it.

SPEAKER_01

Fucking the drama over here. Uh so speaking of um of your mother and my mother, we are actually we're planning on having a Mother's Day episode.

SPEAKER_03

Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_01

Um, and that will be uh around Mother's Day. And here in I don't know, the next couple of months, we will have uh like video only episodes.

SPEAKER_00

Oh yeah, that is true.

SPEAKER_01

Um, because we we do have a a very rare opportunity coming up, uh, and that will basically just be a video only.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

Uh but I will probably just make a a little audio thing to uh tell listeners to go to the video to watch it.

SPEAKER_00

I like it.

SPEAKER_01

Um but yeah, a lot of exciting things that we have coming up.

SPEAKER_00

Um got some plans.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. So thank you for listening and watching.

SPEAKER_00

Sorry we got so emotional at the end there. Yeah, we'll hug later.

SPEAKER_01

Don't forget to like, subscribe, uh, the social medias or whatever. I don't even fucking know anymore.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, let us know if you want a sticker.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. Just email us at comedyvilhorror at gmail.com.

SPEAKER_00

Uh and give us your thoughts if you're watching and yeah, let us know. Yeah. If you hate us, if you love us, yeah. It's fine.

SPEAKER_01

If you want to fist fuck one of us.

SPEAKER_00

Sick, that one.

SPEAKER_01

Apparently he's used to it. Well, yeah. Like it'd be like super easy.

SPEAKER_00

That's intense.

SPEAKER_01

All right.

SPEAKER_00

On that note.

SPEAKER_01

Yep. Thank you. And please pretend to be kind to each other. We love you.

SPEAKER_00

Peace.

SPEAKER_03

Bye.