I Might Just Quit Business

There’s a phase in business that no one prepares you for.

Not the burnout.
 Not the growth.
 But the bit in the middle… where everything goes quiet.

In this episode, I’m sharing a raw and honest update on where I’m at right now — going back to work, stepping away from constant online pressure, and learning how to stabilise my energy without rushing to rebuild my business.

I don’t have a clear plan.
 I don’t know exactly what’s next.
 And for the first time… I’m okay with that.

This is about self-trust, identity, and learning how to navigate the messy middle without panicking.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re in a slower season, questioning your direction, or unsure what your next move is… this episode is for you.

Transcript

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I don't really know what I'm doing with my business right now. And actually, I'm weirdly okay with that. Because for the first time in a long time, I don't feel this consistent urgency to fix it, grow it, or rebuild it as quickly as possible. And I think this is a phase of entrepreneurship that no one ever actually talks about. Not the burnout, not the growth, but the messy bit in the middle where everything goes quiet and you're just figuring it out day by day. So if you're seeking permission to take a step back from your business without feeling ashamed to do so, today's episode is going to be for you. If you're ready for huge breakthroughs, honest business and a spiritually guided base to level up your business and mindset, then you're in the way. Get ready to do the real highs and lows of what it's like to be a few days or in your head. This week we have a snotty cold, so apologies that my voice is not on form, but we have we are here. We are here, and that is the most important thing. And I didn't really know what to do for our episode today, so I thought I would just really give you a raw and honest update about life and what I've been moving through. Like I've been very, very open about the fact that I've gone back into a working paid job at a local pub, and really I'm quite proud of that because I think a lot of people would hide that about themselves and ignore the fact that actually it's extremely mature to think about the things that you want in your life and take the steps to create them now rather than living in this la la land that everything is going to happen for us and eventually the universe is going to deliver if we just hold out long enough. And you know, that was a phase that I had lived in for so much of my entrepreneurship journey, you know, and I especially I'd got wrapped up in the online space of the tarot readings, and you know, this month is going to bring this in for you, and I'd got wrapped up in romanticizing that I'm if I just manifest hard enough and I just do this manifestation type thing, everything's going to come to fruitation, right? And you know, I'm even seeing quite a big online shift with big, you know, um brand names now that everybody's going down the route of nervous system work, but no one actually talks about the physical part of just taking action to stabilize your nervous system. And I'd spent almost a year now working on my money mindset. I spent almost a year doing the deeper trauma healing type regulation, and I found a big part of that is I can take action on those things, but they're teeny tiny pieces of action which have been really, really foundational. But at the same time, like for a long time, I'd been living like month to month to get by, and I wasn't able to really solidify the work that I wanted to do. So I'm really proud of myself for going back into this paid job. But what that's really done and created in my entrepreneurship journey is it's reduced this list of urgency. Like, and when I think about the time that I built my original business, when I built my toxic relationship business, I was in such a rush to leave my job to build that business. Like I was working like an absolute animal all of the time, to the point that the coach that I work with was like, I have never worked with someone this impressive of just getting the stuff done. Um and I was proud of that back then, but here we are now. Like, I don't feel that urgent need. I'm really settled in the niche that I've got now. Like, I don't feel like the need to change it or swap it. It's just I am home in the niche that I have, and I do strongly believe that has come down to the past year and all of the work that I've done and hitting the burnout and you know rechanging my identity to become a steady CEO. But what this is really giving me at the moment is a sense of a messy middle, like this right now is me and my messy middle because I'm working a job that sometimes I don't get home till about half eleven at night, and then some days I'll get up at six, I'll do a couple of hours on the business, I'll go and do a day on the farm. Like, there's a lot going on right now, and I want to create, like, I want to build a business, but we don't have this level of urgency to build the business. I want to show up on social media, but actually, I also don't want to show up on things like Facebook, I don't want to show up on things like threads, I don't want to be having conversations in the DMs. I just purely want to practice my content creation and honing in on my skills there and you know being actually a person on my stories. And this is a really, really weird phase to be at, to feel drawn to some things and totally want to remove so many other things, and this is something that I'm currently kind of working through, and you'll probably find in a couple of weeks I'll end up deleting Facebook, right? And because it my energy just doesn't feel good there, like the platform to me, it it just feels really stale, it doesn't feel good, it feels very um over like when we look at the type of news that's on Facebook now, it feels very negative, it feels very toxic, and I just don't feel called to be there. Like, even stuff, you know, like on Instagram sometimes. I think the nice thing about Instagram now is you can actually manage your algorithm, but it's just this level of I just want to post, I just want to refine my skills, and then I want to leave. And I think that is such a like I say, a weird system to be in, uh and alongside the rest of the business. But this is just how I'm now learning to show up as I'm restabilizing my entire energy because for so long I've built this business in this urgency, this rush, this financial pull to try and be safe, instead of just creating that level of safety and waiting for the universe to deliver it. And I'm not saying now that I don't believe in the universe and the spiritual realm, I a thousand percent do. I just don't believe in it in the way that social media promotes it. I believe in it in the way that I feel it and I see it, and you know, and what I feel called to do from within me. And I think, you know, we were on a mentorship call yesterday and we were talking about this, and it creates such a large opportunity to find out who you truly are, you know. So for me right now, it's really about stabilizing my own energy and enjoying my life, you know. Like some people would look at my life right now and go, Oh fuck, well, you've just gone back to a job, it must mean that your business is failing and you don't, you know, you're not doing this intense work on your business. But yeah, I'm the happiest I've ever been in my relationship. I have such a big and blessed life. I'm making more friends than what I've ever fucking made, and people that are truly aligned to me. I'm showing up without needing to prove my worth and prove who I am. I'm saying no when things don't align. And the little things you don't see are what makes my life so fucking amazing, and that's just what I'm here to relish in and live in right now and just absorb and soak up without having the pressure of being a business owner, you know, and really honouring the things that don't feel great, you know. Like another thing that doesn't feel great is working in my office. You know, I don't feel called to sit in my office and work, like I want to sit in my kitchen, I want to look out our kitchen window, I want to watch the dogs and the quieter moments that mean that I do less, but I create more and create better, and I don't know what that means for me. You know, I I I'm gonna be real, like I I don't know what any of that means for me. Like in my office, I've taken my vision board down, I've taken the photos and everything that I had off the wall down, and you know, I don't know what that means for me right now. Maybe that means that I need to have a full cleanse out and I need to redefine what all of those things are on my vision board and are they what I actually want anymore? Because when I built that, I was in survival and I was thinking of such a big picture instead of where I am right now today in the life that I'm currently living. Like I didn't think like that, I didn't think the life that I'm currently living, and you know, looking at three months ahead, I was looking at ten years ahead. You know, that's a long way to find a vision, to create a vision, and you take yourself so much out of the here and now, and I'm okay with that, but it's just that messy middle of this is a transition that I'm going through, and it's not fucking pretty, it's not like there is this strong urge that comes up inside me sometimes that goes, Are you failing? Are you not giving your business enough? Are you not doing enough? Like, and I really have to stabilize that and work through that in myself, you know, and I'm okay with all of this. Like, and I think that's probably the biggest shift and the biggest change for me that I am okay, like being where I am right now. I'm not panicking, I'm not spiraling, I'm not rushing to fix it. I'm just accepting like this is where I am. Like, who fucking knows? I might close down my business in like three months' time and just be like, hey, you know what? Let's go down the easy route. I doubt it. I doubt it, or I guess I wouldn't be here recording this podcast. But what I'm trying to say is that I am good being exactly where I am, knowing that it is okay to figure it out one day at a time. And if you said that to me three years ago, I would have laughed in your face because I always had to know what my outcome was gonna be. I always had to have everything figured out, I had to have every single day part of my day planned by the hour. I had to know what I was eating Monday to Friday, I had to know the schedule of how I was gonna lose weight, you know, everything had to be managed down to a T. And it's like now I don't have I have life management, but I don't have any management over what is going to come next. And I'm just really figuring that out because I think a lot of people they have these dreams, they have these aspirations, and like maybe like me is I've got this big dream with this beautiful house, this beautiful horse that I can ride at sunset and sunrise, and being a mum that my child like I never had to my children, that's the vision. Maybe coaching's not how I'm gonna get there, and I don't know that yet. I don't fucking know that yet, but we will get there and it will come day by day, and I am so relaxed in figuring that out day by day, and I think stepping back off social media and being brainwashed and having so much more influence all the time is really helping me come back into that, and in return, it's letting me be more personality-based when I do step online, it's letting me speak to the little things that people would never even consider because they're too busy trying to be fucking professional, it's letting me try to teach my treat my personal profile like a personal profile instead of a business all of the time. But I wouldn't have been able to get to this place without the tools that I have, without the experiences that I've had. And the reason I know that I am not failing, I'm not slipping backwards, and that this is meant to be part of my journey, is because I just trust in the process now, and that comes down to releasing the fear that someone's gonna call me lazy, that think, and you know, fear that someone is gonna judge me, and just feeling safe in my body that I have me, and that no matter what life throws at me, I am going to get through it, and that is what's really supporting me right now in this really messy, weird phase. And when you can then look back and go, Oh my god, three years ago, you were like panic driven to get everything picture perfect, to get everything right, and now you're here like, oh, we'll figure this out tomorrow, we'll figure this out day by day. That's such a big change, like, and that's the thing. I firmly believe up until probably the last six months of my life, I I lived my entire life in survival. So to now be in this space, I want to soak that up rather than just push through it. I don't know what this means for me, and I think personally for me right now, this phase is really about deepening my sense of self-trust, you know, and calling myself out on the things that are not connecting me to the version of me that actually I want to become because I can hear it more now, I can see it more now. I know that those things potentially don't align with me, and it's it's those identity shifts and up levels again, isn't it? You know, and coming home to my own truths without needing to fit into the crowd, and that is a huge shift. Like I don't need to fit in anymore. Like I am what I am, I love talking about trauma, I love talking about it in a bubbly way that is soft and it is personal and that helps people understand what their actual experience is without shaming themselves for it. And yeah, sometimes I don't always get it perfect, but I always do my best, and that's enough. And I think that for me is where I'm currently just sitting and enjoying that right now because we don't have to all follow the paths to fit in, especially when they don't feel exciting anymore. Like I really noticed when I wanted to change niches that talking about 10k months, how to actually physically build a business isn't exciting to me anymore. But talking about the trauma that is stopping you from building your business, now that's exciting. But for the longest time, I think I believed that if you if you didn't talk about business, you didn't fit in. So if I didn't speak about the constant outcomes of the 10k months and the 100k months and the rest of it, I didn't fit in. I wasn't gonna sell anything. Whereas now I'm just like, you know what? I can speak about trauma, no one speaks about the ebbs and flows of business, especially when you're like a business of starting out and it was going really well, and then you became ill and trying to get going again. No one speaks about what building a business is like after burnout, and that level of suddenly coming out of survival and never having to feel like you're having to rush all of the time, like it's it can be scary and it can be confusing, but what I really invite you to do is to look at the life you're living now because of the experiences that you've had. Like, I have this big, beautiful life, and that is something that's really, really important to me. And what was important to me that I always had financial freedom, financial stability. I was I had this beautiful, deeply connected relationship. You know, I had time freedom, and yeah, okay, I haven't got all of those things right now, but I've got two out of three, you know, and I've still got the freedom of my time in the morning to go and do the things that I want to do. So we we have these things, it's just how we look at it, and I think this is what no one talks about. You can access the things that you're trying to build a business for right now, but you just have to choose to look and you have to choose to create. Don't think about how you're gonna create it in 10 years' time, asking yourself how can you create it now? Because that's what's gonna help you start to expand to create it bigger and better as you go along. And that's a harsh lesson that I've really had to learn. But in myself right now, I'm learning more and more how to just trust where you are, trust that journey, and being okay with just figuring out who I am on the deepest level, even you know, even though like my main values and my perspectives haven't changed, just how I portray them out into the world, I'm figuring that out as who I am, and I think that's really special, and I love that about my journey right now, you know. And there is gonna be so many times in your business and in your life where nothing makes sense, you know, and no one feels like they've got an answer for it. It's not pretty to speak about on social media, and things don't always have to make sense, but it's about trusting yourself enough, trusting that life is always going to be okay, even when it doesn't feel right or doesn't feel politically correct. When you can trust that, you get to enjoy it. But like right now, you get to enjoy the process and you get to hold yourself high and steady in it, and you get to keep showing up even when you feel so ill and so unwell and unmotivated, but you really start to become steady in who you are and in yourself, and just know that this phase isn't forever, but the more you try and deny yourself of it, you you make it even harder, you can make it harder for yourself, and you miss the direction that you're potentially meant to go in. So it's really the healing is the strategy, like the podcast is called this for a reason, and my own journey just defines this more and more because if I didn't do all the healing work, I wouldn't be able to sit in the silence now and feel okay. I wouldn't be able to be in this messy middle without panicking that my entire life's falling apart, and you know, and I do believe that this is exactly where I'm meant to be, and I will figure it all out one day at a time, and I invite you to be able to feel the same too. You don't have to have it all figured out today, you didn't need it all figured out yesterday. You will be figuring it out one day at a time when you're supposed to and when you're meant to, and you don't need to have all of the answers, and you also don't uh need to not get some validation and support from someone else because there's one thing about getting validation from yourself that everything is okay, but there is a huge, a huge sense of support when someone else says it as well. So I think this is really important that you can seek validation from yourself, but it's also okay. when you need it from someone else too. So I am sending you guys so much love and hopefully the the podcast next week will be a lot more concise, a lot more healthy than my current brain cells. But I'm loving you guys so much and if you resonate with anything on this podcast, obviously always please do drop me a message. I love you all so much. I will be opening up some incredible spaces very soon for you to experience my work and we will come back on board when it's all meant to but I love you guys and I'll speak to you soon. Alright bye alright guys if you love today's show if it resonated with you please drop a rating below as this always helps more amazing women like you hear this amazing advice and wisdom. In the show notes I've got my social links and other episodes that will help your journey so you can bend your way take every step you need to level up your business become a success in the online space and live in wealth and freedom that you desire. I love connecting with my listeners so please do drop me a DM on socials with your biggest takeaway and the episode that you've just listened to as I'd love to hear. Okay guys, see you next week. I love you bye