Half Way Through It | Disarm The Enemy

Half Way Through It - A mini episode and story time from Kimberly 

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SPEAKER_01 0:06

Taking a sip out of my super obnoxious gallon jug of water. Do you make it through one of those a day? I do. Every day? Yeah. That's why I would say you drank that much today. Well, okay. Let me take that back. Um, this weekend we definitely slacked on water because we were doing all the estate stuff at Moses Lake. But yeah, I would say I get through a gallon pretty consistently. Sometimes I'll leave like maybe a little bit less than what's in this drug left, but I try to. I also just get like super thirsty. Maybe I just talk too much, guys. I'm like, I'm always thirsty.

SPEAKER_02 0:47

You don't talk too much.

SPEAKER_01 0:48

Thank you for that. We rebuke that.

SPEAKER_02 0:50

We do.

SPEAKER_01 0:51

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 0:51

I think you're just prone to being dry, and that would make you thirsty.

SPEAKER_01 0:55

Yeah. I mean, I've said this before, like, if I was on a deserted island and I had to take 10 items with me and I could not take more, one of them, I would definitely whist an item on chopstick. I'm like, and you're saying you like never use chopstick, which is crazy to me.

SPEAKER_02 1:12

No.

SPEAKER_01 1:12

And your lips never look dry. I'm a grease ball. I am, I am so just naturally oily. Coming from someone where like I don't, I'm not prone to acne, not to be like, I have such great skin. It's because if a pimple tried to be birthed on my skin, it would shrivel up and die out of dehydration. My skin is so dry. Yeah. But welcome to Through It, guys. Welcome. Um, this will be a shorter episode because we are stacking two. We just recorded one and we're jumping right into the next because that's just what it is.

SPEAKER_02 1:52

Sometimes it's like that. So you're gonna get every once in a while these little mini episodes, and we're calling them halfway through it.

SPEAKER_01 2:00

I love that so much. Giving Ari credit for that. I did not think of that. Halfway through it. This is half of a through it. A through it. It might be more like a third. We talk. Yeah. Um, last episode, we kind of just went with the flow of the conversation. We didn't have like a set topic. There's like, I feel like two different kinds of podcasts where like some podcasts are super structured and they're like, this is what we're talking about. They kind of map it out and they kind of stick to that. And then you have some podcasts where like I've listened to where you talk to it, I'm like, what are they even talking about? Like, where are they gonna go with this? But then that's the entire episode. They're just bantering and it's super entertaining. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 2:41

And we do both of those things. We do sometimes we're very detailed and methodical, and sometimes even though we are detailed and methodical, we just flow with the spirit.

SPEAKER_01 2:52

That's what I'm saying that we're doing. Okay, so today I this is just gonna be like story time, and so I'm gonna share a story that I have not shared on here before. But um, I think the reason that I've thought about this particular story is just because we've been having a lot of conversations on really knowing how to identify the voice of God, the voice of the enemy in your own voice, but specifically exposing the enemy so that we can disarm him and that we can take his power away. It says in John 1, where there is light, there cannot be darkness. And so when you shed light on something, it does exactly that. It diminishes the darkness, right? And so the last month or so, again, and I'm sharing this to take its power away. The last month or so I was sharing with Ari, just like the thoughts of kind of um, if you want to call it condemnation. Um, but it's it's what it really is though, is the enemy just trying to silence me. Yeah. Or even in the way that the enemy will try to make you feel bad about God's design over your life, knowing that God's design over your life has define, has divine power and authority. Yeah. So in the last episode, we talked about when there's identity confusion, there is authority confusion. So when you get confused in or lose sight of the fact that you come, the the image of God is within you. If if we were people that were able to hold on to that, imagine the authority that we would consistently walk in.

SPEAKER_02 4:32

I know. I I saw somebody make this video recently about how, you know, we always talk about when we get to heaven, we're gonna ask everybody, like all the saints, and um, you know, what was this like and what was this like? Like we're gonna talk to Peter and we're gonna talk to Samson. And he's like, and they're all gonna tell us what was it like to have the Holy Spirit living in you. Wow. Wild.

SPEAKER_01 4:59

What a great perspective. Yeah. They're like in you. It's like, you know how many lambs we've had to sacrifice, and when I was broke, I couldn't even afford a lamb. I had to go kill a bird, like wow, what great perspective.

SPEAKER_02 5:16

Yeah, come on. And so let that I mean ring true to to uh reminding you your authority in Christ. That like these people, these real people that did real crazy things like in in the Bible that we read about, they're gonna ask us what it was like to have the Holy Spirit in us.

SPEAKER_00 5:35

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 5:36

Because they didn't get to experience it.

SPEAKER_00 5:37

Wow.

SPEAKER_02 5:38

And now we have it and we walk around and way overnormalize it.

SPEAKER_00 5:42

Wow.

SPEAKER_01 5:45

That is actually wrecking me. I think we could just be done halfway through it right there. Yeah. And it's like we have so we carry, like we are now the temple. And so we carry the power of the Holy Spirit within us as as our helper, as our advocate, as our teacher, as our counselor, as our guide, all these things. And so like you also have to ask yourself, like, how can I discern that? And then we're talking about recognizing okay, is this Holy Spirit or is this enemy? And so, again, like I think in order to even recognize that, we really just have to slow down in so many different ways.

SPEAKER_02 6:29

Um well, you like we've said this um teen times, and I won't beat a dead horse, but like you can't know your father's voice until you know your father. And the only way to do that is to read your Bible exactly, to get in the word, to study it, to really, really know what he's like. Because then I I talk so many people all the time are like, I don't know where this I you know I hear this or I feel this, and I don't know if God's telling me this. Like it's really easy. That confusion exists all the time, but it's so much easier to discern when you know what he sounds like.

SPEAKER_01 7:06

Yeah. It's like, okay, is that in the Bible? Yeah, it's not okay, noted.

SPEAKER_02 7:10

I know God wouldn't say this to me. Right. So I know it's the enemy. So now we have to expose him and disarm him.

SPEAKER_01 7:16

I had someone this weekend ask me that he feels like he doesn't know God. And that was there was conversation that followed that. But the first thing I did was download the Bible app on his phone. You know, because like God is speaking, like, oh, you don't hear God? Uh have you read your Bible today? Did you know that he's speaking to you through that? But it's it's we overcomplicate it sometimes.

SPEAKER_02 7:51

Yeah, I mean, present company included, I overcomplicate it often.

SPEAKER_01 7:57

I mean, hello, uh like queen of overthinking over here, and then I overthink about my overthinking.

SPEAKER_02 8:05

You are analytical, yeah. And you are studious, yeah, yeah. And you have a curious nature.

SPEAKER_01 8:14

Yeah. And so it's like I also would say that I wouldn't want to take away that part of me that I label as overthinking. I actually think that um that's part of God's design, you know?

SPEAKER_02 8:30

I I do think it would it would behoove you to um give it a new name.

SPEAKER_01 8:37

Yeah, I like that. I like that. I appreciate how you are with just words in general. I think we've talked about like, you know, the five love languages, and I'm like Yeah, I'm an absolute psychopath with word love. I I mean I even um I will sometimes just because look up synonyms for things.

SPEAKER_02 9:00

Like just to have more words, yeah. I used to like thumb through the thor the sources often because I wanted to know more words.

SPEAKER_01 9:09

Right. I frequent, I have the Webster dictionary app on my phone and I love it.

unknown 9:16

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 9:17

Anyway, we're that's how we are. Okay. In in along the lines of let's identify the voice of the enemy, I was also thinking we're talking about story time. I want to share this story, and I will see how we can connect the dots here, but um, I was thinking about a time in my 20s that I was working for a company, and um, this is the only time ever that I quit a job without giving notice. I just didn't show up, guys. I got to my breaking point, and like I remember at this job, I used to come home crying to Jordan so much because I would be so stressed out. It's like when you're trying to keep it together all day, trying to keep a professional face, and then when you get home, like walls come crumbling down. And so I would that would happen a lot. Like I would be stressed out and just unhappy and grumpy and overworked when I would get home and it was not good for anyone in the house. And so I finally got to the point when they were going through a change of ownership at the company that I just didn't show up. And also, this was a time when I was on the front end of being pregnant, didn't even realize I was pregnant yet. So it kind of makes sense, I guess, that I was being like erratic and made an emotional decision. Yeah. Cause normally I just push through. But I got to the point of I had a great boss and had a great relationship with her. I loved my co-workers. Um, but not showing up, I kind of did them dirty. Cause I will say that I I carried a pretty significant workload at the time. And um I just didn't show up. And it was embarrassing. It was the way that honestly, I just like felt so stupid. And then you get to a certain point of like no return. We're like, well, I can't go back now. Like I had people reaching out to me, like, Kim, are you okay? I'm like, just leave me alone. Oh my goodness, just act like I'm I don't exist anymore. Um, I was just like so embarrassed. But fast forward, that same boss that I had at the time, that um I was too embarrassed to talk to her again after that, although we had like such a good relationship, and I thought highly of her and she thought highly of me. And I really do actually think she understood why I didn't show up. So now this is like almost 10 years, 10 years later, she sends me a message, and um, we still had each other on social media. And so she knew that, you know, we're full-time coaches. And even when I had worked with her back then, I was still coaching on the side, just not full-time. And she knew that I competed and stuff. So she reached out to me because she hit a point in her life where enough was enough when it came to her health. And she had actually, um, her husband had just passed away. And so he passed away from cancer, and so she just hit a point of like, I want to make sure that I'm I'm stewarding my health well. But I was so surprised that she reached out to me.

SPEAKER_02 12:23

Cause was that the first time that you had spoken to her? Yeah. I did not, I didn't realize that.

SPEAKER_01 12:29

Yeah, we had not talked. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 12:32

Oh my gosh, I would have had such a different reaction if I would have known.

SPEAKER_01 12:35

Yeah. The last time I saw her was uh not the day I quit because I didn't show up, was my the day before then. So like um I just started training her two or three months ago. And so when she walked through the door for the first time for her training session, you didn't cry, huh?

SPEAKER_02 13:00

Did you cry? I did. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 13:01

Yeah. My eyes got watery, mostly because of um I was so grateful that she still like we still had the relationship and she still felt comfortable enough to reach out to me to like um ask for help in her fitness journey. Um, but I think like where I'm trying to tie this together is I went all those years of being like embarrassed and like really feeling condemned for quitting the way that I did. I had like a bit of shame that I carried because I'm like, this is so unlike out of my character to do that. Um, but how she even approached me with also grace and humility because I think that she probably also felt bad about the way that she handled a lot of things at work, but also in this very heartbreaking time in her life, now being a widow.

SPEAKER_02 13:52

Um it probably gave her some real perspective of priorities and what's important.

SPEAKER_01 13:59

It did. It totally did because it took her that many years to reach out for help in regards to this.

SPEAKER_02 14:04

Yeah. And I'm just thinking about being in that position as of her position if I put myself in her shoes. Any sort of animosity or any reason to not give grace to the other person would be rooted in pride. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Look what you did to me.

SPEAKER_00 14:21

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 14:22

And because it's it's it's work, you know, it's not like you like it was a it's not like you were her surgeon or something, you know, like it wasn't like a life and death situation. And they've replaced me.

SPEAKER_01 14:35

I was a replaceable business move on. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 14:40

But there but bosses do hold on to resentment when people leave. Totally. Even when they give notice. Yeah, yeah. So there's a that's a very to me, it sounds like she's very emotionally immature, or excuse me, emotionally mature.

SPEAKER_01 14:56

Yeah, she's very self-aware in that way.

SPEAKER_02 14:58

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 14:59

And also she just got to the point of like, I just need help, you know? And so I was so, so humbled that she even thought of me. I was so humbled. I'm like, even in the way that I had left that job, I was so humbled. But I also had a moment of like, so now it's been a handful of months since I've been training her. And I feel like this just feels like a God thing. Yeah. And the way that again, not pointing it to myself, pointing it all to God in the way that He could bring it all back around. But just I wanted to get, I want she's, I don't think she, she's not gonna listen to this podcast. I want to get her to come to church. I want her to eventually come to a small group, planting just seeds of faith, and even, you know, just talking about um some of the stories in the Bible during our session. And so in hindsight, I'm really thinking about the way that the enemy did not want this relationship to continue in any way.

SPEAKER_02 15:58

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 15:59

He wanted to sever that because even when she reached out to me, I was kind of shocked and I didn't know how to respond. But I I just would not I could not imagine um, in a sense, no showing her again, you know? Yeah. And then it just made me think about how many times the enemy will create a narrative in our mind where we have so much shame or just so much condemnation in who we are or what we've done in the past for the sake of trying to shut down the plan of God. And so even with your identity, right? Like that the enemy will try to get you to be confused about where you come from and who you are, so that you cannot operate out of that authority, so that you could not shift atmospheres, so you cannot plant seeds, so you cannot be a witness and and testify about God's goodness.

SPEAKER_02 16:57

So you can't uh go on your divine assignment. Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_00 17:01

Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_02 17:03

Yeah. So that there's all the the the enemy wants to uh pervert and to counterfeit everything good that God does. So he was going to like almost make it backwards and wrap it up in this bow of it's it's the right way and it's what you're supposed to do. And I think there's a really there's something so powerful in really thinking about the things that give you shame and then literally laying them at the feet of Jesus and talking about them. And not not in a way of like, it's okay for you to do this, but in a way of look how look how Jesus has saved me and restored me. Look at how he changed me, he took this from me. I don't have shame about this anymore. And then that's I think because the way you've grown in your relationship with the Lord and what your spirit is like today, uh he gave it back to you.

SPEAKER_01 18:04

He is so good to give us opportunities to be redeemed and restored in that way. Cause I I I will admit I really feel like I have to make it up to her, you know.

SPEAKER_02 18:13

But also if she's she's conscious now about her health because something devastating happened to her, right? There is something way bigger.

SPEAKER_01 18:22

There is, and that's what I'm so so so grateful for that even 10 years ago, honestly, more than 10 years ago, too, that there were different types of seeds that were planted where she was kind of witnessing the things that was happening in my own life that she would even think to consider me in the world.

SPEAKER_02 18:39

And also, Kim, uh when you did this, right? In that that season, the Holy Spirit God is limitless, and the Holy Spirit can work through you in ways that we don't understand. But you have also had to go through things in the past however many years to teach you, for you to learn, for you to grow in that relationship, to be able to plant seeds in a different way. Yeah. It's probably gonna be even more beneficial now.

SPEAKER_01 19:07

Yeah, agreed. And you and I have talked about too, like with this podcast, how many times after an episode we'll be so self-critical of ourselves and be like, what did I even say?

SPEAKER_02 19:21

And there have been times last week we stopped, as soon as we stopped recording. I was like, Oh, I just said that, and I'm really stressed out about it. And Kim's like, why? And it like yanks me back to reality. And I'm like, oh yeah, why?

SPEAKER_01 19:35

Yeah, why? And so, like in this halfway through it episode, the the point that we really want to drive home here is be on guard with how the enemy is speaking to you, be discerning. I don't want to go through an episode with not sharing a verse ever. So I want to just share this one verse here, and it's out of Nehemiah chapter six, where Nehemiah, he's in the process of rebuilding the wall. And in verse 12, he says, and I understood and saw that God had not sent him. So that line alone, and I would encourage you to just go back and read through Nehemiah just so you have more context. But God used Nehemiah to take charge in rebuilding the wall in the Jerusalem wall, where a lot of people went years not caring if it was there, but it bothered him and he felt it in his spirit. He felt that conviction. We're like, okay, let's do this. And he was on divine assignment in that way. But there were men that were coming to thwart him from this assignment that God put him on, and he was able to discern again in verse 12. And I understood and saw that God had not sent him. And so he was discerning and understood that there would be people that would come to try to throw him off his path. And I feel like we have to take that same um, I guess, framework of thinking in terms of like, what is your assignment? What has God called you and purposed you to do? What is your assignment? And in the way that the enemy will try to get you to stop so that that doesn't happen, not just like who was who is um trying to scare you or who was trying to get in your way or who is trying to be that distraction, but like what are the thoughts that you're having in your mind that is keeping you from walking in your full calling and assignment? And even if you're someone that's like, I don't even know what my assignment is, it could just be in standing in your identity in Christ and walking in that authority. And how 10 years ago, as I shared, I didn't know where I would be now. But it's it's like you never know what the season that you're in right now, what seeds you're planting unknowingly, just by living your everyday life, and how people are watching you and where you will be even in the next 10 years. That God has a completely vantage point to know where you will be even in the future.

SPEAKER_02 21:58

I don't think we ever know. That it's an assignment in the moment. Yeah. That's and not until it's finished and it's complete can you look back and say that that was an assignment from the Lord. Yeah. And knowing that. Like you you know, we've talked about your purpose and calling and stuff. Like your your purpose is to praise and worship the creator of the universe, the the king of kings, and anticipate eagerly his coming back. Um and then everything else works out.

SPEAKER_00 22:27

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 22:27

That's it. Like it I don't think this is biblical. It was but it in in the chosen. There's a um a scene where Matthew is talking to the one of the officers. Gaius, I think they made his his his name with. Um but he says, um, all I have I have one thing to do today. Wake up and follow him. He figures everything else out.

SPEAKER_01 22:52

That's really great.

SPEAKER_02 22:54

That's that's it. Like um lean into the things you feel shameful about. Expose the enemy. Just at the end of the day, if it's confusing and you don't know what's going on, just follow Jesus and let him figure everything else out.

SPEAKER_01 23:09

Yeah. Expose it definitely. Like you and I had a moment earlier this week where we're just kind of going back and forth with sharing some of the thoughts that we're having, and it was just like a sequence of us exposing the voice of the enemy in our mind and be like, okay, well, that's funny. All right, now that's done.

SPEAKER_02 23:24

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 23:24

Okay. Nice try.

SPEAKER_02 23:26

And it's almost like as soon as you let it come out of your mouth, you you then it clicks where it's like, this is so silly. It's such a lie. Yeah, it's so it was comical, demonic. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, it is comical once it's exposed, but you know, when it's live when it's just circulating in your head, it's just gonna it it almost like snowballs, it gets bigger. Right. And then you like let it out, especially in in a space where you can trust godly wisdom to come back at you and it's just like a fire extinguisher, just like yeah, like the devil's gonna keep knocking at your door.

SPEAKER_01 24:03

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 24:04

But the good news is you can have Jesus open that door.

SPEAKER_01 24:07

That reminds me of Ephesians 6, where that shield of faith, it will quench the fiery darts, it will literally fizzle out in so in such an easy way.

SPEAKER_02 24:18

It's like yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 24:22

Um, okay, so we're gonna wrap it up, guys, because we are actually off to church here pretty shortly. Thanks for um experiencing your first halfway through it episode.

SPEAKER_02 24:33

Hopefully that wasn't as underwhelming. Halfway through it is an exaggeration. Halfway is way further than yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 24:44

This is fun though. Thanks for you guys just for even listening to any of the episodes.

SPEAKER_02 24:49

Yeah. I mean, maybe at this point we should start saying like and subscribe, but it feels like such a yeah.

SPEAKER_01 24:57

I know I I just I I I really like the the no pressure, the no obligation, just following the lead of the Holy Spirit and trusting that He is gonna bless us. So on that note, I would love to close this out in prayer. Yes. Thank you, Heavenly Father, thank you, Jesus. Thank you. We give you all the praise, Lord, that you are worthy to be praised, Father God. We thank you for your goodness, we thank you for your mercies, Lord, and we just even thank you for just your supernatural wisdom. We thank you for your word, that we can expose the enemy when he is trying to speak, Father God. We silence the voice of the enemy, Lord, and we thank you that the cry, that the cross shows, Lord, that he has no power, that we live in full victory. And so we speak the name of Jesus and we disarm the enemy, Father God, that um you have all authority, you have all power, you have all dominion, Lord. And I just ask you, Lord, that in this shorter episode, Father God, that um you would just even anoint this conversation still and that there's even um even a small shift that happens in someone's heart, Father God, that we can be equipped and armored up going into this week, that we would be even um sharper, that our spirits would be quickened and awake, Lord, that you would give us the eyes and the ears to see, Father God, and just to be able to walk in that full authority. And I just thank you for the helper that is within us. We thank you, Holy Spirit, that you continue to walk with us, Lord. Um, I pray, Lord, that we could just live life in a way and even to use words and have conversations in a way that honors you and that speaks life to each other, Father. And so we just thank you so much for your faithfulness and your mighty name we pray in Jesus' name.

SPEAKER_02 26:39

Amen. Amen.