[005] You Never Left

What if the spiritual path is not about getting somewhere — but realizing you never left?

In this episode of The Noah Frequency, Noah explores the tension between human identity and essence, and why so much of spiritual seeking is built on a mistaken premise: that we are separate from what we’re looking for.

Through a deeply personal exchange with Stephen and moving questions from listeners, Noah speaks about intuition, relationships, pain, grief, forgiveness, and the idea that every meaningful encounter is arranged before incarnation. Again and again, he returns to one central point: your essence is not far away, hidden, or hard to reach. It is already here.

Topics in this episode include:

• The difference between human identity and essence
 • Why intuition arrives when the mind softens
 • Whether our relationships are predetermined before incarnation
 • Why pain may remain when we keep “trying” to reach essence
 • How grief, love, and forgiveness continue beyond physical life
 • What people may really mean when they speak of angels on earth

At the center of the conversation is a simple but radical reminder: you are not trying to return to essence. You never left.

Transcript

SPEAKER_04 0:06

Welcome to the Noah Frequency. A live show where a channeled consciousness named Noah speaks through trans medium Nico Kapuzos. Fielding questions about life's mysteries and about you. What follows is not an interview, but rather a QA with the spirit world. I'm your host, Stephen Berkeley. Greetings, Noah. It's wonderful to have you with us today.

SPEAKER_05 0:44

Greetings to you, my dear one. The honor is ours, my dear. Our humble gratitude to you for once more providing us this opportunity to be heard. If I may, my dear, I wish to begin by asking you a question. Your perception, my dear. Why is it at this time within your reality? Why is it at this time within your reality? There is much talk, discussion, speculation of advanced consciousness. Why do you perceive that is, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 1:53

I can only say what I've heard, and what I've heard is that the vibration of the entire planet is rising.

SPEAKER_05 2:08

Understand, my dear. The significant changes in your time are not new. There have been many changes over centuries. Each generation consists of those who are pivotal with change. The great thinkers of your time, the innovators, the brave ones, if you will, recognize through their own shared awareness the ability to reach the boundaries of consciousness. Each of you possess the exact same ability, for each of you are indeed essence. The changes to come will appear in time to be even more drastic than the changes that have occurred over centuries. No, indeed, technology has advanced and shall continue. It is the behavioral patterns of humanity which will change. And each of you serve as catalysts. Each one's awareness gently expanding in order for each to brush against consciousness. As essences, you are consciousness. And yet notice, my dear, this simple definition is not yet spoken of with those in UML. Simple. Yet confusing, is it not, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 4:29

I feel like I've been in this space long enough where I feel like it's familiar to me.

SPEAKER_05 4:36

The space you mentioned, my dear, is your own expanded awareness. This is the space you mentioned that you were quite privy to when you enter this physical reality. Prior to speech, prior to rational thinking, prior to the development of the human identity. Hence why you sense this familiarity once more. Is that clear, my dear? It is, thank you. And if I may, I wish to offer our greetings to all who are listening, who have joined, and who are eager to remember something this evening. Each one who has joined. If they have prepared a question or not, is anticipating, receiving insight. The irony, my dear ones. It is your essence, your highest essence, who has guided you to join this evening. To capture that through this vessel's voice, which you are not attuning to within your own field of awareness. So any insight, any perceived wisdom is also your own. Do not view these transmissions as teachings from afar, teachings from greater than. So this wisdom is yours. It is merely being heard through your human ears.

SPEAKER_04 7:54

I think we're gonna just go to the gallery and ask people to raise their hands if they have a question, like usual. Indeed, my dear. That's okay with you?

SPEAKER_05 8:03

Indeed.

SPEAKER_04 8:04

Very good. I see Keisha, you put you stuck your hand up, but can you raise your mechanical hand for me? And I'll unmute you.

SPEAKER_07 8:19

I'm looking for that spot. I'm on I'm on my phone instead of my computer.

SPEAKER_04 8:24

You can go ahead and ask your question, Keisha.

SPEAKER_07 8:26

Okay. Let's see. Hello, Noah.

SPEAKER_05 8:31

Greetings, my dear one.

SPEAKER_07 8:33

Nice to hear you again. So recently you spoke to me of um ego versus essence. And I would like to hear more about the process in which one releases ego in order to live with the awareness of being essence all the time. And I realize I realize it's not an intellectual process, but I'm intellectually oriented. Because most of us are wired this way, having the brains in our heads that we do. So I'm looking for um your wisdom as to how to know when it's ego and not essence that's present in this life. For all things, you know, to for all things. That's my question. Thank you.

SPEAKER_05 9:34

Allow me to clarify. It is not merely the human brain within the form, it is also your awareness, my dear. The awareness of essence. The human mind is crafted as the human identity is created. It reflects a physical journey, rooted in your belief system, education values, life experiences, and your intuition, my dear, your ability to sense feeling, to understand right and write. This is within your awareness. This is your essence, my dear. It is not a matter of ego, as you state, but as identity becomes louder and more powerful, which drowns out the subtle power of one's essence. When one is consumed with a reality, and the conscious mind is consistently active, my dear. There is no time to pause. It is the moment when the conscious mind softens, when new thoughts appear. This is your intuition, my dear. It is not placed in the mind at that moment. This is direct guidance from you, from your highest essence, who is the one governing and guiding this physical incarnation. Destores this guidance, this insight within your awareness. And the moment conscious mind softens, a mere moment, my dear, is all that is required. That insight is delivered to the conscious mind as intuition. Notice, my dear, throughout this physical incarnation, how often you recognized intuition, but you selected not to follow it. This is what is framed in your reality as free will, my dear. You're always offered guided, offered guidance, for you are sharing that space with your highest essence, my dear. Softening the identity. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_07 13:28

Yes, it is. Thank you.

SPEAKER_05 13:31

Understand, my dear. Even as you receive these words, your conscious mind was intellectualizing. But also notice if you pause for a moment, how is your awareness reacting? Simple, my dear. Close your eyes momentarily and shift your focus from the front portion of your brain to the rear. Notice, my dear, you become calmer, how the thoughts even slow. In that calmness, my dear, you sense expansiveness. And notice how the clarity is precise. Do you recognize that, my dear?

SPEAKER_07 14:46

Yes. Thank you, dear.

SPEAKER_05 14:51

And are you, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 14:54

No, you said that our identities are not reflective reflective of our essence. Is that I hear you correctly?

SPEAKER_05 15:04

My dear one. Review your identity as it is today. Is it not merely all of your experiences amassed into one?

SPEAKER_04 15:27

It is not merely all my experiences. I feel like my identity is there's a hint of my essence in how I express myself. Isn't that true for most people?

SPEAKER_05 15:37

My dear, you are mentioning now the emotional layers of your identity. Your human identity, my dear, is what is created through your journey within your incarnation. It is how you think your actions, your reactions, your beliefs, your intellect. It is not your emotion, my dear. Your human identity coincides with the human conscious mind. There are limitations, my dear one. The mind cannot create emotion. Your essence is what provides the emotion.

SPEAKER_04 16:35

So if I met my essence today, I would not recognize it.

SPEAKER_05 16:39

You are your essence because you feel. But allow me to ask you a question. Do you always support that which you feel?

SPEAKER_04 16:51

No.

SPEAKER_05 16:51

Do you always honor it? Are your intentions a reflection of what you feel inside? Or are your intentions guarded by your thought process and how your human identity would react?

SPEAKER_04 17:05

I'm sure it's the latter.

SPEAKER_05 17:07

There is the answer to your question, my dear. Trust, my dear. Human identity is not a fault. It is intentional. Without it, an essence would not be able to navigate within physical incarnation, nor believe that they are deeply rooted within the human experience. But the mere fact that each human identity is able to feel, express emotion, experience physical pain. It is evident that that journey is the journey of the soul. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 18:09

It is clear, but it's disappointing in a way because I like to believe that I fell in love with my wife's essence. And so I like to believe I would be able to recognize her essence when I'm in another realm.

SPEAKER_05 18:26

You are forgetting something quite important here. You did not meet your spouse in this reality. Notice your words. You spoke of emotion. You spoke of love. If that is a reflection of both your essences, where do you believe the relationship originated?

SPEAKER_04 18:58

Well, I wouldn't have said this before I met you, Noah, but our essences met each other and decided to love each other.

SPEAKER_05 19:07

My dear. And because of such, the agreement was to incarnate simultaneously. And to accept the roles of spouses for this particular incarnation.

SPEAKER_04 19:32

Is that true for all spouses?

SPEAKER_05 19:35

Indeed, all relationships, my dear. All relationships were predetermined. Indeed, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 19:43

Before our incarnations.

SPEAKER_05 19:45

Indeed. Even, my dear, the brief encounters with a stranger were also readable. There is no random choice meetings. Each and every experience, my dear, even today, even all those who have joined, and all those who shall listen. It is not a coincidence, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 20:19

No, I have a very noisy neighbor. I really don't like him. Did we arrange to live next to each other so I would learn tolerance or something like that?

SPEAKER_05 20:29

Notice, my dear. Answered the question in your question. You are irritated. I am. This is because your human identity is forgetting. That one is also an essence, my dear. Notice, my dear, if we are all interconnected as essence, we are all consciousness.

SPEAKER_04 20:56

Yes.

SPEAKER_05 20:57

Why would there be division in your realm?

SPEAKER_04 21:00

Because we're operating as our identities.

SPEAKER_05 21:04

It is a perception of the identity. This is where forgetfulness plays a pivotal role. There's so many in your realm have forgotten their essence. If, my dear, the agreement was not to reside near you, to disrespect you in order for you to continue to become imitable. Would you even pause this moment and consider the words I'm saying? I guess not. Trust, my dear, that even as you are an intellect in your form. Within your identity. Your highest essence far exceeds the intellect any human can bear. Your essence, my dear, is the one who has choreographed this physical incarnation. Each essence is, my dear, overlapping consciousness, inserting specific meetings, relationships, difficulties throughout each one, each one's physical journey. And now, my dear, notice how many there are in your realm. Is this not profound intelligence? Which is why the teachings of your reality, where they enforce time, separation, the focus of one journey, karma, punishment, salvation, offers insight to how less than the human intellect truly is. Accept without proof, fear without experiencing, because they are taught to do so.

SPEAKER_04 23:56

You said accept without proof. Isn't that what you would like us to do when you tell us about our essence?

SPEAKER_05 24:06

My dear, this is different. Fear is what I was mentioning. Even this form of communication, my dear. Notice how many fear it because they were told to do so. One does not fear their essence, my dear. Offering specifics of what pertains to your essence. But even you, my dear. Even any non-believer, my dear. No one fears the creator. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 25:36

Yes, it is. But I feel even if I were to meditate ten hours a day, I don't think I'll be able to escape my identity.

SPEAKER_05 25:48

And then no one is asking you to escape your identity, merely to soften it. There is no reason to utilize such a lengthy period of time when all one needs is a few moments to shift their focus, the conscious mind, to the awareness within the same brain. Just as the one prior demonstrated. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 26:28

Yes. But you mentioned earlier that my essence is far more intelligent than my identity. I'd like to be able to tap into that and feel that more often, but I don't think all the meditation in the world will do that for me. My dear.

SPEAKER_05 26:48

Reflect on this physical journey, those moments where you were faced with a decision, uncertain, where you questioned your own worth. Notice how you paused. Unknowingly, you softened the identity. Your focus shifted to your awareness. And did you not receive clarity? Which allowed you to make a sound decision? Did you not receive comfort, support, strength? It allowed you to continue on with confidence. Do you perceive that was the intellect of the human identity? The same one who was faced the challenge of making the decision and was uncertain? Or do you perceive that was the higher intellect of your highest essence, guiding you through your own intuition to that shared field of awareness?

SPEAKER_04 28:07

Oh, but the way you framed that question I'm going to say was probably that.

SPEAKER_05 28:13

Notice, my dear, if you did not possess a higher level of intellect as a higher essence, how would you navigate this physical incarnation? And how would you learn through difficult moments? Do all both, my dear, simultaneously. It is not a matter of silencing one. Experience both. Continue with your journey with the knowing that you do possess the intellect. You are not thinking alone, if you will. You're always guided by your own essence. It is not. But the human intellect is limited, my dear. It is that your highest essence has a higher vantage point, which sees beyond the illusion of time, which already has experienced all future possibilities. It is still you, my dear. It is just perception is changed through different lenses. One at a higher vantage which does not possess the same obstacles and obscursion you face to this physical incarnation. Is that clear?

SPEAKER_04 30:03

Yes.

SPEAKER_05 30:05

Wonderful idea.

SPEAKER_04 30:13

Shall we see if other people have some questions for you now?

SPEAKER_05 30:16

Indeed, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 30:19

Okay. Who would like to ask Noah a question? Because I've been monopolizing his time for the past half hour. Would anyone like to ask a question?

SPEAKER_05 30:31

Are you certain, my dear, that your questions were not theirs?

SPEAKER_04 30:37

That's a good one, Noah. I think that you're definitely helping me broaden my awareness.

SPEAKER_05 30:47

I am reminding you. I am not assisting you. You have not forgotten.

SPEAKER_04 30:57

I'm assuming people's mechanical hands do work. I haven't seen anybody's mechanical hand yet today, so maybe somebody could raise their mechanical hand just to make sure it works. Anybody? Okay, I see two. Now I can't tell. The one that doesn't really want to ask a question, you can lower it. But Nancy's okay, nobody has a question. I'm gonna I'm gonna filibuster Noah if no one else has a question. Should I just do that?

SPEAKER_05 31:29

Indeed, my dear, but also inform them. Maybe listen to your hearts, my dear ones. If there is something you wish to discuss, come forth. It may not be in the same manner of questioning. It may just be your truth.

SPEAKER_04 31:54

I see that Carolyn has a question and she seems to be ready.

SPEAKER_06 32:01

No um no question. Just uh what what you might have for me today in my highest good. Oh my dear.

SPEAKER_05 32:15

Notice the heaviness of your heart, my dear. Why are you carrying this with you? It is as if you wish to believe. But through your life experiences, you are finding difficulty to truly believe, my dear. You are failing to remember. That all life experiences, my dear, are intentional. And you, my dear, your highest essence is the one that inserted each of these experiences for you to live through. So I continue to carry the pain, my dear, and the lesson has already been absorbed. When one continues to harbor pain, it is as if they are closing their heart, my dear. You are of love, my dear. Your love. Which is why you feel the ache physically in the human heart. But honor the pain, my dear. It was not of your bravery to live through the experience in order to feel pain so intimately. There is no possible way, my dear, your highest essence would feel the same pain. So it is not, my dear. Difficulty as you perceive it to be, nor life-threatening, nor meant to be permanent, my dear. Each difficult pain offers even more honor to you. Remember, my dear, you are not alone carrying this pain. You are loved for it. But that is where there is growth for your essence. So be kind with your human identity, my dear. Honor your bravery. And honor your essence. Is that clear, my dear one?

SPEAKER_06 35:38

Yes, thank you. As clear as it can be.

SPEAKER_05 35:42

And I you, my dear. You mentioned, my dear, as clear as it can be. Which part, my dear? Does not soothe the heart?

SPEAKER_06 36:02

Does not work?

SPEAKER_05 36:04

Soothe the pain of your heart, my dear. Which part are you seeking more clarity on I work every day to move away from the pain.

SPEAKER_06 36:38

To open.

SPEAKER_05 36:40

Continue, my dear.

SPEAKER_06 36:42

I work every day to open to essence and find relief and often do find relief.

SPEAKER_05 37:01

And notice, my dear, how the more effort you provide, perception of arriving nowhere is revealed. How can one, my dear, aim to reach a destination that they have never left? Is not a matter of you, my dear, reaching for your essence, for you are one and the same. Nor is it a matter of you applying effort, my dear. Or rather, implying acceptance, my dear. You are seeking to connect with essence to alleviate the pain you are carrying. But when one accepts the pain as the journey, so the essence can evolve. One is reminded that they are essence, my dear. There is no loss. Feel the expansiveness of your heart now, my dear. Why do you perceive that is occurring as we speak?

SPEAKER_06 38:53

Opening to essence.

SPEAKER_05 38:57

Remembering your own, my dear. All communication is through love. Each time, my dear, you experience this fullness of the heart. This is your own essence, my dear, reminding you that this journey has purpose. Your strength is honored. And there is gratitude that you experienced the pain physically in order for your essence to grow and evolve. That warmth, my dear, is appreciation, is connection and this remembrance. So if you already possess that, my dear, I ask you, why are you continuously seeking God? For it is already there. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_04 40:26

Thank you, my dear one. Thank you, Carolyn. Nancy, you have a question?

SPEAKER_09 40:36

I think I um feel a little bit like Carolyn.

SPEAKER_08 40:43

Um I feel like if I pause and try to soften my identity and I can feel a connection to essence. I feel like I can't carry that over into situations in this realm, you know, are so challenging. I get confused as to what I'm supposed to do.

SPEAKER_05 41:17

These words are applied to the both of you. First recognize your identities, your reactions, even the order you process pain is quite relevant to your identity. The sense that you are suffocating, the sense that you cannot alleviate the pain is based on your upbringing, your own personal life experiences. You are intrigued. Connection to spirit. But you are much more open when it is someone else making a connection for you. Once more, a reflection of your own life experiences, the conditioning, the teachings, the belief system. It is not difficult to connect to your own essence. It is not difficult to connect to the essences of those you've loved and lost of your wealth. What is difficult is to attempt to do so through the rigid lens of your identity. It only sees that which it was taught to see. It only understands based on the teachings and learnings and lessons of this incarnation. This is why both of you experience perceived difficulty with letting go of pain. With sustaining the connection to essence. Because you are both inadvertently returning to the comfort zone of your identity. And recognize that is not a coincidence either. That is intentional. There are more lessons being learned. But the fact that both of you are present today and open to receive different perspectives, different insight to serve as indication that there will be changes to come. As time progresses in your realm, you will recognize how to soften the identity. And that is when your connection returns.

SPEAKER_04 45:22

Thank you.

SPEAKER_05 45:24

And I you, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 45:25

Thank you, Nancy. Christy. Hi.

SPEAKER_05 45:31

Greetings, my dear.

SPEAKER_10 45:33

Hello, Noah. Thank you so much for taking my question. And my oldest and closest friend had died a few years ago angry with me. And I'm hoping she's forgiven me.

SPEAKER_05 45:56

My dear. Allow me to ask you. Do you recall how effortless it was to share laughter with your friend?

SPEAKER_10 46:13

Of course.

SPEAKER_05 46:14

Do you recall? How effortless it was to feel the love in the embrace. Do you recall, my dear? How effortless a smile appeared on your face with the mere thought of her?

SPEAKER_10 46:37

Yes.

SPEAKER_05 46:40

All of this, my dear, is because you are both essence. Love is effortless, for love is eternal. Each life, each incarnation runs its own course, my dear, its own trajectory, aligned for growth of the essence. When relationships are once more in physical form, my dear. It is for purpose. It is not a matter, my dear, of quarrels, disagreements, hurtful words, nor pain. Those are constituents, my dear, in order to learn to the relationship in the physical reality. All of that remains in the physical reality. What her essence remembers, my dear, is exactly that remembrance prior to this incarnation with you once more. How effortless love is, how gratifying a smile is. It is born of your realm and remains in your realm. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_10 49:05

Perfectly. I thank you so much.

SPEAKER_05 49:09

And also, my dear, recognize this when you do consume yourself with these thoughts. And it does bring you to weep. Do you not sense comfort near?

SPEAKER_10 49:30

Yes.

SPEAKER_05 49:33

Oh, my dear, who do you perceive that is?

SPEAKER_10 49:39

I understand it's her.

SPEAKER_05 49:42

That is definitely her essence, my dear. And in that comfort, there is that effortless love.

SPEAKER_04 49:51

Thank you.

SPEAKER_05 49:53

And I you, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 49:56

Thank you, Christy. We have Randy up next.

SPEAKER_01 50:01

Hi, I know. Steven things. Greetings.

SPEAKER_05 50:05

Greetings to you, my dear one.

SPEAKER_01 50:07

Um, so my question is in my heart, and I'm not sure what the words are. So I guess I'm wondering what the message is for me right now. Because I can't formulate the question properly.

SPEAKER_05 50:29

The heart, my dear, is transparent. This is the one region of the human form which transcends with essence. But the physical form, my dear, it also offsets the nervous system. Heartache, my dear, as coined in your vowel, truly equates to physical pain. But the nervous system is not adjusting. To experience the heartache, even if it is not your own, my dear, is because that is how it is truly embodied as essence, integrated through your highest essence for learning. The ache is intentional, my dear. And notice why. With each ache, there is compassion. A soft word. A reminder that you are near. A shoulder to lean on, if you will. Because there is no one experiencing an incarnation who is not essence. And there is no essence that does not recognize that pain hurts. But there is profound honor, my dear. Essence to essence. Which is why there is such compassion within humanity when one is in pain. Continue, my dear, to be the presence you are. Unbeknownst to you. This is truly making a difference with the level of pain. We are grateful to you, my dear. Thank you.

SPEAKER_04 53:23

Thank you, Randy. Steffi, you are up.

SPEAKER_02 53:29

Hey, thank you so much for hosting Steven and thank you, Noah, for taking my question.

SPEAKER_05 53:34

Um greetings to you, my dear.

SPEAKER_02 53:37

Hello. Um, I was wondering, are there angels on earth? And if so, what is their role and how do they interact with us?

SPEAKER_05 53:52

My dear, to logically answer your question, my dear. Those in the angelic realm, my dear, do not experience human incarnation as you. And yet, my dear, as is your essence, their essence is everywhere at all times. When one, my dear, is truly aligned with their essence while in human form. When their awareness reaches the depths of consciousness, when they truly remember, my dear, their actions as their human embodiment truly reflect their essence. They seem more compassionate, more understanding, more loving. They do not respond as others do with hatred, anger. They're always forgiving, my dear. But they are truly their essence through physical form. And those in your realm perceive them as those in the angelic realm. The same applies, my dear, with those once understood to be and are now ascendant masters. The same applies to you, my dear, and each of you. Regardless of how you acted within this incarnation as a result of your environment. The more one returns to their essence, the more one remembers, the more they act upon their essence through the human form. They too be perceived, my dear, as those of angelic realms, as ascended masters, as teachers, as leaders, as pureness. It is not a special trait, my dear. Each of you are born with this ability, for each of your essence. It is a matter of how far one is willing to honor their essence, to be their essence, to project their essence to their physical form. And that is what we began this conversation with, by asking the question of this expanded consciousness occurring within your realm. It is because in time there will be many projecting their true essence through their human form into a different reality, where humanity is one with their essence. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_02 57:45

Yes, thank you very much.

SPEAKER_04 57:48

And I you, my dear. Very good. So, Noah, there are no more hands raised, and that's a good thing because we're at the end of the hour.

SPEAKER_05 58:02

Indeed, my dear. As was intended.

SPEAKER_04 58:09

Very smooth. Thank you. Really appreciate your being here today. And I'm going to unmute everyone so that they will be able to say so long to you if I could figure out how to do that real quickly.

SPEAKER_05 58:26

Our gratitude to each of you has our honor and our respect.

SPEAKER_04 58:34

Okay, I people can't allow people can't unmute themselves if they want to say so long to Noah.

SPEAKER_05 58:40

Thank you, Noah.

SPEAKER_10 58:45

Thank you, Noah.

SPEAKER_05 58:53

And I thank you, my dear.

SPEAKER_04 58:56

Of course. Have a wonderful weekend, Noah.