[21] The Story You Keep Telling Yourself

In this episode of The Noah Frequency, Noah begins with a simple observation:

A heavy heart is not the problem.

The story we create about it is.

As the discussion unfolds, Noah challenges the tendency to interpret every emotion through the lens of identity—assigning meaning, blame, fear, and certainty to experiences that may be something far simpler and far deeper.

According to Noah, even emotions we resist most—grief, confusion, disappointment, and pain—are not separate from love. They are love viewed through a different lens.

This conversation explores:

•  Why emotions feel so convincing 
•  How identity creates narratives around pain 
•  The difference between experiencing an emotion and interpreting it 
•  Why love may be the foundation beneath every feeling 
•  And how returning to essence changes our relationship with suffering 

Sometimes the greatest source of pain is not what happened.

It's the story we keep telling ourselves about what happened.

And sometimes freedom begins the moment that story loosens its grip.

Transcript

SPEAKER_07 0:06

Welcome to the Noah Frequency. A live show where a channeled consciousness named Noah speaks through trans medium Nico Kapuzos. Fielding questions about life's mysteries and about you. What follows is not an interview, but rather a QA with the spirit world. I'm your host, Stephen Berkeley. Greetings, Noah. It's wonderful to have you with us today.

SPEAKER_01 0:41

Greetings to you, my dear one. It truly is an honor and a privilege once more, my dear.

SPEAKER_07 0:49

Our honor.

SPEAKER_01 0:55

Welcome to all who have joined and who are listening. An honor as well. Notice, my dear. The heavy heart. But truly notice why there is an experience of a heavy heart. We have mentioned this before. All occurrences occur as they are meant. The spectrum is vast. The emotions experience are many, my dear. But your perception as the identity of these emotions felt create its own narrative, its own understanding, its own meaning. And that allows those emotions to appear real within your incarnation, even purposeful. But what truly occurs, my dear, is how your essence perceives those emotions. For even if your conditioned mind does not agree, my dear, love is the basis of each emotion which appears and is experienced within incarnation. Even pain, my dear ones. Truly is love experienced through a different lens, to a different degree, to your essence, to your identity and disincarnation. We are aware, my dear. The narrative as mentioned. The worry. The confusion, the irritation. The desire to rewind time. This, my dear, is where what truly occurs is always overlooked by the identity. The fork of your trajectory, if you will. So where you perceive unfortunate occurrences occurred. Perhaps, my dear, the only occurred within this timeline you are privy of. Perhaps that was a split. That was a fall. You are unaware as your identity why moments unfold as they are. But trust me, my dear, your essence knows. Moments are always unfolding with intentionality. But if it were meant for your identity on this specific timeline to understand the why, why would there be a need for the fork? Is that clear to you, my dear?

SPEAKER_07 5:15

I think so.

SPEAKER_01 5:18

Wonderful. But notice, all who are present and all who are listening, as you have been seeking for truth, remembrance, for each of you, notice as you recognize the interference, the effort of the identity, the attempt to find meaning prior to allowing the unfolding to complete. As you have noticed this more, you have also noticed what is occurring. The lesson each of you have truly absorbed is the continuity. As there is no time as mentioned. Your essence continues. Remembrance continues. Interconnectedness with other essences continues. Which allows your incarnation to evolve through time. Notice the difference, my dear ones. Truly notice the difference.

SPEAKER_07 7:17

Yes, one thing that is unclear, Noah, to me is that we have agency, we have free will. In this incarnation, how do we know when I'm how do I know when I'm supposed to just let things unfold because there's some deeper purpose for it, and when I'm supposed to be active?

SPEAKER_01 7:37

Wonderful, my dear. Notice the statement of free will originates from your identity. And notice, my dear. This has been taught to you. It is not remembered by your essence. There is a difference, my dear.

SPEAKER_07 7:58

I do not have free will.

SPEAKER_01 8:01

My dear. That simple, quiet word, offers much strength to your identity, enforces its control, enforces its perception that it is the center of the universe, if you will. And yet, my dear, the identity was formed, conditioned, a product of its environment, if you will, based on all of your experiences, every engagement with every relationship, foreign or familiar, all your education, all your religious beliefs, every word you have heard, every word you have read, everything, my dear, created intentionally to occur in order for your identity to be crafted. Whom do you presume created these moments to occur? Engaged in sacred covenants with each relationship you have engaged with. Never utilizes the word I for it knows. An incarnation can never be created alone, my dear. This is the interconnectedness of essence. A truly intricate plan, if you will, created before any incarnations.

SPEAKER_07 10:04

A plan that I am not putting to.

SPEAKER_01 10:08

You already possess the knowledge of the plan, my dear. You already possess for your essence. Your focus is on your identity understanding, receiving clarity. But it is also the same identity which allows your essence to experience the human incarnation. So both are vital components, my dear. Both provide their own role, if you will. Both are the same essence. Well, one must be the experience, my dear, as the human incarnate, in order for its essence to truly experience intimately. That is where emotions are provided by your essence.

SPEAKER_07 11:07

Isn't that clear, my dear? It is, Noah, but haven't you been beseeching all of us to listen with our essence? Haven't you been doing that? And yet we seem to not be allowed to know much about what our essence wants.

SPEAKER_01 11:27

Once more, my dear, you are attempting to find the answers through one narrow lens of your identity. Understand, my dear one. At this stage of your journey, you have forgotten your earlier years. When you were expressing as your essence, you are that true unconditional love. So when this journey began for you, my dear, you were your essence. You are privy to the entire journey. And yet you are unable to speak. Is this not also intentional, my dear? Notice speech is never required to admit love. Your presence, your essence is your love. The more your identity condition, the more you are seeking answers you already possess. The difference is they are not the answers your identity wants to hear. Which is also intentional. And you are correct. Listen to your essence. Remember you are essence first, my dear. Notice the interference of the mind, the identity, its desires, based on the conditioning. Trust the silence, trust the intuition, trust the feeling. Notice each moment you receive powerful insight. There is emotional sensation attached to it, my dear. The mind cannot create that. That is essence. A gentle nudge, a reminder. So you are already equipped with all that you need to retrieve your own answers as essence. That is the journey, my dear. Some struggle, some resist, others soften, others accept. As the incarnation utilizes time to sustain longevity, if you will. Notice death does not equate to specific ages. This is no race, my dear. There is no comparison to another's journey, remembrance, or struggles. What is mandatory is for you to focus solely on your own. But you focusing on this incarnation was proving quite vital to all parallel ones and all forks in this timeline. Isn't that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_07 15:03

Yes, it is. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 15:05

Invite you. Shall we bring forth others now, my dear?

SPEAKER_07 15:13

I think so.

SPEAKER_01 15:15

Wonderful.

SPEAKER_07 15:17

Who would like to ask Noah the first question other than me? No one is volunteering yet, Noah.

SPEAKER_01 15:33

She is shy because she always goes first.

SPEAKER_07 15:38

Who always goes first?

SPEAKER_01 15:43

You may come fourth, my dear one.

SPEAKER_07 15:45

There you are. Okay, Randy. You're up.

SPEAKER_08 15:53

Greetings, Noah. Hi, Steven.

SPEAKER_01 15:55

Really see you, my dear.

SPEAKER_08 15:59

Um, I don't so much have a question as uh trying to understand how all the emotions are showing up and understanding it's my the identity's interpretation of what the essence feels as love. And I'm just trying to wrap my head around that.

SPEAKER_01 16:33

When you state my dear, you are attempting to understand. This is the identity. Notice my dear. The underlying current, if you will, of the emotion is the same. It is love. Focus for a moment on love. The true, powerful, soft, steady current of that energy. It is effortless, pure, expansive. And now, my dear, focus on a moment you would call pain, heartache, loss. If you truly focus on what you experienced, you will always notice that underlining current of love. But that underlining is what allowed you, the human incarnate, to live through the perception of devastating pain. Continue to reflect your fears, your worries, anxiousness, all, my dear, all emotions you've experienced. If you pause while you are experiencing that emotion, you will notice the underlining of love.

SPEAKER_04 18:16

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 18:17

For if not for love, those emotions would never exist. For if not for love and covenants, those relationships would never exist. Hence those moments would never occur. So rather than focusing on understanding to appease your identity, do not attempt to understand, just observe and feel. And that is how you receive the understanding your essence already possesses.

SPEAKER_03 18:54

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 18:59

But notice, my dear, you are also learning that seeking meaning, understanding is not as important as the identity attempts to convince you it is. That is alignment with your essence, my dear. And the more you continue this journey of alignment, the more you begin to follow only your intuition, which does not require your understanding as identity. This is where the true test of bravery is, if you will. That is the trust. For those you hold near and dear, my dear, we'll ask you to explain it to them. If you're allowing the events to unfold, if you're allowing the trust of that intuitive thought, you are aware of what is to come, my dear, but you are unable to articulate it, for there is no meaning or understanding. It's just that knowing that is guidance. When that occurs, my dear, trust your strength. Even if your identity feels is exposed and fears how it will be received. Do not follow that, my dear. Isn't that clear, my dear one?

SPEAKER_08 21:00

It is. I can feel the pushback from the identity, but it's clear. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 21:06

Pushback.

SPEAKER_08 21:08

Resistance.

SPEAKER_01 21:09

Notice, my dear, this resistance is not what you perceive it to be. Perhaps, my dear. It is your essence challenging the control of the identity. In order for you to feel and experience this pushback. Trust it, my dear. Everything is intentional. Perhaps that was created instantaneously for you to notice it in order not to follow it. And perhaps it is still your essence initiating that. To occur. Even my dear, when you experience this resistance, what feeling emotion were you noticing at the same time?

SPEAKER_08 22:16

Love. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 22:18

There you go, my dear. The underlining current. Always focus. Continue, my dear.

SPEAKER_08 22:28

Always love under every emotion.

SPEAKER_01 22:32

Love is the underlying current, my dear, of all. So even when your mind is challenging. The courage to not follow it. Even when your identity, my dear, is creating its own narrative, its own illusion. Reflecting on memories. Or even perceive yourself as a failure. The identity's role, if you will, my dear, is to keep you in its own alignment, where it can protect you, it can direct you. And this is where most perceive the inner battle. But even in this moment, my dear, where you notice the resistance, you also notice the feeling. You will always notice that underlining through every mental battle, my dear. But most of humanity does not focus on that. They overlook it. And the mind is unable to create the emotion. So even as, my dear, you are currently experiencing this in the battle. If you are noticing that underlying love, understand this is being created by your essence. Trust what you feel. I will always guide you, my dear, to your truth. Is that clear, my dear one?

SPEAKER_08 24:22

It is, and I'm so grateful. Thank you so much.

SPEAKER_01 24:27

As are we, my dear one.

SPEAKER_07 24:32

Thank you, Randy. Nancy, I'm going to unmute you. Okay, go ahead, Nancy.

SPEAKER_05 24:40

Um, thank you, Stephen. Um, thank you, Kano, for being here.

SPEAKER_01 24:45

Greetings to you, my dear.

SPEAKER_05 24:50

I appreciate Randy's question as always. Um I am feeling that too, this inner conflict, and when and yes, I I am aware of the underlying current of love. I think I um not always following the intuition in terms of having courage in the situation and struggling to um do what you said to Stephen to be an observer and trust. So I feel like I'm I'm aware of some things. I don't know if it's trust or courage, or I don't know.

SPEAKER_01 25:39

Embrace, my dear, this struggle you mentioned. But that is truly intentional, my dear. No, it is my dear. This aligns with your true purpose. You have been listening, you have been intellectualizing, you have been accepting in theory, if you will, my dear. And now it is part of your journey to truly live the experience, my dear. Live this struggle. This is quite valuable, my dear. Once you have gained the experience, living it through the incarnate. You learn it much more intimately. You're able, my dear, to view it in others, those who are also sharing experiences of loss, such as you. In other words, my dear, if one was to come before you, and you are not living through this pain, this struggle, this remembrance. You can relate to them, my dear, because of similar events and loss. But you cannot relate to the struggle. What the struggle is, my dear, that release and that remembrance and embracing your essence. So by you living through it, my dear, you not only recognize their struggle, but you are able to now articulate to your honesty, your vulnerability. That is your essence, my dear one. That is honorable, my dear. But you are overlooking. To navigate with an open heart. Continue to remember your essence and allow your vulnerability, my dear, to be exposed once more. Notice this is what you are sheltering. Exactly, my dear.

SPEAKER_06 28:29

Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 28:31

And I you, my dear.

unknown 28:34

Thank you.

SPEAKER_07 28:35

Thank you, Nancy.

SPEAKER_01 28:37

Notice my dear one. When one is continuing this incarnation, believing living its purpose based on what the identity desires. That journey is never quiet. When one is living this incarnation with the purpose of their essence, my dear. And you are vulnerable. That is how one expresses the love of their essence through their identity, my dear. It is not pain, it is love. When you recognize that, my dear, you are able to view another's love through the lens of your human form. But you are able to express that love into that pain. So that is love through the lens of your essence. And that is remaining humble and true to yourself. It is an honorable journey, my dear, for one is seeking nothing in return. Do not view yourself as struggling. View yourself as truly becoming the love you are.

SPEAKER_05 30:37

Yes, thanks. Thank you very much for that. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 30:40

And I you, my dear.

SPEAKER_07 30:43

Thank you, Nancy. Rebecca, you have a question.

SPEAKER_06 30:50

My question has changed as I listen.

SPEAKER_01 30:54

I it's to you, my dear one.

SPEAKER_06 30:57

Hello, Noah. Thank you for being here. Indeed, my dear. I had a thought I had a lot of clarity in my life. Um in the winter months. But the last month or so, I've lived through a lot of chaos, and I'm feeling completely disconnected now, as if I'm behind a glass wall to spirit. And I've had a counselor tell me recently that I need to stop trying to connect with spirits, stop trying, not trying, but stop communicating with my husband because it's cutting my my knowledge in half. And that doesn't feel right, but I'm not, I don't trust myself that that that reaction is not through my essence, uh, my identity. And I'm wondering if you just have any advice.

SPEAKER_01 32:05

Indeed, my dear, allow me to ask you a question. Are you trying to breathe?

SPEAKER_06 32:12

Am I trying trying to what?

SPEAKER_01 32:14

Are you trying to breathe?

SPEAKER_06 32:19

Am I trying to sit and just breathe?

SPEAKER_01 32:22

My dear. But forgive me, my dear, allow me to rephrase that question. Are you applying effort, my dear, with your breathing? Or is it occurring naturally?

SPEAKER_06 32:35

It's natural.

SPEAKER_01 32:38

So then why, my dear, are you applying effort to connect with essence if you already are essence and you're interconnected? That is all the wisdom, my dear, you require to remember. The rest that you have been experiencing, my dear, is the manipulation of your identity. Notice, my dear one. Also intentional. As you have begun to remember your essence, as you have begun to recognize a connectedness, my dear, with your essence. The essence you recall is your husband. Another essence is assisting you. As you have been accepting it, my dear, embracing it, my dear. You have also been unsettling a controlling identity. And this beautiful identity, my dear, has been crafted for years. It is familiar within this domain, my dear. And as what you have been beginning to embrace does not coincide with its conditioning, its learning, its religious beliefs, its education. It is unsettled, my dear. And it will continue its narrative. It will create what you perceive to be chaos. It will whisper, my dear, silently. Challenging your worth, your ability, the actual connection. And as the identity you are, my dear, you turn to another one in physical form, another identity. So receive guidance based on that one's conditioned mind. Intentional, my dear, for you to notice on your own, my dear. The simplicity of your eternal connection has essence. So trust once more your essence, my dear. Trust just as natural as your breathing is, so too is that interconnecting this with essence, my dear. So too is love effortless. Don't recognize this, my dear. That's strength. You're intentionally living this, my dear, for a purpose. Even if you do not understand the purpose just yet, my dear. Trust it all occurs for a reason. Is that clear, my dear one?

SPEAKER_06 36:04

Yes. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 36:07

And notice, my dear. Regardless through this chaos. Regardless through the confusion, the resistance, and even the fear. There has not been one moment, my dear, that you have not recognized the essence near of the one you recall as your husband. That is the continuity we stated earlier, my dear. It never ends. Therefore, my dear, effort is no longer required. Only acceptance is.

SPEAKER_06 37:02

Yes.

SPEAKER_01 37:04

Thank you, my dear.

SPEAKER_06 37:07

Thank you.

SPEAKER_07 37:10

Thank you, Rebecca. Dana.

SPEAKER_02 37:14

Thanks, Stevie. Hi, Noah.

SPEAKER_01 37:17

Greetings to you, my dear.

SPEAKER_02 37:18

Greetings, yeah. So as a being that is not conditioned, I was wondering if you might share some guidance.

SPEAKER_01 37:32

I believe you have this reverse, my dear. I believe perhaps it is time for you to start sharing your remembrance with the many who are ready to listen. Don't you agree, my dear? It is time, my dear, that you have been taking notes for so long. Create the manuscript. It is time, my dear, to create your own gatherings to assist the many. As a student, my dear, there is the joy of seeking, and one wishes for it never to stop. But you continue to remember, even as, my dear, you are aligned with your true purpose. So the seeking never ends, my dear. But it is time you begin to speak your truth with intent. This will challenge you. This will once more bring fear and doubt. Even if you recognize what is occurring, it is conditioned. It shall occur still. That is why this next section is vital in order to experience it firsthand. To overcome it, and to be able to articulate it. And is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_02 39:51

Yes, thank you. Thank you so much.

SPEAKER_01 39:54

And notice the deep exhale, my dear.

SPEAKER_02 39:58

Yes.

SPEAKER_01 40:02

The answer. It is that hesitation, my dear. Plain. Simple. But quite powerful. View that hesitation, my dear, as the detachment. Is that clear?

SPEAKER_02 40:33

I I if you could just a bit more.

SPEAKER_01 40:38

The hesitation, my dear.

SPEAKER_02 40:39

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 40:41

The hesitation. The deep exhale.

SPEAKER_02 40:44

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 40:45

The pause.

SPEAKER_02 40:46

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 40:48

View this as the final layer of the controlling identity.

SPEAKER_02 40:53

Ah.

SPEAKER_01 40:54

Not that not that it is face-to-feat, my dear.

SPEAKER_02 40:58

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 41:00

But the identity will perceive it is no longer useful. But it is still very much useful, my dear. We soften the identity, do not remove the identity. Rather than the hesitation, the deep exhale, the pause. That is where love enters. Just as you, your essence, my dear, will love all of humanity. It must also love the identity. That removes the hesitation. The deep exhale. Is that clear, my dear?

SPEAKER_02 41:42

Yes. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 41:44

And I you, my dear.

SPEAKER_07 41:47

Thank you, Dana. We still have some time for another question. Uh Kat, you're up next. Oops, hold on a second. Let me unmute you. Okay, you're unmuted. Go ahead.

SPEAKER_00 42:19

I have been joining on and off, but I haven't joined for a while before an end of the trip. And somehow today I got a nutch that I have to join for some reason. So I suppose there's something I should hear. And I agree with all these lovely messages. And I have to say that I've been practicing a lot of these since my husband's passing. I came from a workaholic realm to do my own thing. So I'm I'm thinking in like all of that is, but I I'm curious what normal would like me to hear today.

SPEAKER_01 43:11

Um perhaps you have already heard, my dear, that which you are seeking. Perhaps, my dear. It is not a manner of receiving insight, but allowing the words you have heard to confirm that which you already sense.

SPEAKER_00 43:36

I I agree. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 43:43

Welcome.

SPEAKER_00 43:45

Okay. Yeah, I think the the reassuring sort of reconfirmation of what we understand by other people is important. So I guess I but a way I love the word continuity. I I deeply feel that life just continues on.

SPEAKER_01 44:06

So that is a dealing with mind for you when you were touching soil in your gardening, is it not, my dear?

SPEAKER_00 44:14

Oh, definitely. One time I wrote about because I I used to be plant killer, some people call me, and now I'm green thumb, because I see that you if you put in the love, you like even if it's more than just watering, is that love you have for the plan? A lot of them look like totally dead, and then it will come back. So one time I was so touched that I wrote something like um if plans can come back from the dead, how can human not do the same? So and I read that Rumi has written something about it too. So yeah, just want to share.

SPEAKER_01 44:58

Perhaps, my dear, the desire to join today was for you to provide the message as you just did. How you so eloquently, my dear, described how your essence nurtures the identity.

SPEAKER_06 45:19

Probably. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 45:22

Thank you. I thank you, my dear. Thank you.

SPEAKER_07 45:28

Thank you. No, we have no other questions. We have a few minutes left. If you'd like to leave us with some parting words.

SPEAKER_01 45:41

Indeed, my dear. We're going to address you, my dear. You are attempting too difficult too hard, my dear. Everything is difficult. Everything is uncertain. Your identity demands certainty. No, it is intentional, my dear. There will come a time. Softening and truly trusting will be vital for you. This will go against the conditioned intellect. There must be trust, my dear. Or understanding will not be provided. Not everything is meant to be understood. This is your most challenging obstacle. This is why it keeps representing itself over and over again. You are to learn from this. Trust that perhaps that is why your intellect is so great. To offer you such difficulty and such a simple truth.

SPEAKER_07 48:27

It is, thank you. No, I have one question as a follow-up to that. I I'd like to think that with all the work I've done, that my ego identity has softened somewhat, but when we talk, I see I feel like I've made no progress. Did I make some progress?

SPEAKER_01 48:49

It is not my dear matter of your work. That you are your essence. When you truly trust that you are your essence, you accept it. There is no need to attempt to soften the identity. There is no need to find reason to the condition mind. You are the observer as the identity. You are allowing your essence to lead. You notice the intellect of your essence is much more powerful. Much more humbling. And you merely allow your essence, my dear, to be expressed through your form, through your work, through your words, through your relationships, through your perception. This will not offer reason to your identity. That's where the conditioned mind struggles. Exactly.

SPEAKER_07 50:30

Yes, thank you.

SPEAKER_01 50:33

And are you my dead small gratitude? And our love to each of you deserve peace.