I'm Court. And I'm Jess. And this is... Moms and Mugs Uncensored. Moms and Mugs Uncensored. Can't get it to clip. Hello. Hello, mate. Court is going to Vegas in two days. Woo, woo. Are you so excited? I am so excited. Are you a slot machine gal or a blackjack gal? Oh, slot machine. Here's the thing. Slot machine is just like- like, you don't have to think, you know? Yeah. There's no real I know that people say there's strategy to it, but- Really, the odds are just the odds You don't, like, track people down who have been sitting at a slot for a while? Oh, I do. Okay. Vulturing. Showdown. But if someone does that to me, I'm like, "Piece of shit." Mm. Like, you're... But yeah, I will go look, and they've just been losing, and I can see, like, how much, and I'm like, "Oh, yeah." But it doesn't always work. You know when the best time to gamble is, for all of my gamblers out there? Is, like, when you go down in the morning at, like, 6:00, 7:00 AM- Yeah and get coffee. Because everyone's been running the machines and the tables all night long, and then they go to bed at, like, 5:00 AM. Yeah. And so now all the machines are ready to go, and, like, no one's really down there. Oh, okay. So that's my, you know, grab a coffee and go. Do you do, like... How much are they? So there's penny slots. I'll do the quarter slots sometimes, but I like the penny ones. I like Willy Wonka. Okay. There's the, um, the what's the... What are the guys out in the, in the woods? Like a lumberjack? Lumberjack. The lumberjack one is really fun. Um- Why do I feel like this is Dave Buster's? Right? That's what's fun- Yeah about it, is because you have to go to the ones that have bonuses. Okay. That's the key. If there's no, like, bonus round, like you're spinning and all of a sudden it goes spinning up- Yeah and it's like you've been taken to a bonus round, that's like elite. That's when you know like- Is that a dopamine hit for you? We ma- Yeah, extreme. Extreme. So I, I can't do blackjack because, like, I don't understand it, and then when I'm drinking and, like, and dealing with using my money, if I don't fully understand something- Yeah then it just gives me anxiety- Yeah and I'm just like, "How?" And then everyone else is, like, super experienced, and they're like- Yeah looking at you like, and you do something dumb, and they're like, "Dude, you ruined it for the rest of us," or whatever. And I'm like, "I don't even know what's going on." Yeah, you're like, "I'm just gonna go sit at my own machine." Yeah. And don't you get free drinks? That's what I was trying to figure out. Is that a thing? So I thought they stopped that, but then when I Googled it, it was like, yeah, you still do, but now it's based on, like, if you put your member card in the machine and, like- Oh they kinda track who's, like- Mm sitting for a while. But I'm like, if I flag someone down for a free drink, they're not gonna go, "Let me go check how long you've been-" Yeah. So hopefully you still do- How long you've been there 'cause- I feel like they're... The casino's bringing enough money- Right, like- to where, like- Yeah a $10 vodka soda. Yeah. And I mean, they water them down, but still, it's free. Free is free. Yeah. But I don't really know. I think I'm gonna switch up my drink while I'm there, because I usually do Mio and Coconut Captain. Mm-hmm. But that's fine if you're, like, pre-gaming in the room. Yeah. But you can't get that if you go to a swim-up bar or a regular bar. Yeah. So I'm like, I need a drink that- I'm a gin and tonic gal See, I've never tried that. London. Gin and tonic or- I hate the taste of alcohol. You can't taste it? Okay. 'Cause I'm like, if I can like... If it's really strong- No. And then I'm like, okay, what if I do like a... And I do, I don't do sugar, so I'm like, okay. Okay, then tonic, don't do, don't do that. I thought Sprite Zero and Captain, or Sprite Zero and tequila. Me and tequila. I don't know. Oh, we're gonna get you on the tequila train. I had a couple margaritas this weekend, and they went down smooth and I didn't get angry, so I don't know. You guys- I don't know this might mean that I can make margaritas- Yep next episode. I tested it out, so I'm like... And I'd like to be the type that, like, on vacation I'm like at the pool and I'm like, "Yeah, give me a spicy margarita or something." Yeah. Like, I would love for that to be me, so I might try it. 'Cause we are, we're doing a pool day on Saturday. Ooh, yeah. And I'm like, I obviously, I can't drink my regular drink. Yeah. But I don't wanna get sick. You can bring Mia with you to the pool. I know. But I'm just like- I mean, I don't think they're gonna have Coconut Captain, though. Exactly. I just, I gotta try a new liquor. Mm-hmm. And I gotta figure out, like, the proper way. I don't like to eat while I drink, and it fucks me over. Yeah. Like, I just, I don't. I don't have an appetite when I'm drinking, but then it's just alcohol sitting on an empty stomach, and then I'm like, "Oh, I'm feeling like I'm gonna barf." Yeah. So I think I need to eat a good, like, protein solid meal before then. Agreed. Hmm. And milk thistle. Google told me milk thistle's really good for- Courtney, I don't think that's how it's pronounced. How do you say it? What do you say? Thistle. Thistle. Yeah. It sounds better when you go milk thistle. And ginger. I mean- Maybe I'll just fucking- Maybe garlic chew up some garlic right before- I don't know and just go talk to everybody. That's, like, really close. We are walking down the garlic path, and I love to hear it. Oh my God. But that's obviously my high. I'm going to Vegas. What's your low? My low, my low, my low. Leaving my child. Man, he's been annoying me this week so bad, too, so you'd think I'd be just, like, so stoked, which I am. I'm excited to go have fun, but the thought of, like, I lay down at night with him this week, and I'm like, "I can't leave him." Like, this is gonna, this is gonna be too hard. And I don't know why, because I don't have- Aww, baby a problem leaving him usually. And he's gonna be with my in-laws, and he has fun. But I'm just like, "Oh, I wish I could, like, just take him. Someone could babysit him, and I could at least sleep with him every night." Yeah. Just stay back in the room. So that's my low. I don't wanna leave my little dude. Little bubby. Mm-hmm. What's your high and low? Oh, sorry, I'm yawning. Okay She's tired my low is uh, last night at work was slow, so tips weren't really, you know, booming. But- Oof that will lead me into my high. I had a nice little win on the Knicks game last night- Oh in overtime. So- I didn't know we were doing that. I didn't know we were- I had a Knicks money line doing basketball. Yeah. I had a Knicks money line out there, and a 6 1/2 spread. And in overtime they hit that no problem. And I was a little nervous, because we were down by, like, 25 points in the beginning of the fourth quarter, and I was like, "Ooh, that's not gonna happen." And they had a crazy comeback. Um, that's a little low and a little high. And other than that, I feel like we just sat down. So not a lot of week has happened. I worked all weekend. Yeah I worked Friday night, and then I worked Sunday morning this past weekend. Uh, Mila and I did get our nails done, but I was chopping up chimichurri. And- Oh, that yum chimichurri. Ooh, those are cute, though. So I'm gonna go get this fixed a little bit later. Yeah. Aren't they cute? Those are super cute. Tell me. I can't do acrylic because it hurts. Really? Does it, like- Like, it's so sore sore? Like, I can't even freaking wipe my cooter, it hurts. Yeah. But I love- I think you get used to them, though 'cause look at, like, these are dudes. They're not dudes. Dude fingers. No, they're not. Little teenage boy fingers. They're not dudes. They're- I would love to have, like, some length like that, and that's my shape too. Yeah whatever you call that, almond. Almond. But, um, it just hurts so bad that I can't do it. I feel like if I go without nails for a while, it does hurt the first couple days. And that's probably why. Yeah. But yeah, I don't know. I'm probably gonna... I was thinking, 'cause I told you I wanna get French. Yeah But I was like, should I do French with, like, a color? Ooh And I kinda like, like, that color. That's, like, blue. It's so summery. But- But I don't know. I have to do it 'cause, like, I always film my hands on camera and, like, holding food. Yeah, true. So, like, when I have, like, my just regular nails, I'm like, "Eh." Yeah, I don't like this. But guys, I did just get a deal with Bubba Burger, and I- Bubba Burger and it's always very exciting when I have, like, a new, bigger brand- Yeah that I get to work with. So- That is super cool filmed the video for them yesterday. So s- Mm stay tuned on Cook with Jess. Good. Bubba Burger sounds good, actually. I ended it with saying, "You Bubba believe it," 'cause they sent me a package that said- "Bubba believe it" on it. And it's so cute. They sent me, like, a picnic blanket, which it's like- Huh the bottom of it is, like, a, some sort of material. Like, a, not a blanket material. It's like a, one that won't attract grass, you know? Oh, yeah. Like, whatever. And then, like- The slick, non-proof. Yes. Non-proof. It's cute. And, and then, like, a little, like, soft cooler. Mm-hmm. I was like, "This is cute." That's super cute, actually. Little summer PR package. I love that, yeah. So you need to come over, and we need to have burgers and let our kids play on the water slide. Let's do it, please. And margaritas. Mila and I- It's her last day of school on Friday, so you're gonna be... You're gonna have some more free time. Well, let's... I mean, we also have some free time to watch Summer House- the next couple weeks. Bum, bum, bum. And we asked you guys on our story how you guys felt about the Summer House drama, and I've been dying to dive back into this. But I wanna preface with something. I want everyone to understand that I am not on the current season, okay? Okay. So my feelings and my thoughts are based off of... So I think the current season is 10. Yes. I am currently on season nine. Mm. Like, seven- Yeah episodes in, not even, like, deep. So you are, like, a season- So- and a half behind my opinions are based off of the current season that I'm on. But- Everyone needs to know that but it still aligns with how some people feel- Yeah right now in this moment. Well, also, it shows just how people perceive things differently, right? Mm-hmm. 'Cause, I don't know. I was, like, super curious, so obviously we asked you guys who your favorite character is, and thankfully no one said Wes or Amanda, because I don't think, even if we don't wanna villainize them, they should not be your favorite. So- I should've said that. Yeah, right, Amanda. Amanda is... But we got Ciara, of course. I think there's just some, like, major- She's great I think even before this, we have, like, Ciara stans. I actually like Ciara. I know you just do not like Ciara. Kyle, I think Kyle is so misunderstood. I love Kyle. I think he's a bad husband because Amanda's a shit wife. And I, I think his rage is, like, understandable, because I think we've all been there too in relationships, like, where we're like- Yeah "I don't know how else I can say this." Yeah. You don't understand. "My needs are being met. You don't get this." And some of his actions are a bit aggressive, um, but I do still love him. And, oh, and then we also got Jesse Solomon. I will never tolerate anyone slandering Jesse Solomon. I think he's a teddy bear, and I love him. So currently he's, like, o- on what I'm watching, he just falls in love with Lexi- Is this Lexi? the second she walks in the door. Okay. And then he sucks someone's toe while she's gone, and he's flirting with Ciara and all of that. But here's my, here's my point, right? Yeah. It's all just, it's all just innocent dude stuff that you do while you're drinking. Yeah. So people do that and they don't hate, they don't hate Jesse for all that. It's- For him while she's gone and he, she's- It's- over on top of Sierra- It- and telling her This is an, it's not a w- it's not a thing with Wes. This is an Amanda-Sierra problem. Okay. Okay. This is- I can, I can accept that. That's, that's what I th- I don't think it's a Wes thing. 'Cause right now, Wes is the most non-problematic one in this season. Like, he literally- Yeah just does his own thing. But you, the other person that was said, and one of them was me, Carl. I love Carl. I love Carl. Like, he's just this innocent, like, harmless... I don't know. And isn't it so funny to call him that? Because he was, like, a raging cokehead. It's hard to remember it- I know that way, though, you know? It's nuts. I went back and I YouTubed, like, "Show me Carl's worst moments on Summer House." Yeah. And I was like- Whoa. "I kind of miss," like, he was chaotic. And then him and Kyle together when they were both, like, raging. Like- Oh oh my God. It's terrible. Absolutely terrible. Yeah. A lot of you guys, 76% of you agreed that Amanda should be treated this bad. But 24% of you- agreed with me that no, it, she's not that terrible. And 82% said that Wes absolutely should be- This made me more mad. You should be more like, "Oh, Amanda deserves it," than Wes does. Wes is just stupid. I think we all know that. Like, he's just dumb. Um, and then we asked for show recs also. You guys came through with some. Thank you for the recs. I won't be watching any of them because I just am gonna re-watch all my shows. Yeah. Actually, I did start watching Perfect Match. Okay. Perfect Match is good. I forgot about that show. Yeah. There's a new season. It's pretty good. I actually forgot. But no, like, your guys' most common ones were Off Campus and Nemesis. Yes. Um, it seems like those are, like, the, the breadwinners. I will say, side note, I just told my aunt, um, we were talking. I went and had coffee with her and I was like, said something about Game of Thrones, and she was like, "Oh, never watched that." I'm like, "Are you kidding me?" So she's on, like, season six already. She's like, "I'm so down this hole right now." Really? I don't know if I can get myself to watch it. Oh, it's so good. So I might go back and, and re-watch that, because right now- I don't know, the Off Campus one, um, oh, and then MIA Mm. People are talking about MIA. Okay. But the Off Campus one, I thought that was like a teenager show. I don't know. Yeah. I might re-watch The Summer I Turned Pretty. Yeah, 'cause I can't really remember what happened at the end. Of The Summer I Turn- With Belly and... I can't remember. They were in Paris, remember? It was like the- Him- her and who? The train. Con- Conrad. Oh, okay. So she was with Conrad. Ended the whole thing with Conrad. Okay. I- And they had to get out a movie. Yeah. I can't remember. And then, yeah, so her and Conrad in the very end. But that one, like, that one, you know, hit me in the fe- that was a good show. That, that gave a nostalgia. I don't know why. Like, just going on summer vacations with different people- Mm-hmm childhood people. But I was also surprised by a lot of you who just didn't know anything about Summer House. I can't- You're like, "What is this? What are you guys talking about? What's Summer House?" Like, my fricking sister was like, "What's a Summer House?" I'm like, "I told you months ago for you and my niece to watch the show." I- So- If you are gonna watch any two shows, even if you're not into reality TV, I swear, these two will pull anyone in. Yeah. And it's Summer House and Vanderpump Rules. I haven't watched that one. Oh, you gotta start at Season 1. It's just like the greatest reality show of all time. I've unfortunately watched it at least 15 times. I'll give it a go. It's so good. It's so good. But- I'm gonna ask this week on our story what show, maybe I'll pick, like, four popular ones, and I'll ask you guys, like, which one do you want us to dive into, like, give our take on next week. Okay. 'Cause I wanna know what you guys, like- Do you like a re-watch of a show? Yeah. Okay. Like, I wanna, I wanna know what- Put Vanderpump on there so I have another reason to watch it again. We'll have to watch it because I won't, yeah. Yeah. Oh, it would be so fun because I always say if I could re-watch a show for the first time again, it would be Vanderpump Rules, and I would die to hear you watch it and to hear your take on watching it for the first time. You already know my take isn't gonna be the... It's not gonna go with the flow. No, the crazy thing is, is you would have a take, and then it would completely change. Yeah. You'd be like, "I hate this person. There's no coming back. Absolutely not. They're the worst." And then I'll talk to you two seasons later, and you'll be like, "They're actually my favorite." Well, then we should start, like, a show club. Okay. Like a book club but a show club. But a show club. And we're like, "All right. Who's in? Who wants to... We're gonna start this show, and each week, we're gonna kinda give our take on..." I like this. You know? Yeah. A show club. A show club. That could be fun. Okay. I'm down. All right. More to come on show club. And we also asked one more question about bank accounts, if you guys have separate bank accounts or joint bank accounts. Majority did say joint, but there was a lot that- Yeah, said separate or both were separate. Yeah. I thought that was interesting, too. That was very interesting. Yeah. So maybe I'm gonna ask this week, like, why? What, what's your- What's your reasoning on- Yeah having a separate or a joint? Mm-hmm. Like, what do you think, what do you feel the benefit is or what's the- Yeah. Yeah, 'cause I don't, I don't know. I don't know either. I'm interested. I'm so interested. And we of course had a ton of fun with am I the asshole last week. I did, and we'll either dive into them now, but I pulled, I found some stories under relationship advice that just I really wanna dive in and hear other people's takes on these too. Yeah. So I definitely wanna read those. And get, get all the takes. Let's do it. Let's do it. Let's do it. This one looks fun. Okay. So it's, "Is my," 25-year-old female, "boyfriend," 36-year-old male, "family un- as unsettling as I think?" Oh, God. Take a drink. Okay. "So I've been with my boyfriend for three years, and finally met his family abroad last month. I genuinely think they're really weird, and I don't think I'm overreacting. Before this trip, I barely, I'd barely spoken to them. Only phone calls because they live in a really remote area and my boyfriend moved away years ago. At first they just seemed very intense. They're all extremely close, finish each other's sentences, and constantly talk about protecting the family's energy and fear-based thinking. Nobody argues ever. If someone says something awkward, everyone just smiles and changes the subject. Also, every single time the dad laughs, everyone else laughs instantly, even when it wasn't funny." Sure. "It genuinely started creeping me out. Every night at dinner everyone had to leave their phones in the kitchen on the counter because Dad says technology interrupts the human frequency." Okay. "Nobody locks doors either, not bedrooms or bathrooms. His mom actually got offended when I locked the bathroom and asked if I was afraid of the family." Oh. Everything was weirdly controlled. Everyone woke up at 4:00 AM together every day, ate together, went on walks together. Even if someone needed groceries, s- suddenly everyone was going to the grocery store, No In dad's car. Also, this might sound random, but they apparently never had pets despite being massive, um, despite being a massive family with a huge house. I mentioned it while I was there, and dad immediately went, "No. No way," like genuinely disgusted, and then they all laughed. Again, all of them. One night his sister casually mentioned she's never had a bank account because the family handles finances together. No. Also, I know my boyfriend and I have an age gap, which is okay with me, but I'm starting to, I'm starting to deep dive on that as well, because all relationships in his family are the same. For example, his sister, who's 28, female, and her boyfriend is 45, male. This might be only freaking me out because I come from a pretty small, normal family, or because I watch too many movies and I honestly can't tell if they're just extremely intense or if something genuinely unhealthy is going on here, because the whole trip felt weird by the end. I can assure you something genuinely disgusting is going on here, okay? That's just weird. That's like a cult. No, I would not... I'm gonna lock the bathroom door and no one... If, as soon as you tell me, "Why are you locking it? Are you scared?" Yeah, I am and I'm leaving. That's, that's a horror movie. Like- Oh, good. Sorry I'm close with my family, but that is just gross. No. Can you imagine going pee and just like someone with an ear on the door- No and is like, "Hi. Are you afraid?" No. And then like they handle all of their finances together? Imagine not having a bank account because- No because mom and dad- No even though you're married. Oh, no. Yeah, like your husband is like, "Oh, one of my in-laws... Can I, can I have some money from our account?" Yeah. No. No. Everything- Absolutely not. One of the top comments says, "Nope, I'd be reevaluating the hell out of this relationship. This is so creepy. Really look at how his father treats the family. Is something, is that something that you want, to laugh when your boyfriend laughs, bend to his will, financial abuse of you and your hypothetical children, even into their adulthood? Because that's the role your boyfriend has been modeled after. This, that's likely the kind of husband that he'll be and the relationship that he expects. The men of that family go after young women because it's less likely to understand the dynamic, see the signs, and leave." Yeah. I think that's spot on. Da-ding. That is terrifying. But what's crazy, how long have they been together? Does it say? Because wouldn't you, like, see weird signs? Like, I feel like- Yeah and wouldn't he be like, "Hey," like, "all right, I'm gonna introduce you. I'm just letting you know-" Like you're straight. hair, show off." Yeah. Like, I just, like- Yeah I want you to meet my parents. But, like, I think also to not give a heads-up. Well, that just shows that he thinks it's completely normal. Scary. Mm-hmm. Scary, scary, scary. Nope, don't like that. I found one more, and it is... Oh, it's kind of a long one. Um, but I read the title to you, and now I'm just curious to read this entire story. Okay, let's hear it. Okay. My 28 male fiance, 36 female, wants to try swinging with her friends and calls me insecure when I say no. How do I explain that this hurts me? Oh, God. You're in for a ride. Yeah. Hey, guys. I'm a mess right now. Carl's a mess. Yeah, Carl's a mess. Carl's a mess. Uh, hey, guys. I'm a mess right now. My chest feels tight, and I can barely eat. Okay. Can I just pause? Why does he give me the ick? Something's so gross. Yeah. Um, I tightened my fiance's chest and I can't eat. Okay. I'm not, I'm n- no. That gives me the ick and- You're already the problem. You are, you are the asshole. Yeah. Uh, okay. This is not an am I the asshole, but I just had to point out that I really don't like that he said that. Yeah. Uh, this is a man writing this. Okay. I've been with my fiance since high school. We started dating after she went to my university, almost 10 years together. She's been my whole world. Things between us have always been good, and I was completely happy. I thought we were set for life. A few weeks ago, she suddenly suggested trying swinging with one of her close friend couples, people we actually know, and I felt sick to my stomach. I told her no immediately. The whole idea makes me feel like I can't breathe. God, wow, I don't want anything like that at all. She got really angry, called me close-minded and controlling, and now she barely speaks to me unless she's bringing it up again. Today she tried being gentle and suggested a softer version where we would just be in the same room. I said no, and it feels like she's slowly trying to pressure me into this, and it's destroying me inside. Every time I refuse, she says I'm being insecure and that this isn't about replacing me. But I grew up in a house where I was never enough, my feelings were always ignored, and the situation is tearing open those old wounds and making me feel worthless again. I'm starting to pull away because I don't know... Sorry, next page. Uh, I don't know what else to do. I'm scared she'll resent me or cheat if I keep saying no, but saying yes would break me. I love her so much, but right now I feel lost, scared, and not good enough. Has anyone dealt with something like this? Please be honest. Uh, I don't know what TL and DR means, but that's- True life No, I think it's like a- true life, I'm in a swinging relationship. Yeah. Uh, no, I think it's like an edit. It says... Um, okay. Okay, uh, we'll, we'll start with that, and then he does have an update. Do you want me to read the update? Yeah. Okay. Update. First, thank you to all the people who bashed me. Oh. I'd like to thank my haters. Um, okay, I was not expecting that. First of all, thank you to the people who bashed me, shared their own stories, or motivated me to do something about it. The amount of comments was insane, so I disappeared for a bit. I needed time to process everything. But something happened. While she was in the shower, I broke my own rules and I looked at her phone. One, one time in my life I did this. I, what I saw broke me. She had been texting her friends, the couple, and told them everything, all my most private stuff. She wrote about how I'm insecure about my size, which is bullshit, but I n- but now it hurts anyway. Wow. Like- So he wasn't even insecure about that like his weight or, like his size, of his- I'm guessing his size- Okay of his manhood. Oh. How I constantly need validation, and that's why I've been killing myself at the gym for years, and how she can't wait to finally have some fun time with both of them. There were also some really mean things about me and my childhood that cut deep. I don't even wanna repeat them here. I made screenshots, sent them to myself, and got the hell out of the house. I went straight to my female friend from work, uh, the one that my fiance never liked because we train together a lot. Hang on, next page. My fiance never wanted to go to the gym with me, and I'm at her place right now. What? Oh, I don't like that. My, my friend is telling me to get it together. She says either I go through the partnership swap thing to see if my fiance even cares a little, or I just break it up. She even offered that I can stay at her house until I find a place to rent. She keeps saying, vengeance or not, I should end it and finally be myself and I'll have a much better life. My fiance still thinks I'm at the gym, so she doesn't suspect anything yet. I'm slowly moving from self-pity and heartbreak to being really fucking angry. Part of me still wants to go through with the swinging things just to watch her face when I walk out right after. I know that's probably, probably toxic, but I'm so hurt right now. I don't even know what I'm asking anymore. Thanks for the earlier support. I feel angry and stupid for trusting her this long, and this will go nu- nuclear. Um, and oh, and my will to go nuclear is getting even bigger. Okay. Well, here's the thing. I think the bigger issue is he needs to maybe reevaluate his sexuality. What makes you say that? He doesn't seem very manly. He's just very pity, "Oh my gosh, this is hurting me so bad. This is this," and it's just like- I don't know if that... I think that's more so his like- Like, what? Hi- he needs acceptance and validation and confidence, and like he immediately went... I mean, I guess we all like lean on friends, um, but to go to the girl's house that your fiance doesn't like either, and- Come on uh, okay, but that's like it's petty because she obviously went to her friends and, um, but like that's just like, that's an eye for an eye. Just tell your girl like, "No, you're mine- Yeah and I'm not sharing you." Like, man up and say that- That's it instead of being like- Yeah "Oh my God, I can't eat. I'm so sick. This hurts. I can't imagine this." Like, I don't know, you're being... You're giving, um, a feminine energy that I don't... Uh, if I were her, I'd kind of be like, "Mm." I wonder if that's why she's seeking something out of the relation- like outside- Absolutely of the relationship- That sounds like he's- because he's not dominant he's lacking that. Yeah. Yeah. So yeah, I, I was kind of surprised that he wasn't interested in the male that was gonna be involved I don't think, I don't think it has anything to do with him wanting a penis. Okay? I think, I think he's just very insecure. We're gonna come back to this, and he's gonna give an update, and he's gonna be like, "So I tried it out- Oh my gosh and I really actually liked the husband in the other gang." Um, here, hang on. I have... Oh, wait, is there an update? God, people are crazy, dude. But also, I do think it's so strange. Um, and, you know, God forbid, if you're out there, you're listening right now and you like this, people that are, like, into that soft swinging where it's like you're all just doing it in the same room, I'm like, what drives you to be like, "This is such a turn-on"? Like, that's just so strange to me. Yeah, it's a no from me, dog. Like, absolutely not. No. Uh-uh. No. Like, I think you're already just weird if you want that. I mean, like, I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna mess with anyone's kink. I mean, do you. That's what I said, you do you. But- Yeah absolutely not. Just personally for me, I'm not down. Uh, I'm not down for that. That sounds like some kind of, like, terror room to me. Yeah. Like, that sounds terrifying. Escape room. Yeah. I'm out of here. An orgy, an orgy escape room. So many noises, so many smells. So many. Gross. I'm out. Oh, let's see one of the top comments. Oh, I... Wait, this is new. Hang on. Okay, I think there's gonna be another update on Saturday. Okay. I think he said we're- Where he confesses he said, "We're meeting the friends Friday night. I'll try to post again on Saturday if I'm not too broken to type." Okay, the- He's gonna go through with it? Like, that's even more, like, little man syndrome. I don't- If you don't wanna do it, don't do it. Be a man and be like, "No, I ain't fucking doing that." Like, come on. Okay, there's no update yet. No. No, no, no, no, no, no. Someone said, "There's a reasonable chance that she's already cheated with them and is trying to ease her guilt." Yeah, probably. I think that that's- Trying to, like, make it more normal of what she's doing. Yeah. More accepted. But, like, also, why would... If your fiance is, like, so against it, as the partner, wouldn't you be like, "Oh, like, I'm sorry," like- Yeah, no "My bad." Like, I don't... "Okay, I, I won't mention it again." No, I ain't got, I don't got any kinda weird shit like that going on in my life. No. I was gonna say, we need to update, we need life updates here. Um, but ours are not gonna be as exciting as soft swinging. Any swinging. Swinging, period. The only swinging, I took my kid to the park. Yeah. Which- Like, we love a s- we love that kind of swing we love a swing set. Yeah. That, that's where we draw the line. That is where we draw the line. It's, it's no. No, no, no. But no, life updates Oh, gosh. I feel like you're so busy, and I feel like you love it, but I feel like it takes a toll on you, right? It does. Like- It obviously does. There's a lot of... Yeah, there's, there's a lot going on right now. So obviously I just took on a bartending job, so I do that three nights a... So right now Tuesday night, Friday night, Sunday morning. So it's like Tuesday night, 4:00 to 10:00. Yeah. Friday night from 4:00 to usually midnight, and then Sunday morning from 7:30 in the morning to 3:00, 3:30-ish. And that eats up those days. Yeah. And then I wake up at 4:00 every single day. So I wake up at 4:00, make my coffee, make Taylor lunch, uh, water, and then send him out the door. And then I usually edit my cooking videos from, you know, whenever that ends to about 6:00 AM. And then I get Mila up. I make her breakfast, get her ready for school, send her off to school by 7:20. Usually go to the gym from, like, 8:00 to 9:00, 9:30. Film videos. I also help out my dad, um, with his, like, salvage yard videos. Oh, yeah. So I d- I'm down at the yard. I'll, I'll go down there a couple times, like, usually, like, once a week. Pull and Save or Arizona Auto Parts, just depends. And, and then I'll get those edited, and then, um, hit the grocery store. I go every day 'cause I never know what I'm gonna make or, like, what, what's going on. And I'm like, like, that's up in the air. So go to the grocery store, pick up Mila. I'm usually in pickup line by, like, 1:40. Get her home. I also have to keep the house clean, so I'm doing laundry, I'm vacuuming, I'm mopping. Uh, and then Mila comes home. I help her with homework, and I start dinner around 5:00. And I'm filming that whole time, so from like 5:00 to like 7:00, 7:30. Get all the footage, get the kitchen cleaned up, and then I start all over again at 4:00 in the morning. Then if I work that night- Yep then at 4:00 I'm, you know, fully ready for the night, and I go in and I bartend for the night. That sounds exhausting. I never stop moving. That sounds so exhausting. And then stuff comes up, like yesterday, when a brand was like, "Hey, I know we gave you a longer deadline for this, but I actually need this video by tomorrow." So I had to like stop what I was doing- Oh, okay. Cool, I can totally do that go- Cool, I'm on it. Bye go to the grocery store, film at the grocery store, go outside, make sure all the lighting and everything is set up at the Blackstone so I can cook and... I'm like, "This was not-" Well, and can I just say, personally, I hate editing videos. I have to do it for work, and I, I hate it. It's... I don't know what it is. Yeah. It's just so, um... And then we got ADHD, so and then it's like I'm like, "Oh, no, no, no. That not- Yeah. "Uh, uh, uh." And then my brain just gets frazzled. Well, and that's why, I mean, a brand video definitely requires a lot more attention. My cooking style videos, somehow, some way, people are like, "Oh, it reminds me of like a Food Network. You just talk through the recipe." And I'm like- Yeah "All right. Great," because then not a lot goes into it- Yeah but I still get the traction that I'm looking for. And, um, but that's the other thing, too, is like I'm always hypersensitive about like my TikTok and Instagram, because as soon as I stop moving and posting content and stories and all of that over there, then they start moving my engagement. Um, like I- Yeah like my engagement drops, and I'm like, "That's my livelihood." So- Yeah yeah. There some, some weeks are busier than others. And, you know, I'm just trying to keep it all afloat. And then to, um, you know, on top of all this, we are adding another coal in the fire, and I'll be a educator. I'll have the title of- Yeah uh, homeschool. 'Cause last day of her official school is Friday. It's Friday. So, like, what do summers look f- like for you guys regularly? So this is gonna be my first summer, and I am so excited. It's my first summer not working, like, a corporate job at all. So this, like, it's all- New it's all new. And, um, I've banked a lot of content, like, for my dad's yard and things like that. So we, we will go down there, um, probably, like, every couple weeks, not every week. Yeah. And yeah. But we're gonna be... We, we're doing season passes to the water park and to Urban Air, and we're gonna get a library pass, and we're just gonna be, like, really... I, I just wanna be really present and really out there. Yeah. Because everything that I do, like filming a video and things like that, like, I mean, not every minute is gonna be an activity, and I can also bank content as well too, so. Yeah. Um, yeah, like, I mean, like, during the day when I'm running errands or, you know, whatever, she'll be with me, and- Yeah um, but we're gonna do a lot of fun stuff, and I'm excited. We also have a vacation planned. She does not know about it, but we're going to SeaWorld for the first time. Ooh. And she's obsessed with sea otters, so- They're so cute. We, we, we got, like, the sea otter experience. Yeah. And it's just gonna be a great time. I'm so excited to, like, finally not, not be working a corporate job where I'm away from the house. But- Yeah yeah, I mean, I got, got a lot going on. I'm a little mentally tapped. I don't like to, uh, admit that often. It's tough on my ego, but... I knew it. That's why I said... That's- I know it's all good stuff- Yeah but still can be so taxing. Yeah. Especially when you just don't get a second to, like- Breathe slow down and reset. Mm. So the vacation will be good because you can just- It's gonna be good go and just have fun and, like, come back refreshed and- Well, and if my calculations are correct, and if things keep moving in that direction I'm targeted to hit 100K by, I think it's, like, June 19th. So, um- Let's go well, and I'm leaving for vacation on the 21st, so I can also celebrate my 100,000- follower count, which I've like- You can do it which is crazy. So, and we've talked about, a little bit about the story about Cook with Jess. Um, but I obviously quit my corporate job when I only had 600 followers, and I said, "I'm gonna be an influencer." Yeah, I'm doing it. And, uh, m- my final day at my corporate job was June 24th of last year. So- Oh, so it's gonna be like- It'll be like a one-year. Yeah. Yeah, like- In your face, bitch. In your face, yes. But what about you? You also obviously like you have a lot on your plate as well too, and we've talked a lot about your life journey, and- Yeah what is going on in your life. So what's, what's the update? What's going on? Summers are actually, like, nice for me because my, my physical job, our family dispensary is in Blythe, and that's where our River House is. So a lot of time in the summer my mom, um, comes down with me, and we'll just stay at the River House for like a week, and she'll stay at the house with River. And I get to go into the shop every day, which I love. That is like- I know, like, a lot of people like to work from home. I am a people person. Mm-hmm. I like to be in there. Even if I'm doing work, I'm one of those that's, like, out, like, you know, talking- Yeah to customers or whatever. That's just how I, uh, how I operate. So the summers are great because I am there a lot, and then, like, I'm not away from River either. It's not like he's here and I have to, like, leave him for a few days. Like- Yeah I get to see him after work, and then we go out on the boat, and we do dinners, and it's like- Yeah it's like a vacation and work all in one thing. Mm. So I love the summers for that. And my nephew who we're going for his 21st this weekend, he interned with my dad last year at his produce business in Blythe. It's my dad's l- last official year. He's going to actually retire, he says. Oh my gosh. He's said this a lot, and he says, "Nope, this is, this is it." And my nephew's gonna do one final year before he goes and studies abroad in, um, Spain in September. So not only do I get to go down and work and go to the river house, I get to be with my nephew too. So it's just... And then my other nephew lives there. My little nieces live there, my brother, my sister, so yeah. It's- Oh, that's so much family time. Yeah. And Tyler comes down on the weekends and yeah. So that will be fun. Um, we have trips planned too. Williams, San Diego, Vegas obviously, like, a girls' float down in Blythe. Um, a little stressed because, like, River's actually in school now, and he only goes Tuesday, Wednesdays, half days, and I put them, like, in the middle of the week so that if we travel, like, it doesn't interfere. But I'm also like, "Shit," like, "We're down there for, like, a week period," so I'm just gonna have to pay, you know, you just pay the price, and he doesn't go. But on top of that, we do have our IVF consultation on June 10th to start the process of another transfer. So- How are you feeling? I'm excited. I just... I don't know. It's a weird, it's a weird thing. I hate- Like, the control and the power that it has over me. Mm-hmm. Like, that I, I still, like, I don't know. I start getting resentful towards my body whenever it comes- Mm-hmm about, like, going back to appointments and stuff. Yeah. 'Cause I'm like, "I just wanna get pregnant like a regular person." I don't want it to be on their terms. Yeah. Like, "Oh, come do this blood work. Pay this amount. Do this. Do this appointment, this procedure, this and this." It's just all up to them. Yeah. And then on the other end, it's like, I should be grateful that it even exists because that's my only way of getting pregnant, but it's, it's just the internal battle. Yeah. It's a hard, um, it's really hard to- To like let that go explain if you haven't done it, 'cause everyone's just like, "Well, you should be grateful. You get to get pregnant." And it's like, you are, but you're also extremely resentful and angry at the same time- Mm-hmm while you're doing the process because you're like, "I don't wanna be doing this. I wanna do it the-" Not even just that. Like, I mean, you explained even, like, the anxiety once that time comes. And- Yeah like, it's like there's so many emotions that pull away from the excitement of a natural pregnancy, and I think- Oh, yeah I'd never wanna diminish those emotions, 'cause it's like you- Yeah you can feel all of that. And, like, who am I, who's, like, never experienced all that, to say like- Yeah you, but you should just... Like, I mean- Yeah obviously you are grateful for it. I am. But- But, like, but there's a lot of other stressors that come along with that, and you need to be like- Yeah. There's a lot of- Yeah things that coexist, right? Yeah. It's not just a, a linear, like, "Okay, well, this is the experience." It's like... And then I also just don't know what feelings are gonna come up. Mm. You know? So it's like maybe this time will be way smoother than, than the first time- Yeah because I already went through it. But then, I don't know, because those appointment anxieties. Like, "Okay, if you come tomorrow and your levels are perfect, then we can move to this step." But then you go to the appointment and they're like, "Levels are still bad, so everything's pushed two weeks." Okay. It's just a constant- Yeah like, there's a lot of letdowns- Mm in an already big letdown process that you have to be- Yeah doing it. So there's a lot of anxiety. There's a lot of emotional. Um, all of that takes a way bigger toll on me than the physical part. That part, yeah, it sucks doing all the shots and, but I can do it. It's just the mental and emotional, and then my past, you know, with the postpartum anxiety, with the emergency C-section, like, all of that just kind of creeps in and is like, ooh. I hope that everything is smooth this time. I hope that- I hope that the transfer works. So it was- Just because it did the first time doesn't mean it will this time. Yeah, that's fair. And it's our only girl, so we have one girl and one boy, and if the girl doesn't work, then that just wipes out any chance of us ever having a girl. So a lot of definite- Mm stuff, too. It's not like, "Okay." That's, like, another added pressure. Yeah. Yeah. So I don't know. It's a lot. So what does this process, like, timeline-wise, like, what does that look like? I don't even know. So I tried to ask them ahead of time, like, "Hey, what is it?" You know, 'cause last time I did the egg retrieval, which is, like, the longer process. Yeah. I'm like, "Hey, I already have the embryos," and they're like, "You know what? We can't say. We can't really say because we need to do baseline. We need to do blood work." Mm. "See where your hormones are at." That's fair. I'm probably gonna have to, it sounds weird, but you have to get on birth control, like, the first couple months. To regulate. Which- Yeah when they told me that, I'm like, "What the fu- I am walking birth control." When I did- Like when I did my egg donation, had to do the same thing, like, just to, like, regulate- Yeah everything. Yeah. So it just really depends on where all my levels are at, where, um- If I have any cysts again, like things like that. So, I mean, if everything's like, "Oh, these levels look good, this looks good," then it really should only be, you know, like a few month process. But if not, it could be up to six months. Mm-hmm. It could, it just is all dependent on all those different components. So- Yeah I don't really know. But I know that we said we wanted to, like, do the actual transfer before the end of the year. Yeah. So that's why we're trying to, you know, like I feel like June doing the consult gives us a good, you know, six-month- Yeah like, you know, wiggle room. But I also, it sounds selfish, but I wanna enjoy my summer. Yeah. I wanna go out on the boat and have fun and drink and not be on this time restraint of like, "You gotta do this shot at this time." Yeah. Or, "You might feel icky, you gotta do this. You can't drink. You can't..." Um, so. Well, and just be like hyper aware of like- I know all of, yeah. Yeah. And like, and then you're feeling bloated and you're feeling- Yeah exhausted and you're feeling, like, all, like you need to mentally prepare now, like- Yeah you know, like, for that. So like enjoy your summer, and then it's like, okay, like I, I know what's to come next. Yeah. So just get your mind ready for that. And I have to be around. I can't like- Yeah I can't be down at the river house and- For the appointments. Yeah. They don't have, you know. I gotta be here, 'cause some of them require you come in like every 24 hours or 48 hours. Yeah. So it just is also very time-consuming, and I just feel selfish with my time right now. That's okay. So it's like, "Frick." But I know that I want- Mm-hmm River to have a sibling, so it's something I have to do. So again, it's just that, it's just that battle. Yeah. So I'm trying to not think about it until it's here. Mm-hmm. Because I'm a very big, um, what would you call that? Pre-thinker. I'll think of every scenario. Oh, you're a pre-thinker. Oh, yeah. Yes. I'm like, "Let's just not do that." Yeah. "Let's just go, and as things come up we'll deal with them when they do, and I don't need to pre-empt, like, this, that, and the other." For sure. So. Well, we'll be praying. I'll get back to you if I- Mm-hmm if I do a good job at that or not. I... But as of today, I am just going to get my nails and toes done and get clothes for Vegas. And get ready for Vegas. And I'm gonna, I'm gonna focus on that. So. Well, let's talk a little, let's, let's end this with some vacation. Like- Vacation some, some how are, how are we on vacay? Yeah, like what type of person are we on vacation? I feel like I have different- versions. Uh, 'cause I will say, like, I'm not... Maybe people that go on vacation with me will argue this, but I don't like an itinerary. Yeah. When I, I plan a trip for, like, my sister or something, like a girls' trip- Yeah I will have, like, a couple, when I say a couple things planned, it's just like, "Okay, this night we're gonna go bar-hopping. Here's some-" Mm-hmm bars that I found, and we're all gonna dress in country attire-" Yeah or something. So I might do stuff like that, but I'm not like- Do loops yeah, I'm not like, "Oh, all day we're doing this, this, and this." Yeah. No. And when it's, like, not a girls' trip, I'm very non-itinerary. Especially, like, a Vegas trip, do not- I don't- plan things wanna be somewhere at a certain time. We don't know what the day is gonna bring. We don't know what the slot's gonna bring. We don't know what that... Like, no. Yeah. I hate that. Am I a early morning person on vacation? 100%. I cannot sleep in anywhere to save my life. Ew, can you imagine wasting away the day- Yeah, you're just like- on a vacation? "I slept until 11:00 and I'm in Belize." I'm saying Belize- No because Kelly's in Belize right now- I saw for her birthday, and I'm like, "You little..." Living vicariously through her. Yeah. But no. And stay up late? Yeah, well, I mean, I stay up later than I- Generally do. Yeah. But when I say that, like 11:00 o'clock, I'm like- Yeah "Oh, we're s- It's- We're still drunk." But then I'm like, "I'm freaking tired." Yeah. So yeah, I would say I'm more of a go with the flow, like do whatever feels good at the time type of vacation. I think it depends, like, where I'm at and what I'm doing. Yeah. If it's... I'm always an early riser. And, like, okay, Disneyland, I was itinerary to the max. We planned out every ride, every- everything. We knew... But you have to. Well, you spend so much money- Like, you have to schedule you gotta get your money's worth. Yeah. And you have to schedule, like, your, your fast passes. Yeah. So, like, with that, I'm like, "Okay, we need to be at the park by this time, leave the hotel by this time." Like, I, full itinerary. Yeah. But if it's, like, a regular San Diego trip, like, I'm not planning. Like, let's decide where we're going to dinner last minute. Like, let's- Yeah. What do we feel like? What do we feel like doing? Where, like, where do we feel like going? You know? Like- Yeah ev- everything is just, like, spur of the moment because, like, I don't wanna be held on a- No like, a time crunch. But, like, when we go to the Dunes, we're very much like morning ride at 9:00 AM, like, and everyone stays up late. I don't. I- Yeah I like to be curled up in bed, um- Yeah by a good time for the most part, unless it's like... I turn into a different person on a girls' trip. Yeah. Everybody does, right? Yeah. Like, I'm capable of more. Yeah. Like, when I went to Nashville, I was like, it was 2:00 AM, and, like, I was like, "Let's keep going." Yeah. I'm- So that's typically me, Country Thunder. Mm-hmm. I can drink way more than I normally could, and I can stay up later. I just can do more- Yeah than I would in a normal situation, and typically Vegas as well. But I haven't been to Vegas in a long time, so I don't really know what type of person I am. Do they pump stuff in the air like they do at Disneyland- Right? like, to keep you awake? I- it's freezing, and I, they say that that keeps you awake, but for me- Yeah it makes me tired. Oh, it makes you tired. 'Cause I want, like, I wanna be cuddled up in bed. Yeah. I'm, like, planning these outfits, and I'm like, "Do we realize that we're gonna need, like, fricking parkas for every outfit?" Yeah. 'Cause it's freezing. Does the jacket go with this? Yeah. Yeah. But, like, are you- Like say Vegas, for instance, are you the type that needs to be with a group at all times? Will you wake up in the morning, go grab coffee by yourself, hit a slot? Like, will you do things on your own? Or are you like a- I- I need to be with people? I don't like to be with people almost ever. Even like in- in San Diego, I want to wake up by myself, go get coffee on my own- Yeah go walk on my own. Yeah. I like, I recharge in, like, solitude. Yeah. Um, so 1,000%. Yeah, no, I went down to the slots by myself last time I was in Vegas. Uh, everyone wanted to go to bed, and I was like, "Okay, well- Yeah, bye bye bye." Like- Yeah I'll be down- like, I'll be downstairs. Uh, that's- Yeah that's where I'll be. So no, I love to do things on my own. Me too. Yeah. I know there's, like, a lot of people out there that are like- Mm-mm "Okay, where's everybody? We gotta gather everyone." That gives me- Oh, I don't like that such bad anxiety. Mm-mm. I don't wanna wait on anybody else. I don't wanna try and gather everyone. "Okay, well, do you wanna do th-" No. No. Like, find me. Mm-hmm. I'll be in the general slot- Yeah vicinity. Come let me know what your plan is. Like- And if I'm like, "Okay, cool, I'll go," or text me or don't even at all. Like, bring walkie-talkies. Yeah, literally. But no, I will definitely go, wake up, grab coffee, hit a slot. Yeah, that makes sense. Like, I don't need... There's been plenty of times where I've almost been left in Vegas 'cause they're going to catch the plane. They're like, "We gotta Uber." And I'm like, "Go." Yeah. "I'll get the next flight. I'm hauling this." Like- Yeah I'm probably, they all are like, "Oh, God," when they go with me. Like, "We're gonna have to wrangle her." I remember we were in Talking Stick for Tyler's birthday last year with all the friends. Yeah. And he wanted, he was, like, drunk, and he just wants to pass out- Yeah when he's drunk. He's like, "I wanna go to sleep." But he's like, "I can't leave you down here." And I'm like, "The fuck you can't." Oh. So he got Cole and was like- Yeah "Cole, can you watch her?" And he's like, "She'll be right on that machine over there, you know. Like, make sure she's- She's fine I'm like, "Dude, I can handle myself." Yes. I'm totally fine. Like, no, I'm not the type that's like, "Oh, you're going to bed, honey? Okay, here I come." No. No. No, I wanna be on my own. Take your ass to bed- Yeah and I'll be down here. I think after that I met up with Savannah. Yeah. and- Oh, there we go. All right. There we go. Now we can wrap it up. Wrap. But yeah, I think that we both have a lot going on, but... This is our... This is our zen room. This is our zen room. This is our zen room. We have plants in here. Yeah. We have plants. We're gonna start doing live yoga. Just kidding. No, we're not. No, we're not. No, we're not. You know what? We're gonna start drinking again. Yeah. We are... Actually, margarita's the next episode. We took a dry month. It was dry May. It was dry May. For us. Yeah. I don't know why. And we didn't even talk about it. We just- It was my birthday month. Yeah, what the hell were we thinking? But we're gonna be back, and once we have those drinks flowing, things get a little spicier. Which I feel like we've been, like, a little, like, a little, like, testy, you know? Yeah. Like, so- And we have guests, so... I can't wait. Yeah, like a whole month's worth of, which it'll be cool. Yeah. No, and they're all completely different. Yeah. So- It's not any kinda same... Very different. Very different people, different life stories. Yeah. And, uh, just over- I mean, just even different energies and auras- Yeah like from, from these people. So I'm so excited to bring them on and talk with them. Yeah. It's gonna be good. We got a good, good next couple weeks. Yep. If you wanna be a guest, DM us. Yeah. We would love to have you on. Yeah. You gotta let us know. Yeah. And yeah, but it's gonna be fun. You can even come into the zen room. You can come into our zen room, and we'll make you- Or we'll meet and go... Yeah. If you have a business that you want us- Yeah to come check out, um, whatever it may be. Anything. We can come to you too. Yes. We're very versatile people. We are, 'cause we're, we're diverse. Zen. We're zen and diverse. We are. But next week we're gonna talk about all of the Vegas escapades. Oh, boy. And then I actually found some fun Vegas stories. Ooh, I'll, maybe I'll have some fun Vegas stories. I know. I'm gonna try and get a lot of video content in Vegas. Please. No promises, though, 'cause you know, you start drinking and then you're like, the next day you're like, "Damn it." Yeah. But like, I, I have a lot of ideas, and I have my niece going, who is not of age, and she's only... I always mess up her age and my sister gets mad. She's 17. Okay? Final answer. Her and her boyfriend are going, and she, um, likes to edit content and stuff. Yeah. So I'm gonna tell her my plan and be like, "Look, if, if things go sideways, get this, get this stuff." Get it. "Get this content." Yes. "Get it edited." And so I'll, um, I'll share it on our page too. Please. Please. If it's anything worthy, I'll share it, so. Absolutely. All right, guys. Everyone have a good, by the time you're hearing this, week. Week, and Court will be home. Yes. Right? No, I come home Monday. Oh. So. She'll be blacked out. So- I'll be blacked out. Sorry. I'll be blacked out and outta the office. Out of office. We love you guys. All right, love you. Bye. Bye.