The NeverEnding Story with Gloria Battini - Medium and Woman on a Mission

An extra special Howdy Ho to Medium, Consciousness Development Teacher, and Woman on a Mission Gloria Battini! Join us on our journey through The NeverEnding Story :)

Topics of Discussion

• The Current Astrological Energy
• Transformation & Intuition
• The Akashic Records
• The Truth about Healing
• "Moon Child"
• Trauma Bonding and Toxicity in Relationships
• Unshakeable Belief

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Katie

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:02

Howdy ho, Ranger Joes, and welcome to Popcorn for the Soul, a podcast where I decode spirituality and universal guidance in our favorite pop culture. My name is Katie, student of life, lover of stories, and cosmic weaver pulling at the threads that connect it all. Today, however, I have another new friend who is here to help me pull at these threads as well. Please welcome Gloria Battini, medium consciousness development teacher, and most importantly, woman on a mission. Gloria, thank you so much for being here. Before I even give the mic to you, I just have to let you know that every time I went on Podmatch to go into our messages and saw your pictures, I was just like, this woman is just so darn beautiful. And in the flowers and everything, it was just this vibe that every time I was so happy to like get on and you know talk to you and respond and set this up. So thank you so much for being here. Cannot thank you enough. Can you please just share with everybody who you are, what you do, and what you're up to on this mission?

SPEAKER_00 1:02

Yes, you are so kind, Dave Katie. Thank you so so much. I really honestly thank you so much. You're very kind. Uh, I was excited too, by the way. I was just literally recording a voice note for a friend before I started. I was like, I have never been excited to be in a podcast like I am today. Honestly, I felt the vibe. I felt the vibe, absolutely. So thank you. Right back at you. Uh yes, I uh I I am. Yeah, I am a woman on a mission. Yeah, 100%. 100% a woman on a mission. I I uh want to help. I want to help. I feel like that's what I'm here to do. And my most profound mission is to help people come home to themselves. I believe that um there's so much in the world that tells us that it's not okay to be us, you know, it's not okay to be us, it's not okay to want what we want, you know. Like so many of our you know, desires are you know shamed so often. And I feel like if I can do something to make this world a better place, I feel like that's what I want to do. I want to make people, I want to help people know that it's okay to be themselves. And that's exactly what we're all here to do. And I believe that by doing so, by living from that place of home and you know, soul level, I call it. Um, I also believe that we get to make the world a better place as well. So I am, yeah, 100% on a mission.

SPEAKER_01 2:30

I love that, and I appreciate that because I very much have been a person who needed to come home and, you know, figure it out a dreamer who's been told I'm unrealistic and all of that. So thank you for everything that you do and for being this light in the world. It's absolutely what we need, and could not be for more perfect for the movie we're going to be talking about, which is the never-ending story. I have to thank you for picking this movie as well. You know, I've never seen it. And um, I told my daughter's father, the one who was watching it with me, I feel like I always knew it was there, and I kind of avoided it because I could tell that it was something existential and that I was not, I was not ready, you know, when I was a kid. And so I'm glad that you picked it because I had to watch it and I loved every single minute of it. Um and it just already just you saying all of that, you know. I'm looking at the lines like you're old enough to get your head out of the clouds and start getting both feet on the ground, stop daydreaming and start facing your problems. So, you know, we're diving right in, we're already there. Yeah. Um so before we do go into specific topics, I wanted to ask you if you could um tell me about the astrological energy we're working with today before we dive in.

SPEAKER_00 3:52

Yeah, so we actually just had a big transit over the weekend. We had something that's called a generational transit. So we had, yeah, we had Uranus, which spends about seven years in a sign, which is which is why it's called the generational transit, because it's not just, you know, the moon spends like three days in a sign, right? The sun spends a month. So when he spends like a multiple number of years, uh we call it the generational transit. And um, Uranus is the planet of change, is the planet of change, is the planet of the future as well, it's a planet of technology. Um, it's the planet of genius as well. Genius, uh yeah, genius creativity in that way, you know, the the creative genius, the creative genius, let's call it. And it recently moved on Saturday or Sunday. I believe for you guys in the US it was Sunday, Saturday, and for me was Sunday because we're a few hours ahead. And uh it moved into the sign of Gemini, which is the communicator, and it is the you know, the the social butterfly, into you know, communicator, very, very perceptive energy. And I feel like the next seven years, that's what we're bringing into uh that we're that's what we're bringing change into. So into the way that we communicate, into the way that we interact with the world, into the way that we interact with technology. I feel like things might go faster, but I feel like we're also gonna get a better idea of how it is that we want to interact with technology from now on. And so I feel like there's gonna be a lot more conversations around it and what a lot of people are gonna be okay with or not be okay with. So there's a lot of change, there's a lot of energy of change going on at the moment, and also at the end of this week, we have a full moon in the Sinus Scorpio, which is a very like transformational moon. So we are invited to let go of everything that doesn't serve the person that we're becoming or the life that we're building for ourselves. So it's it's big, it's big, yeah, yeah, to say the least. Yeah, it's amazing.

SPEAKER_01 6:05

Yeah, especially with that technology stuff. A lot of what I've been seeing in like movies and everything, like I said, you know, I try to weave all of these threads to look for answers that could guide us when it comes to making these big decisions. And just with my daughter alone, you know, where does screen time and movies come into play? How are we gonna integrate AI to be useful without it, you know, taking over all of that stuff? So that makes perfect sense. Um, also, I get a daily email that's like all here's your astrological, here's your numerolog numerology stuff, here's the is it true that the sun is in Taurus and the moon is in Libra today?

SPEAKER_00 6:47

Yes, I believe the moon is in Libra. Let me just double check for you because I have it all, I have it all there. Yes, actually. It entered Libra just a few hours ago, so yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 6:57

So I think that this is crazy because is it true that your moon is Taurus? My moon is in Taurus, yeah. And my son is in Libra. Oh, we've like switched it. I just thought that was cool. Okay, good. Very nice. All right, so thank you for that. Diving into the movie, the first thing I wanted to talk about was the Orin, the that amulet. And I like, you know, really looked at it because I wanted to see what the snakes are doing, and it's an Ouroboros, right? But it's different in where we're used to, you know, it's the single snake wrapping around and biting its own tail, representing that constant of creation, death, rebirth, all of that. But with this, the snakes are intertwining, and if you look at it, it's like they are making infinity symbols, but they're completing their infinity symbol by biting the other snake's tail. Yeah. So just very much this like the conscious and subconscious, and the you know, the real world and our stories, like how they connect and all of that. So, any insights on you know what that all means in in your world and how you see things, yeah, yeah, absolutely.

SPEAKER_00 8:13

Also, um, one of the snakes is gold and the other one silver. But fun fact, so this movie is comes from a book, if is from a children's book by Michael Ende, and which was called The Never Ending Story. And actually, the the movie is only actually the first half of the book. The book carries on more. Yeah, the book carries on more. The first part is still like my favorite, the second part is like the protagonist Bastion that goes on to like more adventures and stuff, but I feel like the the first part is probably like the most significant. But in the book, the Orin is the single snakes, like it's it's they don't intertwine. Yeah, they don't intertwine. So the the snakes intertwine is definitely something that they added in the movie, and it is uh, I feel like it adds to the symbolism for sure. Yes, there's loads of like infinity and symbolism, you know, connecting there. The two colors, the reality and the uh, you know, fantasia. Um, obviously the snake also. The snake is transformation, the snake is feminine, you know, it's intuition, you know, it's all this. And I feel like, you know, it is it is reality and it is fantasia, but it's also at the end of the day, like that's our basis is that intuition, our basis is that kind of world anyway, you know what I mean? Uh, I was actually talking to one of my clients today, and I said to her, you know, I believe so much more my intuition in the spiritual world than I believe anything that I can see with my naked eye, like without a doubt, you know. And maybe, you know, the fact that I love this movie since uh I was very, very little, maybe that's got something to do with that. But yeah, I feel like it it gives like so many layers, and obviously it is the it represents in the in the movie, it represents the word of the empress, and it is also guidance and wisdom, and it is always gonna come from intuition, it is always gonna come also because the snake represents transformation, it is always gonna come from your own transformation, your you know, the guidance and the wisdom, it's all about how you transform through life. That's how you gain more insight and more intuition, isn't it?

SPEAKER_01 10:39

Yes, yes, and I where I first kind of started recognizing that that was my path was my north node and my south node. So my north is Sagittarius, so South would be Gemini, I think. So whereas, you know, my past is that I was too into you know what I'm seeing, the intelligent side of things, and now I have to learn to trust my intuition and all of that, and that's exactly what I've been doing, and it's been a journey, but it's just been so beautiful. Yeah, so it's like that's why I'm going back and I'm watching all of these movies, and I'm like, oh, okay, there's some stuff that I wasn't seeing before, before this transformation. And yeah, it was funny when we got done watching the movie, we were very sarcastically like, Oh, too bad you're not gonna have anything to talk about because it was just like you know, every beat. I'm like, oh, gotta write that down, gotta write that down. Yeah, amazing. Um, okay. Next, um, I was wondering if you could tell us about your how you explain in your experience with the idea of the Akashic Records. Connected to the movie or in general, just in general, and then um yeah.

SPEAKER_00 12:01

So the Akashic Records are um I see the Akashic Records as a one of the techniques to access information that is available to us through energy. That's how I see it. Uh, it is very often described as the archive of everything that exists, which is which is yes, that's what it is, but I feel like it is it is a technique. So there are techniques that we utilize to access, for example, the energy in terms of our of our own field, like for example, our chakras, you know, there are certain techniques that we utilize to to do that. There are certain techniques that we utilize to speak to the dead, for example, which is another thing that is available to us as energy. And then the Akashic records are another thing that um, you know, contains energetic information, and it's energetic information about everything that exists. So you can access your own lives, you can access your own soul contract, you can see any karmic ties, any karmic loops that you might have open, or you know, you might need to close, like all of this, and it contains loads and loads and loads of information. In my own subconscious, it looks like a library. That's how I see it. In my own subconscious, it looks like a library. Um, there are so many ways that people work with the Akashic Records. I, you know, some people are just like, oh, because you can just walk in. I don't see it like that. You know, I say like something that's a bit, you know, more sacred than that. I work with um guides to go and access the Akashic Records, you know. Uh, I actually did Akashic Record session today, actually. And uh I have a guide and I simply ask, you know, this is what this person wants to work on. Do we need to look at their records? And if so, what is it that we need to look at? And then my guides just simply come through with like books and scrolls and all sorts of stuff, and we start exploring it that way. But yeah, to me, is this massive library and archive full of information in the form of energy?

SPEAKER_01 14:13

Yeah, that's beautiful. Yeah, that's exactly kind of my I, you know, with all of this stuff, I'm just very surface level and I've been learning about all of it over the past year, and I just kind of like hit on it until I understand it enough for my purposes. So that's always like why I'm excited to be having guests on too, because I know I'm gonna learn more and I'm going to be able to like understand it further. So that is also how I picture mine as well. Mine is very much a library, and you know, it's got that vibe, it's got a nice little fireplace in there for sure. Yeah, um yeah. So that the reason I brought that up is because it just feels like Bastion, he's it's like he's reading a book and he's getting answers about himself. And I was just like, that's so this idea. And he's like, wait a minute, what what's happening? And that's kind of how I felt with my first, you know, reading that I got from somebody else. And then when I first started going in there and accessing that myself, it's it's kind of like what this whole movie is, I think.

SPEAKER_00 15:23

Yeah, it is very much so, and and and that's you know, and I was reflecting actually because I rewatched it last night. Um, I was reflecting on that too, actually, because the never-ending story is, you know, you're reading a story and then somebody else, right? So the point is that Bastion is reading a book and we are following Bastion's story, right? And then it makes you think like, okay, so there must be somebody that is watching mine, you know, there must be some like, and so it's never ending like this. And I feel like because in the Akashic record, especially with regards to past and parallel lives, that's what we're doing, you know. We don't we're just not looking at other people's lives, but we're looking at ourselves in a multidimensional, under multidimensional lens, and all of the different lives that we are experiencing at the same time, which is so fascinating.

SPEAKER_01 16:17

100% agree. And it's like I never, never knew that this existed. And it's like it's all out there, it's waiting. You just have to be looking. It's not what we're learning in schools. Oh, no, but guys, if you know to ask and you're curious and you feel like you want to know more, like it is all there waiting for you. So love that. Um, okay. And then, oh, I wanted to touch on this idea of healing because there was very much with the um the old couple, the little like, I don't know, what would they be, gnomes or you know, whatever. And she's wanting to give him his potion her potion and a line that she says it has to hurt if it's to heal. And that makes me very much think of, you know, physically, say you have a cut or a scrape or you hit your knee on something, you have to go through that inflammation process. It's painful, it's not enjoyable, but that's what needs to happen in order for it to heal, to the point now where I'm like, if it's not that painful, I don't even take the medication anymore. Because it's like I know my body is doing what it needs to do, and then spiritually, it's the same thing. Like you have to experience these things to know what you need to grow from, all of that, and then um the how she does the potions and he gives the scientific advice, and she says he has to be well before he's ready for your scientific advice, which I kind of equate to you gotta be right in your head and your heart before the medicine or the hospital or any medical intervention is gonna be able to help you the way that you're looking for.

SPEAKER_00 18:04

Yeah, yeah. But for any journey, you gotta be ready. Yeah. You know, like for any journey. If you think about the like it, it is almost like the spiritual and the uh physical. I feel like he represents, you know, of the couple, she represents like the healer, which is not necessarily like the doctor, but like the healer in a spiritual sense, right? Um, and he represents the logic and the reality and the physical world, right? And I feel like um, you know, actually, one of the things that I've experienced through friends and other people is this fear of even starting a healing journey because of the pain that they're gonna have to face, right? And it breaks my heart. It's breaks my heart so much that somebody, you know, for what a year maybe, you know, of you try you trade that, you know, you you you face whatever you need to face for a year or a month, or maybe sometimes it's even just you know a few weeks instead of having 20 years of suffering, you know. And I feel like that's that's what the healing journey is about. I feel like there is any journey that is when she says, you know, it's it's it's what did what did she say? It's gonna hurt, it's gonna hurt so it can heal, something like that.

SPEAKER_01 19:19

It has to hurt if it's to heal.

SPEAKER_00 19:21

Yeah, it has to hurt if it's to heal. And I feel like that's what we go into like consciously in a healing journey, but I feel like there's a difference between like the hurt, so the the hardship that there, you know, of like this is gonna be hard, it's gonna hurt, but also keeping yourself in the struggle, you know. I feel like if you choose when you choose the healing journey, when you choose to face it, it's gonna be hard for that period of time, but then you're done. Like then you faced it, and there's a new version of yourself that's coming out, and it's stronger and it's wiser, and it can face a lot more things, and it has more capacity to hold many more good things, if you think about it, right? But when you don't, you keep yourself in that constant struggle that can last, you know, 20, 30, 40, 50 years. That's so much more pain. That is so much more pain. And to me, is like it's I just find it so shocking that people would trade it, would trade, you know what I mean? That people would make that. I'm like, it's so not worth it. It's so not worth it. And and if you and if there is something there for you to face, it means that you have what it takes to face it, otherwise it wouldn't even be there for you to face, you know, and it it's one of the things that pains me the most, really. It really is.

SPEAKER_01 20:42

Yeah, yeah. It's very hard to see, especially like generationally on my end, like to see how much, especially the women before me are just suffering, and their thing is I'm already in my 60s, like there's no point in me trying from here. Like, my life is my life, and yeah, it is. It's it's very hard. Um amazing. Thank you. Uh next, I wanted to get your thoughts on I I have my thoughts, but I want to get yours on the fact that the name that needed to be that the Empress needed to be renamed was Moonchild.

SPEAKER_00 21:27

Yes. Um I feel like he also he's thinking about his mom's name. And I wonder whether that is connected to his mom, you know, whether moon child is connected to his mom. Maybe it's the way his mom used to call him. Okay. Or maybe she was a moon child, meaning like uh Cancerians are seen as moon child, uh, you know, because they're The children of the moon. That's what they are. Um, because Cancer is ruled by the moon. And so I feel like there's there's a connection there, and also Cancerian and anything to do with the moon is also connection to mother in general. So I feel like there's a lot of symbolism. There's a lot of symbolism in there. There's a lot of symbolism. I feel like the thing that he needed in Bastian's journey, the thing that he needed to face was the loss of his mom, right? And in a way, he was facing it, but he and he was going through it in his own way, but he needed to be the hero. He needed to be the one to say the thing out loud, you know. Have you ever, I don't know if it happened to you, if you experienced this in your in your own journey, but I've uh tiptoeed around things that I needed to address in my own journey, right? And uh without calling them what they were, you know. But then the moment I said the word trauma, it's like a whole new thing opened for me and it's just like elevated everything. I'm like, oh my god, yes. This and it it actually helped so much. And I was wondering yesterday, I was like, I think he's doing the same. I think he's doing the same. I think he's naming what it is that needs to be named. It's not that he's not, you know, accepting what has happened with his mom. I feel like he's doing it, you know, he hadn't he hasn't named it yet. He's uh he hasn't pulled it out yet. And maybe that saying that out loud with so much, you know, mother symbolism in a moon child. Um I feel like that could be that, you know, that could be that.

SPEAKER_01 23:43

Yeah, no, that makes a lot of sense, especially because it's very much the thing with his dad, which again, like I said, generationally and like with my parents trying to talk to them about this kind of stuff when they are they are very much tiptoeing around pain and grief, and you know, my life didn't turn out how I expected. And these, you know, the a moon child or just like you know, the different terms indigo children, star seeds, these children that are so sensitive and are the dreamers, and they're being told to stop. Then it's like, you know, we're not being taught to call it trauma, to give it its name. We're being taught to shut it out. Yeah, yeah. So no, I love that was perfect.

SPEAKER_00 24:32

Thank you. That I love, I love the the angle that you're taking as well, though. You know, the the whole like mysticism and sensitivity of it, and naming like, no, this needs to be kept alive, you know. And maybe actually, maybe I wonder, you know, seeing how his father is portrayed, I wonder whether it was his mom that was encouraging this the most, you know, his reading and all of that, you know, him being a sensitive child and connecting to that. I wonder maybe if she was part of that journey. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 25:01

Yeah, absolutely. And I like to think too, I mean, this is totally like I just making this up, but what I had said to um my partner who had watched it with me, I was like, I wonder if there's any sense of because when he hears Atreyu's name and the explanation that he hunts the purple buffalo, you know, he pulls out his bag and he has a decal on there of a Native American warrior hunting buffalo. And I'm like, what? I he doesn't necessarily look like it as far as that, but that could just be, you know, casting in the 80s. I'm wondering if there's any chance that his mom maybe was Native American or had those roots. Oh, interesting. And like maybe her name actually was Moon Child in her tribe or something like that. I love where you're going with this. Because it was like because you know, he said he's like, I I have her name. My mom had such a beautiful name, and then that's the name that he gives. So I'm like, hmm. Oh I don't, you know, I don't know. I don't know. I love that theory. Oh wow, I never thought about it. Yeah, I don't maybe that's something to maybe okay, and you couldn't have segueed better for me regarding the the trauma. So this is where I kind of um this is my own personal rabbit hole. So, Gloria, would you like to dive into the rabbit hole with me? Oh, absolutely. All right, so this goes back to so both you and I have had long-term toxic relationships. Mine was, I don't know how long ago you have dealt with yours. Mine was very recent, it's all in this past year, and it has been a lot of putting that name to it, trauma, and a sense of emotional abuse. And let me just put out there, he is a very, very good man. He really is at his core. He grew up with intense narcissistic influences. I label one malignant, I label one the victim, the victim mentality. But it's like because we were very, very good friends in high school, and I all I always wanted to be his friend. There was always very much chasing energy from him, but I kept it as a friendship. And looking back now, it's almost like I was told so often that the relationship we had wasn't possible unless it meant something more. Like we weren't allowed to just be friends. Okay, so then it was like, oh, you know, he cares for me, he's choosing me. This must be something. So I think what it has been is that we've we've been friends and we have had our life and we have a daughter together and all of that, and we're just where we're at right now is I Ted said I was ready for a divorce. Um, but again, we're friends, and where our situation is long story short, where we have now made it a platonic marriage, so we're just not putting any romantic expectations on that, and we have our own lives, our daughter's the priority, she's the the thread that we are as long as she is taken care of, we're figuring it out. Otherwise, we don't know where it's going from here, but just right now, as long as she's taken care of. So I was just thinking of the the couple again, the the little gnomes, if you will, and they're bickering. Yeah. And how in my own relationship, we were very much like that. Is the bickering, is the calling not like wench, like not names like that, but you know, making fun of sarcastic comments that are undermining and just all of that stuff, and only now realizing that that's not how a relationship should be. And what I told myself was, oh, we're just so comfortable with each other that we can snipe like that. But then as I started going on my own journey and stepping into myself, it very much became this you're growing and I'm not. And I can't handle that. And then I look back at the relationship and it's like that's kind of what it's been all along. I've always, again, been the dreamer wanting to go out and do more and make more, and just being told that it's not realistic. So I'm kind of look because there's so many relationships like this that are happening now where they've been together for so, so long, and they're realizing and coming out of it, oh no, it was toxic. And my best friend got divorced. And then, so she's sharing all these TikTok videos of, you know, here's the post-divorce glorious glow up, and it's these women who are like, you know, overweight, unhealthy, unhappy, and then they're showing their progress as they're finding themselves and they're glowing and they're losing the weight, and they're just dancing and they're happy and they're full of themselves, or not full of themselves, but feeling beautiful in themselves and all of that. So I'm just wondering if there's like something to this idea of because maybe we didn't have hard lives, we had, you know, there's very much abuse as a real thing, physical abuse, um, drug addiction, all of that, we've not had lives like that. We've had a roof over our head, we've had parental support to a certain extent. But if on some level, with all of these long-term relationships, it is kind of this underlying idea of trauma bonding, but we're just not able to put that term to it because we don't feel like what we've gone through in our childhood and stuff is trauma. And then maybe the relationship looked good on paper and you had the white picket fence and all of this, but if you look at the day-to-day and the idea of the emotional support and the love not being there, that's its own kind of trauma.

SPEAKER_00 31:29

Yeah, very much so. Very much so. Did you have a question or do you want me to reflect on I'm just yeah, wondering your thoughts? Yeah. So there's so much here. Um, there's so much here. So, first of all, I want to say something because I think it's important, and I see so many people that have been in this kind of relationships, and it is a normal brain response to this that has happened, but I want to raise your awareness and maybe the awareness of the people that are hearing uh listening. Please do. So there is uh some form of conditioning that you okay, no, rewind. So it all starts okay. Let's start on it again. Okay, so it all starts in our brain, okay. It all starts in our brain. Um, the brain the brain has one function, and that is to protect you. Okay, brain's one function is to protect you. Now, there is a very sneaky, tricky thing about the brain that the brain does not equal protection to think that is good for you, but the brain brain equals protection and safety to familiarity. Okay, and so the brain will not strive to make you happy, the brain will strive to make you operate in the safest way possible, connecting safety to things that you've been doing over and over again. Okay, this is the reason why we stay in toxic and healthy relationships so much, literally because we're used to it. Literally because we're used to it. Now, the second layer to that is that um in order for the brain to keep keeping you safe, right? It looks for reassurance, it looks for the answers that agree with it, okay? Because if an answer doesn't agree with it, brain is gonna reject it, even if it's good for you, even if it's good for you. Brain rejects it because it's like, oh no, this is not this is not what we're used to. This bad thing, bad, let's let's push it out, right? So it looks for answers that are reassuring it and reconfirming the fact that where they are is safe, okay? So, um, and I've done it myself as well. What I'm about to say, it's happened to me too. I've done it as well, but this is where the awareness needs to go. Because you haven't had drug addiction, because somebody hasn't put their hands on you, it does not mean that you were not abused. It does not mean that you were treated fairly. It does not, you know what I mean? So, what the brain is doing there is trying to find a way for it to cope. So, because it wants to keep you safe, right? Because it wants to keep you safe, and you're realizing that maybe the relationship that you're in, I'm saying you, but like you in general, not instead of you, right? And you're realizing that the relationship the relationship that you're in might not be the healthiest, brain is gonna start being like, yes, but he doesn't put his hands on me. So it's not that bad, right? Or yes, but he is not an alcoholic, or he doesn't have a drug addiction. So it's okay if he says this and this and this, it's okay if he has these and these kind of behaviors because he's not that bad. Abuse is abuse. There is there a spectrum, is there, you know, is there something that is I mean, honestly, I don't even want to say no, you know, is there something that is is you know more severe than other things? Possibly, yes, but we're all different people with different levels of tolerances for someone, you know, depending on how they are, you know, how they were raised and everything, and their environment and everything, but for someone, someone can have a high tolerance to um, you know, being called names every single day, uh, and you know, and and survive with that. And somebody can be called a name once and completely crumble. It doesn't mean that the experience wasn't abusive for either of them. You know what I mean? So, like it's it's just we are such unique individuals and we have to call it for what it is. We have to call it for what it is, you know. It doesn't mean because you haven't experienced certain things that that that what you've experienced is good or what you've experienced is not traumatic, you know, and and unfortunately, the brain um is gonna do a lot of convincing, it's gonna do everything that it can to convince you that um it is okay to stay where you are, because the moment that you start to try and do something different, it goes into a panic because you are diverting from a familiar pattern. And so if you're diverting, it's gonna start sending you alarm bells and it's gonna start being like, well, but what if you can't make it on your own? What if you'll never find somebody else? What if you'll be homeless? What if this? What if this? What if this? It just gives you all these like catastrophic scenarios so that you don't change. This is literally the main reason why we stay in relationships where I was in the toxic relationship that I was in between the age of 18 and 32. And I've now been out of it for eight years, um, but it was a very long time. And uh I when I um went and looked for help the first time. Um, when I started looking for help, I went to see a coach because I was really um, I had severe OCD, uh high functioning, generalized anxiety and severe OCD. And when I went to her, she obviously during the intake session, she started, she'd asked me loads of questions because she wanted to know, you know, my case essentially. Like she needed to know what my experiences were to see if she could help me and how, right? And so she asked me about my mom, she asked me about my upbringing and everything. And I was like, Yes, everything was making sense. And then she asked me, okay, so what about your husband? And my answer was, oh my god, no, he saved me. I was like, Thank God, like he saved me. He's the one that brought me out of all of that. And fast forward a year and a half, uh, I remember having that session with her after I decided and I opened my eyes, and after I decided I was gonna divorce, her name was Alex. Um, and I said, Alex, he never saved me, did it? So it was he never saved me. I said, You knew, did you? And she's like, It's okay, you get that, you got that, you got that, you know. But it's it's like we have to come to those realizations ourselves, and our brain will work so hard for us not to change. It's gonna work its hardest. It really is.

SPEAKER_01 39:10

Yes, yeah, I've yep, I've been on that end of it for sure. Um, let me just say also age-wise, 18 to 32, right out of literally at my high school graduation party, and I'll be turning 33 this September, and I put my foot down in October. So same exact age range, which is wild. Yeah, and so thinking of all of this, I was like, I thought of how you said um on your YouTube channel you do like the the song reactions. Yes, music reaction for the song, yes, yes. Um, and there was just one I wanted to throw out there in case you were to listen to it, or I don't know if anyone's already ever requested it, but um, have you done any Kelly Clarkson? I have not. Do tell.

SPEAKER_00 40:00

I'm gonna I've got my list here, I'm gonna write it down.

SPEAKER_01 40:03

Yes, so this is from her most recent album called Chemistry, and there is a song called Me, and this is her post-divorce album from a very, very toxic yes. So this song called Me is all about um, I don't I don't need you to love me. I I can love myself, whatever. But the lyrics I wrote specifically in regard to this was um, I told you I wanted you, but you needed me to need you, which is a big thing I've been, you know, me and my friend have talked through regarding our relationships, you know. It's that it's that need, we're not wanted. We're needed to like put on a certain facade to say, yeah, I got the white picket fence, I'm successful, but then we're not wanted, so that emotional support isn't there. Um, but this one really, I don't need somebody to scold me, don't need somebody that hurts me, don't need somebody who feels weak standing next to me. And that was a big thing with all of all of this journey for me. And I had even told him from the start, I'm like, I don't know what's happening to me, but I just read an article about if you're going through spiritual awakening, here are these signs. You might want to tell the people around you. I love that because I told him, I'm like, uh stuff is just starting to make sense to me. I'm starting to see things differently, and I'm really worried about leaving people in the dust because that's kind of what happens is these toxic relationships fall away, and you realize you're giving away parts of yourself that you need to keep for yourself and setting up boundaries and all of that. So that's just you know, like I said, I went from seeing these little gnomes bickering to being like, I thought that that was love. Yeah, and I have been on a journey where I see now that it's not. Yeah. So again, that's why I love going and doing this because it's like I'm seeing these things and it's the answers have always been there, but I wasn't I wasn't looking. My brain, my brain was shutting me down to it.

SPEAKER_00 42:26

It was protecting you, it's always for protection, it is always for protection, remember, you know. That's also another reason why I feel we can't really be mad at ourselves, because you you don't know what you don't know, right? If you don't know that your brain is trying to protect you, if you don't have that knowledge of you know, that that neuroscience knowledge that this is how the brain operates, you're not gonna know. You're not gonna know that that's what's happening. And so there are so many people that have so much um, you know, we can have so much anger towards ourselves. Why did I go there? Why did I spend 15 years like this? Why did I not see it? Why did it happen to me? I feel like the most important thing is to just, it's not why is what. What did it teach me? You know, like why it's it it doesn't it doesn't matter. Why did I do it? It doesn't, it that's not no, it doesn't matter, you know. It's more about okay, so what do I take from it? What was the lesson? What how am I gonna, you know, what yeah, what was the lesson? What did it teach me? What did I need to learn from that? You know, I had you know, it was a horrible experience for 15 years, and I can't not be grateful for it. I literally have gotten to the point I was like, I cannot, I can't not be grateful for it because had I not experienced that, I wouldn't be able to do what I do today in the way that I do it today. Like it's no, I needed to feel so much, and I needed to experience. And go through so much because now when I have somebody in front of me that is having some really, really deep experiences, I can understand that. And I can walk them through it. And I can and I can hold their hands and I can do as much as I can to help them. I wouldn't have been able to if I didn't know what it felt like.

SPEAKER_01 44:21

Right. And that's like kind of like that next layer up of what you do and what anyone who is on the same journey where they just want to help and they want to make things better. It has to hurt if it's to heal.

SPEAKER_00 44:35

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 44:36

We had to hurt so that we can now help other heal others heal as well. Yeah. Yeah. So yeah, it just uh makes perfect sense that you that you picked this movie. Does it and so are you because you're a cancer then, right? Too. So would you technically be a moon child? I am indeed, yes. Look at that. Look at that. Yes, yes. I love that. Awesome. Well, that is just about everything I had on my. I mean, listen, I took millions of notes. We could go for hours, but I think those were all the big things that I wanted to hit. Is there anything else that you know you feel like stood out to you?

SPEAKER_00 45:22

Or absolutely. I feel I was reflecting. One of the things that I I was because you know, I watched the movies many times. I re-watch it, if not once a year, at least every couple of years. Like it's literally like one of my favorite stories. I don't even say movies, like literally like one of my favorite stories of all time. Um, but I never watched it with the intention of reflecting on how it influenced my life. And so when I was re-watching it yesterday, I was paying attention, you know, to a few certain things. I'm like, oh, is that why I am like this? Yeah, that's what it comes from. So, you know, I was like picking up all the things, and I've always um had this uh I had this realization yesterday while watching this. There is a thing um about me that is this like unshakable, um unshakable belief that I must work for my dreams, that I must pursue my dreams, that I must go for it, that it is this like unshakable thing. And I truly, as I was watching the movies yesterday, I was like, that's where I come from. That's where it comes from. I literally watched this movie the first time, I believe I was probably six. And so the whole point with this like nothing, that it's taking over everything, right? And he's destroying everything. And you get to the to the empress at the end, and she says, you know, we need humans to keep dreaming, we need humans to keep dreaming, we need humans to keep hoping because otherwise everything is gonna be destroyed. And I believe that watching that at six years old, I was like, There is no way I'm gonna suffer, you know, it made me like such like a trooper for that, you know. It's like, no, no, no, no, believe, absolutely, like, believe in your dreams, believe in all of this is possible, believe in yourself. Like, I feel like I had that, you know, so ingrained in me since I was so young. I believe that this movie is the reason. Absolutely. I believe that this movie is the reason. I I I also think it's the reason why I believe more in what I see with my eyes closed than with my eyes open, for sure. You know, I believe more in my intuition and in my emotions than in words, you know. I really think it's got a lot to do with all of that. Yeah, it doesn't it connects very much to a lot of the work that I do, I think. But I never I never saw it with the intention of reflecting, you know, on how it influenced my life and the all of this that it came up last night. I was like, oh yeah, yeah, it makes it makes all the sense.

SPEAKER_01 48:04

Yeah, yeah. That see, and that's why exactly why I'm doing this, because it's like, you know, if you're not like you said, you don't know what you don't know. And like for me, my my brain was protecting me from this movie before I was ready for it. And now you're like, this is the movie we're watching, and I'm like, yep, it is, because Gloria said so. I was led to it now, and now you know it makes way more of an impact than it could have before. And I feel like I've always had that unshakable belief too, but I wasn't ready to embrace it for the longest time. So, you know, I I yeah, I can't thank you enough. This has been exactly the magic I thought that it was gonna be. Thank you so much. Thank you so much for having me. Thank you, thank you. Yes, um, so guys, feel free. I you know, she's she does it all. She's got your back. Go check out all of her stuff, her YouTube channel, Instagram, TikTok, her website, all her name, Gloria Battini, gloriabattini.com. Um, I saw you do what services do you offer on your site?

SPEAKER_00 49:18

So, first of all, I no longer have social media, so I don't have TikTok or Instagram anymore, but you can find me on YouTube on my website, and then I'm a teacher on an app, on a spiritual app that's called Inside Timer. Okay. So you can find me on there. Um, what do I do? What do I do? I teach uh everything that I do, I actually teach it as well. So I do mediumship, Akashic Records. Uh, the only thing that I don't teach is astrology, um, but I I do a little bit of that as well. Um, but yes, mediumship, um, akashic records, energy healing, all of that. And so I I do like private sessions with people for this, but I also teach consciousness development, which is where you learn to do all these things. So yeah. Amazing. If you want to learn how to do it, if you feel like you know, and there's a lot of people that come to the course because they want to have a different career, because they feel like this is what the career that they're meant to have, and they come to learning, but a lot of people come to just actually expand their life, you know, be better, you know, be themselves, be more themselves, kind of thing.

SPEAKER_01 50:22

So, yeah, absolutely amazing. Yeah, guys, so check that out, Gloria again. Thank you. Thank you so much.