Walk with Me

In this episode, I’m talking about something that took me years to understand: the difference between man’s convictions and God’s conviction.

As a preacher’s kid who grew up in church, faith has always been a part of my life. But like many people, there came a time when the noise of the world, the pressures of life, and other people’s interpretations of faith started to cloud my relationship with God.

One of the biggest things I learned during that season is that sometimes what we feel isn’t God’s voice at all—it’s the weight of people’s expectations, judgments, and convictions placed on us. And if you’re not rooted in your word or building your own relationship with God, those voices can make you feel like you can’t move, breathe, or make a mistake without disappointing Him.

In this conversation, I share part of my faith journey, how the book of Job helped me realize that even questioning God is part of a real relationship with Him, and how I learned that God isn’t intimidated by our humanity. He already knows we are imperfect—that’s exactly why grace exists.

If you’ve ever struggled with church hurt, doubt, confusion, or feeling like you had to be perfect to be close to God, this episode is for you.

For this week’s Shared Steps moment, I’m giving flowers to Alice Walker, author, activist, and the woman who introduced the term womanist. Her work continues to challenge people to think deeply about truth, identity, and living with intention.

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Transcript

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All right. It's kinda late and I'm kind of tired, but we're here, we're here, we're here, we're here, we're here, we're here, we're here, we're here.

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We're here.

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You got this? And action. Take one.

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Okay. Well, hello, hello, hello, hello, everybody. Welcome to the podcast. Welcome to this side of the world.

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This is her father, her face, or calls me to grace, and I am your o's she. Thank you for joining me this week for another episode. We are on episode what 10? Y'all, y'all didn't know just as we're on episode 10. Just by me being here on episode 10, I have surpassed 80% of people who go into podcasting. That is crazy. That is crazy. But here we are, y'all. We're on episode 10. That's what's up. Oh my goodness. How are y'all doing this week? Like, let's just go ahead and dive straight on into life lately and just catch on up. Let's just chit-chat. Yeah, let's chit-chat. What's going on in my world? Well, the Upper Light event was this past weekend, and that was a great event. It was so good. Um, I definitely look forward to more. I had no idea what I was really walking into and what I was gonna see. I knew it was a cipher event, but I've only known of ciphers in the sense of rap. And only rap, I I wasn't sure how the program would come out and turn out, but it was great, and I enjoyed myself and I look forward to more events and attending more events. Um, and then what else is going on? Oh yeah, kind of totaled out the car.

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So looking for a car.

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That's and I can't lie. I was a little stressed, but you know, I released and gave it to God, and it's in God's hands now. So that's just that's just where I'm at with that. Um, so God gonna make a way, he'll he'll make a way. And then what else is going on in my world? School, school's kicking my butt. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness, school is kicking my butt. Like, I'm I keeps every class I get in. I'm like, oh yeah, it's getting a little tough. We in there now. I'm in that thing. Do you hear me? I'm in that thing. And like I thought my last professor really read oh, this professor. Oh my goodness, he really be reading. He really reads. Oh my goodness, he really reads our assignments. And I know y'all are probably like, the area, of course, is no, trust me. Trust me. I I promise you, my professors have not all like fully read my stuff because there's some skills and things that I'm doing in this class that I had to do in another class, and the way I'm being critiqued and stuff, I'm still doing great passing, all that. Doing more than just passing, but the feedback and things that I'm getting, I wouldn't get that now if I would have gotten it then. It would have been tightened, like somebody tried to tighten me up in those other classes. But it's neither here nor there. I digress. We figured it out and we're growing and we're going and growing and going, growing, glowing and going. I like that. We're growing and glowing and going. I like that.

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So I bet you write that down.

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But yeah, that's that's real, really all that's going on in my world. Um, yeah, that's it. That's up. What's up with y'all? What's new in your world? What's going on? What's going on? Let me girl, let your girl know. Let your girl know. Just you know, comment down below. Wouldn't anything crazy happen this week? Oh my goodness, did y'all hear? What happened? At Rihanna House? Aesop house? Um, whoa, crazy.

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It's a crazy, crazy world, crazy world, crazy times.

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But yeah, that's that. So now we're gonna move on to her payments, yeah. And I know y'all are probably like, why? Why is it so early in the episode? Well, guys, um, doing a little switch around. So her playlist is now going to be the soundtrack of the episode. So the songs on this playlist, if you listen to them, it might be one song, or it might be like, I'm trying, I'm gonna try not to go more than three, more than no more than three songs. Um, but yeah, so it this is gonna be the soundtrack of the episode or soundtracks of the episode now. That's what her playlist is gonna be. So if you add these songs, um, I'll have the Spotify and the Apple Music playlist down below. And if you play these songs on repeat as I go through the episode, um, or at least through the main topic, you know, it should, you know, put you in the mindset move for the episode. Because these are the songs that I thought of when I was going, when I was, you know, going through the episode and everything. So that's what her playlist is gonna be now. It's gonna be the soundtrack of the episode. I said all that to say. It's the soundtrack of the episode. So for this week, I have three songs for you. Um, and each song is going to um take you to a different emotion that I was feeling um as I expressed this topic and everything. Um, so I wonder down below, after I say the three songs, maybe throw in a guess in the comments down below what you think the topic of discussion might be. You know, I'm gonna give you these songs. So the first song is um I Smile by Kirk Franklin. The second song is Worth by Anthony Brown. And the last song is Speak to Me by Corinne Hawthorne. Okay, so those three songs are the soundtrack of this episode. Um, so if you want to um set the mood, set the atmosphere, get your mind right, or centered around the topic of this conversation and all that, put those songs on. I'm gonna repeat and let them play as you listen to this episode. Okay, so yeah, that is her playlist.

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Now we're gonna keep moving right along, moving right along, right along to shared steps, shared steps, shared steps, shared steps.

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For this week's shared steps moment, I would like to give flowers to the one and only Alice Walker. Okay, now a lot of people know Alice Walker as the author of The Color Purple, which earned her her Pulitzer Prize. But beyond being a brilliant writer, she's also a poet, an activist, and the woman who introduced the term womanist, a way of centering the experiences, strength, and spiritual lives of black women. What I appreciate about Alice Walker is that her work has always encouraged people to think deeply, not just about society, but about themselves, about truth, about faith, about what it means to live with integrity and really know who you are. And that connects to this episode in a very powerful way. Because so much of what she writes about is the importance of questioning the voices around us and being honest about what we believe and why we believe it. And when it comes to faith, that kind of discernment matters. Sometimes the loudest voices telling us who God is are actually God. They're people, their culture, their tradition. Alice Walker has always pushed people to slow down, reflect, and seek the truth for themselves. And I think that's why one of her quotes always stuck with me. She once said, and when you think about that spiritually, that's powerful. Because sometimes we hand over our spiritual authority to other people's interpretations, other people's judgments, or other people's expectations of what faith is supposed to look like. But God invites us into relationship, into understanding, and into truth. So for this share steps moment, we're giving Alice Walker her flowers for being a voice that encourages people to think deeply, seek the truth, and live intention. Because growth spiritually and personally, it often begins when you're brave enough to ask a question.

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So I was water and here are your powers.

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I'm in the bigger disposition.

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So I don't know if you can tell from the title of the episode, which I don't know yet, which is why I haven't said it. I usually don't title them until after. Um, from her playlist, you know, those three songs, I smile and worth and speak to me. The name's Greg Franklin, Anthony Plang, and Glenn Hawking, you know. And the shared sets from it should be big old hints, hence at this point. Um you can't tell already. We're gonna talk about God. So this episode, we're talking about God. Um, but not uh just yeah, we're talking about God and all that, and we're just gonna dive in and get started. And I just wanted to start this out of saying, Yes, I am a PK. For those who don't know, I am a preacher kid. Um, and this might shock people even further. I'm a preacher's kid, and what almost separated me from God wasn't God. It was people. It was people. It um it was people, it was man's convictions, clouding man's voice, man's shame, man's opinion that clouded God's voice for me, and it became overwhelming and so confusing. Um and I took on other people's shame as God's shame and as God's conviction. And I, y'all, it just made me be like, ah, I I I really I I yeah, it made my life, it made my faith walk, it made everything just so it almost hardened me. Okay, so background a little bit, a little bit of background um about me being a PK and everything. Yes, uh, like I said, I'm a preacher's kid. I grew up in the church. Uh I've been in church for as long as I can remember. Um, but the thing is that's different for me and for my siblings and us growing up is that my parents didn't they didn't force religion. Like, like we couldn't, like our parents didn't make us get baptized. We had to actually tell them like what everything was and what the meaning behind it, behind communion and the sacrifice and Jesus going on the cross. Like it wasn't, they didn't force us to do it. They they taught it to us, but they didn't force things down our throat if that makes sense. And also beyond that, um my dad and my mom, both my parents, they welcomed questions. Like, there was no such thing as like they didn't make us feel bad for having questions about the Bible or having questions about understanding and being curious um about the stories and things that we were told. My dad even let me take mythology in high school and not even just let me take mythology because it wasn't even a thing of let. Um, I told him I was taking it, and he didn't even bat a eye. Like, it was like okay. Um, that is also very shocking to people. Um, so like I'm saying all of that to say that growing up in my house, yes, I'm a PA, and yes, I've grown up in church all my life, but the way my house was structured and everything, and questions could happen, conversations weren't shunned or shamed if you needed to have the deeper and critical thinking about Christianity, religion, the Bible, and everything was not shamed. It was not something that made that wasn't the thing. And the biggest thing that my dad always wanted us to understand and have inside of our hearts is that being a Christian, following God and believing in God and having faith is about relationship. It's not, it's not about the religion. Yes, you have ways and all that, but it is at the root, it's about relationship and love. And that was what my dad wanted to get us get through our heads. Um, and you know, I'm not gonna lie, being at home, I had those safeguards and those safe rails to ask those questions and things like that. So, you know, the world outside noise wasn't so loud, it wasn't so overwhelming because I could always come home. You know, I always came home and I like because of my parents and how strong they are, coming home was a nice rock, a solid, solid, firm foundation. So it's like it was a nice reset. Like, you know, my parents prayed up, said they prayed up, like you know, so coming home was fine. Then I went off to college. Oh y'all, I went off to college. Let me tell y'all when I got to college, college was when the fog began to settle. Like I the fog was like coming down, coming down on me. Oh my goodness. Like it was so much from like the world pressure of figuring out college and just the daily stresses of life and being in this fast-paced society. I was pursuing music and all of the things. You gotta do this, you gotta do this, you gotta do this. It was always something to do, constantly on that hamster wheel, constantly going and going and going and going, and just going and going and going. And it's like everything's coming at me, coming at me, coming, coming at, coming at me. Whole time I'm in I was in college, you know, I try, I try to find a church home. I'm not gonna lie to y'all, I felt myself like kind of slipping and being overwhelmed and weighed down by all the negativity that was going on in the world because not in the world, but in my world. Like it was like I was in school, college itself is just stressful all on its own. I was losing friends left and right, people I thought would be by my side for oh, earring fell out. Okay. Um, people I thought would be by my side for every end of the day, as I talked about in other episodes. If you want that spiel, you can go listen to that. You know, losing friends, losing childhood friends, um, losing new friendships, you know, I'm dating and having relationships, and now I have relationship problems. That's another thing. When I was at home, it wasn't that my parents didn't allow us to date, I chose not to date, so I didn't even have the stresses of dudes. But now I'm in college, I have relationship stress, and now I'm dealing with that. That is also overwhelming. I am also in school, I was pursuing music. As I stated, y'all, nobody tells you how hard a music degree is. Nobody tells you how hard getting a music degree is just for you to get out of there and they just be like, that's not a professional degree, and all the work you did in college doesn't amount to nothing because it wasn't in a professional world, even if everything was in a professional setting, you know, whatever. So I digress, but as you can tell from my emotions, hype emotions, and everything. It was, I can boil it all down and say it got a bit overwhelming, okay? And the more overwhelming it got, the more no's I got, the more I felt like doors were slamming in my face, the more people I was losing. Doubt started creeping in. I was questioning, man, am I supposed to be doing this? Is this the path I'm supposed to be going on? Is this really what my purpose in life is? There's literally no one around. Like, who can hear me? Nobody's checking in on me, who understands me, nobody even sees me. It is just me and this, it's just me and this baby by myself. It's just me. It's literally me. And I'm fighting, I'm fighting so hard. I'm fighting so hard, and everything I'm trying to do, it just keeps failing. Everything I'm trying to do is not succeeding. Why is it? Why am I losing people? What in the world is going on? And then I'd have small victories, not even small victories, I'd have moments of victory. I'd have I'd have little wins, I'd have wins, and I'd get a little glimmer of hope, and I'd still hold on to that hope and everything. And it just and the thing, the reason why I toiled and tarried for so long, because it didn't, it wasn't just in college, it lasted a couple years, it lasted a few years after college, too. Like that's the thing. It didn't, it started in college. That's when the fog came in and started setting in on me. Oh, and then I got my heart broken, and it, you know, it really everything boom down for, down, down, nugget up, nugget, nugget up. You're going to start down, down, down, down. And then I start making bad choices. And I'm like, oh my goodness, I'm not living my life, right? I'm not living the way I know I'm supposed to be living. Oh my goodness, God. Oh my goodness, what is going on? God, do you even hear me? God, are you even seeing me? God, are you even there? Have you left me? Have you forsaken me? Like, that's what I was literally like, oh MG, I don't hear you no more. And it's just like, what is going on? Like, I'm still here. I'm still holding on. I'm still holding on, I'm still holding on. But oh my goodness, I can't see. Oh my goodness, I can't hear. Oh my goodness, what am I supposed to do? It's just me. What am I supposed to do? It's just me. But my that was what was going on through my brain. That was going what was going on in my emotions. I was having spiritual warfare. Like crazy. Crazy. And I say spiritual warfare because y'all, I never lost sight of God. I never lost my belief. I never lost my faith. Definitely.

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I made it hard to see.

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But you know what? You know what? You know what realization God helped me come. Was that what was really separating me? What was what was filling my thought? What was clouding me from hearing God, from seeing God. Was man. Was man's convictions, was man's words, was the fact that I just I had reached this rigid point of you can't breathe without disappointing God. And at some point along the way, I couldn't tap into my foundation that I came from from home of knowing above all else, God is love and it's about your relationship with Him. It's about your relationship with Him. I they got lost. In the fog, okay. Okay, the more I was hearing you're not good enough, the more nodes I was getting, the further away that sentiment got okay. And I was taking on man's opinions, I was taking on man's shame. I was taking everything that man was telling me I was doing wrong. I was taking it and I was taking it, and I was using saying you deserve it because you're not living right. You deserve it. You can't, you like you literally, you are a sinner, you live in sin. Like, you know, you will never be perfect, you will never be worthy. You are never going to be worth saving. And I wanted my word, I went praying, I went talking to God, and you know, I felt, Jane, I felt like God won't hear me. I've been out here for so long. God ain't he not listening to me no more. He's not listening to me no more. I done let's listen to the man for so at this point. God, I like I'm trying, I've wow, like I he ain't here no more. I was like, he gotta still be here though. He gotta still be here. God, I need you to, I need, but that's the thing. I was like, I need God to see still, I need you to still be here. I need you to still be here, God. Like, I need you to still be here. I really do. The turning point for me was as crazy as this is, well, not as crazy as it was was the book of Job. But that was the turning point for me. Not when I initially learned it, because I not initially learned it, because hold on. Okay, so when I initially learned the book of Job, like no, growing up, uh you know, I've always heard be like Job, never question God, have faith, hold on, step fast, be strong, all those things. And you know, when they taught it in church and preached about it at church, it was always about all the things that Job endured and then the promise of, I mean, and then what he received back, you know, because God gave him his blessings to go, you know, even more than what he lost. Um, versus when I read and studied for myself at school, um, because I took an understanding of the Bible course and shout out to my professor, she gave us a boatload of interpretations to understand fully the context of everything. And I believe, no, I know I now know that when we were talking about the book of Job, that wasn't something that was just being thrown out there. God meant that for my spirit and my soul. I just didn't know it at the time. I know it now. I know it now. Um, and the truth, the truth of the matter is, job, good question. Job definitely said, Why me God? Job definitely said, Why you doing this to me? Job was mad. Job was angry, job agreed, and job spoke honestly to God at the man out there. Go read it for yourself. Go read it for yourself. But job had a full human honest conversation with God and just let and let God know. Like, bro, I'm not I'm not with this. Like, what is going on basically? Like, why you got me out here? Like, what did I do to deserve any of this? You got like you got some explain, you got some planning to do. You got some splattening to do, and that's what job was like. You you got you gotta let me know something. And Job let he let him, he never turned his back on God though. He didn't turn his back on God, but Job, Job had a Job had a human moment with God. And learning that, it stuck with me. I didn't, like I said, when I learned it in school, I didn't, when we talked about it in class, it stuck with me then. I just didn't know the reason for it, and now it's coming full circle fruition. And it was God was reminding me of my foundation. God was reminding me of where I come from, and he was reminding me that it is okay to have these real conversations with God, but come to him and have those conversations. Okay, he was like, it's okay, come talk to me, but come talk to me, and we can handle this. And so that's what I did. I had weeks of prayer and wrestling, and I brought it all to God. Because man made me feel like God wasn't listening to me no more. Man made me feel like I I'm too I'm too far gone, too separated. I'm too gone, I'm too gone. I'm I'm alone in this. But God said, no, bring, bring, bring it all to me. Bring every feeling, bring it all. I don't care. I just want you to come. So that's what I did. And you know what? He didn't condemn me, he didn't turn his back on me. I'm not dead, you know? I'm I'm here, and he reminded me of who I am in him. And that he knows that I'm human. And he knows that I'm gonna make mistakes. That's why he sent his son to die. To forgive those sins. He knows that. He knows that. And he dropped him alright, John 3.16.

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God so loved the world. Whosoever believes.

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That means nobody's left out of no whosoever. That means anybody who believes that Jesus Christ was sitting here to die for our side and that he rose again on that third day. Is welcome to his whosoever. Whosoever. Doesn't matter, doesn't matter who you are.

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So that means even me, even me, who grew up in church, I grew up with these values, grew up with these principles, grew up knowing and going.

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Even me. Because God said you never left. You never left me and I never left you. Trust me. You just got a little it just got a little blurry. And then he also reminded me of the new covenant in chap in John 13 and 14, where Jesus tells us above all else, love, love above all else.

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Love your neighbor, above all else, love.

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So I was reminded that it is okay to be human with God. Man makes you feel like it's not okay to be human with God, but God says, I know you're human, I know that. So come.

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And he reminded me that when he sent his sign, because he knew, he knew, he knew, he knew, he knew that we were gonna keep making mistakes over and over again, no matter how hard we tried.

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So he just told us, he simplified it as best as he could, above all else, if you can't move in love, love, love, above all else, love. It's okay to be human with me. And he gave me an instruction to love because he knew we would keep messing up. Okay, and so I had to reach, not I had to reach, because I didn't reach this point on my own. Once I finally came to God and brought everything, all my stresses, all my worries, all my doubt, all my grief, all my pain, all my insecurities, every single thing that man told me, once I brought it and laid it at his feet, at his throne. I promise y'all, I have been introduced to peace, to a joy. I haven't that I haven't known enjoy that I haven't experienced and felt in my own soul. So long.

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So long. And it feels so good.

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It feels so good to be home. It really does.

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And so I just what God helped me understand is that I have to be able to discern his voice from man's voice. Man's conviction tells you you should be ashamed, tells you you should be ashamed. It tells you that you're a disappointment to God, and that you are a disappointment to your faith, to your law, that you'll never match up, that you'll keep messing up, and you'll make mistakes over and over and over again, and you're gonna keep falling short, and you're never going to be worthy, and you're not worthy of being saved, and you're here alone. That's what man's conviction sounds like. Like shame.

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God's conviction doesn't say come clean. God's conviction doesn't say I need conviction.

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Let's walk through this.

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That's God conviction. Sounds like Will he correct you, yes.

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Will he shame?

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A funny little quote that I saw um while I was scrolling on TikTok, you know, everything. Um, and it was something like God, and she she said along the lines like, God, God says, you know, I'm not saying to be sin less, because that's impossible. But you know, sin less. And I just and I think that's I think that's that's like the best way, you know, to put it. And that's how God like the the that really summed up how I felt. And it was just uh, I know you're imperfect, I know you're gonna make mistakes. Am I I yeah, I'm asking to do better, but I I know you can't do it on your own. So like come to me and it's fine, and we'll do it together. There's no like there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. I'm here for you.

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So just come to me, and we'll walk through this thing together. That's what God says. That's how his convictions feel.

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And I'm so happy that I was able that God blessed me with the ears and the eyes to hear and see. And to believe, and to help my heart to believe that again, and to understand and know that again. To be familiarized myself with that feeling again. Because it was already embedded in me. You know, I just kind of I got to school and you know, it just got a little confusing, okay? It did. And I I don't want to sit here and like ignore the church hurt because I know church hurt is real. Church hurt is real. Okay, and I know some of you are hurt by people who claim to represent God, who claim to believe in God, to who claim that this is all out of the love of God. I trust me, trust me, trust me, trust me, I know. But people's misinterpretation is not God's character, okay? That's why it is important for you to have your own relationship with God. Yes, we are in community to hold each other accountable and to be reminders of our faith. Yes, that is that that is what we are here to do. That is, we are here to hold each other accountable, and we are here to be reminders. Okay, but like I said, people's misinterpretation of God is not his character, and in order to understand and know God and know what he is telling you to do, and know his voice over people's misinterpretation of him, you gotta have your own relationship with him. You gotta read for yourself. Go ask him questions, go wrestle, go pray honestly, bring it all to him, bring your doubts, bring your worries, bring your cares, bring whatever you don't care about, bring your stress. If you cuss, okay, cuz why are you talking to God if you slip up and all right? He he already knows you, he knows you. Like I said, he doesn't say come clean, he doesn't say come saved, he doesn't say come perfected, he doesn't say come without sin. He says come.

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You are imperfect.

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And I just want to remind you guys if you don't take anything else away from this conversation like this, God is not God is not intimidating by your question. God is not judging you for your pain.

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He just wants relationships, not perfection, not perfection, it's just relationship.

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Maybe this isn't your struggle. Maybe you know, maybe you pretty good and solid about discerning between man's conviction and God's conviction. I wasn't, so this was my this that that's how I that's that was part of my struggle I had to deal with. I mean, it's a it's a lot of other things on and you know, I kind of had a joke on it, I felt like, but you know, because yeah, that's that's that that's that was you know for me, that's how so I just wanted to remind people because I felt like there's it's a needed reminder, especially right now, especially right now, especially right now. You don't like what's being put out there, go read for yourself, go learn it for yourself, go talk to him for yourself, build that relationship.

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That's all I got.

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Oh, yeah, that's all I got. That's all I got. That's all I got. Oh, we're gonna keep on moving my long two letters along the way. Letters a longer way.

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This is I really need to reheat that it's no longer hot. If you would like to share your stories, your experience, maybe your relationship and rest of moment with God, um, or a testimony that you like to share based on from this episode you have that, you can always email those. Or, you know, like I said, not licensed, um, no certifications, did not go to school for it. So if you want some advice, I can give the best advice that I can. If you're up to you know, take it with a grain of salt. I'll take it with a grain of salt. I mean, I by no means am a professional. But if you would like some advice, you can always send those letters too. Letters along the way at gmail.com. That is L-E-T-T-E-R-S-A-L-O-N-G-H-E-W-A-Y at gmail.com. All right.

SPEAKER_03 41:47

Um, yes, so now we're gonna move on to glow-up goals.

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So for our glow-up goals, uh, like I told y'all, we are gearing up for the seven our 75-day challenge that starts, it actually kicks off this Sunday, this upcoming Sunday on the 15th, I believe. Yes, Sunday is our start day. So remember, we are well, if you are joining in on the 75-day challenge and you don't want to make a list for yourself, this is my list. We're doing daily journaling, daily workouts, clean eating. Because what's the point of working out if you're not gonna eat to support it? Uh, I'm going on a 30-minute walk every day. I'm gonna read a chapter out of the Bible every day, and I'm gonna read at least 10 pages for fun every day. Because yeah, gotta get back into just reading for fun. Um, so yeah, maybe drop down below in the comment section what your how many things is that? One, two, three, one, two, three, four, five, five things. Yeah, let's make a list of five things. Try to make a list of five things that you're gonna commit to for the next 75 days, okay? Starting Sunday. Okay, starting Sunday. I'm starting Sunday. Starting Sunday, though. Okay, cool.

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So we're gonna keep on going right along. We're at Grace notes, grace notes, grace notes.

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So the grace note for this week, yes, we moved on to grace notes. So the grace note for this week is actually the verse that I read this morning from doing my morning devotion, and it is Psalm 143, verse 8. Um, and I feel that if you are in a place and you don't necessarily know even where to start, I would start with this prayer cause me to hear thy loving kindness in the morning, for in thee I do trust. me to know the way wherein I should walk for I live with my soul and to for those of you who don't know where to go who don't know what to do next who I you're in this place of confusion and overwhelming and it just feels you just feel overwhelmed. Psalm 143 verse 8. Cause me to hear the loving kind cause me to hear thy loving kindness in the morning for in thee do I trust cause me to know the way wherein I should walk for I lift up my soul unto thee. Psalm 143 verse 8 it helped me get through my confusion. That's my words of encouragement for this week um yeah and you know that's that's that's that's where we are I know this is episode a little different I mean I know I talk about God I sprinkle it in there every now and then but this is really me this is this is about what I struggled with in my journey and a little insight into my testimony and how I am where I am and because it's not it has not been all sunshines and rainbows for me um some people might think thank god I don't look like what I've been through thank god I don't look like what I've been through for a little second there I was but thank god I no longer do okay um but yeah I I would be doing a disservice and a dishonor to God if I didn't take the time to use the platform that he's blessed me with um to share his his word and to share my testimony and to share the journey that I have embarked on with him and you know the revelations that I've re that I've been that have been bestowed upon me and all the things and now I'm talking too much.

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So um yeah that wraps up our episode for this week this is episode 10 that is so that's so crazy that's so crazy to me but yeah we've reached the end of another episode so thank you guys for joining me this week I hope you enjoyed I hope you learned something I hope you take something away even if all you take away from this episode because you heard me talking about God and you just was like oh no go listen to the songs even if all you do is listen to the songs you'll still get the message just from listening to the songs just listen to the three songs you'll still get you'll still get it okay um but as always I want to remind you guys to pause breathe take a beat and don't forget to give yourself grace until next Tuesday see ya