Jail to Awakening

I vanished this month—seven days in solitary turned into a frozen nightmare: lights on, cold biting, one thin blanket as my pillow. Came out wrecked, but reset my body, raised my kundalini, and dove into Harry B. Joseph’s Book of Wisdom. Then the world cracked: Epstein files drop again in 2026, Lifetouch school pics get boycotted over database fears, and whispers of Iran as a Stargate—elites guarding portals to block our sovereignty. We unpack the trauma, the truths, the hype… and why focusing on fear just feeds it. Next time: how to stay lit, sovereign, and building the world we actually want. Messy, sore, but here. Namaste.

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Hey y'all. So I'm so sorry I missed this whole month so far. Like, seriously. I just vanished. Not because I wanted to, you know, because life grabbed me by the throat and said, Okay, now it's time for you to face this. So the first week of March I had to turn myself in for that DUI thing, do you remember? Anyway, I thought it'd be seven days quick in and out, but nope. It turned into this slow grinding nightmare. No bars, no windows, just solid concrete. Walls, floor, bed, all one big frozen slab. And the sink and toilet, they're the same piece welded together. And the walls God, they were smeared with dried blood, dried snot, dried throw up. Like they didn't even bother cleaning the cell before tossing me in. The smell hit me right away. This thick rot that stuck in my nose. I wouldn't go near that sink. I wouldn't drink from it. I wouldn't even breathe close. After months of juicing beets, celery, clean water, no way I'd rather starve than risk whatever was in there. So yeah, I starved. I thirsted. My body just screamed. But honestly, the lights were worse. Bright white, they were never off. Thirty minutes in, literally my eyes were on fire. No dimming, no dark, just endless glare drilling into my skull. And the cold? Oh man, it was freezing air conditioner. Cranked. While it's winter outside. But still inside, ice in my veins. Shivering in that jumpsuit, teeth chattering. And you know what? They only gave me one blanket, and it was a very thin wool, like tissue paper. That's it. So I folded it up and I used it as a pillow. Cause my head was already pounding, anyways. It was just me and that hum, that constant buzz. So the first day, yeah, of course, my head was pounding, eyes were stinging, my thoughts were blurred. The second day, my mouth started to dry. It was like sandpaper. My tongue would get stuck to the roof of my mouth. I couldn't swallow. On day three, that quiet got loud. Like walls were breathing, heartbeat thumping like drums in a cave. On my fourth day, God, the loneliness wasn't sad. It was heavy. Like someone sat on my chest, whispering, You're gone, no one knows. On my fifth day, my hunger started to sharpen. Stomach was clawing. It was gurgling constantly. But yet still I refused to eat that slop. On the sixth day, dizzy legs, buckling, I was like weak feeling. It was not good. And on my last day, God, thank God my last day, but my skin was like gray colored, my lips cracked. I came out looking like a ghost. It was rough. Malnutritioned, dehydrated. My body had forgotten how to function. I didn't know that your glands could just shut down. I mean, I understood that your body could break down eventually and stop working, but I really didn't understand that your saliva glands could just stop and clog up. So the first sip of water when I got out, pure fire. The glands under my jaw and behind my ears, they were all shut down because I wasn't really producing saliva for almost a week. So they swelled up like visually were huge. I looked like I had goiters. Science says after that long, flow drops 80%. Glands atrophy. They start to shrink. Then when you rehydrate, they freak out. They swell up, they inflame, they get sore. My throat ballooned, like I said, like whole neck puffed out. I was sore for four days straight, trying to just be able to put some food in my mouth to eat. I could barely talk, couldn't swallow, and it felt like swallowing broken glass. It was so rough. My electrolytes tanked, my potassium was low, my heart was fluttering, and it felt like I was having like onsets of heart attack. My muscles, they started cramping. I had brain fog. It was just flipping straight to panic. Not weakness, but like real damage. Brain cells shrink 20% in isolation. Your neurons die off, and your stress hormones flood. Psychosis sneaks in. Suicide risk spikes after your release because of all the damage. Ex-inmates even talk about how hallucin hallucinations and paranoia set in and this hollowed out feeling like your soul got scraped clean. And that's not just me. That's literally all inmates. It's the whole system. Here's what I decided to dig into after I got out. Jail isn't built for rehab. It's built to break you. Studies from the Vera Institute, NAMI, even old DOJ reports, they all say solitary, like what I got, amps anxiety, depression, psychosis by 35% or more. That is nuts. One meta-analysis said people in isolation come out with higher suicide rates, worse mental health, longer reoffense cycles. It's not correction, it's punishment, but on steroids. They freeze your rhythm, kill your sleep, strip your humanity, makes you worse, not better. And yeah, it definitely messed with me. I came out backwards, body wrecked, mind foggy, but I didn't stay there. It took five days, five full days to reset. Throat was still a little burny, still a little swollen, hurt like knives every once in a while. But my job was amazing, and I talked to them, and they let me have off a couple days after extra when I got out. Thank God. Just to give me some space to reheal. So I started taking slow sips. I started taking in some gentle greens. I started taking some of my supplements like ashwagandha shots for nerves and turmeric shots for swelling in the body. And then my body started to rebuild. My root remembered. My crown started to hum again like someone cracked the volume back up. Then I had to jump back into my workflow because all of the money that was missed. And you know, bills don't wait in this society. But I didn't rush. I did meditations every morning, five minutes, deep breaths, vibration, plate, and my oil started to rise back up my spine. I tried to be barefoot on the grass when I could as the weather permitted. And then I started to feel the shift coming. The spring equinox was about to happen. March 21st, the light equals the dark. It was the balance day. And I got to prep. And I started to fast. And um it was really neat because there was a full global meditation that day on the equinox. And it was based on time zone, obviously. Here in the Midwest, it was at noon, and they wanted it for a minimum of 10 minutes. So, of course, me and my best friend, who is also on a light journey with me, um, we decided to go to the park and we did our chanting soft. We listened to high vibrational frequency music, and we sat there for 20 minutes in the sun on the grass. And the cool thing was knowing that there was just millions of us all sitting, chanting the same thing at the same time across the world was unbelievable. The feeling was unlike any other. We chanted love, respect, peace, and unity. And I felt the ripple like wind slipping through a cracked window. My head cleared. My body started to say yes, and yours can too. And right there, that was the reset. That's where the real work start started. After the tower shakes, we rebuild. Not walls, but flow. The body isn't broken, it's rewiring. Stop patching holes. Let energy move. So tonight, gentle breath, four in, six out. Feel your glands settle, throat ease. Walk barefoot for five minutes. Let the ground whisper back still here. Then sway your hips slow, like rocking a ghost. Let oil slide down your spine. No force. Just yes. Flow isn't force. It's surrender. Let the crown drip down like honey on fire. Let the root drink up. Let the soil like soil after the flood. Quit pushing. Quit fixing. Energy's a river. Block it. You flood. If you open it, you heal. Stand still. Arms loose. Imagine honey sliding from the skull to the toes. Warm. Sticky. Melting all the knots. Two minutes. Then mark your wrist. Eye flow. Feels silly, right? Good. That's trust. The pace quickens when you trust. Not hustle. Just trust. The body catches up when the mind stops chasing. After jail, after thirst. After cold. We don't sprint. We glide. Faster timeline? Stop judging yesterday. Breathe into today. Every hour. Pause. Fear your feel your pulse. Say, I'm here. I'm moving. That's acceleration. Not grind. Just alignment. The signal tower hums when root and crown meet together. No noise. No fight. Just hum. Your body's not a machine. It's music. When they sink, everything sings. Your hips loosen, your shoulders drop, your breath deepens. So do this. Sit cross-legged, hand on heart, hand on belly. Breathe. Feel the hum rise like a low bass note. Let it vibrate up. Do this for five rounds. Feel old stories loosen like dust off a book. Ketchup isn't catch up, it's return. You never left, you just forgot. After lockdown, after gland swelling, after cold, we're not behind. We're coming home. So next is um mirror time, right? So I want you to go to the mirror and I want you to look in yourself in the eyes, and I want you to say, I remember. No words, just gaze for two minutes. Are tears falling down? That's okay. Let them. That's the return happening. The higher timeline isn't up. It's inward. Drop the chase. Sink deeper. Drop the hustle. Sink into your body. Feel your feet on the floor. Feel your breath. Feel your pulse. That's elevation. No ladder, just depth. Do it now. Excuse me. Lie flat. Arms out, breathe slow. Imagine roots growing down through the floor, through the earth. Feel yourself anchored. Feel high. Okay, I also want you to do a juice cleanse, obviously, as always, right? So in the morning and at night, I want you to do a cleanse. So in the morning, I want you to do cucumber, half a lemon, ginger, blend it or juice it, and then I want you to slip sip slow. It'll wake up the liver and it'll help clear the fog in the head. Then at nighttime, I want you to juice, or again, you could do a blended version too, but I want you to do beets, celery, turmeric, and splash of coconut water. It'll be more thick feeling or tasting, right? Keep the pulp if you want. Or if you have the juice, it will be a little bit more thin feeling. But like earth in your gut, I want you to drink before bed, and it's gonna help flush stress. It's gonna rebuild the blood. Feel it hit, like somebody flipped a switch inside your skull, and then homework with this hourly. I want you to just breathe four in and six out. Then sip juice, walk five minutes barefoot, sway your hips, mark your skin, do the mirror gaze, lie flat, no phone, no excuses. Just check in with your body. Like your body's got a new boss, and the boss is you. Tomorrow morning before coffee, do it all. Ten minutes, floor, wall, air, just you. And when you're done, say it out loud, the body remembers and heals. And that glide, it lines up perfect with what Harry B. Joseph drops in volume one with the Revival of Wisdom book that we're doing. We're diving straight back in with some of this. No fluff. So from page 35 on through one page 117, we're unpacking the whole rest of this book, every chunk, every truth, but in a shorter form. This book's your map to waking up, I promise you that. Balancing the split in your head, raising that sacred oil, firing up kundalini, stepping into higher vibes. Excuse me, I'm so sorry. It starts with the left right brain duality. Left hemisphere is your analytic side, your masculine, ego driven. It chops reality into pieces. Me versus you, logic control, fragments. It breaks down the right brain's big picture unity so you can handle things better. But there's the trap. Most of us are stuck on our left dominant side. Education, 440 hertz music, which is what almost all music on the radio is frequenciated to, and it shuts off the right side of the brain. Left means sinister in Latin, division, sin, right? Feminine, intuitive, wholeness, sees oneness, creativity, no separation. Here's a quote. The left brain breaks down the united perception of the right into separate fragments. Why? So you manipulate the world, but truth is balancing them. Cross the corpus colossum, like Moses parting the Red Sea, and you unify. Right pulls you present, left gives you precision. Together, the oil flows easier, the pineal gland lights up. So do this. Sit quiet, breathe, feel the left ticking, acknowledge it, and then shift right. Intuition hums, right? You mark your forehead, I unify. That's how you stop the split. You rise higher. Then it rolls into the Christ oil, your sacred fluid, psychophysical stuff from colostrum. The moon hits your sun sign. It releases monthly, it charges the pineal gland electrically. That's your male is the sun sign, that's Joseph. The pituitary, which is the magnetic side, that's the female, the moon, emotional, and that's Mary. So down the Ida and Pingala nerves, the feminine left and masculine right spines, that's the Jacob's ladder. It rests two to three days on your sacrum, like we talked about, that's the cave. And Bethlehem, waste it. That's the orgasm, that's eating acidic or drinking acidic things. That's your booze that you're intaking. That that kills it. So to preserve it so that you can reach your kundalini energy and awaken the kundalini, you have to let it coil up and fire at the base, and it'll gasify the oil and then rise it back up the 33 vertebrae. That is the crucifixion at 33, crossing the vagus nerve. That's what they're describing throughout the Bible. So back to the medulla, pineal, and cerebrum, sorry. Um, that's rebirths, it rebirths your cells. It's gives you 100% access to your brain. It beg it gives you that born-again sensation, like literal. So John 3 3 means you're not waiting for heaven, it's inside you. So stay on an alkaline diet, retain your fluids, meditate, tongue at the roof of your mouth, breathe in deep, feel the oil slide down. That's God descending, resurrecting the symbol of Jesus from Nazareth, that's head down Jordan, that's your spine, to Bethlehem, which is your sacrum. The milk And honey, pituitary, and pineal fluids, land flowing with them in your brain. Kundalini is the next. That's that serpent knowledge, base fire, raises back up via this Shishuman center channel. That awakens seven chakras, all of them. Root, which is fear or free, sacral, which is no lust, solar plexus, which is no greed, your heart chakra, which is love, throat chakra, which is truth, third eye chakra, which is intuition, and crown chakra, which is oneness. Blocked? Is it blocked? Issues? Root fear. Heart loneliness. Open them. Balance your vices. Meditate. Raise your energy. The effects they'll allow you to astral travel. They'll help you with working on your telepathy. Out of body, Moses lifts the serpent. It's the same thing. Pineal, that's a throne to God. Seat of soul. Coned. Microcrystals in the body. They receive, they emit frequencies. Keep your eyes closed. It'll emit light. It's enlightenment. The Vatican hit it. External, God keeps you small. Do it. I want you to practice this. Lie flat. Focus on your pineal gland. Pull a rope in the midair, like you're pulling on a rope and pulling yourself out of your body. Visualize this. That is the that is the beginning of your astral projection. That'll help the astral out. Feel the tingle in your body. That's the activation of this. Symbols are everywhere. The syncretism ties it. The tree of life, that's cardiovascular, heart torus. The tree of knowledge, that's nerves. Four Eden rivers blood, saliva, oil, fluids. Golgotha skull, Jordan spine Bofamet Mindset Goat Animal Nature, Hands, Ascent, Descent. Ark protects the pineal. The Holy Grail that's the cup filled by his sun and moon. Jacob's ladders, the spine, rock sacrum, polaris, all seeing eye. Firmament divides waters, balance, seven heavens, layers, chakras. All from one light. Low vibr vibe matter, high spirit, aim for violet, high frequency, planes, mental. That's your thoughts. The astral is manifest. The etheric is your energy bridge, and your physical is the effect. Astral project is the mind projects its soul. So, like I said, you're lying flat, the pineal focuses, and the demons, those are low thoughts. So vibrate high, avoid them. Keep your enlightenment, change your mind, change the reality. As within, so without. Detach from the lower chakras, the fear, the lust for your higher ones, like the crown, all knowing. Ultimately, your mind tunes frequencies, they become light, and you become the being, the all-one. No separation. So tonight I want you to incorporate by breathing in for four and out for six. Walk barefoot on the ground, imagine the roots, sway your hips and let the oils slide. And then do your mirror gaze. I remember. Um so then keep focusing on your juicing, like I said. Volume um, so here's what I want you to do. This is your next move. Grab the book yourself, okay? Volume one and volume two, they're on Amazon. Search Book of Wisdom, Harry B. Joseph. They even have sets on TikTok shop too. Um, there's they're doing bundles that have been popped up um here and there. It is gonna be the best thing you ever do for yourself. And I want you to get them and I want you to read them slow, and then reread them if you need to reread them. Because sometimes it's just a lot of information for your brain to take in. It's um it's a deep dive into reality and trust and symbolization of what has been hidden in plain sight for eons. And then what we do is we we start building from there. Okay, so I want to shift gears a little bit, right? Because while we're handling here or while we're healing our inside, obviously, as we see day to day, our world is cracking open. Disclosures are rolling out, Epstein files have been dropped again this year in 2026, and folks are losing it. Viral claims of cannibalism, baby sacrifices, elites eating kids, drinking blood, doing rituals, how they're gaining their momentum of their um wealth and fame. The cannibal restaurant mentioned fifty plus times, right? Are they jerky jokes? Or code? Some say it's literal Human flesh and sausages, fast food laced with it. Yeah, you know what I'm talking about. McDonald's ads are getting weird. KFCs are becoming cryptic. Rabbi Finkelstein clips are floating around everywhere. Kids being processed into meat. Okay, so hey, let's lean into this a little bit. Cause yeah, it's not pretty. That's been hidden in plain sight for all of us forever. We talked about the Epstein files, and the people are spiraling over this cannibalism angle. Um the jerky references, the frozen deliveries, the clips screaming ritual stuff, elites are chowing down on the kids at dinner parties and dragging um and now dragging all of these fast food joints and things that have been controlled by the elites is just insane. But here's the real deal like, yeah, has there been a lot of confirmation on all of this? Yes. Is there some some that's still speculation? Of course, but nowadays these people like me that are considered conspiracy theorists are now being considered um truthful speakers. And it's sad and it's scary. But some say they're based out of LA, others say it's out of New York, um, and they're actually serving beef jerky with this in it. But I don't know. The hype is just everywhere that it's hard and you don't want to be misled. So it's really up to you to really do your deep dive if you need to. But honestly, like we just need to be careful. We need to be describing or not describing, we need to be defending the light in love and truly focusing on all of the other things in this world that we want to bring into our reality instead of focusing on this. And you need to be careful and more aware. This life touch, school photo giant snapping millions of kids every year, and now suddenly parents are boycotting districts in Texas and Arizona and Michigan, canceling shoots. Social medias are exploding everywhere, claims that they're they're building these databases and tracking faces and how our kids are growing up for the for feeding these Epstein networks of trafficking. And now Life Touch CEO Ken Murphy shut it down. Like, we don't share images with anyone. Um Yeah, I don't know. There isn't full proof on all of that, but it definitely does make sense and ties in with everything else going on and makes sense for why kids have been disappearing from the beginning of time on milk cartons, right? Is where it all started. Um, but perception alone, it feels a little tainted through all of this chaos. Like everyday stuff has just been poisoned everywhere. And then we get into these wars, like now in Iran. Why now? Why are we doing another war again? Is it just politics? Nah, it's not. It's deeper whispers. Iran's not just a country. It's a stargate, it's gate ten. Abaran corridor. That is a planetary grid spot for sovereignty nexus. So the truth is, whoever holds the control of these portals, and there's many of them around the world, Hawaii is a very big one. Um Sedona, Arizona, that's another big stargate for energy. So whoever keeps control of these locations, they stop the sovereign people from rising by controlling the energy that flows through it. In the Middle East flara, Israel strikes Iran missiles, Trump's pushing talks of on March 27th of Saudis in US dropping 15-point ceasefires, but underneath, it's all about blocking high vibe access. The elites guard the gates so fear and division can stay, hoarding the light and the energy. Not so we can help humanity, but so that we can stay in chaos and um keep ourselves in a desperate state of mind. And I know this is a lot, okay? So I'm gonna try to cut this out um down. We've been talking about a lot of different things today, but um the next episodes, I I want to dive in a little bit more into the truth of life and what's really happening and what we can do to stay in positive energy so that we're not focusing on all of this crap that's coming out of truth. Because if we keep focusing on all of this negative stuff, that's where we're gonna continue to keep growing our reality so that it looks the same. And I definitely am over it and do not want that. I'm ready to become a sovereign nation, a sovereign world, my sovereign self. And so what we can do is start focusing on the good, what we want the reality to look like, how we don't want to have to work jobs, how we all want to just have endless, endless amounts of money, because money isn't a physical thing, it's actually energy. So we all could be multimillionaires, we all could live lives of luxury the way we want if we focus on that. So that is where I want to step into next. But like I said, it's been a deep dive today. There's a lot that's been happening, and we've talked about a lot of different things. So your job is to get those books, do your own deep dive researches on truth and what's going on, and help yourself heal. Because if we all focus within on ourselves and not on our outer world and other people around us, and we heal ourselves, we then help heal the collective whole world. Anyway, I'm still a little sore, still messy as can be, but I am here, and I love you so much. So until next time, Namaste.