Navigating Uncertainty

A moment of trying to understand uncertainty—and then letting that go.

Not resolving it. Just staying with it.

Ma: Between Sounds
Exploring the quiet spaces between thought, story, and modern life.

More soon.

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Soundstripe.

SPEAKER_00 0:14

I've been thinking about the the Breaking Glass podcast and and I I'm I'm I'm not I'm not feeling it. It's it's too structured. It's it's an English class. You could go to university for that. Um that's really not who I am. I'm I'm very much off the cuff. And that's where we're gonna be headed. This this this new thought process that I've been um pondering is about ma, which is a Japanese phrase for this between sound. So it's a space for thinking out loud. It's the pause between noise where meaning starts to form. I think that if we all took a moment, we'd realize that there's not always sound. And when there's not always sound, we think.

SPEAKER_01 1:16

We create meaning. Today my question is just why?

SPEAKER_00 1:29

I've been watching the news and uh I've been thinking about the next generation as each generation does. And I don't really know how I feel. I worry about it a lot. I am an existentialist after all. I believe that we aren't born to do something, we find what we do, what we love. And I I love hearing from people, so I'd love to hear from you after you listen to me talk about what what is going on, because people want structured lives, but the entire world is not structured. And the reason that breaking bus wasn't working for me is that I didn't feel it. And if I don't feel something, I'm not gonna want to do it, or I'm not gonna want to be a part of it. I I love literature, and maybe here and there I'll I'll say things like I love the fact that Emily Dickinson told us to dwell in possibility because if it weren't for phrases like that, I don't really know where we'd be as is as as a group of people throughout the world. We we need our writers to write, we need our artists to create, we need creative people. I other than that, I mean I we definitely don't need uh another billionaire, that's for sure. Going to space is cool. Uh can't really talk about that because I I don't know enough about the ins and outs, and I know people are upset about it, the expenditures, so we can really talk about that, but I guess I don't want to be structured in my speech, so for now, right now, I feel just sad. I feel sad for the world, and then I literally am trying to figure out my own life as as I make this podcast. Uh I've made some changes. I had a major surgery, I haven't been working, but I've been working with um AI and all these different things that people get scared about and I wanna and I want to learn. So the one thing I guess I've continued to do is learn and read. But I'm still I'm still at that point where the lack of structure in the world, in a world that tells us that we need structure, is is just not it doesn't feel right anymore. I mean, there are so many things that are wrong. You know, I I remember when I was younger, it'd be like one or two things in the world that we'd say, oh, that's that's not great. And we were always, at least in my generation, worried about the environment, things like that.

SPEAKER_01 4:53

But now, I mean, I there are so many things. I think it's longer than the alphabet.

SPEAKER_00 5:03

I I think it's I think it it could I think it could fill war and peace with the footnotes. That's how many things are are wrong. And I I'm like I said, I'm afraid for this generation because we have some of the most caring and beloved people in the world, and then we have some of the most selfish people in the world, and what I've noticed is there's like there's starting to be less of people who are in between, and more that people are either on one side or the other, and I think a really good example would be like reality TV, and take it as as you will. I am not one to judge for you, you have to make your own judgments on that. Um, some of it I find hysterical for myself, but overall, like I don't it it doesn't bother me with what people watch or what they wanna what they want to watch, what they don't want to watch, whether it's academic or not, and and I don't know, whatever makes you happy makes you happy. That's how I feel. I watch all sorts of things, I read all sorts of things. I I have friends from many different walks of life. I find people fascinating, and I find the how they came to be just as fascinating. It doesn't matter who you are to me. Today I was in a shop talking to the assistant store manager, and how she got that job, she w got the job at at another one of the same shops, and for six months she bothered the manager until she got a job. I thought it was great. She wanted it, she got it. And um she's so nice, and I I'm I'm disabled, so she's really helpful too. And I just I just I just love talking to people like that. I've never met a person that I don't know, as the saying goes. Um so for me this is all changing. Names will change and some of the some of the stuff will change, but really um what I what I'm trying to do is make light of this and and I've explained what ma means and so today for me ma has been about just sitting in a seat thinking now what? I mean now what for me and now what for the world and now what for so many so many things. So I I don't know. Um but I think that we all need to have a conversation and we need to stop being afraid of communicating to each other. And if we don't agree with one another, well that has made the world go round since time immemorial. What does it matter if you don't agree with me? It matters if what you don't agree with me affects me or my family, that matters, of course. If you hurt people, that matters. But if you're just out for a conversation to maybe figure out a better way to do things, how about it? Don't be afraid to do that. And I know people are afraid to say how they feel, and I was like that. But I was laying in bed last night thinking I don't want to talk about, you know, breaking glass because I I think we all are in the know that we all can break our own glass and figure things out. But what I want to do is just think about what for the day was my ma and in between my sound was the question of why and can we do better? And where are we going? So I guess today was a why. Today was definitely a why. Plus, it was also explaining what is going on here. But listen, if you have any comments and you have any questions or I don't know, you want to talk, you want to talk to me, you want to come on the podcast? I mean s send a message, please. I want to talk to people. I wanna I wanna understand where people are coming from. I I really do, all sorts of people. Um I I I really, I really do. The only thing is obviously that we do not offend people here, meaning that we don't make negative comments about people whose religion, sexual orientation, um anything, their gender, those things are not really up for discussion unless you want to discuss the rules and the politics and how it affects those people. That's one thing, but I I won't um dis discuss whether or not a human being has the right to be who they are. That's a separate uh podcast that's not here.

SPEAKER_01 11:03

But here I'd love to just chat and let me know if you want to chat. I'd love to. This existential human would look forward to it.