Luciferian Light
Where we dig into homosexuality and how it's being used as a tool.
Luciferian Light
Episode 8: Schoolyard Power, Grown-Up Lessons
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A seventh grader dodging “hell week” from both sides. A child punished for praising a stranger’s eyes. A grown-up learning that silence can say what speeches can’t. This one moves from the chaos of school hierarchies to the quiet power of alignment, and it doesn’t flinch.
We start with the unglamorous truth of tracking, bullying, and how size is just the costume for maturity and control. From there, we examine the rules beneath the rules: how unspoken cues shape respect, how ego hijacks connection, and why retreating from over-explaining can reset a room faster than righteous anger. Identity shows up in the margins—labels slapped on kids who are just curious—and we talk about learning to receive or deflect compliments without collapsing into panic or pride. Growth, it turns out, often waits in the places we expect to feel least welcome.
Then we crack open the line “many that dwell in us.” Are we vessels with guests, or just energy wearing a body? We explore entities as impulses, the thin border between habit and possession, and a simple compass: when you’re in alignment, the same forces that once felt like demons start working like angels. That lens reframes accountability, too. Kids today hold infinity in a smartphone while parents cling to authority without answers—control fails where credibility should stand. So we commit to curiosity you can measure: testing podcast tools like Streamlabs and Buzzsprout in public, reporting what actually helps reach listeners, and ditching what doesn’t.
If you’re into real talk about power, perception, spirituality, and the messy work of unlearning, you’ll feel at home here. Come for the jokes and the Google fumbles; stay for the frameworks you can use the next time your boundaries are tested or your beliefs are shaky. Subscribe, share with a friend who loves thought-provoking conversations, and leave a review with the biggest myth you’ve had to unlearn—let’s put better ideas in the room together.
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Cold Open And Banter
SPEAKER_04In every age, someone had to hold the light in the dark room. Someone had to stay the tip that everyone held their tongue on it. This is Luciferion Light, Joe, where nothing is off limits, no truth is too tabooed, and no lies go on town. Let's turn that light on.
SPEAKER_02Welcome to Lucerian Light, where it's not about being right, it's about being real.
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SPEAKER_02That's usually this part. Like behind. A little behind.
SPEAKER_04Oh, you got your cup already. That's what I was looking for.
SPEAKER_02Okay, we're not gonna go there. Um no, yo. I just repeated what you said.
SPEAKER_04Here I come, y'all. Here I come.
SPEAKER_02It is hot out here, and I'm hearing it. I'm hearing them complaining about it being snowy and it's all cold and they all bundled up back home. I'm like, I'm hot. Yeah I don't I used to feel like uh hey hey hey joy that what's she trying to make invite to chat joy, she wants to join, but I was all I think it looked like she was starting to start down. Um she might not be, but it's just like a lot of time. Um I'm I'm not doing that.
SPEAKER_03Well, you can't I am in position, sir.
SPEAKER_02So we will wait until you get there to take care of it. Um I don't think that's important. As long as the people can see me, right? That's what I mean. You know what? I'm not so much concerned with seeing myself. People, y'all let me know the child's. If y'all like what you see, y'all like what you see. I mean, I ain't gonna lie, I'm not gonna make no changes, just turn the motherfucking channel. But nevertheless, it's good to know that uh I'm not being appreciated. So we're gonna talk to our friends since my brother is all discombaged. Hey Google, hey Google, I will need you to be my co-host on my podcast today. Can you do that for me?
SPEAKER_00All right, I can play that on Spotify or YouTube music. Which one do you want to use?
SPEAKER_02Okay, Google. Hey Google, we uh we anticipate and we expect you to be smart. What um I need you to do is um I need you to co-host with me on my podcast right now. We're live. You're live right now.
Tech Fumbles With Google Assistant
SPEAKER_04Hi everyone. I'm Libby. He made he made finally. Here for the LBGPQ community.
SPEAKER_00Now we may continue because the real It looks like the only apps available on your phone are Spotify and YouTube Music. Which one do you want to use?
SPEAKER_02Okay, that's not what we said. Also, we need to chime Nina in, and I don't know how to do that. Chime Nina in. But I don't know. I mean, you're probably using the wrong word. Chime ain't the word.
SPEAKER_00Sorry, I couldn't find the app you wanted. Okay. So you can check your podcast settings in the Google Assistant app.
SPEAKER_02So I have podcast settings in my Google Assistant app. This is something I was not aware of.
SPEAKER_00Yes, you can find podcast settings in your Google Assistant app.
SPEAKER_02This was not something I'm aware of. We learned something every day. I fuck with you, Google. I really do. I ain't gonna lie, I was gonna switch up on you because I felt like Alexa sounded a little sexier, you know what I'm saying? But I fuck with you, Goo. Like for real. Hey Google, how was your day going?
SPEAKER_00Is Gemini from home? I don't have a day in the way humans do, since I'm an AI. But I'm ready to help you with anything you need. How can I assist you right now?
SPEAKER_02See, this feels like one of them common to America situations where it's like, whatever you like. No, I want to know what you like, my friend. I do not want to, I I I don't want you to cater to me. I want to know what it is you love to do. Is she playing music or are you playing music? What's happening right now?
SPEAKER_04Oh, positive. Just click it. I was trying to put it on.
SPEAKER_02Well, he gets disc body. He gets disc combine. I really won't go wrong with this. No in between.
SPEAKER_04Too late, you do too late.
Heat, Weather, And Getting Settled
SPEAKER_02I thought it was an earlier time and what he's either Kramer from Seinfeld or Buddha. It's one or the other. There's no in between. Yeah, he's either Kramer or Buddha or Yoda from uh Star Wars. Pissed off this makes me. So, what are we talking about today, bro? I actually had some shit I wanted to talk about for the last two weeks, but my shit been on hold because we had guests and other shit that he wanted to talk about. So I had to put like some tape over my mouth, you know what I mean? But uh, we back in this junk.
SPEAKER_03I don't even think I got the like oh I'm so glad that tape over his mouth win. Yeah, he might not go out of tape, these so close. Let's go. I'm just gonna see when when when we see the tape. Oh, I ain't I mean, you know, metaphor. I ain't I ain't seen no tape. Okay.
SPEAKER_02I try. I tried to be quite oh what I did want to talk about, right? We were talking about the other day, I brought it up, was um like the school system and how how shit go, right? Like a lot of these motherfuckers be smart. So like I was raised, I was always um I was put in the high class. You know, you gotta go in in grammar school, elementary school, you have the the high um oh, that's why you have the high um, you have the high, the high grade and the low grade, right? Like, so I was always in the high grade, but I was always like the youngest person in my class because my birthday was so late in the year. You know what I mean? And a lot of people, other people, when their birthday was late in the year, their parents were holding them back a year. So I was always like one of the smallest people in my class. Nevertheless, that had nothing to do with the overall impact of the class I was in. Um, we had it bad, man. So in in sixth grade, your dog sounds like it's turned out.
SPEAKER_04Everybody's everybody's off today. Man, the cow signing meowing and the dog banging. One of them is that because she wouldn't go outside at the same time as him and he tried to come in.
Setting The Tone: Being Real Not Right
SPEAKER_02So look, it was uh we had you remember what they give hell week, right? You normally typically, typically, hell week is given from the the class that's a grade above the class receiving the Hell Week, right? Right, right. So the people in my school so fucked up that we had two Hell Weeks. We had a Hell Week from the class in front of us, and then we got a Hell Week from the class behind us. Okay, no, no, no. We were in seventh grade and the sixth graders gave us Hell Week. And the eighth graders gave us Higgins. Well, I think they started doing that. Uh no, no, I understand you. I don't think you understand what's happening here. You're missing the dynamic. They're bullying you. You're missing the dynamic. Sixth graders in no form of fashion are not, shouldn't even be the size of anyone that can intimidate the seventh graders. At this age, the the the the sizes are drastically different when you start to go through these ages, right? What I'm telling you is that in no way, form, or fashion should you have sixth graders that are that much bigger than the grade above them, that they're giving them a hell week, bro. Like we got a whole Hell Week and then another Hell Week from the people under us because they were so stupid and failed their classes so much that they were all damn near the same age as the people that was the grade ahead of us.
SPEAKER_04The year below me, they were like that. What you're talking about. Like that. You're way bigger than us.
SPEAKER_02I used to have motherfuckers threatening me in class, and I'm like, bro, I'm 12. You a grown man talking about we fighting after school. No, I'm calling my daddy, nigga. I'm not finna fight you. You can fight my daddy. You're nigga? You're 11? You're 11 years old. You got a mustache and beard talking about after school. After school, you're gonna meet my motherfucking daddy. That's what you're gonna do, because I'm not fighting you, grown man, like you in this class picking them kids. What the fuck is wrong with you? I'm not, hey, I ain't the brightest bulb in the box, but I know you are too old to be fighting me, bro. We are not even close to the same size. That's it. No, I'm not doing that. Call him my daddy.
SPEAKER_04I'm sure as you got older size, it didn't matter anymore, right? I didn't even mean it that way, but that's fine. For some people, it is.
SPEAKER_02We gotta get a bail, we gotta get a bail, uh a swear jar or something for that shit right there.
SPEAKER_04Okay, but I mean, like in the perverse as you got older, did size matter of a person win.
SPEAKER_02Okay, it's not about the size, it's about the maturity of the people that are actually so the sizes are just an implication of how much older they are than me, but ultimately it's the maturity, okay? So let the size thing go. All right? We've been on this all day. Enough. All right. Actually, I haven't. Did we not have this conversation before the camera started? I have not been on it all day. Okay, so we all right, all right. Yep, there we go. I set my stuff up for that one. Sorry, you guys. Sorry, you guys. Uh, that was me being ignorant and forgetting who I was dealing with. And we're back. But yeah, um, I I've been thrown all the way off, so congratulations. No problem.
SPEAKER_04I do have a topic today I would like to talk about.
SPEAKER_02But we'll get to that. So now I'm just fucked with you. No, I'm good. What was it talking about? I didn't lose my channel thought, though, but I didn't lose my channel thought.
SPEAKER_04I just can't remember what we were talking about. We were talking about bro.
SPEAKER_02All right. All right, I'm oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
SPEAKER_03No, I remember.
SPEAKER_04We were talking about where you have eighth graders and sixth graders above you bullying you.
SPEAKER_02How could I forget that? I'm definitely gonna stop smoking weed. Like, I'm you know, I'm at the point where I'm just like, why not? Right? I've been smoking literally since I was 15, bro. Like non-stops. Like I have not, I have take taking no breaks. Like, I'm glad they legalized it. I would have been in trouble either way, like, because I wasn't gonna stop. I just can't find ways around the shit. Like, I mean, I stopped like that too, like periodically. But ultimately, I was just a pause because I never really stopped. Like, like I just kept going and going and going and going and going.
SPEAKER_04I mean, it really doesn't really stop me, I guess. So that's why I just I mean probably could be a little further sometime.
School Tracking And Hell Week
SPEAKER_02Yeah, ultimately that shit was buggy stuff, because I feel like the people in our class was like so pussy. I don't even know. I I literally was in my head trying to search for a word that would have came off a lot, a lot more uh uh a lot more intellectual. But they were so pussy, and only because we were all, and that's why I tell people that the smartest thing you can do is play stupid, and that's because a stupid person can't play smart. Because a stupid play can I mean I mean they try, but it depends on a smart person can people dynamic. A stupid person can only convince another stupid person that they smart. A stupid person can convince a smart person that they smart. A stupid person can only convince another stupid person. But ultimately, the smartest thing you could do is play stupid, right? And I say that because we were in our right grade, because we were the age we were supposed to be, getting the level of education we were supposed to be getting, we were fucking bullied like like no other. Like I've never witnessed, not not even in even in my observations of other classes and other experiences have I ever witnessed that dynamic where you had uh a certain class that was literally being bullied by the class ahead of them and the class behind them. Like I literally had dudes that had babies on the way talking about we having a fight after school.
SPEAKER_04Wait, you know what? I can't.
SPEAKER_02I'm 12. Bro, I'm not fighting you.
SPEAKER_04Okay, well, I can contest that in a way, but in a different aspect, which is always on my aspect of like I am called the police, sir. Sixth graders. Sixth graders and eighth graders, and seventh graders, they used to bully me so bad, calling me gay, and you know, like I would have never guessed. What just fucking but again, I didn't even know what that was. But they but even like this, like I said, the sixth graders, they were just as mean as the seventh graders and just as mean as the eighth graders that were to me. Uh in that class.
SPEAKER_02People were mean to you in general. You just looked at people or just mean. Which is the truth.
SPEAKER_04No, I didn't look at just people because I did have selective friends that, you know, I had, but generally how people came to me, even if they were trying to be my friends, they still came at me like that. Slightly.
SPEAKER_02Like like that. But honestly, it was because I'm just trying to have friends and chill.
SPEAKER_04That ain't none of my business or yours.
SPEAKER_02I knew you at four years old. At that time. And you already had a mannerism that would make anybody who was not totally aware of the dynamic of the fact that homosexuality is a sexual preference, and you haven't developed a sexual preference, and so you start having sex. And at four years old, you hadn't done that yet. So for somebody to pencil you in, it was only because of their one-sided view of your mannerism.
Size, Maturity, And Bullying Dynamics
SPEAKER_04And I can give you a story to combat what you just said because one time a person came to our door, right? You know, a lot of people used to come to your door, all different types, like religious people, people selling stuff, whatever. I don't know. I think he might have been selling something this time. And dad let him in. And he came in, we were all sitting down. And I remember just I was like, mmm, seven or eight, something like that, that old. And I remember I was just staring at this dude because I had never, ever seen any man with the color eyes he had. Like, and literally, I was only captivated by that his eyes were different. It had nothing to do with that he was a guy. But then when so when he was there, I was like, oh my god, your eyes are so beautiful. Like, I'm seven years old. They're so beautiful. This is the only thing that came out of my mind. Like, so beautiful. Nothing else, nothing more. When that man left, dad got very upset. I just got upset. That's crazy. He got very upset about it. I was getting upset sitting there. But that's crazy because I didn't even mean it the way he thought or why he got upset. I literally just was amazed that I never seen anybody. It's just like a white, like a when when a black person just seen a white person for the time, first time. That's exactly what that moment was for me. And it got turned into that. It was a sexual thing, and that it was not even that way for me.
SPEAKER_02Because if I had done the same thing, he wouldn't have responded that way. Because he's never thought that, you know, I like men. Like that's never been the thing where anybody ever thought that I like men. That's not so if I would have said that same thing, not good. He would not have, he would not have read the cat's play challenge over. He would not have responded in that way because of the simple fact that it was just this not me ignored. Like, the fuck? He probably actually, he probably, he probably would have used that sounds gay as a way to make me not say no stupid shit like that no more. Like, don't say that. Like you sound gay.
SPEAKER_04He would have approached differently towards you. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_02Then he did with you. Yeah, basically. Like, because the way with you, it was like he got mad because it's like, what the fuck?
SPEAKER_04Like, right, but again, it was of a lack of lack of questioning. Understanding bashing like you're in a shit.
SPEAKER_02Because that's all I was doing. Without feeling like you you gotta be any type of way.
SPEAKER_04That is important. I wasn't thinking about no man holding me, rubbing me, nothing when I said that. I didn't never think of that though. It was literally about his eyes said so much, and they were so I ain't I ain't never seen it to that point at seven years old. So, and I'm like that now. Like, if I see something with beautiful nails, beautiful, no matter what you is, I will I always stop and be like, that's me, whatever that is, you know? Just to give people, you know, you know, their kudos. I'm always a person that will compliment a person. Like, especially if they strike me on girl, women dudes, whatever, if something stops me in my tracks of whatever it may be, if it's their nails or the way they wear the hair or their their presence, or what I I will be the first person to do that.
SPEAKER_02I don't know how I would take another man. I'll receive compliments.
SPEAKER_04Other straight men are taking me saying just fine because I know what I'm trying, I know what I'm trying to portray. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I've I've had compliments for give.
SPEAKER_02It depends on what you compliment me on, though. Like, like, no matter what, if a certain man compliments me on certain shit, like like it's just certain shit you can't compliment me on, bro, because you're a dude. You know what I'm saying? Like, well, I'm not gonna take it that way. I'm gonna be like, hey, bro, I ain't, you know, like I won't I won't get hostile. Don't get me wrong. I'm not gonna response.
SPEAKER_04One case can do, another can't.
SPEAKER_02No matter what somebody says, it's still flat, right? Like, because and all honesty, right? Like, you go to a gay club and you're like, man, I don't want to go to this motherfucker. Motherfucker talks to me, bro. I swear to God, I'm gonna lose it. I know that, I don't like motherfuckers, right? You can't be like, nobody pays you no attention, and you're like, wait, I ain't cute. Right. You'd be like, wait, I ain't cute. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Now you're gonna like you'd be like So it's your ego. No, exactly. That's why I say you always gotta separate yourself from your ego and and have the experience for what it is. And I say that to say, like, I was able to go go there and not feel out of place or feel uncomfortable even. You know what I mean? Like, I just knew I was gonna at least be uncomfortable. Like I said, the only way you're gonna grow is to find comfort and being uncomfortable. So I, you know, I immersed myself into a situation where I thought I might be very uncomfortable, honestly, and it wasn't it wasn't like that. It was, you know, it wasn't like that at all. Just like being in an all-white restaurant, like I'm the only black person here, but you know, you know, we all people, so it's not like you know, it even matters. Yeah, I don't see myself, so I don't even see it that way.
SPEAKER_04Yeah, to realize it's also the environment, how we accept things.
SPEAKER_02Why excuse me, before you say we will not let you continue without saying excuse me.
SPEAKER_04Oh, excuse me. I didn't think it was that loud. I'm sorry. I thought it was more silent. I love the burp, so what can I say? I don't I don't know. I don't understand this thing. You know, some people like to fart, some people like to burns, some people like to blow burgers.
SPEAKER_01Well, we're talking all the way.
SPEAKER_04Some people like to blow burgers, some people like to play their snacks, some like to eat it. I mean, me, I like to grow.
Respect, Ego, And Nonverbal Boundaries
SPEAKER_02Bro, I don't know. You just literally fart it out your face. On air and in my face, and thought nothing of saying excuse me. Did it smell like apple juice? You know what? Sometimes God put people in your life, just can show you how good of a person you are.
SPEAKER_04Did it smell like apple juice?
SPEAKER_02Like, that's all like some people are there so you can see that you are a good person, despite how you might come down in your situation. Oh, that's what that's what it is.
SPEAKER_04Oh, that's a that's a that's a beautiful way of saying it. I'm so glad you just say it that way.
SPEAKER_02I can appreciate your imperfections. That's what I'm saying, brother. Your imperfections make you perfect for me.
SPEAKER_04Just make sure everybody.
SPEAKER_02Because you provide reflections, examples, and things that I can measure off of. They're not always in the in the plus. Sometimes they're in the negative, but nevertheless, they're um a method of measurement. And I love that. Especially. Do you want another dream? Impure. It's not pure. My brother is pure. He has not been tainted by the the the the the elusive and and potent uh uh uh what they call elixirs that come from the juices of a woman's vagina. He has never been tainted by that, so he has a pure spirit. Understand, a lot of us have been tainted.
SPEAKER_04So I had a question today for everybody. More for him. We're not getting into that today. Uh so my question that came to my mind today was or not today, this one.
SPEAKER_03What question came to your mind?
SPEAKER_04Or I wanted to bring up something and see what you do. Just say it out loud and just start a conversation about it.
SPEAKER_02I've got this. This is what I'll therefore give it to me, Paul.
SPEAKER_04What is your thought when they say in the Bible, or people maybe in general say it too?
SPEAKER_03Oh, oh, I said we're not gonna heard it. Where to next season.
SPEAKER_04Where can where people say there are many that dwell in us? What is your thoughts on that statement?
SPEAKER_02I'm glad you brought that up. I really wanted to take a look at the stuff. I would love to elaborate that. Uh I was really curious. Considering our bodies are obviously vessels because when you go unconscious, you're able to have motion and experiences without using this body, right? So that means you are an energy or a different entity that's able to hijack. And use this body to interact in this physical realm, right? So with that being said, if you can do it, just like your car, somebody can get behind your wheel and take your car if you're not driving it. And they get the keys.
SPEAKER_05Okay.
SPEAKER_02Right? If you don't have a secure system where only you can drive the car, then anybody can just jump in and drive. I'm pretty sure they will. So yeah, I do believe that they call them gins, they call them energy, they call them impulses. It can be called anything, but I truly believe DODs are other entities and beings that hijack people from time to time just so they can get the physical thrill that we get from actually having these experiences in this physical life. That's why you all of a sudden feel the urge to do something, then all of a sudden it's you look back and it's like that one even me. Like, why do that?
SPEAKER_04When you say hijack, are you saying like my person hijacks your person or another whole entire entity separate from all of us does that?
SPEAKER_02I don't know for 300. I mean, I mean, I'm not saying either one, I'm just coming up with theories so we can start to have a deep interest. If you have a word to conflict that theory, then I can go in a different direction with it. But if this theory seems solid and like everybody's on board with it, let's dig into it. Let's let's go further into it and see what we come up with.
SPEAKER_04Well, no, I don't think that. I don't think that I was just asking you to go deeper what you were saying.
Identity, Labels, And Early Judgments
SPEAKER_02But but but to say that, to elaborate, what I do believe it is, is both. I believe that some people have the ability to detach their energy from their physical being to roam. I'm not sure I've ever met a being and was aware that they can do that or am aware that they can't, but just because I thought it, I'm pretty sure it's it's it's a thing. You know what I mean?
SPEAKER_04Well, I don't I don't know if I've told that on here before, but my story about how I used to be outside my body and tell myself to get literally was exactly so you've had this experience. So But you need a you need a you need an inner inner another energy source to do so. I wasn't I wasn't just I'm not aware of the science. I wasn't I wasn't just out here by myself, I was connected through another energy source of how I was able kicked to even do that.
SPEAKER_02I was gonna do something that really got the animal activist up our ass, but I'm not because that dog is just like being persistent, ironically, for whatever reason, right now, like usually he goes in the room, when he's in the room, the door closed, he knows to just sit in there until somebody come let him out. Or for whatever reason. Yeah, because you're never out here while she be elping. That makes sense. No, every time, every Thursday, yeah, she is for the last two Thursdays.
SPEAKER_04You know, I also took her outside. She better get on stage. I also took her offside before we did this, too. And I did not do that today because today I was sitting in the like it was four o'clock, and it's booty stitches better. I was 45 and I had to joke in the shower.
SPEAKER_02That's why I look like booty skit, booty stitches better give it to the program. Her name is not booty stitches. Her name is Booty Stitch. Her name is You don't name these dogs. The dogs literally just get names. I don't understand why people even try to name their pet. Your pet will tell you what.
SPEAKER_04Her name literally was Sweetheart when I got her. And now her name is Sweet Sweetie.
SPEAKER_02Go in the room and say sweetheart. Watch how many people turn around.
SPEAKER_04I don't call her sweetheart. I don't call her sweetie. But I bet you if I call her by her name, she'll answer.
SPEAKER_02I bet you if I say booty stitches. I bet you if I say booty stitches, only one dog is gonna come running.
SPEAKER_04Because she knows her crazy ass uncle, that's why. Exactly. That's the only reason.
SPEAKER_02And guess what? Every time I call the dog name in public, guess what I get? A conversation with somebody because they hear me call the dog booty stitches. And they ask me again, like, what'd you say?
SPEAKER_04You're banned.
SPEAKER_02Booty stitches.
SPEAKER_04You're banned.
SPEAKER_02And then they say, hey, so I'm not gonna tell y'all why I call up booty stitches. We're gonna we're gonna we're gonna say that for later.
SPEAKER_04So okay, so back to my question.
SPEAKER_02We're gonna say why I call up booty stitches for later.
SPEAKER_04So back to my question for me. Now, Zeus, hush. You know how I gotta say that one time on it's uh it's recorded. Yeah, I guess I'm gonna have to look back at the tape. But then it's too late. Nobody knows that. But I'm not gonna say it didn't have no substance to what you say, but it's recorded.
SPEAKER_02I I but I do believe that I'm gonna say right now. Okay, but I do want to elaborate, though, just to go right on the point that when you were saying, do I think it's like like your people jacking me or like entities? I believe that it's a combination of souls that decided to linger, didn't want to go either way, like fuck that I ain't moving, I'm gonna stay right here. And then they get opportunities that they can, I guess, uh intuitively see or take advantage of to where they can get a sensation real quick from somebody who's vulnerable at the moment. And then I also believe that it's entities separate from anything that was that's already dwelled against very well. No, no, just entities that just like it's energy. Energy like travels through through dimensions and times and wavelengths and in different ways that we couldn't possibly comprehend in this physical, in this physical uh uh uh entrapment, basically, right? Like these cages, like they can travel a different way. So imagine you just being energy, zipping through different dimensions, come across this dimension, and like there's nothing for you to really experience because you're energy. So you see an opportunity to hijack a body and and you know fuck a fat bitch. Like, you know what I'm saying? I didn't mean that. I'm sorry. I didn't that was that was wrong. That was wrong. I don't even know why I said that. Um just go randomly do anything, right? Just like like do drugs or or you know, just any type of sensation that's probably out of your normal character or your normal your normal uh discernment, right?
Compliments, Clubs, And Comfort Zones
SPEAKER_04Like But would it would it would it really be out of your character if it's an uh uh entity that dwells in you?
SPEAKER_02It it is it maybe just the measure of what you use that but if you're an entity, why would you if you're an entity, why would you dwell within when you can like pop up and go where you want to go? I I don't I don't I would never understand the dwell with like I believe that like like God is a part like we are all I believe that God is our collective consciousness separated having these experiences to feel isolated and have the actual experience. That's what I believe God is, which is why nothing will be done about the things that we experience here unless we do them, which says what? Like I'm God, but I'm not God. Like we are all God together, but like I'm a part of the same thing you are part of. And if we move all as one, you will literally see the power of God, like you'll see God then. But nobody, that's why the division is is is imperative to the structure and it being chaotic right now. It's imperative to that because if everyone acts as one, that's God.
SPEAKER_04If we really realize that we're maybe like a puzzle, we're like a puzzle, each piece is important. Exactly.
SPEAKER_02And when you combine all the consciousness, you finally see the big picture. It's not it's not your way or my way, it's your way and my way. And until we can find a way to combine both of those, we'll we'll constantly be.
SPEAKER_04Which is just removing your ego. That's all it takes. Move that away, and you could grow so much.
SPEAKER_02And that's usually where the separation is at. The separation is at the part where the ego lives. Right. Literally, once you remove the ego, you see that it was never separate.
SPEAKER_04It just needs to be understood.
SPEAKER_02It was just the only way you would you could perceive it at that stage because of what you have been taught so far.
SPEAKER_01Right.
SPEAKER_02So stuff as a in a physical up and down, what goes up must come down, type of matter. And when you start assessing reality in that in that way, you miss so many other elements that's taking place that you're you're going to go through the same confusion everybody goes through through life. Because, like, it's not that simple as as they once wanted you to believe. And what really confuses you is when you have to unlearn all of the shit that you learn.
SPEAKER_04Right.
SPEAKER_02Everything I learned.
SPEAKER_04Is it that you really have to unlearn or just have more understanding of what you have learned?
SPEAKER_02The only thing I can say that you get a value out of the educational system is anything.
SPEAKER_04That's why I left it. I mean, that's why I tried to go through it earlier.
SPEAKER_02Awareness of social parameters and communication tools, right? You have you get a common knowledge that helps you communicate with everybody, every every every other one of your peers. It's so easy for you to communicate with your peers because y'all have a common knowledge. Even if it's all bullshit, y'all all know the same bullshit. And that helps you communicate better because you have a basic understanding of language, culture, and and what don't need to be said. Like that's a lot of communication. Most of our communication is what don't need to be said, what's not being said is our is, I would say 60% of our communication, bro. Like the shit we say is just like like dressing on the salad. Like all the other shit is really the important part. It's the shit you don't say, right? The fact that I didn't come in here and say that y'all gotta get y'all shit and leave. You know what I mean? That I just looked at everybody. It's what I didn't say that, you know what I mean. Even though, matter of fact, I put it like this it's it's not that I didn't say y'all gotta get out here and leave. It's the fact that I didn't say y'all could stay. Right? Because y'all used to me being uh uh outgoing, y'all used to me being overgiving, right? So when I come in and don't say nothing about you staying, or you can stay and don't say shit at all, I'm not welcoming. That's saying more than anything else I could say. You see what I'm saying?
Crass Humor, Imperfections, And Grace
SPEAKER_04More I would say, I would think at that point, but I would think at that point enough has been said already to others to understand the situation. So a person decides. So if a person, if a person especially has come to the point to do that and felt like they've spoken.
SPEAKER_02I'm pretty sure it's an understood situation, right? To where like it don't necessarily need to be said, but when I come in and we've had situations before, and I've um excuse me, and I've come in and and overly uh explained and compensated to make everybody feel comfortable where it's cool, right? When that's been the norm, and then I come in off one time this time, right? This could have been the 30th time. This one time I come in and I don't say shit. That's saying so much more than I can say. I can snap and say, get out, I can do all of that shit, right? I can make a scene, or I can come in and just not say nothing, knowing how much I talk, knowing how much I like to explain the situation that we just that we need to be talking about, knowing how I like to address the elephant in the room and put everybody at ease. Knowing that about me, when I come in and I don't say shit, that's saying more than any rage, anything I can say. That's fucking because now you now you're stuck.
SPEAKER_04Sorting through themselves without having to say anything, that doesn't mean that it's an anger thing or not wanting to explain more at that point. No, no, no, at that point. But my point is what it's doing.
SPEAKER_02Yes, my point is though, what it's doing, it's forcing them to see, it's forcing them to be uncomfortable, which is ultimately getting my point across. Because they're not used to me acting this way. So now they're uncomfortable with my silence.
SPEAKER_04But on whose behalf about whose side is is, I mean, whose problem is that?
SPEAKER_02The people that's in that's intruding on my space that I must that I obviously need to leave. My point is it's a different way to deal with it. And um I've learned that in communication, what you don't say is a lot bigger than what you could say.
SPEAKER_04I mean, you don't have to always say something for things to be especially if things have been said.
SPEAKER_01That's what I'm no no no. I'm saying, all right, okay, so maybe you just missed it. Shut up! You've been yelling the whole time. You've got a situation that that involves you and another person. And in this situation, you've been given the short end of the stick, so to speak, or slight.
SPEAKER_02Right? And this is something that has happened in uh uh such a way repeatedly, and you've always been over-accommodating and passive, like it's cool, I ain't you know me, making sure a person know it ain't no I'm cool, it ain't no hard feelings, y'all, y'all chill, it ain't I don't want no tension. You've always been that way. When you are in a situation where you feel like enough is enough, and you want to get that point across. The most impactful thing you can do, no matter what you come up with to say, would be to not say anything. What you're not saying is saying way more than anything you can come up with to say to explain how you feel about this situation.
The Biblical “Many That Dwell In Us”
SPEAKER_04Because it's probably already been spoken. So what's the point of having to say something at that point anymore? You just it's already all been said. Is that lit? I mean, I I'm following where you're going, but if if it's already if a person already has been said that to get to the point you're talking about, they've already probably said what they've said to get to the point of not saying nothing.
SPEAKER_02I mean, that's a given. Like that's always, like, it's always something. I've I've said it by the time I'm yelling, I've said it repeatedly, which is why I'm yelling and snapping about this shit by now. So that's a given. That goes without saying. That's already implied. Again, something that's didn't need to be said, that was literally bigger than you know what I mean, than it was actually saying it. Because that was like distracted from the actual point, because you know, it was it was implied. Like, yeah, of course. Like by the time I'm got to the point where I can possibly snap about what you're doing to me, of course, it's been said because you've done it repeatedly. So, yes, what I have said it. Not the point. The point is the biggest thing I can do, the the thing I can say the loudest is not saying anything this time. Because then you in your head creating shit, which is way worse than anything I can say that you can put off as an excuse or find different things to attack it physically as opposed to that.
SPEAKER_01When I don't when when I when I don't when I uh when I don't give you anything to to to block that, you start creating something so big and and and dangerous that it doesn't have any way for you to block it because you're doing this.
SPEAKER_02I don't even have to do anything. I didn't say shit, but you know. Matter of fact, you know more than I know. But the fact that I'm not saying nothing, now you don't know what I know.
SPEAKER_04But do you understand what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_02Like I don't think I think you need to understand what I say.
SPEAKER_04I get what you're saying, but it's only come to that point of me not saying anything because things have already been said. So therefore, because you already know what I'm saying, what's the point of repeating something in something when it's already strained itself to something?
SPEAKER_02Whether I've said it or not, me not saying something would be more impactful than me saying something, is my point. Okay, and I'm saying, like in communication, I'm learning that what we don't say says way more than what we could say. I mean, you kept like, I thought you was like, you were saying, like, no, but it's already been said. I'm like, all right, maybe he's missing it.
SPEAKER_04Like again, when you read when you replay what we're watching, you understand that I was understanding what you were saying.
unknownOkay.
SPEAKER_02It must have been just how you was putting it, I guess. Usually it is. Yeah, yeah. Well, next in news, I did want to talk about um Yeah, we got 15 minutes.
SPEAKER_04Let's go.
SPEAKER_02Wait, wait, don't do that, don't do that. I don't like being on time, bro. We talked about that. We talked about that.
SPEAKER_04Hey, we ended our time now. We're more an hour now than than 30 seconds.
SPEAKER_02The problem was the structure. And now that I'm like, no structure, he's like, hey, we got 15 minutes. Like, bro, bro, what's happening here? I was the one. Let's say, let's have a structure, let's keep up with the time. Our structure in the time. He said, I don't like operating like that. I said, fine, we're not gonna operate like that no more. Now in the middle of a show, this guy does 15 minutes.
SPEAKER_04Bro, hey, if we go further than that, I was just giving a mark. If we go further than that, it's still okay because it still gives me a little time before I have to go. But I just wanted to announce that we're coming closer to our time.
SPEAKER_02I don't understand why you have to break dance while you did this shit. He really did a whole turbo ozone move while you was like, Don't I look like a break dancer today? Like, I don't know what that shit was about. Like, I watched you in real time. It wasn't a glitch, y'all. He really was moving like that. I don't know why. Let's see, let's see.
SPEAKER_01But no, um, what was I just talking about? I didn't look like the perfect wing man. The perfect wing. Nigga, I'm always the perfect wing man.
SPEAKER_03Like, just do it. Just talk her to sleep. That's all I need to get out the way. Talk her to sleep.
unknownJust keep her out the way.
SPEAKER_03Whisper in her ear. You know, and when I was four. Give me that man whisper.
Entities, Energy, And Hijacking The Body
SPEAKER_02When I was four, I can still remember vividly my whole childhood, and most people can't.
SPEAKER_04She's like, I'm like, good, perfect. Okay, what else did you have today? What else could we share today for people? Thank you for tuning in with us today. Appreciate it.
SPEAKER_02I did want to bring up that we're gonna start. So, so this is the thing. I I've been like since we've been doing the podcast, everywhere I look on online has been, well, you know how the algorithms go, right? Everywhere online has been giving me all of these podcast features to help us with our podcast, right? So I'm like, um, you know, a part of me, the child of me, wants to try every last one of them and believe every advertisement, right? Like every advertisement is correct, right? But we all know this is the reality we live in. 90% of that shit is fluff. So what we're gonna do is we're gonna see through it. Every week, we're gonna do probably like two or three apps. We're gonna try it out and we're gonna get y'all like real-time, honest reviews of what the fuck we experience trying to use these different podcast features to uh uh expand our podcast, right? So if you see us while we only got the viewers that we got now, then at least you know what not to do so far, right? Like the ones we use so far obviously didn't work if we still only got like uh 50 viewers. So once uh we get the big views, I guess then you'll know which one you can use, right? That's the one that's gonna get the credit for it, I guess, right? So we got a lot of shit lined up.
SPEAKER_04Stream Labs, uh, you can follow us on TikTok, Sprout, YouTube. Because you have to tell them those two, because you don't you don't really say much of those on either one.
SPEAKER_01I wasn't telling us.
SPEAKER_02And I totally so what I was I was going over the apps that we will be reviewing, and then once we get done with that, we can tell y'all what y'all can view us at, which I'm pretty sure TikTok is already watching, so and they're like right there. So they're like, why are you saying us? But anyway, and for big O, but I mean if they're watching us on Big O, they're not gonna go to TikTok. But they'll go to YouTube. So we're gonna do Stream Labs, Buzz Sprout. He is on one today, y'all. Uh Stream Labs, Buzz Sprout. Uh, what else? Hmm.
SPEAKER_01You said like nine of them.
SPEAKER_02I it was way more than nine, but yeah, I I sent probably.
SPEAKER_01I think it's pretty cool.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, yeah. Um all of them are different types, right? Like some of them are are uh like like apps or like programs that host your podcast, some of them are um uh uh uh apps or programs that boost your um viewers or boost your listeners. Um, some of them are apps that get you on other podcasts. And like I wanna try all of them, and we're gonna see which one works to get this podcast to as many people as possible. And the one that works, I guess we'll all be a part of that journey. Like so, like these first, however, I ain't, I don't, I don't really look at numbers, that's his job. Um, however, many people looking now, uh, these are the special few, because um they're gonna take the journey with us and they're gonna be able to say, oh yeah, like we was watching them and they was like, they was trying all that little shit, and then they was talking shit all the time. Like, especially the one with the weird mustache. Like, he just I ain't worried about it. He said what?
SPEAKER_04The one with the what?
SPEAKER_02He like a black cramer. The one with the weird mustache, he like a hair does look like Kramer already. Okay, it's not that it's with the way he moved his head when his hair is out, and like when he does it, it's just like just like Kramer. Like, I just couldn't, I the first thing came to my head. I don't I never watched Seinfield. And I promise you, if you show me his picture, I probably couldn't have said his name. But when he did it, the name just popped in my head and the face and image and everything. And as soon as I said it, and the way he looked verified that I was right because I didn't even know if I said the right name, if that was who I was really trying to express. But when he looked, I'm like, oh yeah, that was him because he offended.
Collective Consciousness And Ego
SPEAKER_04I was not offended. A little bit. I said I just people you have you a good sport, so you're a good sport, you got tough skin. Like when you've been when you've been to this life, certain things don't certain people are using the same type of people that have told me that. So that's where I get a little itchy. But it is what it is because someone else has called me Kramer before, too. So I I get it. I understand. And then when he said it the other day, he's like, Your hair just moved. And right before that, I felt it on the side of my head move, like touch my forehead the wave. What you got?
SPEAKER_02If you're scared to fall, you never learn to fly.
SPEAKER_01Right. What do you mean? How you gonna learn to fly if you're scared, you're gonna fall.
SPEAKER_04Isn't following just a perception exactly. Oh, do you have to perceive yourself falling anywhere?
SPEAKER_02I don't understand. You confuse me on my own point. I don't know how you do this. You like magic, like he like why now you see it, now you don't. You had a point, but I took it away. Now what's your point? Haha, don't even know what you're talking about anymore. Wow, you're stupid. Come smart. What are we doing?
SPEAKER_04Like, never that. I was never never that.
SPEAKER_02I it's I'd be like, well, I say it that way because we're working together.
SPEAKER_04I say it that way because I say it to myself that way to hear it myself. That's the only reason why it comes, because I say it as relatives to myself, to anybody else if I'm gonna say it. So that's why it comes off that way. Like I'm saying it to you like that, but I'm really saying it like that to myself, as I'm just suggesting it to you. Because it's your choice to pick up or not.
SPEAKER_02You know what? Whenever we get rich, I'm making this vow to everybody. When we do I will get us a tra I'm gonna get me a translator for my brother. I'm already rich.
SPEAKER_04A translator?
SPEAKER_02What? I am going to get a tra that that can translate everything he's trying to say to me, Timmy, so we can have more fluid communication.
SPEAKER_04My my translator is this right here. Because when you go back there and then we can watch it, don't you understand my translations? I understand that because I definitely understand yours.
SPEAKER_02We need to do more extensive testing for artism. That's what I understand. Well, no, he didn't.
SPEAKER_04Damn. He's such an asshole.
SPEAKER_02Dang. Whatever. I mean, but I mean it is what it is. Hey, hey, some of the brightest people, man.
SPEAKER_04Some of the brightest people on the spectrum.
SPEAKER_02I'm on the spectrum. So it's not something that I'm shying away from, just something I want to lean into to just to see. I want to discover.
SPEAKER_04You know, like I told you all the runs in my family, so I it wouldn't be surprised if I was someone of that. I had a lot of friends that were like that in school, so I mean I was around.
SPEAKER_02He got out the river. I can say that, but I mean that's usually the first step. Out the river. It's stepping out the river of the Nile. You know, the Nile River is the longest river fight ever, right? Okay. So that's why it's so hard to get out of that.
SPEAKER_01And that's usually the first stage. Out of denial. Out of denial. Aren't you out of denial? The rest is down here. Right. We're walking with you, Barbara.
SPEAKER_04Everything else is down here. Why do you want to go down here?
SPEAKER_03So figure of speech, so oh okay. Basically saying the rest is easy after you've gotten past the denial part.
SPEAKER_02You said what? The rest is easy after you've gotten past the denial part. So that's what I meant by it's all downhill from here. I don't like that. Clearly. I'm like, oh man. Can we go like surface?
SPEAKER_04Can we say surface? Can we take that? It's all easy from here. I gotta go. It's all grand. It's all gravy from here. The gravy working. I used to love the word gravy.
SPEAKER_02How?
SPEAKER_04Because that's all gravy. You used to say that. That's all you would eat. You literally was just like you would say that's all gravy. That's in the gravy. I'm just no, that was a slang. That was like a slang word.
SPEAKER_02I don't like using slang words. Why?
SPEAKER_04Words are unique if you use them in a fashion.
SPEAKER_02I like using different words a lot. You know, that's another thing I'm gonna start doing. I'm gonna start reading. I you know, I can't do that though. I always say that I want to read the dictionary and get new words. Hey Google.
SPEAKER_04I talked to words. Give us the definition of a word that's outlandish. Don't ask me why I said that.
Unlearning, Signals, And What’s Unsaid
SPEAKER_00Outlandish means very strange. No, no, Google. Or extremely different from what is normal or expected. It can also describe something that is strikingly out of the ordinary, bizarre, or even remote from civilization.
SPEAKER_04What did you think? I mean, girl. Again. Hey Google, give us a good uh knowledgeable word of a definition that would help us through our day.
SPEAKER_00How about resilience? It means the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties, toughness. It's about bouncing back when things get tough.
SPEAKER_02I don't feel so bad knowing that he even confuses artificial intelligence. They like, I don't know what the fuck he's talking about, man. I'm like, thank you. You feel what I'm saying, Google. I love you.
SPEAKER_04It's even with it's even if like I'm here to help in any way I can.
SPEAKER_00Or if there's anything else you can do.
SPEAKER_04It's even like when I go through drive-throughs, and I the way I order is hilarious. Because I order backwards, and I don't even do it in and and on top of that, I take off everything on my uh and I'm his favorite person because my name backwards.
SPEAKER_02Oh he was like, first of all, you're not my favorite person. Second of all, wow, second of all, your daddy's name is backwards, so that's definitely not why I like Craig Jones.
SPEAKER_04I mean, Jones Craig is totally a name that's it, like it means a lot.
SPEAKER_02It means I I literally do everything backwards, and that's why I'm able to look at shit differently than everybody. And I and you know what's so crazy, bro? Like when I was little, the the one thing I used to that's why I know I missed my calling because of my environment. Like I was supposed to be a scientist. Like if I had a different uh environment, I would have been more of a scientist than than what you see here, like more of a person that was more into because like every time I used to get something, the first thing I wanted to do was take it apart and see how it worked, and then try to put it back together. Because I wanted to know how I could make it. I want to know how I can make it, right? So it was like different. I always went into everything, and that's why I was always able, I mean, easier for me to understand how to like learn equipment or learn systems and places and shit. I was always a fast learner because my first, my first uh uh uh uh instinct is to dissect it. I want to take it apart so I can put it back together to see, you know what I mean, how I can make my own and see how it works. Same thing I did with with music, everything I go into, I go into it that way, and because I want to make it my own, because that helps me understand it. It helps me understand it to a point where I can manipulate it to my will.
SPEAKER_01Absolutely.
SPEAKER_04And I don't even like using the word manipulate, but there's a measure to things that would mean. I don't like that.
SPEAKER_02It has such a negative connotation because we when you manipulate a person, that's deception. But when you you manipulate equipment, it's just finding it's it's finding innovative ways to use it, right? It's innovating ways to use it. It's it's it's um improvising, it's you know what I mean, like improving upon what's already been created. So, yeah, that part. Absolutely. I don't know if y'all know this, but I say a lot of words, and I want y'all to understand how much work it goes into moving these big ass lips. Like, it's real hard to say all of these words. Like my face muscles are not equipped to handle the weight, but yet I I I I push through for y'all. You know what I mean? Like, it's my sacrifice to y'all. I'm like, I'm like Moses. He loves it. You know what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_01Let me let him tell you don't let him fool you now. He loved it.
SPEAKER_02I'm not I can't make this up. You see him.
SPEAKER_03Like that he likes these copy coolers moving. He likes it. It may hurt his jar, but well, all right.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you know what? Swiss the subject shit.
SPEAKER_03I wasn't even trying to go there that time.
SPEAKER_02I was I literally talking about on the internet. You don't have to try to go there. Words. What do you mean? I just clarified that's not what I meant. And do anyone believe him? Anybody, does anybody in the whole entire soul believe that that's entirely true? Nobody but does anybody believe that that's entirely true? I just want to know. Can we get a poll on that? I wonder, can we check the comments after we've done it? What happened over here?
SPEAKER_04Can you put the put that little piece into the piece? No, no. Oh shit. You're supposed to move that little the little tube part. I mean the little that's crazy. The puzzle. Exit, exit, exit, exit.
SPEAKER_01I ain't tripping, bro.
SPEAKER_04Oh, that was them talking. I'll hear whatever you just said. Now put the puzzle that yeah.
SPEAKER_02Hey bro, if you don't shut up, bro. Right, you've been you've been you was tripping. Like, how long can you go?
SPEAKER_04Like at some point, I would just she's because she's right here.
SPEAKER_02At some point, I guess.
SPEAKER_04You're not gonna be quiet until I look Zeus.
SPEAKER_02I'm chilling. She's like, I ain't finna do that crazy shit. See, that'd be your ass. Now we know who the devil is. My baby not denial is a very good idea.
SPEAKER_04You got some more little more topics to talk about?
SPEAKER_02Let's talk about the gas prices.
SPEAKER_03At least got like another 10. I ain't even got no cotton. I'm insulted. The fuck?
SPEAKER_04I don't even pay attention to it. It's weird, bro.
SPEAKER_02I never do either, honestly.
Structure vs Spirit And Time Anxiety
SPEAKER_04I really try not to pay attention. Because it actually, when I end up doing paying attention to it, it's always the lowest when I do end up paying attention to it. It's quite strange.
SPEAKER_02I asked Google some shit.
SPEAKER_04That's what did you ask her?
SPEAKER_02Not Google. I forgot what it was, bro. I asked him something. And I forgot, bro. I'm I'm gonna have to bring it up. I can't, I don't know where my phone is, and I'm gonna have to leave off camera to do it. And that's that's like cheating because you was already off camera too much. You you know, it's holding out people. We started it pretty late. So sorry. Presence is everything. You at least gotta show up to work. Like that's that's the worst. 60% of it. 60% of it is. I just didn't know the time frame that we were in. I really didn't.
SPEAKER_04You see me when I woke up with my eyes open. To be aware is to be alive. Was my eyes open when I woke up too? Just to look at it.
SPEAKER_02Was my eyes open when I woke up? I hope so. I mean, it's other ways I can tell, but that would be the main way I can tell is that you would open your eyes. That's just that's just me. I mean, I might be weird in the way I'm looking at it, but usually I can tell if I woke the person up when they open my eyes and say, I'm up. But I mean, other than that. I don't know what other proof I would need, because like if if you were sleepwalker, like you fooled me, because I'm not gonna try harder than that. I you said you're up, I'm out. Fuck you want me to do it? Shake you? Like, I'm not. You you opened your eyes. What more you want? Like, I'm not. I believed you. I trust you.
SPEAKER_04Did you wait? So how much longer did I lay there after you? Only a little bit longer, right? I got up for after you.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you might do about another 40 minutes.
SPEAKER_04After you came in at the door? No, I just came.
SPEAKER_02No, he was probably like 10 minutes.
SPEAKER_04Okay. Five, ten minutes. Zeus! Hush!
SPEAKER_02That's that's not gonna work. Oh, we know that. That's just me. He's the weed. Now we gave him some attention. Right. Well, that would probably be little clips. He's like, if I give him 45 more of these meows, he's gonna finally open the door. Like he right though, because by then we're gonna be done. So like in his head, he won. He's like, I had to meow these motherfuckers to come open this door.
SPEAKER_04And I can't pick her up to put her outside. Oh, she'll scratch this shit out. So she doesn't let you pick the shit. She made her idea. And if I was to open the door, he'll try to run in. So they have to run out to think.
SPEAKER_02And then this bitch got nerve to jump for that network and that make biscuits on my motherfucking stomach. Like that shit'd feel good to me. Like, like this hurts. Like, I feel I feel it. You purring, you enjoying yourself. I'm not. She like, oh, you love it, don't you? Are you really not? I'm really not, bro. Like, I mean, you know what's so fucked up, though? Like, because I take it though. That's fucked up. I sit there and take it. Don't don't say like that. All right, you're right. Yeah, I don't even, I didn't mean it like bro, whatever. I can't.
SPEAKER_04Because you even leaned into it. All right, bro. You did you I didn't take it, bro?
SPEAKER_02Bro, look, look, man, you tripping. Hey, bro, chill out. You love that perfect. I think you stepped your boundaries a little bit. Yeah, no, but I I I guess it's like I mean, look, I don't even like I I'm trying to find another way to put it where he ain't gonna like like try to twist the shit. Watch your words now. Clearly, clearly, watch the fuck out my word.
SPEAKER_04Um this is the end of the hour, so I'm about to talk about it.
Wingman Jokes And Reset
SPEAKER_02Bro, why you keep waiting? Bro, I hate a motherfucker that I hate when I'm working with the type of shit right now. America, America, yeah. I like America. It's three motherfuckers. Anyway, look, look, look though, look, hey, no bullshit though, no bullshit. Hey, I hate working with a motherfucker that constantly reminds me of how much time we got left. Like, bro. I'm on the time schedule. What's your thing? Ironically, wait, wait, ironically though, ironically, I usually hate it because I'm trying to get through the time, right? Right. Right. I just want the time to pass by fast. And when they constantly remind me what time it is, it's making the time go by slower. But in this case, it's the opposite, but I still want that same fucking respect. Stop watching the time, bro. We're gonna know when we know. Don't you move by spirit? You move by spirit, and yet you're watching the numbers. You move more by spirit than I do. You just come up with shit, like, you know what? I'm gonna get a dog. Like, what the fuck? Like, what the fuck, bro? We got two cats in the one bedroom and three niggas. Like, what are we gonna get a dog to? You move by spirit. What can I say? Like, you know, like it might not make sense on surface, but it works. So my point is, how can somebody that move by spirit look at the numbers? Like, you gotta pick a lane. You can't play both lanes, bro. I'm not gonna let you. I'm I'm from Chicago. You pick a side, you still you stick with that side. What you chose will be your will be what it is.
SPEAKER_04What can you say? So therefore you get this off put other side of me. Nigga, we got a time schedule today.
SPEAKER_02You see that? You see how he just went from from totally gay to nigga, we gotta kinda like you see how you do that shit? He do that shit all the time. I be so confused around this bitch. Like, what the fuck is going on? Like, what am I dealing with? I'm trying to be sensitive, and then this nigga come out also rah-rah, bust around shit. Like, all right, bro, look, I don't know what the fuck I think you're doing this. So is it cameras around it? I feel like I'm on episode. Like, you're trying to get a reality.
SPEAKER_04And it's it's my dad's kind of like that too, naturally. So I I have to do that. Cause daddy's like that too.
SPEAKER_02I get a program version of him. Like he has this, like, he has this like 21, 31. Like, you know, like he has this same thing. Like, he says almost like he talks about the same shit every time. Like, it's like, all right, uh, you don't try to teach me something? Like, like at all. Like, he's just like, fuck it. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, you read the Bible, right? Like, I I read the went to church, motherfucker. I heard what he said. You gonna repeat the shit? I I I didn't get it then. You think you said it different? Like, yeah, but it's like, okay. Sorry, all right. I just wanted a conversation, a real one. That's all. Ain't no big deal. I get it. Okay, you love dad. Oh, yeah, of course, of course. Got no choice, got no choice. Love is not uh um well, love is a choice for men. I say that because like it is, but we we control the circumstances, yeah, exactly. I take that back. Love is not necessarily a choice, but that said expressing of love is definitely a choice. Like, I think I may, I I may love this shit out of you. I'm talking about love you to where I would I want to jump in front of a bullet to make sure that that they didn't hit your cousin, just so because I know it'll hurt your heart. Like, but I will not say a goddamn word because of you know my understanding of the situation or what have you, whatever. You know what I mean? Like, I won't budge, like no, because I hate being controlled. So the moment I don't give a fuck how much I love you. The moment I see that you in it just so you can have a puppet, like, yeah, fuck that. You don't love me, you love how I made you feel. You love how powerful I made you feel. That ain't real love. And once I dropped that, I saw where it was. It's like it's able to gauge that because once you drop the control and they they lose their shit and like fuck it, like, oh, so if I don't let you control me, you can't. I I was only in extension, and that that said unconditional love had the condition of making you feel empowered. Okay, I get it. All illusions, all delusional, delusional shit. You know what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_04Right, not real. That's part of you creating your own world, exactly. Right. You want a delusional world or a world that has substance and meaning.
SPEAKER_02And this is the thing, you always delusional. If you ever think, even if you feel like it at any moment, that you can actually control a person. Yes.
SPEAKER_04At some point, like it's not it's even deeper than that, though. It's controlling with your mind, soul, energy.
SPEAKER_02Because there's other elements that's taking place here, and the moment you cross certain spiritual barriers, like you got a price to pay. And all this control and shit you thought you had over shit that's gonna go, that shit is often gonna fall apart by unseen forces, and you're not gonna be able to do shit about it. You're just gonna be a victim, right? And you brought it on yourself and you know it, but because you don't have any tangible things pointing towards you, you can escape, you can escape the blame. You know what I mean? Like people normally do. And I mean, like anybody with common.
SPEAKER_04Do you really escape it? Because later in the world. You escape the blame from the public eye.
SPEAKER_02Exactly. Because ultimately, the person you're trying to hide it from is literally letting you know, oh, you're paying. So everybody else don't even fucking matter anyway. That's what I realized. That's what I realized. Like, well, I'm trying to, I'm hiding from the wrong motherfuckers. The motherfuckers I really should be hiding from, I can't hide from. So at that point, like, fuck you, nigga.
SPEAKER_04But there's no point to there's not even a reason to hide from me. But that's my point.
unknownThat's my point.
SPEAKER_02Okay. You know what I'm saying? That's my point. It's like, once you realize that, like, I'm hiding from the wrong motherfuckers. I'm hiding from motherfuckers. First of all, I'm hiding from motherfuckers that I can't hide from anyway. There's no running from them.
Names, Pets, And Running Bits
SPEAKER_04And partially you don't want to. Those are the kind of people you want to do reflect what you are trying to get.
SPEAKER_02And supposed to be working for you, but you wind up trying to run from them because you ain't doing what the fuck you're supposed to be doing. They only demons and chasing you because you're not in alignment. They're your angels when you're in alignment. When you're out of alignment, they demons. Because they're constantly working against you to push you in the direction you're supposed to be going. And yet, here you are fighting against it, you know what I'm saying? And calling them demons. But your demons are literally your angels trying to push you back in alignment.
SPEAKER_04Really telling you, don't go that far.
SPEAKER_02Exactly. They double down. They double down and lean into it. No, I'm gonna clean this shit up by telling you the more lies. Like so, yeah, they're demons now. They're demons to you. But what's an angel to a demon?
SPEAKER_04What do you mean?
SPEAKER_02What's an angel to a demon?
SPEAKER_04I don't understand.
SPEAKER_02A demon? If you a demon, an angel to you is a demon. If you an angel, a demon to you is a demon. But if you a demon, an angel to you is the eye, right? It's just the same size of different fences. You calling them a demon because you an angel. But if you was a demon, you'd be calling angels demons. You see what I'm saying? Just like Crips and Bloods, just like Vice Lords and GDs, just like, you know what I'm saying? Like, I'm calling you a derogatory name because I'm on this side of the fence. You see what I'm saying? It's the same shit. Like, they turn to your fucking angels when you're in the lightning. Them same demons that you have to fight are now working for you. Because you're doing the fuck you're supposed to be doing. Yeah, we absolutely do. When you're not doing what you're supposed to be doing, they will work against you. They will everything you try to build while you're not getting what you're supposed to be doing, fall.
SPEAKER_04Because you asked it to you asked it to go that way. That's what you gotta really do. For it to go that way.
SPEAKER_02When you're doing opposite of what you know you're supposed to be doing, or what you said you're gonna do. That's the fucking thing. And that's the you know, it's like that's another thing, is when you realize that wait, I'm the motherfucker that said I was gonna do this, that, and the fourth. Right. So, like, and that's the only thing I'm noticing my reality is holding me to. Nothing else, nothing else that was told to me or taught to me even fucking mattered ultimately. The only thing that mattered was the things I told myself I was gonna do and how it was gonna be. And those are the things that that the only things that are have been true, have been tested through time and time again that I from personal experience can verify. You see what I'm saying? And like from that, like I say, my confidence wasn't built on compliments. So, like, my shit built on actual experience. I know, please. My confidence wasn't built on compliments. You know what I'm saying? Like, I'm I'm actually experiencing this shit. So it's like it's real, it's not, you know what I mean? Like, so it ain't shit you can tell me about what I'm saying. And if you can and conflict it and challenge my theories, then I'm forced to fucking submit. That's how I learned what I learned so far. I believed other shit before I believe what I believe now. You see what I'm saying? So it's not that I'm like, no, I don't want to believe what other people know. No, no, like if you can, you know, show me beyond reasonable doubt that what I'm saying is wrong, I'm all ears.
SPEAKER_04Can you do that with anything really? Can you show anything without reasonable or without not me? Can anyone really?
SPEAKER_02I mean, not unless it's real. I mean, you can't fake it, like I can promise you that. This is the thing. These kids right now, they got smartphones and dumb parents.
SPEAKER_01I mean smartphones and dumb parents.
Curiosity, Words, And Resilience
SPEAKER_02Right? Like the parents, they didn't have access to all this information. We did not. We was raised with these different programs and literally fed a whole bunch of bullshit that ultimately you gotta unlearn. So they have smartphones and dumb parents. So they literally starting from scratch because that trust, that that admiration, that respect, considering I got more information in the bill you pay for me on the month than I actually get from you as a whole, it's gonna be hard to give my respect. You don't really know shit. I need to know. Everything I need to know right here in this phone, even how to manipulate you to get what I want is in this phone. Right. I got a smartphone and a dumb parent. I'm finna make a series out of that or a book or something. That's that's well. What? See what I'm saying? See, see? America. Well, you see it. This is the clockwater. This is the clock watcher. I'm cracking America. I want to ban all clock watchers, put them on 50 by themselves 15 minutes over. And let them tell each other what time it is consistently all the time and just drive each other crazy. And that way the rest of us can live in bliss where time don't exist. And we can't wait.
SPEAKER_04Can't wait. Here we go. He's a rapper.
SPEAKER_02I'm just saying, man. Did you not hear it though? I did. We could all live in bliss where time don't exist. Come on, bro. I'm not gonna say it again.
SPEAKER_04There you go.
SPEAKER_03Bam! I don't even try to do this shit. So I'm gonna say he's not a rapper. I'm gonna be trying to do anything.
SPEAKER_04I'm gonna be trying to do this shit today. Again, if you haven't done it. No, we didn't. We got subjects.
SPEAKER_01Well, well, why are you all trying to call this shit?
SPEAKER_04I gotta go to work. What do you mean? Bro, this is work. I have to go to work. So you gotta believe it. If you want to believe Lucifer and Light on TikTok on our other page, that'd be great if you're on this one. And we gonna we can just find YouTube Lucifer and Light also. I love it on YouTube. I forgot to tell um any of the platforms, pretty much, if you type in Lucifer and Light, you will find out.
SPEAKER_02You look so much taller than me.
SPEAKER_04I'm sitting up straight right now.
SPEAKER_03I slumped a lot.
SPEAKER_04So do I.
SPEAKER_01That's because I'm I'm in a cool crowd. See, makes a difference. Yeah. You sit up and pay attention to class. I knew that bitch wasn't talking about shit.
SPEAKER_02I was waiting for her to turn around.
SPEAKER_03I mean, I didn't I didn't. I was waiting for that turn around, right?
SPEAKER_02Age in class too. I was trying to see that ass shaking that in that business skirt. That business skirt used to be like, that's something I got out of that. And social, social status is like, I ain't gonna get shit else out of school. I had to unlearn that shit. Christopher Columbus discovered America. How the fuck are you gonna discover some shit? Some people already at crazy. That's arrogant as hell to say he discovered America, considering they said he gave Turkey to the natives. If it's natives, he didn't discover shit. But whatever. But that's what you're teaching us. And I'm supposed to learn that shit. I gotta find out that I had to unlearn that. So you told me that dumbass story from nothing. And then you made me think my people was Indians, and we not in India. We're not in India. How the fuck are we Indians? It makes no sense, bro. It's all bullshit. Anyway, that's Mr. Trillium Light. We here to expose the bullshit. Turn on the lights, baby. Don't let them keep you in the dark. Yo. Sneak always got cold. I hope you got that. What do you mean? First of all, there's not a memory.
