Luciferian Light
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Luciferian Light
Episode 14: Discernment Over Dogma
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Truth gets weird when every “trusted” source has an agenda. We sit down with no guests and talk straight about discernment: how to think clearly when government, religion, media, and even education feel corrupted or incomplete. The big challenge isn’t being right, it’s staying real enough to admit what you can’t prove and humble enough to keep learning. That’s why we keep repeating a line most people avoid: “I don’t know.”
Then the conversation turns toward reality itself. We break down a simple framework using space, matter, time, and consciousness, and ask what actually makes experience meaningful. From there we go into a provocative spiritual idea: if breathing is the quickest path to losing consciousness when it stops, what does that say about air? Is air just air, or is it the closest thing we have to shared consciousness? Whether you hear it as philosophy, spirituality, or a mental model, it leads back to being present with what you can validate.
We also get practical about self-control and personal growth. We talk intention, consequences, ego, triggers, and why it’s on us to identify what sets us off instead of expecting the world to tiptoe around it. To make discipline real, we recommend starting small: one habit, one week, then build. Along the way we hit culture too: politicians as actors, contracts nobody reads, and rap beef as business, plus a story-filled detour into why a slap can instantly change the whole energy in a conflict.
If you’ve been craving a podcast that mixes philosophy, self-improvement, and raw storytelling without pretending to have all the answers, hit play. Subscribe, share this with a friend who loves real talk, and leave a review telling us: what do you trust most when everything feels unreliable?
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Holding The Light In Darkness
SPEAKER_02In every age, someone had to hold the light in the dark room. Someone had to stay the kitchen, and everyone held their tongue in it. This is Luciferian Light show where nothing is off limits, no truth is too tabooed, and no lies go on town.
SPEAKER_01Let's turn that light into. Welcome to Luciferian Light, where it's not about being right, it's about being real. And today we have no guests. We just gonna actually wanted to.
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Who Can You Trust Anymore
SPEAKER_01It is it from reverberation. Well not. Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? There we go. Yep, that was it. So that was reverberation. Uh the reverber. The reverb. The reverberate the re the the reverber the reverberation. The reverberation. The reverberation. Oh, it just sounds so it doesn't sound natural. Um, I was like in our DNA, right? So it's like when you look at how we get information or process information, like as like what sources do we actually trust that's not corrupted? Because like even when you look at government, you you can look at government institutions. Those things are corrupted, right? We all know that we've had histories and and situations where have come out where they were corrupted. You look at uh uh religious institutions, any religious institution, every religious institution has had corruption in it. So you can't necessarily trust them. You look into our texts, you look at the at the old leaders and and and historical figures that have something to do with the text, and they they weren't they weren't uh trustworthy and and corrupt as well. So like at what point do we like start realizing we have to use our common sense and discernment when taking in all the information because none of the information is considered to be like a hundred percent trustworthy? You know what I mean? Agree. What do you think though? Like as far as like like what information you trust, like how do you practice what's what's uh uh uh credible and what's not credible, right? Like how do you judge that? My body tells me your body tells you I mean that's real, don't get me wrong. I I get that, but it was just sad and so funny. It sad is so funny. Like, my body tells me, like, because that's how you how I even tell myself.
SPEAKER_04Kelly made a song about you.
California Bag Rules And Everyday Tradeoffs
SPEAKER_01Yeah, your body was calling him too. I was telling you what was it was calling him as well. I think it reminded him of a Jeep or something. I don't remember, but I think it did remind him, I think it reminded him of a Jeep, honestly. But I love Jeep. Uh basically, we got scholars and shit studying lives. You got you got like, and that's the thing about it. A lot of our studies and a lot of our educational practices come from corrupt information. And we have these highfalutin, this is what I want our society to get to is to a point where we don't have nobody sitting on a fucking podium telling us this and that, when the truth of the matter is we don't know. Why can't nobody ever say that? Nobody can just say, I don't know. Like, that's you don't know. You don't have to know everything. Like, if you don't know, I would rather you say, I don't know, then give me information that's gonna make me look like a fool or that's false. Just so you can feel like, you know, that you you didn't uh uh get to a point where you are you were wordless, you were you were uh speechless, so to speak. So it's like Walmart Rackson, hey, that's one thing about California. What is with California, man? Because somebody answered me on the uh the comments or something, what the fuck is up with California and they lack of bags? Like I've had to carry shit at home in my hand.
SPEAKER_03You know, you don't do plastic anymore.
SPEAKER_01California, period.
SPEAKER_03We you know that's why you get that's why you get paper bags.
SPEAKER_01So wait, wait, wait. So they don't none of the stores can do plastic bags no more for years.
SPEAKER_03Okay, so it came out years ago where they tried to stop doing that. So they were doing the paper bag. Then people, I don't know, people were arguing about it or whatever. I don't know what the case was, but they brought them back, and then I think this year again, they were like, No more, no more paper bags. I mean, no more, no more uh plastic bags, so that's why everybody has paper bags. What was the problem with the paper bags?
SPEAKER_01I mean, plastic bags it's not good for the environment. Yes, right, and I guess they was falling in there and penguins was getting caught in them and shit and animals, right?
SPEAKER_03And really they're kind of pointless in a little bit, and we can't save the the paper bags in a sense if we want to be, you know, uh what's the word? Uh efficient. Yeah, that's right. Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_01Um yeah, I that's there's another word I just can't think of. Economic, economical, yeah, yeah, yeah. Economically uh efficient, right?
Politicians As Performers And Contracts
SPEAKER_03So and use your brain on that, and I guess that it's a good thing. You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh I mean I use them. You know, I use them with trash bags.
SPEAKER_01So I'm starting to see that our politicians and our actors are pretty much one and the same. Actually, our actors are better than our politicians. They our actors are better people than our politicians, and our politicians are better actors than the actors we're looking at on TV. Is that not fucking weird? Like that I've seen politicians literally with a straight face say some shit that I know for a fact it's a damn lie. And like they prove that it was a lie, like shortly after, and with a straight face and all the conviction in the world, they have sat on that podium in front of millions and stated something that they knew for a fact was not true. If that's not acting, I don't know what is.
SPEAKER_03Well, you know, I think a lot does that with the contracts, yeah. Sometimes you don't you don't read the contracts all the way through, and then they want to throw it at you when they're ready for you. Facts. Because who who reads a contract, really? I mean only a only uh thing, yeah. What like an OCD?
SPEAKER_01Somebody with real real trust issues and that's shit else to do a lot of time. Yeah, we're not reading all that shit.
SPEAKER_03They're not. They're just gonna sign you.
SPEAKER_01I'm gonna trust you and then it happens to their asses too, I think. But you know what though? Rich people, they don't read them either. But what rich people will do is drop that shit off to their lawyer. But are they really reading it to you though? And have their lawyer read it. No, they get some type of AI uh app to read the motherfucker and skip through the motherfucker, so they ain't gotta do the work either now. So I guess everybody winning, because uh even the lawyers got apps to where they ain't gotta skim through the the tedious part of being that and just get an AI to fucking go through it. Because they sure did you gotta like? Oh, yeah, you just gave it on. We're doing something different now. We got a filter on this motherfucker.
SPEAKER_06Eee.
SPEAKER_01A filter on the blood. Yep. What's that for? What would that do? Um, it's just so you don't smoke all the blood. Yeah, and you can smoke all the weed as opposed to getting down to the end of it, and then you got this much weed, but it's like you might as well put it out. Nah. You get to get all of it. We bougie now. We're getting real bougie. That comes with you made that. That came with those other things, these these drumps.
SPEAKER_03Um the wraps that come from the uh piece off right there. The brown piece. Is that what it is?
SPEAKER_01Is that no, no, it came in the back. Oh thank you for the love. Appreciate y'all. Oh, yeah. I can't oh you know what? Maybe we should start putting that over there and then put that there because that's that tick tock be actually commenting, and Facebook gonna be saying shit. Okay.
SPEAKER_03You see what I'm saying? Next time.
SPEAKER_01I mean, next time, yeah, no, right now, right.
SPEAKER_03Okay.
SPEAKER_01We're gonna keep it like it is.
SPEAKER_03Oh, true, because then you could see you could see them.
SPEAKER_01Right, I can see what they said. But they're here too.
SPEAKER_03Right now, they're right here.
SPEAKER_01Oh yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_03But yeah, I get you. That makes sense. And you know what? We sometimes we can see more things. Excuse us one second. Sometimes you can see more things because this is ours. So you see how you see how I'm still disappearing. I'm still gone. I'm still gone. There I go, I'm back, I'm back. You see, you see how like uh this is like this, yeah, and we can see more right there. So it would be better to be like this. Is what outside people see.
SPEAKER_01That's 80% of the live goal is completed. Celebrate the moment.
unknownThank you.
SPEAKER_03Oh, celebrate the moment, celebrate the moment. Thank you, sis.
SPEAKER_01Uh-huh. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. I don't know if that was the right song. I'm hearing Whitney Houston. I can't really hear because I he got the I'm hearing Whitney Houston, so I think I just hit the wrong button, but never. I think she's never wrong. She's never wrong. Never wrong. Once this when is the once you're talking about? Oh well, she's not here. That was the one time she okay, but wow. I mean, that was the one time she was wrong, right? Yeah, yeah. She went too far. That was the only time I feel like Whitney went too far. Everything else, live your life. Oh, you are not being heard. Oh. I on this one, I guess I could. Yeah, but we were recording, but you couldn't hear. Could you hear yourself? Yeah, I can. But you know it's probably because of yours?
SPEAKER_03Yep. But now you're hearing stronger. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
The “I Don’t Know” Religion
SPEAKER_01See, yeah, that's what that was. I also wanted to talk about our reality, right? So, in order to like get to the nitty-gritty, I'm starting my own religion, y'all. It's called the I don't know religion, right? Like, so stop pretending like we know. Let's say we don't know, and let's find out together. Um reality is made up of space and matter, consciousness and time, right? Um space, without space, you have nowhere to put the matter, right? Without matter, I mean, without matter, space has no purpose. So it's like those are the two things that are imperative to our reality. Then you have time and consciousness. None of that shit matters if you have no consciousness to witness it. You feel what I'm saying? So that's what makes it relevant, is the fact that consciousness is observing and witnessing what's happening with the space and matter and the time. Okay, right. So when you usually mean you look, yeah, when you look for the the deity that that most resembles the reality or reflect the reality that's been given back to you, the first place you have to look at is what's responsible for my consciousness, right? What do you lose consciousness over? What could have you lose your consciousness faster than anything? Like I can stop eating right now, right? I can stop eating for days, and I can still observe and be conscious through this reality, right? I can stop drinking water for days and still be conscious through this reality. I can stop a lot of things.
SPEAKER_03Over time when she becomes nostalgic and if you did not.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah. But I can't stop breathing for longer than a few minutes before I lose consciousness. And nothing else matters. Not what I ate, not what I drank, none of that shit matters if I stop breathing. Okay, so what we call air is actually consciousness. Yes, right? And think about this. This is what's so crazy about it, right? This is what they try to tell us. This is where we all connected because we're sharing the same consciousness, we're all inhaling the same consciousness, and yet we are so separate in everything we do. But yet we're all every every being on this planet is sharing the same consciousness. So if anything would be what we would call God, it would be air. Because without it, nothing else matters. Nothing. Like all that shit shut down. What you what you're hearing, what you're seeing, what you're feeling, all that shit shuts down if you don't have no air. Everything else can be compensated for, or at least survived for a certain amount of time or what have you, but not air. Very good point. I mean, I just think it's something we should look into.
SPEAKER_03Only only from that standpoint, my sign, my sign is air, so I comprehend what you're saying. Yo, the sign is my my like air, water, I'm air. So I just sign I'm Libra. Right, okay. So I totally understand because I think I'm learning that lesson of how you're explaining it to just be. So I totally I agree with that. And okay, but us us knowing that, right? Us being aware of that now, what now? What what what should we do with that?
SPEAKER_01Stop ignoring what's in front of us, stop ignoring what you can validate to be real, what you can what you can uh uh uh put put your hat on to be a part of reality that you can understand and and kind of like unlearn a lot of the the shit we was taught before because a lot of that shit is does not don't add up. You know what I mean? Like we can try to justify it ourselves, but if we sit down and actually conversate with it and break it down step by step, a lot of the shit that people believe, like with their heart and soul, don't add up. And that's because like we've been given falsehoods and we try to piece these falsehoods together to make sense out of it, and also uh uh uh depending on what we want to do with our lives, we kind of like try to fit all that shit in together and make sense out of all of it. But a lot of times it just don't. And it's not our it's not our it's not our job to make it make sense, it's our job to make sense out of it for ourselves, not for nobody else. I could give less than a fuck what somebody else would think about my beliefs and how I see shit in the world because this is how I see it. I have no, you know what I mean? Like, and I'm not finna bend that or change it because it's conflicting with yours. I mean, we can sit and discuss it, and if you can make me see it a different way, I'm I'm open to it. But like, you know, that don't usually happen.
Intention Consequences And The Ego Trap
SPEAKER_03It's like people say they're how you want to see it, which is fine. I'm I'm a believer of that, that's totally fine. That is uh uh that's the point of I think of life indifferencey. That's even a word. But in learning just to learn how to be peaceful and understanding, not understanding and you know learning to you know stand up to what you you know I I want to make right and not not never intention to place harm. I I'm never a person that trying to place harming it. I really am not. My heart and your like it it when I when that is put upon someone or someone feels that from me, it puts me like back to when I was sick. And so I really try to stay far away from that. And when I get put in that, I mean I only can be as humble as I can when I recognize I've done wrong. You know, and because you if you really come to know me, you know I ain't like that.
SPEAKER_01A lot of people don't um don't realize that the intention of what they do has everything to do with what they're gonna get out of it. And ultimately you have to stay in a light where you understand that so you can get it on the other end of it. Because it's it's it's always something, right? It's not gonna nothing comes without thorns, like everything got its own type of thorns on it that you have to, you know what I mean, like situate the prunes, different right, right.
SPEAKER_03Figure a way out. There's a different way of some eat gloves, don't need gloves.
SPEAKER_01Some thorns is real striky, some thorns are not. Some thorns is false. You know, but like it's some feel good. Right, right. No, some do. Like some are some some some feel good because that's that's the that's the nature of what it is that you're handling. But like some of them, some of those thorns don't, you know, some of those thorns they hurt, they prick, you know what I mean? So it's like you gotta figure a way out to to to handle it without you know pricking yourself. And also ultimately, you don't want to take the thorns off either because those thorns are on that plant to protect it. And so if you take those thorns off just so you can hold it, you've just rendered that that plant vulnerable to any other predator that just might want to come and take advantage of it. So, you know, it's it's also a slippery slope, you know, you know, a fine line to kind of like be able to handle that type of shit. But I do feel like we we try to disguise, and I think that's a lot what we're seeing with politics and and and with a lot of the the shit that's going on in the world with with different countries, you know, getting into it and then doing backhand and shit. The intention of the the origin uh aggressor was is always gonna rent what he sold from the beginning. Right. And whether it's a short turnaround or a small or a long turnaround, eventually the the same intention and the action that he put in, that intention that he put into that action, that action is gonna somehow trickle down into a way that comes back around and give him 10 times fold of what he intended for someone else. And I think people miss that and and they they think they dodge it or they try to dodge it, or or they disguise the consequences that they got from that as something else, right? So now they're a victim of somebody else doing something to them. They're not gonna see it as this is a consequence of something I did earlier and I thought I got away with. They're never gonna see that because their narcissism or ego or their uh uh psychopathic mentality or sociopathic mentality won't allow them to. And that's literally like 90% of the world. I've I'm like, I've very rarely run into somebody who's not one of those like four things, right?
SPEAKER_03Like it's see, I know I'm always right no matter if I make mistakes. Not always right, let me say that wrong. I know I'm always on my right path. Because every time I come out of something, it's it's I'm always on top no matter what it's been. Because my heart's always been the same, even in my learning, even in my trying to understand mine or someone else. So that's why I always get blessed continuously in that light that I see it as.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah. That's that's and as long as you have that and you know that, you can stand in it at all times. Honestly, like no matter what. I mean, I'm only healed.
SPEAKER_03I'm all I swear you, I don't have seizures because of because of my true belief in that. If I I swear, if I believe it's if I didn't have that, come on, for real. If I didn't have that, I would not have none of this strength. I swear to you.
SPEAKER_01I believe it's the strength that you believe that it's not gonna happen anymore because you believe of what you believe in. I uh yes, but it's the belief that's stopping it from happening, not what you actually believe in. It's your own power of non-belief, of feeling bel of believing, because that is the key component of controlling your reality.
SPEAKER_03Right is acceptance to an extent of where you have to let it go where it's enough, where it's not. That's part of the example.
SPEAKER_01That's true, because in a way, because delusion and and having illusion is also a key component to to create your reality, which is the opposite of acceptance. You know what I'm saying? Like that's saying, no, I'm not accepting what you're trying to give me. I'm gonna be delusional about what I want until it actually takes takes takes physical form. I'm not sure.
SPEAKER_03Sometimes I do call that that that's necessary because that's that that's but to use it in a manner of a tool to use against someone, I think it's different. But I think that is different. Yeah, but I think everybody kind of does that in a sense because you have to keep yourself separate sometimes when you go through things. Yeah, yeah. To understand both sides to see yourself separate from it, and you really do that stuff on your own. You don't really do that. I mean, you're doing it amongst people because you're still moving around and shit, but even side. You're really just doing that yourself. And and you don't really share those moments until you you like until they see the next light of you. You know what I mean? When you're bright you're shine again, and you're like, Well how now they understand and recognize it's hard to share it when you're going through it, you know what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_01Like so it's like and people can see, but they can't like necessarily understand. So it's like when when you're going through it, then it's you know it's it's uh it's internal. But when you come out of it, you have uh a certain clarity that helps you articulate exactly the experience that you had, you know what I mean?
Triggers And Personal Responsibility
SPEAKER_03And who you are and how you like to in good things, bad things, ugly things, how you like to communicate or be always no matter what energy you're in. You know? So thanks for with us being with us today, everybody. Appreciate it. We love the love.
SPEAKER_01We're looking for uh thinking here, I think. We're also looking for um people with interest in stories that um want to tell their story and and get like some undertakes on it, or maybe some advice. I love to hear other people's life and help them figure out their problems because it's it's um it's other people's outside perception on your life that always gives me uh uh a better look at myself and and a way to reflect what I am. And and I think I just got rid of one of my last triggers. But you know, you have to have it. It's hard to identify and get rid of your triggers until they're triggered. You have to, they have to be triggered, or else like you're not even gonna know it's there, honestly, until you're triggered. And then once you know it's there, then you internalize that and you deal with it. And it's it's it's not for the other person to take on them, it's it's always you. Like you have to figure out how to detach yourself from allowing those triggers to exist because it's nobody else's responsibility to figure a way out to to to deal with you without hitting you. It's not that it's not really their responsibility. And it's like you have to allow it to happen and allow yourself space to separate yourself from your ego or your like your personal feelings, your so to speak, right?
SPEAKER_03Because ego is such a big thing, so I think that was a good word you use. You have to separate yourself from the easy. People don't pay attention to that either. Their ego, they they act like it don't exist either. There's got to be so many other forms when their ego is a lot of times bigger than the other forms they really want to be.
Building Self Discipline The Small Way
SPEAKER_01And when you allow triggers to exist without being able to, you know, identify them and control them, you empower outside sources to control what you're gonna do or or what what what how you're gonna feel. And that's that's not being able to progress or control yourself at all because it's always gonna be outside sources just like waddling all over your shit, and that's the point. That's it's not their responsibility, it's yours. So it's it's up to you to start identifying that. So I did have uh a thing for today, but I think I'm gonna change it slightly just off of the fact that it's something that I feel like we probably need to address. And it's like uh a one, uh a real small thing, right? So if you you get yourself a little smaller, it's like if you're you're trying to um build your self-discipline up. You tell yourself, well, I'm gonna drink two glasses of water a day. You know, start off small. Just make sure you drink those two glasses a day and you know, write it down. Make sure you know you did it, and then like just build from there little small things until you can tackle the big things that you've been been so trying to like. I say I'm gonna do it, but I never get around to actually doing it and sticking to it. So you start with the smalls and you just build from there. It can be real small, anything. You know what I mean? Just like, oh, I'm uh I'm gonna take cold showers in the morning, or I'm gonna make sure I I um you know I pray at night before I go to bed, or I make sure I get my clothes out at night before I get up in the morning. Any small little thing that you that can help you progress and take other stress off of you, you you do those small things and make sure you know them and continue to do them and then build upon it. And then you tackle the bigger things because it's it's it is kind of uh well, I don't want to say disheartening when you make your mind up and you get this, oh yeah, I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it. And you do it for like three days, and then something that un unpredictable that happens, and all of a sudden it throws you off your schedule, and you miss two days, and then you're thinking like, damn, I missed two days. So now you're gonna miss the third day, you're like, you know what, I'm gonna start over next Monday. So now you're missing four or five days when you know what I mean, it's because that thing was was so big that you you were never able to find a discipline within your your typical day or your typical way of dealing with shit. You just never find the discipline in order to put that time aside to actually stick to it. So when you start small, it just becomes a lot easier when you build from that point. Like when you gradually make changes, it's always easier to maintain than when you make drastic changes. Like the only time drastic changes usually stick is if they forced, right? Like if you get a situation that just like really changes everything and you force to deal with it. Like if you you become diabetic, and all of a sudden you can't eat sugar no more, you passing out. So whatever habits you had of eating sugar will definitely be changing, but you don't want to have to wait until the you know the universe tells you you gotta change. You want to be able to change it on your own, so you still have the option of doing what the fuck you want to do. But when the universe makes the change for you, you stuck. It ain't shit you could do. Then then you're gonna really be tested. Well, it ain't no test then, actually. You you have to survive, you have to live, and you're gonna go through with it. It's just that you could have done it on your own, but you were too stubborn, you know what I mean? You're too or too preoccupied or too distracted, whatever. But it's like it's on you, or you know, it's gonna be on you one way or another.
SPEAKER_03I don't care what you think. I think you're the coolest person. Because if you just say everything you just say right now, pretty damn sharp. Pretty, pretty um I want to say unseen. Yeah, because people don't know like very unseen. And I just know because I know what I'm talking about, and so you. So like wow. Um again, lost for words.
SPEAKER_05Uh my big brother. And I love the growth that you have done with being here. You think you you think you like went through phases and that was pretty cool that you said all that shit, right now?
SPEAKER_03And I I know you mean it too, so that's pretty y'all should take heed to what he just said. I'll just like that. Like, but that's but I'm in a sense, in a sense, like I always I'm always a believer. Not really, it's just like it's like all your studies that you've done, you finally can read your own book. Yeah, you know what I mean? You can flip through your own pages and know where to go to find that exact magical thing, not magical thing, things you need to go find, things you already have, things that are already placed, whatever you already have that it's and when you realize it's really in front of you, and that's all that's really taking you in the moment a lot of times, not even further than we a lot of times take it. It'd be a lot easier if you just do it in the moment.
SPEAKER_01What up, Sean?
SPEAKER_05Oh, wait.
SPEAKER_01I can't look at it.
SPEAKER_03You're over there, and I don't know. No, this is this one. Yeah, wait, huh? Yeah, yeah. Wait, what?
Rap Beef As A Business Play
SPEAKER_01Yeah, this is this. Yeah, yeah, that's what I thought. Okay, and I also want to talk about okay, so we talked about this at the beginning of last episode, but like so low key. This whole little shit that 50 did, like, literally put and one of the dudes even went up and said everybody's ass. He put Damani like Damani is raw as hell, like King I Damani co the daughter, right? No, but it was the son.
SPEAKER_03Oh, yes, this is what you showed me the other day. Yeah, like he really good. Like, he's really good.
SPEAKER_01And then that song he made about like like he wasn't saying fuck his daddy, but he basically was saying fuck his daddy.
SPEAKER_04That's the part I really heard that.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, he like fuck King, bro. Like that shit was I was like, did he just say now his daddy? 50 finally came back. Okay, but nobody was saying on this song that the one that I played, the the 50 song. Okay, oh, yes, yes. 50 came back with another song. That song, like, literally crushing shit. Like, it's not, I'm not gonna say it's like it won the battle for him, but it's like like if we was waiting on 50 to come back, and we thought he was not, he came with what we we waited on them now. Like he he smacked back now. He definitely smacked back hard too. Like, it was a very good that's the video show, right? Yeah, yeah, it was nice. It was nice. He came back like I was and the fact that he waited so long, it was like I got kind of nervous. I'm like, either he's not gonna come back at all and play the the the I'm gonna call the police rubber bullshit. Where do you find it? Can you tell the make documentaries about niggas? Um, it's on our page. Yep, go to our page on Facebook. I got it, it's right go on our page, it's linked right there.
SPEAKER_03Oh, one more thing. I was thinking when he was talking about your stories and stuff, so you can just either leave it on our platforms, like our mess our our messengers or our emails or things is where you can leave maybe like a paragraph of what you like to talk about, talk about when how it works, yeah. All that if you if you like to do that, just uh Lucifer and like either on Facebook, uh, TikTok, or YouTube. Oh, Instagram too. Gmail. You can find us everywhere pretty much now. Um just keep looking us up and we'll be up there uh on the chart. Yeah, right.
SPEAKER_01Whatever you're looking at us now, you can just go right to that page and mess with um sorry about that. No, but then um, but the the the the the the crazy part is all this started over the versus thing, right? And it's like so TI got denied a versus from 50, and then Buster got denied a versus from TI. So now the sense I like right after I want to hear about the Buster one because I like Buster. You know, yeah, everybody like motherfuckers is like doing this, like the the Red Sea is splitting, bro. It's like you got Maino, you got Fab, you got T I all these motherfuckers coming at 50, but then you got Buster Rhymes not coming at T I. Like, bro. I don't want to watch that. Man, they don't want to get bust in on this rat, bro.
SPEAKER_03If Buster get in on this battle, rattling like nobody else.
SPEAKER_01He's a legend, like he like he just that, like he a lyricist. Like he a bro, like motherfuckers you got you got celebrities that literally spit his verse word for word. They know his verse word for word.
SPEAKER_03I don't even like rap that legend I think.
SPEAKER_01And this a verse where he was an old swole motherfucker. He wasn't even little skinny dread like Buster Rams. He wrote this shit recently. Like, so you know, this is a more like and motherfuckers know this motherfucking verse word for word, bro. Okay. That uh I think uh that I gotta have it. I gotta have it with uh Which one? Look at me now. Look at me now with Chris with Chris Brown. Look at me, look at me now. Look at me now. Tell it real quick. Play it. Play it. Hey Google, could you play Buster Rhymes verse um look at me now? You gotta go.
SPEAKER_00Okay. Playing a music station based on Look At Me Now by Chris Brown. Choosing a song or album is only available with Spotify Premium.
SPEAKER_01Okay, so she just busts us out and let everybody know that we don't got Spotify Premium. So if we can start Hey, Google, stop the music. We're not doing this. Hey, so we we we know now we we got we don't got Spotify Premium. So we are gonna start a premium like GoFundMe account as soon as possible so we can get all our subscriptions up at least. Like we don't even get a free. We keep doing this shit for free. We everywhere. Yeah, yeah, we keep doing this shit for free. But I mean we at least one of my subscriptions up the pot. Like, you know what I'm saying? We doing this for the love right now because like work with. All right, we're gonna start a GoFundMe. I'm gonna put I'm gonna put my my my son cash out because my cash got fucked up. I'm gonna put my son cash out. I'm gonna I'm gonna put my son cash app up there and um we're gonna rock out like that.
SPEAKER_04You said great. Well yeah, we're gonna. Okay, so I interrupted our whole conversation, and then we went to something else. Sorry, we'll what was he talking about before?
SPEAKER_05Look at me now.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, we oh okay. We wanna talk about him. Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay, let's go. So so now Buster got in. So now shit finna get a little, a little I because you know you got a lot of old motherfuckers that became irrelevant that's now trying to throw shots at 50 while it's hot to try to become relevant and you know, like get in on the wave. You know what I'm saying? So you you can see that shit, but like that's why a lot of them gonna do that.
SPEAKER_03That's like a whole big scheme. You think they really all don't know already? Yeah, I mean, bro, think about it. It keeps coming one by one. But this is the thing, this is the thing.
SPEAKER_01If we don't get into it, if we into it, if we got real beef, I'm not gonna say shit about our beef publicly. Period. I don't want no, I don't want if something happened to you. If something happened to you on incident, I'm gonna be implicated just because we got public beef. So if that shit was real, it was really going. Yeah, if that shit was real, first of all, I'm not and a lot. All these niggas treat niggas for real for real. Right. Right. So let's be honest. Like, if I'm really gonna go at a nigga, I ain't gonna say shit about it. Because if somebody touched him, I'm being investigated from top to bottom. Like I'm being investigated from phone calls, aliases, I mean affiliation.
SPEAKER_03Right. The only people that really can do that to them, right, is their head people, correct? QQ.
SPEAKER_01Well, I'm saying that once you've made it public, right?
SPEAKER_03You can't do that, but I'm just saying nothing can be.
Puffy Patterns And Power Dynamics
SPEAKER_01I mean, but think about it. We we publicly accuse Puffy for killing Biggie and Park, and he only like walking away with the shit because he literally set it up to where it wasn't no direct affiliation to nothing that really happened before anything really came out. And by the time they got anybody, the motherfuckers that that was connected that would have connected him are like so so beyond investigating that it was just like they came up with shit yet. They they they still ain't got nothing on them on that. But I mean, nothing gets done and don't get punished, you know what I mean? So like even though he may have got with it, got away with it in the public eye.
SPEAKER_03I always say we can either walk around and heal ourselves, yeah. Possibly or you can or you can lay in a bed and figure it out on your way out. I've seen it time and time again.
SPEAKER_01The one pattern though that I notice about some puffy shit, though. The one pattern I noticed about Puffy that that can't be fabricated, right? This is something that you notice, no matter how he tried to set the story up. The one pattern I noticed in Puffy that can't be fabricated is the fact that he always gets infatuated with somebody else's bitch.
SPEAKER_03Why why do you think I'm sorry, with somebody else's girl? Why is why you think that is the case?
SPEAKER_01Some niggas just like that. Some niggas are just like that. They see somebody with you. They think every girl belongs to them, and so they see a girl and they see her with you, and you this your girl, but he getting jealous. Like, nigga, this is my wife. Fuckers, you you know what I'm saying? Like, and and some motherfuckers are just too uh some people make uh make it uncomfortable. Like, all right, you're gonna make me have to say something because I'm trying to be cool, but you pressing way too hard, bro. I'm right here. Like, some dudes it'd be like, bro, like, are you really? Like, who let you get away with this? You know what I'm saying? Like, Puffy was that dude. Like, that's why, and I think that a lot of people don't realize, like, 50 had Cassie. I don't know to what extent, but 50 introduced Cassie to Puffy from what I hear. And then we all know how that you know what take place, so that's probably another soft spot for him. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I gave this little girl to you, and you fucking did this, nigga. You know what I'm saying? Like, bro, no, no, that's shit. And then he's seeing shit, like, oh, okay, you kicking at that, okay. You wanted them. Oh, okay. You know what I'm saying? Uh-uh. No, I'm I'm in and then you try to fucking proposition me with your freaky ass. Talking about you're gonna buy me some clothes, nigga. Oh, hell no. Because yeah, he did that. He told 50, I'm gonna take you out shopping. He was like, What is that?
SPEAKER_03That's never that's never meant. That's never meant that for me. Like, somebody can tell me they say shopping, but that does not mean that. That doesn't mean if I drink, that does not mean that. That was never one you can that was I was never when you could go ahead and say, drink him up so he can he so you can take him later. Uh nope nigga gonna be sleep.
SPEAKER_01A little nigga from the hood, though, right? That's like to have Puffy say, I'm gonna take you shopping. I don't even think a nigga from the hood would take it like that. But 50 the type of nigga.
SPEAKER_03He said, we said, he said that huh?
SPEAKER_01Oh no, no, Kai ain't here. We can say nigga. No, but we can't because of that. Just be careful. Things like that. I don't believe that. Yeah, you can't say it. We can say it.
SPEAKER_03Everybody on everybody I watch on TikTok say in other words the vat. He was too black to say it.
SPEAKER_01Who uh uh okay, you don't talk about my cousin. Not for real. They feel like it's it's extra offensive when darker people say it. I don't get that either, but I think it's racist.
SPEAKER_03Well, granted, it has not popped up yet, exactly. And I've said it four times, but anyway. I said it about three. So your theory might be my theory is a we light skinned? You're light skinned? No, you're a red bow.
SPEAKER_01You're more like a red boat. I can't get into the meeting, but like you're more like a dark red bow. But I can't get into y'all meeting. I can get into I can't get into the beige meeting. Meeting. Yeah, I can get into the meeting, I can't get into the beige meeting. My lips give me a motherfucking pass on all the all the nigga meetings. I don't give a fuck what type of meeting they have, what perplexion I'm in that bitch.
SPEAKER_03He's in that group. So what you say I'm going to the house? Is that what you just said?
SPEAKER_01I told you when the race was kicked off, we already got so we that's rude. We came together, we talked about it. We got together, and when if a race will ever kick off, we're putting all the beige niggas on the island. And they they exempt from the war because we don't want to make no mistakes and be popping our own, just like because you know y'all it's too close. It's like when you know, in the heat of the moment, I can't tell one from the other. You know what I'm saying? It was like, oh, who was a yellow nigga? Like, ah fuck, you know what I'm saying? Like, god damn it, another one.
SPEAKER_03Like, just put them on an island, man. Not even a house no more. We don't even get a house, we just get an island.
SPEAKER_01No, get a whole island. What you mean? Y'all is there stuff on the island? Are you just dumb enough? All the light-skinned people, all of y'all, like, it's like heaven for y'all. Nothing but light-skinned niggas. I don't really know. So guess what? Guess what happens? You don't even have to worry about people saying light skinned shit no more. Ain't no such thing as light-skinned shit. All y'all light skinned. So ain't nobody doing no light-skinned shit because light-skinned shit is our culture. You feel me? Bam! We're gonna raise a beige, a beige nation. A beige nation, whatever. That's black and white coming together, man. Why you can't see this beauty? How you can't see the beauty in that. Like you thought we was gonna be great. White and beige coming together. Is that what you said? Oh did you think it was gonna make great nigga? No. No, it makes me. Hello. I'm a white, right, right, daddy black. Right, right, facts, facts. Yeah, so I I but I do think that the beef that they do, it's I mean, cut clearly it's fabricated, right? It's like if we get into a slap box boxing match, I could shoot you if I'm really that fucking mad at you. But the fact that I'm getting into a slap boxing match is saying this is all fucking set up for a cash grab, right? Like it's so we can get attention. Like, that's that's the beauty of it. You know what I mean? Have you seen that? That stuff? I would be fighting when I wake up. I like watching.
SPEAKER_03I mean I do I don't like watching it, but you definitely ain't gonna do that to my ass.
Why A Slap Changes Everything
SPEAKER_01Bro, when I wake up and shoot me, whoever the fuck knocked me out. I can't do that. Like that's a slap, too. So I got a story about slaps. All right, look, look, I got a story about slaps. And yeah, I'm I'm finna put some people out there. I ain't gonna lie. I might not, I might say a name, I might not, depending on how I feel when I get to that part. But look, look, I have some. All right, so I had a uh rest in peace, Dub. My my dub, one of my father's friends, but he was closer to my age than my father's age, right?
SPEAKER_03Like that's his nickname or his real name?
SPEAKER_01Dub was his nickname. His real name was Titus. Uh we was working together. I got him a job while I was working, and you know, he he would drive out there because he had a car. So we was driving back, and the way I am talking shit, you know what I mean? I'm you know, off my work, and that's what we do on at work. We at work we talk shit on the phone, like we we telemarkets. So I'm in my talking shit mode. Like you can't, that's and that's what we used to do all the time. When I was in the car with Shaq, who was the dude I used to ride with, you know what I mean? But I don't know if he was right, I can't remember what happened, but nevertheless, we riding home and I'm talking shit, bro. And I don't I didn't know what was going on in this nigga's life. He must have been mad as hell. And um he got mad as hell. He like, boy, I'm finna pull over and beat the shit out of you. I'm like, oh, you know, and I'm I'm me, so I'm thinking like I'm gonna beat this little short, I'm gonna fuck this nigga up. Like, all right, I dare, I dare him pull over, right? We pull over. Those people got some fire. We pull over. I mean he wasn't little, I'm saying little, but like he my height, really. Um like stocky as hell. Okay. But so he pull over, he pulled off the E-way. Mind you, we in like traffic jam, right? And he's driving. Not even thinking that shit out okay. I'm talking about he pull off, we he get out in the grass. I go to get out in the grass, like what the fuck you did? He slapped the shit out of me, nigga, when I tell you. So, nigga, I'm ready to fight. Like my adrenaline pump, too. So I said, He really finna pull over.
SPEAKER_06Somebody help you.
SPEAKER_01They kick you when you're down, don't they, man? I'm sorry.
SPEAKER_03You replayed it so many times over there. So it happened in my head, it replayed in my hand. I'm so sorry. Okay, my bad. I'm sorry.
SPEAKER_04Well, they kicked you when you down. So, bro. There's gonna be a clip on that. You'll understand later when I laugh.
SPEAKER_01The man, the man slapped the shit out of me, bro. All out of drumming, like I was ready to fight, all that I felt. I don't know what it is about a slap. This is this is science, and I'm gonna break this shit down to you. The man slapped me so fucking hard, bro. I didn't even know what I wanted to fight for. I was just I went from look, no lie, bro. I went from I went from about to fight this nigga to why I do, what did I do, bro? Like, I swear. Oh my god.
SPEAKER_04Okay, oh my gosh.
SPEAKER_01You have a listen, let's go, as you say. I'm ready. I'm like, you know, I I get I'm I'm what the fuck, nigga, let's get go move, nigga. Get out the motherfucking car. I'm like, what I do?
SPEAKER_06I'm in the cut.
SPEAKER_01My mom quiet as hell. I can't believe what the fuck just happened. All in my head is like, what happened? Like, why can't I get ready to fight this nigga now? Like, he slapped all the nigga out of me. Like, I ain't never, bro. I had nothing to do with that.
SPEAKER_04Cat Williams. Bro, I don't know why I saw his face.
SPEAKER_01Fast forward. Fast off and say, this is and this is real science. If I if y'all don't believe me, use this science. When y'all see somebody pumping up, before they get to say anything, slap the shit out of them before they get to tighten their neck. Because tightening their neck or put them in fight mode. You can't get them when they bow, and they that's what that's that like catching while they're talking where they head snap and watch, they whole attitude change. No bullshit. So look, fast forward. I'm in school. I was going to uh this when I was going to film college. One of these uh dudes I met from the west side, this nigga wind up going to do a fed bid on that dumb, on that Ron case that was that was uh killing motherfuckers on the west side that was big in the news at the time. He eventually, but this is why he was still in school fighting the case. So he was with me. So like he was, I'm in an art school. So it's like it's only a few people that's like me, you know what I mean, that's in that joint. And like when we see each other, we like out, what up, my name? You know what I mean? Like, we cool. And he was one of the guys, you know what I'm saying? So we we linked up, you know, even though he a vice lord, he was a vice lord and shit. I'm BD, but like when you in the art school, like it don't matter. Like, we in a game, nigga. That's all we gang game. Fuck y'all. Y'all ain't in the game, y'all don't get it. So it was just like we link. And um, he used to always be telling me, like, uh, stop playing with these niggas, like, bro. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, we keep trying to like act like trying to be with these niggas, they not like us, bro. They're gonna keep playing with you. He said, My mom used to tell me, you play with the dog long enough, it's gonna lick you in the face. And like, you don't want a dog licking you in the face. They lick they balls, they lick all that shit. No, don't. That's what he's saying. Like, you know, I'm like, man, you know, you know, that's how I am, this is how I am, right? So one day, it's so crazy how the universe worked because all these events like coincidentally coincided, lined up. I had my bus pass. This is all I had left. I had five dollars left. This is when they had the five dollar sub at Subway. Subway was right next to my art school. I went and got my five dollar sub. I had uh this was this bus pass that I had, it was finna expire in like the next 30 minutes. You know what I'm saying? I got my sandwich, I went upstairs to download my homework on my flash drive. And me and Steve were about to get ready to jump on L. And I go to somewhere to check on Steve, and then when I come back to my desk my sandwich gone. I was sitting next to Rob, too. My fault. One of the dudes that he said I'll play with.
SPEAKER_03That's your five dollar stuff.
SPEAKER_04I was hungry as hell.
SPEAKER_01So look, let me tell you though. So I it was I was sitting next to one of my guys named Rob, right? We was cool. He was one of those niggas, he said, you gotta stop playing with these niggas, they're gonna keep playing with you, and you know, take it too far. You're gonna have to check these niggas. I'm like, nah, it ain't gonna be like that. So I come back to my seat, my sandwich gum. I'm like, all right, where the fuck is my sandwich? I don't see Rob. I don't like when people touch my food. I swear to God, so look, I don't see Rob nowhere, right? So it popped in my head, ain't nobody else. Like, I don't think nobody will steal my sandwich. You know what I'm saying? Nobody knows if I bit on it or not. That nigga know I just bought that stuff. He better not have taken my motherfucking sandwich. So I'm looking at the time, I'm about to miss my motherfucking train. And if I miss the train, I'm stuck because I ain't got no more money. I just spent it on the fucking sandwich. So I'm like, ah, so I jump on the train and I'm with Steve while I'm riding on the train. And we standing up, too, to make shit even worse. We wasn't even no sitting down, wasn't no room to sit down. You have to stand up. It was all neck to neck, and he's standing right next to me, and he like, and I'm sitting there mad about my sandwich. He's like, I told your ass boy. See, fucking around with them niggas. So he's gassing me up. Right when he gassed me up, the nigga Rob called my phone and he go, if you ever want to see your sandwich again, meet me in room 207. I'm like, bro, my voice, I'm so mad. You know when I get mad, my voice goes up. I'm like, bitch, you think I'm playing with you? Why I gotta go to 207? But he he playing. He got my sandwich when he was playing. No, no, no, no. Check this out. This was so fucked up. I'm on the L on my way home on a Thursday. I done got school again to Tuesday. Oh, so I ain't gotta go back to school till Tuesday. Okay, and I'm gonna go home on a Thursday without my sandwich. It's over. So this nigga talking about if you ever want to see your sandwich again, I'm like, you think this is a game, huh? I'm like, hey bro, keep the fucking silence, eat it. You better love it. When I see you, I'm fucking you up and hung the phone up. Nigga, that was it. Nigga, I was hot the whole motherfucking weekend, mad as hell. And the sad part is instead of a long way. Instead of you thinking that it would calm down, it's like the fact that it was five days, I was even angry about the time they got to Tuesday, bro. So, man. They fucking with a five dollar sub. What wrong with it? So we get in the class, we get I get to the spool. You made it the way you wanted, and I know where his class is at. It's right down, it's right down uh from our class. So I go check in the class, make sure she says I'm there. I act like I gotta go to the bathroom. I go down the hall, see if he in his class. He and his class sitting next to two hours, too, talking. And then I sat there long enough for him to look up and see. That nigga looked up, saw me, eyes, was like, bing. He like, then he gonna smile. I ain't no smile. I ain't smiled, I just looked at him. Walked off. Went back to my class. Got up, walked back, looked at him again. Let him know I'm I'm monitoring for when you come out. I ain't gonna do shit in the class because I know they want to put my black ass out to school. I ain't stupid. They waiting for me to put myself out to school, and it's only one spot where ain't no more fucking cameras at, and that's in the bathroom and in front of the building, and I'm trying to catch you on either one of them spots. I'ma fuck you up. Oh bro, I was so mad. So look, this nigga. So I keep going back. I go back to the class the third time, the nigga gone. I immediately go to the bathroom. He's gone. He ain't in the class no more, right? Seat missing. Right? I mean, you know, he's missing out the seat. So I go to the bathroom, he ain't in there. I check every stall, nigga.
SPEAKER_03You probably start in the stalls, probably.
SPEAKER_01Bro, um it wasn't nobody in there, thank God, but I'm in every stall. Um I go upstairs, check that bathroom, check the bathroom, check the uh the uh the uh teacher's bathroom, right? So I go downstairs, the way the shit built, the way the ship built, you can sit in front of the um, if you sitting in front of the building, well, that's the only place you can smoke, across from the building, which is sitting on that gate, right? That's where everybody smokes cigarettes at, right? So when you get the way that it's a it's a glass door, and then it's the elevators. It's a glass, right? It's the elevators, a glass door, and then another glass door to the outside, right? He's outside, so he can't see past them first glass doors. So when I get off the elevator, I can see him clear as day, but he can't see me. He's sitting right there smoking a cigarette and he making sure he smoked right there in front of the door so he can see me come out, right? He's he's positioned, and I know this. I'm already peeping that he's trying to run from me. So instead of going that way, look to do that once.
SPEAKER_05That's like a that's like a damn thing.
SPEAKER_01Instead of going that way, I go out the side door. The side door let me out in the alley. On the alley, I can come out, and we downtown. So downtown got constant traffic going back and forth all the time, back and forth front in front of him. It's constant people walking, you know. So I come out the alley and I come down out the alley down the block on the sidewalk. So now I'm coming from the end of the block. About to walk right up on him from the sidewalk. He's looking straight ahead, looking for me to come out that door. Bro, I walked up, I walked up on him, man. The nigga looked like he saw a fucking ghost. Like when I got up on him, I say, Rob, and he was like this. He looked up, he was like, Huh. Bro, I just I couldn't even punch him because he's shorter than me. So I couldn't punch him. So I just slapped the shit out of him, right? And then he was like, What you hit me for? Right? So I slapped his ass again. I'm like, You still think it's a game? Police is right there, like literally or standing, not in the car. They are standing like two store two doors down from where I'm slapping him at. But because I'm slapping them, they didn't even come down yet. Like, they didn't see me punch them, and they didn't see him show no, it looked like he was playing almost, but I was slapping sparks off his ass. I'm like bullshitting, bro. So I'm I slapped him twice, and then I stopped him this one time, and he went up against the wall. And this is when I knew that shit worked. Because he went up against the wall and he like turned into the hawk on the wall, and he hit the wall real hard, like boom, and he turned around. I was like, You ain't gonna hit me no more. And I slapped his ass again. He was like, Well, I got your money, man. No, fast forward. It's not over. This is why I know this is a science. This is a science.
SPEAKER_04Fast forward. This is where we were getting it.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, fast forward, right? I tell the same story.
SPEAKER_03Don't say that word.
SPEAKER_01Well, fast forward. No, so fast forward. Fast forward. I'm telling this story. I'm telling this story to my my ex-army, my ex-army brother-in-law. Look, I'm I'm telling the story to my ex-army brother-in-law, right? And he goes on a rant about how now I'm I'm trained. Somebody slap me, I'm slapping their ass back. Well, I'm I'm giving this business, like, you know what I'm saying? Like, you know, I'm just talking crazy. I'm like, I don't know. I'm breaking the science down to him because I told him the same two stories. I didn't just tell him the story where I slapped Rob, I told him the story where I got slapped and has the science behind it. And I just realized it after slapping Rob. And he's telling me, nah, that ain't no sign. That's this is my brother-in-law, right? You slap that nigga next. Let me tell you, he's talking all this shit about your train, you're a train, he a trained military, he military trained, he ain't going. Somebody slapped him, it's military training, kicking in and all this, right? So the man, um, one day, dad, dad came to Chicago, right? He was in Chicago and he wanted me to go to church with him, and I was selling weed at the time, and I had weed in my backpack. So I didn't want to have that weed on me while I'm with dad. So I was at my mama's house. So I told, because I know Jerome was still in shit. I hate I say this name, but I said it fucking. I mean, because I know Jerome was still in shit, I made him watch it. I learned that from my mama. You wanna, if you want, you wanna keep your shit safe, get the people that steal shit to watch your shit. If something comes up missing, who you gonna blame? The person that was watching it, right? So they can't afford for nothing to come up missing because they know they're gonna be blamed. And they are the best thieves, they watch it. Our house never got broken. We lived across the street from the thieves of the neighborhood, and our house never got broken. So you tell me did it work. Plus, we ain't have shit. But uh also we didn't have shit, but you know. No, but that that's but um that makes so I gave him my bag, I gave him my bag and told him this is what pisses me off. I told him, take whatever you want and smoke it. Just let me know what you take, so I can you know balance the books. You know what I mean? Balance my money. Right. So no problem, right? Because I'm actually you hold it, so no big deal. So this way I don't have to worry about him stealing because I just told him to take what he wants, and he's the one in charge of it. So bam, problem solved, right? I get back, I look in my bag, and no, I get back and my mama bought a new TV. So she was putting the TV that she had upstairs down in his room where he was there, right? So when I go down there to move it, it was before she told him, so he didn't know. So when I go over there to move all his stuff, he got real jumpy. Hey, what you doing over here? What you doing over here? I'm like, I'm moving stuff so I can put I'm gonna bring TV down here. And I saw one of these, but it was like this with lumps in it, right? I'm like, what's this? He's like, that's man, let me see. I'm like, oh, this is some weed. I'm like, my weed. I'm like, this is my weed. Because you know I'm gonna bag my weed up, I know what it looked like. I'm like, this is my weed. He's like, hell no, I got that from a guy down the street. I'm like, how the fuck would you do that when I told you you can take out my bag? He was like, he just gave it to me. Ain't no big deal. All right, cool. So put all the stuff up. Now mind you, I had Nick bags, right? This is way back in the day because there's Nick bags, right? We had Nick bags, and it was a lot of them, right?
SPEAKER_03I don't remember how big we used to carry those.
SPEAKER_01I had those I didn't count those, but I did have other bags in there because I had bougie customers that wanted three fives and they wanted sevens and fourteens. Yes, right? So I had them in sandwich bags and just twisted up and and and like rolled up and flipped, right? And that's how I did all of them. When I go in my bag, one of my bags is twisted like this and folded down. I don't do none of my bags like that. So I opened that bag up and uh it was 11. 11 grams. That bag was 11 grams. I don't bag up 11 grams. I need to bag up a 7, 14, or 3, 5. So why am I getting 11 grams? Because this was a 14 that he took three grams out of. I peeped that. Mind you, I am taking a shit while I'm finding this out. I'm literally taking the shit on the toilet. And the way my mama's basement is, the way my mama's basement is, is the door, the door for the bathroom in the basement is right in front of the door to the room that he in with the computer. Yeah, yeah, we're in my mama's house.
SPEAKER_03The house she in right now. Yeah, the house she in right now. You're talking about down, you said downstairs?
Self Control Challenge And Closing
SPEAKER_01I'm in the basement, and I'm in the bathroom taking the shit. And he in the room right across from where I'm taking the, you know, taking the shit at. And you know, I can open the door and look right through his door and talk to him. Right. So I literally did just that. I was so pissed. I opened the door, like, hey bro, hey, bro. He like, bro. I'm like, I don't give a fuck. Hey bro, did you take some of my motherfucking shit up out of here? He like, bro. I'm like, see, I asked him, all right, you saying it again. So cool. I close the door, clean myself up, wash my hands, go in there. And me and my sister was into it. So I was trying to be cool because I'm like, right before I went in there, I said, hey, don't hit him. This is what I'm telling myself. This is when I knew, like, all right, I gotta like step away from hostile situations because sometimes I can't predict exactly what my body's gonna do, no matter what my mind is actually like focused on. So I tell myself, don't hit him, because me and my sister are already into it, and I don't want to like get into it with him, and then she all mad at me, and so I'm like trying to keep that down. So I just want to talk to the man. And he was in this computer chair, and I asked him again, and he turned around with this look in his face, like the nerve of me to ask him, but it was like something in his eye that my hands was like lie detectors. Like I it's like I I was like, bro, why are you lying? And before I could even finish that sentence, I told myself not to hit him. But I swear to God, my hands was like bow! Smack his ass.
SPEAKER_05He jumped up and was like, Why are you hitting me? I slapped him again. He was like, I got your money right here.
SPEAKER_01I'm like, why are you lying to me, bro? I was like, I was playing. I slapped his ass again, he hit the wall, then he turns around off the wall and was like, You ain't gonna slap me no more. And he ran into me like he was finna push me and literally bounced off of me, bro. I was so pissed off, I would not move. Like, I couldn't move. He literally tried to rush into me and he bounced off me, hit the wall. It was like, why you just keep hitting me, man? Bro, same dude that said if he gets slapped, he's gonna his military trying to kick in, he's gonna go nuts. So right now, I was finna hit him again. My sister walks in the room, right? She sees something happening, she sees it, right? So she looks up. As soon as she walks in the room, I walk out the room. Because I'm like, this nigga's gonna snitch on me if I sit. So I'm getting out the room, right? Hoping that thing she don't even ask. So I get out the room. She says she asked him, well, she says she asked him what happened. He said, Your brother pushed me, and I punched him in his stomach, and he got out of here. I'm like, when we finally talked about it, that's what he said. I'm like, bro, but yeah, slapping motherfuckers, bro, that is a real thing. I encourage anybody to actually put that in practice. If somebody is getting real irate and they like delirious and just like going crazy. Two to three times. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. If you slap their ass one good time, I only got slapped once. I ain't gonna lie, like I was good. Right, but you didn't have to slap me again. I went slapping. I went overboard. I went overboard. I ain't gonna lie. That's why I was going in two to three times. You don't have to do it two or three times, uh, that was me going overboard. But I because I got slapped, I got the shit slapped out of me once, and I was good. I ain't I ain't on no more trouble. I don't know why. I couldn't even fight. I wouldn't have been able to fight. I had no juice. Like, I had like you know how you rev up, like you get so mad you ready to fight. Imagine going from that to like, damn, they want to lay down, like you just want to sleep for a minute, right? Like, like, what I do, like, why are you so angry? Like, I can see as you say, it plays as a move. What are you mad about? So this week we're gonna focus cool time. They ended us, I think. Well, I guess that's it, you guys. Uh our TikTok. Damn, they must say too much. Oh, well, we just got canceled on TikTok. Facebook, we love y'all. Hey, TikTok, they ain't on us no more. We're coming back though. Hey, that was your that was yours, wasn't it? That was your that was your oh, we good, we good. We're just gonna switch it over.
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SPEAKER_01So me looking for the Lucifer in Light on TikTok. They ain't flagged that yet. So uh oh, but this week we uh we did discernment, we did being present, and this week we doing self-control. We doing we're doing self-control. We're gonna practice self-control this week. And you practice self-control, like I say, by just taking like one little thing. Like I'm I'm gonna do, I'm, I'm, I'm gonna do 10 push ups in the morning as soon as I wake up. Just start small and then build from there. But just do one thing this week. Just something small, the smallest thing you can do to get you towards what where it is you're trying to go. And that's all for today. You Sophia and Light, we out. Turn the lights. It's own baby.
