Episode 16: Accountability

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Transcript

Opening Manifesto

SPEAKER_00 0:00

In every age, someone had to hold the light in the dark room. Someone had to say the shit that everyone held their tongue on. This is Luciferian life show where nothing is off limits, no truth is too tabooed, and no lies go unchallenged.

SPEAKER_08 0:16

I need the light. Let's turn that alight on.

Respect Starts With Yourself

SPEAKER_08 0:23

What I did want to talk about was uh respect, right? So you gotta in order to respect other people, and in order to love other people, you gotta respect and love yourself. Like if you don't respect and love yourself, you find yourself treating other people in a way that you know they shouldn't be treated. Yeah, you know they shouldn't be treated, and you wouldn't accept you being treated, but because you lack a certain amount of respect for yourself or a lack of amount of respect for uh or amount amount of love for yourself, you wind up doing shit that that necessarily don't make sense. Why don't you work your headphones? I'm like one more. Let's see, it just seems funny, man. I don't feel right doing that. So I'm gonna put the microphone here and then like you can hear yourself, right? I can hear you louder for the other. Okay, yeah, yeah. That's all that memory, man. That's all I know. So what we're gonna do today is uh we're gonna talk about that.

Meeting Artist Carl Taylor

SPEAKER_08 1:16

What I did want to talk about is this is my friend Carl Taylor. These are artists, right? You know, artists. We always like people that people that do music for whatever reason, we always got we can we can see each other, and without even knowing, we do music. That either one of us do music, whatever reason we wind up finding uh a similarity and feel like we relate in a way. And and that always winds up, and then you always want to find later on that how you do music too. Like oh yeah, so it's it's uh it's a certain frequency that you gotta be on for people that's that's like that that that's moved by music. But what's your story? How did you get he's from Atlanta? How did you get down to uh to California, man? Okay, so my name Taser. Uh in Cameron.

SPEAKER_03 2:01

Oh, oh, Canada, oh I'm new to this. Okay, but no, though. Uh but yeah, I'm from Atlanta. Um, I've been there 30 years.

SPEAKER_04 2:08

I've only been down here three. And I can say, like, if I was here doing music, I see the difference in the music. Right. I see the difference in the the coast. Um, I started doing music just knowing I love music because I always wanted to listen to me. So that's what I started with, but it was really RB. It was really it was really RB. You can't give me an RB nigga type vibe, man. Tyrese wanna add none on me. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_08 2:40

No, you kind of give me that little RB nigga type vibe, man. Yeah, for real.

SPEAKER_04 2:45

You know what I'm wrong with that. So I started like writing music, but I wasn't really writing music, I was really doing poems. And they grind. And I'm like, oh no, if I say this like this and don't say the slow, that's the burns.

SPEAKER_08 3:01

Yeah, yeah. And that's all it really is, bro. So poetry and music are they like they got, you know, they're hand in hand, honestly, right? Like definitely. Poetry and music are one and the same as far as like lyrics and and and music go.

SPEAKER_01 3:15

Like okay, yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_05 3:32

Yeah, see, that's not for you.

SPEAKER_08 3:37

Yeah, so anyway, continue, continue with your story.

SPEAKER_04 3:40

Oh yeah, so um I started I started doing music kind of like a kind of around nine. Not nine. And I just was writing it. I say the iron. Yeah, I was about nine, ten. Uh-huh. Uh, because we was in Spring Point and uh Spring Point, Atlanta? Yeah, no, Spring Point. Spring Point, no, Spring Point Apartments. Decato, Georgia. In Decatur, Georgia. Yeah, in Decatur, Georgia.

First Bars And Family Fuel

SPEAKER_04 4:06

Um, but I was about about 10, and I just would write, I I would start off by writing a circle. And in that circle, I would make what I wanted to be about, which is I just say, okay, money.

SPEAKER_03 4:18

And I would branch off and say something about money, green. I branch off and say something paper, and that's how I started rapping for real.

SPEAKER_04 4:27

So you mean say I swear to God, oh, everything I know, I used to write circles.

SPEAKER_03 4:33

Like, like the um, like when you learned in school to conclude the damn, what's that shit called? Um y'all know what I'm talking about. Y'all know what I'm talking about. But it's the your main interest is in the middle, and then you branch it off and you play. It might be love, it might be heartache, it might be all that. And then I put branch that off and I put something about it.

SPEAKER_08 5:00

That's crazy. I ain't never wrote like that. So my my writing was different. My writing style was different. Uh the first time I wrote a song, uh, it actually came from uh, it came from my mother wrote my first bars. Oh my mama literally wrote my first bars as a rapper. It started off with my name is Jones Craig, they call me JC. I'm a fourth grade rapper, don't fuck with me. My mama wrote that first, and then I went from there. And then that was all I wrote the rest of that shit. But that's all. She wrote my first bars, bro. And that shit was like, from that point on, it was like, and I think it was like I saw her do it. I mean, for me, was yeah, was the uh the extra encouragement I needed. Because you know, like, you know, you you you always do it, but if is this okay for me to do it? Yeah, yeah, yeah. With trouble, I'm not gonna hide this, you know what I mean? But the fact that she stepped into it and was just like, no, I'll help you. And then like, this is what you do. I wish my mom do it, do you? Like that probably, that probably that probably would uh Yeah, it gave you a different sense of it.

SPEAKER_04 6:04

Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly.

SPEAKER_08 6:06

Knowing that somebody that's close to me walked to see me do it. But let me give you a backstory on that though. So fast forward a couple years later, my dad, my step, my daddy, he got uh his friend, him and his friend doing music, right? And my daddy was more like into the funk band, like like like uh, what was the name? Uh um uh cameo. Okay, right. Okay, cameo and shit, right? That was his group, right? So so he had a little uh that was his thing. And he had a friend that he used to do the bandwork with. And the dude that he was in the band with named Freemo, he was more of uh a hardcore street kind of guy. He wasn't really into the RB thing, he was more like a, you know what I mean? So he wanted the he wanted the box to rap. And he, you know, heard that I could rap and I'm making nice rap. So he told me he won't need to rap, but he wanted me like throw some person, make the scene, you know, blown, right? Yeah, where'd he do that for? Man, I made a pornographic song, bro. I went all the attention straining, every other word, bro. I have no idea. When he said that, bro, I took it to another level. And I I shouldn't, I shouldn't have taken it to another level. And uh ironically, I got in trouble because a teacher in class found the damn paper, and that's how I got cut. And I had to give this whole story to my mom and then say, No, they didn't make you rap it. Yeah, they didn't make me rap that shit. Yeah, they made me rap. I feel the bearish, and then and then and then the rabbit in front of him, and then he they mad at him because they like you got our son doing customers to me. Like, when he looked at me, like nigga said you all that, nigga. Like, he had to give him a give him a yard, they take them out. Man, I was getting it. I had two girls in the room. The song went crazy, and he was just like, boom. Like, I just said say damn. Well, like maybe shit. I mean one or two, but yeah, 37, huh? Man. So how long? So, how long was you like uh in Atlanta before you came? And what made you come

School Trouble And Music Politics

SPEAKER_08 8:10

here? Um, well, I was in Atlanta 30 years.

SPEAKER_04 8:13

I was born and raised in Atlanta or uh or either Decatur, Georgia. Right.

SPEAKER_05 8:19

But um I graduated in 2009 and I went to school for music uh a month later.

SPEAKER_03 8:26

I went to uh school there, um TI TI producers. Uh well, one of the TI producers.

SPEAKER_08 8:34

Um just battling 50 cents. Yeah, yeah, uh uh. Let's put it there. We we know we know him better than ever. We're gonna say that just to be like, you ready to do this? Like, come on. Anyway, um, yeah, I went to school, he went to I'm gonna take uh this two.

SPEAKER_03 8:49

And um I got my that's why I really found out that it ain't it ain't really who you know.

SPEAKER_08 8:58

I mean it ain't really what you know is who you know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's better to be like than to be than to get qualified. Yeah, yeah. If you like, honestly, like and I'll tell you if you fight, like if most of us like you, even if you're not qualified, they would try to make an excuse. I try to find a way to you feel if you if they don't like you, you you don't get out. You could be overqualified. They are gonna find an excuse not to fuck with you, period. Just because they don't like you. So like being liked is more important than being qualified when it comes out to it. That's why I say that's what they're doing with anything, though. Yeah, that's what anything. Like, so be cool with people. Like, I'm trying not to take advantage of people and and how you treat people that can't do nothing for you, really decide who you are as a person. So like if a person can't do nothing for you and you treat them like shit because they you you don't, you know, you you're not you're not dependent on them, that shows who you are as a person. I mean you're a shit. Yeah, it's like if you screaming and yelling at a motherfucker because they don't do shit for you, then like that shows who you are as a person. Like, if you scream and yell at a motherfucker that do something for you, or you scream and you scream and yell at everybody, that's just who you are. Yeah, that's just but if you only do it to the motherfuckers that that that that you feel like under you, then like you're a piece of shit. I don't even know how to say that. You're a piece of shit for doing that. That's because like at some point you gotta understand that everything is up and down, right? And you can be right there today, not tomorrow. Today, and you up now, yeah, but you're not gonna be up so yeah, but for you to do that is really just setting yourself up for the real lesson that's gonna hurt. Yeah, and that that's shit, that part. That's it.

SPEAKER_04 10:25

And I mean, and and we you got that starts with a also accountability too, though. Because maybe you didn't, maybe, maybe you don't know what you're doing. Maybe you, you know what I'm saying, you you're not up to par with the vision that everybody else sees.

SPEAKER_01 10:38

Right.

SPEAKER_03 10:39

But when you get when you get known and you get told and shown, and you're supposed to uh take accountability and either change that or get the hell away from the what people do.

SPEAKER_08 10:52

Oh you know what you just

Accountability Becomes The Week's Theme

SPEAKER_08 10:53

did. Well I didn't mean you just made the you just made the subject for the week. It was gonna be something else. But you just made it something, you just made it into that. That's what was it. The focus of this week is gonna be accountability. Okay, but I don't think I went over that. I'm hoping I don't think I did, right? No, we didn't. But account I don't think I did. Accountability. Accountability. So like making sure that you are taking responsibility or taking uh uh credit or blame for any and every decision you make. Like you have to be, if you don't hold yourself accountable for it, you'll never get better at it. And that's the main thing. And I think you have to be accountable for the things that that that that affect you in your life, whether you feel like they're your fault or not, because when you take accountability for it, what you're doing is you're you're making uh a point to not let this happen to you this way again. You're making it a lot of money. It's only a mistake, it's only a list. I mean, it's only a mistake if you don't list. Exactly. That's real, that's real. So accountability is so important. So that's what it's for today. We're gonna we're gonna remind y'all at the end, when we get close to the end of it, that accountability was the main thing. But that's so important with all the other lessons, with the discernment, with all of that, accountability is like right there. And I'm I'm almost feeling like I I may have I may be repeating a lesson because I I think I said it before. I think accountability was mentioned before, but I'm gonna go over it. I'm I'm gonna find out. But I don't think so. Either way, even if it was, do it twice. Fuck it. Yeah, I was I wasn't on the show. Yeah, and not just this. You know what I'm saying? Not just that. Why not do it twice? Accountability is that important. Well, you know what? It could be it could be a point to focus on that two times in one month. Yeah. Totally. Like it's something you gotta do. It's not something you can like really get away with not doing. Yeah, definitely, but it definitely, definitely, definitely. And so um we done jumped from Yeah, music to uh life to accountability. But back to uh your story. I'm gonna I don't want to keep it.

SPEAKER_03 12:52

Okay, so I went to the same school in RB. Uh I graduated the next year. And let me go back because in school, tele shows, Jack Queese was the only way they could be.

SPEAKER_08 13:07

Jack Quiz was the only way that could be. Yeah, real shit. Jack Queen's the truth. Jack Queens been the truth. But he was the only one that could be. So you went to school.

SPEAKER_03 13:24

I've been doing this. You have to school with Jackwood? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, definitely. Shout out to Jack Wee. Yeah, definitely. Um button's like you. Yeah, he's alone.

SPEAKER_04 13:35

They can make her best with it all. But he jumped through with that sign and glowed on a tore me over. I used to be like, God, god damn Jack Wii. What?

SPEAKER_08 13:48

Let me win what? I ain't really never been around. People famous like that. Like then armor, like, but I mean ice state with waste fancy.

SPEAKER_04 13:56

See, you know why though? Um, and I'm just gonna say, I had uh like a you know, a privilege. But they can't let nobody, if they know you in the dope, regardless, they don't try to clone that door and bone it up. They're not gonna let nobody else even try to go in that door, because you might get in and be naked. That ain't fucked up. Fucking memo. Yeah, because everybody's looking out for the but once you get a toe and up, and this for me to you.

SPEAKER_03 14:22

Once you, because I say something about me, I know, but once you get a toe, y'all never saw that movie with Patrick Swayze, the cow ghost.

SPEAKER_04 14:30

You just walk through all, you just gonna walk through the wall, you're gonna walk through the gonna go in there. Yo, you in there then once you get a toe and up, you in there, it ain't for real. So I had those type of but Jack Louise. Shout out, Jack Lee. That's the only good beat. So boom, I um I started to only be

Freestyle Flow And No-Panic Mindset

SPEAKER_04 14:50

able to, like, I never been able to freestyle. And that's where most of the stuff was. Get out of school, go freestyle.

SPEAKER_08 14:58

Home school, you freestyle. I said freestyle. So you need to know. I I ain't gonna lie, so I think so much that, and that's what my problem was when I heard. Nope, that's not your problem. Well, I heard when I when I freestyle, so what I hear from people that was, but what when I did, like, I had some successful moments. My freestyle and flip, you know, I was listening to what they were saying, and I was like, not to think. Like, don't think, stop thinking. I was thinking too much. I'm trying to think and put bars together in my head, and it's not gonna come together like that. You gotta let all that go. You gotta let your let your shit just take over on his own, on his own life and just let and just go. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_04 15:37

That's a big point of it. I'm gonna give you another point. Whatever you whatever you what whatever you say, just keep going. Just make sure you keep going. Just keep going.

SPEAKER_03 15:46

Just keep going. I don't care how retarded it sounds I don't care if it didn't rhyme that time, keep going. Because if you keep going, eventually, you're gonna be talking. It's just gonna be like talking.

SPEAKER_04 15:59

We don't think the time, I mean, you know, we don't really though. Like, yeah, yeah. You don't know what I mean, though.

SPEAKER_08 16:04

We don't really think when we talk, we just be saying shit. Yeah, and we don't really have a pre predisposed on what we're gonna say when we walk in the room. We just know how to carry a company. You see what I do you see what I said? Oh, you went that sugar. You went, oh that's the sugar.

SPEAKER_04 16:17

Cool beings. Cool beans. So it went no, I had to look at it.

SPEAKER_08 16:25

Yeah, yeah. I only know what a circle.

SPEAKER_03 16:28

Uh oh, oh, oh. The best thing you could have read was move in silence. Don't try to move. Let your success be the new.

SPEAKER_08 16:37

Exactly.

SPEAKER_04 16:37

Yo, yo, what you do? It was so for you. That's what I'm at with it. Yeah, that's me too. I used to be the line out, y'all. My baby, I used to be the one to try to knock the first floor into the third.

SPEAKER_08 16:51

This is my thing, by the way. I've always tried to be like a part of the person and try to try to make people feel good and laugh, and I'm always trying to help people as much as I can. I'm not an inherently evil person or an inherently bad person. You gotta do something technical. So when people jump in my face and get to yelling about whatever I'm doing, at that point, like they're wrong because like I know for a fact there's nothing you have to yell at me about, or nothing that I feel like I've done to warn somebody yelling, and that's gonna make it where I understand it better or even respond better. All you're doing is making it where now not only can I not hear you, but you're showing uh that you don't have any type of real composure. Uh and like people that panic, I can't fuck with them. Yeah, I can't fuck with people that panic, bro. Like what whether I'm working in a fast food restaurant or whether we'll be out here selling drugs, like no matter what, if you panic, you're gonna keep fucking shit up. You're gonna keep bringing unwanted attention, you're gonna keep being the problem in the plant. You know what I mean? And that's because every time shit get tense or shit get get pressured, you panic, and then like I have to deal with you more than I have to deal with what's actually happening. And that part is like, I can't, I can't, I can't fuck with people that panic. And panic people scream a lot, they yell about shit they that they feeling uncomfortable about, or they gotta like I don't like panicers. If you're a panicker, you might as well stay away from me because I'm gonna look at you like you're a fool. Because like Michael Jordan was great because he operated under uh composure, under the most pressure moments. That's what made him great. You know that's at first. He was he never panic. Yeah, so when you see when you see men, the ones you respect the most are the ones that are the most composed, the ones that are not shaking for a rabbit, no matter what the fuck is going on around them. I'm not gonna let you get me out of my body, like no, no, no. And that's what I'm learning that now. And like I was caught off guard.

SPEAKER_02 18:47

Ironically, I agree, my dude. It's a few with the cobalt homeboys about like Kobe and Jordan, you know? Yeah, as though Kobe would not see Jordan, and if they were on the ball the same, same uh time frame, you know what I'm saying? Yeah, Jordan's about like uh more championships, more teams, more overall, you know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_08 19:08

Like it's one thing about Michael Jordan, too. The people don't know is that he listened to Anita Baker before every game. Oh no, they asked. Anita Baker is so smooth and calm. He was always in his and no matter how fast he moved into y'all in his head, everything moving slow. And so he was always able to maintain his composure no matter how pressure the moment was, yeah, but he was able to maintain everything and look at shit in a more slow and and and bring it out, play and play with that, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 19:38

Bring it down.

SPEAKER_08 19:39

Yeah, he didn't panic or freak out, he stopped moving skidders, yeah, kept control. Yeah, that was important, yeah, bro. Yeah, appreciate it. They would say I should have it opened up by the thing, man. So what interacting with people? I hate to buy the phone, yeah. By the phone with my mom, we're gonna go by the phone, bro. I was like, we can switch it up in the scene in the place, bro. Like start something no. I will have it, like the motherfucker might run off the equipment, but like they don't know what the equipment I'm over you. Like I mean I'm not there. You definitely gonna get a fight, somebody touch my shit. I'll promise you. You saw short in Atlanta, right? She lie. You better get me, you can you finna get me in real time, boy. I swear to God, you wanna see your singers work. Then they're gonna be signed up for the wrong reason. Uh and some people die. Yeah, this uh the weather is nice too. But yeah, is is it is it this is a sign like uh in Atlanta, ain't it? No.

SPEAKER_03 20:38

No, no, no.

SPEAKER_08 20:39

Atlanta cold right now, yeah. Is it Cold Cold or like if it I mean we have real time? I'm from Chicago. So it's Atlanta Cold, so I'm not actually quick that you trained. Oh, of course it didn't. Yeah, quickness. I'm like, all right, I'm from Chicago. Is Atlanta cold? I mean, no, no, no, is it December? It was 17 degrees. Oh damn. Oh yeah. Oh, it's a Atlanta, right? And I've been in Atlanta a while in the wintertime, and it was like it was cold, but it it was one time, bro. I remember like some snow started falling, bro, and the whole Eway shut down. And I'm like, yeah, like what the fuck is that?

SPEAKER_03 21:19

It wasn't even less, it wasn't even no real snow. See, see, see, there's just like that's just like people from here. People like you ain't used to the heat by now. What type of shit is that? Yeah, yeah, no, like certain people are, you know what I'm saying? You you're that's in your environment because of your environment. You know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_08 21:38

I don't, I'm not ever gonna get used to this shit. I don't know if I'm nah, bro. It's gonna be Chicago. It ain't like it's gonna die now. It's going oh I'm gonna have to go somewhere else then, like, because I don't know if I can tolerate that motherfucker think it's already got too high for me. It ain't got so hard for the point where I'm like it's 93 degrees, but I don't even want to know the sun until like I'm I'm gonna know the moon this whole rest of these motherfucking months about uh this motherfucking yeah I'm just gonna get to know the moon because the sun ain't fucking with me at all. They say this is gonna be the highest. So they got here. Now I heard that shit two years ago, and I just wanted to come out. It's the game board, just some words. That's what I'm trying to get you out of the day. But this shit be 115, 120. I ain't all numbers like that. I thought you were talking about what time it was. I don't need no numbers like that. Like for real. Like them numbers that them numbers that you do on the dashboard. Them them numbers you hit when you're doing miles per hour. Them numbers ain't ain't numbers you get out of out of what the fuck. Nah, not no heat. You guys need to. And then I'm already black.

SPEAKER_03 22:50

I'm sorry, y'all.

SPEAKER_08 22:56

Oh bro, wait,

Heat Talk And Mobile Podcast Idea

SPEAKER_08 22:58

okay. We are we are old glide right now. This man is trying to make money. But we you know what? We just definitely finna be exciting. How y'all doing today? Uh water, white grape. This will be this finna be this finna be the slide podcast. We're gonna slide on my I swear to God. I I want to get a truck, I want to get like a mobile, a mobile podcast.

SPEAKER_05 23:20

Yes, yeah, and then and and have it what we call the slide podcast. Hey, really pull up a slide, just post up, but what's up?

SPEAKER_04 23:29

Like I pulled me doing right now, trying to help up. I need the slide. You should go ahead and help one.

SPEAKER_08 23:34

Okay, I got the street. Oh my god. I'm gonna hold the podcast down and he's gonna help this lady, man. That's the type of people we is. I I I can honestly say that without him. Like, first time I met him, it was basically like this lady now fell in her apartment, and she needed us to come help her and put her back in her chair, you know what I mean? And like he was right there. Like, no wasn't even thinking about it. He wasn't digging. So, like, I gotta honor that, you know what I'm saying? As it goes, brother. I gotta honor that. You want to come say where?

SPEAKER_07 24:08

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Podcast? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Come on in there, bro. What's it called? Uh no security of light, man. Yeah, this is what you come here.

SPEAKER_08 24:25

I'm gonna give you that's pretty cool. Yeah, oh uh uh yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, we got a new guest. We got the guests coming on right now. Yeah, come here some more, come here some more. Oh, there you go. There you go, there you go.

SPEAKER_07 24:42

Yeah, yeah. What's your name, man?

SPEAKER_08 24:47

Are you the one back at the uh yeah, I'm trying to just one up to it, and just like next door? Yeah, yeah, I'm trying to say you're higher than like uh towards the end of months. So yeah, uh yeah, the season. Yeah, yeah. Um she told me uh manager and then the lady see with the internet. She had like four things. Yeah, you know what I'm talking about? Yeah, okay, yeah. I talked to her and they were supposed to um when they told me to stay in touch and to keep coming back around towards the end of the month where they're gonna be doing a lot of hiring. But yeah, so um, it's it's that time now. I've been right now. Yeah, yeah. This this place right here, man. It's it's not real like a lot of choices to work. I didn't even I didn't even so you smoke. Oh no, go ahead. I smoked before. Okay. Yeah, and uh, how old are you? Uh 47. 47? Yeah. Sort of guy, I'm 48. Exact same age, bro. I just tell 48. So, how long you've been doing this? Is this brand new for you or what? Uh, pretty much. Uh so we've been doing this since no December. You started in December. I've been trying to do it for the last three years, and like it was always an idea in my head to do it. And like, I would always almost get started, but then realize I didn't have where I needed to get started, so it would always be by little, huh? Yeah, little by little. Okay, and then I just decided to come out here and I started doing it with my brother, and then like, you know, so like now. And you come from Chicago. Oh, okay. I'm originally from Chicago and then I went to Missouri. Uh I stopped in Missouri with my kids, and then I went from Missouri and came here. Uh, you like the heat. Uh, you know, I'm I'm in it. I I wouldn't say I like it, but it's uh what's it adjustment? I could say that just did he just go move, help her move her whole chair. I think he's yeah, he all right. So y'all gotta excuse our other co-hosts. He he literally just went and helped a lady move her chair into her apartment. That's crazy. Like, and I I like that. I like I like stuff like that because it's like, you know, like that's the most important part, helping people. Like helping people is the most important part of anything they do. And like I was saying, pay afford and and and being accountable for who you are and what's going on around you. If everybody did that, the world would definitely be a better place. It's the fact that a lot of people try to escape the accountability of their choices, or you know what I mean, things that they do, or like there's no way around that. Like even when even when you got friends that act like they're acknowledging that it's okay that you're doing that, in their head, they're like, you just you're not a victim. Like, we know you're not a victim. You're doing this to yourself. So it's like well, we don't want to trip you up or or or trigger you. Yeah, but like in their head, they're like, somehow we have to help you, but yeah, you know, I don't know how to help you without telling them the truth.

SPEAKER_01 27:39

Right.

SPEAKER_08 27:40

I think that's my problem. That's why I don't have no friends now, because I don't know how to help people without telling the truth. Like, I'm honest with myself. So if I'm honest with myself, I refuse to let you live in a lie. You know what I mean? That I see that's causing you your own problems, like literally causing your own problems by not being honest with yourself.

SPEAKER_06 27:59

Right. Um, how long have you been living? I've been there for about 18 years now.

SPEAKER_08 28:07

18 years?

unknown 28:08

Yeah.

SPEAKER_06 28:10

Oh my god, yeah.

SPEAKER_08 28:11

So you've seen so many changes.

SPEAKER_06 28:13

I see a lot. A lot of ups and downs, and a lot of uh profiles, artists, musicians, all right, athletes, oh god, retirees. Who you have? Let's see. Um Ronnie Lott was there. Ronnie Lott.

SPEAKER_05 28:34

Yeah, Ronnie Lott.

SPEAKER_06 28:35

Ronnie Lott, I believe he was uh 49ers. Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_05 28:43

All right, nice.

SPEAKER_06 28:46

Um Billy Ray Cyrus.

SPEAKER_08 28:51

Uh Billy Ray. Oh god. Yeah, that's crazy.

SPEAKER_06 28:55

Yeah.

SPEAKER_08 28:55

That's somebody I would never hope to see in a prices out there. I there's no way I would ever see Billy Ray Cyrus in the south side of Chicago. You know what I'm saying? So like that would never happen.

SPEAKER_06 29:06

Well, you run into a lot of movie stars. Movie stars here.

SPEAKER_08 29:10

Yeah.

SPEAKER_06 29:10

Yeah.

SPEAKER_08 29:11

I'm waiting. I still have to do it.

SPEAKER_06 29:12

You know, it's just you know, they're they're they're in their casual clothes, you know, they don't want to be bothered, they just don't bother them, you know. But um they they escape, they come out here to escape from the work, business, you know.

SPEAKER_08 29:30

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I can imagine. I can imagine. But they run right into the heat.

SPEAKER_06 29:34

I love the heat, man. They love it. They like it, especially

Helping A Neighbor During Recording

SPEAKER_06 29:38

there's a winter because it's it's not that cold compared to like what you said, Missouri, Chicago. Yes, oh my god. You know, and a lot of um snowbirds come from there down here.

SPEAKER_08 29:50

That's what I would do. I thought I was like, that's what I would do. Like for the summer, I would probably not want to sit, you know, the summers are yeah, yeah. But like during the winter, I definitely would come here because it's the sunshine on you. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's still kind of uh it's hot enough. It's so, and I know there's a lot of people coming. Like a lot of stars will leave there in winter, you know what I mean? Come here for the winter because like it's you know, I have to deal with the snow or in the actual. But I haven't rent them yet. I'm like, I think it's because I've been just here. Like I've been trying to get out. I've been the most I've toured around here, there's been somebody that comes to see me. She'll take me. Hold on, check this. She'll take me and we're bro.

SPEAKER_06 30:33

Oh, okay.

SPEAKER_08 30:35

But like other than that, it doesn't even okay. They did it. All right. Other than that, and not even I don't really get to go around or or see places around this. And it's like uh I don't know, it's just it's just uh I want to get you know get get more immersed into my environment and in the process. It's in the process. Almost going on six months of junior.

SPEAKER_06 31:00

How long you been doing this for?

SPEAKER_08 31:01

I've been doing this. This is episode sixteen once a week. That would be six weeks.

SPEAKER_05 31:13

That's all that's all uh sixteen episodes sixteen. Right? Four sounds yeah yeah yeah yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_06 31:32

So it's too season one, episode eight, or what is it?

SPEAKER_05 31:38

Yeah, we are when we are episode sixteen. Episode one, season eight, it'll be three months. Okay, four months, like four months.

SPEAKER_08 31:46

Yeah, we've been doing it four months here. Yep, we've been doing it here four months. We've been doing it in a partner. Now we're gonna start doing it here. Right. But yeah, we've been doing it in the partner. So I'm oh my god, I don't know why my hair just took all that time to get to get that established. It's been four months, right? Four weeks, four months, six, ten weeks, it's four months. So this would be four months officially, right here. Right. So this year, so yeah, we've been doing it four months.

SPEAKER_06 32:07

All right, well, that's pretty good.

SPEAKER_08 32:09

We got uh like it's it's so crazy. So we um we pretty much own every platform, like Bus Proud, Yattle Swan, uh, iTunes, uh Apple, Apple Podcasts, all these other different podcast channels, they have us on there be available. But like I haven't been able to like really immerse myself in the environment. Like I want to be like I want to like be a you know see what Cathedral City is like, you know what I mean? Like I would rather do that first and then branch out to the rest of California. But it's like it's it's kind of hard to I'm still trying to get that hang out. Uh you know, so it's a work of progress, it's a work of progress. But uh with this, I've been trying to basically just uh one, use it for personal therapy myself, and two, it's uh like just to uh start establishing some type of uh groundwork as to uh uh making progress as a person and and have it have it to where I'm you know doing it with the people you know I mean that that are on the same frequency level as me that want to do the same thing. So and also you know learn as much as I can from the people around me and from my environment. And it's you know, I like to soak up as much as I can. And that's that's the main problem. But man, you say so. You say you really with Cyrus, that one right there, just like that, that one. That's that's one idea. Did you get his autograph? Or is it no?

SPEAKER_06 33:39

You are like the whole profile, uh high

Working Nearby And Seeing Celebrities

SPEAKER_06 33:41

profile like that. You just you just leave them alone, you know, because they're here with the family, you don't have to wait, yeah, get away from the crowds and all that.

SPEAKER_08 33:48

So that's why they hear us in the bars and all that so you can. They probably will respect you more if they just see you acting like they're gonna be.

SPEAKER_06 33:57

Oh, but you know what? I think it's a certain part of me though.

SPEAKER_08 34:00

Like, if you a star, right? And and and you know, you're telling yourself, like, I don't want to be bothered, I don't want to be bothered, and then you go in here and nobody bothers you. You start looking around like, wait, nobody else, right? Right, like after a while, right? Because I felt like that when I went, you know, I went up with my brother to one of their gang clubs. And I'm like, man, you know, I don't want to go up in there, man. You know, people nobody's talking to me, trying to holler at me, like all these passes at me, but like, you know what I'm saying? Like, I don't know why you just envision, like everybody just blocking dicks everywhere, right? Like you're just like, no, no, no, like and then you go in there and nobody pays you no attention, and you like, like, I'm not hot, right? Like, like, okay, well, cool, that's perfect. But like, yeah, it was it's kind of like that, man. But I don't know, like I do want to be acknowledged, you know what I mean? But I know after a while, I'll probably get so sick of just constantly people always, you know, you know, wanting to say this, wanting to do that.

SPEAKER_06 35:03

Like, especially with family, you know?

SPEAKER_08 35:05

Yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_06 35:08

Right.

SPEAKER_08 35:11

Um, so you uh you say those like the only musicians you've seen acting?

SPEAKER_06 35:15

No, there were some other ones I know of a few a few artists from A C D C it wasn't the lead sinker, I know I think it was like the drama the car base. Oh gosh, I'm down with names. Who's about actors? I ran into a few actors, like I said, I don't really doubt what names.

SPEAKER_08 35:43

But you see it, you see them, yeah, you know, and but then you can't really, it's like you see them, and it's just like oh, right, right, right. You can't take a picture. You can't walk up.

SPEAKER_06 35:52

I don't because I leave them alone, you know.

SPEAKER_08 35:53

And mainly you at work when you have work, you don't want to lose your job because they, you know, because at the at the place of business, they can go complain about you know what I mean, like your employees are actually autographs. Like, yeah, they like, I gotta let you go. You shouldn't have been like, you gotta do your job. Let me go before let me get let me get the autograph. Yeah, let me still get it. Like, please, what's up? Right, right. But now they do the uh it's the Instagram, right? Or the thing now, it's all maintenance.

SPEAKER_06 36:22

Yeah, so that's uh that's the song media now, it's so that's that's how it is now.

SPEAKER_08 36:28

Yeah, yeah. I like that though. I like that it's uh it's advanced to right now where the people have more power over uh not only what they see, but you know, over what they can put out. Right. You know what I mean? Like they have more power over what they can they can produce now without having to be without having to receive approval from some board of of, you know what I mean, uh cloudy schools. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. With other companies that can put you in this position where, like, if you want to be in my magazine, you have to, you know, in order to be heard, you have to be in my magazine or be on my show. Yeah. In order to do that, you have to, you know, reach this person and then you have to go through this audition for this board. We don't have to dwell on now. You can just like if I can upload it and get enough people to pay attention to something because it's it's it stands out enough, I can get the attention I deserve without having to go through or like uh approval from other people.

SPEAKER_06 37:28

Yeah.

SPEAKER_08 37:28

Because the moving man, this man finally made it back.

SPEAKER_03 37:33

I can happen to what some of the best help is good at all. Just look at it. Some of the best help is none at all. Well, that's gonna be on the next part.

SPEAKER_08 37:50

What happened, bro? I got to know what happened. Oh, man.

SPEAKER_03 37:56

I just can't believe this. Um, well, first off, thanks.

SPEAKER_04 38:00

This is great.

SPEAKER_08 38:04

Oh, yeah. Hold on, hold on, take this, take this, I guess. Take that.

SPEAKER_07 38:09

I know that holding it.

SPEAKER_03 38:13

So he started tripping or what? Started tripping. I'm talking about tripping the f out. What? Okay, so she probably been back upstairs.

SPEAKER_05 38:23

So he came with a dotted with a black time and just push the dotted up and jump out. Y'all know I'm in a podcast. Oh, well, yeah, you know, I ain't done, y'all ain't playing.

SPEAKER_04 38:39

So then he won't so I thought he'd gonna get something. So I'm alive.

SPEAKER_05 38:42

I'm like, damn, no, bro.

SPEAKER_08 38:53

And then just came up to this.

SPEAKER_04 38:57

It wouldn't have been that, I was telling.

unknown 39:04

What happened?

SPEAKER_04 39:05

I didn't put my hand on my shoulders because I know I did. I did I did not have my head on my shoulders. So that's I'll put a neck on the left, y'all, and I apologize. I was trying to help the lady, man.

SPEAKER_08 39:22

The house on Friday. Which one? Uh a neighbor? No, the first one. First Friday. Like when you sit on the port, that that that when they're on the port, the wall behind them. That's what that wall reminded me of.

SPEAKER_06 39:35

Oh, okay, yeah. Just without the window. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_08 39:38

Without the window. Let's go to the other. That's what I'm looking at. That's what the baby feels. We do have this job. We podcast hosts. I put this on the application.

SPEAKER_03 39:56

Let me say it's stuck. Let me say it's stuck.

SPEAKER_08 39:59

Oh, put that sort of application. Two, two, uh, three months. The last podcast hosts. I put that shit on my application. Podcast hosts for the last three and a half months. How much you get paid for that? I get out of my way. Oh, my folk ain't look at me keep going.

SPEAKER_03 40:23

See, this I write. He came out the door. Cause I didn't never go to the door to see him for the dress. I just know he came back flicking. And he was not trying to help.

SPEAKER_04 40:35

And wasn't sharing the drink, at least. And I asked him, but like he didn't want to know who's on some. Now come on now. I can't do that.

SPEAKER_08 40:43

I'm helping you moving your shit then. You can't get the drink. You must think give me a hella tip then. Since I'm not finna get it. I can't get a drink. Oh. I'm doing this part of the free. I'm doing this because I like to help you.

SPEAKER_04 40:57

No, no, no. I shouldn't have been doing that. That wouldn't you be good.

SPEAKER_08 41:06

I got this. I need to come without me. Something I'm like, something goes down.

Social Media Without Gatekeepers

SPEAKER_08 41:12

People are gonna be talking to me. You're gonna be like, hey, tell you. You just want me to be able to hear you. Hey bro, you know he worked he's been working at that damn field for 18 years.

SPEAKER_07 41:30

18 years. You know how many stars you can see in that motherfucker.

SPEAKER_05 41:36

18 years, bro. That's a delicate shit.

SPEAKER_03 41:42

No I'm glad you said that right after I said we ain't got no job, because bro, I damn sure bought a five year job. I ain't gonna like 18 years. 18 years.

SPEAKER_05 41:52

That's uh you know what that's that's funny. What's funny is funny. What's funny is funny. Well, you post your good job.

SPEAKER_06 42:05

It's a stoler job.

SPEAKER_05 42:07

Yep, swear to God.

SPEAKER_06 42:08

It is, it is because uh back in the day I would smoke a lot of number ice. I would smoke a lot of weed, and I would have to like wake up, smoke, go to work, take my uh lunch drink, come over here, smoke, go back, take my break, shoot over here, smoke again. So you just stay here 18 years to you dare take you I I like that that's what's up, bro. It's right next door, so I really don't have to waste gas anywhere.

SPEAKER_08 42:38

It's crazy too because we always in our head, we always I remember that, but I always wanted that stability to be that I've been there 27 years. I know everybody came in with like I always wanted that, but I can't fuck with like this, like something normally gotta get out of here. Well, I I I'm wanted to stay, like I'm wanted to stay. I can't never like I'm not allowed to.

SPEAKER_03 42:59

Only time I can say I'd have been with 18 years is my baby mama.

unknown 43:05

Yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_04 43:06

And I can say, I mean, that did come with most people died, multiple baby mama. I do. You see what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_08 43:13

I mean we want 20 years. See?

SPEAKER_03 43:17

All they got.

SPEAKER_05 43:19

Now many children you got with that one. Wait, do you know? What are you talking about?

SPEAKER_08 43:49

Calibility Caliburity. I remember.

SPEAKER_05 44:06

What should I want? Oh no, people just want to help you. It's fire. We got a place. We gotta lie to some cordon time.

SPEAKER_08 44:42

You shouldn't have the camera following you while you were doing that. And then you could document your whole journal. Matter of fact, when I edit this, I'ma put a little cartoon when you tell the story toward what happened. So I'm gonna show a little cartoon type to show like what happened with it with the adventure of that. You know what I'm saying? I'm gonna need it. This actually fun, though. Now it's feeling good. I mean, I ain't fucking like I'm chill now. Like the sun went down, so I'm like fighting us no more. Like you feel me? Like if the sun was like, just stop the shit. This type of um heat, dry heat.

SPEAKER_03 45:23

This type of heat, you know, God ain't got no sun.

SPEAKER_01 45:26

It's four o'clock in the morning, you still know what the fuck that's supposed to feel something.

SPEAKER_04 45:40

I'm wondering when the tighter's gonna jump out. The bear is gonna start flying, kids gonna start even thinking like my supposed to feel something.

SPEAKER_05 45:52

But uh you know things are and you're gonna have an ourselves.

SPEAKER_08 46:00

This is not it's just better because you can move around.

SPEAKER_06 46:03

I think this what you do, I think I might be homeless in a minute. So this is gonna be I think you do good at the Coachella fest, man. Yes, all over here.

SPEAKER_05 46:11

Stage coach, so you say, uh get in here.

SPEAKER_06 46:15

You just fucking like what you do here, do it over there. Just pull it over. Oh, yeah, pull it up, post up. Yeah, outside the gate. Yeah, oh you ain't gonna get in a good side. Yeah.

SPEAKER_03 46:27

Oh, no, no, I think so, bro.

SPEAKER_04 46:29

I think you do, bro.

SPEAKER_03 46:31

Oh no, if I do, I'm gonna find out. Yeah, I'm gonna go.

SPEAKER_04 46:33

I mean, that's a good idea. Yeah, that was a good idea. Yeah, that's that's a damn shit. I mean, I can find that stuff. You know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_06 46:38

I found a lot of words, man. A lot of stuff. Yeah, oh yeah, bro.

SPEAKER_05 46:42

Oh, yes, yeah. Let's find out. Oh, yeah, stupid. That's what I'm home. I'm putting my outfit.

SPEAKER_08 46:50

I got way more equipment than this. I'll just go just down to kind of like see, get a feel for how to set it up because I got I got a lot more equipment and I gotta wait with like transport. I just need uh I'm basically just getting a feel for like doing something different because it's supposed to just I'm gonna have the same setup for the last 15 weeks. So now I'm just like like trying to see how this works. You see that court is one that's on them. Don't like it. Because I can't go over there because and it's more right here, right? But then it's close, but because it's so it's right there, it's a it's a hazard. Yeah, but you know what? I want to put it like I want to set it up to where like the pool is in the dinner shot. I don't know, like so they can see that

Safety Talk And Rough-Draft Wrap

SPEAKER_08 47:32

we had a pool. But right now, y'all, we literally in a swimming pool room at my FPL. But at the same time at the Cathedral Towers here on uh what's the what's the address? And they got they got apartments available to anybody anybody looking for a crib. We have the cathedral towers and what's the address? Uh 367 00 Pitfair Street. Right?

SPEAKER_06 47:51

Yeah.

SPEAKER_08 47:51

On part 370 367 00 Pickfest Street, Cathedral Towers. They got apartments available uh from like 1600 to like 2600.

SPEAKER_04 48:01

I'm gonna have to walk off for Guinea for a bit, because I gotta go get my work.

SPEAKER_03 48:05

Yeah. But Andrews, that's how pop smoke got part.

SPEAKER_08 48:16

Y'all gonna trip and fall a bunch of shit trying to pop. I'm saying go ahead and like doing good things in life.

SPEAKER_03 48:26

I mean, you just I mean you want to do it again. I forgot like you just don't do shit like that. I mean uh I forgot. Listen to chassis. This is on Instagram, chassis. This on Instagram, no, uh okay, okay. That's the one thing we have. So what's that right here? That's Facebook. That's Facebook.

SPEAKER_04 48:45

That's dangerous, and that's TikTok. That's TikTok, and that's YouTube. That's why I had walked up. I remember why I had no, we didn't say the address. No, we didn't say the address before. We just said let me just say that up there's the car.

SPEAKER_08 49:05

I threw the plug my throat because we're talking to me.

SPEAKER_03 49:09

Yeah, that yeah, yeah, yeah. That was just that was chasing one thing.

SPEAKER_04 49:15

Oh no, no, no, no, but first of all, first of all, my people that people to look at this, please look at this.

SPEAKER_03 49:29

Yeah, my people my people knew.

SPEAKER_08 49:32

I wouldn't have nobody, I ain't gonna lie. I'm from nobody. I would have told y'all what the fuck I was at your ass, and I wouldn't give a fuck. Uh please ask me somebody, not the police. Please, anybody else? I wasn't asking. I didn't think I didn't think I had to like like not tell nobody what my what my address was. Like that was never some shit. You know what I mean? I had a problem with it.

SPEAKER_06 49:53

I live behind the casino.

SPEAKER_03 49:56

I live on the third floor, right? You know, fuck it. You know, you can catch me at any time.

SPEAKER_08 50:02

Yes, sir. That's that.

SPEAKER_03 50:03

Well, uh, let me go while we can get my weapon up. Oh, I've got to go get my weapon. Wait, what? Uh a pro bo? That's what go back, then that's what I'm gonna get then. But what before I go get here? What do you mean you can't be talking to you? Um I can't have it with the light that I live. I don't think we'll be on that way that I am.

SPEAKER_04 50:28

That just will that was crazy for me not to even be down here with that's what I'm just gonna do. I mean, how are you down here with that in front of me? Jesse, really. I knew I should have stayed over there with the channel and balance. No, no, ten minutes. We got splendid time, we got spending the episode.

SPEAKER_03 50:46

You got ten minutes. This was a rough draft, y'all. This is ten minutes. A rough draft. It's ten minutes left. Ten minutes to take the light up away from me. You stop reading for ten minutes.

SPEAKER_08 50:58

I gotta get shot. Yeah, it is. I'm finna get shot, though. You're gonna need me down here to get shot.

SPEAKER_03 51:03

No, no, you know, I didn't know what the fuck I was like. You about three? No, I would never do anything like that. Now that's offense. Now, what I've gonna do is tell you what you should be doing, and if you don't bother, then that's something you bro. I can't make you do that, bro. You know what I'm saying? DJ, so you can't do it.