Luciferian Light
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Luciferian Light
Episode 17: Stop Lying
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Opening And Technical Chaos
SPEAKER_00In every age, someone had to hold the light in the dark room. Someone had to say the shit that everyone held their tongue on. This is Luciferian Light show where nothing is off limits, no truth is too taboo, and no lies go on challenge.
SPEAKER_01Let's turn the lights. Testing. Testing. Um people. We uh oh shoot, yeah. Alright, you know you need to stand it. I'm supposed to have some people there and then show up. I had to piece shit together myself. How we look I'm doing good, man. How's it going? Yeah, I know. I couldn't find no plugs out here, man. Welcome to Lucifer, Mike, where it's not about being right, it's about being real. And what's real right now is that my co- I got I got I got three options for co-host. And the only one that's promising is the one that is literally in a whole nother city. We're gonna call, I'm gonna try to call him while we on tune, but I think I just used up all my uh resources for communication right here. And it's hot as hell out here. But yeah, uh, so today, that's a lot of shit I want to address. Um, I want to say rest in peace to Grant. Anybody that follows me, that know my man's name Grant, that uh he was real, real cool. Um I just found out he passed. I saw on his Facebook page that the last time he posted was uh March 7th. So not anybody around, I wanna have a moment of silence uh for Grant. I need to hit myself, I need to hit myself. I wanna uh have a moment of silence for Grant. Yeah, that one hurt, I'm not gonna lie, that one hurt. Um one of the only people that I I was still in contact with that was checking on me as I moved around. Like even went to Missouri, came to California, and he still stayed in tune, so that was a big one. I I wanna roll up and fly up right here, but I'm not you know, I don't wanna if I do it, I'm probably gonna fly up right before I'm about to leave anyway, so I ain't really fucking shit up.
Mourning A Friend Named Grant
SPEAKER_01But um this week I wanted to talk about. I also wanna talk about uh lion and and how lion affects affected You wanted it affects anybody else. So your computers are not out like people's brains, right? Like they make computers off the mode of what a person's brain does. So when you just like on your computer, when you start running out of memory space, your computer starts to slow up, it starts to run, you know, all fucked up and towards the end, it's outgrade to where you have to literally clean your computer off. You gotta clean your computer off. Just so you can uh just so you know you can operate properly. So when you when you go through your life, this is what I truly believe. We can do research, uh anybody else willing to help me, uh reach out, we can talk about it. But I truly believe that uh when you when you uh do a lot of lying, right? And uh so every time you lie, you also, your brain is is your brain is designed to hold a lifetime of memory. One lifetime of memory. When you spend most of your life lying, you're doubling that memory space. So when you get towards the end, you wind up suffering from Alzheimer's or dementia, possibly, right? I could be wrong, but I mean, let's help me out. You can get some research, we can find out. But I truly believe that a lot of the cases that come from dementia and and Alzheimer's, Alzheimer's, uh, it comes from uh people having a lot of uh, not a lot, but uh an abundance of lies told. So not only do you have to remember what happened, but you also have to remember what you said. And then a lot of times you have to come up with something else to cover up that lot to a point where that one memory that that your brain only had enough for winds up quadrupling because of all the stuff you've added to it because of the illusions you're trying to sell to people. So ultimately, though, you wind up hurting yourself with these lies and no one else in the end. Because these people wind up crossing you in one way or another, and you lied to them for what? Because ultimately you wind up realizing towards the end that nobody was actually worth lying to. If I have to deal with this reality, then so do you. I'm not finna double my memory space to convince you of a reality that that is non-existent. Okay, we we we gonna answer a call or is this? Okay, they stopped calling, so they must see I'm online. I don't know what just happened, but they want me to check in. So I'm finna check in. It ain't happening over here because I don't have
How Lying Warps The Mind
SPEAKER_01no wife. So I also want to go in that to say this. Uh when you lie, you you uh misalign your truth and your tongue with reality. When you tell the truth consistently, right, when everything you say is is your truth is always based on this reality. What you're doing is you're aligning your conscious perception and the things that you understand and know. You're aligning everything that you speak with reality, right? So when you align your tongue with reality, when you start to speak in existence, a future existence, uh, when you start to speak of a future existence, you can actually make it manifested into reality because of your of your uh your ability to tap into the truth and to into reality. So once you do that with your present, you can speak your future in reality. So what you are doing when you lie is you're relinquishing your power for somebody who's not worth it. You're usually lying to somebody and giving up power that you can have over speaking of future that you desire into the future, you're giving that up for the sake of fooling somebody that ultimately won't even matter to you. So, there's that. Uh, I'm not getting any of this on video for two simple facts. Uh lacking a battery and a power source, and I didn't want to mess with the homeless people over there, and they seem to have the only working socket. So, I'm um I'm gonna do it here for now. Uh I would have done it over in the pool room, but I wanted to do something different and be more out and about with the people. Hopefully, somebody worked about. And you know, we get to because I do want to ask the people about some things out here, and like really get to know the natives around here. Like, what's the best way to know the land is tanks and the people that get from. But um Yeah, also I was looking up, so I saw something about uh Dysinian Dot. Anybody know anything about that? Like hit me up, but Dysanian Dot is uh I'm not gonna speak too much on it because I don't want to get flat. So I'm just gonna say, if anybody knows anything about it, hit me up. And we can talk about it on a more private line. Yeah, I'm looking into Dysanian Dot. Um also I want to talk about. I know I mentioned uh being present and also admitting that you don't know something, right? That's the most important part, is admitting that you don't know something. Um you at least get to the truth a lot faster when you admit you don't know rather than trying to make it look like you do know something. So you're basically closing off any open avenue you have of accepting or observing or absorbing any other information besides that. Uh I will say this though. Uh I do need to. I need to catch myself more. I I noticed other people. So we have a tendency to do this, and like somebody asks a question, we try to search for the answer and we'll give some what we think, our opinion. And I caught myself doing that a few times this week alone. And so I want I want you to take it, I want everybody to take, take this week and focus on these at least three times during this week. Say I don't know. It's gonna be questions that somebody asks you, and you're gonna offer an opinion, and it's it's really like irrelevant. And the best thing you could do for somebody is tell them you don't know if you don't. Because then they can search for the truth. But when you tell them you know, and you give them false information, you just prolong or postpone uh the inevitable because eventually they're gonna find out that you didn't know who we're talking about, they're gonna find out the truth, and they could have found out a lot sooner as you just admitted you didn't know. So, um I'm saying that because uh I caught myself a couple times this week, as I said. Uh offering an answer to a question I didn't have an answer for. And I caught myself. And I'm like, you know what? I don't know. There's nothing wrong with saying that. I don't know why I feel like I should know. And just because somebody assume you know, they may assume you know, and you may suppose to know, but if you don't know, just say you don't know. Like that's the best thing, that's the most honorable thing you can do as a person. Like, you don't make yourself look better by acting like you know anyway. Like that just it just doubles back down on you eventually when it all comes to a head. So if you don't know, just say that. Like I have no problem with saying I don't know now. It's so freeing to say that. Like, it feels so free for somebody to ask you a question and for you to look at it and say, I don't know. Conversation up. I don't have to, like, none of that, right? So I'm I'm I'm getting into that. Uh another thing I want to talk about was I'm probably moving through subjects real fast because I got no uh feedback right now. I can't see any of the comments or anything. I'm just uh it's so dead out here. I have no idea what it's happening. Something must
Say I Don’t Know More Often
SPEAKER_01have just happened. It's like extra dead. The water not even. So I don't know. But I also wanted to talk about uh appreciating people why they're here. Right? Like don't take for granted that everybody that's in your face and that's bugging you, that cares about you, that does quirky things, that gets on your nerves, don't take for granted that they're gonna be in the bell because they're not and you don't know when you're gonna be taking fun. And the last thing you want on your conscience is to regret the time you did spend with the people. You don't want to be left with that because it ain't no way to change that. That's just stuff that you fell out of it. And that's that's one of the worst things you can do. And you don't find that out until it's being done. And then it's like, oh, now so you're like, I mean, that's really important now because all of a sudden like I'm overwhelmed with these emotions and this feeling of lack and this loss of someone of a presence that at one point was an irritation, but now an annoyance, but now that it's gone, you you will regret because of how you treated it or how you didn't really show appreciation while it was here. So another thing I I want to state, also that's that's real important. I hate the one not getting uh not the one's not. Uh another thing I want to talk about is appreciating like when you lose somebody. Don't get so caught up into your grievance stage or into your bleed or whatever you know. Don't get so caught up in that where you forget to show appreciation to the people that's still here. Because uh people feel some kind of way, like that's one thing that I lost it. That's another thing to like that loss eliminates everybody else that's in your life. That's not a real thing, that doesn't happen. So don't lose uh lose sight like that. You know what? I'm I'm gonna I'm finna fix this court. I just realize what I can do. I got you. Hold on, I'm gonna get it. Yeah, there we go. And I got this. I'm funny. So I came to the same conclusion I came to last time, and it had nothing to do with the auxiliary court. Um the iPhone doesn't have an auxiliary. Why is that? That's so weird. Alright, but whatever. Uh I guess I should have switched it. But I did put my biggest. But um, yeah, this one's gonna be kind of swift. Um I was gonna tune in to a call, but I'm not able to call anybody because I'm limited to uh three devices, and one of them requires Wi-Fi, and I'm not in the house. So I'm probably gonna do this indoors at the crib next time or at the pool room so I can have access to uh things that uh uh Wi-Fi, electricity. I can get nothing done down here. Uh I could give electricity, but it's over there. Right now, the electricity ain't as important as the Wi-Fi. Um the uh the guests or uh I don't know, the other people.
SPEAKER_04What are you setting up for?
SPEAKER_01Hey, how you doing? Podcast? Huh? Podcast? I want to invite her.
SPEAKER_04What you setting up for?
SPEAKER_01She's skimmy. Huh?
SPEAKER_04What you setting up for?
SPEAKER_01Oh, I'm doing a podcast. I'm just doing it in somewhat different, because I'm tired of doing it inside. Where ain't nobody at. But um, I'm gonna roll up because uh That's what we used to do. Hey, he used to come over,
Grief Without Neglecting The Living
SPEAKER_01man, and uh, it's so crazy. So, Grant, I'm gonna talk about Grant today. Uh uh, I just so I was the last I looked at his post and I found out he was somebody stabbed him. They just confessed that they stabbed him, and he had a bad liver and a bad kidney from doing a lot of drinking. A lot of drink. So that's one thing I don't give. So I'm not, I don't drink like I don't drink weed, but um, I smoke a lot. I don't know nobody dying lung cancer right now from smoking weed, so I'm not scared, but uh I will say that uh he lived his life, man, and he was one of the uh he he was one of the people that remind you of little things that you do in life can go a long way. And uh I was uh at my I used to go to the studio in Chicago on 11, right across from Morgan Park, my friend Kevin House. And uh he lived in that building with Kevin. He lived downstairs. Him and this other dude named Slick, who just so happened to be related to this dude that was the baby father of uh a person that used to rap in a group with uh named Reber and went to school with him. Like a real life, real life, you know, longtime friend. But anyway, so Grant lived in a uh, he lived in a building with Kevin when he was uh he was a younger man, like he was a shorty, he wasn't even, I think he was maybe like 15, 16 years old when I met him. And uh, that's crazy. And gone all day. He was like 15, 16, a little youngin', man. And um, he had a little faux track. And uh he was the big beats on his little keyboard, little casio asymmetrically uh, you know. You know, it was psychodrummerist, you know what I mean? It was kind of like not not the uh I wouldn't say the style of rap was psychodrama. It was more like the uh no the quality of his mixes, right? The quality of sound. It was like psycho drama, right? Psychodrumma was on the radio. That's what I knew. So, you know, when I seen him doing it, I used to tell him, like, nah, keep at it, bro. Like I can hear. You know what I mean? And like you will learn a lot more doing all this yourself than, you know what I mean, than just constantly being in the studio with Kevin, letting them do all of that. Because they basically doing all the work, but all you're doing is rapping. So doing this, it'll have you more well around it, and you know, you'll learn a lot more doing it this way. Like, he stuck with it, and he was in the studio, he had songs, he was doing all type shit. He did a lot. And, you know, the short time span he had. Right on. I hadn't seen him for a while. Like I left town and came back, and you know, he just so happened to uh he just so happened to touch down back down with me. Yeah, I think it was through Kevin. And uh when I got my own house, my own apartment out there in Chicago, he would come by a lot. And you know, come in the studio. We I you know I recorded songs for him, recorded songs with him. Uh he actually did a couple hooks with me on the hook. Uh yeah, he was, you know, he's just reminded me that like the little shit go a long way. He was trying to do that. Everybody that came down there and listened to him, you know, as his songs gonna focus. That was a reason why he was doing what he was doing then. I'm just gonna take that. Might not be a good thing now that I think about it. But uh, yeah, he was just saying, like, you know, I would I would tell him, I gotta keep that shit up for a lot. You're gonna get somewhere with that a lot further than what anybody else talking about. Well, he said everybody else has come down there and clown him out and shit, it was terrible and all this. But I don't know, I just always try to see the good and shit. And the truth is, it's neither one and both always. You know what I mean? Like, it's never all good and it's never all bad. And it's always both of them. Okay. It's always a balance of it. Now that's the main goal we want in life is to try to keep a balance, right? We don't want too much of nothing. Too much of anything is definitely like too much of anything is bad. Uh I feel some kind of way about this episode because I know for a fact I am not getting the video from the camera. So my video is gonna be compromised. But the show must go on. I don't even know how I can. Oh, you know what? I think I can download it. Alright, I know. I think I'm gonna have to be. But the audio is gonna have to be. Well, I'm glad I'm getting separate so I can see. Yeah, you know what? I do this. I'm doing it. Ain't nobody stopping me. I know how to do it. So yeah, we'll be like, Well, yeah, like I'm in a different land. I'm a different man. Trying to get what I can. And I don't know, from Chicago. Remember, my name was stuck in Chicago. I wasn't supposed to leave Chicago. I think that name was holding me back more than anything. Also, probation. You know, you on papers, you ain't supposed to leave the state, so I couldn't leave the state. Legal. But nevertheless. I went from Chicago, Chicago Heights, Missouri. Back to Chicago to California. And I ain't going back. I'm I'm I'm just out here, let's do it down now. And I feel like that because like everybody back home just dying, like switching up on like either going bad or they just like outright. That part. They can get that like like RIP Reggie, man. I mean, I gotta I gotta say that R.I.P. Reggie, R.I.P. Rachel. I I don't I lost Rachel Bash. Like that's the place. I lost Reggie too. So those are two people, I mean that we get the morning or like property brief or man. That's kind of sitting on my tooth, like a top uh losing my. I know y'all know the story, right? A lot of people that was functional. Like most of the people that was told that. I'd be here right now and you named all the other people that I would lose, I'd actually who the fuck who who the fuck do I know then? Like who am I with then? Like, I don't know nobody. I don't, I don't know, I I didn't know none of these people then, so I wouldn't have known like how I would be maintaining at all without those people in my life. So for me to not have any of the people that people know to be in my life, to not be in my life at all. Like at all. Not in my life at all. Like that's the way that's the way that I'm gonna do it. So that's a culture shock, man. That's that's hard to do. I didn't know easy shit. It ain't impossible. It ain't impossible. Nothing's impossible, but I can promise you this. What don't kill you make you stronger. And like when you come out of it, you realize that. And it's not till you come out of it that you even appreciate it, really. Like for the most part, you just, you know, trying to make it to the next day. Me, I always set myself with these hard to reach goals. I like to keep myself, like challenging myself. I like to like give myself time to look forward to. And I think that's what's kept me safe and kept me alive. I try to, right? Like so I see a movie that's coming out, that Marvel doing it. Like, and it ain't coming out to July. I gotta make it to July. I gotta make it to July, and when I get to July, I gotta have some money spent to go see this movie. And like, when I put that in my head, I mean, just everything in the back, and just keep moving, just it just works for me. And when by the time I get there, I'll be alright. And that happens every time. But I just give my stuff low. Uh check points, right? So to speak. For lack of a better term. I give myself checkpoints like that, so I can, you know, just. I probably need to give you shit myself anyway. I don't need to talk to nobody. People just interacting with me and talking about. A lot of times they don't need to say shit. Like, I be trying. And I'll be trying to like get them to the interesting part, but like I've been through so much that it takes real substance to kind of like reel me in. If it ain't got no real substance,
Life Reflects What’s Inside You
SPEAKER_01I kinda lose, I just lose interest real easy. But life life is a reflection of what's on the inside of you. Your life experiences are reflections of what's on the inside of you. So whenever you need to change your external circumstances or an external situation or a person, like always remember you're gonna frustrate yourself by trying to change it externally. The only way you can change is to change yourself on the inside. You can either change the way you look at it, or you can change the way you you deal with it, or you can change what it is about the situation that's irritating you, that's inside of you, change that part in you, and then let the vibration go out there. And it used to come back around and show you that you're on the right path. I keep getting signs that I'm on the right path, but then I get signs like this to let me know like don't lose sight of appreciating people that's that's good, like you know. And like every time I lose somebody, I I I buckle down like that instead of like earlier, I did it the wrong way, right? I I lose somebody and then I get so boggled down with grieving and and and feeling that loss that I I lose sight of how I'm treating the people that's still here. I lose sight of how I'm treating the people that's right next to me. I mean like man, I I I I put so much grief and time into that loss that it makes them feel insignificant. Like if I'm not enough for you to be content with life, then why why am I here? You know what I mean? Like, so we gotta treat sight of that. No matter who you lose, don't lose sight of the people that's here that can feel insignificant because it's so boggled down with grief and loss. Like you don't want to get so caught up into loss that we lose sight of like I say, we're still here. Like I'm I'm trying, nobody's trying to. People that's still here, they just I don't even want to say don't know how to act. Maybe it's me, maybe it's my perception, but I feel like I'm the only one trying. I be like when I feel like I'm the only one trying to make the relationship trying to make the relationship right, that's just gonna be done. I'm not no, I'm not gonna be the only one. Like there is no relationship. If I'm the only one doing things to compromise my character, to make or compromise like who I am and how I move to accommodate whatever relationship that's just formed, whether it be platonic, intimate, or whatever, like if I'm the only one that's doing that, then there is no relationship. That's an illusion. And I need to back out. All I need to do is stop. I don't have to do anything special. I don't have to like tell nobody nothing. I don't have to stop. I don't have to do a stop doing what I'm doing and then go. And I learn anything. That's basically where I'm at now. Like if there's a situation where uh it's a relationship or it's uh something that's, you know what I mean? Like I feel like I'm I'm giving too much and it's not being appreciated or reciprocated, uh I fall back. I just stop. And then, you know, they catch on, but then at that point, they realize they've been exposed. Like, yeah, yeah, you're not gonna keep draining. So that's deal. But I do have good news. I did figure out something with the camera to where the next podcasts after these are gonna be a lot easier for me and a lot more fluid. And I do got a lot more shit I wanna go over and get into uh talking about. Uh I'm finna get a 3D printer, so we're gonna have a lot of fun on this podcast because I'm finna be doing some crazy shit. But my goal, I'm gonna let y'all know right now, and I'm gonna try to walk with me through this. My goal is ultimately to make a Jones clone with a 3D printer. I know. I know. And a smartphone. It's gonna, I'm I'm gonna I'm gonna do it. I'ma do it. You can't tell me nothing about it. I wish people could call in. There's no way I can like, like, yeah, call up, I can talk to you like that. Anybody knows how they how they can set that up or how I can set that up or get any ideas, call me right now. My phone is not ringing. I wonder if it's not a good I don't hear you. Low key. I got all this equipment, so I think the people I want the wheelchair. I probably think it's the people I'm wanting the wheelchair. And now they blame them. In the parking you smell weed and it's legal now, that don't mean it just the nigga smell. But it probably is I think that's the first time I laughed all day.
Why Sharing Struggles Saves People
SPEAKER_01That's right when I get news like that. You know what's funny though? So in the beginning, middle of March, I was feeling some type of way. Like I would wake up and just ultimately just feel torn, like emotional like. And I didn't know why. And now I'm realizing I probably was. That's probably what it was. Like he was going through it. Like he got stabbed. Somebody stabbed him. And he couldn't get a kid in your liver and like I I don't know what happened. His name's out. I I know when people gone, it's nothing you can do to get them done. So I let that face fix it, folks. Like to let them pass peacefully. Try not to put put no. Because they don't want vengeance. Like, you we might in this form, in this mentality, in this reality, in this 3D, you know, dimension, we want revenge, we want blood for you know for shit that's done, but I don't believe that none of those, none of those, uh, none of those physical tendencies that we get, those mental tendencies we get actually carry over into the city. Oh, they cut on.
SPEAKER_04I'm glad I didn't. No.
SPEAKER_01I don't know if they're gonna cut this water on. They cut that wild on. This water's gonna come up behind me. That's gonna be cold if it does. It might not. I got the scarf on my head because it was cold as shit. I mean it was hot as shit, and I kept sweating. And that shit was falling on my face and it just wasn't looking right. And now, with all this shit on my head, I need to take all this shit out. That was good. It's hot. I mean, it ain't hot now, it's good. This is the perfect time to do the podcast, though. If I had my light hooked up, I'd have my light hooked up if I had one power source because I gotta have a court, so that's what we're gonna work on next. I'm gonna get a cord. That's all I need. Court. We got a table, everything. Supposed to be calling D block, but like I'm using all my phones and I can't call them on the tablet. That's fucked up. I wonder if he can call in and chime in on the on the one of the uh the lives. Probably not though. I gotta can y'all hear that shit. Oh no. I ain't never played with that shit. I'm a rapper, bro. I don't like this podcast talking shit, and it's natural, but you know, I didn't know you can do it. And just be doing it. And you gotta be talking about shit. Like just talking about life and the shit you go through. That's another thing. You'd be amazed at how much shit you go through on a daily basis that when you finally express what you're going through, how many other people are going through similar shit or or the same exact shit. And they could use that that extra perspective of you going through it and telling them how, you know, how you see it and how you feel about it. Like that, that goes a long way. People sometimes that can literally save a person. That has literally saved people. Like, no bullshit. That has saved people's whole existence, just hearing that somebody else is going through what they're going through. Even not having a solution sometimes. Like, I don't, we don't have to have a solution for everything for uh for us to uh accept it and get through it. Some shit is just there's no solution for it. Some shit you just have to accept and move on. Um, you know, everything ain't to be solved, you know what I mean? Some shit just to be accepted. But hearing somebody else going through it and accepting it and getting past it or moving through it, like at the same time you going through it, that goes a long way. That helps tremendously because people don't feel alone. Feeling alone is where a lot of people like get lost and you know want to change, take yourself out or hurt themselves, you know, just do crazy shit for lack of a better term. And that comes from feeling alone or like being not heard, but like nobody really gives it for the worst thing in the life for everybody to accept it's nothing. Nobody wants to be nobody, nobody wants to. So when you when you let people know that uh that you hear them and you see them, like that's the world, and that can that can be everything. Make you uh uh a needy person because uh how you guys doing? It doesn't make you a needy person to have to hear somebody else go through what you're going through and for that alone to help without any real advice, right? You don't necessarily have to have advice for the problem. Sometimes people just want to be hungry. Sometimes people just want to know that somebody hear what I'm going through and make them understand what I'm doing. I don't need a solution. I just need somebody to understand what I'm doing. So you know. Let them win. You don't have to have a comment, you don't have to give, I don't have to say something back. I don't have to have advice. I learned that like sometimes I I hate, I'm that person that you can't come to me and be telling me my fucking problems. You can't keep telling me your problems and not and not expect me to have a solution or be sitting there wrecking my brain and come up with one. I'm not the type of person that just settled for whatever I'm giving. Like I'm gonna try to make the best out of it. So when I'm around people, I feel obligated to help them see through a problem that they bringing to me. Like, sometimes though, I've learned that they're not necessarily bringing you that problem. So you can solve it. They're bringing you that problem just because they want to be here. Just because they want somebody in it. And it's using your discernment to help you determine which situation is which. So they never wanted to tell them the solution to the problem because they know the solution to it. They have a solution to the problem. And they just know the solution by the problem though. They don't want to do those things. So now they're stuck in this situation where I don't, in order to I have to do something I don't want to do, because of the problem, it's the only way to solve me this problem. So sometimes it's just like this, but I don't have to have a, you know, uh a story that matches your story. I don't have to, that's another thing you have to catch yourself doing. But in order to relate to people, a lot of times, we catch ourselves telling them a similar story, and it almost seemed like I'm trying to top your story. Like, and all I'm really trying to express is that I understand what you're going through. But in order for me to express, because they so full of shit most of the time when they speak, they so full of shit that in order to express that I'm really feeling you, they try to they give you a story that relates so you can see that they went through a similar experience. But what wind up what winds up happening is you see that as a challenge, like I'm trying to tell you what I went through, and I feel like you're trying to tell me you added verse, or like you've been like, I don't, you know, and I I have to catch myself with, and don't get too caught up into expressing that you went through what they went through, that you lose sight of like you're not hearing them and what they really went through, because like you've taken over again and you've made it about yourself. So, like that part. I've I've caught myself doing, I've caught myself doing it a lot. I defect myself because I hear, I hear a story, and then it sparks a memory, and then I want to dive out into that memory, but in the process of me diving out into that memory, I'm losing sight of what the person is telling me. You know what I mean? Like I've done right so far into my experience that relates to the experience they expressed in me that we're not even talking about, I'm not even allowing him to express uh the experience that he actually had. You know what I mean? So that part is what we have to be conscious of when we interact with people and you know talking to people and deal with it back and forth. Because I try to stay aware that that uh I try to stay aware of giving them that time and space to express that. So, you know, they don't. Because I be feeling that, and the reason why I catch myself doing it is because I've gotten irritated with people doing it to me, and then I've caught myself doing the exact same thing to someone else. And so then it's like, okay, alright, I'll see what's happening. Alright, alright. I I hear the universe. That's how the universe speaks. Right? They'll show you something that irritates you, let somebody do it. Then they'll make sure that they ring your spidey senses when you're doing the exact same thing to someone else. So you automatically speak. So you know. Well, oh, okay. Alright. So I'm basically dealing with myself. Okay. And that's this is the realm of reflection. So nine times out of ten, everybody that you cross paths with, everybody that you come in contact with, that you have uh interactions with, like on a regular basis, now when it becomes to a point where you're you have a conflict with this person, or you get into it with this person, the best way to solve that issue is to first realize that that person is reflecting you. Their reflection of you. Somehow, y'all made decisions and cross similar paths, which is why y'all in each other's face, or why y'all in each other's presence. And understand that first. The second thing you have to understand is that whatever it is inside of them that you're conflicting with, that you have a problem with, nine times out of ten, that thing that you have a problem with in that person is something that's in you and it's being exaggerated externally so you can deal with it. The universe has provided you a situation for you to see yourself in an exaggerated manner so you can come up with a solution, first realize it, recognize that it's a problem, and then come up with a solution for it, and then they show you how what you just did for them is what you need to do for yourself. And that's really how you solve the
History And Manufactured Narratives
SPEAKER_01problem. Every other way? Just frustrating. Because you can't force a person to you can't force a person to do anything. I mean, like, even with slavery, like like you can I can just make you kill me. You can't force me to do this work. Like, at some point, there had to be some type of agreement or some type of trade-off where I mean we can say slavery, but ultimately, like I can, if it was any other race, they would have to kill him. So why was it that we said for them? Right? Think about that. I don't think the slavery was as big as they try to make it sound, because why would we say, like, any other race of people, literally, like they have so much pride that before I work for you for free and let you rape my wife and do all these things to me, you have to kill me. Why was we so accepting that when I see the people around here, you would have to kill them to do it to the black people I see. So I don't quite buy the narrative that the the the this the way slavery existed, if it existed in that map, I don't believe that. Like it just don't match up with the reality I see in my face. Maybe I could be wrong, but like from what I've assessed, from what I know, if these the same genes that was in the people then, that's in the people now, if they just like the Johnson, the Jefferson, the Greens, the Browns, the Craigs, Scrooge's, the Dead Pears, the Regners, the Wilsons, like all of those American last names that's on black people, like I don't believe none of those people reflect a gene that shows recessiveness or submissive. Like they nothing about those names that I just named in this American culture says anything about being passive. Like, not at all. I doubt that those people would just be like, nah. We didn't go like that at all. But they make it sound like that because it creates a mental superiority, right? So at some point when we analyze this and we go like, how was we doing this and not like standing up for ourselves? And if we did that then, then we can only do so much now that's further than that to kind of like advance on stuff and take it a little bit of a time. Like, that's what they want you. That's bullshit. When they came over here, be real. When they came over here, we were already here. That's just what I've assessed from everything I've read, from everything I've assessed from reality, the things that I've researched and written. We were already here, and they want us to believe that all the Mexican-looking Indians were the Indians. First of all, let's stop calling them Indians because we're not in India. None of us are from India. And yet, because he thought he was he was supposed to be going to India, he started calling them Indians, and to this day, we just carry the tradition on by being disrespectful and condescending by calling the natives of this land Indians or Native Americans, considering they didn't call this American. We don't know what we called it. I know one thing, they started the census to spike us and to start a system built around us, not cooperating with them. That's the reason for the census. Like it was so uh they can say that they're the my the majority and we're the minority. Right? Like how? How? Everywhere I go is always big niggas. Even when I'm in a place where it's all white people, I'm the nigga. So it don't even matter. It's always everywhere. So that's uh that's another illusion that they try to sell. So they can build up to that point to get us an idea. But they have to do a large strategic shit on all different fronts to kind of like like even out the numbers, right? The STDs were built for that. The the gang violence, the poverty, the the media outputs, all of those things are designed to even out the the minority in my majority uh uh population of this country. They want us to believe we're the minority so we don't take our shit back. Think about that. If you think it's less of y'all than it is of me, and I'm in your shit, you're gonna let me do what I gotta do. Right? But if you know that y'all outnumber us and we're in your shit, trying to run your shit and tell you what to do, you probably just gonna kick us out. Like, you can fuck about it, right? So they don't want us to know this, which is why technology is backfiring, which is why they have such a strangold on the media and technology, right? So they give us uh CDs, right? Remember that. Remember when they gave us CDs? And all the right before they gave us CDs, they came out with the dual cassette so you can dub all your tapes now, right? But you weren't able to do that before. You had to do it some other way where you would use quality just wasn't it. So they did make the dub, but you can do it from one phone to another where you don't really use that much quality. They did this right before they knew they were gonna change the medium and introduce CDs. Then they gave us CDs, and they gave us TVDs. So now we all using these discs. But we can't make, we didn't nobody had a disc burner. We all just had this, and we had to get our disc. So they control that whole media outlet. So we should have known, I should have seen the pattern coming that when they finally allowed us. When they finally allowed us to uh when they finally allowed us to have DVD and CD burning, they was free to shit. Right. So they gave us C D and DVD burnings right before they switched over to all digital. There's no more speed, there's no more mediums to even hold the shit up, right? And they still doing the same shit. So now that they've finally letting us see AI and what AI can do, how much of this AI shit they've been using on us up until this point because they obviously be having
Media Control And The AI Rabbit Hole
SPEAKER_01the technology way before they give us access to it. They have the technology way before they ever give us access to it. And now here we are with AI, and we see that they can literally make a video of me doing some shit I ain't never did in my life, and and put me in a place I ain't never been before. So if they can do that and they finally giving us access to that technology, how long they had this shit? How much shit they even fucked over our head with? Like that's that that's so deep of a rabbit hole. I just have to pay my bill and just go to work tomorrow. Like just thinking about how many different twists and turns that story can take. It's overwhelming and just frustrating thinking about it. So, like, I get it. I like it. I was looking at this video the other day where they were saying, like, uh show uh this dude talking to his girl, trying to tell her that we live on a flat earth and how we surrounded by ice, you know, whatever, right? And she was like, Why do I give a fuck? Why do I give a fuck about whether the earth is flat, whether this motherfucker around, I still gotta go to work tomorrow and pay my bitch ass bills. So what the fuck do it matter? And like I thought about that and I'm like, I'm telling you, like, that's the that's they core point. They put so much shit in front of you for you to do that the shit that actually matters don't even matter. Like, we can't even we can't even like wrap our brain around trying to figure out whether the earth is flat or not, because we still gotta do other shit to pay our bills and live. Like, I still gotta like carry on my daily routine of putting, you know, of going to work, of paying my bills, or tending to my kids, like uh making sure, you know, I'm nobody breaking in my crib. Like, there's so much shit on the daily basis that we preoccupied with just life alone, that they don't give us an opportunity to really think about the shit that matters. And I ain't forgotten you, I'm sitting there money. I decided all the time. And I still ain't got my camera going, but I'm hoping I'm gonna take the Facebook and line it up with the audio that I'm getting from this audio here. And I hope it's still recording, because that definitely no. Oh shit. Okay, yeah, you record. It's still recorded. I didn't start with it. I did. I gotta start with it.
SPEAKER_04I know that.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, okay. It wasn't wild. That's trippy. So I got all these different devices and
A Local’s Take On Discernment
SPEAKER_01I'm trying to make all of this shit work, but like that's a work in progress, y'all. I'm gonna get it together. I just need more like-minded people around me. I'm trying to force like squares into these round holes and it don't fit. How you doing? Hey, how you how long you been living over here?
SPEAKER_02I can't see.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, of course. How long you been living over here?
SPEAKER_03Um about 20 years.
SPEAKER_0120 years?
SPEAKER_03Yeah.
SPEAKER_01Alright, so what is it about this place? What tell me something about this place that you stay at that nobody knows that you would definitely tell tell me to experience about it?
SPEAKER_03Hiking.
SPEAKER_01Hiking.
SPEAKER_03Oh.
SPEAKER_01I'm supposed to hiking. I drove up here and I freaked out. I just drove up the hill and I was freaking out like what was something activity or a place or something. Hiking would be good though. But I mean, something that that's not as obvious, like something that nobody else would know.
SPEAKER_03Um, the Indian um on Murray Canyon in Home Springs is the Indian tribe. The Indian reservation there.
SPEAKER_01Where is this?
SPEAKER_03It's on Murray Canyon.
SPEAKER_01Murray Canyon?
SPEAKER_03It's really nice. You give it the memories to the two pieces and it's Murray Canyon.
SPEAKER_01That's on tape. So I'm gonna go ahead and revisit this.
SPEAKER_03And then there's this beautiful, uh beautiful land sites to get up the nearest bar calls. And I show you the internet and like Indians heritage and stuff like that.
SPEAKER_01Oh, so you got like a lot of historical stuff and different. Oh, and you say, where is it? Uh, it's in Palm Springs. It's in Palm Springs on Murray Canyon. I'm gonna go visit it. I'm gonna go visit it next week. Yes. And I'm gonna take it all in.
SPEAKER_03I'm gonna look at the guests, which is really well. If they have teeth, you can spend the night in the teeth and red one. And then you can have uh you can have uh um giraffes and stuff come up to your tent. Giraffes? The giraffes with animals that run around like you have they come up to your giraffes or giraffes.
SPEAKER_01Oh I'll definitely have it.
SPEAKER_03With it a bonfire. So clear.
SPEAKER_01I've been here since November. I have been none of them. My brother has taken me to a sleeping restaurant and to a game call. That's my spot, we've been jumping. I mean, you know, I guess um, nothing there for me. Like what I'm gonna do right there. I definitely know. I'm not nothing there for me. Trust me, I'm not sitting in.
SPEAKER_03So you know what else is really funny? It's a parker. It's called the parking lot. It's a resort and it's really beautiful, and it's got the sport talking about the healthy uh little low windows. Oh, oh yeah? Beautiful spot there.
SPEAKER_01Oh, yeah, okay, yeah. We're gonna we I'm taking all we visiting all of that.
SPEAKER_03Yeah. So what do you say? What is this your uh podcast?
SPEAKER_01So it's probably this the period in life, where like we just like talk about like real life issues, like using your discernment on not blaming other people for the things that's happening to you in real life, like taking responsibility and accountability for yourself and like like being able to recognize where you went wrong so you don't make that same mistake again. Like discernment, discern yeah, yeah, discernment, being present, uh accountability.
SPEAKER_03Accountability and be careful what you eat and and around in this town because it's anywhere you go, actually. I think awareness, right? Like awareness and discernment.
SPEAKER_01I wasn't aware there was this many witches in real life. Like that's for real witches. That's a real thing. Like that's something that we always looked at, like it was movies, like which I understand this. Just like the energy that goes to your phone that you don't see, like it's a lot of energies around you that's existing that people can manipulate that you don't see. And phone is just one of them that we recognize and and respect because we acknowledge his physical capabilities, but there's so many others that's going around that we ignore that's happening to you.
SPEAKER_02Yeah.
SPEAKER_01And you don't even realize.
SPEAKER_02Right? Narcissism.
Narcissism Gossip And Boundaries
SPEAKER_01Oh, yes. You know what? Narcissism is like a cancer.
SPEAKER_02It's a witchcraft.
SPEAKER_01It's like a cancer to me.
SPEAKER_02It's very toxic.
SPEAKER_01And I say that because, all right, think about this. If you're in a house full of narcissists, right? Everybody's just all concerned about themselves. How are you gonna survive without becoming narcissistic yourself?
SPEAKER_03You have to find another narcissist.
SPEAKER_01The only way to survive in a narcissistic environment is to become narcissistic. Because you have to focus on yourself because nobody else is.
SPEAKER_03And you need constant attention and you and you manipulate and have to curse.
SPEAKER_01And you have to develop that just to find out who you are, because you're in a narcissistic environment, you'll be totally ignored and walked over and used. And it's like, unless you like, unless you become narcissistic yourself, yeah, you're literally just gonna be hung out to drunk.
SPEAKER_03Right. You just need to ignore anyone that's negative, try to avoid negativity. Yes. And you know, people that like to gossip and and so start trouble.
SPEAKER_01We were talking about that too. So I think about gossip, right? So we were talking about that. Like, I always look at a person. So if you come to me to tell me what somebody said about me, yeah. I got two problems with that. One problem is why are you snaking that person by telling me something they told you in confidence?
SPEAKER_04Yeah, no, no.
SPEAKER_01So not only are you showing that you have a snake ability about you, and then second, why were they so comfortable to talk to you about me in that way? Why? What attitude, what attitude were you presenting to them that made them feel comfortable for them to talk bad about me in front of me? So clearly you don't really like me as much as you say you like me, or they wouldn't feel comfortable.
SPEAKER_03You're bumming out the person's day and stuff, it's fancy.
SPEAKER_01And why would you and now that you're telling me this, I don't even want to know what they're saying.
SPEAKER_03I want both of y'all to go over there because like obviously avoid, avoid um gossipers, yeah, yeah, yeah, troublemakers.
SPEAKER_01Nine times out of ten, the person that's telling you what somebody else is saying, they're the real problem. It ain't it's not yeah, yeah. And it's not the person that they're talking about, they're the real problem. Don't I never hold if you didn't say it to me.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, that's very true. And our creator is the only one you answer to anyway.
SPEAKER_01And if you didn't say it to me, I feel like there's no point in me acknowledging it because at that point, I feel like that's a sign of respect within itself. That you feel anyway about me and you don't feel comfortable telling me to my face.
SPEAKER_03Well, yeah, if you don't like me, then what do you don't hang around me? It'll go away.
SPEAKER_01As long as what we do together is is cool and that interaction, I don't even care what you're saying about me to other people because what you think about me is none of my business. How you respect me on my face is the only thing I'm concerned about. What you think about me when I'm a when I'm gone, that's none of my business.
SPEAKER_03I think you're cool too. And I'm I'm just thinking, if if you don't, you know, usually they're jealous or they're envious of you or something like that. You're just shallow. Yeah. They don't know who they are. They haven't found themselves.
SPEAKER_01Nine times out of ten, what a person thinks and says about you says more about them than it actually says about you. Because they can only look at you through their lenses. They can only look at you through what they've been through. So what I say about you is gonna tell you more about me than it actually is gonna say about you. Because I can only address you from where I'm standing. And that's gonna let you know that. You know what I mean? Like, so I say that like I have a tendency to, I'm a selfless person. I used to give everything away, and then I realized that the best thing to do is to acquire and shine and be an example, and then show them how you got it. And that's better than actually giving it to them, right?
SPEAKER_03Yeah, giving, yeah.
SPEAKER_01But the person that's selfish would see me and see me saying, no, I'm not giving you nothing, and think that I'm like him. Totally. And think that I'm selfish. So him calling me selfish doing that would say more about him than it say about me, because people would have to know everything about me to know that me doing that is actually me being selfless because I really want to give it to him. You know what I mean? To give it to the moment.
SPEAKER_03If you can't be free with your spirit, you're a free spirit.
SPEAKER_01But I know if I give it to him now, I'm gonna create a crutch that he's gonna lean on and it's gonna hurt him in the long run and not help him.
SPEAKER_03Right.
SPEAKER_01So I won't give it to him because me showing him how to get it and not giving it to him is better for him than me giving it to him. Right. But a selfish person would think I'm being selfish because that's all they see. So him calling me selfish is saying more about him than it's saying about what I'm actually doing.
SPEAKER_03Right. And doing to others as you would like them to yourself. Treat people the way you want to be treated.
SPEAKER_01Exactly. You have to, because what happens is it all comes back anyway.
SPEAKER_03Going around community.
SPEAKER_01Sometimes it takes long, sometimes it comes right back, but it all comes back. And so you see that, and then you and the universe will make sure you understand that they're talking to you about you. Right. You're not gonna miss it. You could try to act like you missed it, but they're gonna make it very clear that they're showing you what you did to someone else. Right. And it's like not that you can't ignore it. Totally true.
SPEAKER_03Nice to meet you.
SPEAKER_01Nice to meet you too.
SPEAKER_03I'm Lisa.
SPEAKER_01What?
SPEAKER_03My name is Lisa.
SPEAKER_01Lisa, I'm Jones, Lisa. Jones, my pleasure to meet you. I'll be out regularly every Thursday now.
SPEAKER_02God bless you.
SPEAKER_01So thank you. Yeah, she was nice. I don't even know where we're at on time. Oh, we are done. Oh, God. I didn't even realize we're like went. Oh I talked to me. I was gonna cut it short, y'all.
Turn On The Lights Goodbye
SPEAKER_01Uh turn on the lights, we out.
