Luciferian Light
Where we dig into homosexuality and how it's being used as a tool.
Luciferian Light
Episode 18- Authenticity Over Approval
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Light In The Dark Room
SPEAKER_00In every age, someone had to hold the light in the dark room. Someone had to say the shit that everyone held their tongue on. This is Luciferian Light show where nothing is off limits, no truth is too taboo, and no lies go unchallenged.
SPEAKER_02I need the light.
SPEAKER_00Let's turn that light on.
SPEAKER_02Welcome to Luciferian Light, where it's not about being right, it's about being real. And we are here with the good people of Cathedral City. We was a little behind. I don't even know if it's 6 o'clock. I have no, let me see. What time is it? What time is it? Oh, 6 owner dock. Like, that's crazy. Yeah, I hit it. Okay. That's what's up. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. What's my applause at? We made it. We made it. We made it, y'all. I just had to do that little cheesy shit real quick. Um I'm gonna be at the comedy show. How you do this? Oh church. I'ma I'm gonna be at the uh the uh the Clippers Theater, the comedy show on um on the 11th in LA. Uh I wanted to touch down with a few people I had uh touch bases with since I'm gonna be out there as one link. Kind of do some face-to-face networking real quick. But uh aside from that, what I wanted to talk about today, I had a lot to talk about. I wrote it down, but uh we was a little scrambled today, man. It's been it's been rough. But we back out here in the same spot for now. I just found out a spot right here. They do um so like a print shop and then like a I guess you can like rent a Wi-Fi or sit in there, like a computer workshop, work on shit. And um, they got uh a podcast, like a little podcast uh room, I guess. So like if you got I do want to go in there and see what type of equipment they're working with. Um it was it was interesting though to see that they were so close and yet so so little used. I'm just gonna get through this shit real quick. But uh oh. Oh, okay. But um shouts out to uh all my people that don't watch this motherfucking show. That's crazy. Most of the people that watch this show are the people I don't like fuck with, like, you know what I'm saying? Like, well, I ain't gonna say that, it's people that I don't um necessarily have a personal relationship with. That's ironic. Cause this is like the most personal and most vulnerable I've been, like, as far as like exposing who I am I've ever been. And the best way to keep it in secret, don't write it on paper and put it under your uh put it under your mattress. The best way to keep it a secret is to start a podcast about it. Everybody just gonna just gonna stop listening. Every secret I got, I could put in this podcast because all the people that is really concerning, I never listen. Thank you so much. Oh my god, you're a lifesaver. I couldn't see nothing I was doing. Oh, there got my eyes. There we go. Are we back now? Yeah, we back. I'm gonna take the scarf off, but I'm scared. I'm gonna stain my hat again. Um authenticity.
Why Authenticity Beats Love
SPEAKER_02That's that's the one thing I want to preach this week. Like a lot, like being authentic. So they they did a study where um they did a study where uh they was measuring the amount of energy that uh we emit during different uh phases or emotions, like in ourselves. And the only energy that came more powerful than love, ironically, is authenticity, which I believe is still a form of a form of love, right? That's self-love. You love yourself enough to be who you are without any excuses or without trying to explain it to nobody or you know what I mean. I'm gonna probably need a lower check because I feel like I gotta bend down to hear myself. But um well, you know what? I could just raise this up, son. You see a brick or something? Um, it's a box in there. I think it might be a box in there, but something I can set this on top of. So raise it up, son. Because it's like I don't I can keep having to bend down. And I don't like I don't like bending at all out here because I'm just gonna be honest with you, you know what I mean? The folks be asking me to bend too much as it is. I ain't no bending ass motherfucker. I won't bend, I won't break. I done took all I'm gonna take. I can't wash this off my hands. I got too much on my plate, I got too much on my mind. Everybody around me wanna waste my time. Yeah, I already know. Alright, that you know what? No, I just fucked it all up. I don't even know why I get I thought of that.
SPEAKER_01Put that on top of it.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. What this one that?
SPEAKER_01Put that.
SPEAKER_02Alright, yeah, that works. Yeah, that works. Yeah, that works. Anybody come back? I'm gonna uh hand a cart and then like and tell them uh I want to ask them some questions because I do want to ask people some shit, right? Like I want to ask them like um if they had one if aliens came down here right now and beamed you up to their shit and asked you like they had you had one request for us to do. Which one of us to do? Like, what would you ask? Well, God, which one would be better? Alien, God, I don't know. Alien, that's too scary. Like, I'm not telling you shit. Like, I want you to put me back down where you got me from. That's what I want, motherfucker. I'd be like, put me back down. That's what I want. Put me back down. That's what I need you to do. That's all I wish for right now, sir. I think I'm in
Building Million Man From Pain
SPEAKER_02the wrong phone. But anyway, um, I got this uh I got this uh idea I'm doing uh called Million Man. Uh it's actually something my father wrote, and like me and him kind of like sit around and write, write like, you know, my father was an artist, he used to draw, like one of the best artists I've ever seen in my life. Um he had uh we used to write these, he had his own comic books, and we used to write our own stories and you know had our own universe. Uh one of them was Million Man. Million Man was um a manifestation of all the energy from black people that was manifested at the Million Man March. He's like uh a manifestation of that. But at the same time, Million Man was created because he was created, all of the rage and all of the pain had to go somewhere. So it goes into this dude that's literally at the same moment getting the electric chair, and all the rage and pain goes to him, and he becomes Humbug. Uh I kind of changed it up to where it's more of an internal battle thing, to where that it happens kind of like that, but not Humbug actually is born first, and Million Man is like in in this in-between realm, but he's actually in the same body as Humbug, it turns out. And then eventually they they uh they both vacate that body and and get their own. And uh three battles ensue, three movies, actually, three well, three story arcs. And well, I'm not gonna spoil it. That's crazy. Anyway, but yeah, yeah, that's uh that's coming soon. Um I still got um hollow music coming out. I got oh yeah. Actually, a movie uh that I'm writing as right now that I'm in the process of getting the okay to kind of do. And um after that, it's probably gonna be on to my little checklist that, you know, my little bucket list I had for quite some time. I got a lot of different projects and stories and movies and and ideas I want to um uh entertain you people with more than entertained. I think that's the difference, and I think that's what's really holding me back is the fact that everywhere I go, I think people see my agenda and then they know like okay, you know, like I'm not I'm not that like I'm finna I'm finna tell my story and like I ain't I'm I'm not submissive, I'm not finna do it your way. I'd rather just, you know what I'm saying? And they kind of like, I think they peeped that and then they just rather like stay clear that I get it. So I'm have to do it on my own. But it's definitely coming. But I try to use, I try to use the medium of of movies and even music all my life. Even I've been rapping my whole life, and even while I was doing music, I'm always uh I'm always in the process of uh of sharing the information I got. Like the things I feel like that can really help in life, not not the cliche things that we hear everywhere else, you know what I mean? Like, I mean, but like real life experiences, like shit that we really have to live through, like like real life grief and having to be strong for yourself or be strong for other people. Like, like real life having to get back up after you lost everything and and figure it out and and walk like you ain't lost shit, like that type shit. Like those those mental things like are uh like what I try to share and implement in all my stories in a way where uh you learn a lesson without having to go through it. You know what I mean? And I think that's the you know purpose of books. But at this point and juncture, I don't really, I can't say I trust the information. I can't say I trust the information. Like and and eat what medium do we trust, right? They tell you to go to uh you could trust a .gov or .org, but nevertheless, even with uh .gov and .org, like the government is lying to us. So why would they put the truth on their website if they lie to us on any other document, they're gonna lie on that document. Like it's not gonna, it's not gonna change because of that. So I ain't never like really like gave that no credit. Like I don't I don't feel that can be trusted. So what I do trust, what I do trust is my ability to put two and two together and my ability to be able to line my line my senses up. So I promise you, I've been through enough mental and emotional turmoil that I have every right to be crazy. Um the things I do to ground myself whenever I feel like I'm experiencing something that may not be happening in this third, in this 3D dimension, in this uh reality, whenever I get to that point, whenever I get to that point, um whenever I get to that point, what I do is I uh yeah, yeah, yeah, they are your cross. They everywhere too. Exactly. Like, why did I like I gotta go, man? Like it's California, but it ain't California, you feel me? I'm a bit Oh, I can't write this. I can't write this, man. I wanna interview him, but I'm scared as fuck. I'm not gonna lie. I want to interview him, but I'm just scared as fuck. Even the person that has to talk to people, they not even talking to him. They like, I that's when that motherfucker gonna work right back. I'm not nothing acts and shit. Yeah, but um what was I talking about? But anyway, back to what I was saying, like uh I try to put like my my uh the things I learned inside of my mediums when I when I write movies or when I write any type of story. So this particular story with Million Man is basically uh it's basically a story about that um that internal journey, you know what I mean? That journey of learning self, right? So it's it's a journey of being able to balance your anger and pain and between your your composure and your grace and your your um your logic.
A Six Senses Reality Check
SPEAKER_02So, but how back to how I stay grounded, uh I would align my senses up. If it don't align with all my senses, then it's not real, right? Like, so I use that with everything. Like, so if I'm if somebody's telling me a story, I take that story through um damn, it just came to so I take that story through uh uh a sequence of questions or you know things that that help me kind of ground whether it's real or not. And that's you know, my eyesight, my hearing, my my sense of smell, my sense of touch, uh, and my third eye, my sense of intuition, like what do I feel? Like, so if everything don't line up with those senses, it ain't it ain't real, right? Like if I if you think it's a bug on you on your on your on you somewhere and you look and you never see it, but it's itching, it's not a bug. Like you would see it, period. So, end of discussion. Like, if it's you know, if it's not aligning with all your senses, I use that to ground me and you just put me right back where I need to be. Like, okay, so I can decipher or determine what's real and what's not because I have six senses and use all of them. If they don't align with all, and I mean all, all six senses, everything can be a go except for my sixth sense, and I'm still like, nah, I'm good. If I'm I'm found if I'm feeling some type of way and I can't explain it, I ain't got to. I'm just not gonna do it. That's it, that's all. Like, or I'm gonna do it because that's how I feel. But I I make sure I got in tune with that, and that's a hard thing to do when they don't teach you. It's uh I wouldn't even know how to really explain it. It's that because it might be different for everybody in the sense that you know what I mean, it might it might resonate with the description a little different because of how they see shit. But ultimately I feel like well my my senses, I would say it's just like that uh I want to say voice, but it's not necessarily a voice, because I don't get like English words and and descriptions or instructions. I get um like it's hard to explain. So it's like a like a whole scenario vibe type of thing, like an energy. And that energy comes with uh a visual scene, it comes with uh a certain essence of feeling and smell, like all of that happens, and then it's like the message is like like I don't, it's hard to explain, but it's it's always different.
The Xbox Warning And Gunshots
SPEAKER_02Like sometimes, like example, one time I was uh when I was living in Chicago, I was on my way to walk my dogs, and it was cold outside, so I put my coat on, put the harness, put the chains on the dog. And I as I was walking towards the door with my dogs on my chain, something stopped me at my TV and said, Cut your Xbox on. Now, mind you, I did not know why I was cutting my Xbox on. I just know I got the urge, I would say that's what it is, right? More of an urge almost, right? Like the same thing you feel when when uh you in trouble or you're about to uh or like uh or you you get around somebody and all of a sudden you just you you compel to talk to this person or engage with them some type of way. Um that type of of more of non-verbal cue. But so as I'm walking past, I stop and um something tell me to cut my Xbox on. Now I'm thinking that, you know, I'm a spiritual person, I'm probably finna get a message from up above on my Xbox somehow. I don't know, like I'm that's literally what I'm thinking. As I'm cutting my Xbox on, the Xbox is loading up, and before it could even finish loading up, I swear to you, gunshots just start raining out. Like a lot of them, right? Like at least 15 shots, no exaggeration. So I'm like, whoa, uh, I wait. I waited out until I see, you know, the blinking red and blue lights out there, so I know the police out there. And I go out there and find out what was happening. It was two people shooting exactly where I walked my dogs at. So the message ain't always what you think it is, right? Like I thought the message would be a message on Xbox, but they didn't give a fuck about that. They just needed me to slow down. So the best thing to do was load this slow ass Xbox up. That'll take him long enough to uh he'll be able to see before he has to actually walk into the shit, right? Those voices, right? Like, like that urge to just stop and play my Xbox. I have to this day, I couldn't tell you, I didn't hear nobody say, hey, play your Xbox. I just walked past the Xbox with my coat on, and something told me to stop and play it. Like I just was compelled to do it. Like, compel, I would say, is more of an accurate description of what I uh uh describe as my intuition. I would say that. But um Lisa, Lisa uh one time, she's back. She knew we was doing it Thursday too, she already knows. She got me on her schedule, so she already knows. But yeah, they um that's how I would say my intuition works. Like, and that it happened before when I was younger, but I didn't recognize it as that. I just kind of, like, I guess spirit knows at the present moment how to move me, right? Like, regardless of whether I'm going to understand the message or translate it, whatever. Like, spirit has this clever way of like saying what I need to hear to do what he needs me to do. And it might not be exactly what he needed me to do, but the result is yet the same. You know what I mean? Like, he didn't care that I played my Xbox or have something on me, on my Xbox. He just needed me to slow down, and that was the way, right? So sometimes that's that's just how it is. It's not always direct or uh like you know, something that's that's absolutely tangible that you can, you know, bank your, you know, like bank your uh money on. So but it is if you trust it, right? Like, I don't know what point that I I developed. I would say after my brother's dad, and I went to that medium, that's when I gained absolute trust in it. Like before that, I had, you know, I would trust it enough to where I listened when it kept me alive, that's for certain. Like I would be on the block. And for one, I never was like the block type of dude that could just sit outside all day with dudes doing absolutely nothing but talking to each other. And like, I just couldn't do it. Like, even selling dope, like I would rather get a real job than sit here and just on the block all day. Like, and just make even I didn't, I never, I never was entertained by that. I was never like amused by that. That never really did it for me. But even so, I would sit out there at times and just so happened, I would become agitated and want to leave in the middle of something good, anything going. I would just get irritated and leave, and I would come back the next day and find out as soon as I left, somebody came through there shooting, or the police came through there and just started locking people up for no reason. Like, I always like just missed what everybody else had to go through, right? And to a point where it almost looked like I don't even know how other people describe it. I know my um my friend that's that's locked up, gig. I remember uh he he literally described it as just being like like in tune. Like, you know what I mean? Like my intuition, like I just have a knack for knowing like where to be and how to be, you know what I mean? Like I've never been, like, it ain't in me to be like, no, no, I ain't never been on like snitch, but I ain't never been involved to even be in a situation to have to snitch on anybody anyway. I never put myself in those positions. So that's how I avoid like even being in that little, like also, this is another thing I tell people. Um, I don't know if this is fact. Maybe other people can test this out and see, but this has worked for me. And um, I know a lot of people that that's a lot of people I know, and I want to say this with all due respect and and honesty, and the most humblest, I know people that have done way less, way less shit than me, and have done way more jail time than I have ever even sniffed. Like, and that part bothers me. I have a friend that literally did jail, he he did time for a murder that he didn't do. Like, and everybody know it. And yet, like, he just getting out as an adult. He had the potential to be in the NBA, and like, even if not the NBA, the G League, right now, he would be a coach. Like, no lie, he was that good. And out of all of them, he was the only one that had that potential. And he was the one that went to jail for a murder he didn't do. Jonathan Johnson. Um that's that's that's true. You can look that up. Look that case up. Jonathan Johnson, 100 men. Like, he did not do that, and I know for a fact he didn't do it. I know for a fact he had nothing to do with it. I know for a fact that he actually was doubting for his brother. Rest in peace, Reggie. Reggie, Reggie, he did now, but um moment of silence for Reggie, because I I didn't give him that. And I didn't find out he was dead till after, right? But But yeah, so he had um Reggie had got he was getting uh arrested by the police and Jonathan being his big brother. It was like, don't, don't take my, you know, don't touch my brother. So they took him, and because he was the only one that they had in custody that was over 17, they charged him with something. He was, he's not even in our that was a gang-affiliated operation, and he he was not even in our gang. He was just brothers with one of our gang members, and he didn't want them taking his brother to jail. He had shit to do with it, bro, and his whole life. And like out of all of the I don't even want to say that, but like out of all of them, if one well and Reggie wound up spending most of his life in jail anyway. Like in and out of jail. He literally, like, he he stood up for his brother. He probably would have never gone to jail. His brother wound up being in and out of jail anyway. And he ended up doing life for somebody who in and out of jail anyway. Like that's that's so crazy. Right. But um I forgot where I was going with that. Where the fuck was I going with that? Oh, oh, we got our favorite, we
Guest Drops In And Riffs
SPEAKER_02got our favorite guest host, y'all. We got our favorite guest host that showed up, y'all. He showed up with with saggin with saggin silk pants on, like he just came from a stripper joint. Just this this man is out here, this man is out here doing tip drills and and taking care of the old people. Like E. I just doing his thing, man. You already know what it is. Taser. Taser. Taser face, Taser face, what's up, my man? How you doing? Another day, another dollar. Well, you know this part is known. You just don't keep your face off the camera. Because you know they know this part. We don't need all that. They know this part. Well, yeah, yeah, yeah. They see the background. They already know where I'm at. So, like, you already know they're coming, bro. Ain't finna pull up on you. Ain't finna pull up on you, bro. Hey, I'm saying I'm already scared. You know? They out here, cuz. I mean, we write it for a law. Man, they cut the water off. Hey, you know what? I was I wanted the water to be on, and then like somebody brought up a dollar point. Like, it was noisy as hell. Like, I couldn't hear shit. Yeah, that water was just like, I'm like, you know what? That was a good scene, man. I'm glad I knew they was gonna cut it off, though. I figured that. I'm like, yeah, they're gonna cut it off by the time I get going anyway. But the airplanes be kind of like doing their damn thing, but it adds texture, you know what I'm saying? Oh, so I got a system of how I run through shit, right? I was talking about how um you know, right? We we out here, we weird, like we done been through enough shit, we do enough shit, right? Motherfuckers could have been gone crazy, you know what I'm saying? Mm-hmm.
SPEAKER_03Definitely.
SPEAKER_02So how I differentiate reality from from what's what's happening in here, you know what I mean? I just line it up with all my senses. You got six. And if they don't all line up, I ignore it, period.
SPEAKER_03So, so basically, even five out of six, everything.
SPEAKER_02Let me take that off the table. I just wanna we don't even want to get to that. I don't taste everything. I just wanna get that off the table off top. I don't touch everything either. Okay? So not all my senses, I kind of keep those. But you I keep those to my like two senses, I don't really, I try not to debose publicly, like just for no reason. Like, you gotta like earn if I I'm nah, I'm not, I'm not tasting shit though. Like food, that's it. And even that, I'm like, you know, like, but like every other sense, if it don't line up, I'm like, you know what I'm saying? Like if I think it's a bug on me, I ain't finna lick my arm and shit. Like, nah. It tastes like a bug, like, no, no, I'm not. But I do line it up with my senses. Like, if I can't. See, I'm about to say the wrong thing. I mean, say the wrong thing. That's what this whole part it ain't about being right, it's about being real.
SPEAKER_03I mean, but the first time they say the wrong thing was the right thing. I'm gonna let that one skip. So I the next time it ain't gonna be holding them back. I gave them a chance. Uh-huh. Okay, about them six senses. Mm-hmm. Um, now tasting. Why is that the first thing? I mean, god damn. I mean, why not? I'm good with tasting. I know I can taste, and I know exactly what it is. Okay. Okay, okay.
SPEAKER_02Hey, could you hand me that that uh that that case right there? Not you, could you hand me that case? I just want hey, I do want to ask you something though. Okay. Yep. Okay. If you walked up. If I told you you could talk, if you you could talk, if I told you you could sit there, obviously so. This is gonna be uncomfortable for me. I just need you to stoop down though. But if if you could uh if I told you oh, oh, oh damn, you couldn't. Oh, you will sit on it like that. That is that is wild that that was your choice, though. That's a wild choice. That is a wild choice. Because I'm still not in that camera. That's a that's a wild choice, though. But no, um if you could, if you ain't no win it with this nickel.
One Wish With God Or Government
SPEAKER_02If you could uh if you could uh if I told you you could talk to God through a tree. You know what I mean? Like on a one-on-one basis. If I could talk to who now? And you got one way, and you got one thing you can you can change or have done, like like whether whether personal or publicly, like you have one thing you can absolutely get done, like that's that's that's it. What would you choose? What would you do? This is the question turns into something totally different. Go ahead. I need you to answer that question again. I think I need to answer it again too. What what would you know Okay? If you had one, if the government gave you one request that they would uh like you you save somebody, and they was like, you know, because of that, you get you get this one like one wish. One w one one governmental, right, whatever it is, you can get it. Whatever you request, you can get it right now, no matter what it is, whether it be uh a million dollars or uh a fucking a lifetime fucking Caucasian slave or like whatever it is that floats your boat, you can literally have them do it. Like, what would you ask for? I mean, some people got cakes like that. I mean, think about it. Credit, taxes, I mean everything in his name. Yeah, I'm just saying you gotta you gotta realize like that's that's a real thing. You feel me? Imagine, imagine, imagine having a clean cut white boy at your service. No that go to work every day for you, come on with the check. Why it couldn't be a white girl? That judge. I mean, you can, whatever you want, whatever you want. Whatever you want. I mean, but I just wanted a white boy. That way keep it platonic. You can always have all the bitches you want. You ain't gotta worry about this motherfucker like jumping in, like, like, what do you do?
SPEAKER_00And I thought we were together. Like, shut up.
SPEAKER_03Uh I'd rather deal with that with the white girls. Okay, okay, but um, oh, I think I'll um, me personally, all my children have a lifetime of uh 5,000 a week at the age of it starts at the age of eight.
SPEAKER_02I need I need you to say how many kids you got, right? Alright, that ain't that bad. I'm about to say I'll be fucking. If I say that, it's a rap. They're gonna be like, nah. You know, my kids got it, I got it. If I say that, they're gonna look at me like, we know how many kids you got, bro. Uh well We know how many kids you got, bro. We know you might pick submelt, nigga. They're gonna be like, Pixel melts, nigga. That's not happening. You got too many kids. You might as well feed, we might as well feed the nation. You know what I'm saying? What would you do? That would be it? Five dollars.
SPEAKER_03That would it be though. Real shit.
SPEAKER_02Five dollars my kids every week. But what happened? This is what I want to know though. What happened when they still treat you like shit, though? It don't matter. They ain't. No, no, no, I'm saying like like, because they don't know. You can't tell them. Uh why I can't tell them. Oh, my kid gonna know about it. But the government giving it to him. Shit, that's what child support is. Yeah, yeah, but they ain't like, but you ain't like if you ain't if you still like walking up like this and they like we getting 5,000 a month. You say a week? A week. A week? Yeah, a week. Yeah, we getting 5,000 a week. I ain't talking to your broke ass, brother. Get off our doorstep. What are we doing? Why are you even here? Why are you even here? Listen, listen, I had they didn't ask to be here. Deal with it. We're gonna try again with the next three. I'm just saying, though, like, like that, that that can really happen. Like, motherfucker be like, nah, well, you know what, your kids like you, so that ain't that ain't exactly. That's different. That's different. Like, but it's people that it's for a-fell watch, they gonna watch this person. It's people I know for a fact that even if they daddy granted them $5,000 a week the rest of their life, they still be like, get the fuck off my purse, man. What are you doing? You don't fuck with you. I don't get that shit.
SPEAKER_03I know somebody in my behalf that's still my kids probably ain't gonna get it because they asked mean like that.
SPEAKER_02That's crazy. You know, I wouldn't, I if my I wouldn't even, I would, I wouldn't even take it from my dad. I don't I would no, I'll take that back. You don't got a choice. No, I would take it. I would take it. But I'm I'd definitely still be like, no, I'm good. Like, too much other shit been like, I'm cool. Like it ain't even, I'm too grown. I ain't trying to single spoon, but I still ain't processed a lot of that shit. Like, but you know, you never know what they went through. And that's my main thing. I try to show grace, because you don't know what they've been through. You know what I'm saying? And and that's the you got you got people that was fucked up trying to raise people correctly. That's that's not gonna, you know, that's not gonna uh you see is that Fred and Wilma?
Fred And Wilma Duck Drama
SPEAKER_02Oh, Fred Wilma over here. So we got Fred Wilma, the famous duck couple. It's two ducks. These motherfuckers always in the swimming pool. Yeah. My damn kids. And this is the only place they can come and be together because everywhere else is considered a racial barrier, because it's a green duck and a brown duck, and they you know they don't really fuck with colors like that in the duck community. So, like, them two ducks coming together, like, they can only come out here and do it where it's accepted. Everywhere else, motherfuckers be throwing rocks at them and shit. The ducks try to converge on them and shit. They be having pigeons fighting at them and shit. They don't like to see brown and green ducks together. That's just not not something that they with. But like out here, it's it's freedom, you know what I'm saying? Like, be who you wanna be. Like, the gay people allow the ducks to be with different colored ducks and they don't judge them. And yet, we have humans. My brother still ain't got younger than my motherfucking face. Oh. Everybody else still goddamn accepting around here. Ain't that so? This motherfucker, nice. This nigga, yeah. Shots fire.
SPEAKER_03What the fuck was that? What was that? Now enough is a damn night. No, okay. No, ain't no damn okay.
SPEAKER_02What was that? Let's go, Fred and Wilma. I wish I could show y'all Fred and Wilma, but my production ain't set up that way where I can do some shit like that. It's coming soon. Come to the coming to your closest. If Fred and Wilma walk over here, though, the podcast over. I don't fuck with ducks. I'm walking away. I'm letting you know. Like, look at that. Never never ended up you gonna see these two ducks from these different tribes come together. They can't be together nowhere. That's how you know. You know what's fucked up though? They both cheating on their family. That's why they come here. They both, they got other duck families somewhere. It's like he gotta look he got a female green duck somewhere. He got a female green duck somewhere, and she got a male brown duck somewhere. How many kids? And they both done left. Ain't no telling, they probably got grandkids at this point. Them motherfuckers fly out here to get their freak on and then go back to the home and shit, like over the when the sun goes down. That's crazy. My bad. Even ducks are ducks ain't shit. So we ain't smoking? Oh shit. I ain't even goddamn it, bro. I got we everything. I ain't do that thing but smoke. Show you what nigga I am. What the fuck? I'm I'm a smoker. Thank you, my brother. You know what I'm saying? But yeah, yeah, I'm gonna take that. Unfortunately.
SPEAKER_03Bad, bad.
SPEAKER_02Thank you. Well, that's a fancy bag you got there, sir.
SPEAKER_03Oh, it's dirty right now, but uh, yeah, it's alright.
SPEAKER_02I mean, if it was clean, if it was clean, you'd have been robbed by now. I mean, shit. Think something in it. Please don't rob me. Hey, we gotta have broke starving and gang banging, bro.
Hustle Ideas Near City Hall
SPEAKER_02So I got a question. Yep. Oh, oh my man. I love questions. Swear to God. My favorite thing in the world is to answer questions. Give it to me. What you got?
SPEAKER_03How many people do you think go just that restaurant right there? How many people you think go there a week?
SPEAKER_02I know I can make a living off of that. I know that much, because every time I'm out here, these motherfuckers is always traffic. Always traffic. If I can man, and you think that's something, wait till next week. If we come up with a master plan, we can be good for the rest of our lives, right? Yeah, yeah. We just gotta find something people want. That. Supply and demand. That right over there. That's easy. And drugs ain't gonna get it. We right across the street from the police station and the motherfucking city hall. So can't do that.
SPEAKER_03I'm talking about a restaurant.
SPEAKER_02What a drug? Man, that's the first thing I think of, man. I'm saying. Damn. Look, look, weed used to be a drug. Let's not forget. I know. And guess what? If I kept it in the drug, if I had a kept at it, I'd have a dispensary right now. But I switched lanes because like I'm like, I need to do some legal shit. Went and got uh uh film, went and got in the film. But I could have combined film with weed and bam. I don't know how I could how I could do that. I could do that. You can sell weed. I'm selling weed and I know how to do and I know how to do videos.
SPEAKER_03So that means everybody that watched this today, they get a free gram from us.
SPEAKER_02Don't listen now. Matter of fact, we looking for spots, we're looking for a dispensary sponsor. We will literally promote your shit every time. You put your name up, all we need is something to smoke. Hey, could you have me the um the reefer? It's in there. Reefing for my ass, beach juice. This nigga drinking beach juice and he ain't on the beach. You son of a beach. You son of a beach.
SPEAKER_03I cannot believe you. That was that was a good one. That was that was a good one.
SPEAKER_02I'm trying not to drop my thing on lead. You know shit cool when you across the street outside from City Hall and the police station on camera, live, rolling, marijuana, drinking, and about to smoke it. Alright, you tripping now. You ain't no public drinking, you know that. You tripping. I'm gonna say that shit out loud. I'm trying to get us locked up. I'm smoking weed, nigga. You talking about it. You said fuck the police. Wait, bro, that's how I feel shit. You know what? Is that what you said? If the police beat my ass, I swear to God. I just said it'll be you saw the movie. It'll be the first ass whooping I enjoy in my life. I swear to God. I would finally enjoy it. Because I'm I'm on live, I'm going viral. It's crazy. I just got mine as well by the police. Hey, what's that new? What's that movie?
SPEAKER_03Fruitville Station. What's that move? What's that movie, Fruitville? What it is, what it's called, y'all. Fruitville Station.
SPEAKER_02I think that's what it's called. We got cameras going. Oh, you know what Fruitville station is? We got cameras going. They ain't had cameras. Yeah, they had to have word of mouth. We got we got the people. We got more than word of mouth. We got it going. Damn, damn. Hey, I'm having guests too, so I'm finna uh up my guest game. We're gonna go from She ain't got the right shit on, y'all. We're going from LA Tate to to, I mean from uh Atlanta Tate to LA Kendrick. We moving up, cuz. Alright? I'm just letting y'all know. It's finna happen overnight. But we're gonna have to. So all y'all in tune, I promise you, I'm gonna go through this list and everybody in tune now. I'm gonna I swear to God, I'm gonna break bread. Watch. I'm gonna send everybody some money. That's listening now. All the new niggas, y'all new niggas, you know I don't fuck with y'all. Don't wait. They're gonna wait till I get some money. I know that. And then they're gonna jump on. By then, I'm gonna be treating niggas. You're gonna have to pay. I fuck with everybody. No, you don't. Some of you suckers just didn't know. He ain't lying. He's lying. He ain't gonna fuck with nobody. See what we was really about? Remember this. Everybody's friend ain't nobody's friend. No, no, no. No. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_03Everybody's friend ain't nobody's friend.
SPEAKER_02Yep. They ain't the friends of themselves. You ain't standing on nothing. You just go for whatever. You just like everybody. Nah, you can't be everybody's friend, nigga. Like, I ain't everybody's friend. So if you everybody's.
SPEAKER_03I ain't really nobody's friend. I'm like, we don't
Friendship Lines And Privacy Rules
SPEAKER_03really do the friend shit over with you. That's what we need to talk about. Yeah.
SPEAKER_02Wait, no. Friendship ain't over. I got niggas that I consider closer to me as a friend than I'm with my family. What? Brother. You call them brother. You call them bro. So they're not really a friend.
SPEAKER_03I mean, but they are friends. Like technically. Friends. Are what you have from the age of.
SPEAKER_02I take that shit seriously. I take that shit serious. Just because you use the term friend loosely. You mean associate, but you say friend. I mean friend when I say friend. Okay. I say associate when I mean associate. Okay, I can't. I know people I associate with that I talk to, I socialize, but like I ain't gonna say I count on them or they count on me or they friends. No. I don't really know no personal shit about him. I'd rather not. That nigga got bodies in his trunk. I don't want to know shit about him. Like I ain't got shit to do with it. I didn't help you put him there, so shit. What do I got to do with it? That's how I feel. That's what I ain't never been that nosy nigga. Like, I don't want to know, nigga. Keep that shit to yourself. Like, I ain't looking through my girl phone. Nigga, that shit gonna hurt my feelings. I'll see some shit. Why the fuck would I hurt myself?
SPEAKER_03But but it's supposed to hurt your feelings. You did it.
SPEAKER_02You did it. It's supposed to hurt you. You the one who had that dick in your mouth. Not me. Why should I be hurt from you having dick in your mouth? Why would I be able to do that? That's why I don't. That's what I'm saying. I'm not finna be looking. Wow. Why would I hurt myself? If it's for me to learn, it'll fall in my lap. Other than that, I ain't looking for shit, bro. I ain't like don't give a damn when this one falls in my lap. I'm not looking for shit. That's my thing.
SPEAKER_03Also, also, I developed, yeah, yeah, of course. Also, I developed come and holler at me while I'm on my podcast. Talking about a damn paper.
SPEAKER_02And look, honestly. I wouldn't even get up. Honestly, I be most of my life though, I spent most of my life not looking through people's shit only because I ain't want nobody looking through my shit.
SPEAKER_03So like I that ain't how shit works out either.
SPEAKER_02Some people don't honor that. Some people do. Hell no. It worked, it worked up until this one motherfucker. Like, they ain't give a fuck whether I was looking through their shit or not. Matter of fact, don't look through their shit. You still look through my shit. But they sneak and do it. And then this is the part. No, I don't give a fuck about that. This is what I hate. If you're gonna sneak and do it, sneak and keep that shit to yourself though. Damn right. Where your pride though? Don't bring that shit to me, bitch. You went through my behind my back and found that shit out. So keep that shit to yourself.
SPEAKER_03Um straight down. Well they call it a when they search and uh illegal search and seizure. Yeah, that shit is valid.
SPEAKER_02Nothing new found isn't valid. All of that shit is like you you did it illegally, so now fuck you and what you found. Yeah. That's how I feel. But like ultimately, like, yeah, yeah, yeah. That part. I wasn't really looking through people's shit because I don't want nobody looking through my shit. So and then I ultimately realized, because every time I try to look through some shit, I find exactly what the fuck I'm looking for. So this is the thing.
SPEAKER_03You find exactly what you knew you was gonna find.
SPEAKER_02No bullshit. I tell people this all the time. If you outside looking on the ground for crack, everything looks like crack. Everything. Everything gonna start looking like crack. You're gonna be picking up something every five seconds. Nigga saw. Everything's gonna look like crack because that's what you're looking for. And that's that's just the truth. So when you go looking for shit, you literally But why you don't find no money when you look for money. So why the fuck you don't find no money when you looking for money? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Everything look like money. Just like, just like just like you said it. Everything looked like money. It ain't all money. But when you looking for money, everything look like money. You try anything. Like, yeah, I'm gonna try this. You already fell you know, you already selling pussy, and you ain't even got one. You ain't even got one. You already selling pussy. You already start looking for money so much you out of selling some shit you ain't got. Now don't don't y'all don't make it that far. Don't don't make it that far. You know you call me selling pussy and got one. Yeah, that's the whole motherfucker down. Matter of fact, I ain't even got it on me. Ain't no longer like you wanna give me the money. Go for it. That's it. For some shit that and you better hope. That's a dangerous, that's a dangerous job. That's a gift of God, bro. You know what I mean? But that's when you know certain people you can apply pressure and they they fold certain people, they're gonna peep that shit in the door, and you just gonna have yourself, you know, a lost sale. That's all. But ultimately, it's all about numbers. You know what I'm saying? It ain't about of course. Oh, I thought you were talking about the money ain't the root of all evil either. No, it's nothing. All right, this let me let me clear this up.
Nothing Is Inherently Evil
SPEAKER_02Nothing is inherently evil. Nothing, not not one thing, not no action. Other than my baby money. Let's get that shit out of there. No, no, she gave me a job at the motherfucking airport. No way. She ain't all eat with each time. Hey, even the devil was the son of God. Let's not forget that. God damn. The devil was the son of God. Let's not forget that. Everybody, like, ain't no, there's nothing that's inherently evil. I hate that we paint these pictures to try to get some type of control of society by painting black and white, like evil and good. Like, it's no such thing. Like, everything is everything, bro. Like, think about this. What's something that you can definitely say is evil? My baby mama. Okay. All right. Something that something that everybody can relate to. Uh no. Exactly. Because if you do something to mine and I do something to all of yours, I'm damn.
SPEAKER_03Numbers ain't had enough now. We still have eat balance. No, you gotta have balance. You gotta have balance. No, no, no. Everything that don't even make sense. If I give you a dollar, don't give me that dollar back. Cause that's a waste of my damn time. Give me a dollar and five cents or something. Show me it was appreciated. So I'm gonna do that with the same thing. Yeah, well, so fuck up.
SPEAKER_02That's how that's how people in power think. They don't even think like like we think. Like I just gotta give me our money back. What the fuck no?
SPEAKER_03How long do I gotta wait for this shit to get back? That's gonna matter uh interest like the bank. Shit. Like a loan. You take out a loan, you don't pay them folks the same thing. Even when you do lay away, you don't. I mean, uh I think you still pay a little inscroll. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I need a little intercore. I need a little inter You know what though?
Consciousness Shapes The Whole Reality
SPEAKER_02I feel like so our consciousness, right? Think think about this. If if you had a people and their consciousness was in control of the reality that they in, right? Like, literally, their consciousness is in control. I can prove this, right?
SPEAKER_03Now and that in in what state? Like, what you mean?
SPEAKER_02Like, okay, so you're saying, like, first of all, our collective consciousness is God, which is why nothing will ever be done about what's being done down here until we do it, because God is our collective consciousness experiencing this reality. This is his creation. He's broken himself down into a trillion pieces, and he's experiencing this with different pieces of his soul over and over again. That's why I believe we are. This is why we all connected, because we all God is like a river, and like we're like a cup that takes some water out of the river and having this experience, and then we go right back into the river. Right there. I never thought of it like that. Uh, it's hard to fathom because we don't, you know, it's it's a system that they try to blanket away from us so we don't get it and we're not in touch. You know what I mean? So, but I forgot what the fuck I was trying to say. What the fuck was I trying to say? Uh uh It's some good weed. I'll tell you that moment. All right, but um some other partners. So nothing is inherently good or inherently evil. That's what I was going to say. But um That is what I'm talking about. So, like, even if killing within itself, right? If you look at nature, like fucking thing I if I never read a book, if I never read a book.
SPEAKER_03I just thought about it. Evil, molestation, rape. Oh, oh, oh, uh and and and uh good point. So yeah, that that's evil.
SPEAKER_02All right, and I cannot I cannot argue with that. Like it's no way, there's no way to even like I'm trying, I'm sitting there trying to try to think that was advocating my head. Because I only only evil people could even have enough thought to even go against that right there. Now the experience within itself, I believe, happens because this particular soul has come back under innocent blood to suffer because of something they did in the past life that because they did it, they were always mentally prepared for the punishment to a point where they would never really feel what they did to somebody else. You understand what I'm saying? The only way to totally feel what you did to somebody else is to be innocent. And you're not innocent in this in this life. So we have to pull you into another one so you can actually have this innocence so you can see what you did to somebody. I honestly believe, like, that's the only way I can I can um that's the only way I can see my what happened to my nephew. Because my nephew was raped and killed at four years old. He did nothing. See, he did nothing. See, there's how do you understand it? How do you I don't how do you believe in God when it happened? How do you still how do you still believe in God when your nephew was raped and killed as a four-year-old?
SPEAKER_03That well, what what I can say about that is okay, okay.
SPEAKER_02How do you still so this is what I know either either God is all powerful or he all good, but he's not both. Right? Nevertheless, that's what you're telling me. Because this can happen. So he's either all good or all powerful, but he's definitely not both. Well, because if he was both, that would never happen.
SPEAKER_03All powerful, I I I would go with that one. Period. Because all good ain't no, I don't really um powerful.
SPEAKER_02Like I say, good and bad is in the holy, there's no such thing. Exactly. Ain't no all good. Ain't nobody because what worked for you might not work for me. And what's what's in your awareness to do, and and what you have to do from your standpoint is you know what I mean, is your standpoint. It might not be bad, it might be to protect somebody else. But the way I'm looking at your actions, are they evil because they're doing exactly what you know that's how it is. Like I say, if you have a if you have a baby calf, uh, uh Wildebee's calf, right? That wildebees calf, it looks at the lion like the devil. The lion is death in in physical form. Uh so that that image, that person, that being is evil. And what it does is even. But to that lion cub, but till that lion cub at home, uh, that that lion is feeding, he's a hero. Yeah, true. He is the man, he is the all-giving. You see what I'm saying? He's not, he doesn't have the same connotation that he has from there. So it's all about perspective. You see what I'm saying? And if it's all about perspective, and and there'll be that exactly. So that means our consciousness is in control of this reality. And if your consciousness, if if you had a people and their consciousness was in control of the reality, how would you subdue them? How would you subdue them? Uh how would you put them in submission? How would you subjugate the people if you knew that these people's consciousness could control the very reality that you're living in? I really wouldn't control it. You guess you would. They're doing it right now with the TV, with everything. Think about this. Everything that we're looking at was in somebody's head. Somebody manifested it from a thought in their brain. Somebody thought about everything. Everything we sitting on, everything we're using, it all started in somebody's head as a thought. Nothing will be here but grass and air and trees. True shit.
SPEAKER_03Unless they had they had the circle to accomplish their thought. What do you mean? Everybody don't got that circle. I don't know what you're saying. Everybody don't got that push. Everybody don't got that mindset.
SPEAKER_02Think about this. The first person who said he wanna fly. The first person who said you want to fly didn't make a point. No. But he manifested it because he said it out loud. That vibrated, that thought clicked in somebody else's head that actually knew how to do it, and it happened. So who really thought? So think about this. If you fast forward, if you don't look at time, you take time away, he said man should learn how to fly, and then planes exist in this same reality. In a blink of an eye. But it didn't happen in the same reality. Not to us, because we in the linear time. But from looking at it from an internal standpoint, it happened like this. True shit. Like them decades. Them thousand years don't them thousand years is a blink of an eye with somebody. You know what I mean? That's living forever. Like that's that's not shit. Well, who the fuck is living forever? The one within. What do you mean? You because you don't remember forever? You don't think you've been here forever? You don't think you've existed forever?
SPEAKER_03So I think I will be here forever.
SPEAKER_02We see time in the linear. I don't think I've been here. We see time in a linear fashion, right? Because we see time in a linear fashion, our understanding is only beginning and end. That's not how reality exists in other realms. Like that's only in this reality that beginning and end exists. And that's the only way for us to understand with this comprehension and awareness here. You see what I'm saying? And that is the purpose of here too, is that we have to be limited to here to be challenged and to not know, so we can build other things that normally you're not gonna be able to build without without being um handicapped, so to speak, without having those things taken away, right? To see how strong you are. I don't know your if you're Superman, you may never know how to fight, but you're so strong, you don't have to know how to fight. Everything you hit crushes, right? Take those powers away and get in the ring with me. And I'll beat your ass. Right?
SPEAKER_03That's how you this is what this reality is. But they're still underestimating just because you take the powers, how don't you know what he is without the powers? What you mean? You take the power away? Do you do you have powers? No. Okay, so if you take his powers away, what makes what makes him less strong than you? No, not less strong?
SPEAKER_02No, the fact that he don't know how to really fight because he's always had powers, it really makes him weak. Because he's literally leaning on how strong he is. He's leaning on how strong he is, but when you really That's his mind. You put him in a strong, you put him in a in a in a in a match where somebody is comparable in size, strength, and weight, and the bottom, you know, the game changed. But it's because now you gotta know how to fight. What do you mean? It's always mind-safe. Everything is mind-safe. Okay, okay. But that's why that's my point. The whole point of this reality is to build not the mindset, because the mind comes and goes. The mind is the mind is a hard drive, the mind is a computer. It's the spiritual, it's the spiritual significance and things, the the intangible things that that that goes unnoticed that you're really here for. Because you leave, you come in with the same shit you leave with. Nothing. Yeah. Like I don't care. And all the fames that you get, all of that shit, when this world perishes, all that shit tore down. That blink of an eye that we existed in, don't none of that shit matter. What matters still is the things you learn and the experiences you have while you were here. Those those things that you gain from from spiritual resilience. You know what I mean? From from spiritual strength, from being able to lean on it.
SPEAKER_03And do you feel that the knowledge that you gain, like me and you, that we gain in our life trickles down through our kids?
Hereditary DNA And Elite Bloodlines
SPEAKER_02Of course. See, that's another thing we don't we're not taught. Uh what they call it hereditary DNA. Okay. Right? So this is the way we evolve. And this is why I don't, but they don't teach this in genetics because it's something they don't want us to be aware of, because then they can pervert the system and do what they want to do and make it just look like, oh, it's just some random shit. But it's not, it's not random, bro. But they we have hereditary DNA. The things you experience before conception of your child will be in your DNA. That's how we evolve. Like the things you've experienced, like if you have a if you get your leg bit by a tiger, right? And then you have a child, that child will have some type of fear of fucking tigers. Like, because like it's in them, bro. Basketball players. Basketball players. Uh-huh. You're right. God damn it how these motherfuckers come out two years old being able to dribble because this daddy spent his whole life before he conceived him playing basketball. So now he's just he's just naturally good at it. That's why the second generation, the second generation uh um of every other thing is always better. This is another thing I believe. I believe that the elites, the rich, know how to read, how to pro how to no, I don't want to say pervert, but manipulate the reincarnation system and they understand it to be a bloodline thing. Because understand why else would they be so, so intent on why else would they be so uh insistent on not marrying outside, you know what I mean, and and be and really carefully picking the family and bloodline that their kids interact and integrate with. You know what I mean? I mean some at the college because some countries do. No, no, I'm saying this, I believe the elites do it because they understand that all the wealth that I've accumulated in my time, I've also had all this stress and worry that came with it. And I want to be reborn back into my bloodline and enjoy my spoils without all the baggage. That's why it's important that you don't go out here just f ⁇ ing around, Becky. Okay? We need you to keep it straight tight in the crib because when I get reincarnated as your great as my great grandchild, like I'm I'm gonna want this money to still be available to me. You feel me? Like, why else would they care? Why else would they be so insistent that you know they they make sure that all of these things are in place that way? It's because they understand. Because other than that, like what else have they shown besides the fact that they're selfish? Like, rich people have shown that they're selfish, so that's they don't really care about their fuck their generation. Like, I'm when I die, I don't give a fuck what I do with this money I'm dead, right? Most most, yeah. But they that's not it at all. Nothing like they understand, like, no, no, I'm coming back and I want all of this shit done, but I want my money. You know what I'm saying? I want my money to still be here. I don't need you pulling people into the family and fucking the money up or pulling other families that don't add to our our our you know our generational wealth. If they're not adding to it, they're gonna pull it down. And if they're pulling it down, I might be born back into fucking middle class and I'm not doing that. I didn't work this hard to be reborn, reincarnated in the middle class. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, that's weird. So other than that, I can't I always look at shit from the back end, like uh pause. I um I always always my name, it's crazy though, my name backwards. No one on camera there. My name backwards. So I go into everything backwards. Like when I understand something, I have to take it apart to understand it and then put it back together, and then I'm good. Like I used to do that with all my shit. Like, so I take it apart and put it back together. Then I know how to work in and out. I know everything about that. That's all I needed to do with everything. Okay, but um like with toys. Yeah, definitely toys. I used to mix my G.I. Joe's up, so it was a screw in the back of the GI Joe's. I don't know if everybody knows this, but it was a screw in the back of the G.I. Joe that you can unscrew it and you can swap his arms and head out with somebody else's legs and everything. You can just swap it out with other G.I. Joe's. We used to make our own G.I. Joe's, bro. Yeah, yeah. We used to make our own G.I. Joe's. We was, man. Yeah, yeah, we used to be crazy. There's two things you taught me today. Yeah, yeah, we used to use that. Already. Man. Yeah, we used to do that. But um, I'm all proud and shit. Like, yeah, we used to do that.
SPEAKER_03Like, now, like, you have one that accomplished it.
SPEAKER_02Hey, do that for me. Do that for me. Just hit, just go over and see that. Yeah. No, no, no. Okay. You see that? Pull that over. Uh-oh. Oh, the puzzle. The puzzle. Yup, there you go. Yeah. No, you was right. Go down. There you go. He did it. Oh, I knew it. Nope. Fuck, you gotta do it again.
SPEAKER_03God damn it, man. You didn't tell me I was gonna be doing this shit too. Yeah, man.
SPEAKER_02Doing uh do it from the bottom. Man, what the hell? Yeah, there you go. There you go. God damn. Check this out. Are you smarter than a fan? Hey, we got that, though. We got that. That's all that mattered. We got that. Oh my. Um, what was I going with? I'm back. I was always like a you
Trust Issues That Become Armor
SPEAKER_02know what though? It worked in my favor that I lost trust when I was seven. Like my mama, like, my mama made sure I didn't trust nobody in the world. Like, I still got trust issues. But like, when I was seven, huh? We all do. I mean mine real deep. Like mine go from seven years old. Like, I was like, by the time I hit puberty, I ain't trust nobody. Everybody was mine as far as I was concerned. And we're so crazy as I always knew, but it's like, I'm not finna argue with you.
SPEAKER_03But that's not a bad thing. But that's not a good thing, but that's not a bad thing. Yeah, I mean, you know, it's not, it's not, it's not a bad thing. Because it prepared me.
SPEAKER_02It prepared me for what I what I was going through.
SPEAKER_03And that's what we're gonna talk about on.
SPEAKER_02No, no, no. What you talking about? What time is I mean? Shit. Wait, you ain't gonna stay the whole direction. You stopped there and you like. Don't tell the world.
SPEAKER_03You like tell the world.
SPEAKER_02You like cockroach on Theo Huxtable. You know, you pop in and out every now and then, say what's up to Theo. And then like, I wasn't calling you a cockroach, I meant cockroach, the character on the cosmic.
SPEAKER_03I think I need to stay for about five more minutes, because I think he just tried to get John.
SPEAKER_02I said cockroach from the Huxtables. Like, cockroach was his friend that just popped up every now and then and then pop out. He wasn't like always there at their crib, you know what I mean? Y'all tripping, bro. Yeah, and cockroach is co uh cole. Cockroach and cold the same person. I'm just gonna busy.
SPEAKER_03I'm gonna start writing some shit down. See, cockroach is revels in the wrong way. Yeah, it did, it did. Like it did. Because back in my in Atlanta, that that yeah.
SPEAKER_02You don't call nobody that shit. I mean, you know, I ain't never had no cockroaches that's what we had back in the day of our serious shit. Yeah, it was only one cock in my house, bro. I ain't wasn't on that shit. Uh oh. Oh god. That was me, goddammit. No other ones in my house. His father had we had regular roaches. Regular roaches. Nah, we had all the hell no. I ain't had no cockroaches. I don't know what the fuck niggas be on with that. Like, y'all can have them. We had regular roaches, the little, the little joints. Like, I don't know what the fuck other people tell me. Sorry. I'm sorry. Yeah, that part. But yeah, so I ultimately I kind of use like a system of um of questions and and like and like things that that help me decipher whether a person like lying, or even if I give a fuck, right? Like a lot of times I gotta look at why are you telling me this? That'd be the main thing. Like you look at second shit, and I gotta know why are you telling me this? That once you tell me that, like, that's that's gonna tell me everything about what you're saying. Well, really, also you can answer that question on your own if you usually the first thing you need to ask yourself, and this is fucked up because it's true though, the first thing you need to ask yourself is what does this person have to gain with me knowing this? Because he ain't telling you this shit just because he's like wasting his motherfucking time or break.
SPEAKER_03Yeah, some people do.
SPEAKER_02Some people do, but like a lot of times, a lot of a lot of times what people value important to them may not be important to you. What's important to them is just wasting some of your time. Just just holding you up for a minute, distracting you. That's that's really all that's that's that's what's important to them. So because and because it's not important to you, you don't mind. But at the same time, it just threw you off. And that's all they wanted. It was important to them. You see what I'm saying? Yeah, that's what you might not be important to them. So again, I gotta ask myself, I gotta look at what type of person you are, what's important to you, what's not important to you. You know what I mean? What I see you, I have a pattern of doing, how you interact with other people, whether you uh first and foremost thing I look at when I'm judging a person, that let me know if I can like fuck with them, like fuck with them, or just like is do they love themselves? If a person don't love themselves, start wasting your time. Like, they ain't gonna love you more than they love themselves, and they don't love themselves, like let it like like you see where I'm going with this? So they a lot of times people have a misinterpretation of what love is, or just some, you know, everybody has a warped view of what love is. It's ultimately an attachment that has no earthly bounds. But everybody has this warped view of what love is and how it's manifested in this reality. See, but really, bro, uh, like if certain people will just stop. Authenticity is real love. Because that's saying I'm gonna be me. What else? No matter what, you happy. No matter what, I'm gonna be me. And that's authenticity. And then once that's self-love. So once you find that, that's the highest problem. Because I love myself and how original, flawed I am, how how my per imperfections make me perfect. Like I love all that about me. And once you learn the love, you're gonna see that in everybody. And once you see that in everybody, you can truly love somebody. Like, until then, you're not really like you think you love them, but it's more possession, lust, uh, uh uh, what's the other one? It's possessiveness, lust and and uh territorial, like um control. Like it's it's a lot of other things, but we we take those things and we associate them with what we call love. But love is not those things at all, and you don't truly know what that thing is. It has no, like I can't even real love is like self-love, and that's the first and only person you are required to love, honestly. But until you love that person, you ain't gonna love nobody else, not your kids. You think about this. How can you possibly love the branch and you don't love the tree? That's a deep shit. You feel me? Like, I'm not gonna, you're not gonna love your extensions, the things that are extensions of you if you don't love yourself. Everything that's reflecting you and that's around you, that's showing you love, you're gonna, you don't, if you don't love yourself, you you definitely don't respect this motherfucker that's loving somebody that like, what are you doing, bro? You don't need to just stay aware of that, aware of that. Like, if a person don't love themselves, they're not gonna love
Clean Your Space For Clarity
SPEAKER_02you. Uh, what I want to practice this week is clarity. Um, your environment, your immediate environment, your room, your house, your car, those things are reflections of your mental state. If you keep that clean, I promise you, watch how easier it is for your thought processes to go through. That's the first, whenever you're having cluttered thoughts or like you become confused or overwhelmed, clean your environment. Put everything where it goes. That's all cleaning your environment is is putting everything where it goes. That way, you don't have to think about where to find shit, like it's where it goes, so you don't have to expend any energy or time trying to find it or locate it. For one, number two, visually seeing your space clean and in order does something to your brain that helps you think a lot clearer. It's a psychological fact. So we're just gonna start with that this week, and that's uh next week we're gonna go over everything we went over so far, and then um, but next week we should. Be somewhat different, I promise you.
