Christian Girl Chat: Evangelizing and being led by The Holy Spirit

Hi besties🤍 today’s episode we share our hearts with the current season we are in. With so much going on around us we wanted to have a more relaxed conversation about the struggles of evangelizing, slowing down, and being led by the Holy Spirit. We had an eventful day that influenced a lot of this conversation so we hope you enjoy this episode and laugh with us!

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Hi besties. Hey besties. Welcome back to Jesus and Besties. I'm Jasmine. I'm Tatiana. Ooh, welcome back, y'all. We are so excited to just chat with you guys today. Literally just chat, have a girly Christian chat we've been wanting to do for a while. Um and yeah, so we're here.

SPEAKER_02 0:19

Yeah, we had pretty heavy topics the last two weeks, so we're excited to just chill, chill out a little bit.

SPEAKER_00 0:26

Have a couple laughs, you know, just relax. Yeah. Um, but do we have any personal updates, Tatiana?

SPEAKER_02 0:38

Not that I can think of, no. Girl! That was a really long but guys. I'm so sorry.

SPEAKER_00 0:41

I am so Tatiana, and even like it's like week three, and Tatiana has no update.

SPEAKER_02 0:47

Anybody watching be like, we just skip her. No, I'm just kidding. Guys, I really don't. I'm so sorry. I mean, I guess just one little thing. I mean, I guess today, like we evangelize, or we attempted to, well, I attempted to, which Jasmine thrived. But um I don't know. There's something, there's some classes that are like taking a break, so I will be having more open time during the week. I don't know if that's an update, but yeah, yeah. My very boring update. What about you? Like quickly.

SPEAKER_00 1:22

Um, I have just no real update, but on an well, okay, I am getting braces, guys. That's an update actually, because that is a physical update. I will be getting braces, so I'm actually a little nervous. Um, I've been having like a lot of just hard time with my insecurities lately, um, which I was like almost crying to my dentist yesterday. I was like, I am just um not ready for braces at 28 years old, but I'm gonna do it, take care of it now rather than later. And so I think that it's uh that itself is going to be just something that I have to open up to Jesus about, like my insecurities, and I just feel like oh well, here's you know, there's another thing that you know I have to kind of deal with, but again, it's not my own strength, my own effort. It is Jesus. So yeah, but other than that, um, yeah, let's go ahead and get started. I'm really excited to be able to just chat with you guys. Hopefully, we're not boring. We're never boring, and um, yeah, I'm just really excited. So, what do you want to chat about? Like, we're just like throwing it out there, like we're gonna talk about just random things. Obviously, it's gonna choose, it's gonna include Jesus, but like some things will, and some things are just gonna be like just random, but yeah, that's what I wanted.

SPEAKER_02 2:54

Yeah, I think we'll be dancing around the topic of evangelism.

SPEAKER_01 2:58

Yeah, for sure.

SPEAKER_02 2:59

What we've been learning. Jasmine's in, um, she's mentioned it in the past episodes that she's in a prophetic evangelism class. How did that last week go? I don't think did you go out and then we I don't think we filmed yet though. Oh, yeah, we have since you went out. How would how did that go?

SPEAKER_00 3:18

Um, so next week is our last time that we're gonna go out. It's like the class is over after that. Um, but last week was the first time that we were able to go out and evangelize in person at the grocery store, and so that itself was so oh my gosh, I just cannot explain the feeling of the Holy Spirit that day was like, oh, like such a rush, but it was like a good like rush, and it in it, you know, felt like heavy, but not in a bad way. It was just like very overwhelming, but in a good way, yeah. Um, and so we ended up going to the grocery uh grow uh sorry, we ended up going to the grocery store, and um we had like little cards and you know, Easter's coming up, so we were just like offering prayer to people, and you know, one thing I did notice is like how open people really are willing to listen. Um, I think sometimes we just get into our head about like rejection, which isn't as bad as I thought. Like I got rejected one time, but you know, I did what I you know felt like I needed to do, and I was drawn to this older woman, and she said no, but you know what you guys are doing is amazing, and I just blessed her and went on my way. But you know, you get them like one of the um leaders teaching the class was like, Well, you get them thinking about it, like you get them, you mention Jesus, and they kind of just start going like thinking about it, you never know, you know. And again, it's not our responsibility to just force them to believe or to, you know, but we did our part in planting a seed and the Lord will, you know, grow it.

SPEAKER_02 5:08

Wow, yeah. I remember one time I offered somebody prayer and they said no, and it was really awkward because I feel like I made them feel like if they said no, something bad was gonna happen because he had said, um, I hope I don't. And it was just really, really awkward. So I asked um one of the leaders at the church. I was like, Hey, this happened today, and I think it went really south and just not good. So, how do I just recover from that? And she told me, I think I told you this in the car the other day, that they have to go to bed with that fact that somebody saw me today. Yeah, and it's a very different question to ask. I don't think it's every day someone comes and asks you if you need prayer or anything like that, but like how you said it gets them thinking, it gets them thinking, and then also like before I started my walk with Jesus, I was very paranoid, and so like nowadays I feel like it's really hard to trust people.

SPEAKER_00 6:07

So I'd be like, Oh my gosh, why is this person like going up to me, wanting to talk to me, pray for me? Like, what is up? Like, are they trying to hurt me? Like, what if you just it's really hard to trust people nowadays? You can't just let your guard down, and I understand that. Um, but like one thing that I have learned and noticed, because let me tell you guys, it has been like we've said it in past episodes where me and Tatiana have tried to go out and evangelize. Like, this was a couple months ago, huh? When we first started to try to do it, and we just could not get ourselves to do it, not even like uh Jesus loves you, like it was so hard for us, and um just to see that we are now like able to see um to do it, we can talk about how today went because I told Tatiana yesterday, I was like, hey, like before we record our podcast, do you want to do you want to go ahead and um um like just drive around, we'll listen to worship music, we'll get coffee. Because by the way, Tatiana's never had Dutch Bros until today.

SPEAKER_02 7:16

I know 10 out of 10, by the way.

SPEAKER_00 7:19

Yeah, and so um I was like, we can worship, we can pray, and um we'll go out and hand out Easter cards for the Easter service at church. And she's like, Yeah, I'm down for that. So we ended up going, where did we go?

SPEAKER_02 7:34

We went to Stater Brothers because we also got gift cards. Yes, in case we wanted to just bless somebody um along with the note card for the Easter Times, and then we went to Dungeon Bros. wasn't there wasn't really a lot of people there. Um there was like two girls and another guy, but he left right after we ordered, and then we um we went back into Stater Brothers and then um we went to Target Yeah after that.

SPEAKER_00 8:01

So So at Stater Brothers we went in, we bought our our um Starbucks gift cards just in case I was like telling Tatiana, like sometimes like the conversations, what I've learned from like our evangelism classes, like they'll kind of like lead into something like people will open up, you know, it just depends. But um, our first person, she's been to our church, and I just told her, like, hey, like, you know, um, we're from a local church, and um, we just kind of wanted to offer to see if you if you wanted any prayer and needed any any prayer for anything specific. Um, and she said no, but we still got her thinking, and then I just handed her an Easter card with our times and services and all of that. So um just things like that. There was another girl with um, we went up to a lot of women with babies. I noticed. I noticed you do I noticed you went up to a lot of mothers too. I felt very drawn to them today. Really? Yeah, I don't I don't know what it was, but I just did. And you know, um, so we went up to another lady and and you know, I was just like introduced myself again and I asked, like, um, I was like, you know, like we just were from a local church and just asking if you need any prayer for anything, and she's like, I walked in like it's crazy, like this is how I know like God um really does like watch us because um, like I came in with my daughter um very anxious because I always go with my boyfriend everywhere, and so it was really hard to come, you know, and so that's how I know Jesus is watching, and I'm like, Jesus is watching us all the time, protecting us, like we'll be praying for you, praying for that anxiety, like to just go away. And then I really felt like just giving her a Starbucks card just so she can get some coffee, yeah. Um, and it just like you can tell, even though she didn't have and need any prayer, um, like she was grateful, and you can tell, and I was like, wow, like that is so good. I'm so glad, like that the Lord, you know, highlighted her because she came in with anxiety, and then if they denied prayer, we just blessed them, and it in the car we would actually pray for them.

SPEAKER_02 10:14

Yeah, but you can tell she was touched by it. Yeah, the mother, yeah, the two mothers who received it. I that's what I noticed. A lot of moms, yeah, a lot of moms.

SPEAKER_00 10:25

And then we when we went to Dutch and there was like nobody there really, it was kind of empty. And then um, we got in the car, prayed on the way to Target. Like, Lord, like I think you know, one thing I've learned in the evangelism class is really just praying, like Lord, like if there is anybody that you want us to just speak to and and you want to speak through us to them, like just please like do so. And it's actually just so it's crazy because you know, he he he draws you to people, you know? Um, and in Target, I was a little nervous, guys. I'm not gonna lie. I'm still getting used to like just going up to people and and doing all of that, and so it took me a while. We were walking around like weirdos, just looking at stuff.

SPEAKER_02 11:16

What did you say in the way out? You were like, people who walk into Target didn't buy anything.

SPEAKER_00 11:20

I know I used to notice people like that too before I became a believer. I was like, oh my gosh, that person did not buy anything. Is he here to like steal us?

SPEAKER_02 11:29

I had my I noticed I had my hands in my pocket, so I was like, oh my gosh, you probably think I stole something, but I swear I didn't, I just wanted my hands in my pocket.

SPEAKER_00 11:37

No, I just like I don't know. I think about like back then, you know, like how I what I used to think. Like, look at this.

SPEAKER_02 11:44

What did you think of people who evangelized before? Like, honestly, we can go back and forth on these questions.

SPEAKER_00 11:50

I would just be like back then, like, I don't think I've ever been approached, but like I I don't know, maybe people have tried and just like ignoring them, and I'm like, I don't want to talk to you. Like, I was very paranoid because of just so much that goes on in the world that it's so hard to trust people. Now that I have become like a believer, I am very much more trusting, a little bit more on my guard up, but um, I do trust people. I'm able to conversate with people and you know, um, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 12:23

I remember when I was younger, I was walking into um an Albertons and there was this guy, and he was standing outside screaming really loud to repent. And he had a big cardboard sign that had that on it, and I remember looking at my mom and she was like, He's on drugs, just stay close to me. And I was like, Oh my gosh. And I every single time somebody preaches about evangelism, I think of that day and how I don't want to look like that. So I feel like today when you were going up to people, I was definitely the student because I took the prophetic class, not the prophetic evangelism class. Um, so hopefully I can take it soon, but it's on it's the same days as um Bible study. But hopefully I can take it soon. But Jasmine did so good. I like want to laugh when you say, like, I was so nervous. I was like, I was so nervous. So good. But um, I told her because I had these like little Jesus loves you figurines in my pocket, so I was just like putting them out while she would like go talk to people, but I was like taking mental notes of like how to go about it and what to say. Um we're gonna try again next weekend. And I'm gonna go up to somebody. I'm gonna come back with an update and say, guys, I went up to somebody.

SPEAKER_00 13:33

Yeah, it's just so nice to be able to like go up to people and just seeing how much has changed and and just watching like how people appreciate it. Um, like today too, like we went up to somebody at Target and I was like, you know, introducing myself, asked if she need prayer, and she's like, Not me, but like my son, like just you know, he's on um just just life, you know, he's struggling with life. And I'm like, wow, like you know, so we were had the opportunity to pray with her. That was our first like one because most of them were rejections, but like it it's just you know, we we um bless them either way and we pray for them in the car, so even though they don't want prayer, but she did take it and it was nice. I invited her, she had a local church, but I invited her, you know, in case she didn't have have anywhere to go for Easter, but um yeah, just being able to go out and and like talk to people, and I feel like that is like what when I think about what like to do, I feel like when I talk to people, it's like you get to reach like the lost, you know what I mean? Like even with this podcast, like I was telling Tatiana, like I just like we are so grateful with the overwhelming support in a good way, um, from our community, from our, you know, um friends, from our leaders, but um, like the goal too is like to be able to reach people that are curious about Jesus or that just feel lost, heartbroken, and like give them hope that like you know, he can transform your life, that he can um change your life for the better and use all bad things for good, you know.

SPEAKER_02 15:14

Yeah. Is there something that you can think of in your life um that that you like swore up and down like this will never change? Like I'm I'm just this is just how I am, and Jesus like transformed it.

SPEAKER_00 15:25

Yeah, I was very like um prideful. Oh wow, yeah. Very like I was very prideful and I was very like such a hot head. And I oh my gosh. One thing I didn't think would change though is like my cussing.

SPEAKER_02 15:45

Really?

SPEAKER_00 15:47

Yeah, my c I never thought that would change. Like I knew I would cuss a lot, like a full-blown like sailor mouth.

SPEAKER_02 15:55

Yeah, the whole room, full blown. It's so funny because I can't see you doing that.

SPEAKER_00 16:00

You can't, I know it's taken me a lot, but like I I kid you not. Wow, like that is one thing that I just was like, wow, like I don't cuss as much. And if I do and it comes out, I'm like, like, I am so sorry. Like, even in the car, like I'll get road rage, guys. I'm not gonna lie. Like, I will get road rage. Doesn't happen a lot, but like, because I don't like to wish bad on anybody, like before, like, even before my walk with you, I'd be like, I hope you get a flat tire, but you don't get hurt, and like like I would like say that whole thing, but like now I just like don't I I just remember like that is Lord the Lord's child, and that that is what keeps me like you know, but before like when I would cuss and stuff, like I did not care. I cussed so bad. I grew up with four older brothers, like you know what I mean. I had not the best mouth, and so um, yeah, that is one thing, and now I just barely cr cuss.

SPEAKER_02 16:58

Wow, oh my gosh, yeah, so proud of you. Thank you. I I seriously can't see you being like like having a sailor mouth like that. I seriously can't. I mean, I know like words come out like just like in like when I hurt myself, I'll say like, ah, should you know? Yeah. But I'm like, oh free meal, or sorry, like that felt really bad.

SPEAKER_00 17:18

But wow, yeah, and even like my anger in sixth grade, I was put in like anger management by my like teacher that like just she loved me, but like she was just like I was just so crazy, and um, I would get angry with her, and I just wouldn't listen to her, and so she put me in one of those classes and it really helped me. And um as I've grown, obviously it was still like a hothead and stuff like that, but now like I just try to like see things from like other like point of view, like just what's the whole point of that? Like on Friday when I hit my car.

SPEAKER_02 18:00

I forgot about that.

SPEAKER_00 18:03

Yeah, like I didn't, I would usually react very upset, and like you posted something about that too. I was like, I'm gonna go back to the body. I did post about it because I was like, Yeah, because okay, guys, let me tell you the story. We were on the way from the gym to um Starbucks, okay? Because we're like, let's get Starbucks. It's Friday, like, why not?

SPEAKER_02 18:28

Oh, yeah, we got it, you gotta get gas, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 18:30

And I was like, wow, I'm not gonna make it home because I'm always like on empty.

SPEAKER_02 18:35

I know you'd been saying that since you've been gonna be like, we gotta get gas and we're good.

SPEAKER_00 18:39

And um, she's like, okay, so we go get the star bees, and then we come back. And my brother has always told me, you get so close to those poles at the gas station, you are gonna end up hitting it. And so I'm like, wow, but uh I was like, no, I don't, like, relax, like we're good. Tell me why. And I was like, not, I don't think I was on my phone or anything. I literally was just talking to Diana, and it was just my blind spot and like the my windshield, I didn't really see it, but I didn't even look because I'd never hit that, and so I like just crash into the pole, and I'm like, ugh, and I thought, like, dude, like this is gonna be so bad, and it is bad on my door, like it's a big like scrape and everything, but um yeah, I was like, oh man, like obviously I was like, Can you just take pictures of it? And so she did, and um, usually I'd be really upset, like it would ruin my whole day. But like I found myself at work, like working from home. I'm just like just having the best time of my life. I don't know why. It was just I was so happy, and I'm like, wow, this is what the joy of the Lord feels like because that could have ruined my mood, and I chose to not act that way because the enemy's not gonna get that. Like, you know, I'm not gonna like fall into that trap, and I'm going to like praise God, anyways, because material things are just material things, they're replaceable, and um, we just have to keep going. Like, it happened already, it's okay, we're gonna fix it. The Lord will provide, like, we're just gonna have that faith, and that's it, you know?

SPEAKER_02 20:22

And it happened in the morning, so you really could have let it ruin your entire morning. When I say morning, I mean like six in the morning, like six, seven in the morning. But it was in the morning, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 20:32

Oh, so it could have definitely ruined my day, but just things like that. It's like, wow, like that's how you know. You step back and you're like, the Lord really is working in my life. We just chose to laugh about it.

SPEAKER_02 20:42

Yeah, we did, because this lady saw. Oh my gosh, that was so funny. I just get out of the car because I'm like, let me take pictures, and I work at auto shop. So I'm like, I can have somebody like write an estimate, whatever. And this lady's just like staring, and I just go, I just get out of the car. I'm like, good morning. Like, what the heck? And I go around, I take the pictures, and then Jasmine rolls on the one and she's like, you know what? Can you play cats in front of my car? I was so embarrassed. I was like, of course, friend. You're gonna it's okay. We're all going through it. Literally the best. I she's but I keep smiling over at this like this clerk. Like, she's like getting the trash and stuff, and I'm like, can we like it?

SPEAKER_00 21:20

She didn't just see the oh my gosh, that really could have ruined my mood. And you know, the best thing about that is like obviously posting it, not to like get kudos, right? But like really to see, like, to like I love to show people like how the Lord, like a perfect example of like how the Lord is working in me and like teaching me all of this, because like I'm telling you, if I did not have Lord with me, like or in me, like, and he hasn't been working in my life, like I would not have reacted that way. Like, I would have reacted totally different, and um, that just comes to show like I I post it because I'm like, wow, like this is like the Lord working in me, like how. I usually would spiral and like I would let it ruin my day and freak out. I'd probably lie to my dad on how I did it. Like I didn't. I was honest. I was honest. I like that's one thing too. Like, you realize, like, you just it you change, and so um one girl like messaged me and she's like, Wow, like that really like clocked me in a way because I was upset for like I think like she said someone like spilled um something on her shoes on her white knee shoes, and she was really upset about it. But it's like that like is an example to me, you know, that I should react like you, like in yours is much more expensive than just some shoes. And I'm like, wow, like just things like that. Like, if I can be an example to people, then that is like a blessing because they get to see Jesus through me.

SPEAKER_02 22:53

And I feel like we don't notice our growth unless we go through trials like that, like big or small, like you never would have known the growth that you had had you not hit a pole, you know what I'm saying? But like to be able to see it and embrace it and like wow, like what the Lord is doing in me, even though it was a genuine accent, but like still, like I can see like I just have joined the Lord, we'll get it fixed, God's gonna provide, and you still like went on about your day, and you really easily could have let it ruin your day because it happened in the morning, but no, you went to work, you went to the worship night, and you were fine.

SPEAKER_00 23:27

Yeah, we went to worship night, it was so good, just praising God, anyways, like and through everything. And I'm sure, like there are times where we might be going through like financial struggles or mental health struggles or like loneliness, and it's like um really giving God room to work in those areas. Um, like we're not perfect, but just seeing things like that makes you just want to run even faster after the Lord.

SPEAKER_02 23:56

I think I'm finally getting to a point in my faith where I like am understanding like you're not perfect and you can't save someone, which I always struggled with. I think in a few episodes ago, I think we were talking about planting seeds, um, where I would panic about like oh my gosh, if they don't accept the prayer, like I must have done something wrong or I said it wrong, God can't do this. But now I've come to a place where I'm like, no, you sowed a seed, even if it's just telling somebody in the drive-thru like Jesus loves you.

SPEAKER_00 24:25

So what what okay, so why do you um why did you think that? Like why would you why would you get upset or you know, rethink that?

SPEAKER_02 24:36

I think comparison, um, I think just seeing these big leaders like do hard things and like seeing how God came through, and then wondering, like, okay, well, I stepped out, like seeing him step out in faith and doing really crazy things and how God came through, and then being like, Okay, well I stepped out in faith. Like, did God not come through? I think I also just didn't have like a good example. Like, they like and at the time, like I there was no prophetic evangelism class yet. Um, I don't even think I took the prophetic class, but um I think I'm just really hard on myself too. But I've come out of that a little bit and just realized, like, okay, you're gonna have a lot more energy if you just move forward and take the lesson with you. Yeah, it's like don't condemn yourself, you know?

SPEAKER_00 25:22

Yeah, it kind of reminded me of like today. We had a really good message. I'm actually gonna re-watch it later. But like I wrote in my notebook from today's message, the pastor was like, being right with God does not come by your own effort. And I feel like that really reminded me of like, wow, like everything today was just like what? Like, so crazy because it really aligned to kind of like what I've been like dealing with lately. And so, um, when he said that, I was like, what came to mind was basically like wow, like I am trying so hard. I I would have, if you would have asked me like a few months ago, like, are you trying to like overperform for the Lord? Like, are you trying to get somewhere that you're just I don't know where you're trying to get because that's what people have told me, and I'm like, well, I don't think so. But when I heard that today, I was like, wait, I think I am.

SPEAKER_02 26:19

I feel like the yeah, I feel like the message today brought a lot of good, like it articulated what I've been feeling very well. Yeah, like especially when he said, be led, not driven.

SPEAKER_00 26:33

Yeah, that was good, and that's what I'm saying. Like, I was like, wow, like I think even though I would have said no, I don't think I'm I'm overperforming, or I'm trying, you know, I was like, wait, I think I am. I'm trying to do all of this on my own effort and without even realizing it. And it really, like, it really um like just kind of stood out to me. And he had said something that said, like, religious versus irreligious ir irreligious, cannot say that religious versus irreligious operate of the same spirit of independence, which is like we I feel like we get so caught up in like um like just certain things, you know what I mean? And we even though we're like still trying to walk with the Lord, we have that spirit of independence, but it's like we have to really like let him work, it's we have to remember not to operate off of our own um self, you know, because we're never gonna get there if it's just us.

SPEAKER_02 27:37

Yeah, I love how he was talking about um being intentional and how your devotion life puts you in a position to receive from the Holy Spirit.

SPEAKER_01 27:47

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 27:47

I feel like lately um I've really been applying the quality over quantity in my devotion time and going really slow and not worrying if I finished a whole chapter because there have been so many times where I go slower, and I love how he also said don't outpace the Holy Spirit.

SPEAKER_00 28:03

Oh, yeah, I was just gonna say that, like where he said slow down, like that is what re what's uh required, like we outpace the Holy Spirit, and we like are like ahead of the Holy Spirit, or we have like the Holy Spirit follow us, and for me, I felt like wow, like that's so true because we I feel like I tend to get so busy, and it's like wow, like I need to like slow down because I'm having the Holy Spirit follow me, and I have to position myself to receive.

SPEAKER_02 28:34

I feel like yesterday, yeah, like so. I will I've been noticing I am getting like big revelations reading four verses. Not you know being so rushed to do a whole chapter because like yesterday I was reading um John 15, and had I went fast, I wouldn't have noticed that in there he says twice, this is my command, love each other. To the point where today in Galatians 5, in um the message at church, it also said, love each other. And I felt like had I went fast, I wouldn't have been able to connect those two. But because I was taking my time and going slow, I was able to remember and even entertain that thought, like, Lord, it do I need to work on loving others and loving myself, like how you command us, and then um just really getting into the culture at the time, the law at the time, because I feel like that really has a lot of impact in a story in the Bible, um, or like a letter that was written, and um just looking more into like commentary. I ordered um a study Bible where it has like that big chunk at the bottom of like the context at the time and what words mean. So I'm excited for that, but just like taking my time and not being so worried about like okay, I did my I'm not even on my Bible plan anymore. Like I'm still on John, but I'm pretty sure like I'm like a like five days behind because I'm going so slow. Yeah, but that's just that's just my piece.

SPEAKER_00 30:07

I'm not saying you know, I think like just um being like also intentional and like um tr waiting to hear what God has to say as well. Like we're so um quick to like close our Bibles and like okay, I gotta go. But it's like really made me realize today, like maybe I should slow down a little bit more. Um, which I don't read like I just read like a little like probably five, ten verses lately. But I want to like read a little bit more and then like actually spend time to see what the Lord is trying to tell me, which I feel like lately I have not been doing. So he had said something saying, like, if we're in a busy season, it's because we're choosing it. And for me, I was like, wow, lately I have been like really busy, and um, I'm starting to see it where I'm like, okay, I'm gonna step back from like just certain things, um, start serving certain days because I feel like I need to spend this intentional time with God and not rush it, not add him to a schedule, like just spend that time with him intentionally. Um, and so I thought that was that was good, and then also how he was like, become aware of what's driving you, yeah. You know, like many of us, we're not being led, we're being driven. So, what you were saying, like we're driven, we're being driven by like insecurity, for example. You know what I mean? And I thought that was really good. So just like the whole message today, uh, really like spoke to me um in different ways. And I feel like that was the Lord, like just telling me, like, I want you to just spend a little bit more time with me, like more time with me, being more intentional, um, and hearing what I have to say to you because lately you feel like you're not listening, Jasmine.

SPEAKER_02 31:55

Yeah, I feel like there was a couple moments in the message where I was like, Why are you reading my mail like that?

SPEAKER_00 32:00

Like, just you know, oh yeah, why are you what what is going on? Yeah, um, I do yeah, I think that too. And so overall it was really, really good. And I just feel like the Lord has so much um more to tell us, and we just have to slow it down.

SPEAKER_02 32:20

But so going into this next week, um, how will we apply the lot today? Let me know everything from today, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 32:30

Um, I think I'm just gonna well I think I'm just going to spend more time with him. So instead of like lately I've been feeling like I shouldn't do this, is like spending just 20 minutes with him before I go to work. I need like my full hour or like 40 minutes, like just a good, like just sit there and spend this whole hour just with him. No text messaging, no pauses, no nothing. Like, read the passage, ask the Lord, like, what is it you're trying to tell me? How you know what I mean? And really, like genuinely um spend it with him, and then also just stepping back. Our evangel my evangelism class is ending next week, so I'll have Tuesdays free and Fridays Fridays free. So um it things are gonna be slowing down a little bit more. Yeah, I'm excited, yeah. So super exciting things, and then just so much that we have you know planned and stuff like that, but just I think like our number one should be just spending time with the Lord.

SPEAKER_02 33:34

I think I'm gonna stay off social media this week. Yeah, yeah, I was talking to this lady um during the at this uh Bible study leaders meeting, and she was talking about how she can hear very very like she's very sensitive to the Lord's voice, but it's because she turns everything off. Like just unnecessary noise, and I was like, wow, I I need to do some reflecting and what I'm giving my attention to, what I'm listening to, and things like that. Not that like what I'm listening to or looking at on social media is bad, um, but if it's taking time away that I could be spending in here or praying or just something that will produce fruit and distracting fruit. And anything that's distracting, yeah. Um person do that. I think that's what I'm gonna do. That's good.

SPEAKER_00 34:24

That's super good. Yeah, it's almost the beginning of the um month, so I probably will do the same on the first week of April. So just you know, so many things, but I just I feel like especially right now, guys, like do you need to be more sensitive to um just being more sensitive to the Lord's voice. I feel like especially right now, because I think he's just trying to tell me, like, just wait, you know? Um, wait, wait, wait. And when I say wait, I think it's like just my dating life, you know, I've been like struggling with that and insecurities, my top things. Um, and so I feel like I've just been kind of like so on social media that I'm just not sensitive to his voice right now, and I'm not listening, and just like such a lover girl. It's like, oh, I love watching like you know, love movies or just social media, like couples that just love each other so much, and then I just hear the Lord like, but love me, like love me. I I am enough for you, and I feel like that's just been an ongoing like thing for me, is like truly, and I'm not like not just to say it, say it, but like truly be able to sit here and say, I have the Lord, and that is all I need. And if you're and being honest, like it's hard right now because we have these desires, but I'm working on and praying that like the Lord puts those desires after him, you know, and it's it it comes with me also making that effort of like having this intentional relationship with the Lord, and then you know, think about like dating and stuff when people say like, oh, like it's okay to date, like you know, but I'm like, oh, like I don't think I'm ready for that because I will be quick to idolize, so that's why I haven't placed myself in that position to even, you know, because I know in the back of my head I'm gonna like idolize, and I just it's hard for me to date when I haven't yet worked on like on that. Wow, yeah, that's so good, and that's why I always tell Telsana, like, how do you do it? How don't you like just freak out? Like, why don't you worry about like not marrying anyone like she? I'm always the one crashing out, like, ah, I wouldn't need loads, but it's like I am loved by the Lord.

SPEAKER_02 36:54

I used to do that too. It took it took time of spiraling and having the tantrums, but then just realizing like I feel like also too, it took a lot of like humbling, like seeing someone else's relationship just fall to the ground when I thought the whole time it was perfect, and I was like, oh Lord, I'll listen. Like, I'm so sorry. So it it did take time, but I I have my moments too. I did that all the time, but I think like the Lord like allowing me to see those up close really humbled me of like, oh, I I really don't know what I'm talking about. Yes, I have these desires, but like Lord, I'll I'll trust your time. So it's that's yeah.

SPEAKER_00 37:35

I love how like I freak out about one thing, she freaks out about one thing.

SPEAKER_02 37:39

But what we freak out about, the other person's strong and so we can be like, no, it's so it's okay. Like I I trust me, I hear you, I've been there. Let's chat, let's go get Froyo, like let's have a chat. That is that's so true. No, it's it's it's really and it's it's a testament to the verse of this podcast, Proverbs 1717. A brother is born in a time of need, and a friend is loyal at all times, and even like ironing, sharpening iron, you know, there's areas where I'm very dull in, like today. I just I was very like going out and talking to people. I'm like, I'm very I was like, are you okay? So I was like, I'm dull here, but Jasmine is like, let's let's just do it. So that's why I said I was like, let's do this next weekend. Like, you know, I think it's like a like all things, it's like a muscle that it's like, no, we're just I didn't hit it today. Let's just let's go to the gym another day and hit the muscle again. You know, we'll go out again next week.

SPEAKER_00 38:38

So nervous, guys. I was so nervous. Like the fact that she was like, Wow, you're just I'm like, girl, I want to throw up, and then vice versa.

SPEAKER_02 38:48

Like, there's other areas like that we can just vent to each other and be like, I've been there, it's okay, like I understand, you know. So it's yes, like balance each other very, very well, guys.

SPEAKER_00 38:57

It's crazy to think, like, just you know, how the Lord has orchestrated for us to like meet for us to become like literally besties. He knew that we were going to need each other, and like I could have met anybody else and become best friends with them, but like I feel like he had you to be my best friend specifically because like you're in the exact same season as me, and like I never thought that I would have that. And I'm telling you, I would pray and pray like Lord, just one good friend, one good friend, and I remember praying that prayer for years.

SPEAKER_02 39:33

Yeah, me too.

SPEAKER_00 39:34

And you were just taking so long.

SPEAKER_02 39:37

Like I was taking you so long. What do you mean? No, I actually really have a hard time like expressing myself. So I literally was telling Jasmine when we were waiting for a drinks at Dutch Prose that I was like, I said, I'm so glad we're best friends, and you just read me like a book. And because we had come out of Stater Brothers, and she could already feel the vibes like, oh she's getting a little nervous, like you know, and I told her, I was like, I'm so glad you're my best friend, you know me so well, you can remove like a book. She's like, Yeah, girl, because what's wrong with you? But she was like, it was all like encouraging. She was like, No, we're just we're gonna go up to people, we're gonna be fine, we're gonna pray before. And I like the Lord knew, like, all these two are gonna have a time. It's gonna be good. So I'm very, very grateful and thankful. Yeah, took you a minute, but it took me a yeah, I know. I but the timing is perfect. But the time, but the timing I feel like is so perfect, like especially with like the desires in our faith, yeah, like the growth, and even like the growth of like things around us, like how we're sharpening each other, and even this desire to like because I want to spread Jesus. There's just like a wall that I keep hitting that Jasmine helps me um get over. So um I'm gonna report back next week and share a testimony of how I went up to somebody, but um, yeah, just keep praying for that friend. He'll he'll come through, he'll answer. It's gonna glorify him, so it's you know, he will answer it.

SPEAKER_00 40:58

Yeah, we have definitely became such a just I don't like we go together real bad. Yeah, real weird in a good way. Yeah, um, but yeah, he has he really knew who he was placing together, and it is just hard to believe because I remember just praying, like before like just it feels like just yesterday we're just praying about it. Um, and now like I have my best friend, like she knows me to a T and like we're in the same season, and um we balance each other out perfectly, like we know when it like you know somebody's kind of like not in the best mood, like we've had technical issues in the past, and there's times where I'm kind of annoyed, there's times where she's like last weekend annoyed, last weekend was all quiet.

SPEAKER_02 41:51

I was like, girl, it's okay, like I know I was like, this is gonna, but we did, we did it, we did it. And I told her when she was leaving my house, I was like, I'm so sorry, but thank you so much for just being that happy go lucky. And you're like, of course, girl, we did it. God's got us. What are you talking about? But then there's been other times where the coin is flipped and it's been different, and we just like sharpen each other like that, so it's very balanced, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 42:20

So balanced, yeah. Praise God, yeah, praise God. Uh yeah, so yeah, but I am so glad that we were able to like just sit here and talk about um Jesus. Before we end though, I do want to ask you what is like one like overall thing that you enjoyed from today from evangelizing and meeting people and talking to them, going to different stores.

SPEAKER_02 42:49

I think seeing that it's even though I was super scared, I think just seeing it's really not that bad. Yeah, I think people are way more receptive and searching for the gospel and truth way more than we can even like think. I think the Lord is already prepared. I'm praying for a revival, but also praying that like we could be a part of it.

SPEAKER_03 43:13

Yeah, right?

SPEAKER_02 43:14

But like, or I'm sorry, I want to start praying that and I'm hoping for a like revival. I want to see people come to Jesus and just praying more into that. But um I think it seems like the Lord is like already preparing hearts. Yeah, like even those two, like even though that first one who was a mom who like she said she had anxiety, like she we didn't pray over her right there, but she told us, like, that's so weird. Like, I know God sees me because I'm so anxious. I usually come with my boyfriend.

SPEAKER_03 43:45

That was good.

SPEAKER_02 43:46

That one was amazing. I think little God wings. So I think this week, too. Also, I'm gonna pray more into that. Like, Lord, how can I be more bold? How can I be a part of that revival? How can we stir your church? To also press into that because it's hard and it's scary, but it's I feel like once you like getting out and going into it, I like even right now I'm thinking I'm like, I think I like got way too into it. Um, but also like going in pairs is also good.

SPEAKER_00 44:14

Yeah, um, I the we did have one challenging one where we were eating all the food. Oh food. Yeah, I wanted to mention that because I was like, uh no one.

SPEAKER_02 44:28

You should you should because you never know someone will run into that.

SPEAKER_00 44:31

Yeah, so there is we were in the drive-thru to get food, and a guy goes up to me and I was like, hi, and he was like, hi, and he was like, uh, I was like, he was like, I'm um I'm just trying to eat, like, you know, would you get something for me? And I was like, okay, what would you like? And he was like, um, told me his order, and I was like, okay, but can I pray for you after? And he was like, um, I'm a prophet, so don't, so don't pray in Jesus' name, but yes, you can. And like I was like, okay, I'll be back with the food. And then I rolled up my window and I'm like, what does that mean? That was a new one. I that was such a new I've never I've never heard of that. Well, I mean in my two days of evangelizing or like that. You know, it's been like two weeks, but I've never heard of that. I have not heard of that, and so I actually messaged, like, I texted one of the leaders of our like evangelism class and she's like, Can you call me? And I told her, and she's like, Okay, like it sounds like he's rejecting like Jesus at this time. Um, so like what you like clearly rejecting it, you know, rejecting him. So um, like you can just give him the food and then just privately like pray for him because like I we were not about to pray without in Jesus' name, you know what I mean? Like we pray and we will pray in Jesus' name no matter what. And so um that was like a little hard for me because I like was like wow, like I never have experienced, I've experienced rejection, just not like rejection like that. And so it kind of hurt, it was like, mm, but like I got you food, and like you're not going to like say yes to Jesus, but like it's not my part to grow that, and so it is our job to be obedient. We did what we could, we reflected Jesus in that way, and um by giving him food, and we privately like prayed for him in Jesus' name, yeah. Um, and the Lord will be in charge of you know uh growing that in his heart, you know, that that seed in his heart, and we just pray that it lands on good soil, you know, and it was hard because you know, we're not always going to get good um outcomes. We pray for them, you know. But yeah.

unknown 47:02

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 47:03

I don't think I feel like he wasn't all the way there.

SPEAKER_00 47:05

Like I don't know if he might have been like on something, but um but it's still yeah, still we just expect, you know, people to react a different way, and when it goes another way, we're like, that was new, you know. And so we just pray, we love, and we we show him you know, kindness.

SPEAKER_02 47:25

I think it's also good to have Weiss Counsel as well because Jasmine had called um the teacher who does the prophetic evangelism class and just asked, like, what is this? Because I never heard that before. But um it was a curveball. But um, yeah, she walked you through like what you can do and to how to go about it, and I think we went the best we could.

SPEAKER_00 47:48

We have yeah, we have amazing, like just leadership and knowledgeable people, and yeah, we're so grateful. Yeah, amen. Yeah, so we talked a lot about vaginalizing. Is this even a girl chat? I think it was like it's it's a mix of everything, guys. We hope that you guys, you know, can start even thinking about it, like even if you don't know what to say, like one thing I've learned is like your testimony, like how you've encountered God and how God has changed your life in 30 seconds.

SPEAKER_02 48:22

I always keep testimonies in my back pocket because you never know. I remember I had a coworker who was saying something about um bills, and I had a testimony, like, oh my gosh, like my mom got a check in the mail of from the insurance company that they just so happened to overcharge her, and of all times they gave her the refund now, and then um he started talking about well, you know, the government and everyone's in office, and I was like, you know what? And I took a deep breath and I was like, Jesus will always be on the throne and rule. A president will come in and a president will go out, and anyone will come in, and that will change, but Jesus won't, and he was like, you know what? And you could he didn't accept Jesus right there, but um a seed was planted, so I think for me that's what I like how you're saying, like learning how to just focus on sowing the seeds and letting God water them and growing them and doing the rest.

SPEAKER_00 49:15

Yeah, sometimes we'll forget, I think, you know, we're like oh, this and this, but sometimes um it it's just a good reminder, you know. And it's not oh go ahead, sorry. Yeah, I was gonna say like God will take care of it.

SPEAKER_02 49:30

Yeah, it's not always about like a debate on what the Bible says. I feel like um I don't know if it was somebody at our church, but they said um, you know, people can debate what the Bible says, but you cannot um debate a testimony.

SPEAKER_00 49:45

Oh yeah, that was good. That was at church.

SPEAKER_02 49:47

Yeah, I think that was an evangelism message. You cannot, yeah, when we went twice and on a Sunday because it was so good we went later to go see it.

SPEAKER_00 49:54

Oh yeah, that's the day we tried evangelizing for the first time. Yeah, and it was a fail. We didn't talk to anybody, we were so scared.

SPEAKER_02 50:01

I think we were hungry though, and it was hot and I I no, I was scared.

SPEAKER_00 50:06

I was scared and hungry, but it's okay.

SPEAKER_02 50:08

We got through the city.

SPEAKER_00 50:09

Oh, I was scared. I'm not gonna, but yeah, it it it's crazy how things have changed from a couple months. I mean, that was not that was just last year, and even just awareness too. Mm-hmm. So yeah, it's God is so good, you get to see it, and um, you can just continue to see the transformation um that He's He's done in our lives.

SPEAKER_02 50:33

He's so good. I love him. So good.

SPEAKER_00 50:36

Um, but yeah, guys, I just want to thank you. We want to thank you so much just for listening to our episodes, and um we didn't like mention too many verses today, but just keep in mind, um, like just open up your Bible. You never know what God wants to talk to you about. Um, and it it's so you know, like crazy to think about how intentional he is, and it blows my mind every single time.

SPEAKER_01 51:04

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 51:04

Um, just because he's very intentional, and um, you just never know what he can be speaking when you open your Bible. Um, and it's just reading your Bible and not just reading it, but like awaiting for him to respond and see what he has to say.

SPEAKER_02 51:22

I'm so sorry. You were saying such a heartfelt like message. I just like hiccuped into the mic.

SPEAKER_00 51:27

Oh, you did? If you guys can hear it, I'm so sorry. It was a hiccup. But yes, um, but yeah. So we just want to thank you. Um, we will have our next episode next week. Thank you guys so much for the support. If you guys have any friends, any family, just share this podcast to them, anybody that you think may need to hear. Um, and we encourage you guys to go out this week and even if it's Jesus loves you, to just tell someone we should be loving our neighbors just as Jesus loves us. Um, and we just encourage you guys, just be kind, be patient. Um, if you can't, you know, if you're very nervous to say Jesus loves you, show uh reflect Jesus within you.

SPEAKER_02 52:10

So yeah. So good. Anything else, Tatiana? I don't think so, but if you're someone who's like me and you're scared, um, a very good start is just going through the drive-thru.

SPEAKER_00 52:21

Oh yeah. That way you can just grab your food and speed off. Jesus loves you.

SPEAKER_02 52:24

But it gets you out there of like just saying Jesus loves you. That's also, you know, evangelizing, and you're telling somebody Jesus loves you, and they have to go on about their day, knowing like, oh, someone told me that, you know. So it's a good start. Um just keep at it. You know, I didn't have a good day today, but we're gonna go again next weekend, or maybe sometime this week, and we're gonna try again.

SPEAKER_01 52:45

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 52:46

So it's like a muscle. Just keep going to the gym and lifting the weights.

SPEAKER_00 52:50

Yeah, of course. Yeah, all right. Let's end in prayer. Okay, Heavenly Father, thank you for this day. Thank you for just waking us up, Lord, and your daily blessings that you give us every single day, Lord. I just want to lift up everybody on the other side of this podcast. So whoever is listening, Lord, may you just continue to work in their lives um and continue to just be so evident in their lives, Lord. Um, and I just pray that each and every one of us just that you just fill us with boldness and just to go um go out and share your gospel, Lord, the good news, um, and to be able to just spread your um your love to our neighbors, to our community, Jesus. I pray that you just give us the strength, the knowledge, the wisdom to go out and just share your love and the word, Lord. Um, even if it's just their testimony, even if it's Jesus loves you, Lord, we just pray that whoever is encouraged by this message, um, that they go out and just spread that and that you will grow and water and grow that um seed, Lord, and make it just turn so beautiful. And and I just believe that you will transform lives, Lord, that we will be able to just witness so much of it, Lord. Um, and I just want to pray over everybody's household, their family, Lord, their finances, their health. Um, that you just continue to um place a head of protection over all of our listeners and everybody in Jesus' name, amen.

SPEAKER_02 54:34

Amen. Lord Jesus, thank you for sending your son to die on the cross for me. I am a sinner and believe that you came for me, you died on the cross, and you rose again three days later. I believe you're the Son of God. Come into my heart, fill me with your Holy Spirit. Um, I make you my Lord and Savior. In Jesus' name, amen.

SPEAKER_00 54:52

Amen. All righty guys. If you guys um um need prayer, make sure to just click in our link. There is a place where you can put your prayer, you can DM us, and we'll be more than happy to pray for you guys. All right, I'll see you guys, or we'll see you guys next week. Um, and we don't know the name of the topic yet. Yeah. Well, we do, but it's okay. We need discussion. Long, long ending over here. And by the way, I'm just kidding. All right, guys, we'll be back. Bye. Bye.