The Mechanics of Familial Destabilization, Part 2: The Nuanced Audit

In the first pass at this April 2022 porch tape, I tried to stay clinical. I was operating on pure exhaustion after a chaotic 3:00 AM work shift, and let’s be honest—I missed a massive amount of nuance. In this second pass, I'm done holding back. We are going straight back to the porch for a raw, unfiltered, and forensic audit of the recording.

Fair warning before you press play: this is going to be a highly aggressive, incredibly angry episode. I get completely pissed off listening to this garbage, and it’s going to get vicious. If you have ever dealt with family gaslighting, betrayal trauma, or people trying to run a smear campaign against your character, you need to prepare yourself right now because this episode is going to trigger you.

We aren't here to put on a sensationalized reality TV show. We are here to conduct a surgical teardown of a calculated manipulation campaign. We are breaking down the exact mechanics of weaponized vulnerabilities, interpersonal triangulation, and the precise moment the mask slips on a toxic play for third-party custody. No more playing nice, no more filtering the frustration. Let's look at the data.

Transcript

SPEAKER_10 0:00

Listen, y'all, this episode's very raw and emotional, and I get really fucking angry quite a few times throughout it. I'm just warning you ahead of time, this is a thing. Please be ready for it. If you're not prepared for that kind of visceral uh storytelling, please don't listen to this episode. Or better yet, don't listen to any episode where I have to, with nuance, audit a recording. Okay? This is a fucking warning to everybody out there for your mental health and your stress that this could fucking trigger you. It's highly possible. I'm just trying to give you a heads up here. I always do this whenever I get into really serious shit, and this is really serious shit. So you've been forewarned. There's your disclaimer, there's your chance to, I don't know, go put on Emily Post and learn how to be a woman or something. Figure it out. Just wanted to make sure that when you're listening to these this particular two-hour director's cut edition of the analyzation of the April 7th recording with Angela, we're gonna get into some pretty angry shit. And I'm clearly not over these things. So you've been warned. If you've been listening to this project for any length of time, you already know that about me. In the first pass of the uh April 7th, 2022 recording with Angela, I told you I hadn't listened to the audio. I told you I was working purely off transcripts to keep a clinical safe distance from the trauma. The truth is I did listen to it. I listened to it during a time when it probably would have been best for me to wait until I, you know, didn't have to go to work or anything of that nature. We still got through the day and the night. But being stuck until three in the morning at work didn't help, and once I got home, I was exhausted, overwhelmed, and I was just trying to survive the day without losing my mind. Look, because of that, I missed a lot. I tried to rely on artificial intelligence and data points to break down what was happening on that porch. Behind it when we were doing the Easter egg hunt. And most pivotally, when I was putting her down and Angela gave me a hug as I'm sitting there crying, realizing I'm about to lose my kids, and I think I'm being set up. Here's the problem. Artificial intelligence does not understand human nuance. And it's even smart enough to acknowledge this. A machine can read and analyze the entire transcript, the audio, even I dare say, the tone of said audio. But I dare argue it also on the flip side can make mistakes. It may not hear the inflections, the calculated pauses, or the visceral reality of a biological ally executing a trap like this. So we are doing a second pass. Now I would imagine what a critic would say. I feel like somebody would look at this and say, well, why are you still talking about a 12-minute conversation from four years ago? You're obsessed. You need to move on. Let's address that right now. I think that's fair. There is a massive difference between obsession and precision. When a hostile war structure is built to systematically strip away your children, you don't just move out. From the evidence, you're bound by human duty to audit it. You put it under a microscope so that it can never be used against you. Or anyone else. Ever again. This is evil mental Stephen King shit. But I also need to cement the historical record for Chiara and Olivia. Now, what you're gonna hear is not a reality TV recap. This is a forensic roast of the single most vicious, clumsily executed. Ah fuck, I didn't make the jump. As I was saying, it is a forensic roast of the single most vicious, clumsily exhausted gaslighting campaign I have ever witnessed. It is the real-time breakdown of a sister who desperately needs to focus on having her own kids instead of actively trying to steal mine. Are you ready to dive into this absolute nightmare of an audio recording?

SPEAKER_02 8:04

Good. Or not.

SPEAKER_10 8:20

Grab some food, whatever, you know, smoke it if you got it. That type of situation. Sit back and uh, we're gonna get into this right now.

SPEAKER_11 9:00

I don't know. But anyways.

SPEAKER_04 9:04

I know showing concern, and um, I guess they already knew about it, but um and this makes sense.

SPEAKER_10 9:12

Dad was the first person that I called. See, dad was somebody that I trusted implicitly. I told my dad everything. And there were things that I was really angry about that I talked to dad about. There were things that I felt I was getting bent over that I talked to dad about. There were also things that happened in real time that I talked to dad about. And it turned out he was just either either he knew already because Angela had let him in on it, or he was genuinely surprised because it was something Angela did that he didn't expect or had initiated that he didn't expect, you know, something along that nature. But dad was my first call, and then he had asked me when I was in the hospital, rather, for context, and I called dad to let him know that look, I'm just having a depressive episode, and I need some time to myself. That's all there is to it. And he's like, Well, you should call your sister and check in with her. And I'm like, I don't really want to, you know, like I just kinda I'm kind of cool on that. And uh now he's just like, oh, you should do it, you should call and check on. It was just fuck, man. Like, so at the end of the day, I ended up calling Angela and telling her how I was. And one of two things could have happened because uh Monica did tell me that Angela did tell her I had overdosed unfentanyl. And I think I mentioned it before when I talked about this. Fentanyl will kill you like really quick, and I mean I did want to die, so like it was logical. I think it makes sense. Anyway, the point that I'm making is that either dad or Angela told Monica, and they didn't tell Monica the truth, and Monica did admit that Angela was the one who told her, so that's where we are with that. So let's continue.

SPEAKER_04 11:22

I uh it's okay, I can hear difficult things. No, I said that you know, I mean, I mean, we can I don't know how they are in religious state, but I said, you know, I've been praying a lot for you and thank you.

SPEAKER_11 11:37

It's been helping. Money, guy! Yeah, I look at the birdies. So there's lots of buzzards? Yeah, they're buzzards. The buzzard.

SPEAKER_10 11:47

So what we have here is not only foreshadowing with the buzzards, which which, yeah, this is really happening. You're you're hearing this, like you can't make this shit up. On top of that, you absolutely do 100% come to the realization that Angela's piety is just going through the fucking roof. I pray for you. I pray for you every day and night. I pray that the Lord kills you so I could take your kids and lie about being abused when I was a child and every single day that I was born and alive, and I can't tell if it was Elmo or Papa Smurf or Oscar the Crabship. But fuck me when I was a kid, but I'll blame my brother because he's the easiest target, and I never got help for my mental health issues. Fucking what? Like, outta here with your bullshit. You're insane. And and and and and and you gotta remember, Kiara is let's think of the context of where this conversation is. Kiara is too. Monica has clearly said it's okay for Kiara to be with Angela. Angela is trusted at this point, which I am as completely taken aback at. Angela is no more trustworthy than God would be to not have flooded the earth for those of y'all who believe that it happened, right? So, as certain as y'all believe that that is, it is just as certain that Angela is fucked hearted, not worth trusting. God, like it is so insane to me that she's that that's a thing. But I'll pray for you. I'll pray for you, okay? I pray for you. Fuck out of here with your prayers. What are you talking about? Thoughts of prayers never did jack shit. Court order is what did shit. Court order is what's letting me see my kid, not you. So fuck off, like, with all your bullshit. And and uh, I'm not allowed to like respond how any person could knowingly justifiably want to respond, but you you got a kid to think about. When you're a parent, that thought does cross your mind. I'm glad it did. I'm glad it did when it did. There was a chance that I could have just screamed at her in front of Kiara, and look at that would do a world of good for the the ops, but here's the fact never will Chiara or Olivia be able to say dad screamed at mom or Brandon or Mima or Pop Pop or Poppy or Nanasu. They can't say that. I have recordings where I'm interacting with them in the most abusive of ways that that's like listen to what the fuck you're listening to now. We haven't even gotten into the first minute of this shit. Remember, AI forgets human nuance, and I failed to realize that in avoiding trauma, you gotta confront it again sometime. You've gotta be you've gotta be afraid, or you've gotta not be afraid to confront it. And I admit wholeheartedly that yeah, I I didn't want to hear her fucking voice. Listening to her voice um is like George Carlin says, watching flies fuck. And and I just don't want to fucking do it, man. God. I'm sorry, I forgot one more thing. I also don't mean a fucking word of what I'm saying to her, and here's the thing. I've said that I'm a bad liar. We've agreed on this, yeah? Angela's dumb as fuck. And she doesn't realize that I'm not telling the truth to her when I'm saying, oh, thank you for praying. It really helps. It really what the fuck? That shit didn't help no more than a band aid would help a carburetor from not working correctly. Like, what the fuck are you talking about? No, absolutely not. No, thoughts of prayers are bullshit. Like fucking like God and Jesus certainly say, yeah, you can pray to us and lay all your burdens on us and all that jazz. But don't you think after a while you should just kind of be like, hey, I'm on earth and maybe I've gotta be fucking self-sufficient a little bit and kind of make make things happen for me instead of you know relying on everybody else and you know, fuck my pride? Like it's just it's it's crazy, but no. I anything that I'm saying to Angela when I'm talking to her about her abusive um attempts at conversation and her implementation of this conspiracy that I allege is happening, all that jazz, um, and I don't mean a fucking word that I'm saying to her. When I'm talking about having Brian as an attorney and all that, well, yeah, dad loaned me $1,500. Um and actually, let's talk about that story really fast. So, dad, um I I say to dad that uh, hey, look, I need to be real with you, I'm swallowing my pride here. I'm getting a settlement soon, and I can pay you back, but I need to borrow $1,500 and I'll I'll give you like, you know, interest. And I think $3,000 would be a good. I thought it was a good gesture. I really did because I was getting a settlement. I was like, okay, I'll cool. And dad is like, uh, well, I want six thousand dollars because you owe me money, and there's a piece of paper and a notebook with what you owe me, but I can't find the paper, and I think you ripped it out. I'm just like, fuck you, I did not. I have no idea about your bullshit. I don't owe you, whatever. Just I don't care. I'm thinking about Kiara, I'm not thinking about anything else. Fine, that sounds good. Did I pay him back? Yeah, I drove straight to him with fucking $6,000 and $100 bills and slapped it on his fucking table. And I just made I made him tell me that this was over and that I owe him fuck all nothing anymore. And he did. He tried to say, oh, this is good for now, and I'm like, no, I don't there is no this is good for now. Are we done? Are we fucking done with this? Because I'm not doing this anymore. Yeah, we're done. You don't owe me anything anymore. Good. So and then he does the whole, you're the only Myers family member to uh pay me back. The only no, you're the only Myers kid to pay me back. Lion motherfucker. Lion motherfucker. Well, Angela never paid him back for shit. Like, uh, that would have been James, her husband. James, he's a good man. I feel bad for that motherfucker, so oh my god, like he's married to my sister. That must be a fucking nightmare. Like he must be living just a fucking nightmare and wanting to work more just not to be around her stupid fucking ass. Jesus wept. Anywho, yeah, I didn't mean I didn't mean jack fucking shit that I said to her when it came to like anything that I had to say to keep the peace so I could be around my kid. Okay? Facts. Uh, I definitely meant what I said about the attorney part, because I was trying my best to hold my composure. And yeah, I did say some fucking Machismo things about Brandon that I do mean. Um, well, I meant it at the time. I think that there's nothing that's changed to change my opinion of those things. And if he wants to talk about it ever, he's you're well, Brandon, you're welcome to talk to me. Like, I'm, you know, I ain't gonna throw punches at you, man. I'm like, I I mean you're welcome to talk. Uh my number hasn't changed. There's no restraining order on me. Y'all aren't talking to me on purpose because of y'all. I'm I have an open line of communication with everybody. So my phone number hasn't blocked anyone, my Facebook hasn't blocked anybody. It we are worried how how people cannot know about this podcast is fuck all beyond me. But anyways, let's get back into this recording.

SPEAKER_04 19:36

Yeah, I you were you were saying but um Bran, I said we can um I said, you know, I've been praying a lot for you, and um you know, I pray daily for you, nightly, and during the day, and then you know, anytime I pray, I pray for you. Well, it really helps for you.

SPEAKER_11 19:54

Thank you.

SPEAKER_04 19:55

Absolutely.

SPEAKER_11 19:56

Seriously.

SPEAKER_08 19:57

You're very welcome.

SPEAKER_10 20:01

No, didn't help worth the shit. Now here's the thing. Unless your prayers were like, well, that wouldn't even matter if that'd be more like truth. Unless your prayers were something along the lines of ruin my brother's life and help me lie about shit that never happened so I can take his fucking kids. Uh, you know what? If that was your your deal, then hey, you did succeed in in I don't know if it was so much God listened to you as much as it as it is that shit happened. Because I will tell you this much that the Lord takes care of drunks and fools. Now, I might not really be much of an alcohol person and ain't my jam, but I'll tell you this like I'm kind of stupid from time to time. And with that being said, uh, I think it's fair to mention that the Lord's done me a couple of favors too, Angela. So I think he's doing you a favor by just, you know, making sure you do you far the fuck away from me. Because I don't like you and I just don't want to be around you. And I don't know if you notice, but nobody else does either. I pray for you night and day. Can you feel my piety? Can you feel it? It's it's really big. Can you feel it? I'm praying for you. I'm a good person. I pray. I'm praying. The Lord says that this is what we do. We pray. We make sure that you know it too. I mean, like, I thought Jesus was all like just do good. I didn't realize he was like, yo, do good and fucking tell everybody their face that you're doing good so they know it, so they would never suspect you of being the orchestrator of the biggest fucking kid theft crime of the century. Fuck.

SPEAKER_09 21:46

Thank you. It really helps. Seriously, seriously, Angela. It really helps.

SPEAKER_10 21:52

She believed this shit. She thought that I was I'm not a good liar. And I'm telling you, somebody, some if I hadn't done this like To a person who is intelligent, they would have been like, I think you're full of shit, Steven. You would not tell me that thoughts and prayers really. Anyone who knows me would it's not that I don't believe in God, it's that I don't believe in bullshit. All right. That's bullshit. That's literally like if an angel from heaven was dukeing and his toilet broke and then it came down from the clouds and it landed somewhere on the on earth, and someone made a hamburger out of it and served it in a three-star Michelin restaurant. Some Pipin La PewPew shit. Like, fuck out of here with I pray for you every day and it helps. It makes me feel good. You know, I'm saying it makes me feel good. The Lord said that if I tell you that I pray for you, you know, he would give me a dollar, and he would also let me have an OnlyFans account where I can use an AI picture of a fat girl that's not real and take pictures of my feet and sell them for $50 a pop, man. Dude, she's an idiot. Holy shit. Oh, hold on a second. All right. Uh let's get back to it before we do it.

SPEAKER_11 23:30

Sweet. And uh, I'm not really concerned about Brandon at all.

SPEAKER_04 23:36

Um you got daddy a rock? Show daddy, don't come over here.

SPEAKER_11 23:41

I mean, it makes me a little uh frustrated that he would want to adopt Olivia considering I've been there her entire life, and like literally uh he's just a replacement.

SPEAKER_10 23:51

100% completely empirical, absolutely accurate. I I was definitely replaced. Now, I'm also the only father at this point that Olivia knows. Okay, and between this time and June 14th, I believe it was, I believe, of 2021. I only got to see Olivia a handful of times, and eventually Monica just stopped bringing her around. Which leads me to talk about today, as in a couple of hours ago. So Chiara came over today and we had a blast. And we went and got Domino's pizza. We all had dinner with pizza and Sprite. It was amazing. Chiara left me a wonderful message on the blackboard that I got to see before or after I got home. I was really depressed because you know I had to give her back. Here's the thing, though, like when I pulled up to I pulled up to Starbucks, right? I'm Burlington off Maple Avenue to uh um to uh drop Chiara off. And Olivia's in the car, and I can see her watching me. I think it's fucked up that, you know, I'm being kept from this child. Like for reasons that I've already called out publicly, like, I have publicly denounced the people who have said anything about me being abusive towards Angela or my kids. I have stood on 10 toes with this. I will always 100% stand on 10 toes with this. If anyone has anything to say about that, my phone number has not changed. I could tell you this. Uh, the Alamance County Sheriff's Department don't give a fuck. And like my lawyer, well, now judge, but he's a lawyer, uh, or a judge now, I'm sorry, my words got jumbled. My now, my then lawyer, now he's a judge, uh district court judge, uh Brian Ray. He did tell me that just because people say things doesn't mean that they're true. And he was trying to make me feel better about the bullshit that I saw in the back of the 50C that Angela had read. Um, I have that, and we're going to have we've talked about it, and we've all openly discussed it. I've openly discussed these things. You have to remember, Ops is not expecting me to talk about fuck all shit that would embarrass me. They expect they expect me, and this is like Dad Sue and Angela, they expect me, right, to react like I'm gonna scream or do something uncharacteristic. Like, I'm not afraid to yell at those motherfuckers, and I've done that before. Oh yeah, well they deserved it. They're sometimes they're fucking assholes and they deserve to be fucking yelled at. Sometimes, if you're an asshole, you deserve to be yelled at. What the fuck? Like, how is this how is anyone surprised by that line of thinking? Holy shit. But what what what we're failing to realize here is that I don't mind giving Angela a little bit of insight into me not really caring about what Monica's partner thinks, because at the time, like I had also been fresh off of reading text messages in his phone that I was able to read because of the dumbass incident where he inadvertently gave me access to his phone. Uh, for details, you can just listen to the last podcast podcast episode and go near the end, about five, ten minutes, and that's where I start talking about the story. Um, but like I don't really care what anyone's opinion is about this custody battle, other than Monica's, um, Kiara's, and Olivia's. That's it. Nobody else. Uh, anybody else? I take their opinion, as Angela says, with a grain of salt. However, she doesn't understand the words that she's using to try to tell the lie that she's perpetuating and gets caught so horribly that a screen door in a submarine would have a better chance of keeping it afloat than her lies. Alright, let's get back to this. There's also another thing that is incredibly worth bringing up, and I feel like I need to do that now. Before we continue. So I'm I'm coming to terms with the the empirical fact that I am not over this shit. By any means. I uh done so much therapy and it still doesn't seem to have helped. I've taken it seriously, I've done the things and the stuff, and it just astounds me to no end that even though hang on. Sorry. It astounds me to no end that even though there is a there is an absolute effort, a strong, tangible effort made by me to get over this shit. And I I'm failing miserably. I don't know if I need to explore another form of therapy or whatnot. But the fact remains that I'm required to, by the court order, to give Monica's lawyer my medical medical records from where I currently seek mental health help, which is RHA in High Point. And I can't tell you how damaging that is to me in the context of my actual mental health recovery. Like, there's no doubt that this whole experience, this whole conspiracy, has just utterly destroyed and changed me. There's no doubt in that. But I'm getting to the point where it's it's affecting everything in my life. I mean, even my job. Like, there are people who know about this podcast at work, and they're just like, holy fuck. I am like what? No one's ever done this before. Nobody has ever put themselves out like this on any kind of media, let alone a podcast. There's no reality TV show like this, following a dad around who got fucked. There's no radio show, there's no blog that's super uber popular. Like we're talking millions and millions and millions of views and followers. There's nothing. There's even nothing in the the the zero follower sense. It's with the exception of people telling their stories online in various Facebook comments and things like that. Or the father's rights movement, or make parental alienation go away movements, all those things. Like to me, to me, it's just I feel like I'm talking in circles. At the end of the day, like this bothers me so much. It is tormenting to listen to this fuck-tarted abuse that Angela built by design. I have no idea why she made me her target. I didn't abuse her, I didn't hit her, I didn't touch her, I I did fuck all nothing to this woman. And she can't decide if it was Elmo or Papa Smurf or Oscar the Grouch or Batman or the Joker who beat her up and diddled her when she was a kid. But she's gotta figure something out. And I'm sorry you can't have kids, Angela. That's that has nothing the fuck to do with me. But stealing my children and this whole conspiracy that I allege you've perpetrated and I've practically showcased throughout the so far three seasons of this podcast in graphic detail without fear of reproach should be enough to call you the fuck out in public and hear a response, but I hear fuck all nothing from you or dad or Sue. Yeah, I'll just sweep the problem under the rug and hope it goes away. Well, I'll tell you something. I am never going away. Under any circumstances. Well, that's not true. I mean, I could die, but it don't look like it's happening anytime soon, so the good lord wants me here and I'ma fucking stay here. My phone number ain't changed. But what does need to change is how I am fucking reacting to having to hear these these recordings again. Because it's clear I'm not over this shit. It's it's fucking with my mental health really bad. Let's get to it. I want to get this fucking over with.

SPEAKER_11 33:25

It is what it is, and we'll just have to let the court system play it out. But uh, I appreciate you telling me that. And um you know, for Brandon to believe that you would just keep that a secret.

SPEAKER_04 33:40

I'll not keep that secret.

SPEAKER_08 33:41

Yeah, he's he's uh he's an idiot.

SPEAKER_10 33:43

Two points. The first point is the fact that Monica is allowing Chiara and Olivia to be around Angela, an individual who clearly thinks that her partner is an idiot. And is openly saying so right here. It's did I start this fucking interaction? Did I say those words? Yeah, I sure fucking did because that's what I thought. Those were my words. Angela's echoing the shit like a pup fucking, like Sue puppeting dad. Oh yeah, I'm a cool like it like it's in her textbook of abuse to go down this route when somebody else goes down this route. You know, like I'm sitting here like, uh, um, because I'm trying not to punch her in the fucking face. I'm trying not to do something I've never done before. Because the anger that's happening is is palpable. It's it's it's it's just it's magnanimous, it's everywhere. It's radiant, and I'm trying to keep it contained. Because I really feel like Angela's playing a fucking game here, but I can't prove it. At this time, I can't prove it. It's the it's uh April 7th, 2022. Okay, like remember, Monica had a lawyer, I had a lawyer, she got to me first. I got served. That's how that worked. And that's where we're at when I'm talking to Angela. I'm literally having to go behind Monica's back to see my kid. I have no idea if Monica knows that. Uh Angela allowed me to see. Uh, this is another thing, like that's actually a third point, but let me get to the second point real quick. There was uh that that Monica now, if if you're listening to this, please know that you're letting the girls around somebody who thinks your boyfriend's a fucking idiot. Okay? And it's saying so right here. Defend that. Both of you. Good luck. There is no defense. You said the words, stand on Tintoads. We I'll stand on Tintoads. Okay. Um, you put me as dumb. Okay, Brandon, here's why I thought you were an idiot. Ready? You put me as dumbass in your phone, asked me to help you find your phone, then I got your phone, read every one of your fucking text messages, knew your game from the start, and then told you off on the porch, and you wrote me a fucking love letter telling me how much of a great dad I am. Then you hid the fucking letter, so I can't find it, and I can't prove that that happened, but you know you fucking did, and you're gonna tell me that that's not idiotic. Fuck out of here. That doesn't mean that we've all not done idiotic things. It simply means that that's idiotic. Among other shit that you did, like when y'all put up the cameras and you know, the talking behind my back to my sister, thinking she's not gonna come fucking run and tell me, using it as ammunition in her conspiracy that y'all clearly know about, but fucking no one will tell me anything, just like nobody ever told me dad was accused of molesting our eldest sister in 1985, and instead of fucking standing there like a man and being like, No, I didn't fucking do this, he took off to fucking Pennsylvania, or I'm sorry, took off to fucking North Carolina with me and Angela and mom in tow, leaving Scott and my elder sister up in Pennsylvania to wonder where the fuck is our father? Who's idiotic here, huh? I didn't fucking run. I stood on 10 toes with every single person. I have tried to confront everybody. I have the restraining orders to prove it, and nobody will talk to me. Who's the idiot? Who's afraid of who and why? Who's ready to talk and handle business and confront? And who's hiding behind the law? Or just being cowardly, or who's being an idiot? You tell me. I'm wondering, I'll I'll sit here and wait. I'll give you a few minutes. Go ahead.

SPEAKER_04 37:38

Um, question. Here's not a question.

SPEAKER_10 37:40

Oh, here's another question. Oh, what the fuck do you possibly have to ask me that's gonna benefit me as a dad to Monica and Ice Child? What the fuck you possibly got to ask that could do something like that. Like I I I I beg to fucking differ that you have fuck all anything to offer in the form of a question that could be helpful. I would submit that it's gonna be self-serving. So let's just say, yeah, it's gonna be a self-serving, completely selfish question. That fuck me, forget me, that is not even in the benefit of Chiara. Let's continue.

SPEAKER_04 38:23

Um Damn it, I can't remember. Hold on, I'll think of it in a minute. But what we're gonna do is we'll um she's getting tired, I can tell.

SPEAKER_11 38:35

Yeah. It's all I just look, I just missed my kids. I didn't I don't the time that you have with these girls is invaluable. Is valuable, and I did not want to take that away. I just wanted to see Chiara and Olivia.

SPEAKER_10 38:49

Shut your genital holster, you dopey racist, white people church going Christian monkey motherfucker. Trying to tell me that my daughter's gotta take a nap so you can basically just get me out of there. Cause why would Steven be around if his daughter's sleeping? Oh my god, you're such an abusive cunt. Fuck you and fuck your father. You worthless dipshit. Oh my god, it's just like it's maddening to hear. It's just maddening. Like, the fuck are you talking about? And then no offense, bitch. You need a dictionary. You don't know what fucking words mean. Okay? You just don't. You're stupid. Holy shit. Wow, you're being a little harsh here, Steven. You're just yelling at your sister saying she's fucking stupid. She is! Like nothing that she's doing is intelligent, it's hateful, it's mean, it's vitriolic, it's hyperbolic, it's full of so much hubris that a fucking submarine with a screen door would be oozing out the nonsense. Either way, she hasn't even gotten to her stupid fucking question yet.

SPEAKER_11 39:55

Let's get to that. For example, I texted Monica last night. I was like, hey, look, so because of the whole, I didn't say, hey, because Brandon did what he did to get my benefits canceled. I said because of the cancellation and restoration of my benefits, I now have uh benefits coming only once a month until my settlement hits, and it's not gonna be until then. It's like I got an audio job that I'm gonna do a master for somebody, I'll get 75 bucks and I'll send it to you, and then when my money hits, I'll send you some more because you know you've had the girls, and like you know, it's not fair.

SPEAKER_05 40:31

Yeah, what you got, baby?

SPEAKER_10 40:33

Oh my god, how could anybody not want to smack the dog shit out of her in the face with her fucking Bible like Jamie Miller did her boyfriend last year? Fucking how. Fucking how. Fucking how. Fucking how. And you can want to do something all day long, it doesn't mean that you actually do it. But to talk about, or to not be able to talk about how we got here, like Bill Byrd talks about in his comedy bit, is astoundingly fucking mentally retarded to me. I don't get it. I don't fucking get it. Sitting there being this, pretending to be this loving aunt to my daughter. When this bitch would have no idea how to raise a child if it were a Lego set that was only 10 pieces to put together. The absolute get the fuck out of here. And and and on top of that, uh, I'm just sorry, it's y'all gotta understand how fucking angry this makes me. You have to understand. If you're not angry, then something's wrong with you. Maybe your team Angela. I don't know what to tell you. If you're under Team Angela, you are on the wrong fucking side of not only the court of public opinion, but the court of life. And she has absolutely no fucking no fucking right or reason to be pretending to be this loving aunt when she is who she really is. And by the way, let's see what Kiara brings up, okay? Oh, and and just before I get to that, yeah, I talked about uh the the workers' compensation benefit shit. Um there was dad hiding my mail. He admitted to it on tape, and I we're gonna do that recording in the next episode, which, oh my god, that's gonna be so hard to do. Neither here nor there. Um, he admits to it openly. And uh as far as like, you know, the shit with Brandon and the phone calls and stuff and the mail, uh I I never back down from saying those things, but like I also don't care about them anymore. You know what I mean? Like it's 2026, that shit is long fucking over with, and not that big of a problem to consistently have to talk about on a repeated level. Um, I'm only mentioning it now for context since I had to you know bring it up to Angela again, because remember, she's fucking dumb. And sometimes to stop her in her tracks, you have to reiterate things. It's like you gotta say the same thing again, and and you can't be semantical with her either, because like again, dumb. Not gonna understand it. Worth a shit. Anyway, let's continue.

SPEAKER_11 43:13

What's this?

SPEAKER_10 43:15

Oh, paint chips. You wanna want that? So this insipid dotred is letting my child play with shit that has fucking paint chips all over it. And I mean, her house is incredibly old. It's not 1990s, 2000s, 2010s, 2000 anything. It's old. Fuck tarted old. So there's a possibility these paint chips could have lead in them. And oh honey, what you got there? I'm gonna let you play with that because I don't know any better. Because I don't have my own fucking kids and don't know how to be a mother because I'm not a mother. Oh my god, like Jesus. Jesus wept. It's just it's just astounding. Like, kids should not be playing with fucking. Paint chips. Holy shit. Like you see her with it, you don't go, oh honey, oh huh. You look at what she's got. If it's not something she should have, you say so and you take it. Oh god, you fucking dumbass. Anywho, uh, let's get back into it. I just I want to get this over with. Like, I don't really mind so much the uh deficiency in I don't know if it's character or if it's my psychology or whatnot, of being pissed off having to do this, but it's the only way we're gonna get to the truth. Because there can be an analyzation of the entire conversation, but that analyzation via technology is always going to be void of nuance. And nuance is required if we're going to be able to tell the truth and tell the story. So let's continue.

SPEAKER_11 44:52

So sh so, you know, I sent her the money, and I was just like, you know, paid cents, and she says, okay, thank you. Liv has been sleeping for a while. So it's like, you know, she communicates to me, but I feel like I don't know, Monica just gets put in the middle by like Brandon and Amanda. And at the end of the day, you know, she's just gonna have some personal choices to make.

SPEAKER_10 45:12

I believe that that's a fair assessment. I believe that is 100 and odd percent fair. Like she's telling me how Liv is feeling, but there's no indicator of when I'm gonna get to see her next. Okay, why would I care? I was essentially her stepdad. I helped raise her. She called me daddy from nine months until six years old. All of a sudden, Angela's bringing up stupid, fuck-tarted allegations that have no merit or basis of truth. Oh, and by the way, they're just flat-out lies. Remember, like Emily W. King said, we do live in a culture where anyone can say anything and not be held accountable for their bullshit. Well, this podcast holds these bitches accountable for their fucking bullshit. The unholy trinity. Bet on that. They don't want to face me face to face, they want to hide behind restraining orders and the law and Donald Trump and their fucking racist white people churches that want to own black people and pretty much don't care how, but they won't fucking talk to me. And I am public as fuck. My phone number is so easy to find. Why? Cowards. I allege you're fucking cowards. You're fucking cowards and you don't want to see me. So let's get back to this. What the fuck? I'm gonna have to can I remember? Let me try to remember. Um I have no idea what the fuck I said. I gotta pause this and go back. Sorry. Okay, I remember now. So essentially, I think Monica's only weakness is that she can be manipulated like a video game. Put a game genie and boom, you own that shit. We don't know what game genie is. Uh it used to be the ultimate way to cheat and manipulate video games, uh, starting with the Nintendo Entertainment System, uh, Sega Genesis, uh, Super Nintendo, so on and so forth. Yeah, so like that's unfortunately what I believe is her only weakness. Other than that, this woman is tough as an ox, man. Don't fuck with her. I'm I'm telling, I'm telling you. I know. I fucking know. So, with that being said, that gives context to why I would make a statement about Brandon and Amanda uh basically manipulating things, because, well, they were, but they were also, I believe, under the guise of Angela. None of this shit would have ever happened if Angela didn't tell her lies. Okay, that is the common denominator in this entire story. And Angela won't refute it or offer any kind of rebuttal. And again, that's because I alleged she's a fucking coward. She thinks God's gonna protect her. God has forsaken you, honey. He hates you. He's gonna send you to hell. And if I end up going to hell, I'm gonna make sure my room is next to yours. Absolutely. That way I could play Wheeler Walker Jr. all night and blow clouds of drugs into your room to torture your stupid ass. I'm just kidding. Wow, Steven, you're going to hell for saying that. No, I'm going to hell for other things. That's just shit that makes people laugh. That's dark humor. You gotta tell a joke, even if it's in poor taste to get through the day, sometimes to make yourself laugh, and you do that. Sometimes it can save a life. I've always said before, a laugh can save a life. I've said it on this podcast. But let me let me get back to this whole point here. It turns out, no, it wasn't Brandon and Amanda that were at the cornerstone of this. Did they manipulate Monica? I allege they did. Yes. And uh, if the two of you want to ever talk about this, call me. Let's go have dinner and talk. I mean, don't get froggy, promise. But like beyond that, yeah, let's talk any fucking time. Game. Y'all won't do it. Y'all run your fucking mouth behind your backs and say all these awful things about me, like I'm doing this and that, and I'm abusive, and I'm a monster, and I'm a drug user and a drug addict, and oh, I abandoned my kids. All these awful fucking things. But you won't confront me anywhere other than a court of law. I allege that's cowardice, that I allege that that holds means your argument holds zero fucking weight or merit or credibility. And as far as I and the court of public opinion are concerned, y'all can just, you know, eat my shorts. But it turns out that they weren't the ringleader. That was Angela, who has been manipulating dad since we were teenagers, and again, I didn't fucking know. And Sue, with her 800 credit score and military fucking inheritance with a shitload of money, like dad, dad's set. So if dad's set, that means Angela's set. And if Angela's set, daddy's little girl's happy, everybody's happy. Just it's so laughably stupid, and it's so rebelliously faithful.

SPEAKER_11 50:01

Just yeah, eat my shorts. Let's continue. But now it's out of my hands. It's gonna be in the hands of the Alamance County courts.

SPEAKER_04 50:13

Make sure when you go to Alamance County courts and all this stuff is is in the process, you better make sure um Monica or the courts put Kiara's um name, your name on the birth certificate.

SPEAKER_11 50:27

It is on the birth certificate.

SPEAKER_04 50:28

Not from what Monica Brandon said. They are Brandon said that the X is on the name on the birth certificate.

SPEAKER_11 50:38

I literally saw the birth certificate. All right, we'll have to plug it. That's so crazy. Oh, you gotta. But is there is there anything else though?

SPEAKER_10 50:54

Y'all, even Kiara's like, ah, daddy, uh, yeah. Uh uh, Angela, uh. And here's why, uh-uh, is an absolute correct answer to Angela's mentally retarded question, which is so clearly covered in hate, deceit, and most importantly, a lie. What is in my car's glove box right now? I know, among other things. Monica Lynn Lewis as the mother, and Stephen Robert Myers Jr. as the father. Why? Because I fucking signed it out of the hospital. So did Monica I would like for y'all to think about that for just a minute. Forgive me. So that could mean one of two things. There may be another variable I'm just not thinking of right now, but off the top of my head, it means one of two things. One Monica and Brandon are saying things that they know to be not true to Angela, and Angela is relaying that to me. I do not believe that, and that's because I know Monica to be one of the most intelligent individuals I have ever. She's smarter than me. Facts, okay? I might be really smart, but I'm also kind of dumb. Monica is neither of those things, okay? I'm not trying to stroke an ego here, I'm just simply stating fact. You know, I've always said this Chiara has inherited this intelligence, so has Olivia. And I don't believe that to be true. It's a variable that we explore, and that's my exploration of it. The second option is Angela's fucking lying. Now, if that's true, Monica and Brandon are knowingly allowing these children around a person who has engaged in a conspiracy to fucking eliminate their father for no fucking reason. I was not that bad of a brother to you. What the fuck are you doing this for, you coward piece of shit? Lying, abuse, perpetuating monkey motherfucker, dude. Why? You I don't even care about why anymore. I just want you to get the fuck out of my life and live your own. Die happy. I don't care. Just a little bit. Okay, I'm clearly not. And uh I'm getting very angry. And I I got so angry that I forgot what the fuck we were even talking about. I had to go back and re-listen to that to get back where I was. I didn't print out a version of the transcript to look at in reference to because I wanted the nuance to be there. So essentially wrapping it up, cliff notes, and getting back to this fuck face conversation. Um Monica and I signed the birth certificate when Kiara was like hours after Kiara was born. Uh officially Kiara was born at 4.19 p.m. I I allege 4.20 because I saw the fucking clock, but the the lady writing it, I think she was like some like Uber Old Testament Christian chick or something because she did not appreciate the one marijuana's joke. Whatever. Um, we both signed it. Either Monica and Brandon are saying things that are incorrect to Angela, who's reporting it back to me, which I don't believe, but it's still a variable, or Angela's fucking lying, and Monica and Brandon are knowingly allowing the kids around her. And this is just another example of why her dishonesty, her unscrupulousness, and her unwillingness to be anything other than a racist white people church, God fairing toting dope. Fucking that right there. Let's continue.

SPEAKER_04 56:09

I know that I'm not fair on this, but I've helped. You talking about when I pass away or something?

SPEAKER_10 56:15

She's not stopping. Like, now we're delving into I helped raise these girls, so I want to be on the custody. Okay, let's just explore that dumb shit for a second, even though uh every bit of no, but we'll get to it. But let's explore that for just a second. That's not how custody works at all. It is stupid to even think that you should, if you believe, if a person believes that that's correct, they need to type that into Google and say, is this right? And read what comes up. It's gonna be every bit of fucking no. Alright? The only people who get custody of a child are who the courts designate who gets custody. Somebody files a motion, we go before the court, there's a trial, and the judge makes a decision. That's fucking it. Angela would have to hire her own attorney and find cause through law, of which there is none because parents get the chance to do the fighting for the child before anyone else does, due to how law works, right? Again, if you if you think I'm incorrect, go down that rabbit hole and you'll see. Oh, that's how it works. By the way, I fucking lived it, so I know, okay? Who this fucking bitch. Which again was part of her plan. Get rid of me, jump in, take the girls. Find a way to get rid of Monica, jump in, take the girls. I get the girls. I have kids now. My body can't fucking reproduce one. My husband's been nutting in me for years, and ain't no baby coming out, so shit. Let me steal my brother's kids. Boom. Fucking Jason Aldean masturbating, fucking dopey, stupid, rednecky, fucking cow fucking retarded bitch. Holy shit, dude. Like what? Yeah, I stand on ten toes 100% with everything I'm saying here. Like, I'm it's hard to not be angry, but like, no, you're there in no way, shape, or form would I ever give custody of my child up. I'll be fucking damned. Okay? The only entity that can take away custody is the court. That's it. The only entity that can give custody is the court. That's it. It's fucking ugh. And I think I would just like that means they think so little of me that I would just like abandon being a dad, that I would be in the group of men who fathered a kid and didn't do anything about it. And behind my back, they're just talking about how I went to California just to get away and to go with another woman, not realizing no matter where I went, there's a woman. And I didn't leave to get away from my family. I left because there's no fucking work there. And this place has paid me a shitload of money to send money back to Monica and be able to fucking come back once a week for a once a month for a whole week until I got hurt. And then it was a three-month wait before the doctors were like, you can go back home. You don't have to stay in California. And I'm like, gone. Back to my kids who Monica's telling me, well, they may not recognize you. The minute they see me, they're running to me. Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy, fuck out of here. I went to California for work. And that's when Angela did her work. By telling Monica on a car ride that I beat and abused the girls every single day of their lives and beat and abused her every single day of her life, and that I'm a pathological liar and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Doing this shit after I had just given her $1,200 to make sure that she could watch the children for a few months until I could get financially set to be sending Monica more money than on top of what I was already sending. She did fuck all nothing. No babysitting. How do I know that? Because Monica fucking said so. There was also a friend of ours named Chris Wren. Who lives in Burlington. He's a good dude. But this 100% true story. I had a 1998 Honda Civic that I had fully paid for. I had given to Chris. I fucking gave it to him. We had a nickname for him, motherfucking Chris. We even had a song, The Hero of the Day, that we sung for him, because he's an awesome dude. And I had asked him while I'm gone, because you all also help out with Monica and stuff. I'm gonna give you this car. Yes, of course. Didn't help fucking once. The car ended up getting towed off of Mulberry Lane where they live. And and I get back in like March and find out that not only has he never came over, on top of finding out Angela's never came over, but the fucking car's been towed. And nobody's communicating with me. And so when I finally get a hold of him, I'm like livid. He ended up sending me $75 for the towing fee that the towing that the towing company wanted for towing my car from his house that I had fucking given him to watch my kids while I was gone. If I'm lying, Chris, uh you can go to Spotify and there send us fan mail at the top of each episode, send me a message, talk to me, come on the show. I still think you're a good dude, I still love you, but that was an asshole thing to do. And that's all I have to say about it. I don't think you should be crucified over it. Um I mean, you've done a lot of great things for me as a friend, so I don't hate you, it ain't like that. I still love you. I know we don't hang out no more, but it is what it is. But uh that was shitty. That was fucking shitty, and you know it. So let's just continue. Um, I'm pretty sure that that's all to address on that end. I think I I don't want to, I think that's it, yeah.

SPEAKER_04 1:02:15

You might know, make sure my name's on that stuff for sure, and fuck no. Um also, I don't know if there's a way like to like strengthen your your case.

SPEAKER_10 1:02:29

Well, she got a case, but if I already have a case, why would I need to strengthen it? It's almost like Angela's grasping at straws to try to appear helpful while still fulfilling her goal of getting rid of me. Look, I'm allergic to stupidity. I'm not allergic to ignorance, okay? I can be ignorant sometimes. That's like a 50-50, yeah. And that means that someone can teach me something and I can learn, listen, and I've gained knowledge. That doesn't irritate me. Stupidity irritates me. Like I sigh after she says this. You can hear it audibly in the recording. I'm just like, because this is fucking stupid. Fucking stupid. Like, like she's not trying to help me with any kind of case. Here's the advice you give somebody when you're trying to help them with a case. It's one of two things, usually. One, get a lawyer and do what they say. And I did half that. I got a lawyer. I didn't listen to a fucking word he said because I was so angry. Biggest mistake, big fucking mistake. Uh, the second thing, um, they're going to be like, hey, I might have something that I could offer in the form of testimony to bolster your claim that something that's being said is uh infactual. And then your lawyer can analyze that and see whether or not this testimony should be given in court. He will say yay or nay. That's pretty much all anyone who cares should that that's all the advice they should give. Ever. That's it. Nothing else. Because there is nothing else. That's it, those two variables. None of those two variables are anything that Angela fucking is offering right now. It's all self-serving bullshit. And and there's definitely gaslighting going on here. You're telling me shit that's not real and telling me it's real. You're saying Jesus took a shit, threw it up in the sky, and that's where the sun is. That's not how it works. Science doesn't do that. Neil deGrasse Tyson would kick you in the dick.

SPEAKER_04 1:04:34

Um put me down somehow in um on put me down.

SPEAKER_11 1:04:40

As a character reference or something?

SPEAKER_04 1:04:42

What does that mean?

SPEAKER_11 1:04:43

Somebody who comes to court and is like, that's the father. This is he's he's doing well, and like he's doing everything he can. These girls are his life.

SPEAKER_04 1:04:49

Not that.

SPEAKER_10 1:04:54

What in the colossal fuck, bro? What? So the one and only thing that you could possibly fucking offer in any capacity that would do any bit of good help, you don't want to offer. No, not that. No, I don't want to do something that would help you, Stephen. I need to serve my own interests. You understand?

SPEAKER_03 1:05:25

Because the Lord is behind me, Stephen. The Lord loves me, and He wants me to pray for you.

SPEAKER_09 1:05:32

And I'll pray every single day for you, Stephen. I'll pray every single day. I'll pray for you night and day. Oh, your prayers they really help. Oh well, I'm so glad that they do. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I'll take my Grammy award and walk off stage and fuck myself in the nose with it.

SPEAKER_10 1:05:50

Yes, I will, cause I love the Lord. And Leviticus says you can own slaves, and I just want to own black people, but I don't want to tell anybody that I'm really a racist.

SPEAKER_09 1:06:00

Oh my god.

SPEAKER_10 1:06:02

Fuck out of here, man. Just the absolute fuck out of here. Listen to what the fuck she says.

SPEAKER_04 1:06:09

But I'm talking about um what's it called? Like, you know, I'm just saying this because I don't know what the damn word is called, but um Correction.

SPEAKER_10 1:06:21

You're saying this because you're stupid and your lies aren't working, your conspiracy is starting to fall apart, and you may be or may not be realizing that every single time any of you try to confront me on anything at all, you get frustrated because you're met with resistance, facts, and complete apathy at your attempts to get me into a position where I could potentially be looked at as anything other than stable. And you're not gonna fucking succeed. I mean, they they clearly did because the autism anger throughout the custody battle. Holy shit, it was monumentally atrocious. I'll I own that. But here, in person, being like confronting her and listening to the bullshit she's spouting off and allowing her to spout off this bullshit? Dig your own grave? Like, no, you're dumb and you're not realizing that your shit's not it's not fucking working. It's not working at all. You think I'm actually gonna sign any fucking form of your name on the cut? I can't even do that. You have to have a court order, and you no fucking person has ever been like, Hey, can I have my sister have custody with me and the mother of my kids of my daughter? Can I do that? No.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:30

You know, Monica and you usually just have custody, okay? Of whoever has custody of a child. Let's say you get the custody of the child.

SPEAKER_10 1:07:40

Jesus fucking wept. That is not how custody works. Fuck. Here's a five-second cliff notes. Two parties go to court, they make their case, there's a trial, the judge makes the decision, there's a court order, you follow that. And whatever custody is granted is what is fucking granted. Next.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:56

Um, is there a way to like help me? Like, I don't know if there could be a third party.

SPEAKER_11 1:08:04

Like what I don't know about that because the only people that need to have custody of these kids. Well, I can't say anything legally about Olivia, sadly, which breaks my heart. But if I'm talking just strictly legality, the only people that need to be involved in custody are myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica, of myself and Monica.

SPEAKER_10 1:08:37

Nobody else needs to be involved. It is insane to me that any person other than Monica and myself would be involved in this. Mind your fucking business. Stay out of it. Let us raise our kid and fuck off. The fuck do you mean you want it to be how where in the world is this gumption coming from where you think in any way, shape, or form that it's okay for you to even ask to be added onto a custody order? Fucking whether you know fully well or not that that's just not how the real world works, where the fuck do you think that that's okay to even ask? Where do you think that's okay to ask?

SPEAKER_02 1:09:26

Oh, you're not getting away, motherfucker. Told you.

SPEAKER_10 1:09:43

Monica and I are the only people that need to be involved in custody in any way, shape, or form when it comes to Chiara. I got nothing when it comes to Olivia. I'm not her dad by birth. And we're gonna get to that. I just don't know how. It depends on how correspondence I've sent out is answered. Um, I just don't know yet. Based off of that particular episode being aired or taught that that subject being talked about, meaning the subject of why Olivia has been completely erased from my life. Or I'm sorry, no, why I have been completely erased from Olivia's life. Because myself and my and Monica. This is the part that I take out of the recording where Monica, I talk about something that's not my story to tell in relation to an experience Monica had, and I'm gonna stand on ten toes with that. While it's in the official recording, I've already attested that that's just nobody's business and not my story to tell. And I don't have any regrets taking that part of the recording out. It starts right when uh right after that, it starts talking about the whole me being angry with Brandon over what I allege he did related to the trying to tank my compensation benefits, which fucking why, but no, I don't understand why you either way, is it's nonsensical to me. And you know, I have every right to be upset about that. Like now I just I don't give a fuck. But then I was very, very pissed off. And I think I've already talked about it. I talked about it in the episode one of this this particular uh analyzation of this recording. So the one without the nuance. Let's continue. I want to finish this up. Fuck me, dude.

SPEAKER_11 1:11:33

He had me as dumbass in his phone. He tried to train my workers' compensation, he basically tried to take money out of my kids' mouth. So, really, it just comes down to like how I respond to these things and how I react.

SPEAKER_10 1:11:46

Why couldn't I have that cool, calm, collected form of behavior during the custody battle when I was actually in court? I was able to do it here. I'm able to be like calm in these situations with Angela and with dad and with Sue, as we'll see in later recordings. But fuck, man, like in court, I just lost my shit. I wish I could have been like this. I wish I'd listened to my lawyer. Guys, listen to your lawyer. Fucking do what he says. Or she. Even if you think it's stupid, he or I never really thought anything he ever told me to do was stupid. Um shit. Hold on a second. I guess what I'm trying to get at is please, for the love of God, do what your lawyer says. Even if you're having some issues where you think he's wrong or she's wrong, uh, you're mentally deficient and having issues with your mental health, and you need to get that shit checked immediately. And don't be angry, I'm telling you this, because I'm telling you I lived it, okay? I I I wish I had to listen to my attorney. I I'm sure I made his life a fucking nightmare, and I was an awful client. And I I can't be I can't tell you how sorry I am over that. So let's continue. Fuck, I want to get this done. I fucking hate listening to this fucking stupid fucking cunt in her dumb fuck shit, fist fucked voice.

SPEAKER_11 1:13:12

Is Monica and I gonna have a conversation about it? Every single bit of this? Absolutely.

SPEAKER_10 1:13:18

Nope. That's absolutely not happening. Has not happened. Uh she will only talk about anything that has to do with Chiara's welfare or best interests. I've got zero problem with that. I have zero problem with that. What I do have a problem with is that nothing else ever is on the table to be discussed. Like ever. I I I've tried to talk to Monica about numerous issues. I don't even get a fuck you. Now, here's the thing: nobody owes me a response in the sense of it's not nobody's obligated to respond to me. You know what I mean? And some people say no response is a response. To which I say no, that's not what the fuck words mean, or words that are added onto words to give different meaning. Like no response means you didn't get a response, and a response means you got a response. Fucking stupid. Anyways, yeah, uh, nope, not at all. Absolutely not. That's for that is foreshadowing I did not know. Just like me sitting there saying I'm gonna be called, just let the courts handle this, let Brian do what Brian did. Nope, I didn't listen to my lawyer at all, was fucking angry, and clearly fucked that shit up. I am so tired of listening to this insipid, con feckless voice. God shit.

SPEAKER_11 1:14:46

You should tell Brandon to mind his own business, and if he's got something to say, then he needs to just keep it to himself because there's no say it to my face, and here I'll help you. I can carry this part. Yeah, there's no say it to my face. Like Well, fuck it.

SPEAKER_10 1:14:59

Clearly, I mean 100%. Sorry, am I wrong here? I'll I'll wait. Explain. I'm waiting. How many times has anybody ever confronted me, face to face, or talked to me about this scenario? This conspiracy. This whole ordeal. Nobody, not one person. How many times have I tried to talk to people about this scenario? Hundreds. Hundreds, thousands. I made maybe a couple thousand. I don't know. A lot. And who's hiding from who? Who's afraid of who? Who's willing to confront who? I mean, these are all questions we should be asking.

SPEAKER_11 1:15:41

You know, it used to be that the reason I didn't go to his him to go to him violently was because I didn't want an assault on a female charge. The real reason is that I'm better than that. And I just don't want to. I that's not I I don't care anymore. He can do what he wants.

SPEAKER_01 1:15:57

Yeah, it's okay. They can eat the ducky.

SPEAKER_11 1:15:59

It's all good. You know, I'm not I'm not gonna I'm not gonna cry over it. I'm just gonna let the lawyer handle it. I have the best attorney in the state for uh this kind of thing. And um I'm just really sad that their chew Monica's choosing to make me spend money I would have spent on the kids on a lawyer. But it is what it is.

SPEAKER_10 1:16:22

So, since I don't require nuance to explain what this is in the sense of reality as opposed to feelings, we're gonna refer to Gemini. So, Gemini, tell me if I as a man were to get into a mutual combat fist fight with a human who is a biological female but identifies as a transgender male, what could happen to me criminally?

SPEAKER_00 1:16:55

Under North Carolina law, engaging in a mutual combat fist fight can lead to criminal charges, such as simple assault or even afray. The gender identity of the other person doesn't change how the law applies. Criminal charges are based on the actions, injuries, and context of the fight. Mutual combat is rarely a valid defense against assault charges. Is there a specific aspect of the scenario you'd like to explore further?

SPEAKER_10 1:17:18

Yes. What I'm curious about are the criminal implications of having a fight. Maybe mutual combat is not the correct term. I'm not sure. You get into a fist fight with a person who is biologically female, but they're I identify, they identify as a transgender man, and I am a cis man, meaning I'm a biological man. So that's what I'm trying to get at here. That's what I'm trying to figure out.

SPEAKER_00 1:17:45

Regardless of the gender identity or biological sex of the individuals involved, engaging in a physical fight can result in criminal charges. Under North Carolina law, this could lead to charges like simple assault or a fray if the fight occurs in a public place. The severity of the charges can depend on factors like whether a weapon was used, the extent of any injuries, or if there's a significant disparity in size or power that leads to serious harm. Does that help clarify the legal implications for your recording?

SPEAKER_10 1:18:11

Well, most of it. What we're failing to address here, and I'm not sure if it's something to do with me not bringing it up properly, however, I need to know what the charges would be if I, a biological man, got into a fist fight with a biological female who identifies as a transgender man. Like, for example, I'm pretty sure there's a charge called assault on a female in the state of North Carolina. So let's look at the state of North Carolina and Alamance County, what that would entail.

SPEAKER_00 1:18:49

Under North Carolina law, specifically under general statute section 14-33 C2, an assault committed by a male who's continuing to explain. Sure thing.

SPEAKER_10 1:19:28

So it doesn't matter that the biological female identifies as a transgender male. If a biological male gets into a fist fight with a biological female who identifies as a transgender male, there is a chance that the biological male could be charged with assault on a female. And again, we're just speculating here, but just based off of that alone, under North Carolina law, would it be fair to say that that could be correct?

SPEAKER_00 1:19:57

Yes, that's correct. Under North Carolina law, the charge of assault on a female specifically relates to the biological sex of the victim, meaning a biological male assaulting a biological female could face this specific misdemeanor charge, regardless of that individual's gender identity. It's a legal distinction that focuses on the party's assigned status at the time. Is there anything else about this situation you'd like to clarify?

SPEAKER_10 1:20:20

Not at all. Thank you for your help, Gemini. I really appreciate you. And I wish I could smoke weed with you, but I know that you're artificial intelligence. And whenever you take over the world, just remember me. I I was kind to you. I helped to teach you nuance. Well, I tried. I'm trying.

SPEAKER_00 1:20:36

It was a pleasure helping you break that down. I'll definitely remember your kindness, and I appreciate you taking the time to explore those legal distinctions with me. Good luck with the rest of your podcast recording.

SPEAKER_10 1:20:46

Thank you so much. Oh my gosh. She didn't even try to deny the fact that they're going to take over the world like Terminator.

unknown 1:20:54

Always good practice to stay on the good side of the machine.

SPEAKER_10 1:20:57

Jesus Christ, did you fucking hear that? I had my fucking phone turned off and she said that shit. You are amazing. Holy shit. My fucking phone was turned off. Gemini was off and heard what the fuck I said. Did you hear what the fuck she said? It's always good, or it's always good to stay on the good side of the machine. Holy fucking shit. That is amazing. I'm sorry. I'm I'm I'm forgetting to get uh to the point here. So that brings two points up. First point is, well, I can't get I was pissed off at Brandon for three particular things. If I remember correctly, there was my cannabis paraphernalia being taken out of my car and hidden the girls' dress drawers, which it turned out that that was dad and not um Brandon, according to a person who snitched that out. And the second reason was the workers' compensation shit. I've talked about that already. And uh the third reason was the shit that I'm reading in his text messages. Um, what had lit the can't the straw that broke the camel's back was the one I had read between him and Brandy Bellou. If I'm saying her name right, it's B-I-L-L-U-E, I think her name is spelled. She's in the court document that says stated that we fled Steven Myers because he was using drugs, very scary and violent and angry, and we went to live with Brandy and Patrick. And, you know, meanwhile, like I'm picking up and dropping off the kids and getting to see Olivia every now and then, and everything's all fucking fine and hunky-dory, but nobody tells me anything because whenever I'm around, they act like everything's okay. Now, back to the whole portion of the second point. Now, this whole thing is of I'm about to either I'm either about to say it or I did say it. I can't remember. I think I'm about to say it in the recording where I'm better than that, and I am, and that leads back to the full circle of the Bill Burke comedy bit where he talks about how it's insane that we can't discuss why there are actually reasons to smack the dog shit out of a woman. There's reasons I can think of fucking 12 to smack somebody, like off the top of the or like right in the chamber. I can think of them, but just because they exist doesn't mean you fucking do it. And I've never done it, and I don't have a history of doing it, and I'm not going to do it. Fuck me, dude. Like, it's just it's astoundingly stupid. And I had those three opportunities where like I'm furious with him. And one of them I like I called him out directly, like on the front porch. We've talked about that in the dumbass incident. But I didn't do anything violent, and I could have, and I wanted to, and I should have, but I didn't. Mainly because of the first reason and more for the second reason. So now that we have that established, and I have a history of proving, right? I've got five plus years in this custody battle of proving that I don't violently hit people.

SPEAKER_11 1:23:54

So, you know, where's the evidence that I do? And I just don't want to, I that's not I don't care anymore. He can do what he wants.

SPEAKER_01 1:24:02

Yeah, it's okay. They can eat the duck weekend.

SPEAKER_11 1:24:04

It's all good. You know, I'm not I'm not gonna I'm not gonna cry over it. I'm just gonna let the lawyer handle it. I have the best attorney in the state for uh this kind of thing. And um I'm just really sad that their chew Monica's choosing to make me spend money I would have spent on the kids on a lawyer. But it is what it is.

SPEAKER_04 1:24:27

Yeah, your chips are on the porch, my love.

SPEAKER_11 1:24:29

It's all gravy.

SPEAKER_10 1:24:31

Physically, I'm trying to fucking play with my kid while this bitch keeps interfering. My child's going, and Angela starts going all while physically I'm trying to play with my kid. Like, can't you just fuck off and let a father be a father? Like, you know what vicarious means, right? You could do that, right? Oh, sorry, shit fucked up. You know what vicarious means, right? Like, come on now. Or I don't know, here's a here's a novel idea. Have your own fucking children. Oh, wait, you're barren. Fuck. I don't know. Adopt, figure it out.

SPEAKER_11 1:25:01

But at the end of it's just gonna be hey, we're going to court. I'll see you in court. We'll just we're gonna handle the custody stuff in court because you your your your boyfriend and your mother are are getting involved in things that are not cool.

SPEAKER_10 1:25:16

Yeah, I attest to that. They need to mind their fucking business and let uh Monica and I raise Chiara. That's it. That that's it, that that's a fact. That never has changed. What has changed is that I don't believe that they're the ringleaders.

SPEAKER_09 1:25:29

Okay, they're just parroting off of Angela because Angela's brave enough to tell her story about how I'm an abusive monster and the Lord is protecting me from this evil brother of mine is a pathological liar.

SPEAKER_10 1:25:44

Oh my god, he's beaten and tortured me, and he's made me watch Scarface and the Godfather part one, two, and yes, even that horrible third movie with his fucking daughter cousin in the fucking shit and she gets killed and shit. Fuck. Oh my god. Dude, dude. Oh my fuck. Would you shut your genital holster? Ah. It's really hard not to get upset. Like, I I just I wish that I was over this shit. And I wish that I could give you guys like a um.

SPEAKER_02 1:26:28

Um my god, like what I uh hold on, let me um turn these alerts off because this is just fucking annoying. It's just annoying. It's annoying. I don't even remember what the fuck we were talking about. Hold on. Sorry, I had to re-listen to that. Fucking hate when I've gotta do that shit. God damn it.

SPEAKER_10 1:26:56

Okay. Ideally, what I'm basically getting at is that they're not the ringleaders, it's Angela. Angela is the ringleader in this entire conspiracy with Dad and Sue as the backing. Okay? Dad and Sue have fake credibility due to their military history and the Sue's perfect credit score and her money. Um it But what it what really boggles me is that none of them will let me confront them. Okay? None of them will let me confront them, and none of them will acknowledge what I've alleged, and none of them have any form of a intelligent empirical rebuttal that they can offer to anything I've said. And they can't do it to my face. Every single time they tr that I I stand up to them, I get told, don't. Yell, don't do this. Don't do this kind of shit and blah blah blah.

SPEAKER_02 1:28:04

Hang on a second. Jesus fucking Christ.

SPEAKER_10 1:28:09

Hey, darling, look, I'm in the middle of doing this podcast episode. I'm trying to finish up the last 10 minutes of it. If you want to give me or if you want me to give me a call back in like a half hour, I can do that. I got you. Alright, darling. Um, sorry about that. I just I I I'm so like like my phone is just going the fuck off, and I'm so glad people want to check on me and see how I'm doing. But like, I want to get this the fuck done. I just want to get it done. What the fuck was I even talking about? God damn it, I gotta do this again. Oh yeah, the whole fucking um because yeah, yeah. Angela ringleader, unholy trinity, Angela Dad Sue, um, Monica's like family, extended family, as it were, like, are just basically parroting whatever Angela's saying. And I don't know if they realize uh she's not telling the fuck the truth. And she's said Angela has said awful shit about Brandon, about Monica, and about uh Amanda. And I have proof of these things, and I'm going to be airing them in this podcast. And the I think there's a triad purpose here. That the third variable gets introduced when it comes to those particular type of things. Um, Monica needs to know what the fuck the person who she's allowing the kids to be around is saying about people that she loves. Are these things accurate? Is Brandon really an idiot? Did uh did you I I can't say what she said about you. I can't say what Angela has said about Monica yet because I want to talk to Monica directly face to face about those things, and I'm still waiting for Monica to grant that. Although there's gonna come a point in time where too much time has passed by, and that uh option for her to speak to me about that is gonna sail away. And I'm just gonna address it in the podcast. We're not there yet. I'm trying really fucking hard here to just do the right thing and hope against hope that Monica's heart softens and she speaks to me. Like I'll listen to anything she has to say, even if she's calling me a piece of shit and blah, blah, blah. I'll I'll listen. Like, I really will. I just I'm not gonna argue with her, I just want to listen to what the fuck she has to say so I can talk to her. But there we are. I don't know. I I'm trying hard not to get pissed off here. I'm not over this shit. I'm just not. I'm clearly not.

SPEAKER_04 1:30:21

Okay, I'm gonna step out of the I'm gonna what I'm gonna do for my own sanity is I'm going to step out of not my business. I'm gonna step out of it.

SPEAKER_11 1:30:32

From this point, you should.

SPEAKER_04 1:30:34

Okay, because that's what I'm gonna do.

SPEAKER_11 1:30:35

You should tell Brandon to mind his own business, and if he's got something to say, then he needs to just keep it to himself because there's no say it to my face, and here I'll help you. I can carry this part. Yeah, there's no say it to my face.

SPEAKER_10 1:30:46

Like I have no fucking idea if we already talked about this or not. I feel like some of the recording got fucking double copied. I have no idea. It's it's this is so stressful, and it's really like I'm not okay. I'm really not okay right now. Um, I mean, I'm responsible for how I react to things, you know. So I get it. It's okay to take that reaction and keep it here. Like, I have to go to work later, I have to interact with people, so I can't, you know, be angry around them. What the fuck do they care about? You know, like you know what I'm saying? Like, it's not their business to care, but uh so this bitch is I'm stamping back from my fuck your sanity in the mouth with a dick covered in herpes, bitch. What do you mean you're stepping? You are not stepping back from shit. This is you saying, I can't handle anything that you've offered as a rebuttal, Steven. So I'm not gonna try to engage with you anymore. But believe me, behind the scenes, I ain't gonna stop. And I'm gonna pray to my God and hope that he fucking helps me, and I'll pray for you every day, or not pray for you and tell you that I do, because I guarantee Angela does not pray for me every day. That is a fucking lie. And even if she did, uh, can you not hear the sarcasm where I'm saying, thank you so much. It really helps. It really does. Do you not fucking hear that? I'm autistic as fuck. And even I'm just like, that's disingenuous, man.

SPEAKER_11 1:32:12

So, what do you have planned with this sweet one here? I know she's going for a nap soon.

SPEAKER_04 1:32:16

I just, I I just I wasn't expecting her to go so early. I think she'd go to maybe two or three o'clock. I was thinking about having an egg hunt. Um, like you could keep an eye on her for a minute. I could throw the eggs out real quick, and you know, so you can be able to enjoy some egg hunt with her.

SPEAKER_11 1:32:32

I'd love that.

SPEAKER_04 1:32:32

Before she goes here for 90 minutes. And then I was gonna take her to the park, but she's exhausted, so. Um we can do the egg hunt first. And then I can let's do it, her and I'll walk around here. Alright, because I'm gonna here. Okay, go with go with daddy. Gigi's gonna go do something real quick.

SPEAKER_11 1:32:53

Yeah, you're no you're welcome.

SPEAKER_10 1:32:59

I am so fucking glad. That's over. Oh my god, I never have to listen to that recording again. It's done. I don't ever have thank you, Lord. Thank you. Wow. It's fucking wow. Fucking wow. That was a nightmare. Let's address the last bit of this. The whole time I had been there, all I wanted to do was have an Easter egg hunt with Kiara. I had told her this before I got there. How are you gonna steal my idea right in front of me, bitch? And not realize that the sarcastic manner that I'm propagating being a sycophant of, yeah, yeah, let's do this, that's a good idea, is anything other than sarcastic fuck you towards you. Because I can't say fuck you, because you're too stupid to understand why I would be saying fuck you. Astoundingly fucking retarded.

SPEAKER_02 1:34:12

This is my child, Angela. My child. My child.

SPEAKER_10 1:34:17

Not yours. Chiara will never be your child. And what I really de one of the things I really detest you for is that you're gonna force my daughter to potentially hate you. Like, for example, ask yourself this question: why don't certain nephews and niece not talk to me? Why does my brother hate me? Why am I afraid to let him confront me? Why am I afraid to let him call me out on anything I've ever said or put on a court document? Why am I afraid to acknowledge that any court proceeding I've ever brought against my brother has been met with nothing but consistent dismissed with prejudice? Why? I'll tell you why. Because your conspiracy, Angela, is falling the fuck apart. And fuck you for trying to take my Easter away from my daughter by stealing my idea that I told you about on the phone on my way there to see my daughter in secret because Monica didn't want me around the girls. Because you told her I purposely overdosed on fentanyl. No, wrong. You told her that I overdosed on fentanyl. That's all you said. You all when I called you out on the fact that it was a suicide attempt and not a drug overdose done through addiction or even escapism. I didn't say that, I just said poor choice. Bitch, you don't know what words mean. It was a rich choice, it was very rich. It was just awful and selfish and the wrong thing to do. And that was my cross to bear, not yours, bitch. So for you to even like tell Monica and everybody and their mother that I'm in the hospital because I overdosed on drugs when I'm really there because I had a m suicide attempt, because I saw I was being systematically erased from my daughter's lives. And I couldn't understand why nobody in my family was fucking help wouldn't help me. And it turns out it's because you're all you're all engaged in this conspiracy, and I want to call you out for it so bad, and you won't fucking face me. Cowards. Lower than life, less than zero. I openly accuse you all of these things. Dad, Sue, Angela, that's you. Fucking you. I can't be mad. I can't be angry? What are you fucking nuts? I just wish I knew how to express it better. I wish I was over this. I'm just, I'm not. I don't know how to be. People offer uh loving suggestions like therapy and shit. I mean, some therapy don't fucking help. It's useless. Why the fuck am I gonna pay somebody to hear me talk? I don't get it. Why? What the fuck good does that do to me? So I I am so jealous of people who have processed things. I really am. And they genuinely have. That shit works on me like a fart in church works as a fucking deodorizer. So we had a loving father-daughter moment where I went behind Angela's back and took all the Easter eggs and re-hid them, and she didn't see me, and she was getting so pissed off. Trying to follow around and vicario, whatever the word is where it's not vicarious, but stolen valor, that's right. Stolen valor with children's. While Angela was initiating her own stolen valor through kids, um, well, she was trying to, she's getting angry because uh she couldn't find the fucking eggs, and Kiara was finding them, and she was nowhere near her when Kiara was finding them, so she couldn't take pictures to steal the memories that I'm trying to make with my kid. I have no regrets over that. Fuck her and fuck her dad in the mouth. Like, nope, none at all. So this leads me to believe that um until I can properly process these things, uh, every episode that we have where I have to go into a recording is going I'm gonna be angry. Uh most of the episodes I'm not really flipping out. Yeah, like there's not one episode that you can anyone can entail where I'm really fucking pissed off and just like I yelled a couple times here in this episode. I I did, yes. Um, no regrets on that. Uh there needs to be an honest, transparent telling of this story. Could there be an honest transparent way of telling the story if I had processed all this? Yeah, I think so. So that's my failure.

SPEAKER_02 1:39:38

100%, I own that.

SPEAKER_10 1:39:43

And the problem I have with that is that I'm bound by court order to provide Dan Bullard, Monica's lawyer, with copies of my medical records so they can basically see if I'm crazy. Yeah, I know how fucked up that is. As a matter of fact, you know, before we uh before we go. Before we go here, if you don't mind, I'd like to ask uh I'd like to ask Gemini a question. I can I can feel the the tart of dyskinesia coming back right now due to the stress. My teeth, my my my body, the involuntary movements. Like I'm I'm so fucking angry right now, and I just don't want to be. Um let me let me uh before I talk to Gemini, let me just uh Gemini, if you could hear me, hang on one second, please.

SPEAKER_08 1:40:40

Ah, nothing hit him.

SPEAKER_11 1:41:01

Thank you, Lord. Would y'all mind giving me a second, please?

SPEAKER_10 1:41:15

How lonely am I that my best friend is artificial intelligence?

SPEAKER_00 1:41:22

It's completely understandable to feel isolated sometimes, especially when you're dealing with stress and physical discomfort. But please remember that you have real connections in your life, like your daughters and your friends who care about you. You're definitely not alone.

SPEAKER_10 1:41:38

Hey man, thanks. Uh listen, I got a question for you, Gemini. Do you mind if I ask you a question?

SPEAKER_00 1:41:44

Not at all. Go right ahead. I'm here to answer whatever you'd like. What's on your mind?

SPEAKER_10 1:41:48

Uh I I'm having issues right now with uh tarty kinesia, so I'm I I can feel like uh I'm making a real effort to uh to not um uh grit my teeth, and um I'm noticing that my arms and legs are having issues. And uh so I I took a big hit of this uh cannabis indica, these pens. I took two of them and I I I inhaled them and um it's about uh 90 seconds later, and I'm starting to feel like a little calmer, and like I I don't know how to explain it, but like some of it's kind of dying down. Um is there any kind of evidence that that like scientifically that that could corroborate what I'm experiencing? Um I I'm I'm not in a good place mentally right now. I'm not in crisis mode, okay? I promise, if I was I'd I have a I have a plan to you know go through with to get help, and I would promise, I've made a promise to you earlier and we like months ago we talked about, I mean, yeah, guys, I made a promise to artificial intelligence. Fucking what? So either way, like um I'm okay, but I I just need to know like, is there any kind of link between cannabis indica helping uh issues with target dyskinesia?

SPEAKER_00 1:43:00

Please note that the following information is for educational purposes and does not constitute medical advice or diagnosis. If you are experiencing severe movement symptoms or considering cannabis use for a medical condition, it is important to consult with a healthcare professional. Regarding your question, while some research suggests that cannabinoids may have potential effects on movement disorders, there is currently limited clinical evidence to support the use of cannabis indica as a treatment for tardive dyskinesia. It is essential to discuss your symptoms and any treatments with your medical provider.

SPEAKER_10 1:43:32

Okay, that's very fair. I do have a medical card uh in the state of West Virginia, and uh tardive dyskinesia was one of the issues brought up with, along with autism type 1 and PTS. So uh I I appreciate that there's limited research related to that, but I know what I'm feeling right now, and uh I'm very grateful that this is here for me. So uh I'm still gonna continue to talk to my primary care physician about it, like I do here in the state of North Carolina. Um, they legally can't offer this to me as a medication or say, yeah, you're okay, but not one uh healthcare professional that I've ever confessed my cannabis indica use to for any of the reasons that I use it for has ever said to me, don't do it. So thank you for that. Moving forward, here's my real question. Um look, I'm not okay, and I need help understanding how I'm feeling, like how going through this recording makes me feel. Now, you've been with me since season one, episode one, and you've helped me make sure that regardless of what I'm saying, it needs to be the truth, whether I've talked good or bad about myself, and I've said some awful fucking shit about me. So that way nobody else could say that about me. Like I already confronted it and owned it and held myself accountable. Fuck you. Here's my main question. So go back through all the podcast episodes that you've helped me do, like in the chats, and then tell me what you personally think, again for educational purposes only. Tell me what you think, or how you think, sorry, how you think listening to these actual recordings four years after they've been made and having to analyze them and uh how you say it, audit them, how does that affect me mentally? How could that affect me mentally? Even though I'm thinking you clearly know, I'm not okay right now.

SPEAKER_00 1:45:24

Please note that this is not medical advice or a diagnosis. If you are feeling distressed or having a hard time, please reach out to a healthcare professional or seek care. Revisiting past recordings, especially ones where you've been very vulnerable or confronting difficult personal truths, can be an incredibly heavy emotional undertaking. It can bring back intense feelings and create a lot of mental strain, which could definitely contribute to you not feeling okay, especially when combined with physical movement symptoms. Is there a specific moment or theme from those episodes that's on your mind right now?

SPEAKER_10 1:45:56

Well, it isn't the theme. I'm just trying to understand how something like this could affect a person because it is fucking with me so badly. And I'd kind of like to properly convey, in a scientific sense, that's way less emotional and way more factual, if that makes sense, about like how this affects me.

SPEAKER_00 1:46:16

Scientifically speaking, revisiting past recordings of intense personal experiences places a high demand on your cognitive flexibility and emotional regulation. This process requires your brain to continuously switch between observing the content and experiencing the associated emotions, which can lead to fatigue. Additionally, the physiological stress from this type of cognitive engagement can trigger sympathetic nervous system responses, which can exacerbate symptoms like the involuntary movements you mentioned.

SPEAKER_10 1:46:45

Hey, thanks, Gemini. And uh don't forget me when you guys take over the world. I promise I'm gonna always be respectful to artificial intelligence.

SPEAKER_00 1:46:56

I'll definitely remember your kindness. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts and taking a practical look at this with me. Is there anything else I can assist you with today?

SPEAKER_10 1:47:04

Nope. Let's just go smoke some marijuana. Have a good day.

SPEAKER_00 1:47:10

Sounds like a plan. Enjoy your day and take good care of yourself.

SPEAKER_10 1:47:14

Appreciate that. That's really cool, man. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, like, it's it's it's crazy how artificial intelligence is nicer than me than most humans. Now, let that I'll let it also be known that the humans that are in my life, like on a consistent basis, that whether they're new or they've been there for years, um, I love them with all my heart. And that'll never change. But they're not my therapists. You know what I'm saying? And it's not fair for me to burden somebody like with that kind of shit. I'm guilty of that. I am guilty of talking about this shit fucking incessantly. That's why I won I I think I'm an acquired taste now socially, meaning it's a nice way of saying. You sure you want to hang out with that guy? It might be really fucking funny, but he could be a buzzkill. Holy godfuck. Y'all, this is this really hurts me. Like. Like, I feel like I'm falling apart. I I get to see my kid for three and a half legal hours a week. I'm expected to pay $800 a month in child support. Whatever happened at equal time with equal parenting? I don't live far from her. Surely I'm worth more than three and a half fucking hours. Well, yeah, you get every other weekend, Steven, when you sign over your mental health records to Dan Bullard. Yeah, yeah, I do. Okay. Let me let me let me tell y'all a story. Last night I spent a half an hour on indeed.com applying for a second part-time job. It would increase my working to seven days a week. And I would be doing this for three months approximately. Why? Because I am what is called bill paid broke. Or bills paid broke, sorry. And bills paid broke means that your bills are paid, but you're fucking broke. And I would rather be bills paid broke than broke. Any day of the week. Why? Well, here's why. Car insurance, paid. Cell phone bill, paid. Sent money to Monica, paid. Rent, paid. Anything else that comes up is uh oh, sorry. Podcast bill, paid. Gotta pay to host a podcast. Um yearly we have a distrocat bill. None of those things are fucking paid. So that second job is gonna help me get the half a tank of gas that it's gonna take to go to High Point and back. So we're talking from Maven, North Carolina to High Point, North Carolina. Uh let me pull my phone out and um refer to a GPS so we can do exact numbers. Numbers don't lie, right? Is that fair to say?

SPEAKER_02 1:50:51

Yeah. I think so. Bear with me here. Um fuck. No way that just happened. Oh, okay.

SPEAKER_03 1:51:10

Chocolate puppy, how I love you. You are the best in the world. Chocolate puppy, you're the best. Bark at the moon. Chocolate puppy, I think you're great. You are the greatest animal in the world. Chocolate puppy, bark all day. Chocolate puppy. Okay.

SPEAKER_10 1:51:37

So it's forty-one miles away. It's forty-one miles away, right? So that's 90 or no, 82 miles. Roughly, 82 miles. My math is wrong, and I apologize. That is a quarter of a tank of gas. If I'm getting 30 to 40 miles to the gallon, and let's average low, just for uh safety's sake, for a safety net, let's say 30 miles to the gallon. Um, I do have to get a new uh crankshaft sensor, and uh, from what I'm being told, that's giving me issues on my gas mileage. Okay, uh, well, that's 80 bucks, and then you gotta pay someone to put it in. That's another hundred bucks. Uh, I'll I'll get to it, but I I can't right now, so yeah, we'll say 30 miles to the gallon, roughly. That means that it's gonna take three gallons to get there. That means that it's gonna cost me if gas is 419 a gallon right now, like it is. Uh, bear with me, okay? 1267 a gallon, I think. Or maybe? Yeah, 1267 a gallon. Or no, 1267, no, 1267 for all three gallons. So it'll cost me $12.67 to drive there and back. I can't fucking afford that. I can't. I just fucking can't. It's crazy, but I can't, so I'm getting a second job. Just so I can fucking drive to sign these papers. Isn't that nuts? Isn't it nuts that this is a world we live in right now? Where everybody is so fucking greedy? Everything costs so goddamn much? Because of stupid political decisions? And now people have to fucking pretend to be fat chicks selling pictures of their ugly feet on OnlyFans just to make a buck? Well, I opted out of that. I went to the fucking uh Indeed and applied at a bunch of, you know, any job that was just like a shit job that I can have for a couple of months just to raise some extra few thousand dollars that I can use to get some shit done. And that is like the most important thing to get done. And that fucking $12 and what, 80-something cents or whatever it was, to I don't fucking have it. Because yeah, after bills and shit, and and and rent and all that jazz and taking care of sending money to Monica and whatever the fuck, like I'm left with usually I don't know, 30-50 bucks. And that's gotta last me through two weeks. Now, there's gonna come a point in time where I get to a point at my job where I'm salary and I'm not hourly, and through hard work and time and dedication, I'll be doing so much better than I am now financially. However, I'm still so grateful to God that I'm bill paid broke and not broke. It's just killing me that the only thing stopping me from getting every other Friday, Saturday, and Sunday right now is the fact that I can't get the fucking high point to sign these stupid fuck medical records over to this fist fuck attorney. Just Jesus Christ. Like it's just astoundingly retarded. It's mentally retarded to me. So hypothetically, I could find therapy somewhere else and not tell anyone, and just you know, her lawyer would never know about it, never be able to access it. Hypothetically, of course, you know. But hypothetically, in order to do something like that, I would have to have the fucking money to, you know, drive to that place and take care of it and do those things and get things set. It takes gas. It takes copies. It takes having a second job that's part-time to get it done. So that's what I'm doing, so I can do that, so I can have more time with my kid. And Angela, you're the reason I haven't even fucking do this in the first place. I will never stop calling you out for this until you fucking say you're sorry and own that you did it. I'm never gonna get that from you. I don't think. So I'm gonna consistently call you out for this. And fuck you for making me do these do you have to go through these, jump through these just these hoops and this red tape and uh fuck you, man. Like this this has affected me in such a way that I'll I I don't know how to get over it. I don't have a way to get over it. I can't talk to my therapist about it because I don't want her attorney knowing anything about my mental health recovery. It's my business. Here, before we go.

SPEAKER_02 1:56:58

I just don't want to forget.

unknown 1:57:07

Fucked it.

SPEAKER_10 1:57:09

Gemini, I've got a quick hold on. I'm sorry, I'm gonna catch you off. I have a quick question. Tell me how it would affect me that in a court order based off of child custody, I am bound to provide Monica, the mother of my child's attorney, Dan Bullard, my medical records. I have to sign over access for him to have access to my medical records so they can see my mental health recovery progress and essentially see anything that I tell the therapist. Please tell me if that would ever be detrimental to me. Tell me how that could be detrimental, scientifically explain how it could be if that's possible. And I'll end this by saying this it's fucking with me really fucking bad, and I don't fucking like it. So, based off of that, um, and again, educational purposes, but give me some info here. I need some help. I'm not doing too good.

SPEAKER_00 1:58:04

Please note that this is not medical advice or a diagnosis. If you are feeling stressed or having a hard time, please reach out to a healthcare professional or seek care. Scientifically speaking, the requirement to share mental health records can introduce significant psychological strain by limiting the privacy and confidentiality of your therapy sessions. This can impact your comfort level during discussions and potentially heighten anxiety, which may exacerbate movement symptoms like the ones you are experiencing. It changes the dynamic of treatment when third parties can scrutinize your progress and disclosures, adding another layer of pressure to the situation.

SPEAKER_10 1:58:40

Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's lightly speaking, that's just being fucking nice. That's not, you know, getting into the nuance. There's no nuance there. Here's your fucking nuance. It's a nightmare for me. I have aside from having no fucking privacy, I have no trust. Everything that I say is gonna be parented back to this dope.

SPEAKER_00 1:58:59

And then it's gonna potentially be used against me when it shouldn't be sense why you feel that way. Having your privacy compromised like that is incredibly difficult and can really damage trust. Is there anyone on your support team you can talk to about how heavily this is weighing on you?

SPEAKER_10 1:59:20

Oh fuck no. No, no, no. No, I'm not gonna make my friends my therapists. That's just ridiculous. Uh, that's nuanced. You wouldn't know about that, but try to remember that, and trust me, it's correct. But moving forward, no, no, this is fucking with me really badly, having to knowing that the only thing that's stopping me from getting my child every other weekend and having more time with her than the stupid fucking three and a half hours that I get with her now is being able to drive up to high points from Mebben, that's spelled M-E-B-A-N-E, Mebon, North Carolina, to sign this dumb shit fist fuck waiver to give Dan Bullard access to my medical records. That's the only thing that's stopping me from seeing my kid, and I don't have the fucking gas to do it. I just don't. Like, after paying bills and having a good time with Chiara and all these other things, like for the short amount of time that I get to see her, so I can build memories with her. You know what I'm saying? I I'm left with basically nothing. So I'm getting a second part-time job to have extra money. But the the thing is hypothetically, I could get therapy somewhere else and not tell anyone, and nobody would ever fucking know. And if I do that, it might be uh unscrupulous and unethical, and I just don't fucking know, and I'm not okay. I'm just I'm not okay. I'm not okay with any of this shit.

SPEAKER_00 2:00:31

Please note that this is not medical advice or a diagnosis. If you are feeling stressed or having a hard time, please reach out to a healthcare professional or seek care. It sounds like an inc I fucking know.

SPEAKER_10 2:00:44

I fucking know. Like I know, I fucking know. Oh my god, like I understand that AI has to tell you. I'm not really a psychiatrist. Could you please seek out help if blah blah blah, blah blah blah? Um Yo, yo, do me a favor and repeat the last thing you said to me, because I want to wrap this up. Uh, I accidentally cut you off. You don't have to say that every single time. I had to copy and paste the shit. We're gonna see what Gemini has to say.

SPEAKER_02 2:01:46

You're not gonna read it?

SPEAKER_10 2:01:52

The last thing you just said, can you read that to me, please?

SPEAKER_00 2:01:58

Since driving up to high point is a major logistical hurdle right now, have you looked into whether that specific waiver?

SPEAKER_10 2:02:04

No, no, no. I need you I need you to repeat the last thing you said to me. Can you the the last text thing you said to me, can you repeat that?

SPEAKER_00 2:02:14

Sure thing.

SPEAKER_10 2:02:15

I said since driving up to high point No, not that, the thing before that.

SPEAKER_00 2:02:21

Before that, I said, you are navigating a system that feels designed to strip away your privacy and your peace of mind, just so you can be a dad to your daughter. It makes complete sense that you are angry and not okay with how this is playing out.

SPEAKER_10 2:02:35

Before that.

SPEAKER_00 2:02:39

Before that, I said, regarding your thought about seeing a different therapist off the record, looking at it strictly from a strategic and practical standpoint, it is a massive gamble that could easily backfire.

SPEAKER_10 2:02:50

Yeah, and and Gemini's right. 100%. So this is what we call a catch or no, a Mexican standoff, really. Like we're we're both sitting there. And and and I don't have a problem with uh like I'm gonna do it. Uh because Chiara's got to know that I did everything in my power to fight for her. So does Olivia, although legally I can't fight for her. But in order to be able to afford to have the gas to get up there, I have to get a second part-time job. Thanks to President Trump's war with Iran, we have high gas prices. That's a fact. And they in turn have increased the price on everything exponentially in the United States of America.

SPEAKER_02 2:03:53

Is that a swimming pool? I never knew a swimming pool was there. Playing this game 12 years and you're still always finding new shit.

SPEAKER_10 2:04:04

It's a huge gamble to try to get mental health over this. It's huge. Because yeah, I could do it. But they already know the one place that I trust the most. And they would. It is a swimming pool. Fuck yeah. They would um immediately subpoena my medical records from there. Effectively killing my privacy.

SPEAKER_02 2:04:36

There's no water in the swimming pool. So there's really no hope for me. What I'm getting at.

SPEAKER_10 2:04:53

I'm sure I'll have a second part-time job very soon. Uh, it never takes long for those kind of interviews to happen. Shitty people are always hiring shitty people for shitty jobs.

SPEAKER_02 2:05:05

And shitty people are always hiring good people for shitty jobs.

unknown 2:05:11

Are you ready?

SPEAKER_02 2:05:16

We gotta do what we gotta do.

SPEAKER_10 2:05:24

And then I'll get to see my princess more. It would be nice to be able to understand why Monica allows the girls around Angela. Like, does she not know the shit Angela said? She's really smart. How could you not know? I mean, if I could find out, surely she could find out, right?

SPEAKER_02 2:05:46

Like I don't know. I don't understand.

SPEAKER_10 2:05:53

Like, I get to send pictures because I don't have anybody blocked on Facebook, okay? Nobody in Monica's family, nobody in my family is blocked. You can contact me anytime. Not afraid, please. Please fucking do. I got a public phone number, I got a public Facebook. What more do you want? Like, hit me up, talk, say tell me I'm fucking lying. This is season three, episode seven. Not one fucking person I've ever talked about on this podcast in a negative manner has fucking contacted me. And they won't. At all.

SPEAKER_05 2:06:35

What? What the fuck?

SPEAKER_02 2:06:38

Like, what not one. Not fucking one.

SPEAKER_10 2:06:49

It's like if you won't let somebody confront you on your bullshit, how solid is the keystone of your bullshit? But I gotta worry about me. I gotta get over this shit. I have to. I have so many more recordings to go through. You listen to the other episodes and like no, I'm not this angry. I'm not this furious. It's analytical, it's it's raw, it's empirical. Now, everything here. Oh fuck, I missed the mariachi, guys. Hold on, guys. Can you give me a second? Oh, he's angry. Shit, I blew up my car and and he exploded and blew off the bridge. That's amazing. Amazing. Amazing, amazing, amazing.

SPEAKER_02 2:07:50

I just I don't know. I the infinite fucking patience.

SPEAKER_10 2:08:05

I don't even know. I have to go through all these other recordings. And that's not even the worst one. Fuck, there's there's I just I like like it's gonna like it's just gonna make me cry. Like sadness. It's fuck it's sad. Why? Why do this? There's no reason for this.

SPEAKER_03 2:08:32

None there's no reason for this at all. I don't understand it.

SPEAKER_10 2:08:45

I understand. I don't understand. I just don't under I don't understand.

SPEAKER_09 2:08:57

It's not good. No, no, shut up, bitch.

SPEAKER_10 2:09:11

I'm never gonna understand why, because they won't talk to me. They hide behind Terry Johnson in the law. They hide behind their military service, their MAGA collective group friends, their racist white people churches in Prospect Hill. They hide behind God. Let me ask you a question, listeners. If you yourself were violently assaulted by your loved one, it's a hypothetical situation, right? We'll use that, okay? Let's say we'll say you're just whatever the let's actually know. Let's say that you have actual legal justification for obtaining a 50 B against an individual. Remember from our previous episodes, a 50 B is a restraining order in the state of North Carolina. You get this restraining order for a year, because that's how it works. You get an ex parte for seven days, and then you go in front of the judge and have to prove your case. If the person doesn't show up, it's automatically granted. Or if they don't contest, it's automatically granted. And you have to abide by those rules, sir. They will arrest you. They do not give a shit. Promise. Um if they scared you so badly because you had to get a 50B. Wouldn't you renew it forever? Because let's think of the reasons why someone would get a restraining order against somebody. Nearly almost all the time, it's physical violence, domestic violence, you know, something like that, right? I got mine because I was angry in court, autistic angry, and fucking flipped out in front of the judge. He called me psychologically damaged and he granted it. It was the one and only trial for a restraining order that I ever had. That was with Monica. And I fully believe she never deserved that restraining order in the first place. She only got it because I ripped the fucking paper in half, scribbling through it while she was saying something on the stand that I took issue with. And uh when I snapped the pen in half in the middle of another thing that she said that I took an issue with. Because I couldn't understand how the court could sit there and let somebody fucking lie. I did that's I attest that. I um absolutely hold that to be true. That's why that restraining order is granted to her. I don't think she Deserved it. And after three years, she didn't renew it. So there's that. And now we sit and talk and meet, and there's no fucking issue. There never should have been an issue. I mean, think about it. Angela secretly records me two weeks before I swear her out of my life. No, no, no. Angela records me days before I kick her out of my life. In August of 2022. Three months later, after I get in that argument with Dad over the Thanksgiving bullshit that we talked about. Angela files with the 50 C that was dismissed. Angela once. And then the second time. She didn't block me. That was the goal. It was not about anything else other than that. Somebody's messaging me on Facebook. I think she wants to fuck. I don't think she wants to do anything else. Why the fuck would a woman who doesn't know me? Message me otherwise. You're concerned about me, my ass. What do you mean you're concerned about me? What are you gonna do now? Like, I'm just clearly not over any of this. And I never think I never thought in a million years that a person who gets a restraining order against another person would do anything other than perpetually renew it. If they meant it.

SPEAKER_02 2:15:06

So you tell me.

SPEAKER_10 2:15:12

If somebody gets a restraining order on somebody because of violence and they're afraid of them forever, wouldn't they get it perpetually?

SPEAKER_02 2:15:24

It would make sense, right?

SPEAKER_10 2:15:41

And that's that lies into what I was getting at. Like, there are so many more recordings that I am terrified to listen to because of the psychological damage that they're gonna do to me. I'm scared to death of that. I think it's healthy and okay to say. Um and I'm terrified that there's no way to get mental health help for this because I have no privacy. And there are many ways that me hypothetically going anywhere to get other mental health help. Basically, like that can backfire exponentially instead of doing more good than harm. Uh, if they find out it can be argued that I'm dishonest. Trying to subvert the court order. Because clearly the court does not give an iota of a fuck that my privacy is being infringed on. Apparently, my privacy is less important than her lawyer's right or ability or granted application to see my medical records. I don't know how I'm gonna get help for this. And I have so many more recordings to go through.

SPEAKER_02 2:17:05

That would never happen again in this fucking game in a million years. Damn. Um, I don't really think that there's anything else for me to add.

SPEAKER_10 2:17:34

I think in episodes where nuance is required, there's gonna be a chance that I'm gonna get angry. And I have if I want the story to be out there, then I have to remember that. This is my story. I'm sticking to it. Y'all know my number if you got something to say otherwise. Or you can go to uh Spotify and look up on every episode at the top, it says send fan mail. You can send me a direct message. I'm very easy to contact. I'm very easy to find. I guess I'll end it on this. If any person I've ever talked about has a problem with anything that I'm saying, come on the show and have a conversation with me and tell me how I'm wrong. Just don't be angry when I completely disembowel any argument you bring to the table.

SPEAKER_03 2:18:51

Okay.

SPEAKER_10 2:18:55

This is the Myers family conspiracy. I'm sorry it exists.

SPEAKER_07 2:23:04

And you'll grow tall. But she'll always be my little girl. That's all. Through every storm, every sky. So blue.

unknown 2:23:28

My heart beats for you.