ريم: اتطلقت وأنا حامل بالشهر السابع… واليوم أنا أقوى!

في حلقة جديدة من بودكاست “أنتي” مع ليلى عقيل، نستضيف ريم فيصل في حديث صريح ومؤثر عن رحلتها بين القوة والانكسار.
تشارك ريم تجربتها في بروجكت رانواي وهي حامل، وما واجهته من تحديات قاسية خلال تلك الفترة، بالإضافة إلى قصتها مع الطلاق وهي في الشهر السابع من الحمل.
كما تتحدث عن صعوبة تجربة الطلاق على المرأة، والحياة بعد الانفصال، وأهم العلامات الحمراء التي يجب الانتباه لها قبل الزواج، ورسالتها لنفسها ولأولادها بعد كل ما مرت به.

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SPEAKER_01 0:00

What kilimat a parakli wah the katter and a kilmatharama happa Anamuharam Anamudahaya to losma?

SPEAKER_00 0:09

Main fatigu tishtiki, interrigal, interkriamo, inter Al Ka Edu leader, tickbar and I'm growing my family of nafsay head five. Inter assistant to the head stylist. Jitan Jitan Jitan Jitan Kanaia.

SPEAKER_01 0:53

Hello Hababibi Kiefana, Haragil Yom Raqbdaqul bil hashtag Hag Anti. Attakil mousse Mhada min enti nari vi jadara la annul nita ali bnasdifahom Hayatohom l-muhamirin. Inkan muhamirin bayatohom s-thaqsija, aw muhamirin be al-mashakiri l-liaddat alehom assehab ali marrufiha feh hayatohom ashtahsiyy. Hashtag antilyom haikun anti awima. Hahtasir habas be antiadima, mahagul antikuwa walla enti wulla anti eisheh anti adima l'yom ka imra ana maya mbra ajiddan fakhura nhiemu judama analyom mahatulla yakum riem fesal ahlanus halem fik. Shalakida yan shweya akunat mukadima tilik fi ki. Al mukaddima u shukrin sadafa takikli. Abikim na ujdi habi. Riem khalina shweyeye kidalin nas, awhaja akidin nas taref intif eshma shura, hangul, bas linn nas ali lista materifrim katir, a rifina shwaya n rim best beta riga, wala morana f tifian nafsik. Okay.

SPEAKER_00 2:06

Satar. Okay, let's do this. Uh Reem Insana uh Jiddin mutajaddida we uh tejibel moruno fi kulila illa katilibidira. Hello dinanjib hakil.

SPEAKER_01 2:19

Hello, hello habet, bad akida shiftu, bad abbeshakil abim, manti badatini antiadim, marrahan, nayarfan elishgult antiabima la annu uh ano bamil research hagian niqkaman mutkelam shweya wara el kamera, gideshilyom njid al al imra aħelu rematikun fahhura be imra abitkun guddamaha, aw bani batafe, aw bitgullaha bravo, aleki le al-imra al annu lil asaf fi ma wakaf kitir tasir fihayatana, msir nahna nisa dut bahad minger mankun yanim blahdin, mereon ful shayi hada. Khalina atkilam awl shay anbidayatik Kief karati tibda ifalam al-elam, fimajal al-elam, khalini agul.

SPEAKER_00 3:09

Taib awl haja laila bidayati makanat fil elam. Bida elam kan shay emtidad li makan an already tawa jutfi fisahat al-azia.

SPEAKER_01 3:19

Okay.

SPEAKER_00 3:19

Fabidayati kanat fil fash, fhaqem al azia, ka dirasa resmiya. And to be very honest, yani looking back now, mani shaifa innu anahtart al-azia, gadmal azia here lichtaratni. Faudalhagigatan glasariani uhati uh shahina said, hiya mu esaset, adar azya hawa fijita. How sardiya. Wahadi min o min yani arka, we al awa elfil uhilies fijitha, elit asset, uhanat bitged them u mazarat bitged them, hadamatul otkutur ali tas me hasabatala, ziarakya. Fa anat rah Yani fil environment had bi a hadi. So lemanat kharesh al medris a kinda shail bedihi, anda ilent a hine laila, a shofi niana masa el nafsi had the ishkunta addrus. At tahasus khas muj maanat kharesh legit nafsi already in fashion.

SPEAKER_01 4:18

Kanman ya nik the chufhi matan mama tak, kid the ash and a hebl fashion, had a shame munkini kun rubba fiki katofla. I think a hebbal fashion.

SPEAKER_00 4:29

Ayyo, I think albarmajalbida ia kan in no uhaman kun ta ruhmaha kitirihani ha na f safe, kula safe anamaha fid doam for shurul uh, amilal lihiya, shurl nadafa, aratibal awragil musamini lemonjudino wa ktaha. Fahabetilla. It was just automatic for lamunatharash, uh best jalistan daw the best fashion schools or which fashion school ana abara athulu. Abadan mahat or harabali no ana aslan kana in the options. Ila marra bahadeeno anasa al nafsi wa lahawa de lisaru lagete nula ana hangri masa al nafsi aslan ida kan fi majjal, ahar kan munkan up dear fi ahanalaman, a jadelma alwalit katiri good antibara kanibali tla mia saraha. Bes hadabil mezi hiani in no uhiga.

SPEAKER_01 5:16

Madame bigul kidani fi shay fi ki luda muhama.

SPEAKER_00 5:20

I think in no goatal lam uh presentation l eye fikra. Hello. Fa I think uh maybe for haya ukra uh. The rest uh fashion design ubaden akat shahada farayfad. In my uh internship, part-time job, obadin sa full-time, uh kunta assistant uh to the head stylistsriat albit rabiat or white house figures. Fata'alim t kitir han ta'amulsri ma al hamilat, wa fi idarat alakat, shiddan muhima, bidat lamanil azia, bio kadam andalik ashha, so mahushe uhani. Famarra kan muhim, and nu aakud al-hibrahadi, fi kefatam al hamilat one-on-one, or bidat ramala, hamilat min nuhbal hassasah. For this is my experience and my educational background. Ya Anibahit kida laila al-Lasar innu, I think subhanallah being at the right place at the right time. Ya nihagigi marra muhim in nakintat ah al kashaqs, bikulil imkaniat, wutkunja has liya full sumun tijika. Fahad alasar, fil i alam, ya nikanu wokta habidoro ara shaqsia, tigidim, uh, autil abdoor, tim gun, uh project runway, but the Middle Eastern version. And Arabi, yeah. Fakanu Mhtajin, ahad khibir fi uh tak niyat al azia, mushb fashionista, aw stylist, aw ahad dandu that. Ahad gun jidda ndu khalfi o khibra filmoh. Fitasni al marabis. Uigder kamani kun wajha, amal kamera, wegdari adidor, we deliver kaman al-jumal awal mahtawa lila zimigedmo. Falamaalul audition ana kunt zeikal an hamel, bas kunt waqta fishhahar rabe. Okay. And I remember laila marahtl audition, for me it was just fun. Ya ni ana haruh, ashan, a gul anajar. Abadan makan albanaguthayarfunia hamel u khalasu hai batru. Farahtl audition, orjat ajeddo, kan all fun and games, uh, uh dated door, badab usboa, kun il maktab of tekir or kalemni al uh head of casting. Gili uh, uh, elikid door. Very nah. Ah, macambain alek, like makambaine. Faramangultelu uh ana hamel anagulta halasi annu ana hairu hale. Hasmal hang up tone, gili emabi as sir. Gutelu intimate akid had in a kamelu kuman shaharin la good dum and pasu sha m mum anamarra maal maharif owal hamili if a many half aslon ishethas haikunfishuri, but gutolo no haiban halayal hamlu mathaelti inu ana agdra adid doorhada or hairduli akuna al camera, wana kurhamali.

SPEAKER_01 8:42

Ahas mur shay mumeyas, and no emra hamel, ob tishtag alfandaha burnamish, alfehad almejal, ukaman gadra nohiya tuga fala julaha, utipdirayaha witsa, eden nasaligada filemo juda fil Bernamish mur shit.

SPEAKER_00 9:00

Litas atasher sa ataswe has to be f studio, la kanwe locations, inukul halaka can fitdi, y studi hang inuywa runa setting.

SPEAKER_01 9:13

Director dain, phta fia kue a taban, taban, tma fakid mmila ni m kekaf kana tbata.

SPEAKER_00 9:40

The rest is history walrena tula albarname ju fudal bata na yabben kun telat halagathufi al tatawar limoju tih. That was a very interesting thing. After that, ashan kan inti had al foundation fil ihalam uh min min sanatin hamel ta studio style kaman.

SPEAKER_01 10:01

Kiv kan inti ehsasasik, ka imra a hamel wawwal tizrubalikil hamel, of nifsa l wak gadab chtakalif sha inti murrat hubi, nisar le awal morra inti kan bernamaj, le awwal morra, ta bir inti yani nejma. Fi wahdemanujum lisa albernamaj. Kiv kan inti bene kubernasikri.

SPEAKER_00 10:23

Shufi, ana anna I enjoyed it, uh but lemonal haradal bernamish is so habit isha lisa. Kunti tabi murra jidan a tabgan mahoul uh had the sat with libirwah the sour fear faloahadlamanikun hamelu oh all hammeldo manjhoul Fakulyoma his nepsi bamut fehana kula arata bea Falwahadaj na akhtar ehnakulanis haman hansa sabah, nirjaal back to the hotel room, Hanan Arjata Ratonus, Bahana kunta nam sateen, and you do basta hamma bis aud nap erja t that was that was a thing, a Sarah Hariral Wiham could at waham a clat mayanama Alash kun tatoha ruz could abaruz marra bulikrushimtu and filmataam ataswikan for bairuta yamaha ruz maho shame twaaj filmataam for bairut, I think bur will do fala katane or shit.

SPEAKER_01 11:35

But that was very rose b shine no feebus mo fata, kibba.

SPEAKER_00 11:45

Fa anakutabai, kun tabra e daba kansa bay hagi Bus uh in Nu hadat alhamdulillah, it was very difficult. I did it because uh I enjoyed delivering my lines. Um, Lowel An, Rija Biaz Zama Kalamoni Wanafil Hamasadis Fihizel Symptoms, so I was able to hamel, but Balash Nigula Afdal Hal, Bas Bardo inumarra waht had an la, taw gitmir halamine, with Saharat, Bas in Yana Gulikina canat uh then murra type.

SPEAKER_01 15:42

Is it an option? Bas eva bas la ana abra, yani shofi anab dyed hamli kanat yanhamdulla ma makanfi marajat ma makanfi al tawahem hagi kan hilo, uhamdala, leymun, la zhani waja aftakir fudahri, ma akdar emshi. Awwal shahreen awal talata shur ki da kunt. Baskunt muddaiga, la anjalim ewa many mitawada many insani have useless. Ubadan mahari fleh haset lamal rejet, laa abga sawa, sirt at herrek aktar, albin ta hasab bit herrek aktar saarak, she's interacting bit amal ma'ya, bitismani aktar, zaika annu minjid attufil bait akter, bikbil bil marhal alil um t'hut naf saha fiha, lemanti kun hamel. Ini anam sut'annu lemantij inshaalla al baby, hagula ana lamakutba sawul burnam jhadi kunti batni fa kita shay mokiniye anni lambatikbar inshala tzawa shikul a shayhada kan sahala alamama, fala mukini kun sahala aleya. Fa anam anab nisbalia brai shahsi, al ayam zaman hag ahlana hata mama mstarri kog ayywa agadu madri a has hadas she yitaheb al justem akter waqtl waqtl khilfa.

SPEAKER_00 17:03

Then winti mabit herri ki lahtiari, inti la, tih tikdri tihtari, entikal khyaru, khthirti, jam in makan of herriya. Inti htirti inikinti gumi with sahfi sayy dat mandarat nya na winti man mattil kul in nisa akid. Fina sa ma enduhomul option had. U munki lokana endo option kan munki nihtaru in nahomir tahfil Fatrahad.

SPEAKER_01 17:26

Fashion kida yani wa akid finas mutarin any irif Arifahdam sahbati, habibati and lil shahar et ta seh, ha single mom um ma'zi ba na murra fahhurafiha, uh ismahhiwa, wa gula riwa ana morra fahhurafiki, len as shahar at tase, uhiyabit tishtahl, yani elen gabil yom khil yom al mawed nathalif biyom wahidwip tstahr, stahl fil adhafir, yani t t khayeli yabit gum titharra kubatnaha gud damaha, funjid adakadilyom anilam mahmilt any kun adafah anil mar kul shayim gabbil gabil ma'hmel, lemhamil gul sla elhayigrab lil imrayom yawel wah. Heyya minjid bayanik marra marashay hellozmanasha shay sabunat saba, al mazajiyat saba, al albukah, fajha sab emotions. Atti ish al ashaya alijatik fi owal hamel.

SPEAKER_00 18:27

Khan murrasahab in hisbari any anam mukaranatan be adna and lihu owl hamel binti tani hamalya canat murras.

SPEAKER_02 18:35

Okay.

SPEAKER_00 18:36

Um kanandik fikra? I don't know. Ahisinhata biologian uh can tijini leg cramps murakiti, shadadari faj uhwi benti makan fishada ebni kutatwaham muiham shadid yani yani leman tijini fatra twaham abo hotel atlalba twaham aliat hal gikida mabra blah, abrahamo jud. Men goihalla. Very different experiences of Saraha. Umb subhanallah ni uh do anabinti coman. Ana fetrata hamli shofi anamar tahtwil hamlin. Okay, al amana katabdihiya keda haml kun peshtaralfi, but Ahmedullah and anamani maba not complaining, yeah. Basel Bruf kanat kidal, and then we're not aware, Tani Haml and Fasaltan abu lati, and I'm not a man. Fezel haml, yani anakunta fisabeli or on the version tickbar, and I'm growing my family, fnafsa rocked on yeah, I can't betin head fenaferal a shared biology or physiologia the answer to another, or if not silk couldn't be what the canal emphasis. Can judden, asab shaken, but if an asthma asthma and fashion between um rakia, or betcoon feha sadaka, or her father is a man greatly in Sartariga or commands the man can fossali silmahkama mushbil online or kiddo. Um, Jidden Jidden, an adjustin Bahatma with it binty, uh Bish, Rohtmasurma Sahabati, a canfield, Ahdorfarhado. Uh Ladia and Ahli and Mama, or Rochant Arbayam, of take your Kunda Mahadin saw Bisayaro. So Egypt, I think, and I'm not sure if you have a lot of people who are not Bishtekara Zoostu. Anamin Kuturmaana Zitan, Jidden Maujuha, O Bam could Lisa Baam Shif and Narri, Anna de Hana Tesha Fe to Hafethan, Mahdu Ramdila, Basfokta can lisa lissa, Miladu, oh well could she I'm I'm reliving and I'm starting upstab, but as Kyan Jid Linfus, I'm not sure, I'm a taker at Han, Yanikutulasma, my fatigu tishteki, interrigal, inter Kiwamo, inter Al Ka Edu leader, interlotibrahat Tigder in a kintatilhimha, is intiti Brashimu Hayan, tikdurti athir, tikdirti sewi, sayida hajina fjadak fa intabil hewar, bilhenia, bit talabilwada hbil uduh tik dir tih din nafsa ku tihlig il-hakika ulwaka lentiti brak la w sejdar li mahaki ani mutafahima, mustijiba, mushatiha anna tismaak, u titvaha maku, utaik mingelbaha.

SPEAKER_01 22:27

Anabinisbaliya, al Imrahiya Mirayatar Rajul. Sahih. Ya ni analyom the ahad hai tale fiya hai fakir, eza kunt mapsuta ubadelefinafsi, hellwa, oji ba shush, but killa filapa man nas, hadin of siete, mina rejul anaisha muhafil bed, muhagdirl gidma mitilna, gidma mithilna, b nihaya nihnal harim, subhamla nifamalba. Sahe nigdrni mitil, alar rejjal, basalba hadman nikdurni mutil, a rejul sahihih luyed morra kibira, nu ykhilli al imraa l-tkunhi ale, basal imraa, i the kanet la ima, tkellim basarah mif. U shakalet enda akidin nisa sahi ja ani tik de tikerri huhayatu, tikerri huai sha tkeru heta nnuzewa jjutany. Bes analyom minhina, habba gul kid shay shay marhatwa pinir ra'i, al itne lazimishab do yirhu. Ida hu wanar, anal lazim akun lazimakuntels. Ida ana anar, hu wa lazimikuntelx. Ma yunfa't nanar. Hai hai sirfi ħar siba, musiba, msiba, yen hatulla minjid dunya. Wala yunfa ni kun na l itne intelj laanu alagahatmut. Sahe. U analyom atakad akter shay mukin ansaho, le al-banat ali habin in nahomid zawoju, awfe alakat, awhetta mizzajin, uh yikunu ashab, muwes ashab, yikunu best friends ma' az zawajom, yani ana dud innu masaran, laa ba'haki kul shay, lat zawoji. Latit zawaji ni idawahid ma hakun ana minger filter, gud damo, ishabrafi, hagwada mstil kul hayatiya yareem, sahba, hu wa kaman, ala rejul sabinuit kellam. A rijal diaman osabnil imrabinu yftah gelbo. Bes nehna bikedin nissa, kedin nissa, makidahun, minjid neke dahun nadim. Astam likidin nisa haggikik, alashan tihhilif tahlig gelb. A rejul mujarat mufatahgelbu, emra magdirit khalanna. Anahadalikta shaftu. Ana anamatan zoji, matwa qkat abadan, and nuhada shahs anahuwa halid zawash. Awakan anahu, walla, aw anahuwa, hankun, lhamdulilla Rabbi, minjid best friends, gabelman zawaj. Msha alla. Fa ashankida al experience haggeti nafsi njid al-banati yfamoha, wadaem interim kudinus fil hekaya, mate. Nas al libarra. Sahih, al-hekayam. Kif mishit f marahal al elajwat teshafi. Akadat ma'aki wakha.

SPEAKER_00 25:13

Ayyuwa akadat akadat. Shufi humay gulak uh the five stages of grief, Ana, I feel like grief is not linear. Ya ni mafi, yani mahman, tikra iu, tiktubi, utifami, uhel at tashafya shua iya. And it's messy. Yaani munkin kutwatin gud dam arba kutwa twara. Uh vi marhal muay, ubadi munkin tim shi shot marra kabi. Hasabkul shakhsu alma sadma lihuwa marfiha kama. Hagi hagi yukaman nisha yani gad dish aslan wahatkan tesah nafsia kabl uko hadil hadith, linubitzir tara kumata hyanan, yani anabashov nafsiu lillah alhamd, the shafet, nisbian, bishaqil afdal, minkithir, min nas hawaleya, ma zalu ma'annum mimkin nyikunu bada ugebli, bas mazalu fita kabut. Fa I think ashahs mahadanu waqt rasural al-troma hadi, ish mahadanum al-asas, ishkabiliatu, ish imkaniyatu l-biologia, aslan innu ishtazu, itfaham, w istegbil eyye mahum, kimtifidu, tara tifrik, in mudwar murramar nisbi. Bazana bin nisbali number one are my children.

SPEAKER_01 26:22

Humma saadu katiba nutha.

SPEAKER_00 26:24

Humma sahadoni, humma bataoni, huma kurze, wa lakinal anhomma mehwari. Ya ni ana mani mitsarbe awari ni mistaj n yana nathula pathania, wala inyana abda hayati, bid nastikulak abda ihayatik minjadit ta'ana fayati, ana alredi badya ana mahtajrijjal jombi ashan atpitla kumyana bedit minn jad aweni ana mutajed awani mishtaz. Fa definition anaindi are my children, number one. Ya ni moonagasfogil hassal, inu kaman, ana gulwallahu mafina si willak law mahaikbaru shufayatom ataisha hayatik. Tab khaliumikbaru khalium ishufayatom. Ana biharihada. Fi inniana uhni inniana I I take myself away from them. Ana indi shuyad guilt al infasal ma hasal ba itiyar kamil minni or itiyar ishbari, animakar endi khyar. Okay, basically. Fa fa'htartu min makan ishbari. But I called the shots finihaya. Not because I had many other options, but I had to call this shot. Bas asju agul in nukifair lisarlaho, kaman fogaha anamabra I introduce uhumasuhara uladi are eight and three. Talag aslan be had seidah, ana alfa nas hadgulak halal, umy uhrabba nahala talak, uh, ishia ani la awal wala akur wahda, ana ajya agulakumbi kulli sika, ini ana hamatil wahut fizimmati, ini amatil kulla seyyida, tam tarakahha, waqat kilimat at talakli wahdaha ala seyyida katila. Yani anal an, tamma adat ana I've been reborn ana toiletmin jadid. An nusha hadika, matat ma'al kilma, ma wakat. Fazia, lala, let's not underestimate it, yani, oh no, superwoman, uh strong independent khabit. Khrabit, kilmat talak ala seida wakatha, muzi ajidan, fogmat khail.

SPEAKER_01 28:21

Al mushtama Aliat kabira fe fe no kilmat mutalaka. Almur a.

SPEAKER_00 28:28

I think he a futrien. Matwakina hiya mushtama ana ana ajil hamdil lam and bi ajidden mutahabdura, anama handi doh tishtima anan afikra ana jovas to amrita sa shrin sana dahla koshati, yani gribatalatien, fam ma handikandhuta zawaj, ta se bait, wala ishe, laminal ahl karib or laminal baid. Fa ubardu, arja gullik, wakata tarak, git di ishkan muli areya, fataheli seyidat ilimin biatmotahfuda, takli dia, kabalia, famarasan, la la hi futrian befitrotha, zjiddin awakat ishmukin tun sahilom and nisa al mukin bimurru, la tin sahiom bil modu.

SPEAKER_01 29:10

Ida kan fi alyom sejdat bitmur fe halat mfsal, u moklim yani mo'lim al-modu hasebma intibit faserian lu ishmu kintikun nasihaam lihom ahriflaila Minj Hagegi.

SPEAKER_00 29:27

Awalan awlan I have to atarif wagfahina. An nas hatalem tiguli an sahini fil-azija anamahb mafi ħajis ma' nasihha, ana ana an nafsi mean ashur ansah. Anamukina wajeh fi laħda muayina, fiatar, mokif ma'yan, ni ya wakfa' amami hi amilati. Wahdeb timruqminni ansahini, ansah bijjuni ha dms kitir ansahini, ansahini xhandik nasiha, aspas sabr mudu wah, ashufinu mumin makani, badin ana gwikar ħasatani. Ana ħansah al-marqa l-libi tukbar għalataraq wa al-munfasila. Hansahmin walamin ma kulina eskalu alwan, u kulina backgrounds ofarof muhtarifa. Ana kitirat nasaht, ma t tutabba kaleyan nasayeh, ma tita ta' masha ma' akriyami, wala khudurati, wala ruqyeti, wala fin abrawsa, ana point A abra ousal le point B. Tijini nasiha ħati ni li point Z.

SPEAKER_01 30:21

Plea kutyani yani inti liom benavarik ma handi ma'endi al hakriya enni ansahle annu ana manya ish situation ish gharefil hiya bid dopt masha fi main al awwal elen maslat le notte ana owwal marra amil mugawala masha se gulli anama abra ansa. Anama endi no seha. Bas binafselwa sabab juddan hello, juddan jamil, anu anama handi mante manihasa andi laqli and ni ansa. Hello lelu la terapi mur ansa handulansa. Sharat wahtarifa Tina Kul Tinaha na hello. Abadan abben blaak sam basat hatan lukev barretti, al jimlab, basatini atatini shay hello, inu anakaman edifyom haset manyafa ansa, do ma gudrash Tayyba Yalmadula anamani gadra ansa, uhnu anamani harfa eshwasaliklehena. Sa filbaktil hali allibalahedu al banat heta shabab mubasalbanat. Hata lo shafu red flux, lalamat alhamra, al-ashia al-sama, elimujuda filaka, mabintabhuliha. U balahit kitir but seer la annu ano fyom l ayam kunt falaqah jiddan sammari, mjiddan, jiddan, dhamaretni lalaka, wa ditni tahabraat. Basla anni kun juwa, ma kun chha feta, wala kunt hasta, kun ta kudha ala ennu i the alwa soto, ida alla soto hebani hai faleya. Uhha mlatz elini kef la eni juwa iza iza idahani ida manani enu yimnaik lit lit himnahani ayu ishtaknafse. Yimnani minashikhl minal minashukim in eruh alashughli for inti aknati aknaq nafsi innu my ghairan haleya. A''fa diamon diamond feasebub. Diamond lishhs energi si o lishahsis sam, lemanti kuni inti al daheiya haggetu, and dutariga innu isteuli aleki, and dutariga innu yistewlia ala agli kala ofkarikala jiddan akuya al ashhas and nerjisien as sammin jiddan akuya anamubas anutkalima an tajrupti. Akiit fiba nat kaman, sama gisas siyama, kaman humalikuno nerjisin, humalikuno, sammin, shufi, ahadi ħasab ma'ana kunt bakbar shuftaha. Fi hub awali lil lil bint fi ħayataha. Sahi al-lihuwa al-walid. Sahina nirjaleh lamaltibit zawaji, yes, tale f-rijal in-nuab, lamalhatale in-nuab, hu wamubas haikun abbhaniye tu bilatafatu haikun habib liya, sahi wahayyan al-imra tihtaj, zawjaha u, habibha ikun walid li haikun ab. Fa' atakid lisabab kaman imfasal ahli matalan, athert la'anu makan handi role model makana handi rajul, guddami, akdar akudminu sefat, fa anaruht le shahs, lil ashasar toxic la no. Hop awul hajja kanat foji. Aiwa, ahiwa. Fala manjit akhtar, akhtar ta' aks kullian yanizoji, aks kullian shaqsija t rajul daqal fihayati. Hina terrifi no inti la mut had dinosik, la mut had dinaf sikulamatidawstik, nafsiyan shalima tahtari, jahtari m.

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Alyom kamra hanaya. Tiratasninunus. Mashallah adnan comsa. Bahadnan allahmi a shaikh hadnan uh shif. Ya ni anni amrutamani isni mashah. Anabasamehu ma shaykh hadnan or malikanaya. U fakhir sarah al wallet fakher lil om. Yaani um I don't want to sound uh rajah om in anari find al g alhawa al kabalir l walled dakar marra muhim, ana anamariflash, ma ani many kabalir mudu akar marabinisbari ni anajibul wallet owa bananin riji yiji. Farabban alhamdulas tajabni ujp tl wallad o falan taj ras binti yani tisa yhni, anamkin akot amna omin shahi ibnus kim kilma tutlumfsil at talabidana gabel ma kamalata jum la tala ba indaha. Bsa ibni uhar liya u binti malika. Kifalakmahom Tesanikha bathom movas em ommah wallaqa kida kula ala bada you I think I'm I'm more of a friend. W Hadi Hada Shailu Selbia Taha and Gula hadn't show ana winter ki the mutruh madrasa. What's how to be teachers benef said with the obnilab, but fi ashia ana anahabinahliglahom biya muriha. Maham sha no ikunu mrtahini habbira nafsahom, um bekul mayhdajo nihabahom hesu and mumma iraha ifina shahari, wala hala inni kunisea, and yes leg vil home. Fa for me the most important thing is they have access to me, uikuno, fi bi a muriha jitan. Jiddan arafikra adnan anda sammetu ara abuya. Uh uh uh elegan lapsa om adnan hina special. It's a very special name for me. Uh Baba Adnan. Like a medical meaning to a ism abuya. Uh mazil tsarah al wallet shra kabirbin is very b ironically, a mama it lidah tal maudu wa hadaman soberan tijibu wallet, iyan kan ficum, uh wallet it's a mwal isem abukukum. Uh ni abuya binte. For me it was also growing up I felt I had to fulfill kanlazm, alhahabid door had an o and ma in yana a gedimlum m shai had a it was not uh by pressure, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 36:28

Well malika, Malika America. Min Albert, min asas albat, Alashan Lamanikbar we seeat, like Miki and Auladik, Minre Al Omwal Ab, Hadeshim can you feed the home.

SPEAKER_00 36:57

Yan Abrahumadesh Homaihomtaya and Mabrahom ishuvunsahom as Juzu Obasita and Hadra Metholo and Murahaka, Ayamarhara to Kun Muhaya Binness Balhom Abrabenu been nefsu, it's okay. An a hagarin at Hammer Hadil Masulia Anasheikh. Zekid, Abba Hadil Barmaja, Mushbin Makan Sheikh at Fadal Kul Shia, Tabakan, Malika and Nigimli Kla, Abraham of Makan Kuwa, Nefsil.

SPEAKER_01 37:29

Hello, Yani, Yani Man in Nigar Negul Manal Assamble in Tiatiha, L'atfalek Ashan Tatium Dafel Kuwa. Soheul Hayathiya. Absolutely. Anamalika mafish munkinigar yugaf, anashair mafish munkinigdarini, washani, come on. Sohewal yani helukefasertiha, la anulyong kitier mun shoof auladili, la anual dikat ahmar, la anabintikat abenti mathlat wala di mayihlat, o kitira hade shelil auladi trabu a weekbaru, butariga ykhalium ash toxic. Sohe, lil at me. Mahagulik ansah. Mahansa, mahansa latana. Okay, mahamina walam. Malekumbismjidani fill maudu. Ansi asana msawar, on sinu anamo juda, o talaifkamertik, utai kida risala, le adnan, unaya had risala to grad mojuda.

SPEAKER_00 38:48

Okay. I want you to know that uh you are very loved, you are very safe, and you are very protected. And I want you to be the best versions of anything that you want to be. Uh-huh. You be the best version of yourself. Musicians, gamers, engineers, doctors. Choose something you love and be the best version of yourself. And mommy loves you. Um talks the hang on the nepsil azar. I'm not sure.

SPEAKER_01 39:44

I'm blanking out. I don't know why.

SPEAKER_00 39:56

Um, as a child, and looking now at my kids at Hamila. And I grew up with this feeling, I think, into my twenties. I think la rejectly wara, top nafsi savira kan mumkin afahim nafsi, gimat nafsi afdur.

SPEAKER_01 40:50

Ya na anti uptitkelem dan anti uptitkelem kuleti fiha, shuftile gult enti awima, la annu ma'rift ish isir ishia matish bhabbad, marreti fiha, uh fi ma wakif yimkin nihaf nisharkhiya nasal in hebbaha, ashan mayujahumgalba malena, ashanma yguluya alla haram, ana kilmat haramma hebas maha, ana muharam, ana muda heyya anawala marra, ha kunda hayala ana munkin akunosalt nafsile al-marhalahadi, awle al al-nuktahadi, bas ana hagdar atanafsi.

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Siyahudwak, yea nila matukuniptik baribbiyaudwak, shufi, ahina munkin sparkin ta'hi alil libisma. I think alamt giddiesh muhim alwahidasbura nafsu, minlahdat idrak, darura tatahir, ila had wusol hadir. I think yahna nasha, ana adraktin lazamathayir for one, two, three, ana direct in urway hagi kibir, uh hadil kutwata nahatahidha. Idraki jikikikan no a hadad dakika kaf lazin faintikulishhaywa dehisir good dam. Bestistajlia'drakt, lemani fiha, lema zabbatot omori, tab ishbi minusboa adrakt lish anabahad usboa lisamad babta idzza. But I think hina we need to understand in no defi fi masafahina lazim Idrika. From point A to point B nulazim nikun saburin ma anef sana, idrakek, mu anatu, and natija al-fawriya, al an alhan, fa. Fa far idrak shay, uba din bhada fi mishwar, fahina ana anat marra i suffered kitir fita kabul al mishwar hada. Nwana drak khalas akatl khapta khatat dars, lema dhhayar shaf hayati, lema wusuta natija ofdatisal khaptahadi o natija thawders. Munkinsana, munkinsana teen, mumisaratus.

SPEAKER_01 42:55

Si, mabsuta kitir bin natayh. Bisbadila mustrit misto ebalmodu, habba habba gada sratemba habba khalas. Almodhu. Has itaf frustrated, innu anatabmana lift khalas, lish ma'anusult, eyywaalma ja lahta al idrak, janet, lele, libi sierma kidale, u the khelt fi iktia, bu the held fi mosa, ebmarkitiru anamil ashas, ma' heba sharik. Aywa aheb ana ahel umori. Analishala nafsi analya rehnafsi ana. Baadenas to wapnu la fi ashas, fihaatikun kunikunu le ma wadi mayana sohi intire tibihom. Sok fi hatama ahalik, laz mikun fihdud, fi mawwadir sahum kan ahaya nihafu aleki, walakan ahan lazim togulila hom. Hatalukana mudu haiha wifhom, there is a way. Diamond featariga and niktugulli al mawwadia okef the shark al Mawadi mannas, that tihom fita riga eom fiha, that tibutl will hajabtiram tikiri, e that tibitutl. And this is munkantifakir.

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Wala kini miktafir. Miktafia mum mimbab ini anama abbra, mimbabir. Lini lawana hafdal al-bahtjari hakun constantly hindi anxiety. W ana ma'wram an nasilikun hu wahada seh. Khalas ana muqtaniha, inun nasib l'uhayenzu li minhadas segffil hadar podcastul. La'ana bijamti, lo ana maharash twahtaktak kit, nasibi hayusalni. Fa' ana afdalini ana awajih takati, ittijah al-shia, l-muhimmal anilitajdi. Nefsi, amili, atfali, bi atatawari, tatawur apalfika atfali bikaru kulishkul ta' tswuri chejjadid, humanas judad. Fa'ana I keep having to reinvent myself ashana kuhakha, Arab. Fa'ana asib hada kullu, wagulik iiwa alla anamarra, mahtemma njana jowa's, u bahawil, u anabashuf u bahawlin yana asari shay hada leh.

SPEAKER_01 45:36

Tab ida mani filmak. Mmukin tikun uhit inti ya andik, shay asasi and nuhad safat tikkun mujuda birajul ida mumkin mirjah fakart topti ilma tanya.

SPEAKER_00 45:54

Kun mujudayani asasi ya tsifat asasi. Oh al hajjul chhamatl abamatil al-walid ashanit fa'am, chhamatil ommilhirtabutvi. Hello. Famar muhim inuhu e kun minhad al madrasam in madrasat ihtimam bil mu asasar a iliyy. Mehat man it saharunithawan fihadil mantriga miha. Um shaitani lazimi kun aranafs ow akfir, kafa' amini fi kulma anali, inkan maddi, inkan shtima'i, inkan fikri. Mainfa yikun ager minni fuala hajja, ashan ehnaf marhala kamana rafa' al-seid alamantikun, khalasat zawa jatu asisat beitu khalafat pressure al umuma mahi aleya. Fa'analaman I do this if I come to do this l marathamiya lazim tikkun dawa isadama wjuda. Ashanta kudim ma'kanis s'adil anafidil asal. Anamaha mahiraya nina assis bait mina uru jhid. Saraya inni al an, eikunfi sharik, a sharku, hayati, wa sharakahadi mahad doom la ulkefa'a, ittijah sharikahadi mahimjuda.

SPEAKER_01 47:02

Anakida akunkle kul aselti u kulmula kashati, atmunan nutkuni ambasati. Jid omanda yaktic fashane. Hadith Afadlinatkun wara al kamera. Okay, wara kamera kamera.

SPEAKER_00 47:20

Filtered version ta khayun mo filtered.

SPEAKER_01 47:23

Anna madra bakom univulha masalama masalama.

SPEAKER_00 47:26

Bye.