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Trash Talk: The Thoughts We Inherit

April Bonomo

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Okay. Hi friends. Hi and welcome. Welcome and welcome back. Let's talk tonight. I'm actually recording this one. Late night. Um, 'cause I did promise myself I would try to get these out. Um, not try do, I would get these out weekly. Um, you know, as much as possible. So hopefully we've been, we've been keeping up with that. I've been keeping up with that every week, and I'd like to stick to that commitment. So here I am with a complete blank slate. So at night, 9:00 PM. What are we going to talk about? Trash. Let's talk about trash talk. So probably not like you think, but um, alright, so the idea behind this is, and literally, I just thought of this a few minutes ago, but how many thoughts we have in our head, all the thoughts that we have in our head throughout the day. Barely any of them are our own thoughts. And I know there's a, a statistic on this about the amount of thoughts that we have in a day and the things that we have to think about, like the actual thoughts we have each thought, and then how many of them are actually our own. And I think it's like a 90%. I don't know how many thoughts we have in a day. I think it's very different for each person. But there's a range, and I'm pretty sure it's about 90% of those. Aren't our actual thoughts or they're things that we've thought before or like repeated over and over and over again. Things that we think all the time, and most of this stuff is things that we're kind of programmed into us, or what we've heard over and over again or what we were told or. Um, you know, just the comfort thoughts and the things of thoughts about, thoughts of other people, other people's thoughts that we just kind of embody and do and take on. So thinking about how many millions, probably and billions of thoughts you have throughout the day in a day. And then the fact that 90% of these aren't actually your own. So what we're actually are thinking, what we're actually thinking is so important. So what we're telling ourself, what we're actually saying out loud, what we're saying to ourself, right? What we're talking in our head is so important because that actually creates our reality. That's what creates our reality, what we're thinking, what we're saying out loud creates our actual reality and what we see around us, what actually happens around us. So how important that that really is, and words, the fact that the words and the things that we're saying out loud are so important. And a lot of the times we don't really think about what we're saying. A lot of the times when we're even talking to other people and having conversations, we don't even think about what we're saying. Most of the time we're saying things from a place of, I want to try to impress this person, or I want to try to get this person to talk to, uh, like me, or I want to, um, you know, unload on someone or vent or you just. Are trying to fill the space, you're not actually being present with that other person. So a lot of the things that we're saying, even when we're having conversations, are not necessarily what we mean in that moment. And then the thoughts in our head are a lot of. Those are repeated, repeated things that we constantly say to ourself just because we get in this loop of comfort and like that's how our mind works. It gets comfortable and that's how our ego works, and it gets comfortable just thinking these same things over and over again. Or we see something on social media, on tv, out in the world, in society. We see other people doing things, we mimic those things. We see what they say and do, and then we take that on as being true. Right. Or act. Yeah. Like actually being true. So we see things out in the world, out in society, and we're taking those on as well. So then we're having thoughts about that, that those not are necessarily what we actually think. It's just repeated because we saw it somewhere else, and that's how it works. So the thoughts that we have in our head, the conversations that we're having, and then the things that we actually are saying. Out loud are not generally what we truly think and coming from our soul versus coming from our ego, right? Like, so our ego's there because it's, it's protecting us because it's, you know, doing what someone else did and that feels safe. Or it's repeating what someone else said, and that feels real, right? So. How many of our thoughts are actually our true soul thoughts that are connected to our heart, right? And how do we get to those? How do we get to that point? If we had more time in our day, if we had less clutter and noise around us, if we were able to be present with people, if we were able to have other people be present and be able to hold space with us, there would be a lot more of that ability to connect with our heart and our soul and pull it all together and have our actual own. Thoughts, and though that's not necessarily how the world works and that's not how things are working right now. So thinking about the things that we say and what we say out loud, I. Okay. How do we then bring awareness to that? How do we figure out what's actually ours? What's good? What are the good thoughts? What do we wanna keep? You know, a lot of those are obvious. And then what do we need to get rid of? And so much of this is just so ingrained in us. Right. There's even the thought of, and the talk of, and I don't know if you've heard this before, but even the words that were created for us were not the best intentions. Right. And that goes way deep down the rabbit hole with that one. But saying things like good mourning, like the morning, why are we saying morning? Are we morning the night? Like why use that word when it kind of has a. Negative or darker connotation or saying things like, oh, this is killing me, or, I'm working so hard right now, it's killing me. Right? Like I find my, I find myself saying that quite often actually, and it comes out so easy because you, you hear it, you've heard it from other people, or you just kind of adopted it yourself. And yes, it feels like that maybe, but you're actually saying that out loud. That's what you're creating. Like is that what you're creating? That you do you want that out there? Saying that out loud and then if, if that's what you're actually creating in your world, because you're saying that whether you are being sarcastic about it or not, or whether you are realizing what you're saying or not, like it still matters because they're words and you're putting them out there. So that's the kind of words that are the trash words, right? That we just get so used to saying these, um, concepts or phrases. And I, I wish I would've sit, sat down before this to. Write down a bunch of a bunch of those things, because I've been seeing these a lot lately and they've been popping up a lot lately. Like even with the fact of when you are sick, like say you have a cold or something and you're saying, oh, I'm so sick. I'm so sick. Instead of what would actually be more helpful would be I am healing my body, or I am releasing something I no longer need or I'm getting, um. I dunno, I can't, I can't think of anything off the top of my head. But when you're sick and you're saying that you're sick as opposed to being sick, feeling sick physically and saying that you're healing or saying that there's a good reason for it, like you are purging something or letting go of something, or, oh, I'm feeling better every day, or that kind of thing, like. Putting the positive words into your body and into your mind and putting them out there in the world, right? So instead of saying that, we kind of go the other way of saying, you know that saying that you're actually sick. So when you're putting things out there, and again, we don't realize we're doing this, like saying those simple phrases of like. Oh, this is killing me. Or, oh, I'm so sick. Or, uh, there's so many more too. There's so many more, and I know I'll think of probably a million or say a million of these tomorrow. But anyway, simple things like that that we say on the daily basis that we don't even realize we're doing. Or like I said, the words that are just put out there for us, like typical days of the week or saying good morning or. Things like that, that we call certain things that doesn't necessarily have a positive swing or a good meaning behind it. And we don't even realize why we are saying that, but we're saying that, and that's actually creating our reality. So with that being said. How do we get to deciphering and deciding what we need to keep, what we need to get rid of, and. Just bringing that awareness to this. So obviously that's always the first step is the awareness, bringing the awareness around this and the fact that this is happening, and notice your words. Think about your words, why you're saying them, where it came from, if it's actually meaningful to you, if it's actually coming from your soul. Right, and, and start thinking more clearly about what you are saying and why, and how that's connected to your creation and what you're creating here. So what you're creating, how you want your life to look, what words and the things that you're saying, the things that you're saying in your head, the things that you're saying out loud, the things that you're telling other people, the conversations that you're having, what you're saying, what you're writing. Right. All of those things. Think about how that is connected to what you want to create and what you want your life to look like. And that comes down to the awareness, right? And slowing down, right? Slowing down, getting rid of the clutter around us, starting to. Get that clarity of what you do want in your life and what you want your life to look like, and the clarity then around what you are saying without rushing. Right? Because I know I am. Very good at rushing and rushing through things to get to the next thing. So with words that can come up all the time, rushing through conversations to, because you're trying to get somewhere or rushing through conver conversations because of whatever other reason, but. That can be a big one, is just the fact that we are constantly on the go and on the move and onto the next thing. So it's the matter of slowing down, bringing the awareness, figuring out what we want, bringing the clarity, starting to see things more clearly, starting to see how this works. The fact that we have all these thoughts that aren't our own, the fact that we can. Learn to separate them and the fact that we can come from our heart center and what is actually true and real to us and what we want to be creating out there because how would we, how we talk to ourselves too in our head and how everything starts. Is also how other people are going to then talk to us, right? Again, that goes back to like, that's how your words create your reality. That's, that's a part of how your words create your reality is how you're talking to yourself in your head. Then that's how other people are going to. Be treating you. 'cause how you're treating yourself is how other people are going to be treating you. So that's where that all starts as well. But thinking about how every single word and what you say is actually creating something. And when you hear that. That's pretty scary. That can be pretty scary. Every single word that you say is creating something, right? There's a saying that's how, um, like spelling words are spells, right? I think I saw that on the internet or some, somewhere Again, I saw that somewhere. I repeated it, is it actually meaningful or not? I mean, it made sense to me in the moment, but thinking about it as the fact of what you're saying is what you're creating. So knowing that, just knowing how important it is, knowing how important each word is, bringing that into your. Thoughts, bringing that into your speech, bringing that into your life will start to change things. And you don't have to do all these crazy things, right? It is just knowing that, knowing that this is an actual thing and this is how things work. The knowing, the clarity, and then the doing, and then it will actually start to, I would say, do or undo itself, right? Because a lot of this, a lot of these thoughts and a lot of these things we. It's almost like the undoing because so much, much of this is not ours. We need to get rid of it. Right? Right. We need to peel back the things that aren't ours. We need to peel back the layers that aren't ours, and then get to the true clarity of ourself. So let's get rid of the trash. Let's take out the trash. Get rid of what we don't need. It's like that spring cleaning, right? That good feeling of getting rid of what you no longer need, getting rid of what's no longer yours, getting rid of. What does not benefit or serve your best self, right? Your, the life that you're living into getting rid of. What is not creating the life that you wanna be creating and the life that you wanna be living. All right, so let's finish up there. And yeah, thank you guys for listening as always, and let's talk soon. Bye.