Ep. 20 : Free Your Mind

Don't stress it, dress to impress it.

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Good morning, teenage Baltimore. That's right, y'all. It's me, Jack, and I'm back with the 20th episode of Run on Sentence. You know what? And another thing. The big old 2-0, baby. We have been at this for 20 weeks. I cannot believe I have never committed to something like this artistically and creatively ever in my life with this much well consistency and this much drive. And I've never had so much fun doing something. And this is just one small milestone, and there are plenty more to come. I cannot wait to hit 50 and 75 and 100. There is just so much coming with this move to Brooklyn and all the friends I'm going to be near and all the guests I'm going to be able to have and all of the fun, exciting things I'm going to be doing to then have to update you guys about. There's going to be so much to talk about, so much news. And there's plenty of news this week, too. We've had a very eventful week, and I'm sure you're wondering what's new, Jackie Pooh. Well, we got ghosted by the broker who sold us the apartment or leased us the apartment. And we have now been like only in contact with the landlord, and the broker also ghosted the landlord. We have been trying to get into contact with the current tenants of the apartment to buy some of their furniture that they're trying to sell. They are subletting the next apartment that they're going to, so it's already furnished, and they need to pretty much get rid of all their furniture. So we had been trying for like over a week to get their numbers from the broker, and he just went MIA. And then all of a sudden, the landlord reached out to us with a welcome email, you know, just some introductory niceties, and then finished it off with, Hey, can you also send over the guarantor notarized forms that Chris sent you guys? We never received them. To which we responded to the landlord, Hi, what forms are you talking about? We never received those at all. We don't have anything to send you. Do you have the copies on your end to send us? So it was very easy breezy. We just needed our guarantors to sign saying, Yes, if anything happens, we will be responsible and get them notarized. It took literally five minutes. And I did a virtual notary, which I didn't know was a thing. It was so easy breezy. Not having to like schedule a time to go to the library when the notary's there. I mean, granted, those notaries are free. The virtual notary was like 25 bucks, but you were connected instantly to a notary and it was done in under a minute. So you pay for the convenience, and it was very convenient. And it was probably the only way I was going to get my dad to do it as quickly as I needed him to do it, because he wasn't going to like haul ass to the library to get it done in a short amount of time. So I just turned my computer on. I said, look at the camera, sign here, and you're done. That being said, we got that handled, and the landlord sent over the current tenant's phone numbers, and we've been in contact with them about only a couple of pieces of their furniture. We're actually not buying their couch, which was like the main thing that we were hoping to buy, because who the fuck wants to haul a couch up three flights of stairs and just transport it into the city in general? So we are kind of pissed that the couch is so gross and stained and not worth it. So we're not getting that. I am buying the little desk that is in the room that's going to be mine already because I know it fits in there. I know it fits the space between the walls, which is important because we don't have any fucking measurements of this apartment yet, and we're all kind of going crazy over it. There's no floor plan. We have not been given a floor plan by the landlord or the broker. We asked the current tenants if they had any current measurements. They said no. We asked if they could measure for us. They told us they don't have a tape measure. So we've been kind of shit out of luck, and we just don't know what we're going to be able to bring. We don't know the dimensions of our rooms to like space out. I am trying to bring a bookshelf, I'm trying to bring my CD tower, I'm trying to bring this chair that I'm sitting in so we can continue the pod with some sort of normalcy and have some sort of like set and theme. And then I have the bed. I just like I can't tell what's going to work in the space because I don't know the size. So it's been very frustrating, but I think I'm going to try to get to the apartment next week. I have an interview actually at Brooklyn Winery in Williamsburg. I am interviewing for their event staff. So maybe catch me at Brooklyn Winery if you're having a wedding there or something. It's part-time, it's not ideal, but it's something. I'll take it, you know, at the moment. It's like the only thing I've gotten a response from in the last week, two weeks. And I've applied to so many different places. There's a handful of things I really, really want and I really want to hear back from. I'm sure it's just a lot of like opening an application process, waiting for a bunch of people to apply, then closing it, and then reviewing everything before they get back to anybody. I get that. I'm just like impatient and I really want something right away. So there is a few places I would love to work, but this place got back to me, and I'm going to go for an interview on Wednesday of next week, the day before I post this. And I'm going to text the current tenants and be like, hey, mama, can I come by on my way home from the interview and bring a tape measure and measure some of these rooms? Because we need to know what the tea is. But yeah, the move is in full effect. We are less than two weeks out from moving in. I am in full packing mode. I packed all of my VHSs and DVDs. I packed all of my wall art that I'm bringing, except these two posters next to me, because I might as well have something in the frame here. And this is easy enough to just like take down right before I leave. I don't need to have it like packed and stored away and ready to go. Uh, but I took down the rest of my little picture frames that I have hanging everywhere in this room. I packed up my little like glass trinkets, my fairy lamps, my lava lamp. Uh, you can see the little fairy lamp is missing right here that's usually in frame. Uh, the little tiny chotchkis, my smiskis, any little, you know, doo-da that I have sitting around. I love a little figurine. I have a whole Ziploc bag full of them now after I packed them up. I packed up my books too. I feel like I packed too many books, but again, I just don't know how much I'm actually going to be able to store because I don't know what the spacing of the room is. So I packed it up. If I get there and it doesn't fit, I can just bring it home. It's not that big of a deal. And I am that person that like I need to have all of my things unpacked and set up and ready to go the day that I'm moving. That's how I always was in college too. The night that I move in, I'm unpacking everything. I am setting everything up. Bed is made, things are on the shelves in like the exact spot they're supposed to be in. Everything is organized. I do not go to sleep until it's done. So, baby, trust and believe I will be putting everything in place that can be in place and then deciding what can't fit in the space and has to leave. So that'll be exciting. I cannot wait. And I already have my first fun, exciting event lined up for living in the city. I'm sure I'll be doing other things before this event because it's happening on July 29th. So I'll be there for basically a month at that point. So I'll I'm sure I'll have done other fun and exciting things. But this is the first one on the books this morning. Me and Carly bought Wolf Alice tickets at Pier 17. Baby, I was shitting blood, like with how excited I was about this. I love Pier 17. It's one of my favorite concert venues. It is right on the Brooklyn Bridge. It is so beautiful and stunning. You see the skyline. If the weather is nice, it is even better. And I went to go see the Japanese house there a couple of years ago with Carly. And while it is the most fiercely venue, the drink prices are astronomical. I spent like $85 on a water and a double vodka Red Bull. You will not catch me drinking at this concert. Well, if I am, we'll be pregaming because we are not buying beverages there. But Wolf Alice, as y'all know, is one of my all-time faves. I could not be more excited to go see them live again. The last time I saw them live was when they opened for the 1975 at the Barclays Center in 2016. So it has been quite some time. I cannot believe how expensive the tickets were, though. It was a little crazy. I'm also planning on going to see Casey Musgraves uh September 1st, actually a couple of days later, with uh my coworker Kat. Shout out girl. Well, not my coworker for long because I'm leaving in a week, but I am probably gonna go see Casey with her. And I just looked at the tickets right now. They're like $85. Very, very affordable and like doable. Wolf Alice was like $40 the first time I went to go see them in 2016. And when I saw them going on concert again fall 2022, the tickets were like $45. I didn't end up going because the timing didn't work out, but like that's what I would expect their prices to be. I mean, maybe not exactly the same. Maybe like the KCMS graves prices, like $80, $85, maybe $90. They've definitely gotten a little bigger and they've gotten more like national exposure. So, you know, I was anticipating it being under $100. Baby, when I went on the Pier 17 website, they were $332 each. Miss me with that shit. Are we fucking kidding me? I then went on to Stubhub, SeatGeek, Ticketmaster, all like the main resellers. They were not that much cheaper than 332. They were all in the 200s. I was like, absolutely not. And then I found another reselling website called Tick Picks. Seems very legit. I've read amazing reviews about it, and the tickets were 164 each. So definitely much more acceptable in my mind. I was like, you know what? It's a fierce venue, one of my all-time favorite bands. 164 is totally doable. I'm okay with that. I'm comfortable with that. Literally, two tickets on this website were the price of one ticket off of the Pier 17 website and some of the other resellers. It is asinine. Bring back affordable fucking concert tickets. The arts should not be like scalping and capitalizing like this. The artist for the people let the people afford to be able to go to the concerts and see their favorite artists. I get that the artists have to make money, but the label should then pay them more when they're doing these things. So enough said on that. Bring back affordable concerts, please and thank you. But that's kind of all the new fun and exciting stuff going on with me. Let's jump into the hoarder hall because I have some things that I purchased for the apartment that kind of go in tandem with all that's new in my life with this move. I purchased a couple of floating wall bookshelves, like wall-mounted shelves. I mean, they're not floating, there's brackets on them, obviously. But I think they're gonna fit nicely above the desk, underneath my TV, and on the sidewall to hold some books and like my Xbox and my Switch and stuff under the TV. Again, I just don't know though. They're 31 inches long. I think that's a very safe length, because I think it would fit on most walls, but I just won't be able to know until I get my hands on some fucking measurements. So I'm not opening the box until I have some concrete measurements so I can return them if I need. But very excited about those if they work out. I also bought some underbed storage bins because while I can't tell exactly what's gonna fit in the room, I can tell you for damn sure a dresser ain't fitting in that room, especially with this bookshelf. A dresser would fit if I wasn't bringing the bookshelf, but I need my VHS's. Thank you so much. So I bought these like fabric crates with metal boning on wheels that'll slide in and out from under my bed. And I'm going to need to start packing clothes really soon. And I need to like lock in and really nitpick what I'm bringing and what I'm not bringing because I have so many clothes that I never wear, haven't worn in years, will never wear, but I just can't let them go. So I need to like be very conscious about what I'm deciding to bring because I cannot overpack for clothing. I just don't have the space for it. The closet is not big enough to be bringing too many clothes. I have so many beautiful jackets I love to wear that I'm going to need to bring, and that's gonna take up most of the space anyway. I also bought closet space saving hangers for this reason. It's like a long hanger with multiple holes in it, so you can hang clothes like vertically and stack them tall so they don't take up as much space wide in the closet, which I think is gonna be really helpful for me. I have a lot of button-downs like this and clothes that need to be hung. So the closet not being super huge was a little worrisome, but I think this space-saving hanger situation is gonna really help. But because the clothes are gonna be hanging so low, I'm not gonna be able to put like a little, you know, like rolling shelving unit in there, like pseudo dresser. So I purchased these underbed ones to make up for that. And I've also been on the hunt for a long time for like a nylon tote bag. I wanted something that was long strap-wise, so it like hangs comfortably enough where it could like be a crossbody if I wanted it to be. But I tend to like to wear totes just on my shoulder, but I hate a tote that the strap is like too short and it's like up in your armpit. It's so irritating. And ones that are too long that like hang at like your knee and they're really irritating to walk with. And then even when I wear it as a crossbody, I find a lot of crossbodies are very unflattering on me. I have like a huge chest and it just like hugs and cups my boob and like undercups it. It is really irritating. So I found this one on Amazon. It seems exactly like what I'm looking for. It got delivered today, and it is the closest thing I'm gonna think I'm gonna find to what I have envisioned in my mind, and I'm really happy with it. It is super cute, black nylon, has two cup holder side pockets on the outside. Super cute. That's a big thing. So I don't have to put a water bottle in my bag, lit. And it has some inside pockets, it has an outside pocket, it has a top zipper, which is huge. I love that. So I don't have to worry about like little thieves putting their hands on my bag or anything falling out if I sit and it moves weird. The top zipper is a big plus and something I was really looking for. And the strap is like the perfect length, it's adjustable, so I can make it shorter if I want to, but at the full extended length, it is the perfect length that I was looking for. So I'm super happy with that. And before we get into some good old physical media and tchotchkis, I purchased an HBO Max subscription yesterday. I haven't had HBO Max since like last January, last December. I had paid for an annual subscription two years ago. And I don't know, by the end of it, I was just like, I feel like I'm not using this enough. Hacks hadn't been out, so I was like, that's really the only thing I watch all the time on this when it's running. And I don't know, I just felt like there hadn't been that many good documentaries that were coming out, which is like a big thing I loved HBO Max for was like how amazing their documentaries were. Maybe Love Has Won. I've talked about it before. One of the best documentaries I've ever watched. But I don't know, I just they were losing my interest. Heated Rivalry came out. I just had no interest in watching that. I love LA. I started watching that like right before my subscription ended, and I was like, see, it's not hooking me. Like it's okay, but it's like not enough to make me want to keep the subscription. And I let it go. But they emailed me last night and they were like, hey, 40% off discount on an annual subscription purchase. It's only $75 versus like $120. And you know, I was like, you know what? New season of Hacks just finished airing. I need to watch it. I also have seen a handful of really good documentaries that have come out on HBO over the last six months. Um, I've been loving neighbors. I've you know, I've talked about it before. I've watched uh multiple episodes of neighbors on friends accounts when I'm with them, and I love it, so I would love to continue watching that. So I was like, you know what? Fuck it. I'm just gonna buy it. 75 bucks, that's a great deal. Well, little did I know that it was a waste of fucking money because I went on my TV right after I purchased it. I clicked on the HBO Max icon, went on to the app, went to go sign in. Baby turns out I was already signed in to my cousin's HBO account. When this happened, I do not know. I have absolutely no recollection of him giving me his login. I went through our text messages, he never texted it to me. I never asked him for it. I just don't know when it happened. But I was like double pissed off because A, you're telling me I just wasted $75 when I already have a subscription signed in on my TV. I mean, I obviously it's not mine, but like, baby, what are you talking about? I've had HBO Max this whole time. Then once that clicked, the double irritation set in. Because what do you mean I could have been watching hacks this entire time? What do you mean I could have watched it week to week as it was coming out? Are we joking? Are we kidding? So yeah, not happy about that, but it is what it is. I have HBO Max for a full year now, so I guess I shouldn't complain. All right, enough of that. Let's get into some good old physical media. We found two great VHSs this week. I found Vertigo by Alfred Hitchcock. It is in pristine condition. The box is glossy and perfect. It has like no cracking on it. It says bright, neon orange, gorgeous artwork. It has like the front flap with a little like pamphlet about the movie stapled inside of it. Super, super cute. And unfortunately, it is a widescreen edition, which I was really irritated about, but like everything else about it was fierce. So I figured whatever I can get over this one time, I'll pick it up. And I also picked up Man Who Wasn't There. It seems like it's like a film noir type movie, but it's made in like the early 2000s, so it's not like a classic film noir movie. James Gandelfini is in it, which is really the main reason I bought it because I love Misam Tony Soprano. So we I looked at the reviews, it seems decent enough and highly praised enough. So I figured I'll give it a shot. And we found two goaded CDs this week. Well, we found four CDs in total, but two of them in particular are Fierce Arella. We found Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon. Baby I Love Me Some Vertical Horizon. This is my first Vertical Horizon CD, so I was very excited to start off my collection with this one. And we found Yourself or Someone Like You by Matchbox 20, one of the greatest albums from that time period. And we also found another Matchbox 20 album. We found Mad Season. I don't really think I know anything off of this album, but I figured it's a Matchbox 20 CD. I'm not gonna leave it on the shelf. I might as well check it out. And the last CD we found was Fu Shu Mang by Smashmouth. I only know one song off of this album, but you know me, I love a good early 2000s sound. So Smashmouth, baby, give it to me any day. And I decided to pick up a lot of books at the thrift this week. I know I don't really need any new books, but I've actually moved through a lot of the books that I got for Christmas already. I think I'm more than halfway through everything I got. So I'm gonna be doing a lot of reading in the city. I am super excited to be taking the train and not have a car and be able to read and like do things on my commute. So I'm prepared to read a lot in the coming year, two years, maybe. So, like I've said before, I love a mass market copy of a book, the like smaller condensed version. And what better book to throw in my new nylon bag than a smaller mass market copy? And I found a plethora of Harlan Coben books that size. And when I was at the thrift and I saw them, I was almost done with that Harlan Coben book that I was reading. And I was like, you know what? Yeah, I like his writing style enough. It's quick, it's fast paced, it's witty, it has some good comedy in there, with still like some suspicion. Moments. So I picked up five different Harlan Coben books. I found Missing You, Don't Let You Go, Fool Me Once, The Stranger, and Just One Look. I didn't read the descriptions of any of these books too heavily because I don't love reading descriptions on books. I like to be like fully surprised in the moment when things are unraveling when I'm reading it. But I will say I skimmed through the backs of these books just to see if they were like standalone books or if they were part of his series. Uh, promise me apparently, I don't know if I talked about it last week, is part of like an entire series of books centered around that main character. The way he writes it though, like you wouldn't think there were other stories. So I guess you could really read any of them at any point and like not need to know the lore of the other books that are involved in the series, which is a great writing style. You kind of appeal to a wider audience that way. But I don't know, once I found out it was part of a series, I was like, shit, this is like the eighth book in the series. I'd want to read it from like start to finish in order. And they had a couple of the books from that series, but they didn't have all of them, so I didn't want to pick any of them up. So I just picked up those five instead because they were unique stories that had nothing to do with a larger series of his. And I did pick up my favorite book of all time, The House Across the Lake by Riley Sager. I definitely do not need to be rereading this book anytime soon because it had made such a big impact on me. I remember literally every detail. This is something I'm gonna, you know, have in my collection and read years from now when maybe I forget a little bit more about it. But I did have the book in my collection. My mom actually gave it to me when I first read it, but I lent it to a friend and I just don't feel like getting it back from that friend. So I saw it at the thrift for $2. It was the same beautiful mass market copy size, nice, small and petite. And I was like, baby, I might as well. I just want to have it in case I ever want to read it again or lend it to someone. But that's all we have for the hoarder haul. I did not find any DVDs this week. It was pretty light on VHSs also, but that is totally fine because maybe I don't got space for more shit. I have like maybe four or five spaces left in the trunk that I'm bringing a lot of backup VHSs in. So you know what? I'm totally okay with like not finding too too much in the next week, week or two that I'm gonna be here thrifting. I think I really am only gonna have next Tuesday, and then the Tuesday after is the day before I move. So I think the whole day is gonna be pretty much spent packing and getting ready. So I probably will only go to the thrift one more time before I leave, and I don't need to have a huge DVD or VHS haul that time. Thrift Gods, maybe because I'm saying I don't need it, you're gonna bless me and I will totally take the blessing. Listen, if I find dream tapes and DVDs that I've been looking for forever, obviously I'm gonna get them, but I don't need a huge haul. I would love some CDs because I got plenty of room for CDs on that tower, but I'll take what I can get. I'm not gonna be greedy or picky. And speaking of CDs and music, let's jump into the content corner and start off with my music faves of the week. Not to seem like a full-on obsessed Wolf Alice fan, but my first most listened to song this week is definitely Beautifully Unconventional by Wolf Alice. Complete coincidence. I had no idea they were touring. I had no intention of buying tickets for this concert this week. I just listen to Wolf Alice all the time. They're one of my faves. So this just so happened to be on my radar this week, and it's just kismet. I've also been bumping prettiest girl in America by the Meg Stalter the last few days. Baby, Meg Stalter is one of the most important people in our generation, or at least one of the most important people to me at the moment. She is just such a force. She is so unserious. She knows her brand and she knows her power so clearly. And she just has no shame. She has no self-consciousness. She is just going out there, acting a fool, doing her thing. And it's so empowering and endearing to watch. Her Las Culturistas Awards performance of Prettiest Girl in America was off the charts. She is such a clown. I love her down. I cannot wait to go see her in O'Mary, which I will be rushing as soon as she starts her run. But yeah, prettiest girl in America has been bumping that, bumping that. It's gonna be the song of the summer. And speaking of Song of the Summer, another one of my faves this week is definitely gotta be Headphones On by Addison Ray, which I feel like was sort of the not the Song of the Summer last year, but one of the top contenders for Song of the Summer. I love me some Addison Ray. She really is doing a great job at harnessing that early 2000s pop girl sound while still making it her own. And Headphones On is incredible. And to close it out, we're doing a big old throwback. I have been listening to my Tumblr playlist a lot in the last week. And the song that came on that gave me the most chills when I heard it, like literally PTSD like feroze me. And I was like, oh my god, I forgot about this song. Has got to be Touch by Troy Savon. This is from the like Trixie album when he spelled his name like T-R-XYE. I was so obsessed with this EP. Happy Little Pill off of that EP was probably playing on my phone on loop for days at a time at the end of middle school. Troy was like everything I wanted to be in middle school, like a YouTuber, friends with all of the famous YouTubers. He was super cutesy and artsy. And then once he dropped music and it was as good as it was, I was like, okay, so you can fucking do everything. You're so annoying. I just loved like his vocal range and how like easy and vocal fry it was, and it was like the perfect range for me to sing. So I was in love with it. And that whole EP is just so nostalgic and so ahead of its time. And Touch just has all of those like synthesis sounds that were so of the time that like 2014, 2013 era. Ugh, it is just too, too good. And for movies this week, I only watched one. I forgot I had this movie on VHS. And when I was going through all of my storage packing, I saw it and I was like, you know what? Let me give this a watch. I haven't watched it in years. It is Tim Burton's 2001 Planet of the Apes with Mark Wahlberg and Helena Bottom Carter as like the main female ape. And baby, this movie was Boo-Boo the Fool. The visuals out of this world, 10 out of 10. The monkey makeup is ridiculously unclockable. They all looked so unreal. And the set design, fierce practical sets, give them to me now. Holy shit. Everything just looks so much better with practical sets. Everything is real, baby. It's not fucking CGI, it's the realness. But man, like the whole story just like doesn't take it there in the end. It's just like a little wishy-washy and weird. And like the ending when he goes back to Earth, and then like all of a sudden everyone on Earth is also apes. Like, just no explanation. It doesn't make any sense. It was very strange. I don't know. It was like a decent enough watch up until a certain point. And then I was just like so checked out. But overall, it was like okay. I would give it like a four and a half out of ten. And for books, I actually finished Promise Me by Harlan Coben already. I flew through it. The ending was definitely out of left field. It was not like jaw-dropping, like holy shit, like crazy shocking and twisting. But it definitely was not in my mind as a possibility of what was going to happen. So overall, I enjoyed it. So I'm happy that I picked up some more Harlan Coben books because if they're anything like this one, they're going to be like super easy, satisfying reads. And I started a new book today. It's called Good Bad Girl. I don't really know what it's about so far. I've only gotten like 45 pages in. We're still setting up some storyline. We're swapping like every chapter between a different character, which is getting a little discombobulating. We're up to like four characters at this point, and only two of them have a connection to each other. The other two seem to be unrelated to these other two characters, at least so far. I'm sure everything will come together at a certain point. Hopefully, we start to like get on some kind of through line train and like get some good storyline going here, but I will be patient. And that's all the content that I consumed this week. So, with that being said, let's jump into my favorite segment of the pod, the run-on sentence. And this week I need to run on and on and on about a broader topic that I actually think I can and probably will talk about more. I definitely see myself branching out on this topic in future episodes. The overarching theme of this run-on sentence this week is going to be about programming, societal programming, educational programming, just all of the programming that goes into our brains and never leaves or takes a lot of effort to reverse and unlearn if we want it to, you know, get out of our brain. And like I said, there's plenty of specific topics that you can apply to programming and how you are programmed in those specific areas, which I think I probably will touch on eventually in different ways. But the type of programming that I want to talk about today is stress programming. I think that society as a whole and whoever the powers at B are have completely tricked and programmed the human race into existing and expecting to live at a base level of stress, which also translates to fear at all times. The only two things in the world are love and fear. And the only way to keep people controlled and subdued and not in tune with their full potential and their power is to have them exist in a state of fear. Maybe when there's love, there's abundance, there's endless prosperity, there's endless possibilities, there is love, baby. Everybody say love. But when there's fear, when there's stress, when there's worry, then you completely cut off your flow of abundance and completely snub yourself of amazing, beautiful momentum and success and beauty and love and abundance. So I feel like I've just noticed it a lot more lately and some friends that like they are just existing in a state of constant stress when life is just not that serious. Everything is always working out. There is no reason to be stressed about anything ever. I used to get like this all the time in high school and growing up. You know, I'd stress myself out about homework and projects and things that I had to do. And then I would take a deep breath and I would go, okay. It always gets done, doesn't it? So why the fuck am I making such a big deal out of this? It's going to get done. It's going to work out perfectly. Everything is going to be all right. The only thing I am doing in this moment is not helping myself. I am hurting myself and prolonging the inevitable outcome of it being fine with this like imaginary hurdle and roadblock that I'm putting in place of stress and worry and anxiety. It is just a waste of time and it fucks up your flow state of doing something successfully with ease and with bliss, like you're supposed to, because life is supposed to be easy. Life is supposed to be enjoyable, life is supposed to work out. Everything is always working out. And we're taught to just constantly look for the like most annoying thing about a situation, or the default and programmed part of humans' brands is just to go, like, of course that happened. Of course, oh no, of course this happens to me. Duh, no, of course. You get what you expect. And when you program people to constantly expect the worst out of outcomes, or for there always to be an issue, for there always to be a headache, for there always to be a hurdle to get over, you're tricking people into hurting themselves in the long run. Stress uh destroys the body. Stress literally causes cancer, it causes sickness. The words are literally staring at you, saying, Hi, I am uh telling you exactly what causes the things that this word is defined to be. Disease. What does it break down to? Disease. Your body is not in a state of ease. So when you are constantly stressing yourself out, stressing over situations that aren't that big of a deal, you are causing your body to enter a state of dis-ease. And all sickness stems from emotion. If you are constantly worrying and working yourself up, how many times have you heard the phrase worried sick? Because it literally will make you ill if you worry and stress too much about things, because it's not the natural state of your body. It is not how humans are supposed to operate. Every other animal in the world, the only time they are ever stressed and worried or not at ease is when they're being hunted or if their life is in danger. How many times is your life in danger on a day-to-day basis? Probably little to never. The only reason for that to be is to prevent you from reaching your highest potential and reaching the most beautiful, blissful, easy vibration that you can achieve. And that's what they want, whoever they are. They don't want people to live and exist in that flow state that we're supposed to live, that is our natural state, because that just empowers people, and you can't control people with love. You can only control people with fear. You can only keep people in line and obedient when they are constantly fearing what will happen if they don't. So I've said it probably a hundred times already in this segment, but it is never that serious. Everything is always working out. You will get through it and you can do it with ease if you choose to. The only thing standing in your way is yourself. Do not work yourself up. Do not let worry and stress and anxiety bubble over and take over your body. It is a roadblock of your own making. You can choose to look at a situation and find the easiest, blissful, calm way to get through it, and you're gonna make it out on the other side. Stress is the killer, and the body keeps the score. And if you stay in a state of constant stress and worry for your whole life, it will catch up to you and it will do a number on your body. It's just not worth it. It is just not worth your happiness and your health and your ease and your bliss. All right, I could literally go on about this forever and I can get super woo-woo with it, even more woo-woo than I already have now. I'm sure that was a lot. But I'll definitely be returning to this topic of programming again in the future. It just, you know, will be about one of the other hundreds and hundreds of other things that humans have been so deeply programmed to believe and not question in their lives that are really hindering them instead of helping them, and trying to break down those programmings and trying to help y'all and myself relearn and reevaluate things that we just assume to be the truth because that's just what we've been taught and always believed. These things are also so helpful for me to talk through out loud like this. I'm a big believer that like words don't teach, words are tools to help try to get through to somebody. But like, if you are not ready to hear something, no matter how perfect the words are, it's just not going to register in your body. I mean, how many times have you heard something over and over and over again and it just doesn't click until all of a sudden something shifts, something happens in your life, you get a new perspective, and then you hear those words again and you go, Oh, holy shit, now I get it. It's because you're at a different vibration, you're at a different level to actually resonate with the vibration of those words and that message. And you now match it and understand it. And the same is true with what I just talked about. That programming of stress and worry, I'm human. I struggle with it too. It is a deep programming of mine. And while I understand it, talking out loud and verbalizing it and letting myself like enter a flow state about it is honestly more educational and helpful for me than it probably even is for you, because I understand what I'm saying and I am teaching myself. And it helps me like as I'm talking about it in real time, like look at the topic from new perspectives. And sometimes something will come out of my mouth, like flow state that I've never even thought about before, but it's just flowing and it's hopefully educational and helpful for y'all, but it's also, like I said, so helpful to me as well. So I love to talk about all that spiritual, deep shit. So, like I said, definitely we'll be revisiting this, but it'll be about one of the thousands of other things that plague the human mind. And hopefully we'll reach some people and we'll start deprogramming together. And I will get off my woo-woo spiritual soapbox now. Thank you so much. Well, that's all I got for you this week, guys. I will be back next week for the 21st episode of Run on Sentence, and I think that is probably gonna be the last episode in this room. I cannot believe I'm saying that. I will probably film it before I go into the City for Pride, and then I'll be posting that episode from my new apartment in Brooklyn because I'm moving in the Wednesday before that episode is gonna drop. So I'll probably be posting it from there. That is so crazy. So episode 21 will be the last one in this beautiful little corner of my room, and then you'll see me episode 22 in my new space, in my new apartment. So exciting. But we're not gonna get ahead of ourselves. We're gonna relish every moment that we have left here, and we're gonna really enjoy it and be so grateful for the time we've had, and we can be so excited for the time that is yet to come. So tune in next week for episode 21 of Run on Sentence. Bye, y'all. You know what? And another thing.