The Waiting Daughter

What does it really mean to wait well in a world that rushes everything? 💌

In this episode of All Daughters Considered, Valerie sits down with worship leader and faith-based creator Woudlande Joseph for an honest, vulnerable, and deeply needed conversation about waiting, purity, pressure, loneliness, standards, healing, and trusting God with love and timing.

Together, they unpack:

✨ The emotional side of waiting

✨ Feeling pressured in modern dating

✨ How to stay grounded when everyone else seems to be moving faster

✨ Boundaries, self-worth, and discernment

✨ What people don’t tell “the waiting daughter”

✨ Trusting God while still having very real desires and emotions

This episode is for every daughter trying to honor God without losing herself in the process. 🤍

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Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

This is for the girl golden girl got shot. Head up with your crown and smile. This is for the girls all over the world. Let me let me let me let me hear you. And don't forget it, either.

unknown 0:15

Alright.

SPEAKER_00 0:16

Hello everybody, and welcome back to All Daughters Considered. I am your host, Valerie, and I'm so glad that you are here. If you are coming back, welcome back. And if this is your first time, please make sure that you're subscribed. Um, make sure that you're with us mobile on Apple, Spotify. Everybody's watching, everywhere is watching. Brazil is watching, Japan is watching, Iraq. Shout out to you, um, is watching. And I'm really excited to see what God is doing. Um, through all the daughters that are watching the show. So please be a part of the moment, share it with a friend, a neighbor, somebody that needs um to hear it. Because on all daughters considered, we really believe in raw and real conversations that help us grow closer together as daughters and help us get to know our father just a little bit better. All right. So I am very, very excited about today's episode. It's a great topic, and I have a really, really awesome guest. I'm already grinning because I already know this is about to be good. Okay, some of you might know her as worship leader, a psalmist, you know. Um, she wants me to introduce her as a child of God. Period. Thank you. Okay. Um, Woodland. Hey. How are you? I'm good. How are you? I'm good. I'm glad you're here. I'm glad to be here. I'm glad we finally are able to get together and do this. Um, but I don't know. It's something about those particular episodes. I feel like whenever it's a little bit sticky, like hard to get the I don't know, the episode always hits. I don't know. I don't know. Yeah. So I'm super excited about today. Um, we're gonna talk about the waiting daughter. And that means I feel like the word waiting means so many different things. Yeah. Um, but I know that like, even though it means different things, I feel like we can all identify with the same core feelings, core emotions. Um and I think that in the world that we're in where we can we only have to show people the good parts.

SPEAKER_01 2:32

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 2:32

Um, we don't often get to really honestly discuss what that looks like and how messy the journey of waiting and learning or like acquiring the grace to wait is. So I don't know what you think about that.

SPEAKER_01 2:47

I like that you said that. I think waiting is the ghettoest thing a person can do. Like it's so ghetto, but it's godly at the same time because it's where we get to see God. And when you think about it, for the rest of your life, you're waiting. Yeah. You're waiting. You're waiting to get a job, you're waiting to get married, you're waiting to have a child. Some people wait longer than others. So I think that the essence of waiting is just to meet God every time.

SPEAKER_00 3:20

Yeah, that's good. Yeah, it's not fun, but uh it's not. Yeah, but we we're gonna get to that. So, you know what I like to say? Get comfortable, get you something to drink. Yes. Let's get into the topic. Good luck to her. I'm in the hot seat. Hot seat, welcome to the hot seat. Hot seat. This is the hot seat. Hot seat, welcome to the hot seat. All right, so we're talking about the waiting daughter.

SPEAKER_01 3:52

Jesus.

SPEAKER_00 3:54

Yeah. Um, so when you hear the waiting daughter, what do you think about?

SPEAKER_01 4:03

A waiting room with one person in it.

SPEAKER_00 4:07

And the phone is ringing. I get the visual, but for me, it's a waiting room with with multiple people, but they call everybody but me. Everybody, my and I'm in the first seat. Yes. And you been cake. I got to my appointment on time. Oh my god. I'm in the first seat, and then this man just walked in. He sat down, they call him he went in the back. I said, Oh. That scenario is very scary. I feel it. I really that's that's what I'd be I'd be like, wow, okay. Um, maybe he had already checked in or something. This office is busy, like there's people at the front desk. People at the desk, like, and like you check in with the lady, like, hey, I don't know if you remember it. She's like, Yeah, it's not your turn yet. Just, you know, sit down. And then you sit down and then they call this other lady that was already here, and then you're still here waiting. Oh my god. And then it's just the day is waiting on, and you're still sitting down. That's what I feel like being the waiting daughter feels like sometimes. Because you're like, dang, like, when is it gonna be my turn? That is good. When is it gonna be my turn?

SPEAKER_01 5:09

My front desk has nobody on lunch for a long time.

SPEAKER_00 5:15

So I can't even go ask nobody like the full one-hour lunch. They said they met that 12 to 1. Bro, it's bad. You just sit there, watch the TV, save cartoon. I'm I'm a terrible waiting person. I'd be like looking into the window at the people. You you stop the the Dr. A. Yeah, it's a factor. If it's like, you know, should I come back? Or like I don't like dang, that's tough. Yeah, that's waiting to me. And then waiting is so you start picking up books and reading about stuff and learning about stuff, scrolling. I think that I like that you said that because I feel like one overlooked thing about waiting is I think when we pray about waiting, we pray for gotta get us out. Yes. I don't often hear people praying for God to give them the endurance to wait. Some people do, but I feel like it's after you've been waiting for a while and you understand you like I'm stuck that like it doesn't matter what I do, I'm this where I'm at. So then after being broken in that way, you're like, okay, you know, give me what I need to wait.

SPEAKER_01 6:44

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 6:45

But it is a very, I think it is an extremely pivotal step in in every Christian's life. Yeah. And it doesn't look the same for every person, but I think we all have experienced the idea of waiting in one way or another.

SPEAKER_01 7:06

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 7:07

And how that makes you feel. Like, there's nothing worse than like trying to bypass your waiting, and then like you walk through the other door that you're trying to use to skip the line, and then when you get through the other door, you're back at the place that you were in. And you're like, dang, and I done lost all this time. I mean, I'm tired because I just went through all of these back alley ways, just end up right back exactly where I was at. It was pointless, it was and now I'm like disheveled in the line because I like I look like what I'm going through now because I just put myself through a lot of unnecessary trauma. Um, yeah. So how okay, there's sometimes when we wait, we know what we're waiting for, and sometimes we don't, right? How do you identify which one of those you are? Because I think sometimes we'd be thinking, we know, that's the one. We don't know.

SPEAKER_01 8:16

You don't know. See, my problem is when it comes to waiting, I think I know, but I really don't know. Because like I'll be like, I want, let's say a man. I want this in a man.

SPEAKER_00 8:32

And God looks at the list. That's so funny. Like you said, your dad said this is tall, this is terrible. This is terrible. And so I'm like, it sounded to me. Tall man, love the Lord. What? What do you want? That's it. What more could you ask for?

SPEAKER_01 8:55

And so it's like he'll have me wait for something that he wants.

SPEAKER_00 9:01

And I'm like, I don't want you know big bouquets of flowers. Give me that single roll. That ain't as for the I don't know what I want for real. Like, I don't think any of us know what we want. Like, we have an idea, yeah, but we don't know what we need. No, that's that's the big one. Mm-hmm. Um, I think that like I I like in some ways I can be very type A. So like for Kotem Shita, I've already thought about the next 25 years. Yes, right? Yes, yes. And I'm like, yes, this is how it's gonna go, and I'm gonna do this, and then when I get to this stage, I'm gonna do this, and blah, blah, blah. Based off of what I think the trajectory of my life will look like, and what I think I want and the timeline that suits me. And all at the end of the day, when you boil it all down, we'd be so wrong. It's to the glory of you. Yes. Oh, that hurt. That really hurt it. You know how people say that hurt it? But it's that's what it is. Like when you really, really think about it, like, okay, it's the glory of you. I'm gonna go back to your to your list, okay? Yeah. Y'all remember when Michael Tower was making for rip list? Yo, I did not rip my deep sorry. I'm not let me tell you why. Let me tell you how that happened. Okay, so I when I I went through a kind of a traumatic breakup, it was like in hindsight, it really wasn't happening. But it was my first relationship ever. It was like a big thing, and I think like internally I I internalized certain beliefs that were attached to that relationship, and when it failed, it shook my world. Yeah, it kind of shook my whole the way I saw myself, yeah, my personal worth, like my timeline was all messed up, you know? So in me trying to like patch myself up, I have I have like a this a little book that I write letters to my future husband in. I mean, sometimes I forget, but like every so often I remember and I'll write something, like just at different stages of my life. And I did that one to like keep the hope alive. Um but I was but like in the beginning of that book, right, my list was in there. So like I wrote this very, very detail-oriented list about everything that I wanted and qualities and how I would like the person to look and everything. And for a long time I had it. I was like, okay, like, you know, like if somebody like came to talk to me, if they didn't fit the list, I'd be like, I mean, you're not really hitting number three, but like, you know, let's just see. Like, maybe it'll, you know, and if it didn't work out, I'll be like, I knew it. Number three is important. I should have never veered from the list, you know. And then I was like sitting, this might be, this might be during the pandemic or right after. Nah. Basket, we didn't have nothing to do but sit at home. Special year and a transformative year for real. Some for the better, and some not for the better. But um, I was sitting down and then the the sermon came up in my like the YouTube autoplay or whatever. Yeah. And I was, I think I was doing homework and I just had it on in the background. And it came on, and I seen the little title rip the list, and that really threatened the demons in me. I was like, oh, I'm let me click out of this. And then something was like, just stay, right? So I listened to the sermon. I was like, okay, it's you know, this is a good sermon, whatever. But like, if I wascape, you know, I'm not ripping the list. Right. Like if I'm doing my lali sa. Yeah, if you think about this prophetic. Right, to be honest, because I'm sick, uh, you know, right, calling the things that are not as though they were, okay? Um, and afterwards, I I had this complete like inner turmoil because I was internally battling. I was like, yeah, I'm not doing that. Like, I'm not getting, because in my mind I felt like, okay, if I don't have this list, how God gonna know what I want? Or what I felt like I was waiting all this time for. So, long story short, I did. I cut the pages out of the book and I tore the list and I flushed it down the toilet. That's very dramatic of me. I couldn't be putting the garbage, but I flushed it on the toilet. And I went and sat on my bed and I cried. Oh, what was this? Maybe someone didn't want to think it was because it had to manifest itself out of my body. I cried. I didn't realize how emotionally attached I was to that list. Oh man. And for months I remembered everything that was on it, like as if it was never gone. And then one day I forgot it. Um that's deliverance. That is what I forgot all about. I don't even remember what I put, like I might remember like two, three things I put on there. Yeah, but it goes to show that what I thought I wanted, I I didn't really I feel like I learned more about what I what I really need having not had that list. Yes, yes, I've identified qualities that I love and qualities that I don't love. Yeah. Now that I don't have the the list was like a a weight or a shackle. Mm-hmm. You know, I never knew that I would like I would want someone kind. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 14:48

It's like over time I was like, oh my god, that's important. I didn't think like, and and my version of kindness was so skewed, like I thought kindness was somebody like, uh, you know. Yeah. No, like even someone being a leader, I thought there had to be some aggression to it. And it's it's not like that.

SPEAKER_00 15:10

I'm like, dang, who was I, who was I making up? You already like in it's those times that kind of help you wait better. Yeah. Because sometimes I will see a situation or like a person or like an opportunity that I thought, dang, like I really wanted that. Yeah. And then when I see it, I'm like, you know what, God. You ain't want you good looking. You ain't want it. Cause I because I this is not what I wanted. Exactly. What I thought I wanted, what I thought was gonna be good for me, yeah, I didn't know that God allowing that door to close or me passing right by that. I thought, I'm gonna stop right here. That's fine with you. And he's like, no, we still gotta, you know, you're not, this isn't it. You still gotta wait some more, still gotta journey some more. And you're like, okay, well, why? Like, you know, like you let her get who she wants. Right. And you, and I gotta just, well, I gotta wait. I gotta wait, who am I waiting for? Moses, you never know. Man, and when I revisit that situation, or like, you know, even and and again, nothing negative has to take place.

SPEAKER_01 16:26

Yes.

SPEAKER_00 16:26

But you're when you see it from more, I think the brokenness that happens in waiting is how you mature. Yes. Like practically mature, but also spiritually. Very much. Because you're looking at when you look in retrospect, I think the the part about retrospect that people ignore is that you're not just looking back, you're looking at it from mature eyes. Yes. You've gone through a situation or you've gone through a season that has matured you. So when you look back, you you're seeing it from a more mature standpoint. You're not looking from the same place you were when you wanted it. Yeah. You know? So looking back after having learned what I learned, I can see now that that was not it. Gonna be what I thought it was gonna be. Not it.

SPEAKER_01 17:19

I understand, because like I journal my prayers. Like, so I have journals that go back like 2016, and I'll read back. The other day I read back, I said, ooh, I said, you cried for him, you wept like you said God on one swept.

SPEAKER_00 17:44

Like not coming out your notes for that. So it's so humbling to look. Man, I could be wanting to look bad. No, I had to to humble myself. And it's some letters I'm gonna cut out the future handle book for real. So sorry, babe, if you watch this. Why? Because my phone value. I'm reading it. I'm saiszy for myself. Like, no. How would you write this down? Like, you okay? Right. Like, clearly you weren't. And you know, that's okay, but nobody needs to see this. I be going to burn them journals. Oh my god. Like nobody could see this. But you know what? I like that's another thing that I feel like waiting gives you. Waiting gives you, well, it should give you grace for other people.

SPEAKER_01 18:36

Yes. Oh my god.

SPEAKER_00 18:37

Because I feel like when I, when I look back on me. I should have took a deep breath. There are things, decisions, people, um, situations, friendships that I endured in a season of my life. Yeah. That I didn't know any better. Right? And in retrospect, it's embarrassing to think about. Dang, I did all of that.

SPEAKER_01 19:07

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 19:08

You know, or I, you know, I thought this way about myself or whatever. But now, like, okay, if I meet somebody, I feel like at that time, if I met somebody who told me that they were dealing with X, Y, or Z, I'd be like, girl, what are you doing? Like, like, that's dumb. Like, stop that. One time I'm calling you dumb, and it's me with a big dunce thing on my head. Yeah, literally the mug in your eyes. I'm a fool, I'm a whole fool calling you dumb. In retrospect, okay, now I could be like, listen, I know you love him, but let me tell you something. One time a man got me here.

SPEAKER_02 19:46

Yo! Yo! I gotta leave this podcast down.

SPEAKER_00 19:55

And I didn't sit him to help. I have to sit you, listen. You gotta hold their ass. I'm gonna tell you something. And what did that lady say in that song? Might be cool. I come out of a medical. But I understand how you feel because I did something actually dumber than you. Okay. And I the the good thing is I live to tell the story. The embarrassing thing is I have to tell you the story. But I now understand I get you now. Yeah, I was there. I was you. I understand that. Yeah. I'm not like that. Is a sin that I may less commit is judging people without a full scope of really understanding or pre-maturely judging a situation because we're supposed to judge way, discern, but sometimes we do so prematurely or without the appropriate understanding, context.

SPEAKER_01 21:05

It gives you more sympathy.

SPEAKER_00 21:07

Yeah. I don't think I had that. I don't think I had that. When you sit in a waiting room, you go find something to do. You know when you wait for food, like you place your order and the waiter come out with food, you think it's your everybody food coming out. What got it? You like, oh that's that's humbling.

SPEAKER_01 21:36

And so I don't know. In waiting, I've learned to sympathize.

SPEAKER_00 21:41

Because I remember I'd be like, oh, that could never be me. Then it became me. And I'm like, ooh, that's what my guy shouldn't have you ever again. I'll just be like, oh, that could never be me. God said, and boom, it's you. Look at you. Hello. Never seen that before. And it's been today. Right. And it happened so fast, right? I feel like it could never be you. You could never be. You could never be good. Now what are you gonna do? Right. And when you get to that place, you gotta have the humility to understand. I said that. That's I walked myself right into this. That's true. I'm going to apologize to the sister in Christ that I talked about. That goes, that's that scripture. The manner that you judge others is the same manner that you'll be judged. And we be thinking about it differently. We be thinking about it, we're talking about the the pearly gay. No, baby. La. When you looked at that lady crying, sliding her nose out for somebody that that she was, you know, that was not worth it. Yeah. And you said, that will never be me. Recording. The angels be like, heard that. God. I don't know if you heard what you said there. And he's like, the devil, just like Joe. I don't know if you heard her say, yeah, um, you just gonna let her be prideful like that? And he'd be like, cat, I gotta do it. Gotta see it through, my boy. Gotta do it. Cause he's just. That's the part. I'm like, dang, you're not fair. You're just. Yes. That's good. You're not fair. You're just. Yeah. So in the waiting room, I'll be thinking, and and it's so much like you can feel like a crazy person. It's almost like insulation.

SPEAKER_01 23:32

Yeah. And you could almost feel like, you know how you said your waiting room have people. You probably tell the person, like, oh yeah, I came at 11:30. And they're like, yeah, I came at 11:45. They're about to call me.

SPEAKER_00 23:43

And you like, hold on, wait. We can't relate for real. Right. We're in the same waiting room. We can't relate. Woo!

SPEAKER_01 23:51

I don't know. We, it's tough. You start asking people some questions.

SPEAKER_00 23:55

You ask yourself questions. You start hearing things. You like, God, that's you. The people next to you are telling you, dang, I ain't gonna lie. If I gotta left. I went home and I came back. You still here? You still here? Yes, I am. You ain't even changed your outfit. Actually, went home and man. I I went home. I came back. They already see me. I'm back again. And you still in the same spot. That's where you start making lies. But that's like four other life that we like, dang she right. Dang, they write. You start capping, like, nah, you know. I already seen the might poke over there on the day. Tell them about television. You don't, you can't, you know. You don't gotta, I don't have the answers. What is it? I don't know how you got the answers. That's how you feel. And I think, but that's that place of what? The reliance. Yes. Dang, like, I really don't know for real. I'm just here for the vibes. You know, I don't like relying. Oh, I hate it. I don't like relying. I be feeling like, this is so honest.

SPEAKER_01 25:19

I be feeling like I can control everything. Whoosh and take care of everything and know everything and know how it's gonna turn out.

SPEAKER_00 25:27

So if God tell me something like, like He tell me, okay, I'm gonna give you one million dollars right here, right now, in this, you know, you're gonna have it for the next day. Every dollar is already packed planned out.

SPEAKER_01 25:42

It's planned! And I'm like, there's no way I'm gonna mess up, I'm gonna invest this, I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do that. The million dollars is done in one day.

SPEAKER_00 25:48

Gone.

SPEAKER_01 25:49

And I'm like, how did that happen? And so that's where God like teaches me like you may think you know a thing, like, or when someone prophesies something to you.

SPEAKER_00 26:04

Oh my gosh. How it's gonna end up. Or like when you don't believe it. Because you're like, actually, you know what? Leave me alone. I feel like there's a sense of disillusionment that comes when you wait for so long. And that's something that you like I think we have to be weary of. Um, because I know, like, I can recall one specific period of waiting that I was in, yeah, where I was like, yo, like, if it's if it's not gonna happen, God, it's okay. Yeah. Because I got so used to disappointments and failures that are like the path to success, I think, is like the the bricks are laid with blood, tears. Jesus. Like this the failure, you're the disappointment. You it's it's a part of it. You unfortunately cannot walk from point A to wherever it is that you're supposed to get without paying that price. Yeah. And but in the middle of it, you're like, dang, like. I don't want it no more. You don't want it anymore. Or you are like so jaded by the disappointments that I think that sometimes that's what the enemy will use so that you don't even enjoy, or you overlook that you made it. Jesus. You should be celebrating that I'm here. Yes, this is what I've been waiting for. Yes, okay, there's gonna be another waiting period for whatever comes after that. But I can't even be have joy in this moment that to celebrate this that God actually did what it is I was waiting for because I'm so disappointed. I'm so hurt by all like everything that I've gone through on my way to this point that I don't even know how to celebrate. I don't know how to celebrate a win.

SPEAKER_01 28:01

And it's like when you get to that win, you're because you're so used to the calamities and chaos, you're waiting for the other shoe to die. Yes. Like, okay, so what's next?

SPEAKER_00 28:13

I feel like that steals it from you.

SPEAKER_01 28:15

Yeah, I don't know, it's so traumatizing because when God rewards us, I know that it's good, but this is me.

SPEAKER_00 28:27

Like, I be used to chaos at some point. Like if I'm in a sea of calamity, I don't know how I'm afraid when peace comes. It's like this supposed to happen. This is another thing that I have to learn now. Like how to be like, I think we joke all the time. I mean, I do, I'd be like, God, I know how to be poor. If if there is a test, give it to me now. I will pass it. I know exactly how to be poor. Let me be rich today, baby. I said, let me test me right now just we don't even have to get to the full meal. Give me 500,000. Just test me with that. Because I've never, you know, but then I would feel like I would get it. And because back to that reliance piece, right? So our lack of ability to to yield for God to teach us, yeah, is where the I think is where survival skills are bred. Right. That's where we get the term of like, okay, survival skills, they're practical, but they're not necessarily like like important spiritual tools. Yeah. When you like some some survival skills are teach you how to make do with the situation that you're in. Right. When the situation changes. What now? What do you do? What now? Oh my god. Like when, like, I would love to be able to talk to somebody like Joseph. Mm-hmm. That man was in jail locked up for 13 years. He ain't never had a like good grace period. No. When he did, it was like brief. Like when K was little and he was walking around with a coat and junk, that was it. That was it. Right after that, it was it was trauma after calamity, situation, situation. Then you find yourself in jail for 13 full years. No reason. And one day, just and he was in jail just doing him. Yeah. Mind you, he asked them boys that he gave the interpretation for the dreams. And a good word for it. Never did. Until the one day. Until the one. And these are the like that's disappointing. You know what I mean? And that that's like for people. I feel like you could pause there because Joseph was in prison. Yeah. Interpreting people's dreams. Yeah. He was not in an ideal place. Yeah. Doing what God gave him the grace to do. Jeez. Right? And I think we're so tied to what we perceive effectiveness in our gift looks like. And who we should look like when we are, when God is using us or God is speaking to us, speaking through us. If you got the interpretation for that dream, the Bible would have said that it was from like a what do they call those? A familiar spirit or something that if that's what it was. Yeah. To receive the interpretation of dreams from God, you had a connection with God in the worst possible. When they put people in jail, especially in them days, it wasn't all, this is not the Constitution. It wasn't no fair and speedy trial. You don't have a sentence time. People died in there. Yeah. That's your house. That was it. You probably committed a two-year sentence crime and you died in jail. So the fact that you spent 13 years, I'm sure people came in after him, died. Yes. People came in, you know, um, and they might have just somebody put in a good word for them. They got him out, and he's still in there. You watching him come and go. Watching him come and go to the point. I think they did. Like they got you, you they gave you a whole manager position in the jail. You never leaving. Like you never leaving. This is your job now. This is it's your home. This is it. Yo! Oh my god. And God was still using him in the worst place. Like some of our prisons are proverbial.

SPEAKER_01 32:54

Jesus.

SPEAKER_00 32:54

You know, like some of our prisons are like obviously not literal ones. Maybe I don't know. We won't get into that. I don't know if y'all could watch YouTube, but like, I don't mean that in a bad way, please. I mean like not everybody's prison is literal. Yeah. Some people's is is mental.

SPEAKER_01 33:14

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 33:14

And you're waiting for you to be out of that place to be who God called you to be. And sometimes He's calling you to do it fair. Jeez. Sometimes that is where the that is the birthplace of your the beginning of your transition. It just it doesn't, it's not the textbook, you know, theory of how you know these things begin. But sometimes that is the place where it starts. And you've forgotten in that. You be there are people who are were probably are probably blessed by your ministry and like you know gleaned from something that you did and went on and used it or walked in it.

SPEAKER_01 34:01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 34:02

And completely like I didn't know who you are. And that is exactly where it got you right now. Because there is a day. Like that. Joseph Day came. I would love to know how that trend. It was quick. It was very quick. They called Ka, he interpreted a dream, he became second in command. Like that. Immediately. You but you were just in jail for 13 years. I want to know how you went from being in jail for 13 years to solving the so like socioeconomic issues of an entire country. And now you're second in command.

SPEAKER_01 34:43

I think like that story is the true depiction of waiting. Yeah. But I think it's because he did it with God the whole time. Like he was integral when sis was trying to sleep with him. He's like, please, I can't do this. Like the whole way through, he was serving and ministering. And so I'm sure the transition was weird, but it's like, this is what I do anyway. Like I interpret anyway. So it may have been like, wow, this guy's spectacular. He has been spectacular. Right. He was just out of sight, and I'm sure God was working on people love to say he was prideful.

SPEAKER_00 35:27

And I feel like that's so that's very misinterpreting. I know. The man to his dream. The man is at the time the youngest child, not, you know, to crap on youngest children. But there's a there is a luxury of that position, or most of the time, because everybody's story is different. Yeah. But there is a certain type of love that you are used to receiving because you were the baby. Yeah. You know what I mean? And everybody, you know, gives you that type of, I don't think he was proud. He was the baby. Guys like, like. I don't even think y'all gave him enough time to be proud for him. Right. Like y'all threw that man in the thing. Like, he because he was being an annoying brother. Wow. He told y'all the dream.

SPEAKER_01 36:14

Y'all ain't like that.

SPEAKER_00 36:14

Your daddy get your daddy gave him what? An essentials jacket? And you got mad? Let me get a jacket. I don't understand, like, why that wasn't an option. Like, eskipa get toil on call. Like, why you bullied him? I don't know. Cause he got a cause he got a glittery jacket on. Like you you you couldn't get a jacket. Mind you, these are grown men with family. Grown men, by the way. Grown men with wives and danger. That's it. Y'all was gonna kill cause one of y'all had sense to be like, nah, we can't do that. Ruben said, no, no, no. Nah. Why? Why? Why was that even in your head to kill the jacket? Over a it. It had to be fire. No, I want to see that jacket right now. I think it was fire. Like, cause the one they had in the movie, the the the um Joseph King of Dreams, that's my every song in that movie. You do? Every song. I watched it one time. The songs are good though. Listen, it's just like the print, the Dreamworks was in there. I don't know who on the team was anointed in that way, but Prince of Egypt and Joseph King of Dreams, they all came out in the same time. Listen, Prince of Egypt? God bless you. Listen, I know that one too. I know that. Me and my siblings, we be catching, we doing the harmonies for the um the plague song. The the I sent the flood the. We be in it like here comes that song. Man, they was in their bag for the movies. But they gave Joseph like a nice, like, like the twilight had like a little clip thing in there. And then that's okay. You're like, okay, that's gotta fly. Like, I could see, you know, like it was like a long line, kimono style. But kill you, and then took the jacket, ripped it up. And y'all could have just took the jacket and wore it. Nah, no. Ripped it up, put blurry. They put blood on it. Cause they was trying to stab us because you're here. You guys are in the streets. You staged, you let the girl. Because you're coming to tell, like, you come back, suck to your mama, mama, it, it, it, it, Joseph. Because she finally had another, she was having another kid the whole time she was thinking about Joseph, Joseph Kimulia. Joseph. And Baga Saktu by Fia. Because that's actually insane. So when he gets, and you can kind of see some of the emotional like residue of that waiting period when he sees those brothers again. Yeah. He forgives them for real. I think he because when you're in pain, back to that surviv. I think I don't even think it's survival. I think when you're in a waiting period, you're in a very broken place. Yeah. So you are you're more reliant. You're yielding on God to make it through the day. So if He's leading you to forgive people, you will do it. Yeah. When you have gotten yourself used to, or like now that you you're starting to become more accustomed to life on the other side of that waiting period in Bakayobon. You don't see those people. You don't see them. There's kind of a distant memory, and that brokenness is a feeling that you can relate to, but you don't understand it in this moment. Yeah. That reminder of your past. Jeez. Coming in your face. And then I gotta help. Like everybody was like, oh but supposed to Missy. I think that would have been great. I'm telling you the truth. I think I think some people would have done worse. I'm out there too. And you stay here. What do you mean? Because he was kind enough to give y'all food. But a bunch of people. I would have sent one sash. One sasha di for my dad.

SPEAKER_02 40:34

Oh my god!

SPEAKER_00 40:37

Yes. Because Joseph doesn't know he he doesn't know that his daddy thinks he did. Yeah. So m the boo green sashe. For my father. Yes. That's it. What do you mean? Do do sudden fed do sashe bala? I'm like, these are things that I would have went in my head. When I was care. No, no.

SPEAKER_01 41:14

And he he was most likely thinking about them like for all those years, like, dang. Yeah, really the enemy.

SPEAKER_00 41:23

When I catch you, Ricky, Ricky, when I catch you. Ricky. Because no, like that woman, and I'm all that time he's probably thinking, dang, what's wrong with me? What about me? This is sometimes these these are the things that come up when we're when we're in a season of waiting. Like, Pookie sa, your short month being picked. Specializing, yeah. Why didn't they pick me? Why, why am I being overlooked? Yeah. What about me is not good enough? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? What what about me, you know, is not enough to earn the validation of these people, or for me to be quali to qualify for this opportunity.

SPEAKER_01 42:06

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 42:07

Um and you'll be more qualified than sometimes the people that are getting chosen. And I think that's it's it's a it's I think it's meant to humble you, but because we're human and we wi our brains are wired differently depending on what the individual things that we've gone through. I think it it can teach you really bad habits. And I think the hardest part, at least for me, is overcoming those habits. Yeah. Rewiring my brain to not go straight to that place. To revenge. Oh my gosh. Yeah. Or like harm like myself. Ooh. In the process of of trying to vindicate myself. And and I think, and that's such a hard pill to swallow. I think people think that not getting revenge is the hardest part. No. I think for me, understanding that the person who hurt me was was it was part of the plot. Yes. Making peace with the fact that God allowed this to happen, I think for me is the hardest thing. He said, Yeah, yeah.

unknown 43:32

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 43:33

Oh, fair feature. Rewind, rewind, do it again. Like, yeah. Yo, this is fine. This is this is this is important. That I think for me is the most difficult part. Because then you're like, okay. We it didn't need to be. Like, like it didn't need to be this. It has to be like that. That's why I'd be directing like. When things like that happen, I direct my anger to God. Because I'm like, you could control these things. You could stop this. You can approve of this. You can disapprove. Why you let that happen to me? That's really hard. Why? Why you let that happen to me if you know that I'm going to do your bidding and I'm going to wait.

SPEAKER_01 44:22

Yeah. Anyway.

SPEAKER_00 44:23

Like I'm going to patiently wait, sit here, open this magazine, like just why? Like we it didn't have like you it didn't have to be, you didn't have to take it in this direction. You ain't even had to go that road. Like, man. Why? And it's it's so crushing. It's so that's exactly what it is, I think. And that's the point. That's the point. That's the point. And I could never fathom his thoughts and why he do. We were never gonna know. No, because it's like when you think of Joseph's story, did he really have to go through? My thing is like for me, Partifre's wife, like, come on, sis.

SPEAKER_01 45:04

I feel like that was it.

SPEAKER_00 45:05

Like, you saw fair back. No, no, no. Partify, you knew you're damn you should. It was for that. But like, you know, like you derailed my life for 13 full years. Yeah. And God, you could have easily just not allowed to happen.

SPEAKER_01 45:28

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 45:28

You didn't have to make my brothers toss me in a pit.

SPEAKER_01 45:31

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 45:32

You didn't have to let me go through that betrayal. I didn't have to go to that breakup. I didn't have to lose that job. I didn't have to, you know, struggle with this addiction. I didn't have to have you could have, you didn't I could have never met this person that introduced me to this thing that shackled me for the rest of my life. Yes. We could have never met. You could have made it so that I we never met. Why would you let this happen? You orchestrated this. Why would you let this happen? You orchestrated the whole thing. The whole thing. And you watched. And it's kind of like when Jesus was just on the cross. He's like, why would you for a second? He's just watching. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 46:09

I don't, I don't know, but I I think the purpose of waiting in that is to see how well you can minister in the dark.

SPEAKER_00 46:20

Man. I hate it. I hate it. But it does make sense. I hate it. Because it's like, if you can't do it too good in the dark, then when you come out on the side I want you to come out of, what you finna do? I think you're in and your interests are gonna be misplaced. Yeah. Like you won't think you're doing this because you just could do it.

SPEAKER_01 46:40

You're gonna forget why you either. Like, it's just like when you said the glory to yourself. Like, it's it's for you now.

SPEAKER_00 46:47

You're gonna come out, you're gonna think you Beyonce, you're gonna think you're Michael Jackson. Oh, yeah, I'm just so skilled, and that's why it has nothing to do with God. Nothing. You know, I'm just I put in a lot of work, I put in a lot of time and like invested. There's nothing like that. You like battu? Yeah. No, honey. Like, that's why the I that's why they always say you can tell, you can always tell old money from new money. Yes, yeah, because new money, you go put on. Like everything is like they're gonna do the most because they got it to do. Yeah, trying to flex. Old money, more than likely, the person who acquired said wealth had to get it out of the mud, literally. They probably had to struggle to put together one little store that and they had to struggle to build that one little store to a decent store, and then one day it took off, and then they had to. So they've been passe so much, they've been refined so much that yeah, it's just nice that you know I'm able to afford this for my family, and the trajectory, my bloodline now is in a much better place.

SPEAKER_01 48:08

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 48:08

But the saisiness, the you know, how do I say this? The the newness of like all of this well, they're much their roots are deeper.

SPEAKER_01 48:24

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 48:25

Yeah. Yeah. I feel like there's, and that's why I think that there is a grace to wait. It gives you roots too. It does. Oh my god. There is a grace. I a couple episodes back we talked about late bloomers.

SPEAKER_01 48:42

Wow.

SPEAKER_00 48:43

And how, you know, a lot of, you know, self-esteem issues and you know mental issues um in terms of like mental battles come from just the idea of why am I still waiting and everybody's, you know, transitioning and checking off the boxes and doing everything right to do in life. But there's a depth that you go in your period of waiting that you can't you can't fake it. You can't you can't like educate yourself to get that depth. You can't it comes from a you being uh beaten down and trained and sore muscles and you you gotta get up and keep working, and yeah, you wanna quit and you gotta get up and keep going. And you know there you can't bypass it. You just need to wait for the grace to wait.

SPEAKER_01 49:46

Yeah. And it's like when you think of the scripture that says, they that wait on the Lord, he shall renew their strength.

SPEAKER_00 49:56

It's like, what am I doing like that? That you gotta renew my strength. What are we doing? Like, and the only way he'll renew it is if you wait. Yeah. So you can't escape it. You can't. You can't do a detour like you said with the waiting room. You gotta sit there. You finna you finna be weary and you finna faint. And you gotta get broken. You might as well sit there and tell you to just eat it.

SPEAKER_01 50:23

Because if you wait, he'll renew.

SPEAKER_00 50:25

Yeah. But he can't renew if you don't wait. Exactly. Well, but he understands how much waiting can deplete you. Which is why he would need to renew your strength. Because it's every single time. It takes so much strength to just wait to wait. Knowing that if I just take a picture of my fresh dontos, I can pay my rent. Yes. But no, I'm gonna be faithful. Be faithful and integral. And keep my feet off the internet and just continue to wait for my, you know, my breakthrough. Man. It takes a lot of strength to not do what you really want to do. It takes strength to not answer that what you're doing, Tex.

SPEAKER_02 51:11

Woo! It takes strength.

SPEAKER_00 51:16

You gotta, you be putting you looking at the phone. Looking at you. Dang. It takes strength to not scam in Miami. Man. We're in the home of the slow. One time I say, God, like, let me just do one. I'm not greedy. Let me get one. Like, I'll fix everything. I promise you, after the one, I'll get this hot. Nope. That would be, it would get me just like Akon and locked up. Immediately. As I did the last drop. Turned around and got locked up. That would have been so sorry. God, God knows. No way to make an example out of you. And I'm the perfect person. I'm the perfect person. You gonna see me on all social media after my mug shot tears.

SPEAKER_01 52:08

Because it's like, I know people are like patting their taxes.

SPEAKER_00 52:16

Make it babe. You be the one person to claim somebody kid, diarrhea, tarnish your funds for the next 12 years. What? What imagine? I'm leading worship and then FBI. I'm supposed to start up. God would do that to me. And it's a live stream. Make sure it's a live stream. That's it that everybody wants to be alive. That's when everybody's like, ghost, what you do? You arrest. You on the stage, bully slap in the back. Yes. They did have to stop us there. They went right on that stage, baby, because he just extended the message. He just linked in the message. So they were like, you know, we're that's it. We're done. And got him up there, baby. So I said, listen, like when the Lord be like protecting me and my foolishness, I'm not finna take it, I'm not finna keep trying you because I know you could expose me if you want to. If you wanted to, obviously me. Yes. Even though I'll be like, everybody else do me. Well, I gotta get, you know, but we don't care. It's you. It's you. And you just gotta, you're gonna find yourself right back. You're gonna get out of jail, you're gonna be right back waiting again. And you might be more delayed. Yep, because disobedience will do that to you. It will. Oh my gosh. And disobeying is so tempting. It's easy to very much. Very much. Like, I wanna disobey. And I know that the cost of disobedience is worse. Yeah, but we still be trying to put it on afterbag. Trying to clarin up. We be trying to clar it. Like, all right, you know, like it's fine. Like, you know. You're like, we'll take care of that later. Put it on my kids or something. Right. No! In the moment, like that's not what you're thinking about. Because waiting hurts really bad. But like it's important, it's necessary. We can't bypass it. Whatever you're waiting for, whatever season you're waiting in, you can't bypass that. Nah. Nah. And you can't fake it. You can't.

SPEAKER_01 54:37

And it's evident when someone's waited. Like when you've been in that waiting room, in the pressing room. Some people waiting room real dark.

SPEAKER_00 54:47

Yeah. It's evident because when you come out, you have substance. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 54:53

Have you ever heard somebody speaking in there? You're like.

SPEAKER_00 54:57

Let them people who get they get married and three months later they try to give you marriage advice.

SPEAKER_01 55:01

It's like, sis, come on.

SPEAKER_00 55:02

Maybe I'm not even married either. I don't know. Come on. It's not time yet. You you very young yet. Maybe six months in maybe. A year, please. A year or something. Because Utel Ma short to give advice. Ubavlish she thought you don't want to be a studio. And mind you, people who've been married for 20 something years don't be trying to give advice. They gatekeep. Because again, when you've gone through some things, you you learn a couple things. Yeah. And you realize this is this ain't no, this is hard.

SPEAKER_01 55:35

Yeah. Because if they do give you advice and you're like two months in, you're gonna be like, ah, they don't know what they're talking about.

SPEAKER_00 55:41

They must not love each other for real.

SPEAKER_01 55:44

Like, girl, they got roots in.

SPEAKER_00 55:47

And trees are misunderstood. So very, very rooted old trees? Very much misunderstood. They are. Maybe sometimes they be led. That you feel like, okay, well, like, why you taking up so much space? Like, and then the nice, the little, you don't be seeing during hurricanes, them cute little potemies, they be putting in the Canadians. You be seeing that baby on the ground after the storm. That tree that's been in your backyard since 1963. Yes. Cause still there. Still there. The leaves, some of the branches might be broken, but the tree is still there. Yeah. Yeah. And that root is still because we be here for aesthetic. Like. That's what it is. I think that's what affects our timeline is the aesthetics. Oh my God. Because everybody wanted to be married by 25. What was up with us? Everybody wanted to have all their kids before they turn 30. Because it just looks better. You were a terrible person at 25. Who's going to marry you? You don't even know how to say sorry. You can't say sorry. You don't feed yourself on a consistent basis. Who are you? How are you going to raise so many kids? And you can't get a child. You want to raise and two iced coffees every day. And you want to have kids? You want to have kids. You don't even care about yourself yet. You don't care about you. You want to raise kids. Jeez. It's an aesthetic thing. You want a four-year degree. You don't even like school. She done class. What you want to do in life doesn't even involve a college degree. Jeez. You want a college degree. And that's cool. But understand that it's something you want. You know, like these are, it's for aesthetics. God is not for aesthetics, right? Some of us want a tall man. Want to get no tall men up the sala. They're gonna be like, no, God knows what I like. So he's gonna give me what I like. I think that I've learned I don't know what I like. Because I've been saying this for the week. I I I I thought I knew. You don't know what I liked. You don't know what you met what I liked and I didn't like it. And then what I thought I didn't like, I liked, and I said, whoa. Do you see how Jack Supper supper trying to confuse kids? You did me. I don't, this is not what I wanted. And the quality of that person. Mmm. Trash. And the short man could have been decent. The qual like that the man, because it's at the end of the day, again, that's a you want people to look at y'all and be like, oh, you look so cute. I don't care about the man. And it's not even that, like, you anyways, that's another show. But like, I think you want people to look at you and affirm your relationship because of how it looks and how you guys interact with each other and like how good you look in photos. And you are not fulfilled. Oh my. That man is not funny. He's mean to you. When you you you be ask you you be asking him if he ate, and he don't ever ask you. He be going out, he be buying food for yourself, and he'd be coming home and you don't and nothing. But he's tall. He look good. He looked good. He got a beard. Y'all photogenic. You're very photogenic, and you're an obvious. And you hear telling single people, well, you know, I you know, just stay single. But like, I enjoy. I'ma leave y'all alone, because then you guys love to. Okay. But like, oh my god. These are the things. And I feel like that's why some it's it's a it's a gift, and there's a grace in waiting because these things are revealed in waiting. Jeez. When you realize, thank this is what I was waiting for. I I met it. It's not what I want.

SPEAKER_01 59:58

You really get to see that, and you get to see your heart. Yeah. Oh my God. The heart is the self. When you get to see yourself for real, because one thing you're gonna see more than anything is yourself. Oh you like, I am a jacked up person.

SPEAKER_00 1:00:13

Yep.

SPEAKER_01 1:00:14

I don't like people.

SPEAKER_00 1:00:15

I don't. Not as much as selfish. No. Here I am. Like, I'm loving, I'm I hate y'all. I'm very self-seeking. I do what I want to do. Not patient, not kind. I'm not patient, but I expect patience. I I expect those things for me. For me, but I I will I am not willing to yield and give them to you in the way that you require them. I give them to you in the way that I feel like I it's you on your best. And if I'm gonna give it to you how I feel like I should give them to you, not how you need them. And these are things that you when you when you have to sit with yourself in the waiting room, you're realize, dang. Let me work on that. Let me uh I have some time. I'm here, I don't know how long I'm here. Let me fix that. Let me figure out how to do this. Like, would I be friends with me? Like, would I marry me? Would I want me as a mom? Yeah. Because we like talking about the trauma that our parents inflict upon us. But now we're not putting in any actual work to fix that. And how you think you're gonna fix it? You're just gonna tell yourself, you're gonna look in the mirror and tell yourself, you're not gonna be like your mom. Not how that works. You gotta spend some time and work on yourself. And sometimes that means your timeline is affected. And I feel like that's why God allows failures sometimes.

SPEAKER_01 1:01:41

My God.

SPEAKER_00 1:01:42

We think it's because you know um the village people have succeeded. My enemies, you're the village people. You, it's you. Like, God is like, no, baby, um, you're in here with this guy, it's not gonna work out. And and you're thinking, dang, like, I just can't find a good one. I don't think you're ready for a good one.

unknown 1:02:09

Ooh.

SPEAKER_00 1:02:10

That's a really tough pill to swallow too. Could you like why I can't have a good man? Like, maybe I'm not, maybe I'm not ready for what that requires. The commitment that will require for me. I know how to be faithful to a trash man. I don't know how to be faithful to a good man. To a good man. I feel like I I need to be taught, or like this period of time is for me to learn or to face the fact that these are the things that are informing your your negative behaviors. Yeah. Now that you know them, we can work on them. Yeah. But the whole time I was trying to rush from one end to the next, I didn't, I wasn't aware that I was caring. I had a conversation with somebody that was like seven years. Seven years, I think, post our last conversation. And I I went through that whole time. Like, God had used somebody else to speak to me to tell me that the conversation needed to happen. And I, you know, fully like wanted to cuss that person out because I was like, no, I don't, please, like, let's do something else. Or like, I don't want to talk about this. So then a few years later, it came back around and the person said, I mean, I know you're gonna be mad, but did you ever do what I told you to do? And I said, No, I didn't. And so I did, long story short, and within that conversation, I physically felt a weight lift off my shoulder.

SPEAKER_01 1:03:38

Wow.

SPEAKER_00 1:03:39

I didn't know I was carrying that weight. Jesus. For seven years. So now I imagine all of the decisions I made for people I allowed into my life were informed by that weight that I didn't know I was carrying. My God. And it's leading you the whole time. The whole time. So now what happens if I would have got married? Woo! What would have happened if I would have been a mother with a weight that I would probably would have never healed from in that way. Because I mean, I that's not a person I can just call when I have other responsibilities. Yeah. Who knows what type of mother I would have been?

unknown 1:04:16

My goodness.

SPEAKER_00 1:04:17

Or wife. I that man would probably be paying for stuff he didn't even do. Yeah. Punish him for God knows what. The way is what's a good bookie style. God is good.

SPEAKER_01 1:04:29

It's a lot of unlearning, learning and waiting that we don't want to do, but you know you need to do it. Especially for where we're going. Anybody. Um, whether it's like you gotta be a public figure or you gotta be somebody's nurse, somebody's doctor, somebody's teacher, like we all have to undergo this process of waiting. And it it teaches you to meet God in a different way every time. Yeah. Like one day he'll come as a provider, the next he'll come as a father. Like, it's never the same when we encounter him in those waiting seasons. So I'm I'm grateful for it. And I know that good will come out of it. Whether it's for husband or school, whatever the case is, I just know that at the end of the day, we're gonna be alright.

SPEAKER_00 1:05:20

Yeah. That's something I had to learn. Even if it doesn't go my way, I'm gonna be alright. So what would you say to somebody who's watching who's at that exact place? So they're waiting and they're at the place where they're I think where it starts to dawn on them that everything that they're attempting to do isn't going in the way that they want it to go.

SPEAKER_01 1:05:47

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 1:05:48

So it that's a very tricky place.

SPEAKER_01 1:05:52

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 1:05:52

Because you can it can go all the way left. Or that can be a moment where you truly begin to learn how. And or like understand how or where God is meeting you.

SPEAKER_01 1:06:04

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 1:06:05

So what would you tell them?

SPEAKER_01 1:06:06

I would tell them to let go. Like, let go of the ideology you have, of the perception that you had. Um, and the quicker you let go, the easier it gets. Because once you keep holding on to it, it it's crippling and it stops you from seeing where God is taking you. Not that you'll see all the time. But um let go of what you thought was. Take the time to mourn. Yes. Mourn what you thought was and what you thought you was gonna have, or whatever the case is, and know that at the end of the day, God is for you and he's never gonna be against you. Like if he said X, Y, Z, it may not be the way you think. It's gonna be better than what you think. Because I know God be speaking. We'd be like, God, what you mean? Milk and honey? For real, milk and honey. So it's like, you know, when the Israelites, they're like, we have this promised land, they get to the promised land, we got giants. Why? Like, right? Why do I have giants in my promised land? And it's it's gonna be fine. Giants were eradicated later on. So it's not always what you think. What you think you know, you don't know.

SPEAKER_00 1:07:24

Every time you think you know something, know that you know nothing. Like that's what actually what you know less about. Girl, you don't even have a fraction. That is actually you know the least amount. You know nothing. You thought you knew oh, it was gonna be blue today.

SPEAKER_02 1:07:42

No, no, it's not even a color, it's a letter.

SPEAKER_00 1:07:46

Right. Actually, no, the answer is cute. Sorry. Yeah, so that's why I said to also grieve it. Like just grieve it, mourn it. God will give you the space to do that. Yeah, he will. And yeah, it's gonna be fine. That's it. That's it, man. See no cool thing that no cafe. Man, because the topic is super rich, and like, ugh, so where where can the people find you?

SPEAKER_01 1:08:15

Yeah, you can find me on Instagram. Her dot G-L W O. G-L-O-W-O-G-L-O-W-R-Y. It's late. And on TikTok, her dot glory, same thing. I don't have any other.

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Yeah, no, yeah, that's it. Do you have any projects for things? Do I have any projects? Not right now. One day. Okay. Well, I'll be waiting. I would definitely be waiting. Um, but yeah, I like to leave everybody with the word of the day. And I think based on our conversation, the word of the day. Hmm. I think the word of the day is yield. That's good. Mm-hmm. So um, I really like that you mentioned that God gives you the space to mourn. I think that talks a lot about his capacity. So we don't have to be afraid to yield. Because he has he's good for it. Like he has the he can handle the weight that we don't. Oh my gosh. We never go in. I like this. He can handle the weight of your weight. And that's why you need him to wait. That's exactly why. He renews our strength, he's there. You have to be with him and waiting. Ugh, so yield. That's good. That's man. I felt that. I did too. That was wow. I feel like I needed to hear that. Woo! Ugh, but this is all that is considered. This is the end of our episode. If you stuck it out with us today and you're the real MVP. Um, love you guys. Bye. Bye. Woo! This was good. That was really good.