Your Ego Is A System Error

Selflessness – Looking for the Looker

• Source Focus: Selflessness

• Theme: The core investigation. The hosts guide the listener through the "Search for the Self." Am I the body? The feelings? The thoughts? When we strip it all away, we find... nothing solid.

• Cultivating View: The practice of "Unfusing." Realizing the "Ego" is a verb (an activity), not a noun (a thing).

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Welcome back to the deep dive. You know, I was uh I was actually thinking about you as we were prepping for today's conversation.

SPEAKER_01 0:05

Right.

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Because you're the exact kind of person who is insanely curious. You're always looking for those genuine aha moments that actually, you know, change how you see the world.

SPEAKER_01 0:16

Absolutely.

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But I also know, because I feel it too, that you're probably just exhausted by the sheer volume of jargon out there right now.

SPEAKER_01 0:25

Oh, the information overload is real.

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It is. We are constantly being told how to optimize our lives, how to fix ourselves, how to be better, faster, smarter.

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Endless life hacks.

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Endless. So today we have a very specific and honestly somewhat radical mission. We're going to completely tear down the single most fundamental assumption you have about your entire existence.

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Which is a big promise.

SPEAKER_00 0:48

It's massive.

SPEAKER_01 0:49

Yeah.

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We are tearing down the assumption of who you actually think you are. We are diving deep into the concept of selflessness. We're going to dismantle what we'll call the ego self. We're going to investigate the terrifying but liberating illusion of control. And uh we're not just going to stay in the theoretical clouds here.

SPEAKER_01 1:08

No, we have to make it practical.

SPEAKER_00 1:09

Exactly. By the end of this conversation, we're going to walk through a very specific mind science practice called looking for the looker.

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It really is a profound shift in perspective, and it challenges almost everything modern society tells us about identity.

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So to do this, we are drawing on a really fascinating collection of texts by Mark van denden, specifically excerpts from his work bringing mind into view and its associated teachings.

SPEAKER_01 1:33

Yeah. And what makes this source material so compelling is how it frames the khagi lineage of Tibetan Buddhism.

SPEAKER_00 1:39

Okay, let's unpack this. Right. Because calling an ancient Tibetan Buddhist lineage a mind science is a massive claim. Usually when we hear Buddhism, we think of religion, faith, maybe temples and monks.

SPEAKER_01 1:51

Sure. It purposefully strips away the cultural trappings. It doesn't present it as a dogmatic religious doctrine.

SPEAKER_00 1:57

Which is so refreshing.

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It presents it as a highly systematic, rigorously tested mind science. It's an ancient framework, yet it feels as if it were custom-built for modern Westerners trying to navigate the incredible, frazzling complexities of life in 2026.

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It reads literally like a manual for reverse engineering human consciousness. It is presented as a psychological laboratory for the mind.

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Where you are both the scientists and the subject. Yes.

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But before we get into the laboratory, we need to understand what exactly is broken. Like what is the fundamental problem with this self that we spend all day, every day worrying about, defending, and trying to improve?

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The core problem, the absolute root of the issue we face every day is that the self or the ego as we experience it is essentially a system error.

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A system error.

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Yes. It is what Mark Inanenden brilliantly refers to as the human suit.

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The human suit.

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The deepest, most uncomfortable truth of this mind science, and the one that usually sparks the most resistance, is that this solid, unchanging, independent you that you are so fiercely protecting. Yeah. It was never actually there to begin with. It is an imputation. It is an incredibly convincing story we tell ourselves so continuously from the moment we wake up to the moment we fall asleep that we've mistaken the narration for reality.

SPEAKER_00 3:17

Wait, I need to pause you there because that is a massive thing to just drop on someone. I am not real.

SPEAKER_01 3:23

That's the resistance I was talking about.

SPEAKER_00 3:25

Right. Because I'm sitting here, I can feel the chair beneath me. I have memories of my childhood. I have a career, I have preferences. If you pinch my arm, it hurts me. It doesn't hurt you.

SPEAKER_01 3:35

Exactly.

SPEAKER_00 3:36

So when the framework says the self is a system error or an imputation, what does that actually look like in my day-to-day reality?

SPEAKER_01 3:42

Yeah.

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Because it feels extremely real.

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It feels real because the mechanism creating the illusion is incredibly sophisticated. And the text gets deep into the mechanics of how the system error operates.

SPEAKER_00 3:54

Okay.

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It all comes down to the concept of dualism.

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Dualism.

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Yes. The human brain is fundamentally programmed, likely for evolutionary survival reasons, to operate in binary. Our minds are constantly relentlessly sorting reality into categories.

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Right and wrong, up and down.

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Good and bad. Exactly. But the most foundational, unquestioned binary we create is subject and object.

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Subject and object.

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From the moment our brains come online, we draw an invisible line in the sand. On this side of the line is me, the subject, the observer inside the head. Okay. And on the other side of the line is everything else, the objects, the universe, other people. Right. The moment that specific binary is established, this relentless narrative of I, me, and mine is born.

SPEAKER_00 4:39

Ah, okay. So the system error isn't that I have a body or that I exist in space. The error is this rigid boundary I draw between in here and out there.

SPEAKER_01 4:48

Aaron Ross Powell Exactly. What's fascinating here is how quickly that binary creates an absolute tyrant inside our own heads.

SPEAKER_00 4:55

Aaron Powell A tyrant, that's a strong word.

SPEAKER_01 4:57

But think about it, because I perceive myself as a separate, isolated, and frankly fragile entity existing in a massive world of separate objects that could potentially harm me.

SPEAKER_00 5:07

Right. I'm small and the world is big.

SPEAKER_01 5:09

Yes. So I naturally want to be secure. I want to be happy. I want to be safe.

SPEAKER_00 5:12

Which makes sense.

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It makes total sense. And from that very basic, totally understandable desire for survival and comfort, the ego goes into overdrive.

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It starts grasping.

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It develops endless attachments to things it thinks will bring it pleasure or security, status, money, relationships, compliments.

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It pushes away what it doesn't want.

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Precisely. Simultaneously, it develops endless aversions to things it fears will bring it pain, criticism, loss, physical discomfort, obscurity.

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So it's constantly pulling and pushing.

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It constantly generates hopes for the future and fears about what might go wrong. According to this mind science framework, that ceaseless, exhausting cycle of grasping for the good and pushing away the bad is the absolute root cause of all our psychological suffering.

SPEAKER_00 5:59

It's exhausting just thinking about it. Because if I look at my average Tuesday, that is exactly what my brain is doing.

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Relentlessly.

SPEAKER_00 6:20

Oh, the salt water one.

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Yes. It says that trying to actually satisfy the demands of the ego is like trying to quench your thirst by drinking salt water.

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The more you drink, the thirstier, more dehydrated, and more desperate you become.

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It's the perfect analogy because the ego's demands are structurally designed so they can never actually be met. The goalposts are permanently on wheels.

SPEAKER_00 6:43

Permanently on wheels. That is so painfully true.

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Think about it. You strive for years to get the promotion, the perfect partner, the ideal house, the validation from your peers, and maybe you get it.

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And you feel good for a minute.

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Exactly. For a fleeting moment, maybe a day, maybe a week, the ego's quiet, you feel a sense of completion, but then the salt water kicks in.

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The baseline shifts.

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The dissatisfaction returns. The ego looks around the new house and says, Well, the kitchen needs remodeling. Or you get the promotion and immediately start worrying about the people beneath you trying to take your job. Right. The ego needs a new problem to solve, a new threat to defend against, or a new desire to chase.

SPEAKER_00 7:22

Aaron Powell Why does it need that though? Why can't it just be happy?

SPEAKER_01 7:25

Because the friction of wanting and fearing is what makes the ego feel like it exists. Without a problem, the ego starts to dissolve and it fights that dissolution tooth and nail.

SPEAKER_00 7:35

That hits so hard, especially living in a culture that is entirely built on creating and temporarily satisfying those desires. I mean, there is a quote summarizing this concept that absolutely stopped me in my tracks.

SPEAKER_01 7:48

Which one?

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It points out that engaging in endless self-improvement, going to therapy, reading self-help books, optimizing our morning routines, doing ice baths, whatever, without first understanding this concept of selflessness is just rearranging furniture on a sinking ship called delusion.

SPEAKER_01 8:05

It is a devastatingly accurate quote.

SPEAKER_00 8:08

I mean, wow. We spend billions of dollars and so much of our precious time trying to build the perfect, most optimized self. And the entire premise here is that the self we are trying so desperately to perfect is an illusion that is causing the ship to sink in the first place.

SPEAKER_01 8:22

It completely upends the modern wellness industry. It forces a total paradigm shift. If you are operating under the unexamined assumption that the human suit is who you fundamentally are, then all your spiritual, psychological, or physical efforts will just be used to decorate and fortify the suit.

SPEAKER_00 8:38

Right. You're just meeting the suit shinier.

SPEAKER_01 8:40

You might successfully transition from an anxious, angry ego into a spiritual ego or a calm ego or a highly optimized tech bro ego.

SPEAKER_00 8:50

The vegan ego.

SPEAKER_01 8:51

Exactly. You might become a vegan ego who meditates for an hour a day, but it's still the ego.

SPEAKER_00 8:56

It's still the same system error.

SPEAKER_01 8:58

Running the show, generating that subject-object divide just with a shiny new socially acceptable coat of paint. You are still drinking the salt water, you're just drinking it out of a crystal glass now.

SPEAKER_00 9:09

Which means trying to fix the ego with the ego is a total trap. You cannot outthink the thinker using the thinker's own flawed logic.

SPEAKER_01 9:17

Precisely.

SPEAKER_00 9:17

But this naturally leads me to push back a little. On behalf of anyone listening who is thinking, okay, sure, my ego is needy and causes me stress. If the ego isn't real, if this solid self is just an imputation, an invisible line drawn in the sand, then what exactly is this human experience made of?

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That is the pivotal question.

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Because I'm sitting here, I'm talking to you, I have a physical body, I have thoughts forming into sentences, I am experiencing 2026. If I am not the self, am I just nothing? Am I a ghost?

SPEAKER_01 9:47

And that's where the mind science really begins to shine. The Buddha and the Kagyu lineage that followed didn't just say you don't exist and leave it at that. Right. That would be cure nihilism, which are the teachings explicitly worn against as a dangerous misunderstanding.

SPEAKER_00 10:03

Oh, it do exist.

SPEAKER_01 10:04

You absolutely exist, but you do not exist in the way you think you do.

SPEAKER_00 10:07

Okay.

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Instead of a solid, unchanging, independent self, this framework breaks down the human experience into what are called the five psychophysical aggregates.

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The five aggregates. Yes.

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These are form, feeling, perception, concepts, which are also called mental formations and consciousness.

SPEAKER_00 10:25

Form, feeling, perception, concepts, conscious ideas.

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Yes. These are five interdependent, constantly shifting, highly dynamic parts that come together so seamlessly, so rapidly, that they create the incredibly convincing optical illusion of a solid singular self.

SPEAKER_00 10:41

Okay, I want to take this really slowly. Let's take you, the listener, on a guided exploration of these aggregates right now. Let's really put your human suit under the microscope and look at the actual mechanics of what you call you.

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Let's do it.

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We start with the first aggregate, which seems the most undeniably solid form.

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Right.

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This is your physical body, it's what you see in the mirror. But when we apply this mind science lens, it challenges our perception of the body. It notes that we are essentially ninety percent microorganisms, right?

SPEAKER_01 11:13

We are.

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We are suspended in water, supported by a calcium skeleton, and encased in a bag of skin. We are carbon-based life forms born from the recycled stardust of exploded suns. We are, quite literally, thinking meat.

SPEAKER_01 11:28

It sounds jarring when you put it like that, but biologically it's irrefutable. It's just science. When you look closely at the body, at a cellular level, it's not a single solid thing. It is a temporary, highly active colony of trillions of individual cells, bacteria, and chemical processes, all constantly dying and regenerating. The cells in your stomach lining replace themselves every few days. Your skin replaces itself every few weeks.

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So I'm shedding myself all the time.

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The physical you that existed ten years ago literally does not exist today. That matter is gone, returned to the earth. Wow. So when we say my body, the body is actually just a convenient shorthand label we affix to this constantly swirling, interacting mass of biological parts. The form aggregate is never static.

SPEAKER_00 12:13

Exactly. I'm not the same physical entity I was when I was seven years old, yet my ego claims ownership over both versions. Right. So then we move inward to the second aggregate. Feeling. Now, in this specific context, feeling doesn't mean complex emotions like jealousy or nostalgia, does it?

SPEAKER_01 12:30

No, it doesn't.

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It encompasses the raw, immediate emotional tones we experience upon contact with the stimulus. It's either positive, negative, or neutral.

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Just that initial flash.

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And the ego desperately wants to fuse with these feelings. It says I am angry or I am sad or I am anxious. But look at how incredibly fickle these raw feelings are.

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They are incredibly fragile and entirely dependent on causes and conditions completely outside of your control.

SPEAKER_00 12:54

Give me an example.

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You can wake up feeling a positive tone, a sense of well-being, then you step outside, and someone cuts you off in traffic, and instantly a negative tone arises. Instantly. Your blood pressure spikes, frustration flares, then you get to work, someone hands you a really good cup of coffee, and a positive tone returns.

SPEAKER_00 13:14

Over a cup of coffee.

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Exactly. These feelings arise, they stay for a brief moment, and they vanish, instantly replaced by something else. They are like a candle in a windstorm.

SPEAKER_00 13:23

So I can't be my feelings.

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And the crucial realization here is just that. You cannot possibly be your feelings. Because if you were your feelings, your fundamental identity would be dying and being reborn a hundred times a day. You would be a completely different entity from one minute to the next.

SPEAKER_00 13:51

It's how fragile and reactive the second aggregate is. So we have the swirling biology of form and the rapid-fire reactivity of feeling. Then we hit the third and fourth aggregates, which work very closely together. Perception and concepts, or mental formations. Yeah. Can you break down the difference between those two? Because they sound very similar.

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They are intertwined but distinct stages of processing. Perception is our mind's incredible ability to categorize and distinguish the raw data coming in from the senses.

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Categorize beta.

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It's the mechanism that allows you to look at a crowded room and distinguish a table from a chair, or the color red from the color blue. It just recognizes patterns and boundaries.

SPEAKER_00 14:33

Okay, so just basic recognition.

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These are the narratives, the labels, the judgments, the entire web of stories we apply to that raw perceived data. Trevor Burrus, Jr.

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The storytelling.

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So perception sees a round red object, concept kicks in and says, that is an apple, and then the conceptual narrative spins further. I like apples. Apples are healthy. I haven't eaten breakfast yet. I should eat this apple. It's the storytelling engine of the mind.

SPEAKER_00 14:59

Aaron Powell Right. So if we apply this to a modern 2026 scenario, I look at my smartphone screen. The raw data hitting my retina is just light. A red circle with a white number one inside it sitting on top of an icon.

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Yes.

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Perception categorizes that shape and color against the background.

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It recognizes the app icon and the notification badge.

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But then the concepts aggregate, the mental formations, kicks in and says, that is a slack notification from my boss. It is 8 p.m. on a Friday. Why is she messaging me now? Did I mess up that presentation? I'm going to get fired.

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Exactly.

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Within a fraction of a second, an entire agonizing narrative is spun out of a tiny red cluster of pixels.

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And that narrative immediately triggers the feeling aggregate, a massive spike of negative anxious feeling.

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Which then loops back.

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Which then triggers the form aggregate. Your heart rate increases, cortisol floods your bloodstream, your shoulders tense up.

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It's a cascade.

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Do you see how they all cascade into each other? And watching all this happen is the fifth and final aggregate. Consciousness.

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Consciousness.

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In this framework, consciousness is simply the bare, luminous, knowing awareness that is present. It is the raw capacity to know.

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Just know.

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It simply knows that the physical tension is happening. It knows the anxious feeling is arising. It knows the narrative about getting fired is spinning. It is the blank canvas upon which the body, the feelings, the perceptions, and the concepts are constantly being painted.

SPEAKER_00 16:27

Okay, this is blowing my mind a little bit. Because the trap is that we look at this seamless rapid-fire interplay of these five aggregates: the body reacting, the feeling spiking, the story spinning, the awareness, knowing it. And we mistakenly assume there is an independent manager or an owner sitting in the control room of our brain running the whole show. Right. We assume the self is the one operating the machinery. Trevor Burrus, Jr.

SPEAKER_01 16:50

Which is the fundamental illusion. To really drive this home, let's use the classic analogy that we touched on earlier, which is highly effective for Western minds. The analogy of the car.

SPEAKER_00 16:58

Yes, let's break down the car.

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When you walk down the street and look at a vehicle parked on the curb, you see a singular solid object. You point to it and say, There is a car. Right. But let's say we bring that car into a garage and we take a wrench and systematically meticulously disassemble it. We take off the tires and put them in a pile. We pull out the engine block, we remove the steering wheel, the chassis, the leather seats, the spark plugs, the windshield. Okay. And we lay all those thousands of individual parts out on the concrete floor.

SPEAKER_00 17:28

Just a huge mess of parts.

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Now, point to the car. Where did the car go? Is the steering wheel the car?

SPEAKER_00 17:34

No.

SPEAKER_01 17:34

No. Is the engine the car?

SPEAKER_00 17:36

No, it's an engine.

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Are the tires the car?

SPEAKER_00 17:39

No.

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The profound realization is that the word car is simply a conceptual label. It is an imputation that our minds overlay onto a specific functional arrangement of interdependent parts.

SPEAKER_00 17:53

Oh, label.

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The car has no inherent independent existence on its own, separate from its parts. If you take away the parts, the car vanishes.

SPEAKER_00 18:01

And the mind science argues that the self, the I that I am so obsessed with is exactly the same.

SPEAKER_01 18:06

Exactly the same.

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You lay out the five aggregates on the garage floor of your mind. You lay out the biology of the body, the fleeting flashes of feelings, the pattern recognition of perceptions, the chaotic storytelling of thoughts, and the blank mirror of consciousness. You look at them all individually, side by side, and you ask, which one of these is the true, solid, unchanging me?

SPEAKER_01 18:28

And what do you find?

SPEAKER_00 18:29

Nothing. The body ages, gets sick, and changes completely at a cellular level. It can't be me. The feelings change by the second from joy to despair. They can't be me. The thoughts are chaotic, uninvited, and often contradictory. They can't be me.

SPEAKER_01 18:44

And the awareness.

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The awareness is just an empty capacity to know. It has no personality. It can't be me.

SPEAKER_01 18:49

Right.

SPEAKER_00 18:49

You literally cannot find the self anywhere in the parts. The self is just the label, the word car that we slap onto the moving machinery of the aggregates.

SPEAKER_01 18:58

If we connect this to the bigger picture of Buddhist philosophy, this unfindability is the realization of emptiness.

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Emptiness. Which sounds scary.

SPEAKER_01 19:06

We have to be very careful here, because in English, emptiness sounds cold, void, and depressing. But in this context, emptiness doesn't mean life is a meaningless black hole. It means that all phenomena, including your own identity, are empty of inherent, independent, standalone existence. Things only exist interdependently, relying on causes, conditions, and parts.

SPEAKER_00 19:30

So I exist, but only as a collection of interacting parts.

SPEAKER_01 19:33

When you deeply experientially realize that yourself is just a label applied to a temporary collection of changing parts, something incredible happens. The desperately tight grip of the ego begins to loosen.

SPEAKER_00 19:45

Because there's nothing solid to grip onto.

SPEAKER_01 19:47

You stop taking the relentless demands of the human suit so seriously. When the ego says I am a failure, you recognize that it's just a temporary mental formation, a concept triggering a negative feeling witnessed by consciousness. It is not a fundamental truth about an unchanging you.

SPEAKER_00 20:03

Aaron Powell That is deeply relieving. But and here is where my 2026 brain starts aggressively pushing back.

SPEAKER_01 20:09

I expected this.

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If we are truly just a collection of changing parts, a biological machine running on a mix of recycled scardust, passing emotions, and habitual narratives, who is actually making the decisions? Because I feel in my bones like I am the one deciding to speak to you right now. I feel like I chose what shirt to wear today. I feel like I am in the driver's seat of the car, even if the car is made of parts. Right. Let's look at the illusion of control, because this is where the ego puts up its absolute biggest, most vicious fight.

SPEAKER_01 20:40

It fights fiercely because control is the ego's primary currency. We all operate under the profound, deeply ingrained illusion that we are the absolute owner, manager, and controller of our body and mind. We believe we are the CEO of Inc. CEO of Inc. Exactly.

SPEAKER_00 20:56

But the mind science ruthlessly deconstructs this. It explains that the vast majority of our lives, our reactions, and our choices are running on pure autopilot.

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We are driven by karma, which strip away the mystical connotations in this context simply means the infallible law of cause and effect, action and consequence. And we are driven by deeply grooved, largely unconscious behavioral habits.

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Here's where it gets really interesting. And I want you the person listening to this right now on your commute or while you're doing the dishes, to really test this against your own lived experience. Don't just take our word for it. Test it. If yourself is truly in control, if you're the unquestioned master of your domain, can you stop your body from getting hungry today? Can you just decide, I don't want to process food today and turn hunger off? No. No, you can't. Can you command your cells to stop aging? Can you just decide to never get sick or decree that you will never die? Obviously not. The body operates entirely on its own interdependent biological laws.

SPEAKER_01 21:56

Completely outside your control.

SPEAKER_00 21:58

Okay, maybe the body is hard to Control because it's physical. But what about the mind? If the self is in control of the mind, can you stop your mind from producing a terrifying, anxious thought at 3 a.m.? When you are lying in bed, desperate for sleep, can you command your mind to only produce blissful, productive thoughts for the next 24 hours?

SPEAKER_01 22:19

The answer, universally, is no.

SPEAKER_00 22:21

No.

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And this raises an important question. If the self is in control, why does the mind so rarely do what it's told?

SPEAKER_00 22:29

That is such a good point.

SPEAKER_01 22:30

Why do we suffer from intrusive thoughts? Why do we get angry when we know it's unhelpful?

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Right.

SPEAKER_01 22:35

The reality is that thoughts, feelings, and physical actions arise spontaneously. They bubble up according to past habits, current environmental triggers, and interdependent origination. The supposed self, that CEO in the brain, is usually just stepping in after the fact to take credit for a spontaneous decision or to beat itself up with guilt for making a mistake. Trevor Burrus, Jr.

SPEAKER_00 22:55

Taking credit after the fact.

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It's like a child sitting with a toy steering wheel in the passenger seat of a moving car, genuinely believing they are driving.

SPEAKER_00 23:03

That is a terrifying but oddly hilarious image. Just a toddler with a plastic wheel while the car hurtles down the highway.

SPEAKER_01 23:10

Exactly.

SPEAKER_00 23:11

So to explain exactly how this autopilot works, the source material introduces the concept of the eight consciousnesses. And this is pure architectural mind science. It really is. Let's break this down. We have the first five consciousnesses, which are pretty straightforward. These are just the raw data streams from our five sense organs sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch. They are just the open channels receiving information from the outside world.

SPEAKER_01 23:36

Right. They just receive. They don't judge.

SPEAKER_00 23:38

Okay.

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Then we have the sixth consciousness, which is the conceptual mind, the mental processor. Processor. It takes the raw data streams from the five senses and integrates them. It interprets the shapes and sounds, applies language, and recognizes objects.

SPEAKER_00 23:52

Like we talked about with perception and concept.

SPEAKER_01 23:54

Exactly. But the real troublemaker, the absolute engine of our suffering, is the seventh consciousness, the afflicted mind or the ego mind.

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The ego mind. Number seven.

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This is the consciousness that takes the categorized data from the sixth consciousness and immediately takes it personally.

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Personally.

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It's the consciousness that creates the dualism we talked about earlier. It says, this data is happening to me and I like it, so I must grasp it, or I hate it, so I must destroy or avoid it. The seventh consciousness is where the system error lives and breathes.

SPEAKER_00 24:27

Okay, so the eyes, the first consciousness, see a person walking toward me. The conceptual mind, the sixth, says, that is my ex-partner.

SPEAKER_01 24:37

Yes.

SPEAKER_00 24:38

The afflicted ego mind, the seventh, screams, I am in danger. I look terrible today. This is gonna be awkward.

SPEAKER_01 24:44

Precisely.

SPEAKER_00 24:45

But where do all those reactions come from? Why does the seventh consciousness react that way?

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And that brings us to the eighth consciousness.

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The eighth.

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Which Venonendem calls the Alaya or the storehouse consciousness. And this concept is mind-blowing.

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Break down the storehouse.

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The Alaya is foundational. You can think of it as the massive underlying hard drive of the mind. It operates below the level of conscious awareness.

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Like deep storage.

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This storehouse holds all of our karmic seeds, all of our unhealed traumas, all of our evolutionary impulses, and all of our deeply ingrained habitual patterns gathered over a lifetime, and depending on your interpretation of the tradition, over countless lifetimes. So when a sensory input comes in, let's say you smell a very specific brand of cologne. Okay. The fifth consciousness smell registers the chemical. The sixth consciousness identifies it as cologne.

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Just neutral data.

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But the smell acts as a trigger. It reaches down into the eighth storehouse consciousness and waters a dormant karmic seed. Let's say it's the cologne of an abusive figure from your past.

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Oh wow.

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That seed sprouts instantly. The sixth consciousness is flooded with memory, and the seventh ego consciousness fiercely reacts to protect you, generating a massive chemical wave of panic, anger, and the urge to flee.

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Instantly.

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And all this happens in milliseconds. Before you even consciously realize what you are smelling, your heart is pounding and you are in fight or flight mode.

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And we think we are consciously choosing to be angry or afraid. We think it's the rational response. When in reality, it's just the seed sprouting from the hard drive, passing through the processor, and triggering the ego's defense mechanism.

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That's the autopilot.

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To really see this machinery in action, the text recommends a practice called precognitive perception.

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Yes, it's a very revealing practice.

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I tried this, and it is a fascinating, incredibly difficult exercise. The instruction is to look at a mundane object in your room, let's say a lamp on your desk.

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Right.

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But you try to hold your bare awareness in the tiny split second before your sixth consciousness conceptually names it lamp.

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Before the label.

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You try to just see the raw visual data. In that tiny fraction of a second, there is no narrative. There is just direct, naked perception of form, color, and light. It's completely peaceful.

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It is peaceful because the seventh consciousness hasn't entered the chat yet. But the moment you fail to hold that gap, the moment the sixth consciousness names it lamp, the conceptual mind spins into action.

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Which is almost immediate.

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You think, lamp? And then the associations from the storehouse consciousness flood in. Oh, that's the lamp I bought at that expensive vintage store. I put it on my credit card. I have so much credit card debt. I'm terrible with money. My ex hated that lamp and told me I have bad taste. I should probably dust it. My apartment is a mess. I'm failing at life. Yes. Suddenly the seventh consciousness, the ego, is completely, hopelessly fused with a narrative about past regret, financial ruin, relationship trauma, and a stressful to-do list. And it was all triggered by a simple piece of metal and glass emitting light.

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It's tragic, but it's exactly what we do all day long. We are constantly hallucinating these massive stressful realities out of neutral objects. They are. And modern neurobiology completely mirrors this ancient understanding. The source material talks about neural grooves and chemical storms. When we react the same way to the same triggers over and over, like getting a spike of righteous anger every time we read a political post on social media, we are literally carving deep neural grooves, super highways into the brain's architecture.

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We're reinforcing the habit.

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We become biologically addicted to the chemical storms of our own emotions, the cortisol, the adrenaline. The ego loves these chemical storms, even the painful ones, because strong emotions make the self feel very solid, very righteous, and very real. I am so angry at the news, therefore I exist, and I am morally superior.

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It is a literal hamster wheel. We run and run, reacting to our own neural grooves, constantly triggered by seeds in the storehouse consciousness, fundamentally believing we are making conscious, free choices.

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But we aren't.

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When really we are just complex biological and psychological algorithms executing old code.

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Which bays the ultimate existential question.

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That is the big question.

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I feel like I'm having an existential crisis on air. Are we just meat robots?

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Yeah.

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Because if the answer is yes, this is the most depressing deep dive we've ever done.

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I promise it's not. This raises an important question, perhaps the most important one in the entire framework.

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Okay, lay it on me.

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The text hints strongly that free will does not exist within the reactionary spin of the ego. When you are operating from the seventh consciousness, reacting to your triggers and karmic seeds, you are essentially a meat robot. You are a pure programming. Ouch. However, true free will, true unconditioned choice, does exist. Thank goodness. But it only exists in the gap. It exists in the space of pure unconditioned awareness before the ego steps in to claim the experience. It exists in that split second of precognitive perception we just talked about.

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The gap before the label.

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Yes. But to find that gap, to widen it so you can actually live in it, and to access true free will, we have to do something radical. We have to stop looking outward at the triggers. We have to look for the looker.

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Okay, here is the turning point. This shifts our deep dive from philosophical theory into active, lived practice. Because understanding this intellectually isn't enough to stop the hamster wheel.

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It really isn't. You have to experience it.

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The text introduces vaipassana or insight meditation and specifically zeroes in on a technique called looking for the looker, which it also dramatically describes as piercing the veil.

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It is dramatic, but accurate.

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How do we actually do this? If I'm sitting at home right now, how do I look for the looker?

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Aaron Powell The methodology is a complete 180-degree reversal of our normal operating system.

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Okay.

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Usually when we try to meditate or be mindful, we look at our thoughts. We treat thoughts as objects, we analyze them, we fight them, we judge them, we try to push them away to make the mind quiet.

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Aaron Powell That's how I always thought meditation worked, just forcing the mind to be blank.

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Aaron Powell Insight Meditation asks you to do the opposite. It asks you to look from your awareness. You take this spotlight of attention, which is normally shining out into the world or onto your thoughts, and you turn it completely back around onto itself.

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Aaron Powell So pointing the flashlight at the flashlight.

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Aaron Powell Exactly. When a strong thought or emotion arises, say a wave of anxiety about a work project, instead of following the narrative of the thought down the rabbit hole, you turn your attention inward and ask the question Who is thinking this?

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Who is thinking this?

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Aaron Powell When you feel the physical sensation of sitting in a chair, you ask who is experiencing this sensation?

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Right.

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When you are actively meditating and you feel proud that you are meditating well, you ask, where is the I that is meditating right now?

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You essentially interrogate the subject instead of the object. Who is experiencing this anxiety? Where is this me actually located? And what happens when you actually look? And I mean, really look. You don't just think about looking. You direct your raw attention to find the physical or mental location of the self. You scan your brain, you scan your chest, you scan the thought itself.

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You really search for it.

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What do you find? You find absolutely nothing.

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Nothing.

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The self is entirely stubbornly unfindable. You cannot locate it in the synapses of the brain, you cannot find it in the rhythm of the heart, you cannot isolate it within a specific thought or memory. It has no color, no shape, no weight, no solid atom of existence. It's just not there. When you look deeply for the looker, the looker vanishes into thin air. It's like turning on the lights to find the monster in the closet and realizing there was never a monster there, just a shadow cast by a pile of clothes.

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That realization can initially induce a sense of panic in the ego. If I'm not here, I'm dying.

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Because the ego feels its own unreality.

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Exactly. But, and this is the crucial turning point of the entire mind science, when the looker vanishes, when the illusion of the solid self drops away. Yeah. You don't cease to exist. Right. You don't fade to black. You don't turn into a zombie. Thank goodness. Instead, you are met with what the text calls the profound paradox of clarity-emptiness.

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Clarity-emptiness.

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The solid conceptual self is completely unfindable, which is the empty part. Yet, in the absence of that solid self, there is a vivid, radiant, intensely awake knowingness that remains. The knowingness. There is a luminous presence that is experiencing the moment without needing to own it. That is the clarity.

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So it's not a dead void, it's totally alive.

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Extremely alive. This union of emptiness and clarity is what the text calls the natural mind. It is what the Kagyu lineage refers to as Buddha nature. It is the pure, unconditioned baseline of consciousness before the system error of the ego boots up.

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So what does this all mean for us, practically?

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It changes everything.

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It means you are not the anxious, chattering voice in your head. You are the silent, boundless awareness that hears the voice in your head.

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That distinction is everything.

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To go back to one of the most beautiful analogies in the text, and honestly, one of the most helpful ways to visualize this, it's the analogy of the projector and the movie.

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I love this analogy.

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Think of a movie theater. Your thoughts, your feelings, your endless narratives, your ego, your entire social identity, your career anxieties, your relationship dramas. That is all just the film playing on the screen.

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The moving pictures.

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It's a complex, highly engaging movie full of drama, comedy, tragedy, and action. But the natural mind, the clarity emptiness, the Buddha nature is the projector bulb.

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The light itself.

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It is the pure, clear light that makes the projection possible.

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It is a brilliant analogy. And the tragedy of the human condition is that we spend our entire lives sitting in the theater, utterly hopelessly fused with the movie.

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We forget we are in a theater.

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We jump in terror at the scary parts, we cry inconsolably at the sad parts, we desperately try to jump onto the stage and edit the script in real time to make sure the main character, our fragile ego, looks good and wins in the end.

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We are fighting the movie.

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We fight the movie, we hate the bad scenes and desperately cling to the good scenes, completely forgetting that we are actually the brilliant, unblemished light making the projection possible in the first place. And the most liberating truth is this the light itself is never harmed by the monsters on the screen. The light is never burned by the explosions on the film. The projector bald doesn't care if it's playing a comedy or a horror movie. It just shines. It is completely untouched by the content of the film.

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It's incredibly liberating.

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Yeah.

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Just hearing that gives my nervous system a break.

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Yeah.

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The worst things that have happened to me, the worst anxieties I have about the future, they are just scenes on the film. Yeah. The awareness experiencing them is unharmed.

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Always unharmed.

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But here is the immediate practical friction that I run into, and I'm sure listeners will too. Once you have that glimpse, once you look for the looker and realize, oh wow, I'm the pure light of awareness. I'm not the movie.

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Yeah.

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How do you actually rest in that state? That is the practice. Because what happens to me is the moment I have the realization, the ego immediately rushes back in through the side door, puts on a monk's robe, and says, Look at me. I am so enlightened. I am doing such a great job being the projector bulb. I'm way better at meditating than my friends. The seventh consciousness co-opts the realization of emptiness to make the self feel special.

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Exactly. The ego is incredibly slippery. It will turn the pursuit of selflessness into a selfish project.

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So how do we stop that?

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Which is exactly why the text doesn't just leave you with the concept. It brings in the profound practical instructions of the 12th century Tibetan master Gampopa.

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Gampopa.

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Gampopa was a pivotal, foundational figure in the Mahamudra tradition. Mahamudra translates to the Great Seal, signifying the ultimate nature of mind that seals all phenomena.

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The Great Seal.

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Gampopa's instructions detail precisely how to rest in the natural state once the illusion of the looker has briefly dissolved, without letting the ego sneak back in to take credit or manipulate the experience. Because they require us to stop doing.

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Right. The first core instruction is rest in a natural state. Yes. This means you do absolutely nothing to alter, fix, or distort the mind. You do not try to force your mind to go blank. You don't try to summon feelings of peace or holy light. You just leave it exactly as it is.

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This point cannot be overstated because it addresses a major misconception about meditation that the text actively deconstructs.

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What misconception?

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In the West, people often think meditation is about achieving a state of thoughtless void, a blank screen. They think if they are thinking, they are failing.

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That's definitely what I used to think.

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Gampopa says, absolutely no, do not reject your thoughts. Thoughts are not the enemy, they're the natural radiance, the spontaneous display of the mind. The light of the projector bulb wants to shine. It naturally produces images.

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So thoughts are okay.

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The problem isn't that thoughts arise, you can't stop them anyway. The problem is our discursive attachment to them. The problem is that a thought arises and the seventh consciousness immediately grabs onto it, identifies with it, and starts building a massive narrative around it.

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Glimpopa calls this approach non-meditation. Which sounds like a paradox. But the point is you don't do meditation. Meditation isn't a task or a performance for the ego to accomplish. You simply stop doing the grasping. You let the mind settle itself.

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Let us settle.

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And the source text is packed with these brilliant ancient analogies to help us visualize exactly how to let the mind settle itself. My absolute favorite is the ocean and the waves.

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That's a classic for a reason.

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Imagine the mind is a vast ocean. Thoughts, emotions, and sensory perceptions are just waves on the surface. When we are caught in the ego, we hate the waves. We want the ocean to be perfectly flat and calm. So we try to meditate, which is basically like getting out onto the water with a giant iron, frantically trying to press the waves flat.

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Ironing the ocean.

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It's exhausting, it creates more turbulence, and it's physically impossible. Gampopa's instruction is to stop ironing the ocean. Just stop. You just sink into the depths of awareness and realize that both the perfectly calm, deep water and the chaotic, turbulent waves on the surface are made of the exact same substance. Water. Form is emptiness. Emptiness is form.

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Yes.

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The turbulent thought is made of the same awareness as the peaceful silence.

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Yeah.

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So you don't need to fight it.

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It completely reframes our relationship to anxiety or chaotic thoughts. Another incredible analogy from the teachings is the ant on a leaf. Oh, the ant. Imagine your bare awareness, your mindfulness is like a tiny ant riding on a leaf, floating down a fast-flowing stream. The water represents the relentless flow of your thoughts, your emotions, and all the external experiences happening to you. Just rushing by. The water will naturally take the leaf wherever the currents go. It will go through terrifying rapids, it will get stuck in eddies, it will float into calm, sunlit pools, and it will swirl around rocks.

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And what's the ego doing?

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The ego is the ant trying to stick its tiny legs in the water to steer the river.

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It's futile.

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Completely futile. The ant doesn't try to steer the river. The ant's only job is simply to stay on the leaf. Just remain present, anchored in bare awareness as the flow happens around you. Notice the rapids, notice the calm pools, but don't try to control the current.

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I love that. Just stay on the leaf.

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Stay on the leaf.

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And finally, there's the analogy of the jar of muddy water. This perfectly encapsulates non-meditation. Imagine you have a glass jar full of muddy water. You desperately want the water to be crystal clear so you can see through it.

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Right.

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What happens if you stick your hand in the jar and try to physically push the dirt to the bottom? What happens if you try to force the water to be clear?

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You just agitate the dirt more, you make it cloudier.

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The ego trying to force the mind to be calm, using willpower to suppress thoughts, is the hand violently stirring the mud. If you want the water to be clear, what do you do? You just put the jar down on the table, take your hands off it, and leave it alone.

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Leave it alone.

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If you stop shaking it, if you just let it rest in its natural state, gravity does the work. The mud naturally, effortlessly settles to the bottom on its own, revealing the pure, clear water that was there the whole time.

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These analogies all point to a radical, unconditional acceptance of the present moment exactly as it is, without the ego's commentary or interference. They teach us how to drop the heavy, exhausting human suit.

SPEAKER_00 41:42

But you're entirely right to bring up the context of modern life, because for a listener, in 2026, living this out practically is incredibly challenging. We do not live in a 12th-century Himalayan cave.

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No, we don't.

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Which brings us to the crucial final phase of this mind science integration.

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Yes, the rubber meets the road here.

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Because it's one thing to let the mud settle when you are sitting quietly on a meditation cushion on a Sunday morning, but we live in 2026. We are dealing with collectively frazzled vagus nerves from years of global crises.

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The stress is constant.

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We are suffering from what sociologists call digital fragmentation, where our attention spans have been shattered into a million pieces by screens. And we are living in ecosystems of algorithmic toxicity. Platforms designed specifically by supercomputers to hijack our seventh consciousness, our afflicted ego mind by triggering constant outrage, fear, political division, and social comparison.

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It's an unprecedented environment for the human mind.

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So if I'm the listener, how does recognizing selflessness and practicing non-meditation actually help me right now? With a smartphone vibrating in my pocket, a looming deadline at work, and a family to feed, does it just make me passive?

SPEAKER_01 42:53

Not at all. In fact, it makes you highly effective because you are no longer wasting 90% of your energy defending a phantom ego.

SPEAKER_00 42:59

Okay.

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The text addresses this modern context directly. The integration of this mind science happens through a profound shift in our locus of control.

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Locus of control.

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Right now, because we are entirely fused with the human suit, our locus of control is almost entirely external. We rely on what the text broadly terms the sixth society for our sense of worth, safety, and identity. We are constantly bouncing violently between what Buddhism calls the eight worldly concerns.

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Right, the eight worldly concerns. These are the binary traps of the ego. They are hope for praise and fear of blame, hope for gain and fear of loss, hope for pleasure and fear of pain, hope for fame or good reputation and fear of disrepute.

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Exactly.

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These eight concerns basically dictate the entirety of modern human behavior. If social media praises us or our stock portfolio gains value, we are elated. If the algorithm ignores us or someone criticizes us, we are devastated. We are completely at the mercy of the external world.

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We are puppets to those concerns. But when we integrate the mind science of Apassana. When we consistently look for the looker, realize the self is an imputation, and rest in the clarity of the projector bulb. Our locus of control radically shifts internally.

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Back to the light.

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We anchor our identity not in the changing circumstances of the world, but in the unchanging presence of bare awareness.

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So the movie is still playing.

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The movie is still playing. The chaotic, unpredictable, sometimes terrifying 2026 movie is still happening all around you. You still have to pay taxes, you still get sick, you still deal with difficult people.

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But you are anchored in the projector light.

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Yes. You aren't terrified of the villains on the screen anymore because you know they cannot touch your fundamental nature.

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And this realization doesn't make you a cold, detached robot. In fact, the text makes a massive point about this. It naturally breeds what the Buddhist tradition calls relative boshita, which translates to profound active compassion.

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Compassion is the natural byproduct.

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Because think about it. When you deeply realize that your own ego is just a painful, confused illusion causing you unnecessary suffering, you suddenly look around at everyone else.

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We see them differently.

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You look at the person aggressively cutting you off in traffic. You look at the vicious troll in the internet comment section. You look at your difficult coworker or your stressed-out partner. And you realize And instead of your ego reacting with defensive anger, you realize they are acting out because they are trapped inside their own confused human suits. They are suffering under the crushing weight of an illusion. They are drinking salt water and screaming because they are thirsty.

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It totally dissolves the foundation of anger and isolation. You realize we are all essentially the exact same naked awareness, terrified because we've confused ourselves with these fragile, decaying biological avatars. It breeds immense compassion for others, and vitally it breeds immense self-kindness. Self-kindness. You stop violently beating yourself up for having a flaw, making a mistake, or feeling anxious because you realize the flaw is not a permanent stain on your soul. It is just a passing cloud in the vast open sky of your true nature. You let the cloud pass without making it your identity.

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If we connect this to the bigger picture of modern psychology, this mind science creates ultimate psychological flexibility.

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Psychological flexibility. But you do it differently.

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But you view it as a sacred play. You participate fully, but you don't take the character you are playing so deadly seriously. You advocate for justice, you work hard, you love your family, and you act with profound integrity.

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Yes.

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But you do it without the desperate, gripping existential fear that your ultimate survival and worth depend on the outcome of the movie. You act out of compassion rather than egoic desperation.

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It's a completely different motivation.

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It's like playing an incredibly immersive video game. You really want to win the level, you try your absolute best, you strategize, you care about the outcome. But in the back of your mind, you never forget that when the console turns off, you are perfectly safe sitting on the couch. The stakes are real within the game, but your ultimate safety is never in question.

SPEAKER_01 47:26

That is a perfect way to put it.

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Okay, we have covered a massive, truly paradigm-shifting amount of ground today. We are preparing to land the plane. Let's briefly recap this journey we've taken through Mark Van denden's framing of Tibetan Mind Science.

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It's been quite a journey.

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We started by identifying the ego, the self, as a system error, a human suit, driven by the evolutionary binary coding of dualism, constantly grasping for pleasure and pushing away pain.

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The salt water.

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We deconstructed that suit using the five aggregates, looking closely at our biology feelings and narratives, realizing we are just a temporary collection of parts with no solid independent self to be found inside them.

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Like the parts of a car.

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We confronted the terrifying but liberating illusion of control, accepting that karma and deep neural grooves run the autopilot of our lives through the eight consciousnesses.

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The hamster wheel.

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But then we took back our true power by looking for the looker. We interrogated the subject, pierced the veil of the illusion, and found the paradox of clarity emptiness, the radiant, unfindable, natural mind.

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The projector bulb.

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And finally, we learned Gampopa's method of non-meditation. Learning to rest in the bare awareness of the projector bulb, allowing the muddy water of our minds to settle entirely on its own, which brings profound compassion and psychological flexibility into our chaotic modern lives.

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It is a complete, masterful architectural blueprint for waking up from the dream of the ego. It really is. And as we close out this deep dive, I want to leave you with a final thought, a perspective shift inspired by the deeper implications of this source material. Okay, let's hear it. We've talked about the human suit in the movie. But try this on for size. Think of your life right now as a highly advanced, multi-sensory, holographic avatar suit. Or think of it as an incredibly immersive, multiplayer, choose your own adventure game. A game. Imagine that your true nature, this infinite, boundless, unborn clarity emptiness, voluntarily plugged into this extremely limited, fragile, temporary avatar. Why? Just to experience the sheer thrill of separation, to feel the rough texture of physical form.

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Just to experience it.

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To experience the poignancy of time passing, of beginnings and endings, of cold wind and warm coffee, things that infinite timeless awareness cannot experience without a boundary. Wow. If you truly know it's a game and you know down to the mare of your bones that your physical avatar isn't the real eternal you, doesn't that fundamentally change how you view the world? Doesn't it alleviate the crushing pressure?

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It takes the weight off.

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Doesn't it make the graphics of a simple Tuesday sunset suddenly look incredibly beautiful? And knowing that every single other character in the game, the people you love and the people who annoy you, is actually the exact same infinite consciousness, just experiencing itself from a different angle. Doesn't it make you want to play the game with ultimate unconditional kindness?

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It changes absolutely everything. It turns what feels like a stressful prison of responsibilities into a playground of experience.

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That's the freedom.

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So here is your practical mission for today. Take a moment. Maybe right in the middle of a mundane or stressful task, while you're washing dishes or stuck in frustrating traffic, or right before you open a stressful email. Just pause.

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Just for a second.

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Step back from the movie. Look for the looker. Ask yourself internally who is experiencing this right now. Try to find the solid self. Notice the emptiness. Notice the clear light of awareness. Let the muddy water settle, even just for one second, and feel the warmth of the projector bulb.

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That's all it takes to start.

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Thank you so much for joining us on this massive deep dive. Stay insanely curious, keep looking to the looker, and we will catch you next time.