Welcome to Redeeming Evil

Society often tells us that some darkness is absolute. That some souls are beyond repair, some situations beyond hope, and some actions beyond grace. Redeeming Evil exists to challenge that finality. We are not here to make excuses for the darkness; we are here to find the bridge back to the light. Today, we set the stage for a series that dares to hunt for humanity in the places we are told no longer exists. In this inaugural episode we discuss the foundation for this journey so that God may be glorified and the stage of redemption can be set.

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Hello, world. How are you doing today? Now, before you answer that, I just want to say that I hope you're doing so wonderfully. I hope you're doing just so great, so magnificent that you're filled with love and joy and all the goodness that one can behold. It is such an honor. It is such a blessing to finally get to speak with you, to make a connection with you, because that's truly what I want more than anything. This isn't about me, it's about God and it's about you. Welcome to the Redeeming Evil Podcast, where we not only confront evil, but find a way to redeem it, to shine the light of God's word and expose the garbage not only in our world, but also in our own hearts. So thank you. Thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart for giving me the time of day here to listen to what I have to say. It means more than you will ever know. So I've actually been planning on starting this podcast for such a long time now, and boy, has it taken so many twists and turns thus far. Now, at first, I was all about starting a true crime podcast because that's something I am very interested in covering. But sometimes things just don't happen the way we plan. Now, to say I've been frustrated by that is an absolute understatement because I thought I was all set. I've just been ready to get this thing going. But to be honest with you, something just never felt quite right about it. It wasn't that I was feeling I couldn't talk about, you know, true crime cases or anything like it. It was the fact that I kept feeling as if I was missing the mark somehow. Almost as if God was saying, like, no, you're close, but you're just not there yet. You're not getting the whole picture. So I gave a lot of thought to that, almost giving up on several occasions, to be honest with you. But then I realized, being the very passionate person that I am, that it's not so much about covering true crime cases in general. It's actually about how they make me feel, meaning the different elements involved. Because let me tell you guys, I hate evil. I truly hate it to the core of my being. And that's completely where the center of my passion lies deep within my soul. Acts of hate, murder, lying, corruption, greed, you know, all the terrible things that seek to destroy the purity of God's creation earth. Those are the things that make me so angry, so passionate, so hungry to ignite a change in this world that sometimes that passion and that hunger is so overwhelming to me that I can't even contain myself. Like I literally feel as if I'm going to explode. That's how I feel almost every moment of every single day. And for the life of me, it chips away at my heart, it chips away at my soul. Every moment I keep it all to myself. Now I've come to realize why that is. Because if God has given you a gift or a strong redemption story, one of the biggest tragedies that can ever occur is for you to keep that gift hidden and not share it with the world. So here I am, at last here I am, and I'm done being silent. Because you see, I don't have a whole lot that I should be silent about because God, in his awesomeness, in his greatness, and his everlasting holiness, performed one of the biggest miracles, if not the biggest miracle, I've ever had the chance to see. And that miracle was my own life, my own redemption story that still blows my mind every time I think about it. Now, to give you a little substance on that, I was horrifically afflicted with an eating disorder by the time I was only 12 years of age, a drunk by the time I turned 16, a severe meth addict by the time I turned 18, multiple convictions, including six minor possession of alcohol, two state felony drug convictions, one federal drug conviction, and three prison terms. I was absolutely by far the worst drug addict that I've ever known or seen, was filled with many demons, diabolically tormented and completely out of my mind with multiple mental health disorders, a liar, a thief, sociopathic and manipulative, you name it. I was the worst kind of sinner you can possibly imagine. In 1 Timothy 1.15, the Apostle Paul writes here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance. Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of whom I am the worst. Now, to be honest with you, I know exactly what Paul feels there because I consider myself the same. I have done so many bad things in my life, made so many terrible mistakes that I have no idea how I'm still here today, honestly. The fact that I'm not dead from a drug overdose, alcohol abuse, violence, self-harm, you name it, I'm truly astounded that God still wants me here. I'm astounded at what he did for my life. Now, for the longest time in my life, when I was at my worst, I always felt a strong sense of purpose, like a strong sense of purpose. I can't even begin to explain. But the corruption of my own mind lied to me and told me that the only purpose that I would ever have is to be an example to other people of what not to become. Like I truly felt I should continue to live a life of sin and destruction because in my mind, it would help people not to take the wrong path. And honestly, sickly, I thought God had made me to be the one special person to fulfill this mission. So that's exactly what I did. I lived as destructively as possible without caring what happened to me or how it was affecting those I love. But let me tell you, that strong sense of purpose I had to be that kind of heathen was obviously not from God. I mean, the feeling of purpose was yes, even though I knew little about who God was. But the purpose he was actually trying to put on my heart was to try and show me that I was meant for so much greater. And just like he is with everything else, he was right. God saved me so profoundly and came into my life so quickly at the lowest point I had ever been, and he radically changed me. I am a walking miracle, and because I'm a walking miracle, I believe everyone can be changed by God. In fact, I can absolutely guarantee it. So the main purpose behind this first video today is for you to get to know me a little bit before you decide to subscribe and also before you allow me into your life, because I feel it's really, really important for people to know who they are listening to, what they have to say, you know, where their heart comes from before you start to let their thoughts and their perspectives into your life, especially if it's going to be on a continuous basis. And I'm a huge proponent for transparency, so that's why I felt it necessary to release this short introductory video for you today. So you obviously already know I'm an ex-criminal and a chief center, as I've already said, but there's clearly more to me than that, just like there is with everyone else. I know I already mentioned how passionate I am, but I really need you to know the extent of that. Now I've been through hell and back and will definitely be sharing my story with you soon. But I want you to know that my background is what has shaped me into the person I am today. And because I have experienced that kind of radical redemption, I want the whole world to experience it as well. So that is the foundation behind Redeeming Evil. That is a kind of content that you can expect from me. Spiritual, logical, and new perspectives on things that have an evil component to them and topics that hurt my own heart. Now, often I will dive into true crime cases, for example, the Delphi murders of Abigail Williams and Libby German, the killing of Boston police officer John O'Keefe, the senseless assassination of Charlie Kirk, the Idaho student murders, among many other cases that have pulled at my heartstrings and have ignited a strong passion in my life to speak out. And speaking of the Idaho murders, just recently marked three years since Kaylee Gonzalez, Madison Mogan, Ethan Chapin, and Xanna Cornodal were taken from this world by a mass psychopath, and I just didn't want to go without mentioning their names here because it always is so heavy on my heart. Even just a couple mornings ago, when I woke up around like 4 30 to 5 o'clock a.m. I thought about the timing of the murders like I do so often, and how in November it had marked three years. In November of 2025, it had marked three years since they had taken place between the quiet hours of 4.07 a.m. and 4 20 a.m. And just thinking about that always hurts my heart. And if it's that heavy and that heartbreaking for me, I can only imagine what their families go through every single day. You guys, the evil and the hate surrounding these murders is something I truly wish could be extinguished, just like I wish all evil could be cast out as far as the East is from the West. These are the things that hurt my heart so badly. These are the kind of things I wish to speak out against. Because as the Bible says, have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them. So that's exactly what I'm going to do because God is great and he is worthy to be praised. His word is truth, and in him is no darkness at all. I 100% believe everything in the Bible without compromise is true. And although I know its truth offends people at times, that doesn't mean that we are right in continuing to do what we do against God. So yes, I'm a Christian, I'm a conservative, I support our Republican Party, and I have a whole lot of experience regarding the sin and the spiritual truths spoken directly from the Bible. Now, currently, I don't like the state of our church, I don't like the state of our country, and I certainly don't like the civil wars which rage among us. I want peace, love, and healthy dialogue, which absolutely should be respected among all of us, despite what we believe. Because you guys, I love this country, and this country is worth fighting for. But even more so, I believe fighting for the people is even more worth the fight. Someday this earth will be gone as we know it, but our souls will live on forever. And the most important thing that we can ever do, and I'm just going to borrow a beautiful quote from Charlie Kirk himself here: we must make heaven crowded. And sitting back and doing absolutely nothing to accomplish that is the worst thing that we could ever do. Truth triumphs over lies, love conquers evil, compassion exterminates hate, and life, of course, defeats death. These are the kind of things that are very near and dear to my heart. These are the things that I feel are worth talking about and worth fighting for. So these are the things that you can expect to hear from me, just like you can always expect an attitude of love and a non-judgmental, safe atmosphere. Just because I'm calling out evil doesn't mean I'm saying I'm better than any of it. In fact, I've probably done more terrible things than anyone I personally know. But sometimes God will choose the most least likely of people on this planet to show his power because through the transformation of a broken and badly stained vessel, the world can see his glory through the drastic change that has taken place in their life. First Corinthians 127 states, but God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise. God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. And basically, what this means is that he will pick the lowliest of people to achieve his purposes, because in doing so, his glory and his power is all the more evident. That way, no one can boast in their own abilities, and that's absolutely something I cannot do either. Everything good in me, everything I can do, like creative writing, feel the kind of passion I do, love God's word, write songs about my faith in Jesus, which I absolutely hope to share with you guys. I cannot do any of these things on my own. So I truly hope you choose to join me as I speak out and cover these things that I am so very passionate about in my heart. I'm not only a redeemed criminal, but I am a lover of the law. I have multiple certificates in different areas of criminal justice and recently earned my credentials as a victim advocate and criminal law and procedure specialist. So I love God, family, football, and the law. And the biggest thing I want to do is help change the world. I want that more than anything on this planet. I want to be used by God. I want to be a good and faithful servant, just like the late, great, wonderful Charlie Kirk was. May He rest in the arms of our Savior. You guys, there is nothing our God can't do. There are no limits to his power. If we would just allow his light, his word, his power to break the chains that evil binds up, this world would be a much better place. Jesus was sent to this earth to save the world, to set the captives free. He came that we may have life and have it more abundantly. There is not a single situation he can't fix, not a single situation that he can't transform, not a single situation that he can't redeem. He created you, he created me, and he created everything we see when we look at the beauty of creation itself. The moon, the stars, the sun, the grass, animals, the ocean, the wonders of the galaxy. So let's not waste any more time here. Let's invite God into our lives like a raging river and be swept away to the seas of his grace. Let's replace lies with truth and let's all try to heal together with the help of our awesome and mighty God, for he is more real than you can ever imagine. Trust me, he will blow your mind. Now, to close things out here, I did want to let you know that unfortunately I will not be able to release episodes as often as I would like due to the fact that I do work a full-time job. So I work very, very hard every day. But I also wanted to let you know that I may release shorter ones here and there if I'm all hyped up about something. Because trust me, I almost always am. My biggest thing is I just want to provide good quality content for all you folks out there. So please bear with me as I start this journey. But I can tell you that I will hopefully be releasing at least one episode per month with the hopes that that will increase at some point. And I truly hope that you will tune in as I cover different topics or cases and give you my perspectives on them and also relate my own life experiences to the subject matter at hand. So please tune in next Sunday for the very first episode of Redeeming Evil, where I will tell you my own true crime story. And just a heads up on that. Some of it does contain some pretty heavy materials such as self-harm and severe drug and alcohol abuse. So I do want to warn you that viewer discretion is advised. So thank you. Thank you so much to everyone out there for taking a few moments to hear what I have to say today. And I can't wait to start changing the world with all of you. So until next time, God bless you and your families. And of course, take care. This is Jay signing off.