Episode 9: The Nurse Identity Crisis: Why You Feel Disconnected, Inflamed & Stuck

If you’re a nurse who feels disconnected from yourself… constantly exhausted… inflamed… and stuck in a body that won’t respond no matter how hard you try — this episode is going to hit deep.

Because this isn’t just about weight loss.

This is about the nurse identity crisis no one is talking about — and how years of stress, emotional suppression, and constant self-sacrifice are quietly reshaping your nervous system, hormones, and metabolism.

In this powerful, science-backed episode, you’ll learn:

• why so many nurses feel disconnected from their bodies
 • how chronic stress and burnout dysregulate your nervous system
 • the link between cortisol, inflammation, and weight gain
 • why emotional suppression keeps your body stuck in survival mode
 • how insulin resistance and blood sugar instability develop under stress
 • why “discipline” isn’t the issue — and what actually is
 • what your body is really trying to do (and why it won’t let go of weight)

If you’ve been thinking:

“I don’t feel like myself anymore…”
 “Why is my body not responding?”
 “Why do I feel inflamed, tired, and stuck no matter what I do?”

You are not broken.

Your body is adapting to chronic stress, nervous system dysregulation, and a life that has required you to override yourself for years.

And once you understand that — everything starts to change.

✨ If you’re ready to go deeper, this is exactly the work we do inside the Metabolic Restoration Method for Nurses — where we address weight loss resistance at the root through nervous system regulation, hormone balance, and metabolic healing.

Keyword topics covered:

nurse burnout weight gain
 why nurses feel exhausted
 nervous system dysregulation weight gain
 cortisol inflammation nurses
 emotional suppression weight gain
 nurse stress hormones
 insulin resistance stress
 weight loss for nurses
 nurse fatigue inflammation
 metabolic dysfunction nurses
 burnout and metabolism
 nurse wellness podcast

Intro

Promo

outro

Transcript

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Hello, my beautiful nurses. It's Jess VNP with Proactive Wellness for Nurses. Welcome back. I want to start this episode with a question. Uh-huh. And I don't want you to answer it really quickly. And I don't want you to answer it intellectually either. I want you to actually pause and feel into this question for a moment. When was the last time that you really, really felt like yourself? Not the version that shows up to work, you know, not the version of you that takes care of everyone else and solves all the problems and keeps everything moving, holds it all together and pushes through no matter how exhausted you are. Not that version. I mean the version of you that feels present, grounded, you know, connected to your body, calm in your mind, and actually at home in yourself. The caveat here is that, you know, the topic at hand is proactive wellness for nurses. How are we going to move from nervous system dysregulation to weight loss is the focus of this first season of this podcast, right? I will have to add that personally I have had a hard time feeling calm in my mind and connected and grounded my whole life. So you may be like me. There's a spectrum of people, how deep and long your existential crisis may be, particularly if it started for you after nursing or during nursing. This is a big red flag. This is a problem that we need to address. This is something that we need to identify. What do they all say? You can't fix anything until you admit that it's a problem, right? For a lot of you, there is probably hesitation when you hear that question. When was the last time you truly felt like yourself? Right. And for some of you, it's been so long that you generally don't even know how to answer that question at all. Because somewhere along the way, you adapted so well to what was required of you that you stopped checking in with who you actually are underneath all of it. And that is what this episode is really about. Yes, we are going to talk about weight and metabolism. We're going to talk about hormones and inflammation, but we are going to talk about it in a way that I promise you you probably have not heard before. Because if we stay at the level of food and calories and macros and willpower, we are going to completely miss what is actually happening in your body. Because for so many nurses, the weight issue is not just about what you are eating. It is not about knowledge. We know that for sure. It is not about discipline. And it's not just about whether you are doing it right or not. The thing is that the body, over time, starts holding on to weight. And it's because it's holding on to a survival mode, right? It's holding on to survival. That weight equals life. It's it's energy, calories, right? So your body's holding on to that weight, and it is not simply because you're fucking lazy, okay? It's not calories in, calories out. You need to do more. You need to do more. It's different. Your body is holding on to weight because it's holding on to survival. And survival is not a mindset, okay? It's a physiologic state that changes how every system in your body functions. See, your body is constantly interpreting your environment and your internal experience, and in turn making decisions based on one primary question, truly, biologically, physiologically. And it that one question is am I safe enough right now? And when the answer to that question over and over and over again becomes not really, the body adapts in very specific ways. And it is, it prioritizes energy storage. It makes sense. It's a smart system, it alters hormonal signaling as well, which can create a lot of chaos, and it shifts how your brain processes reward and relief, you know, overall. It changes your hunger cues, changes your sleep, it changes your inflammatory pathways, and it changes your metabolism overall. So the part that I think is so important to understand is that for nurses, this does not happen because you are doing something wrong. Okay. It happens because of what you have been trained to become. Starting in nursing school boot camp, honestly, I have explained to people that I felt like nursing school was pretty much a hazing process. Pretty much a hazing process. We're not talking about that. But nursing is not just a job that you perform, it is a role that reshapes how you function as a human being. Crazy. How many people's jobs require that completely? You know? It requires you to override your body in ways that most professionals do not. You learn to ignore hunger, thirst, you know, you're ignoring your exhaustion, you're attempting to ignore emotional responses, you're ignoring physical discomfort. And while doing all that, you're you're expecting yourself to be performing at a high level, regardless of what is happening internally. I mean, you become incredibly good at pushing through. You know, that becomes something you're actually proud of for many of us nurses. Something you are reinforced for, right? You're getting positive reinforcement. Oh, thank you for picking up that extra shift, even though you told me you want to die, and you'd rather die than come here and you hate your life. Thanks for picking up that shift. I know you were just venting when you said that. Sorry, like trigger warning, but this way that you become so incredibly good at pushing through and then getting positive reinforcement for it from your patients, from your job, from your bosses, from yourself. It becomes part of your identity. Okay. But the nervous system does not interpret that as strength in the way that we consciously do. Okay? The nervous system interprets patterns and it learns through repetition. It adapts to what you repeatedly show it is necessary for survival. So, you know, if day after day, shift after shift, and freaking year after year, the message your body is receiving is that your needs are not a priority, that your signals are inconvenient, and that you cannot stop, you cannot feel, and you cannot process, and you cannot slow down, and all of that repetitively, your your nervous system then begins to wire itself around this pattern, right? It creates a baseline state of heightened alertness, of vigilance, of suppression, and eventually that stops being something you turn on at work and off at home. Okay, eventually it becomes who you are everywhere in your life. This is how this is one major way that nursing, the trauma of nursing, the trauma of the experience of being a nurse, can change your identity, can change who you are, and causes a lot of confusion for many people, especially if nursing wasn't, you know, what your original dream was, or maybe even rougher if it was your dream forever. But now that you're in it, it's not what you thought it was. Not funny. It becomes who you are everywhere in your life. And this is where a lot of nerf nurses, you know, they find themselves living in this state without even realizing it. They feel wired and tired at the same time. You will hear me repeat that. It's just it's not a healthy way to be. They feel like, you know, they cannot relax even when they have the opportunity to. They feel like their brain does not shut off. They feel like their body is tense even when nothing is happening. They feel exhausted, but never, never restored. Never restored, not getting great sleep. Again, think about all the systems we've discussed and the chaos that's happening inside of your physiology. If you need to reinforce the details, go back to previous episodes in this season one Proactive Wellness for Nurses, because you know, I I hit a brick wall with this. And this is why I'm talking about this, why this is a passion subject of mine, why I passionately desire to help nurses get out of this situation where they can't get stabilized weight. Weight loss is just something that a lot, it is a symptom of this dysfunction, right? Your root problem is not that you're overweight. Your root problem is nervous system dysfunction and or a cascade of so many things that is unique to you. But if you're a burnt out nurse, you know, this just makes sense. Nervous system jacked leads to metabolism jacked up, leads to weight gain, dysregulation. It's wild, okay? So I personally hit a brick wall with this. When I finally decided to transfer to the ICU, I thought that was the be-all end-all, right? I worked cardiac progressive step down, cardiac was my jam. I wanted to work CV ICU or at least med surge ICU. And when I got there, two things happened. Number one, I went to the wrong place. I mean, it's just wonderful people, wonderful relationships experience there, but wrong place for me. It just made me so much worse. I thought that was the be all end all, right? And when I got there, what I realized is legit, this thought has crossed my mind so many times, but legitimately now I know that I don't want to be a nurse forever. I don't want to do this job. I don't want to work in the hospital, I don't want to do this life. I tried home health, I tried hospice. I'm different. I'm a little bit more intense than most people. Okay. A lot of people can compartmentalize and heal. And that's what my point is here for you. If you relate to any of this, is that there is hope and it is possible to dig yourself out of that. Because if you are like a this situation that a lot of nurses find themselves living in, you know, maybe even so bad to the point that you now have sort of identity crisis. You never feel restored, you feel bloated and out of control, you're not being able to trust yourself to start over every Monday if food is the issue. Food's not the issue, okay? It's this entire massive multi-layered cascade of things. But if that's where you are, that state, that chronic low-level activation, has very real downstream effects. When the nervous system stays in that state, cortisol patterns become disrupted. And cortisol is not just a stress hormone in the abstract sense. You know, it directly impacts blood sugar, insulin sensitivity, fat storage, sleep quality, and appetite regulation, really. Hormones that manipulate appetite regulation are all jacked up when your system's all jacked up. I don't know how else to say it. When cortisol is elevated or dysregulated in the body, it's it's just more likely to store fat. Your body's doing what the system is telling it to do. The intelligent physiological setup is working the way it's supposed to. But the environment, the terrain that you're in, is all jacked up. Okay. When cortisol is elevated, dysregulated, the body's gonna store more fat, particularly in the abdominal area. Because why? Because it's trying to ensure that energy is available in case of ongoing stress. It thinks you are in trouble and you're living in the world out there in nature somewhere, and you need to store this fat so that when famine comes, you can survive. And at the same time, when that cortisol is all dysregulated, blood sugar becomes less stable. Okay, the body is releasing more glucose into the bloodstream in response to the perceived stress. And then insulin, you know, it's like, okay, I'm gonna work harder to manage all that sugar. And over time, cells can become less responsive, which is what we refer to as insulin resistance. It used to be called metabolic syndrome, syndrome X. When that happens, fat burning becomes more difficult and fat storage becomes easier. This is such an unfortunate negative feedback loop. Okay. So you're becoming resistant to the insulin. If you've ever listened to Jason Fung talk about this, he has great analogies. You're becoming more resistant to insulin. It's just not working as well as it used to, right? This state of metabolic dysfunction, it can happen 10 or more years before your A1C says you're diabetic. Okay. And during that time when you are experiencing hyperinsulinemia, you have high insulin. Your sugar's high, yeah, but your insulin's high too. And that causes chaos. That causes chaos. So the negative feedback part that's also so unfair for like diabetics that get thrown on insulin, type two diabetics, is what I'm talking about. When you have so much insulin in your body, it signals other things besides decrease the glucose. Okay. It makes fat burning more difficult. It stops the lipolysis process. Uh oh. It prevents the breakdown of fat. Okay. Fat storage becomes an easier and preferred and ideal state in that terrain, because your cravings are increased and your energy levels are going to be all inconsistent because you're on a sh roller coaster of blood sugar. But the insulin bath that your cells are in right now itself is leading to the problems that will develop with diabetes. So, you know, this time period, if you are relating to what I'm talking about, if you are experiencing it or a friend or loved one is going through this right now, it is imperative for you to become proactive about your whole person wellness. This is my message. It is not vanity. It is not because even just that you want to feel better. It is not just because you want to run around with your kids. It is not just because you want to not snap at your husband and you want to feel regulated. It's because it's it can prevent major, very real long-term disease processes from developing. I'm not even joking, you dog. You know this to be true. I don't need to tell you this if you are a nurse. So then there's another component, right? Inflammation. When you on top of all that chaos, when you then layer on inflammation, this is where I think things become even more misunderstood, really, because inflammation is often talked about purely in terms of diet. But chronic emotional suppression itself and chronic stress are both inflammatory states. Okay. When you repeatedly experience stress without resolution, when you suppress emotional responses instead of processing them, when you carry that tension and responsibility and pressure without any release, your body maintains a level of inflammatory signaling that really affects everything from your metabolism to your brain function. Emotional regulation. Let's not even haven't even talked about gut dysfunction or microbiome dysregulation at all. But for now, I want you to picture something because I think this is where it becomes very real. Picture you're at work, you've been going non-stop for hours, right? You have not eaten, you barely drank water. I mean, of course, you don't want to have to pee. You're gonna be changing a bed, dripping sweat, peeing in your pants. I've done it. I peed my pants during a code one time. I'm not even joking you. I whole ass peed my pants during a code. So take yourself there, though. You're in the shift, you're jacked up, you haven't eaten, you're you've been running for hours, and you've had multiple demands placed on you all at once. I mean, what else is your life if if you are a nurse and you don't have multiple demands placed on you all at once? Tell me where you work so I can come work with you. Maybe you dealt with a patient situation that was heavier than on you, you know, than than a normal day, even. And something, something that really stuck with you. So add on that place where you feel, and then now you have this serious situation that's been intense for you to experience. Something so intense that you felt it in your chest for a moment before you push it away because you had to keep going. And you keep going. What do you do? You keep going, you do not process it, you do not talk about it, you do not even fully acknowledge it. You just move forward because there is always something else that needs you. Okay, there's always gonna be after the shift to debrief, right? But then you go home and and suddenly your body starts asking like for something. Not in a calm, gentle way, but in a very loud, almost urgent way. You feel cravings, you feel exhausted, you feel like you need something immediately. And that is often the moment where you turn to food or alcohol. Wine sounds like a good solution in that moment, like real hardcore. So do margaritas after work with your buddies. Real hardcore, that sounds like a good thing. And sometimes we do need that. That is what we need. But, you know, this is often the moment where you turn to food or alcohol, and it's not because you're undisciplined, it's because your nervous system is trying to come down from hours of sustained activation. Food works quickly, right? It changes your brain chemistry, it increases dopamine, it gives you that dopamine hit, it increases serotonin. I mean, it creates a temporary sense of relief. And in that moment, your body is not thinking about long-term goals, it is responding to an immediate need in the moment. And then afterwards, you judge yourself, right? You beat yourself up, you drag yourself through the mud. You think you lack discipline, right? You think I fucking failed again. You think you should have done better. How can you be so smart and you made it through this school, you you made it through this job, like you made it through this shift? You've done all these things in life, but you can't control yourself around food and or drinks or whatever. Like how you're beating yourself up, but please reframe this for a moment. What if that moment was not a failure, not a failure at all? What if it was a physiologic response to the way that your nervous system has been operating all day long? Now imagine that pattern. We just talked about one shift and one evening and the emotional roller coaster that you went through for that. Now imagine that pattern repeating itself over weeks and months and years. I mean, we all know the jaded nurses, right? We all know a lot of angry, jaded, shut down nurses, the chain smoker, heavy drinker, gambling, depressed. That's the extreme example, but we all know at least one of those, right? Eventually, your body starts anticipating the stress before it even happens. Cortisol patterns shift, hunger cues change, and then your cravings intensify, and the body becomes more efficient at storing energy because it assumes that the environment is going to continue this demand, this level of demand. It's demand. From you. And this is where the identity piece becomes inseparable from the physiology. Okay. That's this is why this episode is about how nurses experience identity loss and how that can impact your ability to lose weight. Because we always talk about the calories, we always talk about the food. We always talk about the macros. We always talk about how your willpower needs to be stronger. But we don't talk about the fact that we need to do some deep internal healing to get to where we need to go. We don't talk about that as a real barrier. You know why in healthcare? We might believe that. You might have a tuned-in provider in front of you. You're asking, how do I lose weight? They might know that this is a big deal. They don't have an hour to talk to you about it, right? They don't have all these podcast episodes to talk to you about it. They don't have time in the evening to cry with you about it. They don't have a big group coaching experience where you are all experiencing the same thing. That's my vision. That is what I'm developing. Because there's a huge gap between providers and patients, right? The provider tells the patient blah di blah di blah. And then it's your job to completely take, you just got to teach yourself and figure out how to do it, basically. Because we're going to see you for five, 10 minutes, right? You're going to see the, and they're not getting anything. You're they don't have the time. They can't. They can't do it. They can't. They're not even taught. They're not even taught like this. You know, this is where that identity piece becomes inseparable from the physiology because the version of you that has learned to survive in this environment is not just a behavioral pattern. Okay. It is a full-body pattern. It is the version of you that pushes through and does not stop, you know, does not feel things until later, holds, holds everything together, right? Gets through the shift, gets through the code, gets through the day. That whatever is needed by, you know, everyone, this is the version of you that derives value from being capable and reliable and strong. But at some point, you look up and realize that you don't feel like yourself anymore. But you are not even sure like who the F you are anymore at that point. You're not even sure who you're supposed to be. We haven't even talked about your whole life, what type of interpersonal dynamics you're struggling with. We haven't talked about anything personalized. We are talking about something that is very common and is a very big problem. I personally think we need to rearrange how healthcare is delivered, but you know, we're not going to fix the world today. So this is not just an emotional experience. You can't get hammer this into your head enough. This is a physiologic disconnection. Because when you lose connection to your internal signaling, you lose the ability to respond to your body in a way that supports healing. Okay? You start living from patterns instead of awareness, these patterns that your body is attempting to protect you with. And then you start making decisions based on what you have always done instead of what you actually need. And this is why so many attempts at weight loss feel like a constant battle. Because you're trying to change behaviors on top of an in the presence and in the situation of a nervous system that is still operating from survival and from an identity that is still rooted in self-override, right? We gotta spread thin. This is the American dream. The American rat race. Work so you can pay your car payment so that you can have your car to get to fucking work. Brutal. And that mismatch creates friction, right? You consciously want peace. You want peace, but your nervous system is used to being under that pressure. You consciously, you consciously you want to take care of yourself, but your identity is built around taking care of everyone else. Consciously, you want to lose weight, but your body is still prioritizing survival. So you find yourself doing things that do not align with what you say you want. And then you blame yourself not realizing that there is a deeper pattern that is running the show. Okay. And I want to say something here that I think is really important. The version of you that got you here into this chaotic mess is not wrong. It's not the wrong version, it's not bad. They are not weak, they are not broken. The version of you has adapted the way that they should have physiologically. I mean, she became what she needed to become to function in a very demanding environment. But that does not mean that that version of you is the one that is going to heal you, okay? There is a moment, and many of you are in it right now, where you start to feel the cost of that identity. And you start to feel the exhaustion of always being the strong one. You start to feel like a disconnection, kind of like disconnected feeling. You start to feel the weight, like not just physically, but emotionally, spiritually. You start to feel like something is not right, even if you cannot fully explain it. That is not failure, dog. That is awareness. And awareness is the beginning of change. Again, because healing, like real healing, does not come from pushing harder. It comes from creating enough safety in your body that it no longer has to operate in survival mode. And that is a completely different approach. Okay. It means learning how to listen again, like listen to your body. It means allowing yourself to feel what you have been pushing away. And it means acknowledging what this life has actually required from you and what it has cost you. It means recognizing that your worth is not in how much you can carry or how thin you can spread yourself. It means allowing your body actually to experience moments of true regulation, even if they feel unfamiliar at first. Because they will feel unfamiliar. It's gonna, this is, this can be very difficult. And when I hit the wall, right? Man, I hit so many walls. I've hit this same wall so many times, right? But when I decided basically I'm never gonna quote unquote diet again, I'm never gonna manipulate and do these plans. I've lost a bunch of weight many times and gained it back. But this time I'm maintaining down. And it has been a downward for, and I'm saying that got real big. I had got real, real, real big. I had got real big. And it was through, you know, school because by the end of 2022, when I graduated my nurse practitioner school, I was spent. So the reason I wanted to talk about myself here is because what I'm saying is it when you've been this dysregulated for this long, feeling regulated feels very unfamiliar. When I finally graduated school, I mean, I'm a lifelong learner. So like I constantly pay people to give me online programs because it helps propel me forward. But I didn't know what to do with myself when I graduated nurse practitioner school. I had been working seven days a week for over a year, basically, literally between clinicals and working full-time. And then think about it, like for the past over a decade before that, I was just jamming out my nervous system in the hospital, doing this thing that I'm telling you about. This is the cycle I was in. And I just wondered what was wrong with me? How could I not regulate myself? How can I be so intelligent? If I'm so intelligent and informed and educated, how can't I fix my own problems? Why the hey can't I fix my own shit? You know, it felt really unfamiliar. It felt when I started to learn to regulate my nervous system and when I believed, when I learned and become to believe this that I'm preaching to you today, I had to do a lot of work. I had to do a lot of inner healing. My relationship with food, my relationship with my inner child, embracing some of the darker sides of myself. There's a lot of self-development work that's gone into this a lot. And in the beginning, it's very uncomfortable. It can feel so unfamiliar. Better when when we are changing in this way, that better situation often feels very uncomfortable when your baseline has been stressed for so long. But this is where things start to shift in a way that feels almost unbelievable, really. Because when the nervous system begins to regulate, guess what happens? Guess what happens, dog? Cortisol becomes more stable. Interesting. That improves your sleep, your cravings decrease, your hunger cues become clearer because the hormones are now regulating themselves, inflammation begins to come down and cool off, and the body just overall becomes more willing to release weight. And it is not because you forced it, but because it no longer feels like it has to hold on to it. You know, that that is the part that changes everything. You do not need to become more disciplined, you need to become more regulated. You do not need to try harder, okay? You need to feel safer in your own body. And that is the work that most programs completely miss and do not provide, right? Because they are focused on what you are doing, not who you are being. That's some deep shit. How can some personal trainer? I mean, I know I have a very woke personal trainer that's real tapped in spiritually, and that does exist. And if you want me to connect you to him, I will. Online, very affordable, reasonable, amazing guy. Amazing program, very personalized. But if your identity is still rooted in survival, you can't just jump on a diet and exercise train. Your body will continue to reflect that survival mode. And no matter how perfectly you follow the plan, whatever beach body, whatever, your body still thinks it's in survival mode. So if you are listening to this and you feel seen, or if something in this is like resonating with you in a way that you cannot ignore, I want you to understand that you are not broken. Your body is not working against you. Your body has been adapting to the life that you have lived. And if you want different results, gag, we have to address the whole picture, okay? We need to address the nervous system, the hormones, the inflammation, all these damn patterns that your body is thinking it's protecting you with. And we need to address the identity crisis. We truly do. All of it. We need to address all of it because the goal is not just to lose weight. The goal is to come back to yourself. The goal is to feel at home in your body again. The goal is to create a body that feels safe enough to heal, safe enough to rest, safe enough to let go. And that is the work that we do inside of the metabolic restoration method, not surface level fixes. And I want to add here, again, we haven't even spoken about childhood adverse events or traumas. We haven't even spoken about all of the traumas from yourself and/or generational traumas that may be stored inside of your body energetically. My gosh, this is so unique to you. And that's the other reason why most programs don't work, is they don't get down and dirty, unique to you. That's exactly the work that we do inside of the metabolic restoration methods. So we're not talking about surface level fixes. We are talking about real transformation from the inside out. That's that was my experience. That is what I had to do to finally get off the roller coaster. And it's it's helped unlock problems in my life that I've created by living in this survival chaos, right? Workaholic issues, putting work before, never calling out, like feeling way too guilty to let the team down that day and thinking I'm letting my patients directly down. Man, living in that, I actually was blinded for years. I just thought I was broken. That's why I repeat this all the time. I just thought there was something inherent, inherently, inherently wrong with me. I just thought I was genetically cursed, situationally broken, and I had learned these patterns. I could identify that I could manipulate my internal dialogue long before I realized this nervous system issue, which that's a whole entire other focus, right? If you can't get past your internal dialogue, we can't get past any of this. So it took me years of unraveling this emotional turmoil and to reach nervous system healing, right? So I was so far in debt to health. Like I was so in an unsteady place, I didn't even realize it. It has taken very shocking and very painful responses from my husband, from my family, that I am still trying to heal these things from years of experiencing that crazy survival mode bullshit. What we do in the metabolic restoration method for nurses, this this program, this approach addresses all of these things first. So I, this is a lot of work. This is something that if you were to want to partner with me to get to a place of healing, to hold your hand and step by step get you there. It's a lot of time and energy and effort, and it's a you know program that has a price tag on it. The group coaching is a lot is more affordable. And you can apply it and you can ask me stuff in the group coaching. And once I get my good whole 12-week program out there recorded, the first organized group 12-week session that is coming up soon. We'll be launching soon. Keep your eyes out. This is, you know, we're in March of 2026, and I'm getting ready to launch the first big program soon date to be announced. But once I get it recorded, my goal is to then offer it for even much cheaper to where people can obtain the shift. You know, you get the knowledge, you have the aha moments, the realizations, and then you obtain the ability to have that paradigm shift to where you understand that this is the problem. The root cause, way upstream, is the problem. It's not just because you're a fatty fat McFadterson and you can't avoid the donuts in the break room. Like it's not because you're weak and you're genetically doomed. Once, you know, once you are exposed to that knowledge and you have that paradigm shift, it becomes much easier for you to apply this to yourself. So we're gonna get this up and running because my ending passion and deep, deep pain that I want to help solve is this for nurses. I want y'all to know that you don't need to do this for another 10 or 20 years. You can step back and unravel it now. And I do warn that there are some people, like myself, that have to just get out of the hospital system. I love the hospital. I lived in the hospital for almost 20 years. I it is a city in and of itself. It is a whole different world, and it's comfortably familiar to trauma bond with all these other dysregulated people, right? While you are serving people in crisis, the worst times of their life, the most painful, most vulnerable. You know, you're exposed to that all the time. But it is my deep, deep desire to help guide people to get through that. So that's what I'm doing here, Dog. That's what I'm doing here. That's why I'm putting myself out on a limb and teaching myself how to do podcasts and whatever else, because I don't know how else to resolve it. I cannot be happy within the system. I tell you what, I have tried to win from the inside, and I have wholeheartedly determined that I am not capable of fixing the system from the inside. So, with that said, please share this and like it and subscribe and follow us and Proactive Wellness, the Wellness Clinic on Facebook. I'm gonna probably be changing that to Academy because I'm really just not into offering these fee for service anymore. I'm doing a lot of weight loss and hormone replacement therapy and things like this. But the thing is that you can isolatedly impact people positively by sure selling them a GLP one. But I don't want to sell you a GLP one. I don't want to a GLP one is a tool that can help calm this fire down. It really, really can. Anyways, what would be even better is if we can alter your body and your physiology to get it to a place where it can heal itself and increase GLP1 production and activity that naturally occurs in your body. So yeah, I am moving towards, I really want to educate and coach. I want to get out of the medical system because the red tape constraints, like requirement to prescribe and suggest statins and all of these gold standards that I don't I just want to help people fix their lives, heal themselves from the inside out, and become proactive about their whole person wellness. So I'm gonna stop rambling because this is gonna be so long if I don't. But I want you to know that I mean it when I say I love you already, and I'll see you inside the next episode.