Being Quack AF

What does it mean to be Quack AF? Trey and JJ are two Queer and Black (Quack) individuals who stand proud in their identity. They share who they are and their experiences as Quack men. Trey goes to Atlanta for Spring Break and JJ learns about the consistency of man juice.

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SPEAKER_03 0:00

Your listeners to Q and radio Yeah, I'm a bad bitch, I bite, you beat it up all night, I pull up, it's on sight.

SPEAKER_04 0:14

Oh stay pressed, I don't want to keep the light. I took my dance in my pants. I want my cat in my pants. Backslash and backslash. I get that. I'm a bad bitch. I park. You rockin' with us like mark. Let's bat it. Let's start post the next. We're about to make a mark. I'm a bad bitch. I park. You walking with us. Like mark. Get set. Let's start. Oh no.

SPEAKER_03 0:40

We're about to make a mark. You're listening to QXT Radio. Yeah. What's up, bitches?

SPEAKER_04 0:58

Oh my god, I'm so excited to start this podcast.

SPEAKER_01 1:01

I um I couldn't be more ready right now. I think I'm I'm really excited. So, my name's JJ. I'm Trey.

SPEAKER_04 1:09

And we're Quack AF, okay? Hello, everyone. Nice to meet you. I'm glad you can hear our beautiful voices. We are so excited to start this podcast and get into it. So what are we going to be talking about talking about today?

SPEAKER_01 1:22

Okay. So we're going to talk about, first off, what it means to be quack, because you can't just be going around saying quack without people knowing what it means.

SPEAKER_04 1:30

So quack, quack, quack, quack, quack, quack, quack. No. It's not a reference to ducks. This show is not going to be about ducks. We're not duck hunting. We're not duck hunting. We are cunt hunting, actually. Right, right, right. We're not going to be talking about ducks. We might throw in a little duck joke here and there, but no, the show is not going to be about ducks. It is about being queer and black at the same exact motherfucking time. Okay. Yep. Quack. Yeah. All right. Put that together. What do you got? Quack. Queer and black.

SPEAKER_01 1:58

That wasn't a song, just so y'all know.

SPEAKER_04 2:00

You said what? That wasn't the song, just so you know. What song? The theme song. Oh, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 2:08

You made the song, girl. What are you doing?

SPEAKER_04 2:10

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know. The quack, the quack wasn't the song. So that was exactly. Can we talk about the theme song for a second? Yes, please. Okay. Oh, please. So I he wanted, he, my friend JJ, he pulled a couple of songs he wanted me to reference to kind of emulate in the song and the energy. The energy and the vibe. And like the song. I hope it does capture energy. Um, I was writing it actually coming from, I was writing it as I was walking out to my job, like I'm walking out to my car. And I just it just came to me. Like, I'm a bad bitch. I bite. He beat it up all night. It just came to me. And I was like, bitch, this is that shit. This is that shit. Let me fucking write this shit down right now. And so I wrote the I wrote the verses first. I wrote the verse first. And then I wrote, um, and I came up with the beat. And you know the first beat. You heard the first beat. I remember that. I remember that. It was giving fucking what? Say it.

SPEAKER_01 3:09

It was giving rough. No, no, no, no, no. But it wasn't giving a different energy. I don't exactly remember because that's been a minute since we listened to that. Like, it was giving 90s Mario. Oh! Yes. Because you were trying to incorporate the video game vibe, and I was like, okay, so like that's interrupting it. And I feel like we need more of the bad bitch energy, quite literally. Right. And I was like, I the video game's for me because I'm the big game guy. Uh that's like the whole thing. When we introduce ourselves, you're gonna know. But um I I definitely felt like our podcast, more often than not, is gonna be really about like feeling that feeling that unstoppable energy. And that confidence, yeah. Yes, yes. That's exactly what I want us to feel like. And I think that really gives it out. If you guys have heard any of Trevor's other songs, this was like it's made by Ooh.

SPEAKER_02 4:09

Trey, if you've heard any of other songs, if Trey I'm already off. It's okay.

SPEAKER_01 4:14

Okay. If you guys have heard of any of Trey's other songs, let me tell you, that song will fit right at home. This it sounds like his energy. It's so bitch, I rap.

SPEAKER_04 4:26

Okay. Yes, he's a music maker. Yes, make her, okay. T-R-U-Y-D-M-A-R-K-I-T, trademarking on all my platforms, ho. Okay.

SPEAKER_01 4:37

But yeah, no, this definitely feels very much like our vibe. Yeah. For sure. Especially because we don't want to talk too much, but we do have other special guests. Yes. Later podcasts.

SPEAKER_04 4:49

Yes. We're gonna have all kinds of quack individuals come to our show. Our friends, maybe in our family. What? Maybe just to fuck around.

SPEAKER_01 4:58

Honestly, honestly. Yeah, it'd be exciting. Don't bring anybody hot because they're gonna be flirting with another entire time.

SPEAKER_04 5:04

Right, right, right, right.

unknown 5:06

Right.

SPEAKER_01 5:07

Oh, but yeah, no. I can't I can't wait to kind of get into it for real.

SPEAKER_04 5:12

So yeah, it was exciting, right? The theme song, and I finally found like a good beat to make it to because I didn't change the tone, I didn't change the notes of that much from the original 90s Mario's beat. Yeah. But I did have to sit and like kind of find a sound to make it sound like a babage. Yeah. Like the babbage I'm hoping that bounce, right? So I'm hoping y'all like it. Like, let us know like how what y'all think about it. Um, but yeah, that's exciting.

SPEAKER_01 5:40

For sure, for sure. Um, I'm gonna be real. I'm the person who asked him to add some like quacks into it. Because we quack AF. So it's like, I asked him to act, act, add some quacks, and I did not expect you to actually quack. That is such a syllabic part to me. Because I was like, you know what? Fuck it, let me lean into it.

SPEAKER_02 5:59

Literally.

SPEAKER_01 5:59

Let me lean into it, yeah. Literally, and I'm so glad you did. I'm it's it's like after the first few listens, y'all, you really, you really get into it. So when we get into more podcasts, we're gonna be like, okay, okay. Yeah, it's gonna be the staple.

SPEAKER_04 6:12

It's gonna be the main thing you hear at the very beginning, the first of every episode. Yep. It's gonna be a Bob. I know for that.

SPEAKER_01 6:20

Okay, okay. But we actually do uh want to get into ourselves a little bit. Yes. And I'm gonna let I'm gonna let Trey start off.

SPEAKER_04 6:27

So hi guys, my name is Trey. As you as you can tell, my name is my real name is Trevor. Um, but I go by Trey. Um, and I'm a quack individual that I am, I just turned 26. So Aerie Season Ho, Aerie Season, yeah. Aerie season. Um I just turned 26 on the um the 25th. And um like I said, I just when we started the when we started talking about the podcast, it was interesting about where we wanted to go and end up we ended up talking about this. We were like, oh, you know, we just we're just good at talking with each other and just like bouncing off podcasts, uh bouncing off ideas, bouncing on the right, exactly. So we can talk about anything, and I guess to say that anybody can have a podcast is probably fucking true, but it's good to just have a good podcast with your friend and be able to just talk and communicate and and maybe even inspire people as we're talking with each other, like to inspire all you listeners out there about how to be quack, how to be yourself, how to be your full unapologetic self. So that's what I'm excited about about this podcast.

SPEAKER_01 7:37

Literally what we are.

SPEAKER_04 7:38

Um but yeah, a little bit more about me. Um I'm originally from Texas. Um I grew up in Texas, I was born in North Carolina, but I grew up in Texas. Um and um I love I love Texas, but I decided to um go back to North Carolina because my dad was moving. He wanted me to go, he wanted us all to go back to North Carolina, be close to his um mom, my grandma. And we I just I wanted to see another side of the country, and I love it over here because bitch, I was just in Atlanta um last week, this weekend. Oh, don't get him started.

SPEAKER_01 8:11

Oh my god, do not let him talk about Atlanta. We'll be here all day for this show. Okay, ATL. Atlanta. Okay. We did not come here to talk about Atlanta right now.

SPEAKER_04 8:20

Right. But no, I was excited, it's excited because it's only like a five-hour drive. And I feel like some of y'all would be like, damn, five hours? What the fuck? But like over here, you drive five hours, you're in Atlanta or DC, or like seven or eight, you're in New York from North Carolina. But in Texas, you drive five hours, you're still in fucking Texas. Like, there is no, you don't get to go anyplace. But like over here, you get to do that, and it's exciting. You get to go to ATL Pride. Like, I want to go to ATL Pride at one point.

SPEAKER_01 8:47

Yeah, that would be good.

SPEAKER_04 8:48

Already, yeah, start as you guys talked about Pride earlier.

SPEAKER_01 8:52

I was like, yeah, I want to be a part of that.

SPEAKER_04 8:54

Yeah, it's exciting. It is. I went to DC Black Pride the past two years. I went with my um my friend, we're gonna talk about him in the podcast later. Um the last time, and it was so it's just so it's always such a um an eye-opening experience, a mind-opening experience, and a culturally awakening, not culturally awakening, but like identity awakening experience. Yeah. To go to a pride and just be yourself and just like let it all hang out and just see the beauty of queerness, see the beauty of blackness. It's just so amazing. Um I love going to prides.

SPEAKER_01 9:31

I I didn't expect you to say let it all out, but you know, people really be doing that. Niggas be letting it all out, okay. Oh man, I've seen some videos, okay? Right.

SPEAKER_04 9:39

People really be, I don't know how they were in Atlanta or whatever, but I was on, okay, let's talk a little bit about Atlanta.

SPEAKER_02 9:47

So we're gonna talk well anyway. Okay, great.

SPEAKER_04 9:49

So I I guess I was like in midtown Atlanta. Okay. And so I wasn't there wasn't a whole lot of riff raff, if you want, if you know what I mean. Like riff raff. Like for the niggas with the dreads, like where the fuck was they niggas with locks, excuse me, locks. Um because I have locks, by the way. I do have locks. Um, just by the way, because we're we're not in a video right now. We're in the fucking we're in the beginning stage of a podcast. Yeah. So we're not in video, we're not in video mode right now. You can't see my bad bitch ass right now. Right. Right. But I do have locks. I love locks.

SPEAKER_01 10:18

Um you look beautiful. Oh my god, thank you.

SPEAKER_04 10:22

Oh my god.

SPEAKER_01 10:22

When I first saw him with the hair color, I was like, okay, but then it was like give an aquamarine. I was like, all right, I kind of love the hair.

SPEAKER_04 10:28

Yeah. Eventually we'll take pictures and then we'll we'll post it to our social media. Oh, we haven't taken pictures yet for the I need those.

SPEAKER_01 10:35

I need us to do like a thing. Yeah. Right. Keep going though, right?

SPEAKER_04 10:38

Um, but yeah, I have locks. And so I like to say, the niggas with the dreads, I was looking for them, bitch. I couldn't find them. And I was gonna go, like I said, if y'all listening from Atlanta, yes, I was trying to go to Bulldogs, but a bitch was tired. I'm sorry. I kept on taking a nap, trying to wake up. I woke up on Saturday, I woke up at like 2:30, so and they closed at 3, and I was like, Well, can't go now. And then I thought they were gonna close at 3 again, so I prepared, got ready on Sunday, then closed at fucking 12 a.m. I was like, what the fuck? Damn. And then I was like, damn, I don't want to go on a Monday, and I was only there for like I was only there for four days. Like really just three nights, but four days.

SPEAKER_01 11:17

Yeah, you went there like Friday, right?

SPEAKER_04 11:18

No, Saturday. Oh, you started you started Saturday? Yeah, we drove on Saturday, yeah. And I came back on Tuesday.

SPEAKER_01 11:23

That makes sense.

SPEAKER_04 11:24

Yeah. So um it was a nice trip. I loved it. I loved going there. I would definitely go again. I would definitely go to Bulldogs to try it out. I know there's other gay clubs, I know Bulldogs isn't like the only one, but like I heard a lot of things about Bulldogs. Um, and so I like to try it. Okay. Um that's like I said, I love going to Prides. Um, I love like being more of my identity and learning more about my identity every day, and just like learning more about myself and who I am in relationship with other people. Um, I learn more when you talk with other people, like you just get to experience a different side of you as you communicate with other people, and I just love that.

SPEAKER_01 12:09

Yeah. Um that's that's absolutely the reason why we kind of started the podcast for real. Because it's very it's like getting to hear a lot of different types of people's understanding of like the community and themselves, it's like it's beautiful. It's it's the type of thing that I wish I kinda well, let me wait for when it's my turn. Okay. I'm gonna wait until yeah, because you still gotta talk about yourself.

SPEAKER_04 12:37

Um, yeah, I mean that's a little bit about myself. Um, like I said, I guess we'll throughout the show we'll talk more about it. I'm a teacher. That's my main job.

SPEAKER_01 12:45

Oh, yeah, that's important.

SPEAKER_04 12:46

I'm a teacher. Um fuck them kids came to my mind, but I love them. I love them dearly. I truly do, but like I'm on spring break right now, and so I love, but I love them dearly. But I'm taking a break, and I am just living my life right now. Living my life like it's golden, living my life like it's golden. You're ready for a bunch of that, by the way.

SPEAKER_01 13:05

He's gonna be singing all the time. I would not tell you gay people do that shit all the time. I don't know. I just love songs, I love music. I'm a music bitch. Hold on, say a sentence. And Trevor's gonna have a song for it every time. He did it on the walk here.

SPEAKER_02 13:17

We walked out. He was doing that shit. I'm like, okay.

SPEAKER_04 13:21

Oh my god. Um but yeah, like I said, I'm a teacher, I'm a rapper, I'm a writer, I'm a lover, I'm a fighter. Oh my god. Keep it going. Um so yeah, that's a little bit about me. Like I said, I grew up in Texas. Um yeah, that's a little bit about me. Okay, real, real, real. Who are you, JJ?

SPEAKER_01 13:42

Oh my gosh, who's JJ? Yeah. Uh I'm JJ, also known as Jonathan. Uh so big thing for me, video games. Obviously, I am what you would probably call a gamer with the G A Y. Don't say that shit around me. Don't say that shit anywhere around. I do.

SPEAKER_04 14:05

So if you find our Instagram and our Twitter, bitch, put gamer in the chat.

SPEAKER_02 14:10

You will be blocked.

SPEAKER_01 14:11

You will be blocked. You will be blocked. Uh good to know. Okay, great. Uh, but yeah, no, I'm I'm a person who plays games. I love all sorts of games. I play that's like a big part of my identity, honestly. It's kind of scary. I like to say that, but like I've realized like if I'm not playing a game, I'm drawing something for a game, or I'm talking to somebody about a game. Like it's like, it's everywhere. And games are honestly beautiful media. So I'm like, hey, you know, that's helped me find myself in my way. I usually try to do a lot with different types of people just because like games really bring out different sides of people. Oh my god, I love a good multiplayer game. Um, but right, so other than that, damn, I got I got more to me.

SPEAKER_02 14:56

I promise. All right, it ain't coming out. It ain't coming out.

SPEAKER_01 15:00

All right, so I'm an artist, I'm a cartoonist, actually, illustrator. Um, I'm the person who's probably gonna do most of the um editing for the art stuff for our channel banner and whatnot. So, you know, give me a give me a shout-out if you guys like it or not. I don't know. But um, big thing for me art.

unknown 15:17

Oh, God.

SPEAKER_01 15:18

I love a good art museum, like a museum date? Okay. I could be on one of those. Oh man. Um I love spending time with good people, open-minded people. I try to be a really open-minded person myself. I'll tell you that much. I might not always, because I've been, you know, thinking of it's ADHD shit. Have you everywhere? Speaking of which, every person on the every person on this podcast is about to have ADHD. So everyone's gonna be talking over each other. So get ready for that. But for real though, like um, ADHD, that's a thing. Apparently, autism, I don't fucking know. Um bit of a fast talker, a bit of a slow talker sometimes. I try to keep low energy because when I get like excited, you know, then I just I'd be doing too much. You can ask everybody. I'd be doing too fucking much. Uh I try to main thing. Um Damn. Give me some good questions. I can't think of nothing right now.

SPEAKER_04 16:19

So talk about who you are at Little Ben as a black gay or queer. I say queer. Yeah. Queer man.

SPEAKER_01 16:27

How queer you didn't say queer.

SPEAKER_04 16:31

Let's talk a little bit about that, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 16:32

Okay, real, of course. Um, so being black and gay, you you hear it a lot. I don't know if you heard it a lot, but you hear a lot about how that's like a double negative like type shit where it's like you're already discriminated against for being black, but on top of that, you're also like one of the most hated sexualities, I want to say. Could be it's that's a debatable topic. It's debatable, but uh what more so mean like queer to any degree at all. People do not like that shit. So it's like, okay, yeah, we already down on that end. I would be honest, I have only ever really I haven't really faced a lot of discrimination. I think I'm like one of the few people who could say they grew up without being like called an in word with a hard R without it being like a friend thing. Like I'm I very much have only had like positive scenarios with that. So I'm very comfortable with saying words like that or that sort of thing and just being chill people um in like racial shit, I guess. Um when it comes to being gay, boy. Oh my gosh. I I'm gonna be real, I'm gonna be real. Um my gay identity, I almost want to say for a very long time I didn't care too much for it. It was like some of those things where I just like, okay, it's a part of me. I know it's a part of me. Don't nobody else gotta really know about this type of shit. Uh yada yada yada. And then like as the years went by, that's when it started to be like, okay, I kind of like gotta think about this for real. Like I didn't realize in all the ways that I was kind of putting myself down by ignoring parts of myself, and that was definitely one of the ways. And so in the last few years or so, I've tried to embrace like both both my both my blackness and my queerness. I I forgot to mention that. So like when I grew up, a lot of the times I had like a bad connotation with like let me say being black, because it's like I've had difficulties with like how my family acted towards me and how they treated me because I wasn't black enough, quotations and that sort of thing. Like I was that kid who came off and who would talk white, and so you know, being being a nerd, being a gamer, that type of shit. People be like, oh, you like that white kid over there. I'm like, bro, I'm just I'm just like you. I'm just just built different. Um what else? And then and then with my family, I think that's where it's at for me, where I've had I've faced more like problems with my queerness and blackness with my family more than just like outside sources. Like that still exists, but most of the time it's like I've I was afraid for a very long time to uh express myself as a queer person to my family. I still remember the times when my sisters would say some crazy ass shit. Like they would say shit like, oh, if you come out as gay, um we're gonna beat the fuck out of you. I'm like, yeah. Yeah, yeah. It was like, okay, and then they came back and was like, oh, that was a joke. I'm like, why the fuck would you tell me that at a young age? Why would you tell me that? Knowing that I was gay, they like when I tell you everybody apparently fucking knew. I was like, okay, cool. Like I can, can I I don't want to get too deep into it, but okay. One experience where I was like, damn, that that's real. When I um one time I had a boyfriend, White, uh, he was an online boyfriend, and I wanted to go see him. And for his for his for prom, it was like his senior prom or whatever, his friends organized a way for me to get over there and go surprise him for a prom. And like the last hurdle was my dad. And I had to like, I hadn't really come out, come out yet. Uh, so I was like, damn, I gotta kind of come up with a lie. The person that he's talked to before is my friend, and she's a girl, so maybe I can just be like, oh yeah, I'm gonna go surprise her for prom because you know, girl. And um talking to him, he was like, no, I don't want you to go over there. They white, they could be doing anything to you. You never met them or whatever. That sort of shit. It's it's you know how it goes when it comes to like online appearance and stuff like that. Like they don't think, yeah, yeah. Which is very valid. I'm glad people protect their kids and stuff like that. Right. Um in this case, though, I very much knew them, and I was like, okay, yeah, they don't gonna kill me, they don't do all that. Um, and then he was like, you need to be. I wasn't convincing him enough to where he was like, you better cancel the trip, that sort of thing. And I was like, okay, I need to be honest as fuck right now. I need to be actually real. And so I was like, most dramatic ass voice. I was like, dad, I'm gay. What the hell? Not this is fucking Digcom.

SPEAKER_04 21:33

Fucking Digon, Digichannel Mission movie.

SPEAKER_01 21:35

What the fuck? Oh my god, I can't remember exactly how it happened, but that was like part of it. He was like, boy, man, we already knew that. That's how I be. That's how I be. Literally. And I'd be like so pissed off about that shit. Like, come on now.

SPEAKER_02 21:50

Obviously, I don't want to be, I don't, I thought, I didn't know. If you knew, you knew we could have said some shit. Fuck. Like, what the fuck? Make it me have a whole dramatic ass fucking moment for no fucking reason.

SPEAKER_01 22:00

But yeah, that was a moment where it was like, okay. Having a white boyfriend as well as being gay. That was like something I was like, double winning. Yeah, double wedding. Don't worry, guys. I like all people, not just white people. Gotta put it out there.

SPEAKER_02 22:19

There's niggas say you like a white person. Right. People say you're like a you like a white person, and then all of a sudden, oh, I don't like white niggas. Oh, uh, right. Like, oh, he loves crackers. Can I say what? Can I guess it? Can I say crackers? Is that like a thing? Crackers. Can I say crackers?

SPEAKER_04 22:36

It sounds like a slur. I mean, it's like a slur. But I'm just like, do they literally have slurs? Do they have like actual slurs? I guess they do, because I've I've heard male monkey before. Male monkey.

SPEAKER_01 22:50

Mayo.

SPEAKER_04 22:51

Mayo monkey. Mayo, yeah. What the fuck? Yeah, I've heard that before. That's creative. Yeah, that's that's what something cricket, I think? Maybe. What the fuck is a cricket? I don't know. No, something with a cricket, I think. Okay. Cricket, cricket players.

SPEAKER_01 23:06

Play fucking cricket, fuck you.

SPEAKER_04 23:07

But I think that's interesting. And you kind of went into your your coming out story. And uh That? Kinda, yes, kinda not. That was that was my dad, which I guess I didn't think. Yeah. Um, so I guess um my coming out story is still happening, I feel like. Really? Yeah, I think it's a s it's more of a so burn. Like I think that that's uh what it is. Like I'm still like trying to become more secure in my identity. And it, yes, I've been to Atlanta. Atlanta, fucking homo central. Um I've been to DC Pride, I have a good group of friends around me now, but I think I'm still coming into my own identity. And I I don't think it's ever gonna be like a fully actualized. I I feel like it's gonna take time for me to feel like, okay, I'm here, you know, I'm here and I'm queer. Yeah, like it's gonna take I'm quack.

SPEAKER_01 24:06

It's a part of your identity, and like any part of you is always gonna be growing. So quite literally, yeah.

SPEAKER_04 24:11

So I think that's it's still gonna take time. But um I guess, girl, when I knew I was gay, it was probably in elementary school because I thought boys were cute. Like there was this cute ass, there was this cute ass boy. He was Hispanic, sexy ass. Oh fuck, I love a good Hispanic. Sorry, y'all. He was he was cute. I thought he was cute. Um, he was I I think I was in elementary school at the time. Um he he wasn't my first crest. My first crest was on a girl, but she was a tomboy.

SPEAKER_02 24:46

Oh my god, what a fucking surprise. Why?

SPEAKER_04 24:50

She was a tomboy, and so I thought, yeah, but I think that that was the first time I thought I was gay when I started having crushes on boys. I was like, oh, okay, you're cute too.

SPEAKER_01 24:59

So did you know was it meant to be gay at that time in elementary school? Like, no, you know what's so crazy.

SPEAKER_04 25:06

You know what's so crazy. What's that? I thought this, this is gonna sound weird. I thought everybody had what I had, if you know what I mean. That's literally how childhood works. You think everybody is literally- I thought everyone had my parts. So I thought, oh, okay, shit. When I get with this tomboy, we're gonna be doing so-and-so with so-and-so. With our parts.

SPEAKER_02 25:28

Can we, can we, can we, I wanna know. Actually, I'm a descriptor.

SPEAKER_04 25:32

What the fuck is so-and-so? What would you think was gonna happen when you're gonna be aware of the brother? I don't know. Like, I guess modern day, you know what frauding is? Yes, I know what fraud is. That's what I thought was gonna be happening. So, oh my god. Oh my god. That was before I think that was before I knew anything about anything before porn or anything like that. Like, that's what I thought it was. I thought I thought that we would just be frauding all the time.

SPEAKER_01 25:52

And here I'm gonna I'm gonna be real. I'm gonna be real. I thought I I remember I used to think the exact same way. Uh-huh. I don't even remember when I learned about a vagina. I mean, like, I I know for a fact I knew about something before my mom. Never mind. Yes.

SPEAKER_04 26:08

So that was my first. Oops, sorry, y'all. Listen to the couple.

SPEAKER_01 26:11

The girl, you're talking about the girl?

SPEAKER_04 26:12

Yeah, the first the tomboy. And I thought I'd I thought we all had the same parts. So, um, but another thing was the fucking damn underwear, like in the stores, when they had those fine ass men. Shit, they were they were diverse too. The yeah, yeah, and shit like that, white tea niggas and shit. Um, it was nice. Um, and so it was it was it was interesting because I thought I I didn't think anything of it. I just kind of thought like, oh, okay, I have crushes on boys, I like these boys. Um, that's just what it is.

SPEAKER_01 26:54

Yeah.

SPEAKER_04 26:55

Um now this might be another conversation. We're definitely gonna have a conversation about this, but like, don't get me started on religion. Oh, yeah. The holy wars. Don't don't don't we're gonna have a podcast episode about that. Yeah, holy wars. I the whole yeah, the holy wars.

SPEAKER_02 27:11

Make sure we trademark that one.

SPEAKER_04 27:13

Right. Because yeah, I think it's that I think that's another reason why I'm still trying to sell into my identity because they gotta fucking hold on me, okay? And we don't need to get into it, but I know God loves me. That's that's the one thing I know for certain. Like God loves me, period. Period. Loves everybody. Period.

SPEAKER_01 27:30

Period. Okay, I snap into the snap into the mic.

SPEAKER_04 27:33

Um and so I think that that is what I'm still trying to grapple with as a quack individual, a black and queer individual. Make it a word. Um, right, right, right. So it's it's exciting though, yeah. This journey on becoming who you are. It's exciting. Um I think it's interesting. When I came out to my parents, I came out because I felt like I had to, because it was like I was like in high school, like, right, like my dad, like I said, he was getting a job up here in North Carolina because we were in Texas. He was getting a job in North Carolina, and we were eventually gonna be away from each other for like a little while until I moved, until we all moved up there, right? That sounds pretty big. And so when he was about to move, I was like, you know what? This this might be the time. And I think I told I forgot who I told first. Yeah, I can't remember if I told my mom first or my dad first. But I'm gonna be honest, I knew I feel like at the time I thought I was gonna have a harder time coming out to my dad. Everybody, but I think I had a harder time coming out to my mom because my dad was really like accepting. He was more accepting than my mom was at the beginning. Like, they were definitely like, we still love you, and all that jazz. But I think my dad was just more accepting than my mom than I I guess would have liked, I guess. But how so, if I may ask? Like, she still said I love you, but I'm just like, she was still trying to get comfortable with the idea of me being gay. But also it took her time, it took her more time to it took her more time, which I think it's okay to expect from people. I think it's okay for you to be like, you know what, I need some time to kind of figure this out, especially like you're my baby and all that jazz. Like, I need some time to figure that out. But I just it was just interesting. I think that with coming out to both them kind of relatively at the same, not at the same same as that time, but it just was I was able to kind of compare. And I think it's just interesting what our relationship nowadays where it's gone and where it's where it's grown to. Like they're a lot more comfortable with me. And like I don't think they're more comfortable with me being gay than bitch, I am sometimes. Like I've met your parents at least one time. They look very nice. They say they do. They they're I love them. Um I I need to lean more into them because I think I'm getting just the just the FYI. We took, we're gonna we're gonna do this when we get back to our house. Okay. An attachment style test.

SPEAKER_01 30:08

Oh. Have you heard about that? Yes, I have. Okay. Okay. Okay, so he okay our special guest. He sent that last night, and I saw that, and I was like, I was gonna take the test. I never found the. By the way, we don't have a special guest today. It's just us.

SPEAKER_04 30:20

It's not today. You ain't getting up.

SPEAKER_01 30:23

Right, so don't better expect somebody else to come on the podcast.

SPEAKER_04 30:25

It's gonna be just us today. Yes.

SPEAKER_01 30:28

But yeah, he sent that last night, and I was like, oh, I kind of wanted to take the test. I never found the time.

SPEAKER_04 30:33

If you don't know what it is, I just took it yesterday, so I I'm not an expert on it. But it's basically a style test, like those tests that ask you to agree, disagree, slightly agree, right? Yeah. And you answer these different questions about your attachment style, how you connect to in relations, how you connect in relationships. How do you attach in relationships? Um, I'm not gonna talk about mine because I'm gonna save it for another day on the podcast. Yeah, but it was an interesting test because it asked you a lot of questions about your parents and how your relationship is with your parents. That's interesting, actually. And I I'm gonna be honest, I'm still because and we can get into it today, we're gonna actually get into it today. Yeah, yeah, okay. But like, I'm still trying to become comfortable with my identity. We heard that on the mic. I tried to turn away, I tried to turn away, and I know a birth is coming. Do you have effort? I tried, I did. Sorry, y'all. So like I'm still trying to trust my parents with my identity. And like, and then those are the two people that you I feel like those are the two people that you first have a relationship with, period. So it def it not necessarily defines your whole relationship style, but it defines a big part of it and how you will move about the world in your relationships. And I'm still having a hard time trying to trust other people with my identity. Like that's why I try and like keep it kind of hidden a little bit sometimes. Like, I'm just now like I said, thank you. I appreciate the friendship that we have now. Like, yeah, we're learning now, I feel like we're learning a lot from each other and like learning how to be more ourselves in not only just with each other, but with all people.

SPEAKER_01 32:21

Yeah.

SPEAKER_04 32:21

And that's what I'm excited about. As like I said, we're gonna bring them on the podcast.

SPEAKER_01 32:25

So um don't get too excited yet.

SPEAKER_04 32:28

Yeah, but no, you should you should get excited because we're they're gonna be on the podcast. We're gonna be able to talk about that. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 32:33

Yeah, for real. Um, for you guys listening, I know y'all are gonna be listening to this. Uh love you guys, love you babies. Bye. I can't wait to hear you later. Right, right.

SPEAKER_04 32:43

Anyways.

SPEAKER_01 32:44

Right, but you were talking about your parents. Yeah, the parents, right. Thank you.

SPEAKER_04 32:47

The attachment style. So I think I'm still trying to trust them with my identity. So I think I got with them, I got like with my dad, I got a little bit more secure. If you know the attachment style, you know what I'm talking about. So I got a little bit more secure with him, but they were still on the line of like dismissing, I think. Do you know what that means? I haven't taken this test yet. Okay, so yeah, you should take this test. When we get back to the crib, the crib. The crib. Um I'm your baby. Okay. Okay. All right.

SPEAKER_01 33:18

Did you guys not know me and Trevor?

SPEAKER_04 33:19

I'm single as fuck. I am single as fuck. I'm gonna make that clear right now. Oh my god. I am single as fuck, bitch. I'm out here, I'm outside, okay?

SPEAKER_01 33:28

Yeah, outside. You know he had a good time in Atlanta. Right. Atlanta, okay.

SPEAKER_04 33:35

Um, yeah. But so they asked you asked you questions about your parents, and so I was more secure with my dad, a little bit more dismissing with my mom. And so I think it was just interesting. Um so yeah, that's just I don't know how we got on the topic.

SPEAKER_01 33:50

You were talking about um your parents and how they how you kind of felt about them um with you coming out and whatnot. You think your mom was harder. You talked about your dad just now about the attachment style, and he was still dismissive, but what about your mom?

SPEAKER_04 34:02

He was more secure, he was secure, but my mom was more on this. They were on the line, like they were both on the line, but like my mom my dad was more secure. Well, I was with my with my dad, I was more secure, and then my mom, I was more dismissing. Got you. I think it's just interesting.

SPEAKER_01 34:17

That sounds, I mean, it sounds accurate to what you described before, so there's that well I can't wait for this quiz.

SPEAKER_04 34:23

Yeah, it's exciting. It's it's just it's just one of those quiz, like the 16 personalities quiz. Yes, it's just like one of the if you heard of that, the Myers, I think it's Myers Briggs, I think is what it's called. I have. Yeah, so it's like that, y'all. That's what it asks those questions.

SPEAKER_01 34:35

Uh it's like the rice purity test, guys. Don't worry, it's like the rice purity test. What is that? I think. Oh my god! What is that?

SPEAKER_02 34:40

What is that? Okay, okay, okay.

SPEAKER_01 34:42

Um it's like a hundred question quiz, a hundred question quiz. It's basically your sex knowledge and like how freaky you are. If you're a high number, then that means you're very pure. If you're a low number, that means you're sick as fuck.

unknown 34:56

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 34:56

We should take that as well. I know for a fact I'm I I took it last. When was my art show? I had an art show, guys. Don't worry, I don't I do art. Um last year, last year I took the test, and I think I got like a 65, 70 something. I'm a little bit of a freak, but I'm still very fucking vanilla, okay? Say, I'm gonna be a freak until the day, until the day. But you were talking about coming out and stuff like that. It hit so many ideas in my head about like all the interesting things that have happened to me. So um you grew up with your parents, right? Yeah, like you were straight up, okay, cool. Yes. I was not. My I was separated um from my mom or my dad, and then there was like a so I was with my mom, and then I went with my dad like years later. Uh so it was like in foster care for a good minute. And in foster care, um, something's happened. So let me let me just talk about this. Uh it's uh my kid, it's kind of my coming out story, actually. Okay, so um being in foster care, I had a couple of uh let's not call them brothers. What do you call them? Foster, foster kid. What do you call it when you're like two kids in the same foster place or whatever? I girl, I don't know. God, okay. Well, look, all right, so I had some experiences with uh some guys. My first place, it was with a black lady, she was wonderful, I forgot her name, but she is she was a great foster mom. And she had a little kid and a tall kid, he was Mexican or whatever. He wasn't tall, he was like about the same size as me. Yeah, he was cool. Uh he was very straight passing, I'll say. Um, all that jazz. Had an experience with him one time where I was on the floor, I was very young, I was like probably like fucking let's say 11. Uh I was on the floor playing, playing like with toys or something. He came out the shower. I knew he was attracted. I saw I knew he was attracted to me in my head. He came out the shower, and um for some reason that day, he decided this is the time where I'm gonna I'm gonna take my towel off and wangle my wedding in front of you.

SPEAKER_02 37:03

Hey oh I know that's crazy.

SPEAKER_01 37:08

I know that's crazy. Um, it gets worse. So in that instance, uh he did that, and I was like, oh, well, that was attractive in my mind. And then it came, and we kind of like had our little experience there. And he it ended with him dry humping or something. Oh shit. And that was it was like a whole thing. I was like, and he made okay, it was very, it was very like giving DL trade the fucking shit he did after this, where he was like, okay, just so you know, I like girls.

SPEAKER_02 37:39

I'm like, you telling me for the fuck out of my fucking page. What am I what I what did I do with information? Oh, we don't like girls.

SPEAKER_01 37:47

We never did anything like that ever again after that. But it was just like a very interesting situation because I was very much attracted to him. We we made comics and stuff together, so I was like, I didn't think he would like me at all. I was a very ugly kid. Um I'm I'm joking, I was actually really cute. But you know, when you get in those teen years, ugh, okay, that's when you start getting a little washed. Um shopped. And then after that, I was with another um lady. Uh they're my most they were my most recent um things before I moved with my dad, my most recent foster parents. Um they there was this guy, he was what's the word for openly gay? It's flatboy, though. I don't think that's just like a like descriptor for people who are like a little or out. Whatever I would say out. He wasn't, but here's the thing. I had never heard him ever talk about how how you know he wasn't really like gay gay. I don't know. No, he was very gay. Like he could tell when a person's gay, gay, you know.

SPEAKER_05 38:47

Right.

SPEAKER_01 38:47

Okay, so um me and him definitely had experiences because uh I remember one day we were just sitting on the couch, and then bro took out his phone and showed me a picture of his like gigantic penis. Damn. And I'm like, God damn, okay, uh, cool. And he by the way, he was annoyed by me. He he didn't he thought I was annoying as fuck. But when we did shit, he crazy stuff happened. He was very um, he was like, he literally said one time, he was like, um, hey, uh, so you're a lot more attractive when I can't see your face. And I'm like, oh, cool. Damn. Not for the fucking not a butterface. Not a butterface. I wasn't I wasn't unattractive, but I could tell, you know, it was just me and him. We were just we would have nights where we were in each other's, we were in beds, in separate beds, and we would talk to each other, and it'd be nighttime, and then like something kind of crazy and sexual would happen, and like, ooh. And that was my first instance. Um, sorry to everyone who has to hear this. It's my first instance of ever understanding what the consistency of cum tastes like in your mouth. Like it is.

SPEAKER_04 39:45

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 39:46

I'm sorry. This show took a turn. It was an important part of the whole process because I was like, you didn't you don't know about that throat shit until you know about that throat shit. Okay. I'm like, oh my god, I I can't ever do this again. Swallow someone else's Yeah. Sorry. But uh that whole thing happened, and uh it was certainly an experience that taught me a lot of stuff about like what I'm kind of into and a lot of a few other instances with actually coming out though. Uh I didn't really come out come out until I got to college. Like I guess there were like speculations or something, yada yada yada. Yeah, literally, literally type of shit. Everyone's like, oh my god. Um but it wasn't until college where I was like really comfortable. I was like, okay, I probably should admit this to somebody. I had my online friends and they were the first people I told, and I was like making a joke out of it first because I was like, ha ha. I'm not actually gay guys if they were if they didn't like it. Uh but they did, they were very accepting of it. And it was like my first instance of just like positive energy from that, and it felt pretty good. So I was like, okay, cool, I probably should keep this train moving. And so I told a couple of different other people, um, like close friends or whatnot. Family was like last in my in that in that his whole situation. And one of my special friends, this is what why'd I say that? One of my friends, he was a straight guy. His his let's call him uh Coco Beans.

SPEAKER_05 41:09

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 41:10

So cocoa beans. Um straight guy, we've we hung out for a long time. I know you knew him since like high school, whatever. And um, I had at this time I come out as gay, and oh man. I when I first when I told him, it was like a surprise look on his face. Very surprised look. And his mom, his mom was there, his mom really loved me. And his mom was like, okay, make sure you don't do anything gay with my son. I'm like, you know, the average shit. And I'm like, okay. Wasn't really interested, but alright. Now you say it like that. But I knew I was like, okay, yeah, no, that's not gonna happen. I still had a boyfriend at the time, so I was like, I'm not interested in anything, anybody. Uh and then like I got a call at like 3 a.m. one night. I don't know how I got up from that call, but I was up and I was like, okay, hey, who is it? It was Coco. It was Coco, and I was like, Oh, hey, Coco, what's up? He was like, hey, uh, I wanted to take you somewhere real quick. And I was like, Okay, yeah, sure. He got parked his car, I got in it, and we drove off. He drove. And um, okay, so this is this part here where he's like in the car he's driving, he's explaining to me where he's like, Yeah, you know, um, how how is it being gay and all this shit? And I'm like, Yeah, it's it's it's cool, you know, it's great. And he tells me, like, you know, um, I've always been interested in sucking dick. And I'm like, Oh. Oh, okay. That's cool. And he was like, hey, I want to suck yours. Oh shit, bitch. And I was like, oh, cool. I can't do that. I'm in his car, so I feel like I'm held hostage right now. Oh, we're just driving places. I'm like, I'm familiar. I could probably get home if I jump out the car right now. Oh my god. But he's like, Yeah, yeah, one time I saw it while we were at the pool. I saw it we were at the pool, and I'm like, oh yeah, that's that's amazing. Um, nothing happened that night. The day before I went to go visit my online boyfriend, the white guy, he came over again and tried the shit again. And I was like, yo.

SPEAKER_04 43:20

He's trying to get into it. Okay.

SPEAKER_01 43:22

No, I can't do this. I'm sorry. I'm not a, I'm not, yeah, it was it was scary. It was scary for the for the time for to being honest. It was like, I can't, I I mean, I was more so like I was more so like appreciative of the attention because of like, yay, someone thinks I'm attractive. But also like, I don't want that. That sort of thing. Um, but yeah. Uh any other instances, really? Uh I didn't have a very interesting one, but that'll get that'll get that gets into crushes. So I'll wait until we get into that first.

SPEAKER_04 43:55

Um, so it was interesting, kind of what you were saying. You kind of go into your like first experiences with guys. Yeah. Right. So my first experience with a guy, I didn't do shit until high school. Like until I got a car. Okay. And I was able to go out on my own. Like, because I think it was one of the reasons why I wasn't like hanging out with boys, like going over their houses and hanging out. I never had a boyfriend in in high school. I've never I've had a couple of boyfriends now, but like I wouldn't even count them. It wasn't even like serious, serious.

SPEAKER_01 44:32

That is the midlife experience.

SPEAKER_04 44:34

Right. So we lived out in the country, country. We lived out in the outskirts of the town. So it wasn't like going over to people's houses in Texas, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 44:41

Okay.

SPEAKER_04 44:42

So we weren't going over people's houses. I didn't have a boyfriend. I wasn't like exploring my body with other people. I was exploring my body by myself, but not with other people. So even my best friend, my my closest friend, or one of my closest friends that are still in that's still in Texas. Like we actually have the same birthday twins. Oh my god. Um, like literally twins. Um we we never did anything. Even though he's also gay.

SPEAKER_01 45:06

Oh. I don't know why when you said best friend, I could have sworn I thought it was a girl.

SPEAKER_04 45:09

I was like, no, no. This is guy guy.

SPEAKER_01 45:12

Interesting. You both have a girl.

SPEAKER_04 45:14

Yeah, he's also gay. So we we we never did anything. Um that's like rare. Rare as fuck, right there. Especially in the gay community.

SPEAKER_01 45:22

Chinese Pokemon, y'all.

SPEAKER_04 45:23

That's another fucking um topic. But I I didn't really have a lot of experience. I didn't have any experience until I got out of high school, out of like the house. I was able to go out of the house. So I remember my parents don't know my parents don't know this, and they to this day they still don't know this. Listen to the podcast. So I lied and said I was gonna go to a movie with my friends, like multiple friends. So it wasn't like just me going out by myself, right? So I leave, I'm actually going out to a grinder hookup. I don't know how I got into grinder, I don't know how I knew about grinder. I don't know how I knew about grinding in high school, yeah. Really? I don't know how I knew about grinder, I don't know how I got into my zeitgeist, so whatever. Um, but I found this dude on grinder. He was cute. He was, I think I was 16. Girl, you were in high school. Yeah, I was 16.

SPEAKER_02 46:22

You shouldn't have been on that.

SPEAKER_04 46:23

I think he was 18. Uh-huh. I think at the time. And so I I knew I wanted to top because I was like, bitch, douching. What the fuck is that? You knew.

SPEAKER_02 46:33

Did you know about douching?

SPEAKER_01 46:34

And you were just like, I'm not doing it.

SPEAKER_04 46:36

I knew about it, but I knew that because I've seen porn. Like, I was like, I don't think I don't think I would like that feeling right now. Oh, you don't like the okay. I don't think I would like the feeling of not even the feeling of douching, because I don't think I knew about douching, just the feeling of bottoming. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I don't think I would have knew, I don't think I would have liked that at the at the time. So nowadays, yeah. Um open everything. Right. Um and so I was like, let me just link up with this guy, let me top him. I at the time I didn't know the the terminology, but I was like, let me top him, right? So we we we meet up at the mall, at the mall in the um at his at the in the city I lived in. And my thing is like he had a fucking escalade. He had a big ass car. 18-year-old? Yes. Yeah, he was driving, I guess maybe he was driving his parents' car. I was about to say, like, oof, that's a like he had an escalade, he had a big uh it might have been escalade, it might have been a big, it was a big ass red SUV. Big ass. It had a lot more space.

SPEAKER_01 47:35

Okay, gotcha.

SPEAKER_04 47:35

Oh, he was like, CarPlay? Right. Because I'm like, we couldn't host because we're fucking fucking high school. So he was like, oh, what does it mean in your car? My thing is like, bitch, I had this small ass four focus. Why would we not do it in your car? I guess he didn't want to do it, he didn't want to do it in um his own parents' car, if anything. I'm about to fuck with this mic. Be careful over there. Okay, yeah. Good. Um, so we we ended up doing it in my car. So we went up going into like the woods area, right? This little wooded area off the side of the road. And then we just did it. We he he had a big ass. He had a fat ass, and he had a big ass dick. Oh, I love that combo. Right. So he I ended up sugging his dick.

unknown 48:22

Yay!

SPEAKER_04 48:23

He ended up sucking my dick. Oh, wow. That sounds hard. And then um we just got into it in the car. Like he just it was weird because the condom that he pulled out, it looked like a balloon. I don't know if you know about these condoms, it looked like a balloon. Like it was like really plasticky and thick, and it wasn't like the condoms, like those thin like condoms. You know what I'm talking about?

SPEAKER_01 48:44

Kinda, sorta.

SPEAKER_04 48:45

So when you say balloon, so that was the first, it like literally like it looked like a balloon, like it looked like a rubber at first. It looked like a trick. Like the rubber, it looked like a rubber con. I guess they're all rubbers. But like it looked like a balloon type condom. I guess I don't know about that. Interesting. So it when they pulled that out, I was like, what the fuck? I've never seen that before the porn I've got. That wasn't important. All the research I've done. Um think about fucking J. Cole and no Roman, not Renault Romans, fucking Wet Dreams. Right.

SPEAKER_01 49:14

The one song I actually know, y'all. Hey, I got that one.

SPEAKER_04 49:17

Yeah. That was disappointing.

SPEAKER_02 49:20

You say that was disappointing. That's the only song you know about J. Cole? Okay, let me be real.

SPEAKER_01 49:25

When I said that, I was referring to the only song that Trevor has ever sung where I knew that off the top of my head. Usually you be singing your sit your shit after citizens, and I'm like, what the fuck isn't Jingle referencing? Okay. Okay, but this time I got it. Yeah, anyways. Can I say Nick on this song? He said what?

SPEAKER_04 49:40

Can I say Nick on the chat? We said it multiple times. It's too late. Damn. Unless we need to bleep it out. Don't bleep it out. I want people to know my authentic self. Period. Period, Queen. Period, Queen. Your story. Um, so we ended up doing it, whatever. He rolled me in the car in the backseat. Oh, right. And then we ended up going out. And so, like, it was it was a very thin strip of woods. So I couldn't, I should have just backed out, but I tried to turn around. But on the side, like do like a three-point turn or whatever, U-turn or whatever. So I tried to do that. There was like a big ass tire in on the side. And of course, I hit the tire as I was trying to do a U-turn or whatever. And the little I don't know if you I don't know cars like that, because bitch, I'm gay. But like there's like a covering on top of the wheel. Yeah. That's like that that protects the body of the car, I guess. It's like wheel, and I guess it protects some shit going up inside the car.

SPEAKER_01 50:42

Like the suspension or something? No, I don't know.

SPEAKER_04 50:44

Bitch, I don't fucking know. Okay, because I don't know either. Bitch, I don't fucking know. But there's like a cover, right? So with that cover, it got loose when I rode on the, I drove on the car. I was like, what the fuck? You fucked up your car while you were doing some fucking. The first time I had sex, I fucked up my car.

SPEAKER_02 51:01

Why you were fucking! Yes.

SPEAKER_04 51:03

So it was, I was like, damn. And I only had that car for like because I was 16. It was probably I got it. I don't remember. I got it for my birthday. I love them. That was my birthday.

SPEAKER_01 51:15

Oh, your parents are so nice.

SPEAKER_04 51:17

Right. And so I think I probably lost my virginity when I was, like I said, I was born in March, April. Bitch, I was quick, quick with it, okay?

SPEAKER_05 51:27

He was like, oh man.

SPEAKER_04 51:29

So same month he started the podcast. Yeah, L. Um and so the little piece was loose. And the back of my bumper was also loose as well. So when we drove off, I came back to my parents' house and I had to fucking explain them what the fuck happened. What lie did you say? What lie did I say? Bitch, it doesn't make sense now. I would have asked more questions if I was my parents. I was like, so how did that happen again? Say it again. I said it happened as I was backing out the driveway. Because I was like, oh, I'm a new driver, bitch. I'm still learning how to drive. I don't know how to fucking drive yet. I said I backed out the driveway and I fell off the driveway for a little bit. What the fuck does fell off mean? Like the I went off like the driveway had like a little like a little slope on the driveway. You're referring to the driveway that your parents' place. At my parents' house, yeah. And you so like, okay. So I'm saying as I backed out, I accidentally, oopsies, and I ran off the side to the grass, like the grass area. That's what I said. And I said that's and it like leaned and it like rubbed up on the bumper. And that's why I'm thinking about how it um came off.

SPEAKER_01 52:49

I'm surprised you made the lie where it was at the house.

SPEAKER_04 52:52

I would have made a lie like anywhere I was like, oh, it happened at the movie theater. Oopsie, I ran to a child or something. No, I didn't know. I couldn't think about what to say. So I said it happened. They were like, Well, why'd you not come back? Why'd you leave with the fucking breath?

SPEAKER_02 53:06

Yeah, and I was like, I don't know.

SPEAKER_04 53:08

Literally. So um it was, they believed at the time I could like I remember my dad fixing the bumper in the back because all you had to do was like push the bumper back up and it was working perfectly fine.

SPEAKER_01 53:19

So dig it, like you figured you were able to fix it.

SPEAKER_04 53:22

The bumper part, but that piece, that covering that was on top, it was kind of hard to not fix. And I remember when I was driving down the high, not the highway, but like there's this old road behind my house, and I was driving kind of fast, the whole covering just flew out the car. I was like, what in the hell is going on? It just flew out the car, it just flew off the car. It just caught the wind because it was already loose, and so it just caught the wind of the car, and it's flew out my car, and I was like, Well, I'm gonna do this.

SPEAKER_02 53:57

You didn't want to grab it.

SPEAKER_04 53:58

I did grab it, I threw it in the trash. I guess I should have kept it, but I don't I don't have the I don't have the car anymore.

SPEAKER_01 54:03

So I you know what? I don't even know what part it was for real. If you could have kept it, could have saved it.

SPEAKER_04 54:07

I don't even know for real. Um but yeah, that was my first experience. It was nice. That's the guy, the guy, the the car shit was not nice. But he had a nice, but he had a like I said, he had a big ass dick. Especially for the first time, I was like, whoa, this is a big ass penis. This is bigger than I've seen in my research. Right, exactly. So I was like, damn, this is kind of crazy.

SPEAKER_01 54:29

But you didn't take it. You were just you kind of got to talk at it. You got you got to be like, oh damn, when he pull his pants down, like, oh damn. Yeah, okay, real. Love that, love that. So interesting, interesting. So I will say, um boy. So first time, my first time having sex, my virtually being lost. Wonderful shit. People don't usually have a good time, actually. Right. People usually, it's like a usual stereotype. People don't have a good time during their first time. See, you shit like don't know happen usually. More is like, oh damn, my first party didn't know what the fuck he was doing. So it was like terrible or some shit. But I had a great ass experience. Okay. So um my first experience was also on Grinder. Okay. It was actually in Winston Salem. So old were you? Huh? How old were you? Oh my god, how old was I? I was very much illegal, don't worry. Um Damn! No, no, no, give me five seconds. It had to have been Oh my god. Was it before or after? I think it was after. Really? Let me think. Okay, so ooh, I am I was like, not four-year-old virgin. What the fuck? Did I graduate before I'm a virgin? I definitely, I feel like, damn, I can't remember for real, for real. Okay, let me think right quick. Started my job back when I was like 21. Okay, great. So let's say, oh shit, yeah, 2022, like maybe early. Damn, after the fucking pandemic. Shit, you wasn't fucking until the pandemic. Trevor, you gotta understand, man. When you when you me, fuck it if you fucking fuck it in your fucking for real. But let me tell you, this our teacher taught me everything I need to know about why sex feels so fucking good.

SPEAKER_04 56:13

Sex is so amazing.

SPEAKER_01 56:16

I got that one too, y'all. Don't worry. Um, but yeah, so first experience with Lone Grinder. This is a really fun story, actually. All right, so day one, let's say this is like Friday or some shit. It was a weekend situation, Friday or some shit. Um, I'm on grindr just searching around. I just got off of work. I was doing my first shift ever, I think, in Winston. So I was getting no, I was still getting to know the city or whatever. And um, I was just on grinder and I I texted a guy. Oh my god, I was at work, texted a guy, and it was and I was like, oh, hey, you know, you're you're cute or something. And then at the same time when I was texting some other guy, some guys texted me. And I'm like, uh I was like, okay, some guys some guys texting me, and I'm like, oh, hey, you're interested. Hey, cool, cool, cool. And I'm like, yeah. We got into a conversation. He was like, Oh, uh, where do you live? And I was like, hey, I live over here. And it was like, oh, of course, I don't live he I don't live in the same city as the guy, so it's like I would be inconvenient. But I'm like, I could, I told him I could drive back up, you know, meet you or whatever. And so I agreed to do that. Um so after work, I I go and go visit this guy at a hotel. Oh, shit, man. And so he's he's at he's at this hotel. It's like really fancy. It's like downtown. And I'm like, oh God, okay, love it.

SPEAKER_04 57:31

Um was he whyin?

SPEAKER_01 57:38

Make your bets now, y'all, before I say something. Three. That's all I need to know. Oh my gosh. Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. I told you. Anyways, anyways. Yes, he was fucking white. He never gonna be the allegations.

SPEAKER_02 57:54

God damn.

SPEAKER_01 57:55

First boyfriend was white. Right. First fuck was white. Right. Can't go nowhere. Right. Anyways, hey, this is all I'm saying is the best dick I've ever taken was black, alright?

SPEAKER_04 58:05

Okay, that was crazy. That was too much. That was too much. That was crazy.

SPEAKER_01 58:11

Oh my gosh. Can't say nothing on this chat. Why don't you go black? Anyways, but yeah. Okay, so I go to meet this guy, uh, I meet him, and we just talk for a good minute. And this is my first, this is kind of like my not my first time on grinder, but like this is I have been in and out of grinder for a good minute at this point. So I was like, yeah, I don't really get a lot, I don't really meet a lot of people and fuck a lot of people, so you know, I'm just gonna probably talk to you or whatever. Um we talked for a little bit, and then he was like, All right, so I'm out of time. You want to get down to the fucking? And I'm just like, oh. Is that what he said? He didn't say it like that. Um I just he was he was more so like, hey, we've been talking. He was like, hey, we've been talking for a minute, but I really wanna I don't really want to get in your pants or whatever sort of thing. Yeah. You know, trying to get get your pants off. And I was like, ah, you know, looking at you now. Looking at you now. I'm like, hey, I'm not I'm not gonna lie, maybe I'm not into it. I'm not, I'm not like I I forgot what exactly what it was, but I was just like, either I wasn't into him like I thought I would be, or I just wasn't like horny enough at the time, and I was like, yeah, I know I'm good. Um oh my god, I skipped the whole part, but we're gonna get we're gonna get back to it. So that day I leave, and oh my god, I forgot about this wonderful part. We got a special guest who helped me out. Okay, so I left from him and I got in my car, and I was like feeling frustrated and stuff like that. I was mad at myself. I was like, oh dang, I could have got some good sex that day. And so I call up my friend, Trey. Okay. You remember you remember this? You don't remember this? I don't remember this. Oh my god. I do not remember this. Okay, so I'm in Winston in my car. I call up Trey, I'm telling him, like, hey, so like I I feel like I want to do sex, but I don't feel like confident. He was like saying, like, oh yeah, you don't you not feel clean, like what's the issue? And I was like, yeah, that could that sort of thing. I really know how to like clean myself or whatever. And so he he he tells me about like where to go. He goes, he told me to go to Walmart. He told me exact aisle to go to to get the stuff. You don't remember anything. No, bitch.

SPEAKER_02 1:00:19

I was you were like, I mean, fuck.

SPEAKER_01 1:00:24

Blipped the fuck out that shit. Anyways, but yes, Trey is the reason why I had, yeah. Anyways, so I go to Walmart, I get the stuff, and then next day, other guy who is texting me, he texts me back, and I'm like, you know what? I really do find you attractive. I'm gonna actually do it with you. So wanna do it. I I get off of work the next day, I hit him up, I'm like, hey, let's meet. And then we meet. Um, and now prior to this, the thing that I learned, the thing that a funny, the funny thing that I learned that I forgot to mention earlier. The P the person I first texted that I wasn't too interested in, and the person that I'm interested in and wanted to have sex with, they are a couple. Damn.

SPEAKER_04 1:01:12

That's the gaze for your eyes.

SPEAKER_02 1:01:14

That's the gaze for y'all. So I was like, yo, wait a minute. You both interested in me? Holy shit.

SPEAKER_04 1:01:19

Damn. Not too at a threesome. Not too out of the thread. Let's wait. Okay, okay.

SPEAKER_01 1:01:26

So I meet this guy, same, same hotel, everything, same thing. He tells me it's a convention. He's like there for like religion shit. He's there for because he's like doing a thing. I'm like, okay, cool. And his boyfriend is there because he supported him, you know, helping him out. And I get all the backstory of how they know each other, all that jazz, yada, yada, yada. And uh I being the young cringe ass nigga that I am, I brought my switch over for them to play. Oh and they okay, gamer, gamer! What was it? I'm trying to remember. Why did we leave? Oh, we needed an HDMI chord because I didn't bring mine. And so that was a good trip for me and the old dude. Um this is the guy, this is the guy I liked. His name, we're gonna give him a name, uh, Arnold. I don't know. Okay, Arnold. What's a sexy name? What's a sexy name? Arnold Arnold. Yeah, tell me about fucking Arnold. He was a big guy. Oh, he was a big guy. He was an art teacher. I'm gonna call him art. I'm gonna call him art just for just for sure. Okay, that's true. Yeah, art's a cute name, yeah. Yeah. So art, art. I first walk in, um, art is already all over me to the point where before I even know it, my pants are off. Damn. And I'm like, yo, um, oh my god. And I was not stopping this man. And then other dude, his boyfriend, was telling me, like, yeah, okay, the games are whatever, you have to go get the HDMI court. That gives you guys time to spend time with each other, that sort of thing. And so I was like, okay, you can do that. And so I spent time with art in the car. He tells me about his whole life and all that stuff and his favorite colors, his combinations, and I'm an art guy. So, like, getting to talk to him, I actually was like very interested in the things he was talking about. And um, as I was driving the car, he was of course feeling up all over me and stuff like that. Again, haven't had sex yet, so this is all like very, very new to me. Um, but uh so we get to the HDMI, we go to Walmart, get the HDMI court, head back, and they play some games. They were actually really cute to each with each other. They were polyamorous, just so you guys know, that probably is a really important part. But they were um they very much mess with other people while they were messing with each other, of course. Um so it was like them together though, they were like actually like a couple couple. They were playing a game. I let them play a two-player game with each other, and they were like so cute. It was so wonderful. Now, here comes the funny, the fuck part. All right, so after a while playing games, uh Art is like, okay, let's head to the room. He he's he picks me up, takes me to the room, and we head to the sh no, we don't go in the shower, actually. No, what we do, we get on the bed, we get on the hotel bed. And I'm already there, and I'm like, clothes off, his stung's on, and um I tell you, I don't even know the process of how things happen. All I know was that like I just kept feeling euphoria after euphoria, like, oh my god. I he was doing he was made, he was getting me ready, making it setting me up, and he was like asking me like how I felt. Like he was like really in tune with like how the experience was for me, and I was like telling him it felt good, and then that's when he started actually like digging in recipes, yes, king. Oh my god. Oh yes, please. But um, that's when he actually started doing stuff, and I was like, yo, and all it was my first time, so it was like all I could feel was euphoria, and I just was like, it was this new type of high for me. My ass. It was it felt so good. He was a big dude, so it was like he had that good type of size where he he was like, oh, you could I could I could feel how strong he was. And I was younger, so I was like, you know, not as strong. Uh but after a while, he didn't even he didn't even come, but he enjoyed every part of it. Damn, nigga didn't even come. And then and then he was like, he go, he went to go, he went to was like, oh yeah, I gotta go ask my boyfriend if you wanted to join in. I was like, yeah. Hey oh. But he was already like, yo, you already did the thing. You didn't save much for me. And I was like, I was like, I was on the bed. He he the boyfriend was funny because he was like, You didn't even use a condom, did you? And he was like, No, I did it. Damn. And I was like, Yeah, I was like a good oh my god, but it felt so good. I was he could tell I was enjoying myself and I I was enjoying him and all that was like, yeah. So he knew who he was doing. We got in the shower, he was very courteous, he made sure I was under the water, warm and stuff like that all the time. That good type of feel shit. Like, my God, I was getting the luxury. I compared to like sex experiences afterwards. Dear Lord, it was luxury. Um, I get in a towel and they have their own bed they sleep in. I sleep in the bed by myself and we and I stay with them for the night. And um the next morning, that's when he comes into my bed. He has a meeting that morning, so he has to get going. And so I'm like, okay, I gotta make sure I get up early in the morning. Um he comes into my bed after he's like kind of gotten freshed up, freshened up or whatnot, and we kind of like we kinda like cuddle a little bit.

SPEAKER_05 1:06:30

Oh sorry.

SPEAKER_01 1:06:30

And then, oh my God. How did this happen? I think I was okay. So I guess this is I don't think this is my first time, but it was my first time doing a little oral. Okay. And um. Yeah, a little suck suck, a little suck, a little sucky suck. And um, when I cut when I tell you, this next part's fucking crazy as shit. Uh so he I do the little oral, I do a little oral, I was like, you know what? Uh I knew for a fact if if I liked a person, I would swallow for them. So I was uh I he he did his thing, he was like, ugh, in the enjoyed himself and he did he did his thing in my mouth, and I was about to swallow. He was like, oh, don't do it, don't do that. And then he got me up and he made he wanted me to spit the shit in his mouth, and then he swallowed. And I was like, yo, that's crazy as shit.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:24

Damn, that's a freak. He was like, way freakier than me. Freak. Okay, freaky.

SPEAKER_01 1:07:29

Yes, yeah, that was crazy as shit. I was like, yo, that felt great. That was wonderful. That was that was a that was a whole different type of experience right there. Um he got to, he went to work, and that was the end of my day. That was my first experience right there. Oh shit, bitch.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:43

That's some freaky ass shit.

SPEAKER_01 1:07:45

Yeah, it was good.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:46

Snowballing. First time after yay.

SPEAKER_01 1:07:50

I was like, yo, damn. I mean, so I had some good times after that with jelly.

SPEAKER_04 1:07:54

What the fuck?

SPEAKER_01 1:07:56

For a first time?

SPEAKER_04 1:07:57

Yay. Yes. My first time, it was it was still good, but like it was definitely not as good. Like, it wasn't as good as much.

SPEAKER_01 1:08:03

Again, when I just luxury, like he literally treated me like I was like, I was like king or queen. I was like, oh. It was good. It was great. And that's probably why I am I am so confident in myself sexually nowadays. So yeah, but um, yeah, yeah, that was my first time. Yeah, that's that's interesting. Cryinder is such such an interesting place, man. Um I used to be real scared of that place. I remember when I first downloaded the app, leave that shit immediately. I was like there for five seconds. People texted me, like, ah! I deleted that shit right after. And then I came back. You know how it goes. The gay experience. The gay experience. Time. Trademark. Train mark out. Um so we talked about our coming out, we talked about our we skipped to the sex actually. We were supposed to see that for last. Right.

SPEAKER_04 1:08:51

But um I think one more thing I want to do before we go. Yeah. I want to play a TikTok. I know you hate TikTok. But I want to play a big thing. Whoa, we could have talked about that. Oh God. It's the I think this will be the last thing we talk about. Okay, okay. Shit, it's probably been hours. Oh shit. Oh, you are joking. I'm dead ass. Oh, we didn't even talk about crushes. That's okay. We'll say that for another time. I don't really want to talk about my crush.

SPEAKER_01 1:09:17

Um, or do you want to talk about it now? Either do a TikTok or crush. Is that the option we have right here? Yeah. Okay. Um vote on your devices now, guys. Pull out your clickers. Pull out your clickers. What do you want to do, Trevor? Fuck! It's okay. God damn it. It's okay. What do you want to do Trey? What do you want to do Trey? I think. Because how important is your crush story to you? Because it's important to me.

SPEAKER_04 1:09:43

It's not that important to me because she was a tomboy, and it's a very quick story. Like, it was a she was a tomboy, and we never ended up dating. I was like in the shadows, like looking at her in the shadows. Like fucking hunchback in Notre Dame. But it wasn't, it wasn't nothing to talk about, to be honest. It was my first cr. I really want to talk about the fact that I thought we all had the same parts. Oh, that's the thing. Were you not done with that for a while? No, that was it. Oh, okay. Yeah. Oh, you wanted to get that out. That's what you're saying.

SPEAKER_01 1:10:08

Okay.

SPEAKER_04 1:10:08

Because mine's the whole legacy. I want to hear about your crush. You really do? Yeah, we're going to talk about that, and then we'll save the TikTok for another day.

SPEAKER_01 1:10:13

So what about the TikTok?

SPEAKER_04 1:10:16

We'll save it for another day. It's fine.

SPEAKER_01 1:10:17

Okay.

SPEAKER_04 1:10:18

We'll start off next. We'll start off with Trey.

SPEAKER_01 1:10:20

Doesn't remember this. Okay, but so my first crush, I had I told you about like how college was my coming out time or whatever. First day of college, um, I got I had a class or whatnot. So I got Trey doesn't know this, but the guy, we went to the we all went to the same school, all three of us. Um let's call him KK for today. Um KK was cool.

SPEAKER_02 1:10:44

You were you just I didn't hear you right now who it was.

SPEAKER_04 1:10:48

Yeah, because you said the name earlier and I was like, uh oh. And then I said, that was not a white guy, not gonna lie, not gonna hold you. Oh yeah. That was not white guy, but then now you're saying this man.

SPEAKER_02 1:10:58

Okay. Okay. You get it though, right? Yeah, I get it now.

SPEAKER_01 1:11:01

Okay, real. Because we talked about somebody else earlier on the walk here.

SPEAKER_04 1:11:04

He was packing. What do you mean he's packing? What do you mean? You can pack it. I don't know, but I know for somebody else that he was packing.

unknown 1:11:10

Oh.

SPEAKER_04 1:11:10

I think he was thinking bitches down, okay?

SPEAKER_02 1:11:13

No, no, no. I heard that.

SPEAKER_01 1:11:14

Let's get back to the question. KK. So, KK. We had a computer class together, and I thought he was just attractive. And usually when I talk when I think someone's attractive, I just start talking to him. Uh except for Treyer. I'm joking! I'm joking. I could talk about our our our little intro later, our little instructions. We even talk about how we met. That's that's actually crazy. That'll be another show. Yeah, we can say that for now show. We can say that. Okay. But, anyways, so I met KK at a computer class. We we kind of hung out. He's it's one of those things where I was like, okay, every day I was just gonna say hi to him or something like that. And it slowly became an actual friendship. And we hung out, and he showed me his girlfriend at the time or whatever, and his other friend, and we hung out, and it was really cool and stuff like that. Of course, I was heart crushing. One of the other friends, she was white. Um put that out there. Um, I told her about it because she she knew him. And I was like, I told her, I was like, yeah, so you know, I'm I'm a I'm a little gay. And um, I like this dude. That's why I kind of be talking to him for real for all. But and she was like, you know, he's probably straight, but I'm rooting for you, that sort of thing. And he would tell me the tea, and he told me about the person and his whole his whole deal about his relationships or whatever, yada yada yada. And I would just conf I would confide in her a lot about like my crush. And um, when I tell you, this crush was real. Like, I don't think I've ever thought about someone as much as I thought about him, like on a day-to-day basis. I remember it was to a point where I would have a song in my head that I was listening that I would listen to, and it would be it would be just about him. And it was like, yo, I had lyrics and everything. And he was crossing architecture. Yeah, and oh, this is so embarrassing to admit. But um, there was like a thing, there's this thing called Discord, and what's this thing called Discord?

SPEAKER_04 1:13:09

I know what that is.

SPEAKER_01 1:13:11

And I had my profile picture set to him, and it was so damn fucking weird. I'm a phil. I was crushing hard, and I would see, oh my god. And my and my friends would be like, Who's this guy? I was like, it's the guy I'm crushing over hard. This was after I told him I was gay and everything. So it was like, yo, he was a real hard crush. He, you know, he was hot. He I I thought he was really, he is really attractive. He's cute. Trake can it's okay. It's it's it's at this point, bitch. Everybody knows. Right. Bitch, my my my my dick size.

unknown 1:13:44

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 1:13:45

So those are the type of conversations you keep in your butt. And he was like, he had abs, the whole body, the whole thing. I remember one time we were in class and he was like looking through his photos on his phone. I definitely saw a shirtless picture of him and was like, God damn. Um yeah, no, uh, I got to know him over the years. I think it was like maybe like, I think it was what year? Pandemic was 2020. Can we say that on the podcast? Pandemic. People will actually be like censoring the fuck out of the shit, by the way, just so you know. People actually censor the words. Yes. Pandemic? Like pandemic, pandemic, pandemic, pandemic. Referring to COVID, they'd be like, oh, we can't, we can't say that word. Is it triggering? Is that what it is? It's not triggering. It's more like um if you well, I think they did, I think they did a lot of censoring back then because if you said it back then, they would like actually cancel your shit. Like they would not people, more like the services, like YouTube. If people said shit like COVID, they would be like misinformation, they could block your video. Okay, so then just say pandemic, yeah. Yeah, yeah. So pandemic is a word. But yeah, um, anyways, um, but pandemic was 2020. So the year before, 2019, we had a um special event, like it was like a little prom thing at our uh college, and that was the night I had brought my friends, we all spent time together, and he was there. He brought his his uh spring fling of the week uh that time. Damn.

SPEAKER_04 1:15:12

I'm not gonna say, I'm not gonna say what I was gonna say. But he he got around. Oh man, he got around. I heard that I don't know, but I heard he got around.

SPEAKER_01 1:15:22

Oh, this is oh my god, but yeah, he did. Now, here's here's a fun part. I had a friend at the time. Just putting it out there real quick before I get into the the whole night thing. I had a friend at the time, and he was head over heels for her. Like she was my best friend at the time. He was head over heels for her. So I would bring her along with me, and we would play games together, and he always trying to hit on her, and she had none of it. She didn't think he was attractive to any degree at all. And that was hilarious as fuck to mention. I remember one time um I used to stay over on campus, like be with my friends or something like that, just spend the night because I was like, Oh, I'm too tired to walk home. And she was with me, and we were about to um, we were about to do a thing. We were like, oh dang, I guess we gotta spend the night or whatever. And and KK made sure he was like, hey, so you uh uh JJ can go with y'all and and and my friend, what would her name be? Uh Kira. Let's say call her Kira. No.

SPEAKER_02 1:16:19

What's wrong with Kira?

SPEAKER_01 1:16:20

We're gonna bleed that shit out because it's too fucking close. You you you you know who I you know who I'm talking about? Yeah, call her something else. Well, now you admit that she was it was close. I was like, that's kind of a part. That's kind of a problem.

SPEAKER_02 1:16:33

I'm gonna call her water. Water bottle. Call her water. Water called water. A watercolor water bottle, fuck you.

SPEAKER_01 1:16:39

Um, but water. Um he was like, hey, and water bottle gets come with me and sleep in my bed with me, and sleep in my bed with me in the my dorm. And her reaction. She was literally like, no, you she's usually quiet. So her saying, like, no, what the fuck did you buy that? Damn. It was so funny. My God. He he was so hard on for her. It was kind of wild. He would say so many things. I remember one time he ripped his shirt off in front of us. It was hot, but it was like a little unnecessary.

SPEAKER_04 1:17:15

That's what's the nigga. Straight niggas be straight niggas be so gay.

SPEAKER_01 1:17:18

They are straight niggas be so gay. Literally, one time we got in the conversation, and he said, Um, I'm just just so you know, if we ever, if we ever did anything, you, you, JJ, I will be the top. And I'm like, I oh what the fuck? Where did that come from?

SPEAKER_02 1:17:32

I didn't prompt this.

SPEAKER_01 1:17:33

Right.

unknown 1:17:34

Right.

SPEAKER_01 1:17:34

I mean, I wasn't minding either, but like But, anyways, the night happened. Spent time with them, um, where we got the little prom get together thing. It was really cute. We were everyone was dressed up, and I decided that that night was gonna be the night where I actually like kind of came out to him because he didn't, he didn't, he had hints from people saying things, but he was like, no, Jonathan, but JJ, never. Um but yeah, uh we we hung out for a little bit and I had said something sly. I was like, yeah, I kind of like guys. That wasn't sly at all, actually. I said that that was not I don't remember what the fuck I said, verbatim verbatim bitch, I don't know. But I said that to him and he was he had to like he had a he had a double take. He was like, wait, what'd you say? And I just admitted to him that night over text after I left. It's like yeah, I actually like guys, and he's like, oh dang, that's crazy. Now, years later, I got context that he actually um apparently knew prior, and he was just like denying it too in my face, and I was like, that's weird. But you know, it was still he was still a good guy, still cute as fuck. A little more than cute, actually. I think he was like actually on the on the on the precipice of hot. He's on the spectrum. Probably fucking Lee. Every straight person is a little scary to me. Okay, but yeah, that's my that's my whole thing. That was over the span of like a couple of years, so hey, like great stuff. So yeah, that's a little bit about us. Um sorry for Trevor talking too much. That was Shut the hell up.

SPEAKER_04 1:19:08

Shut the hell up. But yeah, I mean, what do you got going on? Like, this is probably the end, and we're probably gonna start plugging our shit. So, like what you got going on, like Instagram, social media, like what what are you on?

SPEAKER_01 1:19:22

What am I on? Okay, so currently on a my little yeah, currently on my little hiatus. But if you want to check uh check me out, um I got Instagram, I have my art Instagram, uh Johnny, damn, what the what is my art Instagram? You know my art Instagram. Johnny Draws! Oh my gosh! Yeah, I gotta spell it. Yes. J-O-N-N-Y. That's how I spell my Johnny and Draws, which is J R A W S. I was really really cute that day. Someone tried to steal that shit one time. I was like, uh uh. Um that's my art account and my um my uh personal account. Uh just the Johnny. That's me on Instagram. Make sure you check me out. Um check out my uh Kofi if you want to, Johnny Jabbers. Uh oh. Figure that out. Figure that out. Kofi is actually, you can't even search people up on there, so actually I can't even be really used to it. Kofi or coffee? It's spelled K-O-F-I. How would you pronounce it?

SPEAKER_04 1:20:15

The whole thing, the whole shtick is that you buy a person a coffee that don't even know.

SPEAKER_02 1:20:21

Well, well, tell me. I've heard both. I've heard both enough times.

SPEAKER_04 1:20:24

Okay, well, I'm gonna go with coffee. Okay, you're gonna go coffee. I'm gonna go kofu. K-O-F-I.

SPEAKER_01 1:20:30

Yeah, K-O-K-O-F-I slash Johnny Jabbers. Check me out, support me. I have a lot of I upload a lot of stuff right now on there until I get back on socials. Um, and I think that's about it. I'm planning on making a YouTube channel um for myself uh later, but we aren't there yet. So I'm gonna share that later. But Johnny Jabbers is the word is the name to look out for. So your turn, Trey. Where are you at? Where who's got your Instagram?

SPEAKER_04 1:20:55

Okay. So my like I said, I'm trademarking on all platforms. Instagram, yeah, trademarking T-R-E-Y-D-M-A-R-K-I-T. All right, on Instagram, X, formerly known as Twitter. Fuck that. We're not calling it X on here, by the way. We've never seen that shit again. That was the only time. Right. Um, Instagram, TikTok, um, I don't be on Twitter a whole bunch, but yeah, like Twitter. Um I have I released my deluxe EP.

SPEAKER_01 1:21:26

Oh yeah. Don't forget to check that out. Right. Check it out. The year of the trade, hoe. Yes.

SPEAKER_04 1:21:30

Okay, the year of the trade. It's on all streaming platforms. I released it in February. In February, this this past February. So that's if you like rap, you like gay shit, if you like black, gay, queer shit, bitch. I am for your ass. So look that shit up. The year of the trade. Is seismic on that album? Yes, it is, right? Make sure you listen to Seismic. Oh my god. Our friends, like that's our that's our STEM. That's our album. They actually have. Like I'm Side Nico. And if you listen to the song, you're gonna fucking know exactly what the freak I'm talking about. It's crazy as fuck. But it is um that's on the album. I have six songs on the album that um two that I produced myself, um, and I wrote all the lyrics to them. So um to all six songs. So yeah, I'm excited. Like, um, the first, I like I think it's another episode, but like I just I'm really into music and I love being able to be a creative in that space. Yes. Um, it's exciting. So music is beautiful, yeah. But yeah, T-R-U-Y-D-M-A-R-K-I-T on all streaming platforms and um Instagram, Twitter, all that. So run it up, stream it up.

SPEAKER_01 1:22:36

All right, and that's the podcast, y'all. Thank you for stopping by. Thank you for listening for this long. Yes. If you made it this far, make sure you comment Pussy Pie in chat. Make sure you comment hashtag PushyPie in chat.

SPEAKER_04 1:22:48

Not pushy. Um but yeah, we're gonna have a um a coffee. Oh, for the podcast. We're gonna have a coffee for the podcast. It's called Quack. Like I said, the podcast is called Quack AF. That's all what we're gonna be on on all streaming platforms. Yes, uh, all podcast platforms, I guess, and all social media. That's gonna come up come coming to you live from Buzz Sprouts as of right now today. Yeah. Um, and so just yeah, look us up. If you want to donate to the show, we would love for that to appreciate your donation. You've liked what you hear. Um, you want to hear more of us, support our show by going to our coffee quack A F Q U A C K A F dash fucking coffee. I don't know. We'll put the we'll put the link in the description notes. Will we have a link tree or something else? Oh, yeah, we I mean we might have a link tree, maybe that's we might do that. I don't know. Okay, I just had to organize that. Yeah, this type of shit we need to talk off off mic. Anyways, like I said, we are building this plane as a fucking we're flying this plane at a fucking building. The fact that it exists, right?

SPEAKER_01 1:23:45

Miracle, perfect. Yeah, do you learn the miracle? Okay.

SPEAKER_04 1:23:52

Yes. All right. All right, bye guys.

SPEAKER_03 1:23:57

You're listening to QX A Radio. Yeah.