Jesus Showed Up and Showed Out! Our Testimonies

In this episode, Nakisia and Timmie share their transformative faith journey, powerful encounters with the Holy Spirit, and the spiritual lessons learned along the way. Their story offers hope, reflection, and encouragement for anyone seeking a deeper connection with God.

Main Topics:

· Personal testimonies of salvation and Holy Spirit experiences

· The significance of repentance and surrender to God

· Spiritual warfare, deliverance, and divine protection

· The ongoing process of spiritual growth and faith perseverance

In this episode:

· Nakisia and Timmie recount their life before salvation, including depression and toxic relationships, and how their desire for God persisted.

· Their experiences of accepting Christ, realizing the void in their heart, and receiving the Holy Spirit.

· The powerful moment when they felt the overwhelming love of God and the spiritual high from being filled with the Holy Spirit.

· Encounters with demonic spirits and divine protection during prayer and fasting.

· How the Holy Spirit continuously guides, comforts, and transforms their daily life.

· Their reflections on divine timing in salvation and how God's love keeps calling us back home.

· Practical insights on discerning spiritual influences and the importance of spiritual warfare.

· A heartfelt invitation to listeners to share their salvation stories and seek God's love and healing.

Transcript

My name is Timmy McCullum, and I'm Nakisia Myers. We welcome you to In the Beginning Podcast, where we focus on calling you back to your first love, Jesus Christ. And the Lord changed the plans for today. We were going to talk about Smyrna, but He put it on my heart to tell you all about me and Timmy's faith journey, about when we first got saved, what led us to Christ, and how long we've been walking with him.
When I was 19 years old. I was a teenager in college.
That was a time when mama got sick and she went to the hospital. She had one of her best friends to watch over us, Lisa. We spent some nights with her. I was in a state of my life where I was in high school, but I wasn't happy with my life. I was depressed, sad. I felt unfulfilled in my life. I just felt unfulfilled, not happy. Um, I did date and I had a friend at that time. Um and uh we would break up and get back together. Every weekend we would break up. And you had one of them toxic relationships. Yes, yeah, yeah, you can call it that. And we would get back together every Monday to work at quick ses at the time. I was inexperienced. He was a player, and I I called myself being in love. I was serious. But however, because of my upbringing, I've always had uh a desire for God in my heart. I did. Even though I was young, I still love my music. I still uh I like a teenager, I still had a desire for God in me. I just didn't know how to reach him. I remember my brothers, they were, you know, partying everything. And I remember getting on my knees, praying for them, asking God, I wasn't saved, asking God to save them. Save them. To save them. Take care of my brothers because their lifestyle. I felt in my spirit, I heard, what about you? And at that time, you know, I listened, but still I was a teenager, I went on. Back to when my mother got sick, we ended up staying with one of her friends.
Her name is Lisa. She says, You want to be saved? And I said, What do I have to lose? So she said, You can't guess, you gotta want it.
And I thought about my life that was unfulfilled, not happy. Like there was a born in me was not filled, and nothing could feel it at that time. I was like in a prison or a jail in a box, and I didn't know how to get out. And I said, What do I have to lose? And again, she said, you have to want him. And so I started praying and I started asking God to come into my life. As I began to just start talking to God, I realized, God, I do want to be saved. So I confessed my sins. I asked God to come into my life. Um, and I just thanked him. I it it was a decision I made up in my in my heart. I wanted to be saved. Before I got to that point, like I said, I felt void. Remember when I got in an accident? And um mama stopped. I should have been dead, but I won't. I was. If you saw the car, it was just and I didn't pay that no. The black store car that was, yeah, crushed.
It was crushed. Mm-hmm.
And I didn't I wasn't saved. I didn't pay that no attention. I did like any other person, just went on.
I remember it because I remember mama, how she reacted. Mama mama went into the spirit.
Yeah.
Every time she talked about it, she all she did was just thank God her baby wasn't.
That's right. And when you're not saved, it's like you in darkness. You don't realize it, but you don't pay attention to things. You don't see things spiritually. I was like any other teenager just went on with my life. Didn't pay that no attention. Until it was brought back to my attention. Because I had forgotten about it. When I was praying, Lisa, she was praying, talking in tongues. She was doing a lot of fasting at that time. And then she reminded me where God had delivered me from.
I realized it for the first time.
And I saw that car, I just started thanking God at that point. I said I could have been dead. I just started thanking God and I asked him to come into my life. I asked him to be the end of my life. I repented of my sins. I asked him to save me. And I really meant it for my heart. I've always had a desire for God. I've always asked God, Lord, would you save me? I want to be saved. And every time I asked him, it didn't happen right then. I like to dance. I like to, you know, what teenagers did. We like to go out with our friends. But in my heart, I wanted to be saved. I was concerned about my soul, you know? And um it's just that we just a typical teenager just didn't pay attention to things until I was actually fed up with my life. And that's when I came to the point, God, what do I have to lose? Come into my heart. And I asked him for his Holy Spirit. I meant it from my heart. I had a desire come up on me. I didn't care whether I ate, I didn't care. It was just like, I want you, I want you now. I didn't eat for three days because I wanted God so badly in my heart. And I remember coming back from church, Mama had got out of the hospital, we had come back home, and everybody was in the bed, and I got up and I started praying because it was emphasized to me the importance of receiving the Holy Spirit. And I started asking God, Lord, would you give me your Holy Spirit? And I felt something around me just come around me. And I got scared. And I ran and I jumped in the bed, pulled a cover over my head, and I didn't think about that no more. Until we went to church one Wednesday night, and one of the ladies in the church said, Go up and let the pastor pray over you. And Reverend Gaines had laid hands on me. And when he laid hands on me to receive the Holy Spirit, that's when I felt that presence come around me again. And I said, within myself, Oh, that's you, Lord. I said, That's you. There were two ladies that just come and just push me away from Rebbe Gaines. In the name of Jesus, put their hands on my head and just shaking me back and forth in Jesus' name. In the name of Jesus, and it disappeared just like that. And then they sat me down on the first bench. And I sat down and I said, Lord, what just happened? It just the spirit just whacked cold like that. So I ended up spinning up Lisa again. And uh we got to the house and she started singing spiritual songs, but she just started praising God. And I said, Thank you, Jesus, just praising God, thank you, Lord. She said, Imagine you in a hole, like in this dark hole, and there's this little life, and the only way you can get free is through that life. Call on Jesus. And my flesh immediately went to, oh, don't put me in no dark hole. Oh Lord, that just, you know. And then she said, just wanting. And when she said, when she said that, my heart just relaxed and I just wanted God. I began to want him. And I felt this overwhelming presence, a love coming to my heart. I mean, it was so strong. The love was so strong, I couldn't stay on my feet. I couldn't do nothing, but just start praising him and thanking him and giving him glory. And Keisha, I was up and down, up and down, up and down, up and down because I could not believe the love that I felt that was inside my heart. And I realized the first time in my life that everything I thought was right was wrong. And all the times that I could have died, I would have gone to hell. And how God loved me and protected me during the times when I didn't even think about life. I didn't think about God. I didn't think about anything. I was just being a teenager. How his grace and mercy just kept me. And I felt this overwhelming peace in my heart, like a spiritual high. It was so sweet, and the love was so sweet. There's a spiritual high that you can get. It was like, Lord, a bullet can come through that window right now, hit me in my head. I'm yours. I am yours. I wasn't afraid of nothing. And I was in school. At that time, I had an essay that was due. Had to write that essay a week to write that essay. And had to have the rough drafts. How I come, you know how you do essay, how I come to my ideas. I didn't have my rough draft. I didn't do none of that within that week. Because in that week, it was me and Jesus. Me, Jesus in church, me, Jesus in the Holy Spirit. I had one night that it hit my mind I had an essay to write. I jumped in that chair, took my paper, and wrote my essay. And my essay was on salvation, receiving the Holy Ghost. That's my essay.
That assignment was before you even got prayed over to you.
It was then that week. I jumped in that chair and I wrote that essay. I wrote that essay one night, went to school and gave it to my teacher. He won't say. Turn that essay in and he gave it back to me. He said, You wouldn't have an A if you had a rough draft. I passed it. It fed his spirit. I mean, he had questions. And I don't remember exactly what he asked, or you know how they write on the paper and everything. I just remember writing my experience. When I knew that wasn't nothing but God, because I was not thinking about the SL. I was just thinking about my life. Once I received the Holy Ghost, everything I thought was right was wrong. I ended up going back to work and meeting that boyfriend that when we broke up every week, we worked at quiz. And every week, this was our routine. He breaks up with me on Friday. We get back together on Monday. Because we were different people. As soon as I come to work, he said, Hey, how you doing? I said, Hey, how you doing? And he'll apologize and do that same routine, that same line. He said, How was your week? I said, My week was beautiful. He said, What happened? I said, I got saved and filled with the Holy Ghost. And by the way, we can be no more. And I walked through the devil doors. And God set me free because with him, I was in a bondage. I felt joy like that hole in my heart. I mentioned him, it was filled. And that's when I realized, and I know today, when you fill that void in your heart, you need the Holy Ghost. Cigarettes is not going to do it. Wine, liquor, weed, sex, whatever your habit is that you're trying to get a satisfaction, it is the Holy Ghost we need. Once we receive that Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit, and He, the Holy Spirit, coming to our heart. He fills that void. And we're no longer the same. My desires changed. I had a desire to read. I had a desire to pray. I mean, I just wanted to be with God. And I could feel his presence. Like when I read the word. Even when I read the word, there was a time when I didn't understand what the word was saying. Keisha, when I read the word, it was such a closeness with God. Like he's right there with me. And I could understand and I could feel my spirit being fed. I was being fed and full. And I just walked in love. When things come against me, like when I went to work, I had some a young lady that she didn't even know me. I don't know what happened to her on the job, but she took it out on me. She called me a bad name. And the old Timmy would have gave her something. I'd have lost my job. The old Timmy would have. But because I was saved, really filled with the Holy Spirit, I ended up, I didn't say nothing to her. I just went to the bathroom. And I started praying to God because it hurt my heart. I was a baby in cry, so it hurt my heart. I started praying and talking to God. And I just walked in and was a tag. When I got through praying, I felt peace and I walked on. Ended up being off that whole weekend. When I come back to work, that girl came to me and she was crying. She said, I apologize. She said, I could not get no rest. She said I couldn't get no rest. I couldn't get no sleep. She said, I've been looking for you the whole week. And I had so much joy in my heart. I had already forgiven her. She said, please forgive me. I said, I forgive you. Just like a kid smiling. Forgive you. And I really forgave her. Let it go. Once when I was in that bathroom prayer, I let it go then. I just let it go. And it's like the Holy Spirit walk with you. He leads you. He guides you. He talks to you. He protects you. So I have experienced him in my life since that day, every day. And everything.
That's a perfect example of vengeance is mine, says the Lord. Yeah. Yeah. That is a perfect example.
But we I had to, a lot of people, you know, they struggle in whenever they decide they want to be saved. They go back, go forward, go back, go forward. I want to be saved. Today I want to be saved. I don't want to go to hell. I want to be saved. I want to be a part of you. God is hard for me. And I was a teenager. I didn't get saved right then. I didn't get saved in that year. He just knew the right time to save me. And I I guess that day was the day when God said she ready. When I was sick and tired and fed up and just not happy. I would go out with my friends and I didn't enjoy the things they were enjoying. I sit there like, this is not my kind of life. There was just something inside my heart that I was like, I need something, and this ain't it. And when I got stayed, that's what I needed. Jesus.
You and Lisa was back there in that prayer room, and that thing jumps out and somehow starts chunking you, and Lisa's running after her. No, I remember she had that prayer room. Yeah, she did. We were asleep in the front room. I guess uh you and Lisa went back there and I was studying. But when I woke up, I heard something crying. Well, well, and it was a demon, that's what it was, coming down the hallway. I went peeping through her door because you know her the hallway in the kitchen had a door. Mm-hmm. Went peeping through the door, that thing hit me in the head, and Lisa was running behind it.
I guess whenever you get saved, you know, I've been listening um to programs about, you know, we I think it was uh Stephanie Okifer. Um I don't know what um childcast it was when she was talking about. We are vessels, and either God is in that vessel. If God is not in your vessel, the unclean spirit is there, you know, because the word God uh speaks about um when when the house is clean, when the when the house is clean and swept, yeah, and then and then the enemy will come back, he'll go out into dry places, and he'll say, I'll go back to my house. And you're seven times worse. Well, when we're not saved, we are a vessel of something. We are either a vessel for the Holy Spirit or we are a vessel for an unclean spirit. That's exactly. And the word says God does not dwell in an unclean, unclean place. So when you do get saved, he cleans out whatever's carrying you or dwelling in you. You get he casts that out. And now the Holy Spirit is dwelling in this place.
Well, Lisa got hold of that thing during her fasting thing. I remember because I didn't know what was going on, but after it was all over, and I didn't know what I was looking at, because I think I was like 11 or 12 or whatever, but uh and I didn't understand what I was looking at, so I didn't know what it was that I was looking at because it was there, but then it wasn't there. But that was also during the time where I was praying for this term, and I actually told the Lord, because I went to see angels that Nika used to run around the house at 11 years old. At 12, 11 or 12, when you you take time. Yeah, because that was during the time about getting in the hospital. Yeah. And we used to stay with Lisa. Lisa, well, she had like a, I guess in the kitchen where it would be a diner, but she had a couch there, because that's what I saw when I woke up. And that was during the time I wanted to see the look, because you remember Lisa Mikael was three years old, used to run around the house playing invisible stuff and we and Lisa was like, Well, that's she just playing with angels. And I'm like, I want to see the angels. Well, I want the sermon, I want to see angels. That's what I wanted to discern, because that's what I thought a discernment was. You know that's not what discernment was. Yeah, I know now, but but when he did answer my prayer, it was that night when I saw that thing, and I didn't know what it was. And so Lisa said that it had tried to choke you or something in that back room. And um, she said, Well, Keisha, what did you see? I said, What I saw. I said, I don't think I saw it. I don't think that's what it was, because it wasn't really there, but it was there. It was kind of like not physically, but it was something, yeah, I could see it there. And so I described it to her. It had that one big old horse hook looking thing, foot, and it was real heavy, and it was spanned out into two, like a silence twins, like two legs stuck together. And she said, that was it. That's that's that was it. And I was like, oh wow. And that thing, it because you know that was during time Lisa was she was when the Holy Spirit got behind that demon, he was I can't believe you don't remember that.
Mm-mm. I'm gonna tell you something. The Lord never let me see. Because you didn't come out the room. Mm-mm. The Lord never let me see, like some people can see when and just to clarify, we're talking about Christians that's filled with the Holy Spirit and God gives us gifts. You know, He allowed you to see some people to see things, you know. You got God gives you gifts. You allow me to see that. So He never allowed me to see, like you were able to see the the demonic spirit. He no, I've never seen a demonic spirit. Now I have oh you know, felt little hair, hair raised up off of you and stuff, and feel it. Yeah, and you can kind of feel it, but he never let me actually see one. I think God knows who can handle it and who can't. I've seen it because I've not actually like seen one, and I've seen Christians say they have seen it and how it looks. And I God has never let me see that. And I think he knows who is equipped for that and who is not. I think that, yes, I think you're right about that. She felt like they were warlocks and witches and they were catching smells, and whoever stayed in that house, you know, because that was no demon.
That was that was like in the third war. The another one was um her, mama, auntie, see, they was have a Bible study one night, and that spanned into something. Because, you know, in that house, those wall, there was there'd be impressions in the wall that you could pretty much see, that's a face. And you could see eyes and it's it's falling, and you get it's just creepy just whenever you get in that part of the house. Yeah. I remember one time her washroom was out from the kitchen and it was dark. And she had a refrigerator back there. And I was going to the refrigerator to get something. And when I went down to get something out of the refrigerator, because the only thing in there is the refrigerator light, I could feel something breathing down my neck. It was like standing, like hovering right over. And I was so scared to move, I was, I just couldn't move. I was because it was, I felt like if I moved, God was gonna hit. It was right there over my neck. And I remember saying, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, in the name of Jesus, in the name the blood of Jesus, because she tells us to stay in the blood of Jesus whenever that whenever they stepped out and started hollering and running around the house. We were supposed to say in the blood of Jesus, in the blood of Jesus, and just close our eyes and look down with what she had the kids to do. Y'all just look down, y'all just look down.
It was that house, whoever stayed. That night, I tell you.
I don't even know where this is. This is us telling y'all why our heart song is on fire for G. I'm one of those people where you see you said that, you know, when you got saved, you was pretty much there. You could, that was it. I'm committed and you've been there. I had a made-up mind. I was sick and tired. I didn't have a made-up mind. I've I've been in and out. I was one of those people back and forth. And Jesus had a love, hate. Well, he always loved me, but there was a time where I hated him. I didn't want to see him come. Mm-mm. I ain't talking to him. That's after mama died. I was kind of sour with him after mama died. Because I felt like he should have let her live. Like when she was a dial. Why? I first got saved. Mama used to make us go to church before she got saved. She made us go to church. Yeah. And stay in bed. Yeah. Yeah, she did. She made us go to church. And go to church. We had to go to church. It was Reverend Yaynes, the church in Fairbluff, is where I first got saved. I was either 11 or 12 during that time. I think it was during vacation Bible school is when I first got saved. But that was because he was preaching on hell. And I didn't want to go to hell. That's all I knew. You know, I'm not gonna, I mean, I don't want to go there. I can't even stand to be burned on the stove. That was the future I ever. So I got saved. But I didn't really know what it was. So you know that didn't last but a few hours.
I came back to God again when I was in my early 20s.
When I got saved that second time, and this is my third time, I'm locked in this time, but the second time, the first time I was like 11 or 12. And the second time I was saved when I was married, the first marriage. I had got saved, I was saved for three years, I was doing so good. And that day that, you know, he just I saw his mistress drop him off up the street. But I went back in the house and I sat down and I started praying, looking at his face like looking at Lamb Chop's play alone.
So I was, you know, he walked in the house, he already had an attitude.
He said something to me, and I and now I've I said, Well, you just mad because I don't know what she done did to make you mad. I called her name. I said, But I ain't her. And then he said something and he slapped me. When he slapped me, I tried to walk away. I did. I honestly I tried I tried to walk away because you don't get no free legs. But I tried to walk away because I'm saved. I got faith together and I walked down the road. What was the book about? I'm sorry. It was how to, it was a book on how to stay like you, on how to stay safe. What to do when you be facing temptation. Okay. So as I did in those years, as I faced those things and the scriptures that I use, you would and whatnot, I'd write it down in the scriptures that I use and how to use that scripture to overcome that problem. Okay. Is what I did. And that in and it was in the book. And so walking down the road. And he said something, uh, you be faking in church on Sundays. He said something about me being fake. And when he said that, I just stopped. By this time I was at the end of the road, we was in the road. And I said, you know what? You don't want to see you don't like saying Keisha. Oh my goodness. I said, you want to see B Keisha. And you should have seen his eyes. And when I turned What was fake? You know, we used to fight all the time. What was fake that? Was standing beside me. And so she was crying. And so I said, That's who you want to see. You want to see B, Keisha. Then I just, you know, I say, so you, you know what? You in. You in. You might be Keisha. And while I was talking to him, I was walking up on him. And um, he was like, and then he all of a sudden he had nothing to say. It was you don't want to talk no more? Because I don't want to talk either. And so when I got close enough to him, I I just hit him and we went to fight. And Faith was behind me, screaming and hollering. And he finally got the way he could get it free from me and ran. Faith, she was crying, so I picked her up and went on walking. But he goes to tell Uncle Jeff that when his lips busted and his eyes messed up, and we're gonna send Uncle Jeff to the house to talk to him. I'll say he didn't tell you what he did.
And that day that was the second time that I turned my back on God.
Next time, and it was actually during that time I hadn't really came back because you know we lost David. Yeah. We had a large family at that time. Yeah, and I remember thinking, Lord, when we was at the hospital, if you just if he just healed, you know, I'll do anything you want me to do. I'll I will serve you, I will live for you, I'll do anything. And I remember when, because you remember his doctor came in, his doctor could hardly talk to us, he was praying. Him and David and the doctor got closed. And so, and I said, Lord, if you can just please just heal me, I promise, I'll do anything you want me to do. And I remember when I was looking out that window, I heard faith without works is dead. But it wasn't a mean way of saying it was sweet. It was like, Yeah, I can't. This is and this is why I can't do what you're asking. That's it was that, you know. Well, actually, we lost mama before. Yes. But when we lost mama, I had already been across with Jesus. That's when I was like, you know, what you can't we can't depend on you because we don't know what you're gonna do. You you you say you love us, but then you kill us. You know, and that's and this is the conversation I was having with them. That was out of prayer time how I was praying. You know, I was just mad. I was like, I don't understand what you're doing. And so when he took mom and I was like, I couldn't want no parts of it. That was just through with him. I was I don't want any parts of you. But even then, he said, people I've never seen before, Keisha, you can't do mad at God in school. And I'm like, now when she's walking up to me, I'm not even mad. Me and my friend, we're all been laughing. But I noticed in class, she just kept looking at the beautiful. So out of class, she was like, Keisha, God said, Don't be mad at him. Is what she said. She said, He loves you. He said, He told me to tell you he loves you. You gotta understand him. And I said, I don't, I said, You tell him, I said nothing. And I remember when I stayed in well with him, there was this lady I saw her one time. I went out my back door to take out the trash, and she was standing on the back porch of the next door neighbor's house. And she was talking, and she had stopped and she said, Miss, can I talk to you for a second? And she said, God won't leave me alone unless I say this to you. And I'm like, here we go again. Because I already because he kept sending people, and they all were saying the same thing. You can't be mad at him. You can run all you want to. Yeah. But he's gonna put you in a position where you have no choice but to come to him and talk to him. You're gonna have to talk. I said, I'm not gonna ever talk to him. So I don't I don't wanna I don't want to talk to him. Because actually doing stuff out of the spite, this girlfriend I had for eight years, you know, it was just stuff I did that I knew that he didn't approve of. But I was mad with him and I didn't care. Because I felt like if you didn't want me to do this, you wouldn't have took my conscience. You took my conscience. Mama was my conscience. That's what kept me in line. Why did you take it? You know, so that was my attitude about it. I knew these was God sending these people to me. Well, one night I had a dream, and I'ma jump back. I was like 17, that I was walking down the road, and there was this lady. She was an older white lady, she had beautiful, beautiful white hair. And I remember on the, it was in the neighborhood, I was walking down the street, and I, you know how you feel like somebody's behind you. So when I turned back, she's way back there that I kind of crossroads, and I was on my way home, you know, laughing. I was by myself, and it just felt weird. So I looked back again and she was a little close, and I'm like, okay, she's moving fast, but okay. So I move a little faster. But I wasn't scared, I was just this lady's gonna break. So I go to walking again, and when I turn around that last time, and then remind you, she's when you look, she's like a little ant down the road. Turn around twice, and this woman is right behind me. Like when I turned around, her nose hit my nose. That close she was. And I was just stuck. And the stuff that she started saying to me, I can't remember exactly what it was. I just knew it was a God said, and He said this, and this and this. And all I could do was look, and when I didn't cry, because her eyes met my eyes. And Timmy, those were not normal eyes. Her eyes, she didn't have pupils. She had what looked like waves of water. Like, you know how the water when the waves was crashing on the shore. Her pupils was doing that. The whole time she was talking, oh, that is so beautiful, and it was a blue I've never even seen before. So I just remember just looking her in her eyes while she's talking. Yeah, thinking, oh my goodness. And so she would start saying, and he and he said this and he said that. But now in hindsight, when I think about it, the type of stuff she was saying, what it felt like was she was preparing me for the attitude I was gonna have after he took mama because the stuff she was saying, and it was still you keep running, stop running. So you had this dream before mama passed. Before mama pad. Okay. When I was 17. I remember waking up that next morning, and her presence was so strong that when I woke up, first of all, the only thing that woke me up was my bed shook. It felt like the bed was shaking. So I jumped up and it was morning. And so I could feel her. It still felt like she was in the room. And I zoomed in on a corner of my room. I said, I know you're in here. Just let me see you. I said, I j I was just talking to you in the sleep. I said, No, no, I won't let me see you. But I never did get to see her.
So I got up to get ready for So do you know who do you think that was?
I honestly think it was sending my guardian angel to tell me some stuff. This is what he wants you to know. I clicked to the bathroom. Now, you know, mama got up early every morning before the chicken and she had her whole church station. And the bathroom was connected to her room. So I was in there getting ready that morning because my boyfriend was coming to pick me up. And she was singing, mmm, mmm, she happened to open the bathroom door and didn't know I was in there. She said, Oh, and then she closed the door, and then you had a gospel music on or something.
But then she took a dollar tape and she said, Praise the Lord, I thank you, Jesus. I said, Jeez, she bring the presence of God. What do you say? What did he say?
So I told her about the dream I had. She said, Kisha, that was not a dream. That when that was no dream. She says, You see, you you was really talking to him. That was him, is what she said. And I was like, I'm glowing, I'm looking in the mirror, I don't see no glow. But then when my boyfriend came, and we get to the gas station, which is like 10 minutes away from the house, the whole time he's driving, he's like, and he'll look back at the road and he'll look at me again, and he'll look back at the road, he'll look at me again.
So we got to the gas station and he got back in the car after the gas and he sat there and he looked at me. And I said, What is wrong with you? And he says, Tisha, you're glowing. Why are you glowing?
I'm not glowing, but I didn't try and tell him about the dream that I knew he wasn't gonna understand. I was Rowan, he says, Yes, you're glowing. He says, You just you're so beautiful. And he just staring at me. He sat down and he was just staring at me before he even drove off. And that whole weekend, that's what he did. He just and I was like, I don't know what you're talking about. But I kept thinking about the dream I had. Right.
So that was my first encounter.
When I finally decided to come back to God after mama died, I was like you. It just felt like something was missing. I go through just going through life and where you, when you got to your friends was partying and drinking, and you was like, I'm like, I don't like doing that. I did it. Even though I felt like I didn't belong, it just didn't feel like I was in the right spot. And it just felt like I didn't belong. People were, you know, I'm from around here. And people, where are you from? You look like you're from the city. What does that even mean? I be in club and they're telling me you don't even look like you belong.
Right, right.
And I said, that's good, because I don't feel like I belong. You know, it always felt out of place. I felt like this is just not, this is out of place. I was like on a lone spot. Right. And it couldn't be comfortable. But I leaned into the stuff. I did the drink and I did the weed. And, you know, I leaned into that type of stuff. And I remember mama telling me before she passed, she'd tell me stories of how she, when she was about to give me up, and there's this angel that whom she said was it three? She said the baby didn't even look like he's supposed to be even talking, like walking or talking. But yet when she turned around, when they're coming through the hospital to pick me up, she turns around, there's this little boy standing at her door, sitting at her bedside while she's crying because she didn't want me to leave, saying, Miss Patricia, you have a beautiful little girl. And she said, That's when she decided to keep. And then she said when she was pregnant with me, there was, she was at the welfare office. And she said she was sitting on the bench. She said, She was sitting on the bench, and this lady, uh, she said the lady wasn't there, but then the next second, the lady was sitting there. She said that was as old as she had thick, thick stockings on. You know, the old women wear them real thick stockings. She said, Lady was just sitting on the bench looking at her.
Mm-hmm.
And just looking at her, smiling. And then she started talking to her. She called her by name, and Mama said, Do I know you? And she's like, You don't know me. And she was looking down at her stomach. She was pregnant with me, she said. And she started saying something about the baby.
Just did things to make to make it obvious that you belong to me.
Whether you acting like it or not, you still mind. And the way that he had these people come at me when I was mad at them. You know, all that. I thought about all that this last time when I came back to him. And just, I was just sitting in the living room one day and I'm like, Lord, I just, I don't like, I don't like the person I've become. And then I got to thinking about all the stuff that I did that I knew he didn't like. And that really got to him. And I'm like, I only did that because I wasn't with you. And you know, I started talking to Jesus, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Please let me come back home. I said, This, I'm tired of, I don't I don't like my life. I'm just tired of it. I don't like, I don't like what's going on, the choices I'm making, and I'm going, I'm getting deeper and deeper into a hole. You know, it's getting worse, and I need you. And that's been about four years ago. And I thought I had made my mind up then. And honestly, I had. I this that was it. I'm with I'm for you. But then he did something about two a year two years ago. He did something that I didn't even expect. This is during the time praying for wisdom. Lord bless me. Just please, I want wisdom and I want understanding so that I can know you better and understand who you are. Lord, just and then those were my prayers. And so one day I was sitting on a chair. And you remember I told you he called he pulled me, he called me for a week strong to come pray. That day I went to the room, I closed my door, I got down on the floor. I laid down on my face. I said, Lord, I don't know what this is. I said, but there's something on my heart, I don't know. I'm supposed to be praying. She's praying to you about something. I said, but I don't I don't know what I'm supposed to do. And while I'm trying to talk to him, I just start talking in tongues. Just weird stuff coming out. And while it's coming out, I'm hearing the Holy Spirit makes utterance for you in the language that you can't. But and I'm like, okay, so when it stops, we're back to top, and I don't know what it is. I'm supposed to be. And again, it was basically. And so I wait till he feels, and I'm still hearing the Holy Spirit's time for this. And I'm like, it was weird. My nuts are still doing what they're doing. Right. And so when he finished, and I was like, and Lord, I'm back. So I just stopped trying to say anything, and it was all right. And then when it finally stopped, when he finally stopped speaking, I felt it was like, I don't, I, I've I've never felt anything like that. People say, Jesus is, do you know, you know it's the Holy Spirit that down here? Jesus is in here, but he's not. No, he's not. You can't tell me that he didn't come up off that floor. Let me go see what's going on, Keisha's talking about, because I've heard screaming for me. Because he was standing over me. And that feeling that I got, that, and I'm on my face on the floor. I'm trying to pick myself up off the floor so I can see this, because I could feel him standing right there at me. All I could do was just praise him. Right. All I can do, it was so much love. And I'm trying to say stuff, and I couldn't I said, Lord, I can't, because it felt like I was about to explode. It was just an overwhelming sense of love. It was love I felt like I could, you could cut it with a knife thinking that it was so thick. I've never in my life felt anything like that. And I'm saying, Lord, just just please, just please. And I'm looking at my skin because I'm thinking I'm about to explode. Because I'm about to, my body's just getting to disintegrate. It's just gonna explode. And I'm like, I can't, I can't, I'm trying to catch my brother, but please just wait, just that guns just show that I fled can't handle.
I mean, just get us a teeny bee done.
That was a teeny beader, right? And I said, can you just turn? I was trying to ask him, can he just turn it down? Just just let me just I just want to get out of all of you. I was trying to, I never felt nothing like that. Well, girl, I'm gonna tell you. When he did turn it down where I could talk, all I could do was just crazy. Oh, oh Lord, I love you. And I sat on my bed and you think about Patrick with the hard eyes, the cartoon, with the hard eyes. He goes, every time I think about Jesus, I just do this. Because I just remember that day in the room. And I was like, and I remember telling somebody at work, I'm gonna tell you something. The Lord, He loves us. I said, He allowed me to feel the love. I said, This world can't handle his physical presence. No, we would this it'll blow up. It has no choice because of who he is. Because he's holding. He's holding it. And when he's in the room just in that capacity, he's not even where I can see him, but I know he's there. Set on my bed and look into the just at the foot of the bed, because I knew he was just sitting there smiling. My heart could see him just sitting there smiling. I'm like, I don't ever want this to leave. Can you just stay here with me? I'm just sitting here and then and then the heart eyes cartoon just, Lord, I love you so much. Oh, I just adore you, Jesus. Lord, I just love you. And then it was a couple days later when I'm telling people, He just, his glory, this world can't handle. And then when I'm telling people that, you know, the love that's radiating off of him, the Holy Spirit tells me, that was the love he feels for you.
Yeah. That love he feels for us. We can't, our bodies can't.
And that's the love, that's just how he feels about it. So when he says in the Bible, his thoughts of us are more than the grains of sand and how much he loves and adores us, why can't we give him that? And when that he did, when that happened that day, I said, you bet, I'm locked in. Um that's it. Locked in. Ain't nothing else you can. I'm not because when that happened and he and it finally subsided, so what I could think, I said, forgot to ask him about my girl, I didn't care about nothing to eat. I was trying to do was for him to turn it down long enough for me to kiss those beautiful feet. Let me let me hold you. Right. Well, I just want to hug you. I just want to be on your leg like a little hobbler. Just make it wear me like a belt. But when it left, then I thought about all the material stuff I wanted. Right. But I didn't care at the time. I didn't care at the time. All I got, all I just want you. That's all I know. I just want you. Yeah, I just want to be around you all the time. I want to be in your presence all the time. I just want that. And ever since that day, it's been feeling like I'm being fed something. Like it's just constantly there. You think of how you feel when you're praising down the Holy Spirit's all it's that feeling all the time. But it feels like it's like deep down in the core and belly. It don't take much. It's that water over real warning. Tell somebody to say, praise the praise them. Yeah, yeah.
It makes me think about the woman at the well. God said, I will give you leaving water.
Yes, I'm getting to that. So last year, while I'm sitting up there, because I'm I'm my friend live. I'm like, normal, I get too busy when I don't. Right. So what I want you to do is when I'm at work, this is what I told him I want him to do. But you know Jesus is not gonna do that. He goes exceedingly above and beyond what you ask will think. And I'm gonna tell me how he did that this day. So I was saying before I went to work that morning, I'm on my little prayer session, I'm doing my studying, and and I said, Lord, so today I said, the Holy Spirit, let's let's do this, let's practice this. I said, whenever it's time for me to stop and pray, I said, just say, Keisha, couldn't get you some living water. That's what I told, that's what that's what we agreed to. Come get you some living water. Yeah, couldn't get you. I said, Lord, when you say that, I know that no matter what I'm doing, you could stop. Go in that corner and pray. Well, sitting at work a couple hours later, and I thought that was, you know, we I thought that was the agreement we made. I saw him being like, okay, well, I do that.
So I'm sitting at my desk and uh I don't know, something told me to look up the living water, living waterverse.
And I was on logo and trying to and I go, it still ain't hitting me. What I'm supposed to be doing. And so all of a sudden. It's like butterflies in my stomach. Mm-hmm. And my cheeks are red. You know how you think that you got a crush in high school, you know, that foul-hour boy. He said something to that's the feeling I started getting thin. I heard deep off.
If you knew who it was, but you would ask you for a drink, you would have asked him and he gave me living.
Then it's in my face at the desk. And I'm like, girl. When I tell you I melded, oh my goodness. And I'm sitting there, my cheeks living. And he just kept saying it. He just kept saying that one line over. If you knew who was asking you to drink, you would have asked him, and he'd have given you living water. And that deep voice was saying, living water. And every time living water came, them butterflies. That's really great. What I did was I ran out of my office. And I said, The Holy Spirit and Jesus, I said they go back to my office. I can't even think right now. I just feel sick. It's like he wouldn't let me go. Right. For hours, that feeling was on me. The anointing just stayed on me. Right. It was just, it just hung. When it finally got to where I can feel normal, when I stepped through my front door, when I got home and I opened that front door, it just was on. And I'm like, I'm sorry, but what I did was I threw everything down, ran to my room, praying. I said, dang, I'm sorry, Lord. I told you to, he said, you threw me off because you were supposed to say this, but you being this God is not gonna talk about we won't. The whole time that he was on me, he was on me. Because that's that was the agreement that I said that's what he came on so strong that I couldn't think. All I have to think about was, oh my goodness, I'm being flirted with. Like I was being flirted with. I don't even know if this is appropriate, but I feel like he's starting with me. That is my man. I love him, man.
So as we're talking, you know, for me, I was I would say depression. You know, for you, it was anger because of a lost love. Yeah, I was lost. So what is keeping you from coming to Christ?
We'd actually like for y'all to tell us. Our email is in the beginning.itoutlook.com. We also have a fan mail link on our website. And we'd love to hear your salvation stories. And we'd also like to know what it is that is keeping you from fully submitting to God. Because let me tell you something. He loves us so much. You might not want to tell us. You might just want to pray. We don't have to know your business. But we will pray for you because we love you. And like we said before, we don't want anyone to perish. And God loves us so much. Right. Like He just loves us so much. So much.
He wants to say a little prayer.



Dear Heavenly Father. Lord, we just first of all, thank you. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord, again for your grace. You give us another day of your new grace and your new mercies, Lord. Thank you for that. Hallelujah. Well, thank you for just having us to stop and think about how we were in the beginning and why our hearts are on fire for you, Lord Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Oh, we just love you so much, (speaking in tongues), Lord. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord.
Thank you, Lord. Love. Thank you, Jesus. He is faithful. Thank you, Jesus. It's just thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, it's not even enough.
Lord, I praise you, I honor you, Lord. My life is yours. Amen. I trust you. I delight myself in you, Lord. I'll wait patiently for you. I rest in you, Lord. Thank you, Jesus. How love you (speaking in tongues).
Thank you, Jesus. Hallelujah. (speaking in tongues). God I ask you right now, for the listeners, Thank you, Lord.
Just reach out and grab your people, Holy Spirit. You bring them back home, Lord. Open up their hearts. You can see their hearts, you can see their minds, and you know what they're thinking, Lord. Thank you, Jesus. Show up for them, Lord, and you wrap your arms around the (speaking in tongues).
Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Hallelujah. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Yes, God. Thank you, Jesus.
More of your living water. Thank you, Jesus.
Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord. To anybody listening. Lord, I ask you just to grab them and to touch their hearts and their minds in the name of Jesus. Let them know that you're right there and you've never left them, Lord. Yes, Lord. See all the broken hearts. Anyone, Lord. In Jesus' name. In Jesus. Camp yourself around them. Encamp yourself around them.
In the name of Jesus.
I plead the blood of Jesus over their heart, over their minds, over their eyes, over their ears, Lord. In the name of Jesus. In the name of Jesus. Their situation. Hallelujah. The blood of Jesus.
In the name of Jesus.
The enemy has to let it go. Thank you, Lord. You let them go in the name of Jesus. (speaking in tongues). Thank you. Grab them in the name of Jesus. They belong to God.
Yes, Lord.
Right now I speak healing to the broken hearts. I'll speak peace, Lord, in the name of Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Grab them, Lord. For you are truly a wonderful God. Yes, Lord. Your word, Father, is a lamp to my feet. Yes, God. Thank you. and a light to my path. Lord, I have sworn an oath and I will perform it. Thank you, Jesus. Oh, keep your righteous judgements. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Lord, help us to be more and more better for you, Lord. Draw us to you, Lord. Grant us wisdom, open our eyes, and help us see the sin and what we're doing. Yes, Lord. Grant us discernment to see the devil's tricks in his lies. In the name of Jesus. In Jesus' name, and keep us sensitive to how you're moving around us. In Jesus' name. for you truly an awesome God. Amen. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Father, in Jesus. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Lord. All praise. Oh honor, go to you. Thank Glory. Thank you, Jesus. Hallelujah.
Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord. (speaking in tongues). Thank you, Jesus. (speaking in tongues) grab your people Holy Spirit grab them, let them know that you you they belong to you. Amen. Amen. In Jesus Name. Thank you Lord. Thank you Lord. I'll never let him go.
Amen. I'll never let him go. That's right. Then girl. That is our life insurance. I'm lost then. Yes. He's shown up too. He's shown up too many times. Me like he did. I mean, when I'm sitting here, this is really the dude that I'm pissed off with my boyfriend. I'm mad at him. He keeps he keeps besting with me. Leave me alone. He's still. He's still. Keisha, come on now. These people, with everybody with the same messages.
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