Why your child was sent to you at this exact time

Something happened on my page this week that reflected back one of my biggest fears - being misunderstood.

I posted a series sharing what I know from the inside - as a former assistant principal turned parent educator. And the comments split right down the middle. Educators inside the system, angry and defensive. Parents and past teacher parents on the other side, sharing their relief and resonance. Two completely different responses to the exact same content.

And I realised - that comment section was the most perfect, real-time demonstration of everything I've been trying to say.

This episode is me giving you the shift in perspective and framework for understanding what you may have witnessed. And what you've been feeling in your own life.

Because what is happening in your family right now - the pull, the restlessness, the child who doesn't fit, the life that no longer feels like yours - it is not random. It is not personal. And it is not a problem to fix.

We are at the end of a 400 year cycle.

In Human Design teachings, this is the transition from the Cross of Planning - built on systems, structures, credentials, authority outside of ourselves - into the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix. Self-led lives. Inner authority. Creation from alignment not fear. Power that only works when self-directed.

This is why the old script isn't working anymore. This is why your child won't comply. This is why you can't keep sending them and feeling nothing. This is why something in you keeps saying — there has to be another way.

In this episode I go into:

→ The two levels of consciousness - 3D and 5D - and why the divide between them has never been more visible than right now
→ What the Cross of Planning built - and why it is ending around 2027
→ What the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix is bringing in - and why you are already feeling it
→ Why your child was sent to you at this exact moment in history - and what they are actually asking of you
→ My own breadcrumbs - Eden arriving, leaving teaching, our move, the moments where I overrode my own knowing and what it cost me
→ What the pushback on my page this week showed me about the two timelines playing out in real time
→ The Schumann Resonance and the planetary alignments as confirmation - not cause - of what you are already feeling in your body
→ What it actually takes to walk through the fire - and why this is not about following your heart and everything flowing easily
→ And what we are building together - RISE Together - a community for women who are ready to stop waiting for certainty before they move

Your child is not a problem. They are a portal. And the courage you are being asked for right now is the most important thing you will ever do - for them, and for yourself.

You are right on time.

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Hello my loves, welcome back to the Parent Educator podcast. Oh, I want to start with something something that's relevant and something that happened on my page last week. I mentioned it in last week's episode and where I was out walking through the fire with you, and it's still so relevant right now. It really is the most perfect real life example of everything that I'm about to share with you. So I posted a series called Things I Know From the Inside as an exorcist and principal turned parent educator. And the comments they split right down the middle. On one side, there was educators, people deeply still inside the system. And these people were angry, they were defensive, you know, they were telling me that I must have been fired, or that I was a poor leader, or really shit at my job, that I was pretty much misleading families, and that I should go back and apply consideration to my colleagues. However, on the other side, there was parents, parents who have been teachers themselves who have left the system, even people in leadership, um older generations who have left the system themselves, pretty much sharing their relief, resonance, parents even crying with relief, saying this is exactly our experience, this is what we've seen. You know, former nurses, even midwives, teachers who have left themselves, saying the same patterns exist in every institution. And a lot of women saying, keep going, we need this. And I want to share this with you today because it is so relevant for what is happening right now, and it is so relevant for everything that I'm sharing with you, and how it has allowed me, like I said to you, it's like I broke through a wall of sharing something last week, is that I named that I had this big fear of being misunderstood, and I could feel that it was my next threshold of stepping into really how I'm here to serve, what my soul is calling for me to share, even if it's scary, even if I haven't seen it before, even if I don't know, you know, all the steps of how it's going to work out. When I named the fear, when I could see that I was already creating the perceived pain by not doing the thing, not sharing what's on my heart, sharing how I speak with my husband, sharing how I'm creating this life of self-trust, inner guidance for not only myself and being able to trust my daughter and how she wants to move through the world. When I named that fear, of course, this came up, you know. Of course, this came up, and the universe provided me with this opportunity to say, can you hold this? And I want to share with you today why I didn't respond to the put pushback. And it wasn't because I was scared. Yes, initially it like brought something up with me within me, a bit of dysregulation. It was like, oh god, people are telling me that I'm a fraud, all the things. But also, it was so incredible to, you know, have the tools, resources to ground myself, to connect to something higher that this is what I'm here to share, and to know that this was my next level, and I could clearly see it for what it was, you know. And so today I'm gonna give you some insights, some perspective, some understanding of exactly what maybe you witnessed if you saw what happened on my Instagram. If you didn't, totally fine as well. It will be so resonant to where you are now, what you're navigating, what you're moving through, because it is the exact perspective framework shift that explains why you're here, why you are feeling what you're feeling, why your child is the way they are, and why none of this right now is happening by accident. And like I said last week, you are exactly on time, you're exactly where you need to be. Now, without judgment and clarity, there are two ways. Sorry, without judgment, just sharing clarity because this is where I'm coming from. I know that any level of judgment is just something going on internally within you. So there are two ways people are experiencing life right now, and I share the no judgment piece because I have seen how I've transitioned through this shift in consciousness, and so there is no judgment, only compassion for the level of consciousness of others because I have experienced this shift myself and I can see how hard it is to be in the 3D level of consciousness, which I'm going to go into in a moment. So there are two ways that people are truly experiencing life right now, and the split between between the two of them has never been more visible. This was starting to be visible at the time of COVID, and I was definitely deep in my 3D consciousness, moving with fear, moving with scarcity, you know, doing what I was told outsourcing to now into the 4D, 5D level of consciousness. So the first level of consciousness or the split between is some people call the 3D consciousness. And the 3D consciousness is where a lot of my clients understand this when they move into this work, especially in the past when I started this mentoring coaching work, is that we would move from how can we move from to me consciousness of things are happening to me? You know, the world is something that I I navigate and I sub survive and I comply with and I seek answers outside of myself. So the authority is outside of me, whether that's in the in the system, in the institution, you know, the expert, the doctor, whoever had the credentials, right? And if something isn't working, the answer is to fix the individual so they better fit. And this, my massive shift in this 3D consciousness was seeing how disconnected I was from myself, how disconnected I was from my inner guidance, and particularly how disconnected I was from my body and its innate wisdom. And this has been the journey that I have been on from moving from whoa, for how long have we been outsourcing this and how deeply programmed we are in school to stop listening to that inner guidance. Yes, it's in your family and lifestyle, and you know, the way you're brought brought up, but from a from a being on the inside teaching and my own experience as a child within the system, how we are not taught to listen to our innate guidance. Knowing what is taught within the system in primary school now, of listening to your body, listening to that innate guidance, and how uncomfortable it is for teachers to teach, you know, body wisdom, you know, um, and what it means to be a woman when you when you experience your bleed that is so disconnected from the truth in how it's taught within the system. And so how this is showing up for those with a level of 3D consciousness right now is if a child is struggling, we diagnose them, we provide them with a support support plan, we manage them back into compliance to fit into the system, right? And so these people who are in this level of 3D consciousness, and I still dip in and out, trust me, it doesn't just happen overnight. It's a conscious awareness and choosing every single day. However, for those that are not aware of another level of consciousness and way to move through life and to not just seeing life, the world as something to navigate, survive, comply with. Anyone who speaks truth about a broken system or not, you know, you know, not seeking answers to someone with a credential or challenging the credential, this is where the attack they attack the person rather than examine the system themselves. Because again, we don't question these things in the 3D consciousness because that is what we've been conditioned to do, particularly from schooling. Now, again, this is not to judge and it's not cruelty. This is just a person operating within a paradigm that has been their entire reality. Again, this was me, and it's all they can see from where they stand. Me 10 years ago would 100% be that teacher in the comments defending, especially being in leadership, knowing how hard I worked, knowing how much effort and you know, sacrifice and like burnout I was feeling from the effort that I was putting into the system to help the children, right? So I get it. And then the second level of consciousness or how we move through. So there's actually three levels of consciousness. There's the 3D consciousness of things are happening to me, everything's outside of me, the world is, you know, life's happening to me. Almost like we like to call it um, what is it? Almost victim consciousness. And then the 4D is things are happening for me. Oh, I can see now that this is happening for me to rise here, to shift a perspective, to step into a higher version of myself. This is where we call like timeline jumping to. So the 4D is things are happening to me, and then the second one is what I'm I'm I'm moving through the 3D to 5D. 5D consciousness of things are happening through me, right? Life is not something that happens to me, it's something I'm co-creating with a higher connection to God, universe, source, spirit, whatever you like to call it. And the authority is internal. It's coming through me. It's not something that I seek outside of myself, it comes through me, and I listen to that in guidance and I follow it. Right? So life is this is where we're getting, we're getting the two shifts, right? The the split between the two, and they're so visible because this is where we're starting. The 5D consciousness knows that their body knows it's innately wise. They trust their child knows and they move with their child. There is an intelligence in the discomfort, in the resistance that you experience in the 5D, as well as in the pull towards something different, right? So in the 5D, it's almost like you're trusting that life is consciously always supporting your highest good, your highest timeline and what you're here to move through, what your soul's here to move towards, right? And so you can surrender instead of what I talk about, the control piece, of understanding that everything is always working out for our highest good. And when my body's telling me that this is a no, when my child is telling me this is a no, I trust that. Even though that there's discomfort and there's resistance and there's fear, that's a good thing because I know I'm moving towards my highest timeline. I know I'm divinely supported. Right? So, yes, this is high perspective shift thinking, but this is this is the level of consciousness that I choose to operate from. So when I looked at those comments, when I had those comments coming into my awareness, you know, especially like almost personal attacks, you know, the ones defending the system, the ones trying to discredit me, I honestly felt genuine compassion, which was so empowering instead of defensiveness, which I would have 12 months ago. Again, moving through the fear of being misunderstood, I could see now that that was my next level of I can hold that because I can offer so much genuine compassion. I'm not better than any of those people. I was them, I get it. And not long ago, I was so deeply inside that paradigm, that structure that I couldn't see outside of it either. And so I offer so much compassion because when you're in the 5D consciousness, you see that we're all divinely connected and everything is happening through you for a reason. Right? And for me, that was can you hold this? And can you hold it with so much compassion that you bring the right people into your world when you're shifting perspectives like this? And so I could see it this week. Yes, I had my moment of dysregulation, of tears, of the fear of again, like I said, this was the fear of being misunderstood. And so I could see it clearly, and I've navigated that and like met my next level, but I want you to be able to see it too. Not from a place of judgment, but to understand why the pushback happens. And I know that this is a massive piece of resistance that so many of you have of taking the leap, doing the thing, trusting your inner guidance, doing what you're being called towards because you're so fearful of what others think. Am I going to still fit into my circle? Am I going to, you know, have disagreement or am I going to have to hold, you know, use my voice? I've had clients come into my DMs of saying, you know, when you talk about um rising with your child, what exactly do you mean by this? And I said, well, what is your child asking you to do? If there's someone who isn't fitting in the box and you know, they're being required all this extra support to fit in the box, what are they asking of you? And quite often it's to use my voice to advocate for them and advocate for what I'm feeling is right for them. That's where they're asking you to rise. And especially with so many of us that have been, our lights have been dimmed ourselves. We've been conditioned to not ask questions, to not speak up, to not speak from the heart and trust that inner guidance. That is what our child is, that is what your child is asking you to rise to. That is what my child asks me every day to rise towards. And so, you know, when you're feeling this resistance, I want you to understand why the pushback happens, why the people closest to the system, even your family members, why they push back the hardest, right? It's an identity piece, it's a connection to something that we've held so tightly of all we know. And why that pushback is not evidence that you are wrong, right? It's coming up for you for a reason. Are you going to move into what your desired, your heart is asking of you, your inner guidance, your intuition, your gut? Are you going to move towards that despite the pushback? And it's evidence that you're on a different timeline. And so why this is so potent, prominent, coming up right now, and why this is bigger than any of us right now. This is why the shift to the 5D and the two split and timelines timelines is so obvious right now. Is because there is a much bigger picture happening. Now, you've heard me speak um a couple of weeks ago on what was happening with astrology, what was happening with the Earth's um frequency and the shift, it's even more prominent now. Like what is happening in the Schuman residence has never been seen before. There has been spikes for so long in frequency of like connecting to higher light and shifting timelines very quickly that the 5D consciousness of recognizing. Like, I some examples of what you might be feeling right now: restless sleep, ringing ears, just an uneasy feeling, especially when you're resisting what you're being called towards. My ears have been ringing for over a month. It's wild. Um, very vivid dreams, waking up more at night. Just this like sense of like something different is happening. You might be feeling quite more tired than normal, lethargic. Again, that's your body trying to recalibrate with what's happening, especially when we're not consciously aware of it. So, right now it's so important to be honoring rest, to be honoring time to go inward, to be honoring time to just be with yourself because that's what is happening in the collective consciousness in terms of this human resonance. And why this is bigger than any of us right now, you've heard me talk about the new paradigm, you've heard me talk about new earth. What exactly that means is that we are at the end of a 400-year cycle. Now, why I share this and why it is so important is that it's something that I have, when this was brought to my awareness in a space that I was in in community that allowed me to really shift timelines quickly because I could put words to what I was feeling and not feel ashamed or embarrassed or felt like I didn't belong was because of the spaces that I was putting myself in. And it's a reference to human design framework, the cross of planning. So we are entering the end of a four-year cycle of the cross of planning into the cross of the sleeping phoenix. And because what is happening in terms of the bigger picture right now, what is happening in your life, in your family, in your relationship with your child, it is not random. And it's not just personal, it's not just happening to you, right? This end of the 400-year cycle, like I said in human design teaching, it's called the cycle. This cycle is ending called the cross of planning. And when you look at what it's built on, it makes complete sense of everything we were told was normal and everything you're feeling right now, in terms of something's brewing within me, something needs to shift. Why am I being called to desire this homeschooling or creating a business or creating a more sovereign life or going inward a lot more? Why am I feeling so like something's on my heart and I need to follow this, but I just feel like I can't trust it? Is that we are moving away from four energies that have structured civilization for over four centuries now, right? So in human design, there are four gates that it talks about, but on a larger scale, it's more about structure, systems, jobs, having all the planning, all the steps in place. So this is how we work out again, relating to school systems, people of compliance. So in relation to sorry, I needed to have a drink. In relation to what this means is that we're moving away from almost like tribal kind of ways of being, where again, like system structures, family obligation, we take care of our own, you know, work where work is a worship space, where you have a label, like I'm a nurse, or I'm a butcher, or I'm a doctor, or I'm a teacher. We're moving away from your job being your identity. You know, we're moving away from what do you do to who you are, right? Like who are you at your core and listening to that more instead of the label of the identity of what you do and that being who you are. We're moving away from that. We're moving away from the credential economy. So, again, like I was a teacher and assistant principal because I did my degree in teaching, I studied for four years, I then got the label of assistant principal because I worked my way up, I showed my credentials, I showed my um experience. Again, we're moving away from that. We're moving away from standardized education, we're moving away from expertise, you know, equals authority. Again, why so many of you are like, oh, we need to listen to her because maybe you see on my profile that I was an exorcist and principal. You're like, oh, she's got she's got some credentials. We need to listen to her, right? We're moving away from that. So many of you are here because you're not just, oh, she's an exorcist and principal. You feel some type of energetic connection to me. That is what we're moving into. People, again, this is so much clearer now with the rise of AI. We're looking for human connection. Doesn't matter what you've done, who, you know, your credentials, your identity, it's the energy you feel from someone now that is going, is moving into the new paradigm. And that's how we form connection and that's how we're guided into the new paradigm. The leaders of the people who have this energetic connection of like, I don't know what it is, but something I'm pulled towards her or him because what they're sharing, I feel it in my body is truth. I don't really care what she's done in the past, I just know that what she's speaking is activating something within me. We're moving away from needing to have the 10-step plan, five-year goals, 10-year goals, saving, building, preparing institutional frameworks. And with that, knowing that this is the paradigm that built schools, that built careers, that built the idea that you study, you get the credential, you get the job, you follow the structure, you know, you always defer to or outsource the authority above you, and you plan for the future that someone else designed. If you've been here for a long time, you've s and listened to my podcast, you've you've heard my story. You've heard how I've burnt out following this. Following the plan that someone else designed. Go to school, get the job, find a partner, you know, get married, buy the house, have children, get a mortgage, climb the leadership ladder, all to feel numb because we are in the times of changing, and this is why it's so Um, maybe triggering or challenging for the older generations because for a lot of them they feel this, but they've spent so much of their life following that piece. And so part of them is like, well, you know, these this younger generation hasn't so much courage to make change and you know, to lead this for their children when this wasn't even a perspective shift or a possibility for us when our children were younger, you know. So this is why so many of us find resistance in, you know, telling our parents or sharing with the older generation of what's on our heart, because we're scared of bringing something up within them. But honestly, the wisdom that I have gained from the older generation who are in this shifting in consciousness and can see what is happening for the greater good, they're the ones that will celebrate you and also how you're connecting them to light by doing this, and you're leading the way into the new paradigm. And so, according to human design teachings, the cycle is ending right now, and around 2027 is when it's documented the new 400-year cycle begins, and what is called the cross of the sleeping phoenix. And then what this means is that we're connected more to the 5D consciousness, to spirit. Does this fulfill my soul? Like the creation of life from alignment, from your values, not from fear, but trusting that inner guidance. This is where we move into more intimacy, you know, real closeness and community, moving from, you know, bargain, bargaining, I'll do this and receive why to genuine connection. What I spoke about in terms of the energetic exchange. I don't know what it is, but what she's speaking is speaking to my soul, and I move towards that, you know, not okay, you have done X amount of years study, I will invest into you now because you've got the credentials. It's like, no, it's the connection in service. I'm moving that energetic shift between us. We're moving towards self-sourced, you know, inner guidance. This is why so many of us, again, why it was so prominent for me of like, for how fucking long have we outsourced everything and how did this happen and why we're questioning systems now, and how long this happened of you know, not trusting out your guidance and connecting to something bigger. That's why this feels so relevant now. We're moving towards a work for love, not obligation, you know. So many people like, oh Allie, how do you make it work in terms of you know, monetary? Like, how are you gonna make it work? You know, what working a job and homeschooling your daughter and like running a business, again, not a job, a business. How are you going to make it work? Because we're working now from what's coming through me. What I'm sharing with you right now is my work. This is what I do for work, and I'm sharing with you what's coming through me as service and showing my daughter that this is what creating money, wealth, abundance is about is letting life, letting God, source, universe move through you. Because what's on your heart is going to connect with those who are feeling it too. And this is where we create the exchange of money, of service, of love, abundance, not from obligation. So no burnout here because it's what's coming through you. Power only works when it's self-directed in the cross of the sleeping phoenix, in what we're moving into. And what is so prominent in this new 400-year cycle is presence. Radical present moment expression. Now is true. What is moving through me, and this is what's relevant right now, over planning. And this is what I say to all my clients all the time: we need to let go of the how. A massive piece for me is letting go and how is it going to work out? Give me the 10-step plan. That is not the thing anymore. When you follow your inner guidance, when you trust that everything is always unfolding for you, you will see how things are working out. You're responding to what's coming through you instead of trying to set out the 10 the 10-step plan. Right? Does that sound familiar for you? Does that sound like what you've been feeling pulling at you even before you had words for it? This is something that I have the most beautiful one-on-one clients right now who are reflecting this back to me so deeply of you know shifting and letting go of identities and labels and you know, ways of doing things, particularly in work, and like what is on your heart, what do you want to share, what are you being guided towards, and how homeschooling or home educating and moving away from the system of telling you how it's done is the doorway to following that inner guidance. You will see now that this is so much deeper than homeschooling. This conversation, this podcast, what I'm here to share, what I'm here to connect with you. You know, this is so much deeper than homeschooling. Homeschooling is the doorway for you to create that sovereign, you know, peaceful, present life and your child that is reflecting that back to you when I say they're asking you to rise because they're asking you to move into this and to lead this new paradigm. Lead your family, lead your people around you, lead your children, lead them into what they've been honestly put on this earth to help you step into. This is why. This is the framework underneath the feeling that you are feeling right now, right? Like how we have again, like I said, I still move into fear and scarcity, but I can see it. I can shift into a higher perspective and see why it's coming up for me, and then shift back into through me consciousness, right? And honestly, that is the most empowering, trusting, surrender piece that I've been able to move through and share with you now and you know, speak on my platform from what is relevant right now and what does the collective need to hear? That has been the most powerful piece for me in being able to step into what is of me next. And like, this is what people come to me, and they're like, How how are you going to make it work, Alia? What does it look like when Eden's, you know, meant to be in high school and learning all the trickier stuff, and it's like that is not the way anymore. If you're here, you know that times are changing, it's on your heart, jobs are not going to be a thing anymore, university is not going to be a thing anymore, and the the children, the people that are truly going to lead the way in this new earth, new paradigm, new world are the ones that move with sovereignty, inner trust, inner guidance, and follow that piece step by step. I have had a client that's just been ruminating for such a long time. Her child has entered kindergarten this year. She knew that she didn't want to do it, but just had to try it. You know, her environment around her was saying we go to school, so her supporting environment, but she so felt the pull of it, it wasn't right for her child. She wanted to test it out. Her child's really resisted. She sees the life she can create around homeschooling, and she's just travelled up north in a caravan, just her single mama, just her and her son, and the possibilities that has opened. First of all, to get her on the road and to get the caravan and to do it all in herself was a massive piece in surrender. And what it opened up for her when she followed that, she was like, Oh my god, Ali, we can do this. And she was, you know, coming back and forth to me. She's like, but she wanted all the answers. She's like, so how did you make it work? What was the first step? You know, how did how do you connect with the school? What do you tell the school? And then how am I going to sort my business out? And then how am I going to be able to, you know, eventually move to closer to where you are, where there's great environment that is showing me what's possible because she came up here and she felt the shift in energy and people around her of what's possible, how she was speaking from her heart in that energy of like this is what's right for myself and my son, and how much she saw her son's spark come back when they were on the road and you know, had a flowy life and could see how much he was learning in real life compared to the resistance coming home to the home readers for a fucking five-year-old after he's been at school all day. And we just took it one step at a time. And the first step was to just message the school and say, I'm homeschooling. Then the next step was to say, Yep, I'll give you the piece of paper of enrollment when he turns six because I don't need to enroll him till he's six. Then the next step was the principal wanted to have a meeting, and I said, speak with your heart from that feeling that you've created of seeing him learning every day, especially since you've been on the road. She went in and had that meeting and she never felt more empowered because she spoke spoke from her heart. The next step was delivering it to her family. Again, deep connection, speaking from her heart, not from fear, from the feeling of what she's seen and trusting her son, from trusting herself and what she's already created. And that was received. Her family could see that perspective, could see the light back in both of them. And this is how we make it work, one step at a time, and in community. In community, and people that are leading the way into this new paradigm of showing you what's possible, who are questioning old stories, questioning old beliefs, and showing you what's possible, right? And so, with that, the world that we know it, the old paradigm, it's falling away. The career ladder, the mortgage, the credential, the compliance, that this is just how it works, so deal with it. We're right on time for feeling that because that is the end of the cross of planning, completing its cycle. And so the world that is being born, the self-led life, the inner authority, the business built from the soul, from creative inner guidance, the family designed around values, the child raised in their own authentic expression. That is the cross of the sleeping phoenix coming online. That is the cross of this is the beginning of the new paradigm. And you are here, you're feeling this, you're being called to this because your soul chose to be a leader in part of the transition, along with your child who is asking you to rise and step into it. Right? You're here to lead us into this new paradigm paradigm, this new earth. And so I want to talk about what that means for your child right now. Right? You know, the one who maybe doesn't fit in the box, the one who pushes back, who resistes, who resists, who refuses to comply, the one who uses their voice, the one who's maybe been labeled difficult or different or needs some type of diagnosis or needs a plan or needs to be managed back into a system that was never built for who they are. Right? I want you to hear this. Your child was not sent to you despite the timing. They were not sent to you to make your life harder. They were not sent to you to make you affirm all these stories about yourself of you're not good enough and you can't do this. They were sent to you because of the timing, and they were sent to you because you're the one that can lead this new paradigm. You're the one to rise and to start to listen to your inner guidance again and to do that alongside them. These children, again, I share this with you because this is my little girl. The sensitive ones, the intense ones, the ones with big emotions, the ones who can't sit still, the ones who feel like they trigger the shit out of you because they bring something up within you that was denied as a child. The ones that can't stop asking why, the ones that can't pretend they're okay when they're not. There's nothing wrong with them. They're not fucking broken. They are calibrated, their souls are put here on this earth right now for the world that is coming, not the world that is ending. And so they don't fit the box, they don't fit the structure and systems of the cross of planning. Of course they don't. They were never meant to. This is where the power and human design is going to come in. I'm so excited to offer this to you and how you can really see your child and what they're here to rise into alongside you, and the same for you. But your job right now, your invitation is not to get them to fit in, is not to try and fit them into this box when I know you're resisting it so much to it is to rise with them. It is to trust your own inner guidance and to trust theirs. It is to build an environment around who they actually are and not around who the system needs them to be to fit into the box. And so that's why you are feeling this strong pull. That's why you can't keep sending them and feeling nothing, or that's why you can't keep forcing something and pretending or pushing away the feeling of what's there. That's why something in you keeps saying there has to be another way, or there is another way, but then we resist it. Your child is asking you to rise, and I know that's confronting because that means that you have to go first, and that means that you have to be willing to question the stories, to step out of the box yourself, to really see what is happening and move with certainty that everything is working out for your highest good. Right? And so that's why you are exactly when I say you're exactly where you need to be. Right? And so let me share personal examples. I ground this in what I've navigated and why I'm literally sharing through me right now of my own experience of how this came to light. So I think it's really important to ground an example so you can see that again the path that someone else's life's been on that we can trust it in our own. Like I said, Eden was my awakening, right? Her arriving was like I knew something that I didn't have words for yet, but I knew that something had shifted permanently, that I was so, you know, in disbelief of why it's not spoken about enough. That identity shift, that, you know, loss of who we were in the past and why it felt so hard because I think so many of us conditioned in this past cycle of we get to a certain place and then we just stay there. We're never taught that we're humans and here to evolve constantly and grow and you know, have deaths and rebirths and really shift into higher timelines all the time. And you know, when everyone around me was talking about sleep training and controlled crying or you know, medicating your child for teething, that's why they're not sleeping at night and giving you all the examples of how you can make them sleep better. Like, oh god, I forced myself to do that for sleep training. Not only did she say no, but my body said no. You know, it's because you're breastfeeding, because you're breastfeeding her and you breastfeed her through the night, and that's why she's not sleeping again. It was like try listening to all, outsourcing all these answers, but my body was saying no. She was saying no, it's like she never took a bottle, didn't take a dummy. She was like attached to my boob at all times. But people around me were questioning it, so I questioned myself. But that inner knowing, you know, that was my first breadcrumb of like, since when do I not trust myself? And so what that looked like again and how that continued to evolve was pushing back on systems as a mother, right? Is like I went back into teaching because I was like, oh, I just need something to make me feel like myself. Like maybe I'll feel like myself again going back into teaching. And I did for a little bit. I was like, oh, okay, this is good, this is what I know, right? I don't have to be questioning too much within here. But then as soon as I went back, I was like, fuck, I don't, I don't want to send my daughter here, right? And while I was in there so deeply trying to change this the system from within, you know, trying to implement nervous system regulation and emotional emotional resilience programs, knowing they were so important. Like I knew that was the core of what was going to help children learn and thrive, but couldn't see for myself because I was so dysregulated myself and not embodying this that the environment was creating that dysregulation, right? And so I was living that contradiction every single day, is like my heart telling me that this is important, but not embodying it at home with my daughter and like forcing myself in a system that was, you know, how how do I try and teach regulated adults to be reg, sorry, dysregulated adults to be regulated when where I'm completely dysregulated myself, right? And then trying to teach children this in an already dysregulated system that wasn't set up for them. The breadcrumbs were all in front of me, and that tension, that's the system asking you to choose, right? That was what was happening to me at that time. And another example of this of like where I resisted so much, and I think that really like slowed down my journey. I remember another piece um after having eaten, we were planning our wedding, and it was like I was having this awakening and starting to listen to my body again, and you know, I was pulling back and knew that I wanted to leave the system in teaching, and I was so called to just do something that was completely and truly us for Locke and I. And it was like probably six weeks out, and I started working with a coach and like had all these unravelings of like I really wanted to just call the wedding off and just like take off and it be pretty much Loc, Eden, and I, and just have this really intimate moment of ours of ourselves. And I remember my coach reflecting back to me of like, why don't you do it? Like, you know, think of all the money that you could invest into yourselves in a different way. And in that time, I let the fear of disappointing people and not being seen as normal and disappointing my parents who, you know, wanted to put money into the wedding to, you know, it's such a proud moment for parents of like this is my kids ticking off a box and they're happy, you know. So I was really fear of like letting them down because they wanted to have that moment for themselves of being proud of their kids because that was what was seen as you know, my kids have made it. And I really over read at that time what was on my heart, like I was overriding what my intuition was saying, and I remember even saying it to Locke, I was like, Can we just like cancel it all? And he's like, But I want my friends there, you know, and there was this deep piece there of like not actually seeing what the intention of marriage was instead of this like big flashy thing of and like so much money into like alcohol, which I wasn't even drinking then, and knowing what my environment was going to be like at that time. Again, I push back of that in a inner guidance, and I'm not gonna go too much deeper into that, but I'll say this there's like every time I have chosen what other people expected over what I actually desired, I've felt it in my body body. I have felt that resistance in my body every time, and those moments of override, they're the ones that cost the most, they're the ones that keep you cycling in this like self-doubt because you're like, why? Why am I feeling this way and you don't follow it? Because your external environment is reflecting that doubt, right? And they are the ones that continue to cost you the most. Another one leaving teaching and you know, feeling so isolated, because I was like, oh my god, what do people think of me? Like, where who am I? How am I going to talk about this awakening? What's on my heart when my environment, like so many of my friends, were teachers, because that's what I'd like surrounded myself in for so long, but yet had this like deep feeling of aliveness at the same time. It's like, oh my god, I've done it. That feeling, and I know some of you exact know exactly what I'm talking about, you know, where you've made This, like, brave decision, and you're standing in it, and part of you feels like more free than you've ever felt. I, this is my clients right now, we're choosing to homeschool. You feel so free for yourself, for your child, and then part of you feeling like terrified and alone of like, fuck, but like, what is everyone gonna think? How do I like articulate this to them? Of this feeling when they're not experiencing themselves. What if I make them feel uncomfortable? You know, that feeling, it is not a sign you've got it wrong. Because the feeling of freedom and sovereignty is like the freedom of connection to something higher than you. That's what it feels like. That feeling is what it feels like when you cross the threshold into a higher timeline, into a higher consciousness. And you know, more examples, working on my marriage, so we grew together, another another massive one that you don't see often in your external environment. And like for many of us, maybe with parents who you know how often they they spend their lives working, so they don't have time to connect, and so we don't see consciously growing, evolving relationships together, consciously choosing to build this life together. You know, like this life is not just me staying at home, homeschooling, Eden. We've both consciously made a decision of like Locke creating his own business and move through the fears of what that is, and you know, money beliefs and connections to that, and it being energy and you know, the energy that you put out. We're doing that together. It's not just me doing it and he's just being the provider, like old times and following structures. No, Locke's here and he's building it too. He's consciously choosing to only be working three days a week so he can still be with Eden. He wants to be seeing how she's constantly learning and de-schooling himself while doing that. You know, so much of letting go for both of us of things, environments, stories, relationships that weren't serving the direction we were going. Like, I don't have many people in my life anymore close to me that I did five years ago. And that was really fucking hard. And I have no doubt that they'll be here with me someday soon, but right now they're not because we're just not in the same level of choosing what's important in terms of direction, creating life, and that's okay, right? And not saying it's not hard, but you find your people for the season you're in right now, and I cannot preface enough of how important your environment is, you know. Constantly putting yourself in environments that expand you, that show you what's possible, that ask the questions with you. This is what I'm creating. I am so passionate about it. It has been the one and only thing that I will constantly talk about that has shifted my timelines and levels of consciousness is the environments that I've consciously put myself in. And Locke and I doing that together. That is doing it together, it's not a small thing. It requires constant willingness, constant looking at the shadows, constant recommitment of are we on the same page? And sometimes I'm like 10 steps forward and locks a little bit behind, and then we catch up because we're constantly making that choice to connect and make sure that we're moving together. And then this move, like that has been the thing that's catapulted me the most. Moving up north, you know, selling the house, not having the how figured out, but going anyway. Because the desire was on my heart for a reason, and I had learnt finally that I couldn't keep waiting for certainty before I made a move. And to be able to do that with Locke's support and him trusting me because he's seen when I've put myself in the re in the arena and in environments that have expanded me, our life has shifted dramatically in ways that we never would have thought was possible. And so he trusts me with that. And each of these was a breadcrumb. I did not have a 10-step plan. None of them made logical sense at the time. However, all of them were so right. And so I want to like circle back to the comments piece and the two timelines, and you know how it's really shown me what we're shifting into and how important it is to be the one that if you're here listening, you're here to lead this new paradigm. And I know that many of you will feel be feeling this in your body now of like, oh my gosh, it's words to what I've been feeling. Let's come back to what happened on my page this past week because the most real-time example I can give you of what the shift between the two paradigms actually looks like is what I've shared from what I know on the inside and what I saw and you know what I lived, and and with that, the people still deeply inside the cross of planning, those people came into my comments and they came in hard, and I understand why. Because when you have given your life to a system, like I said earlier, when you've given your identity, you know, to a system, to a label that is built inside the system, and when someone stands up and says the system has structural problems that it that it's not going to work anymore, it doesn't just feel like a critique of the system. It feels like a critique of you, and I get it. And so the response is personal. You know, I had people saying that I'm a fake influencer, that I must have been a poor leader, like God forbid if I thank God I'm not on your team or working at your school, that I clearly got fired, um, you know, that pretty much that I must have been shit at my job and I have no idea what I'm talking about, and that I'm creating more disconnect between parents and teachers when I never said one thing about a person. It was literally about the system and structural problems. And that's okay because, like I said, when you hear something that stands up against structural problems, it feels like a critique of you because you're so deeply, so deeply in it. I get it. And so for me, there's no need to respond. Not because I couldn't, because I I know you cannot argue with someone into a different level of consciousness. You cannot get them to see your perspective when they're at that level of consciousness, you know, in the victim, in the to me, in the system structured, this is the only way it is. You cannot debate someone into an into awakening, right? They have to feel feel it in their own life, whether that's a breakdown, a breakthrough, and it has to happen in their own time, through their own experience. And I'm not saying that that might not happen soon. Maybe it did shift a bit of a perspective or made them think later, or maybe not, right? And that's okay too. However, on the other side, you know, you have the parents, the midwives who are in it right now, the midwives who have left, the teachers who have left themselves that are parents, the retired teachers, the women who are saying, This is exactly what we're living or we've lived. They didn't need me to defend myself. They already knew. They're already on the other side of the threshold, and they're the ones leading us into this new paradigm because they're listening to their own inner guidance and they just need the words for what they're feeling. So the division that we're seeing in comments like this, that's the division happening in the collective right now in real time, and it's so visible, right? And it doesn't mean that one group is bad or one group is good. Like I said, there's no judgment here. It means we are genuinely in the middle of what I was talking about, in the middle of this paradigm shift, in the middle of this new earth. And the people who are most defended and defending the old paradigm, the old structures, are the ones who have built the most inside it, right? And they're the ones that are going to find it the hardest as we shift over. And so you are here because you can see it. And that seeing is the beginning of everything. That's the seeing of you stepping into what your heart truly desires, right? And so I want to be honest with you about what this actually takes because I think sometimes in these spaces we can make it sound soft, like it's just about following your heart and trusting the universe, and everything flows. No, that's not what I'm trying to get to here. Yes, absolutely there is flow. Yes, absolutely there's peace and grace. And, you know, I've created that in my life. There is experience of things clicking into place when you align, but there's also fucking fire. As I've shared, I'm walking through the fire with you. The fire is the moment you tell your family you're choosing to homeschool and watch their faces. The fire is the partner who is not on board yet. The fire is there is the financial uncertainty of building something new because you've never seen it before, right? There is the comment section of people telling you that you're a fucking idiot, that you don't have no idea what you're talking about. Right? There's the 3 a.m. wake up where you ask yourself, like, am I actually fucking losing the plot? There is the moments where you judge yourself or you critique yourself as a mother or doubt yourself as a mother of like, oh my gosh, am I doing enough? There is the fire. And you have to be willing to walk through it. This is coming up for you for a reason, but you need to be willing to walk through it. And I promise you that you're already creating, like I spoke about last week, the perceived pain by avoiding it. And I'm not saying the fire will always be hard. Okay? It's not always going to be hard. Because the version of you on the other side of that fire, the one who is, you know, trust has chosen to trust themselves over being controlled by the fear, has chosen their own inner guidance over the external authority, someone giving me the answers, has chosen the life that she actually desires over the one she was handed. On the other side of that fire is the woman who your child needs. The woman who your child is asking to rise. The woman is who you are becoming. And so, like I've been talking about this human resonance, what's happening in astrology, the planetary alignments, how much I'm going to talk about human design in this cycle shift, all of this is just confirmation of what you're feeling. Confirmation that what you're feeling in your body is real, that the pull you're feeling right now is real, right now, that you are exactly where you are meant to be, and that this is a moment in history and it's real. And you didn't find this by accident. Your soul literally brought you here. You are the one to lead us into this. And I'm right there beside you. So, with that, I'm sharing something that I've been sitting with, and it's so much clarity and so much excitement and life force and like realness in like this is what I'm here to do. I'm building a space, I'm building a community for the women who are in this threshold, who can feel the pull, who know something is shifting in their family and their life, who know that they are ready to stop waiting for certainty before they arrive. And it's not a homeschooling program, it is much deeper than that. It is a space to come into community, to see the environment that you are craving with women who are questioning the same things, who are ready to trust their same inner knowing, who are ready to take that same step one by one, you know, one step at a time to creating something completely different for their families. You know, they're they're ready to be willing to walk through the fire, but see how possible it is and see that you're not alone in it because they're ready to do it in community. And like I said, community is the piece that has allowed me to consciously choose to be willing all the time to show me evidence of what is possible and who has truly put words to what I've been feeling and what is possible for myself and my family. It is everything that has landed me to right now, to right now where I am meant to be, and to co-lead this with you. Co-lead this with you. Yes, I'm there to help and guide and create the space, but we're doing this together. So we'll be having real conversations, there'll be words for what you're feeling, there'll be space to be held through the fear, one step a time, one step at a time, and there's going to be wisdom sessions from what my experience has been and where I am at with it, with it, with you. So we're aiming to open this space in September. I already have so many women on the wait list who have just felt the pull from what I'm sharing here, and I'm so excited because the women that we're bringing in are fucking epic and they're here to lead this with you. So if you feel called, I know if you're here, you're exactly where you're meant to be. I'd love to have you in the space with us. Just send me a DM on Instagram, um, send me an email, and I'll add you to the list. You'll get first access, founding member pricing because it is the first time we're running this, and all the details as we build it together. It's looking about a 10-week connection. We will then revisit, reopen, starting the new year. But September, we're going all in, and this is the space that you are going to need if you're the one leading this. Like this is the co-creation together that I'm talking about. Because this is the thing. We are not meant to do this alone. You know, this is one of the core energies of the new paradigm is intimacy, real community, you know, connection by resonance of what you're feeling, right? And this is what we're creating. Because you belong in a room with women who can see what you can see, you belong in a room who of women who are willing to go first. I know you're one of them. You belong in a room, in a space with women who are building the same thing from the inside out, and that's what we're creating in this space. So if you want to get on the founding member, pricing, you want to get first access, honestly. Like if you can't feel the energy through what I'm sharing here, it's gonna be incredible. It is, I know it's what my community needs, and like I said, I've never felt more clear in what we're here to create together. So send me a DM, send me an email, we'll get you on the list, we'll get you locked in. We start September, and like I said, this is the first round running this, so we get to co-create it together, and I know that it's just going to allow you to step into the version of you that is waiting to rise and that your child is asking of you. So let's get moving. I'm so excited. Thank you all for being here. Honestly, I just love connecting with you all. I feel so safe, like I said, to share in this space. It's just such an incredible community that we're building. And like I said, you're here, you're exactly on time, you're exactly where you need to be. And I just celebrate you all for being the ones willing to step into the fire and to be the ones to lead this as we move into the new paradigm. So I love you all. Thank you for being here, and I will speak to you really, really, really soon.