Meditation - What is it?

How does a believer meditate on God and His word?

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This is my story. The things that are deep in my heart, places that I've not really taken too many people to, and I can hope that you enjoy this podcast. I hope that God shows you some things that will take you on a new journey from Ashes to Armor, just like He did me. So welcome to Ashes to Armor and gear up because I don't hold anything back. Hey guys, welcome to Ashes to Armor. This is going to be a very interesting one. Um, so it's kind of a subject that is a little bit taboo, at least from my experience in the church. And I think that it gets skimmed over because um we've been told that, oh, that's something that Middle Eastern people do. We don't do that. But all the years that I have been working on my mental health, I have seen a lot of different things. I have learned a lot of different things. And one of them was I I dove into things that most of the the church body would say, well, you shouldn't dabble in those things. Um, and it it was it was almost like that statement made me want to do it more. So I I didn't listen. So I I would like to start in First Timothy chapter four. And we're gonna go to verse 12, and I'll read the 16. Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to believers in word, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity. Now I know a lot of people's Bibles say in spirit, but that that is actually omitted in the original text. But I'm not here to talk about that. Um, verse 13 till I come, give attention to reading, to exhortation, to doctrine. Do not neglect the gift that is in you, which was given to you by prophecy with the laying on of hands of the eldership. Meditate on these things, give yourself entirely to them, that your progress may be evident to all. Take heed to yourself and to the doctrine. Continue in them, for in doing so you will save both yourself and those who hear you. That's probably got to be some of the most mystical uh scriptures I've ever read. It is all spiritual principle. And I'm gonna I'm gonna break down this subject of meditation, and I won't be able to do it in just one podcast. But I I want to get this started because this is a huge thing that we've ignored for a very long time. Uh, we've misused it, we've misappropriated scripture because we were told to just grab a scripture that looks good to you. Like um, I'm blessed and highly favored. That that has been such a misappropriated verse in the church that it it actually makes some people angry when they hear it from somebody. And the way that I see it is that if you're blessed and highly favored, you don't have to tell me. If it's like um when I was growing up in the world, I didn't, I was not a church child. But I would hear these men who would have these fits of anger and they'd say, I'm a grown man. Well, as an adult woman, I got to a point where I didn't see a grown man in those people, in those men. What I saw was a toddler demanding his own way. If you're a grown man, I don't need to hear it come out of your mouth. I need to see it in your actions. And it it will be evident. I mean, even Paul told him, I'm coming not to hear your words, but your power. And I'm I'm like a little disappointed, not with any specific person, but I'm disappointed as a whole body that we seem to lack a lot of the power that we see in the book of Acts. We make a lot of excuses for it. We we say, well, life is hard, and this happened in my life, and it it totally derailed my faith, or it derailed my love, or it derailed my relationships, or we're we're we're using our outer experiences to define our inner experiences and shape our theology around what happened to us. And that's that's kind of a dangerous place for faith when you want to believe God for something. Because the promises of God are yes and amen. They the gifts of God are given without reproach. There's no burden in what God gives us. And God gave us the Holy Spirit that just Jesus ascended and he said, I have to go. I have to go so that I can send you the comforter, the teacher, the advocate, the the lover of our soul. And one of the very first times that the word meditate is used, I do believe it's back in it's in Genesis somewhere. I can't remember. I've I've done so much scripture lookups and all this on this. Um but meditation is a huge thing. It's it's right up there with receiving Christ as Lord, not just as Savior, but as Lord. And it's it's just as important as receiving the Holy Ghost and praying in the Holy Ghost. It it it all it all brings everything together. Meditation can be really scary to some because we've seen it, we've seen that practice being used in um eastern religions and um um we we labeled it taboo because people who were not followers of Christ were using it. Well, if Satan himself is drinking a Coca-Cola, does that mean that I shouldn't drink a Coca-Cola? It just makes no sense to me. I'm gonna do a little bit of reading here because I I wrote some really good notes. It was it was uh fire of the Holy Ghost really hammering down on my heart. I mean, not in a bad way. It's that's not what I mean. A lot of people think that, you know, you have to put your foot down on yourself because, you know, and that's because we have that view of God. We believe that God is a harsh God and he demands, and that's just not true. He is a loving father who wants to woo our hearts and to love. When I say he really hammered down on me, that just means that he really lovingly picked me up and showed me some things about my own heart and the things that I think about. So that's pretty much what meditation is. It's just a thinking process. The problem is that we have not learned that we are not our mind. I know that in Proverbs it says that as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. That doesn't mean that's who he is. That means that's the way he goes because where the mind goes, the man follows. But what nobody told us is that we can control our mind. We can control. Why would he tell us to take every thought captive? That doesn't mean, oh, I have to go do the dishes. You know what? I better capture that thought because who wants to do dishes? That's just so ungodly. That has nothing to do with the Bible. Well, actually, um, that's kind of dumb. I'm just gonna put it out there. That's kind of dumb. The thoughts that mean something to you, the thoughts that affect you, the little, the little feelings that you get in your stomach when someone says something that touches a nerve, when somebody does something that you don't like, when somebody does something that you don't approve of, when somebody does something that you get to talk to them about it because you know that Holy Spirit doesn't like that. Well, those are the things that the Holy Spirit wants to deal with. Because we owe no man anything but to love them. How can we love them if we don't know that we are loved? How are we gonna know that we are loved if we're not sitting still long enough to hear that he loves us? Getting ahead of myself just a little bit. So let's let's back it up. Our practice of meditation is to give attention to these things. See, when Paul was telling Timothy this, see, he was writing these letters to Timothy because Timothy had written to him. And he was hearing from other people as well what Timothy was going through. Every person who is ahead of a ministry has way more responsibility than the person who is just sitting in the pew. And I don't want to harp on that too much, but give some grace to those who are in leadership. Um, single mothers who are running a household, give them some grace. They have to make really hard decisions. Wives, daughters, sons cut some slack for your dad. He has to make really hard decisions because where he goes, the family goes. What he does, the family does. He has a lot of responsibility on his shoulders, and he doesn't need us harping at him about what he's not doing right. Okay, I keep going on the rabbit trails. I'll pull it back. We're here to talk about meditation. If you want your interactions to be right, not just with your family or your friends or your coworkers or your bosses, or even just the average Joe on the street, you want to have a relationship with God. And sometimes we feel like God is distant. Sometimes we feel like he's not really on our side, that he has just thrown us into the swimming pool and said, Don't get wet. He sent us out into this world and he said, You're in it, but don't be of it. But I'm smack dab in the middle of all these feelings, all these problems, all these trials, all these things that keep coming at me, all these temptations, books to read, things that are important, emails to read, Twitter. I mean, just or X, it's now X. But I have all these things coming at me, and I feel like I have to give my attention to them. And that's what meditation is. Meditation is giving attention to. I'm not saying it's wrong to give you any kind of attention to the things that are important to you. Matter of fact, some things, if you don't give attention to, they fall away. Some of those things might be okay to let them fall away. Facebook, any social media, really. Timothy was dealing with all of the trials and tribulations and the problems with people as a pastor, where he was, that it was starting to weigh on his soul. His soul had been consuming so much of his environment and his experiences that it was starting to outweigh what was important. So Paul was reigning him back in, showing him where his peace was. So our practice of meditation is to give attention to these, from speech to wholeness, both public and private life being the purest form of truth. Honesty can be really hard when your life is pulled in too many directions. We give our attention to things that have nothing to do with our purposed life in God. Track with me here just a little movie. Picture it in your head. Someone says something nasty. Or somebody says something to you that discourages you. Like, uh, oh boy, here's one. When you were a young Christian and people told you, oh, that that all that zeal will calm down. You just wait. That can be real discouraging. Or let's say your boss talked to you in a way that was just not okay and made you feel bad. You know the feelings you had. I'm not even going to try to describe them. But here's where my little movie starts. You get discouraged by a word from someone or a mental narrative. And that's usually how that starts. Someone says something and it triggers a thought, and then thought after thought after thought, that becomes a narrative. You close your heart and you pad your life with supportive doctrine of isolation. I think I should withdraw. You stop using your power to attend the truth and be the example with word, conduct, love, faith, and purity. You begin to forget the wonderful experiences you once had, the ones that set you up for such success in the kingdom. Your meditation highway turned it turned off into a neighborhood of crime. Not that you were sinning. You just made a wrong turn. It's dark, your check engine light is stuck on, and your gas gauge is close to E. Your heart filled with anxiety of speculative dangers because of where you are. You're overcome with fear. You decide to pull off the road. Park. Grab your phone. Notifications clutter your open screen. Where are you? Can we talk? Will you stop at the store for whatever? Political news. Urgent warning. Weather report. Thunderstorms in the forecast. Take a look. New study on why some are doomed. And then you get another text. You're going the wrong way. Brother So-and-so has a new book, 10 Steps to True Lasting Change. Email notification. Act now before it's too. Instagram. You won't believe what is killing us. Facebook, I, me, I, me. It's time, and I'm tired. This is what I will do for me, and you should do it too. I could go on. I could go on. There's always going to be a narrative in your head with each one of these kinds of notifications. But what we don't realize is that all these distractions that we give attention to are causing us to be robbed. While you were giving attention to all those things sitting in that dark neighborhood on that poorly lit street, you got your tires stolen, your gas ran out, your engine sputtered, and the car died. Now you can't even charge your phone so that you can get to the directions, which is what you intended on getting to to begin with, so that you could get out of that dark crime foot-filled neighborhood. Do I need to say more? I mean, it it we get so derailed so easily sometimes. And it's it's always the little things when when you have a million little things piled up in your thinking, and each one is demanding some kind of attention, then you have one little thing that goes completely off the rails, and there you are. You either have a fit of rage, frustration, cry it out, or you get so emotionally high that you end up falling asleep. I've done that. There was this one time that I was out in the driveway. I needed to go to the store. We were really low on food, and the driveway was full of snow. And I couldn't get any help with digging, digging out the driveway. And it's a really long driveway, so I can see why no one was encouraged to go do it. It was so deep that my car got stuck right at the end of the driveway. So I tracked back on foot to my garage and I grabbed my shovel. And the whole time I'm walking back, I can remember it so clearly. My head and my heart were overflowing with frustration and fears. I was afraid that I was not going to be able to feed my family. I was afraid I was not going to get out. And I was so angry that the rage was building. And by the time I got back with the shovel to my car, the rage that I was feeling, I was complaining and cussing and complaining. And I was digging for all I was worth. I was putting all of my effort into being angry and digging. And it reached a peak. And my body responded in a way that I had never had it respond before. And I'd I'd been known for these fits of anger. My body reached a peak, and it was like all of my energy plummeted in no time, like the snap of a finger. And I fell backward and was sitting on the mound of snow that I had just dug out from under my car. I felt dizzy. I felt nauseous. I sat there for a minute and I was so focused on my body and what was going on with it that the thought of what got me there to begin with had it totally escaped me. I was, I was in fear and terror and confusion. And I didn't, I didn't know what was going on with my body. I caught my breath after a few minutes, and my my rear end was really cold from sitting in the snow. And I got up and I came back to the house. I left the car, I left the shovel, and I went, I went in the house and up the stairs, and I sat down on a little love seat that I had in my bedroom. And I had to sit there and do a breathing technique. I didn't know I was doing a technique at the time, but I was breathing in deep and slow and letting out slow. I was trying to calm down my entire nervous system because by the time I hit that love seat, I realized what had gotten me to that point where I had no strength left in my body and felt like I was having a heart attack. I felt like there, there was a hundred-gallon drum sitting on my chest. I was scared. That was the last time that I ever got that angry. And that was that was almost 10 years ago. And I have been on this journey to control my soul. I I am I have fluctuations. I have these roller coasters, ups and downs, where I don't have control over my soul, and then I have control over my soul. It's like the Bible says a man who controls his or possesses his soul does well. I think I'm quoting that right. But I was so angry my whole life. And from that time, 10 years ago, almost it was almost 10 years ago, I come to these places in my in my heart for several years in a row, that it seemed like every time I turned around, the Lord was telling me that I was angry. I had been angry in places that I didn't know I was angry. It manifested in a different way. It didn't manifest as rage and screaming and yelling. There was actually a quiet anger. But from that moment on, after that, that fit, I knew that if I didn't do something, my body was going to break down. My body was not meant to take such rage. I'm not supposed to live angry because life in the Holy Spirit is life in God is in joy and peace in the Holy Spirit. And joy is something that I was not taught to have. I wasn't, I don't, I don't think any of us are born with that. I know I wasn't. I've been as angry as I could, as long as I could think. But why am I angry? That that was what became my question. And every time the Lord would ask me or tell me, he'd say, he'd say, Are you angry about that? I don't know, am I? Yeah, I guess I am. Because it it I even got to a point where it made me angry that he kept saying I was angry. But after all that frustration and just listening when he said I was angry and I didn't know what to do about it, I'm like, I didn't even know I was supposed to ask him what to do about it. And then one day it just clicked. He told me I was angry, and I'm like, well, what am I supposed to do about it? And then he got me thinking about my thinking. I love it. I love it because my thinking got me into the mess that I was in, the things that I was meditating on. I don't, I don't know about anybody else, but I know about me. I was busy spending a whole lot of time meditating on what I thought other people thought. And it really made me look awful and I hated it. And it made me hate them. And it made me angry that they would think such a thing about me. Thing is, is I was just projecting because it was those things about me that I hated. And they probably never even thought another thing about me. My life does not revolve around other people. And other people's lives do not revolve around me. I had an event even just recently, uh, it was a couple months ago. I told, I told somebody, you know, it's so weird. See, now that I'm aware of it, now that I'm aware that it's projection. I was talking to a friend at work and I said, you know, it's so funny because I got a I got corrected at work for something the other day that I wasn't trained on. So it wasn't like it was a mean correction. It wasn't that I did anything wrong. I just didn't do something that I should have been trained to do. And I thought immediately my thoughts went to, well, they're probably going to be like sitting around the boardroom now and talking about how bad Stephanie is and how stupid she is. And I I just I took a seat back and I thought, really? That that's not that's not even me saying that. That that is the dead man inside of me. That that's not the new creation that would speak to me like that or to think that way. As as if their whole goal at my job is to pick apart what everyone's doing wrong and sit around the board table and talk and make fun. My goodness, they got a business to run. You really think that I'm uh you really think you're that important that everybody's talking about you. So I rein that one in. Like, grow up. When we give our attention to something, it magnifies. When we give our attention to something or someone, we're giving our power to the presence of everything it or they possess. It is a permission rather than asking. So here's what happens I have a thought because I have an experience. I had I had this experience when I was a kid. And every time I have the same feeling that came with that experience, later on down the line, when I'm having that same feeling, guess where my thoughts go? It goes back to the narrative that was given to me when I had that previous experience. So I've had a couple of bad experiences with my boss. And I started to notice that every time we would talk about her at work, every time we would, I would have to have some kind of interaction with her, I had a feeling. And that feeling brought up the thoughts about my experiences previously with her. But she has moved on. Why haven't I? It's because my meditations. Everybody thinks that meditation is some heebie-jeeby, hippie-dippy eastern religion practice, but you're doing it right now. I'm doing it right now. You're always thinking about something. And what you give your attention to is what you are thinking about. And if you sit back, if you if you just sit back and think about what you're thinking about, you'll realize it's not what you really want to think about. But did you know? This is so cool. Did you know that you can actually think about what you want to think about? You're gonna have distractions. You're gonna have things calling out for your attention. So that's why you need a few a few moments all by yourself, when the kids are not raging over video games in the background, when your phone is on do not disturb, when the TV is turned off, when the lights are turned low. I'm gonna show you guys, I'm gonna tell you, I'm gonna tell you how to do this practice. It's not mystical. How things change may be mystical, but they're not meant for us to know how it changes. This is the work of Holy Spirit. Let him lead. So here it goes. Here it goes. We're just gonna we're just gonna get into a room all by ourselves. We're gonna turn the phone on, do not disturb. Or you can leave the phone outside of the room. I find that music, um, instrumental music really helps. And there are guided meditations, but you have to be very careful. I'm just gonna put this disclaimer out there. There are meditations that are very humanistic. I do not recommend that you do them if you are not in the practice of um working on your mental health. Um, 25 years ago, when I needed help with my mind, I I knew enough not to go with anything humanistic. But sometimes a guided meditation can help. Jim Richards has an awesome guided meditation called Heart Physics. That's a really good one. I don't, I don't want to name anybody else at this point because I I don't want to get you off track because this is this is a holistic practice between you and the Trinity. You want a relationship with God. You want peaceful relations with those around you and deeper relationships with those within your inner circle. You're not going to get it if you're too full on your experiences in the world. It's only your experiences with Holy Spirit disconnecting from the world. So let me just lay it out. I don't want to get too far off track. I've already done too many rabbit trails. When your environment is coming after you, you need a place of safety. It's it's what Jesus referred to as your closet. Go into your closet and close the door. That that didn't necessarily mean um uh, well, at first it can. It can mean that because that's a practice that you you have to get used to. You have to get so good at meditation and calming your nervous system and connecting with Holy Spirit in the quiet before you can go out into the world and and do such a thing in public, because you can the the method that you're going to start with is going to be very private. So no distractions, no nobody calling for your attention. Um, sometimes you might have to ask your family members can can you give me 30 minutes with no noise at all? Uh tiptoeing, maybe. But if even if you've got headphones, that'd be great too. But anyway, let's get to this. So here's my practice: what I do. I get my guided meditation or my instrumental music on, and I sit down in a chair. I'm comfortable, but I'm not too comfortable. I keep my spine straight and I start with breathing. You you know, your breath has been with you your whole life. It it was with you when you were born, and it'll be there until you die. So I suggest that you regulate it. You are a spirit. You, the you that is you is spirit. Your soul is your operating system. It's it's the uh the feelings, the will, the emotions, it's it's all those things that that give your body character, that give your body um what it needs. And your body is the housing unit for your soul and you and who you are. You are not your soul, you are not your body, you are spirit, and that is where you want to connect. So we settle down the body, we're sitting there, spiny spine erect, and you just start breathing deeply. You're gonna take one breath at a four-second count in through your nose, and you're gonna hold it. You're gonna like pull all of the negative energy that you're feeling in your body because that frequency is a little chaotic right now. So you want to rein it in and you're going to pull that negative energy. You can start at the bottoms of your feet and just mentally, mentally in your thoughts, as you're breathing deep, you're pulling that negative energy all the way up to the top of your head. And as you're breathing out, it doesn't matter if you breathe out of your mouth or out of your nose, but you want it to be a long, slow breath of four to six count. And you're gonna breathe out all of that. And as you do this breathing exercise, you're gonna do it until you become calm. And the way that I create calm in a very quick way is I imagine that as I'm breathing all of that negative energy through my body up to my head, I am also breathing in the life and the love and anointing oil of God into my body, and I'm breathing out. After several breaths like that, you don't even have to worry about what's negative. You're releasing it. So you're just imagining in your mind and in your thoughts, I am breathing in the life of God. I am breathing in. And you can imagine that that light and that love and that healing oil penetrating through your skin, into your bones, into the marrow, into your cells, just giving you life, and you're breathing out. Once you have become so relaxed that your body is no longer on your mind, your problems are no longer on your mind. It's just you and your breath and the Holy Spirit. You can ask whatever you want. You this is what I have found that is my biggest question when I'm in meditation, and that is who am I to you and who are you to me? That is what I want. And in my breathing technique that I'm still doing, I start saying to him, I am breathing in about the answers to this. I accept and I will participate. I thank you for fathering me. And I'm breathing. You pray when the moment is calm. It's it's not the rehearsed prayers, it's it's not the scripture quotings. These are not the things that heal us. It is our connection with the Holy Spirit, it's our connection with God that brings revelation, that brings healing. For me, it was a mental health issue. I needed a sound mind, like he had told me that he had given me. Just because he says he gives you something doesn't mean you know how to use it. This this is the problem that I have found. And it's not just in the church, it's it's all over. It's that we've known, we have knowledge, we have all the information, but no one taught us how. This is how we're told to meditate in his word day and night. Well, if you're not even practicing doing that when your eyes are closed, how are you going to practice it with your eyes open? There's there's so much information coming at us at a high rate of speed. You have to know how to slow that down. You have to know how what is it that is allowed to get in. So it's this is just a suggestion. This is what I've been doing. I did it for years without understanding what I was doing. I get reminded of it all the time. I was having, I was having trouble sleeping. And I told my husband, I said, John, I can't, I can't seem to go back to sleep after I wake up in the middle of the night. And then I'm exhausted all day. And he said, try focusing on your breath. When you wake up in the middle of the night and you realize that you're tense, start focusing on your breathing and focus on relaxing. And I thought, okay, most nights it works. Other nights, I get really distracted and I'm, I still don't go back to sleep. We're talking getting up before the four o'clock alarm, like two to three to four hours before it goes off. And that's that's that's a that's a long night. But your breath is with you from the time you're born until the time you die. And remember, you, the you that is you, is spirit. You are spirit. And you you're gonna have to connect with Holy Spirit if you want answers to the things that you're confused about and you ignore because you don't understand them. The direction for your life is buried in meditation. It's buried an intimate relationship with Him. Slow your life down, slow your mind down. This is how we will overcome all of our anxieties, our fears, our confusion, not knowing where to go, what to do, what to say. Your experiences with the people that you love will be enriched. Your experiences with the people on the outside of that circle, that inner circle, are gonna notice you're not as worked up. You seem to have more answers. You seem to have peace when there's chaos. This is gonna this is what changes our lives. Before you got born again, you didn't know that it was possible. He gave you the faith, and you ran into a mystical God, a supernatural being who created you and knows what you need. But if you are constantly thinking and meditating on the experiences that you are having in your body, in your soul, and in your environment, there's not really any hope for you, is there? And I don't mean that there's no hope available. What I'm saying is it it eats away at your hopes. It eats away at your dreams, it eats away at your relationships, it eats away at who you believe you are. I cannot stress to you how important meditation is. Look it up in the Bible. I'm not trying to steer anybody away from God, I'm trying to steer you towards Him. We can have the most glorious, intimate experiences of the supernatural kind that cannot be explained, one by science, nor by someone who has not experienced it themselves. We have hopes and we have dreams. We want to work in the kingdom, we want to operate in the kingdom. Some of us are meant to be billionaires that will fund the kingdom of God being spread all over the earth. People who will go into dark, dangerous places will be able to do that when they open. Overcome what's going on inside of them. We we feel bad for victims, but yet we can't do anything. Well, sure we can. We can ask God what to do. And when you are in intimate relationship with Him because you have made yourself still and got your mind off of earthly things and put them on heavenly things, you will be earthly good. And I found I found the most glorious revelation. It's not the next book. It's not the next email. It's not the next podcast. It's not the latest guru telling me what I need to do that is going to fix me. It's meditation. And it's meditation on heavenly things, on the heavenly being that created me. My life is hidden in God. So is yours. Through Christ. And we're only going to get there by meditating our way in. If Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, don't you want to go deeper? Don't you want to know more? All these all these things that have beset you that are common to you are the things that He wants to help you with. He cares for your soul. Now just let him care for your soul. We'll dig more into this. This is not this is not the last time we'll talk about this because I think that this is such a big deal. And and don't forget, don't forget to pray in the Holy Ghost. When you feel prompted in your meditation to pray, don't think that you know what to say. You don't always have to know what to say. And sometimes the best medicine for us is to just let Holy Spirit plan our future and be led by his promptings. You'll get to know who he really is to you and who you are to him. This is so this is so amazing. So in um in the last few weeks I came full circle to uh this life scripture, Second Timothy 1 7. I have not given you the spirit of fear, but of love, power, and of a sound mind, which is self-control. So I had a I had a really rough few weeks where I was confronted with some emotional issues that I really didn't understand. I didn't know where they were coming from. I didn't know why I was feeling that way, but it was very familiar. So I went into prayer and meditation, and I'm doing my breathing technique and I started to have a vision. And the Lord pulled me towards him. I was just a little girl. I was just a little girl. I mean, I'm I'm talking maybe maybe two f two to three feet tall. I was just a little girl. And he put me on his feet, my feet on his feet, and he danced with me. And then he picked me up and put me on his shoulders. And then he slid me down his back and he was romping around like piggyback ride, like a dad does with his little girl, and just bouncing around, goofing off. And then the moment slowed down, and he slid me down his back and gently guided me around his side and took my hand. And he walked me over to see my father, my dad, my earthly father. And it was one of those moments in in the supernatural where you just know that you know. And it was like my whole life concerning my dad was so clear, and in the presence of God, I said, I forgive you, Dad. And I had not experienced such joy concerning my earthly dad in my whole life. But there was this peace that came over me in this past week, since that vision, something's different, something has changed. Um familiar fears uh just just aren't aren't as powerful. It's like it took it took all the steam out of them. I don't I don't know what my future looks like. It's the unknown and it's really scary. But because I've I've let him be Lord over this, I know that I'm in good hands. He's safe. The Lord Jesus is safe. Holy Spirit has nothing but good for us. He has the mind of God, he has the power of God, the life of God, and he lives in you. God bless you.

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Telling about where she's been, and all that she left in the ashes, and freedom she's found from her sin. The gospel came and got her. Pull her out of the fire. Save from hell and torment to love power and sound. She left the shades in the flame, stepped into the fire, this card is too hot. Ain't no way to say it. But she's now a child guy. And she was, you wouldn't hear it. If she was, she wouldn't know it. She's not sharing you can go to the chance in the flame, stepped into the money from the pit to the puppet, from the pants, to the mission, from the pants, to the mission, from the chaos of the kingdom.