Wild Release

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SPEAKER_01 0:01

Welcome to Cataclysm Corner. I'm your host, Val. I don't give answers, I give awakenings. And if you're here, it's because something inside of you is already shifting. Let's poke it. Today, excuse my boys in the background. They are playing. We are outside enjoying the beautiful day. Um, I do not have a specific area that I record in, so all of my episodes are free range, so to speak. Um, my train of thought just went poof. Um I want to talk about release today. What if the things that you release not only lighten your load? Little boy, I need you be quiet. Stop being loud, okay? It echoes in this room. What if the things that you release not only lighten your load of burdens, but also open space for more beautiful things to come in? And I kind of talked about this a little bit in my bottled up episode. Um, but this episode isn't going to be a simple question um episode. This is going to be a little bit more of a testimonial. So recently, recently, I released something that I have been holding on to for years. Something that I have been hoping for, something that I have been fighting for, something that I have held on to, something that I have held on to with all of my might. I have been talking, communicating with a friend of mine, and we had discussed on more than one occasion throughout the the five years. Well, almost five years. But anyways, point being, we had discussed our future uh hopes, dreams, plans um for this situationship to to grow and blossom. Now unfortunately, I came to the realization quite a while back that all of these promises, all of these plans were empty. There was no concrete substance to them. There was no little boy, that is enough. Take those out there because that noise is interfering with what I am doing. Thank you. So I came to the realization what I'm getting at, the point. I came to the realization a while back that there was an emptiness involved. There was no intention of following through. There was no intention of stability or creation present. And let me shut this door since you want to be right here. Move. Move. Move. Thank you. I will open it when I'm done.

SPEAKER_02 5:21

There was no this situation was fucking empty.

SPEAKER_01 5:32

Sorry, I've been battling my children while I try to multitask. Go out there with them if you're going. Go if you're going. I'm not opening the door. Cuz Bubba's banging stuff around and I'm trying to do something. Thank you. Bye-bye.

unknown 5:50

Whew!

SPEAKER_01 5:51

Children. Oh, gotta love them. And I do. I love them with my whole heart. But sometimes the interference is unnecessary and I refuse to allow it. I love you, little man. I love you too. Oh, silly boys. Alright. So, like I said, I came to the resili uh r Jesus. Here, child, come on. Get in here if you're coming. No! Yeah, and I told you I'm clo I'm closing the door. You don't have to like it. But you you will respect my decision. You don't hey! You do not have to like it, but you will respect it. That is a boundary. I close that door because Bubba is being loud with what he is doing, and it is interfering with what I am trying to do. So you can go outside and join him, or you can mind your own business and not worry about that door being closed.

SPEAKER_02 7:14

You have a choice. Would you like to go out there with him?

SPEAKER_01 7:33

Hear them. You go out there. Actually, better yet, I'll go sit on that dead stump. Since y'all don't want to cooperate with me, I'll find a new location to continue my recording. What, my love? I know the d yeah, y'all are being loud. Let me block that back open. I'll go out here and sit on this dead tree stump. Hi, I see you. I don't need your assistance. I am capable. Oh, so you're gonna follow me out here? Huh? Oh, that's interesting. There's grass growing inside of this dead stump. Hmm. Anywho, I came to the realization long ago that the situationship was empty and there was no future for it as it stood. Um I had messaged this partner and had asked for clarification purposes, I had asked if they ever had any intention on following through with anything that was discussed or planned or anything like that. Um, several, several days ago. And um probably last week, in all honesty, probably about six or seven days ago. Anywho, I did not receive an immediate response. Then come on, dude. Well, you're not happy with anything I'm doing. Come on, then, let's go. You insist that I do it your way, but I'm not doing it your way. You're gonna stop. Um, once again, I apologize for the interruptions and everything. As I said, I do not have a solid station that I can work from. Um, so I free range record, um, meaning I record when the urge or the inspiration hits me, no matter where, no matter where I am or what I'm doing. I'm not giving you no more water. I can't believe you just poured that out. Anywho, back to what I was discussing. I had asked for clarification from this partner and I did not receive it. However, I preemptively made the decision that no. Yeah, I see. And you're not gonna demand things of me. I told you I'm in the middle of doing something. Don't none of y'all respect my fucking boundaries. So I after I had sent this clarifying message or request for clarification, I should amend that statement. Anywho, after I had sent that message to this partner, um, like two days later, I took the initiative to ship some objects back to him. And the objects were a letter, a handwritten letter that I had written to signify my releasal of the situation. And little boy, stop following me. You just want to be held, and that's not something I can do right now. Insolence. Anyways, I returned a few objects, a few different objects to let go of me to this person. And like I said, one of which was a handwritten letter signifying my releasal of the situation really signifying my releasal of the situation. The other was so there was two objects. Honey, get off the gate like that. So it was two objects and a handwritten letter. One of the objects was a shirt, a shirt that I had created for a situation that we had planned for. We were going to do a couple's photo shoot that never happened. Anyways, it was a release of a situation that we had planned for that had never come to fruition. The other of which was, I guess you could say it was a love token. Um, it was a piece of jewelry that was custom made for me with a hmm with a symbol representing him. And along with a small miniature, uh miniature jewelry box that contained this token of affection. And I took it upon myself to go ahead and return this to him, so I shipped it out and quite literally, it's kind of funny how it turned out on time frame-wise. Um, the very next morning, well, technically speaking, it was that late that night, that same night, that I received the message, but I didn't see it until the following morning because I was already asleep with my children. Anywho, so the following morning I had woken up and had checked my phone, um, as I always do, and had noticed that I had received a text from this person with one answer or one word, it was a single word answer. No, is what it said. That's it. Just one word, no explanation, no no anything. It was literally just the word no. And in all honesty, that was my answer. However, at the time, it thoroughly aggravated me because I deserve better. I deserve more than just a write-off. And I took a moment to myself and sorted through how I felt, why I felt that way, and I moved past it. I released it and let it go. And I responded with a couple of laughing emojis.

SPEAKER_02 16:04

Okay, okay, bye.

SPEAKER_01 16:08

That was it, and I left it, left it alone, left it at that. And I love you too, but you need to stop chasing me. So I walked away and left it at that. I have not given it a second thought since, outside of this episode. Um, the inspiration hit me to record this episode uh to discuss release and how it can bring in better things. And quite literally, right after I sent that, I get onto my podcast and I'm checking all my little seedlings, you know, all the little episodes that I have that I planted, you know, out there for the world to see and and learn from and experience and to help themselves. Uh and I noticed that I had quite a few downloads that morning. And I was like, oh, okay, that's awesome. You know, I was absolutely happy. I was grateful the whole nine yards.

SPEAKER_02 17:31

And I walked away and let it be.

SPEAKER_01 18:02

So I had hit an achievement, and I was like, woo-hoo, you know. So I made a quick, a quick episode about, you know, to express my gratitude. And I left it at that. I moved on, went on about my day, and my eldest son had a doctor's appointment yesterday. So I took him to the doctor, and we were waiting in the truck because we had gone in, checked in, and when we checked in, uh the receptionist. Sorry, I almost lost that word. It almost evaded me. Anyways, the receptionist had told us, you know, y'all go ahead and wait in your vehicle and we'll, you know, call you or come get you whatever's. So me and my boys, we went outside and we sat in the truck and we were enjoying ourselves and you know, just biding our time and waiting. And the urge hit me to check, check my podcast. Something fills up, you know. So I check, and my downloads for the day had doubled. I was like, oh, okay, cool, awesome. Hell yeah. I'm so grateful. That's great. And by the end of the day, I had had over 20 downloads. I'm not gonna be specific, I'm not gonna out nobody, but someone somewhere basically had a binge fest where they quite literally downloaded almost all of my episodes. Uh, this makes episode number 27. So at the time I had 26 episodes, and they had downloaded all but about four, just a handful remaining. And I was giggling so hard. So, so hard. I was so happy, so ecstatic. I was thrilled, absolutely thrilled, totally joyful. And I started thinking about it again this morning, about how I released something that I had been holding on to for so long, hoping for.

SPEAKER_02 20:45

And I let it go. I said, fuck it, and walked away. And look what came in, look what filled the the empty hole there.

SPEAKER_01 21:00

I had a majorly successful day yesterday. I was able to have so many downloads that quite literally my April numbers double my March numbers. And I love it. I love that this is growing so much, and I love that I can help people by sharing my story, by posing questions that trigger growth in people. Um now I have three types of episodes that I do. I have my question episodes where I come on and I ask you a question and I give you a few things to consider, and that's it. Then I have my rambling sessions where I get on here and I just Ramble. I talk about whatever comes to mind or you know stuff like that. And then I have testimony episodes where I come on here and I ask you a question and then I tell you about a time when I've gone through something that correlates with the question that I posed. So 1212 on my on my clock. Anyways, um, so I have three types of episodes, and no, I don't overly distinguish the difference between them. I don't have season numbers, I don't have episode numbers, I don't I don't distinguish between any of my episode names other than content. You know, what's what's contained? What's the moral of the episode? The the main I'm sorry the main blunt point. What's the what's the core of this episode? And that's how I name my episode.

SPEAKER_02 23:24

So and the reason I don't distinguish is because my episode names act as portals for people.

SPEAKER_01 23:40

You read a name of an episode and something something tingles inside of you, something comes to the surface, and then you download it and you listen to it, or however, whatever order. Um, but the episode itself calls to you. It aligns with you, and that that is more effective than any um advertisement or any other intentional pull ever could go that away with that. Yeah, I know, and that's cool, baby, but you need to take that back out. Okay, then I'll walk outside. So my episodes act as a calling towards people. They call people to listen to them, they line up with people that need them. And that's that's how I create it, is I put the intention forth that each episode will reach who it is meant to, when it is meant to. So you won't find any sort of promotion or advertisement of my podcast. This is just a natural organic growth. And this thing, this thing that I've created is absolutely astounding. I'm I'm blown away. I never expected it to to grow this much this fast. I mean, hell, my first episode was like 45 days ago or so. Um, it it hasn't been that long since I created this thing. Would you like some help, baby? Here. Little boy, we're not doing that. So it hasn't been that long since I created this thing and put this out there in the world to be discovered, to be used. Um, and once again, I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful for all of you who have shown up and shown out. I'm grateful for all of you that support me even silently. I'm I'm just so happy that I can help everybody in a way that is authentically me. So, with that said, I am going to go ahead and close this episode out. Um, if you feel called to, you can support the show or you can find my link tree, which has all of my links. It has my Instagram, my Facebook, the um support button, it has uh the pop call link. Where are you? Why did you throw that? I don't care. I I have told you time and time again, stop throwing things. My apologies. Where was I? Oh, pop call. Pop call is somewhere where you can communicate directly with me. It is a connect direct link. You can connect directly to me via text or whatever's. Um, and as I said, if you feel called to do so, seek out my link tree and you can either explore or find the ones that you want and stick with it. Anywho, this was Cataclysm Val. I'm sorry, this was Cataclysm Corner with Val. If something inside of you is stirring, good. It's meant to twitch. I'll catch you in the next disruption.