Dissecting Disassociation

In-depth reading and breakdown of a Daily Card Pull. 

Apologies for the intro being garbled, my studio had a secondary tab open at the beginning. 

This episode is riddled with interruptions and disrupting moments, so keep that in mind when you choose this episode. 💜🦝

If these episodes spark you, steady you, or shake something loose, toss an offering into the raccoon’s den and feed the well that feeds you. 💜🦝

Transcript

SPEAKER_03 0:03

Welcome to Cat Some Corn. I'm your host, Val.

SPEAKER_00 0:11

I don't give answers. I give awakenings. And if you're here, it's because something inside of you is already shifting. Let's poke it. Today's card pull consisted of disassociation. I'll read the card to you now. The human psyche may redirect mental resources when you're exposed to distressing feelings. This can lead to disassociating from the present moment, which can look like daydreaming or spacing out. When you have l when have you lost awareness of the present moment? What then came up that you need to more consciously address? I've already pulled a few cards for this. Um I was trying to record it live as I did it earlier, but my children interrupted so hard that I had to stop the recording. And then it wouldn't let me resume. So we are restarting the whole thing. So here we go. Let's tap back in. So far, I have clarity, abundance, and experiences with over and change pulled from my composition oracle deck. Um and this what now, child? No, get out. Really? No, because you're gonna come in here and then your brother's gonna come in here, and I'm not gonna fucking listen to y'all split shit. There. You're locked out. I just need a few minutes to do this without y'all getting disruptive. Um, apologies. I niped that in the bud real fast. Okay, so disassociation is something most uh deal with, but I don't think they realize why. Um or they don't address the underlying issue. And with this, uh, it seems that you have an abundance of experience uh or experiences that that trigger these disassociation moments. Um and what you need to do is seek clarity. Um you need to when you go into a disassociation moment, uh, you need to first realize that you are disassociating, um, obviously, but you need to look for clarity within these moments. Um, because a lot of times when you disassociate, uh, it triggers an onslaught of thoughts and feelings. Um and most people tend to not look at these with an objective lens. Um and therein lies the problem because when you disassociate, certain things come up that you need to take a closer look at. But a lot of times people feel overwhelmed or scared to look at these things because nobody wants to look at the skeletons in their own closet. Uh so you need to have a perspective that allows you to change the way that you look at these moments. And this will give you this will give you a an awakening. Hey, that card just fell out. And I can't pause this. Shit, my kid is driving me nuts. Just a moment. You're gonna have a moment of silence. Hold on. Okay, he's fine. He's just messing with his swing that's on his bed. Okay, so where was I? Uh the awakening, yes. So if you go over these moments with an objective lens, it will allow you to have an epiphany, an awakening uh in regards to why you disassociate, whether it be you discovering what triggers you or understanding why you've been triggered. I just got the passing card, but I'm gonna get another one so I get a clearer understanding. What are we passing? What is the listener passing? Passing. Jesus, I can't talk. Passing and planning are interesting. Don't pass up the opportunity don't pass up the opportunity to make plans for your internal growth. Use these disassociation movements to um not only develop a deeper understanding of the why and all the intricacies. Why, when, where, what, what have you. But don't pass up this opportunity to plan uh your growth.

SPEAKER_03 7:09

Because your autonomy. What was that noise?

SPEAKER_00 7:18

Your autonomy is the highest, and I do mean the highest. What I'm sorry, I keep getting distracted by my kids, they're crazy. Um, welcome to my daily chaos life, chaotic life. Um, your autonomy is the highest uh objective with this. Um, you are meant to fall so deeply in love, and I just had the chaos card fall out with the balance card. So, baby, balance your daily chaotic life. I I do it. Um, and it may drive me nuts most days, but we do what we do to grow, and nothing is gonna change that. Um so balance the chaos and find and embrace your personal autonomy. Anything else, spirit, from this deck before I move on to my angel deck? Nope. Okay. Alright, I do need to shuffle this one, so bear with bear with the shuffling sounds for a moment. I try to hide the shuffling sounds behind my table so it's not as loud whenever I do a a podcast uh recording. And honestly, my mic and my tripod, selfie stick, whatever, um, is supposed to be here today. So a lot of my stuff is going to have better quality once we get all that set up. Um more shuffle and then we will dive in and see what what angel messages we have to help you move past the nitty-gritty.

SPEAKER_03 9:46

Let's tap in.

SPEAKER_00 9:48

Alright, spirit, what do we have? What messages do we have to help the listener move past the dark and dreary? Oh, the seemingly dark and dreary. Let's let's amend that statement. Cause your shadow is not dark and dreary, it's just misunderstood.

SPEAKER_02 10:40

What do we have for the listener? What do we have for the listener from this?

SPEAKER_00 10:59

I don't know why I went sing songgy. That was interesting. Singing may be significant? Or having a tie to music? Do you do you jam out to music when you disassociate? Is that your your method of recalibration and recentering?

SPEAKER_03 11:43

These cards are sticky. Hmm. So mediumship came out.

SPEAKER_00 12:13

And I don't feel like this is like a spiritual mediumship, you know, the the most common uh understanding of mediumship, you know, like you can connect with departed ones, uh, whether it be departed loved ones or ancestors or what have you. I don't feel like it's that. I feel like it's uh more in tune with yourself. Uh there's a mediumship aspect here where you have certain thoughts or feelings or epiphanies for that matter, that show up out of the blue, but you don't acknowledge them as your own. Maybe, maybe you think that they're intrusive thoughts. Um yeah, yeah, because this isn't a typical mediumship, this is something internal. But it is something that you need to dive deeper into and connect with.

SPEAKER_03 13:42

What else, spirit books? Maybe someone reads to disassociate.

SPEAKER_00 14:03

We've got a bunch of artsy stuff that kind that came out. Uh singing with the with me using the sing songy voice, um, books. The card says your life purpose involves writing, reading, editing, or selling spiritually based books. Um and that may be true, but for the collective, I feel like it's more of an alley of disassociation. Do you dive into books to disassociate from the external world? Just a moment. Child, I have it locked. You are not coming. Oh, that's the younger one. Hold on, hold on. It's okay. I locked it because hey, hey, hey, hey. I locked it because your brother was coming in and purposely interfering here. You're okay. Um, and for others, books, certain books may help you on your journey. I'm getting that also. What else, Spirit? Let's get one more. Let's let's get one more from this deck. There it is. Oh, we got two more. There's another sing songgy moment. All right, so we got emotional sensitivity. Oh, baby, you need to honor and respect your deep sensitivity because it's not problematic as society likes to lead us to believe. Little sorry, you need to back up. Nope. Um, and then clear yourself, make sure that you are clearing out any toxic energies that you might have absorbed. Um, and honestly, I feel like this is tied to external experiences. Um, like when someone chastises or or berates you about something that you did or you said or what have you. Um a lot of times we hold on to those energies unconsciously. No, sir, do not touch my laptop. Go on, gone, child. Apologies. Um, my kid, my youngest, likes to uh push his way into all of my devices. So with this emotional sensitivity and clear yourself card coming out, I feel like you pick up on other people's emotional energies. And honestly, a lot of times that may cause you to disassociate. And what I get from this is you need to honor and respect your deep dis your sensitivity and understand that some of those energies that you are feeling weighed down by are not yours at all. And you need to you need to find a way to cleanse your space, your person, um, yourself, your interactions. Um, and honestly, I just got the word cut them the fuck off. Um if someone if someone is constantly berating you or constantly downing you um or silencing your truth, cut them out. Cut them out, baby. That baby, that person is not aligned with you, that person does not serve your highest good. Cut them the fuck out. There ain't no reason. There ain't no reason to keep toxicity in your life. I feel like I want to do one more one more deck. So we're gonna dive in a little bit deeper. All of my decks are in little bitty bags. Oh, I pulled out my Scorpio oracle. That's interesting. I never use this for reads. This is more of a personal deck. One moment. Little boy, let go of my stuff. That tree is not for you to mess with. All right, let me shuffle this deck real fast and then we will dive in a little bit deeper. You crazy boy. Put that candle down. Thank you. Now walk away from the ledge. The window ledge. Walk away. I didn't stutter. Thank you. Oh, crazy kid. All right. Alright, let's tap in. What do we have? Spirit, you guided me to my Scorpio deck. And this is gonna be interesting because I never I never use this deck for for any sort of public or collective reading. This can be interesting. You need to back up and stop messing with my things. Get your hands off of that tree. Wait. I know I need to cleanse all my all my all my gems and stones. Stop interrupting and distracting me. Personal power. You have the power within you to create the life you want. Harness your personal power and let it guide you towards your towards your dreams.

SPEAKER_02 20:46

What else, spirit? Little boy, get out of my oils.

SPEAKER_00 20:56

I'm facing kick you both out again. Your brother convinced me to open the door because he was about to start screaming. Keep your hands off of my stuff, dude. Apologies. Oh, excuse me. Let's get one more Let's get one more spirit. I am so sorry. Get out!

SPEAKER_01 21:34

Get out or be quiet.

SPEAKER_00 21:37

You screeching? There is no reason to be screeching. I am so sorry if that bursts your eardrums. Oh my children, I swear. I love them to death, but they are just as sperile as I am. Let's see.

SPEAKER_02 22:08

One more scampion. One more car.

SPEAKER_00 22:29

Use that one. Strength. Get your freaking hands off of my stuff. Okay. Do you want your booty busted? If you're hot, then get out. The fan is on in your room. I'm not turning this fan on. I'm recording. Go on. Okay. How that hurt. I'm so clumsy. All right. Your strength is unwavering and your resilience is inspiring. Trust in your inner power and let it guide you towards greatness. So with both personal power and strength coming out of my Scorpio oracle deck, um, it shows me that you are so fucking powerful. You are so powerful. You just need to realize it.

SPEAKER_02 23:54

Confirmation.

SPEAKER_01 23:58

That is enough.

SPEAKER_00 24:04

You have the power. You have the power and the strength that you need. You have the power and the strength that you need to dive into yourself and figure out your shadows and integrate them and grow from them and learn to love yourself fully, unconditionally. Um excuse me. That child. Driving me crazy. All right, I got one more for you. And this one is one of my favorites. Once again, I am so sorry for the excess noise that my children are exuding. Put that down. So much interference today. I feel like this message was intended to be chaotic. So I did grab one more deck. Um, this is my shit, what is this one called? Mother Morts. Uh yeah, Mother Morts Carnival Oracle. So got a few shuffles done. Alright, let's tap in. What do we have? Spirit. And honestly, it's perfect that I was drawn to this deck because this is my chaos deck. This is the one that is the weird, creepy, crawly little boy, you will not eat those. They're hot. Hot, hot. Give me just a minute and I'll show you. Go away. But as I was saying, this is my my creepy deck. This is the one that is a little on the weird side. So you might be weird yourself. Let's see what we got, Spirit. That one came out. Get away from my daggum laptop. I swear to god, these kids, man. Y'all drive me crazy. And here, let me open this for you. And I'm gonna prove to you that you won't fucking eat it. Let me open it in a way that I can put it back in there.

SPEAKER_03 27:17

Here. Lick it.

SPEAKER_00 27:26

Stop touching my crystal tree. Yeah, exactly. I told you you wouldn't want it. You just don't listen. You just don't listen. And little boy. You gon catch some hands. Alright. Sorry. I got one card come out, but they keep interfering. The amazing milk. Taddy? Daddy? Hold on, give me just a moment. I can't quite read that card.

SPEAKER_03 28:08

I need to find it.

SPEAKER_00 28:17

Okay, the amazing Miles Taddy. This card represents new beginnings. Having faith in what is to come, improvisation, and believing that the universe has your back. Modern life involves juggling many responsibilities, which can often seem overwhelming. But remember to trust yourself, focus on your task, and not simply follow those who brag they know the way. This card is also a reminder that it is alright to take a break sometimes and not be so harsh on ourselves when we drop the ball, so to speak. So this card. Yeah, and I'm fixing to throw you out of my room because you are no get those toys out of here. Your toys do not belong in here.

SPEAKER_01 29:32

Get out. I'm tired of it.

SPEAKER_00 29:47

This card shows that you need to trust yourself. You got this, baby. You got this. Let hush! I know he came back in here, but as long as he is quiet, I do not care. Boundaries, boys. All right. The Miles Taddy card shows that you need to reflect on your interpretation of your disassociation also. Um I read the the interpretation from the book to you. Hey don't do it. Get out. Like I haven't told you a million times to leave my stuff alone. Sorry. Let's get another card. Spirit.

SPEAKER_01 31:09

Put that crystal tree back.

SPEAKER_03 31:24

Y'all keep interrupting, y'all gonna get out of my room.

SPEAKER_00 31:28

Hush. Stop touching my shit, dude. And yes, I am a cursing mama. With the way the world is today, I feel that them knowing how to properly curse might just save them one day. I'm not gonna explain that in that up in this episode because it's dragging on a little bit longer than I anticipated. We're already at the thirty thirty-two minute mark because my children keep interfering. Stop touching. Are we only getting one day from this deck spirit? Are we only getting one or is there more you would like to share with us? It is hot in this room. I'm getting overheated. Ludus the Wag. Interesting. That is interesting as fuck. Okay. Shut your mouth. All right, so Ludus the Wag. This card represents generosity and kindness giving to others and generosity towards ourselves. Be kind to others, the karma will be returned. A reminder to pay it forward. It also represents fun and joy and the need sometimes to stop, kick off our shoes, and play. It is a reminder to be silly and laugh often, whether singing out loud or dancing. Like no one is watching. Playing a game or being creative. Have fun. Life is meaningless without pleasure. Embrace your inner child. What did I tell you about bringing those toys into my room? They don't belong in here. You want to play, you have your room in the living room.

SPEAKER_01 34:14

Get out. You brought it in here. Get out.

SPEAKER_02 34:27

Interrupting.

SPEAKER_00 34:39

So I am so sorry. This recording should not be taking this long. But nobody cares about what mama's doing. I'm trying to help the collective. Stop touching my things. Stop. Shut up. Let's finish this and log off. Stop touching my phone. You like to call unnecessary. So this card, the Ludus the Wag, um asks you to be kind to yourself during these disassociation moments or after, you know, when you realize or come out of the disassociation. It also asks you to embrace your personal joys, whatever that may be. And honestly, the singing came up again with this card, along with dancing, but singing is very prominent here. Um I keep using a sing song voice off and on during this reading, and I feel like that is very prominent here. Uh very significant. Um we're gonna close it out here, otherwise, this is gonna end up an hour long, and I need to go occupy these children um and go play. Uh we played a little bit earlier, but me taking a break to do this was apparently too much to ask of them. Uh so with that said, this was Cataclysm Corner with Val. If something inside of you is twitching, good. That means it's working, baby. I'll catch you in the next disruption. Toodles.