Chaotic Contributions

Chaos isn’t the enemy — it’s the current.  
When you stop fighting the storm, you start surfing it.

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Welcome to Cataclysm Corn Rush. On your hoops. Val. I don't give answers. I give awakenings. And if you're here, it's because something inside of you is already shifting. Let's poke it. Today I want to talk about chaos and embracing it. Now I'm not talking about feeding the chaos, you know, making chaos more chaotic. Oh, oh, don't jump on me. Don't jump on me, rude. I'm not talking about making chaos more chaotic. I'm talking about embracing the flow. Okay. For example, I have children, as many of you know. If you've been following my works and watching my socials, you understand that I have two little boys. And if you are a parent, you also understand that having children means having chaos. Kiddo chaos is crazy, and it changes with each age group. One moment. Yeah, that's the card that says bedroom. Go that away. I'm trying to record something. Okay, baby. I know, I see it. That's the repeat button. It's gonna say it over and over and over again, right? Yeah. Okay. Prime example. Prime example. Oh, excuse my voice. I'm going through another, another uh miniature awakening. So my body is trying to catch up to my spirit. Um, so I have a little bit of internal um bodily chaos at the moment. Um, for instance, last night I was extremely lightheaded and dizzy, and I felt nauseous and and uh I honestly thought that I was gonna puke before I ended up going to bed, but I ended up not. And then I woke up at like 3 a.m. this morning and I realized, oh, we're having another miniature awakening session, and that's okay because we flow with it, right? We flow through the chaos, we don't hold on to things, whether it be being upset that my floor has toys all over it right now. Um, I did not feel well enough last night to go through and pick up toys. Normally I have my boys help me. So it's not that I'm doing it all all on my own, because I do teach them, hey, you make a mess. You gotta clean it up, right? Own your shit. It's called accountability. Uh but I just didn't feel well enough last night. So of course I woke up to a messy house this morning, and that's okay because I understand that I felt like shit last night. I legitimately felt like my my body was collapsing a hundred percent. I felt like my body was collapsing within itself. The the fatigue, the the headache, the nausea, the the just overall bleh feeling, right? Like I legitimately felt like shit. But, anyways, back to the topic of learning to flow through chaos. Everything changes. That's the one thing that is constant. Change. Everything changes. It may take time to change, it may be boom, done, change, immediacy, right? But one truth remains everything changes. Your body changes, your routines change, your perspective changes. I can go on and on. There's literally no limit to listing what changes. Because everything, everything changes, okay? And the art is learning to flow, learning to flow through these changes, learning to flow through those moments of chaos where nothing makes sense. And some of those moments can look like everything falling apart, some of those moments can look like absolute shit luck, you know, bad luck on steroids, right? Um, but the beauty of the chaos and the changes is that you're going to come out the other side as a better person. If, and I do mean if, okay, you choose to change in a positive manner if you choose to flow through the chaos instead of trying to hold on. Now, I could have woken up this morning and come out here and been like, well, fuck, my house is a disaster. God, now I have to clean, I gotta pick all that shit up. You know, I could have been upset on a multitude of levels, right? But what good would that do? It doesn't serve me because it's just gonna get me into that mindset of, well, today's gonna be shit. You know, I woke up and I gotta clean all this shit, and it's gonna be dirty again in less than 15 minutes after my kids wake up, right? I mean, you decide whether you want to change positively and embrace and flow with the chaos, or you can choose to change negatively and just hold on to everything that is not going the way that you want. But I have news for you. Not everything, not everything is gonna go the way that you want. You're not gonna get everything that you want. Maybe, maybe you will, but it won't be in the way that you want, right? Like there's always gonna be some aspect to something that does not line up with the intended want, right? Like, I just recently moved into a new house, okay, and I am loving it, okay. I've finally got my own space, I can finally flow with my creativity. But the thing that I don't really want in this whole thing is the inability to just create in the moment, because I do have to find time and space to be able to do so because I do have kids, right? I can't just have an idea and go, oh, let's do this right now, as soon as the fucking thought pops into my head, right? I can't do that. I have to find time and space to be able to do the thing that I want to do. Now, I'm not saying that I wish I didn't have kids, you know, because I love, I love my boys with my whole heart. They are literally my everything, okay? But that does not diminish the self-love and the self needs and the the desires of self, right? Like it's just an addition to. And in all honesty, a lot of people don't understand that love is limitless. There is no limit to love. The only limit there is is your capacity, right? Like you can love yourself, you can love your children if you have any. You can love your family, you know, you can love strangers, you can love your friends, you can love anybody and everybody that you choose to do so, right? There is no limit. The only restriction is the capacity of self, right? What are you capable of loving? Who are you capable of loving? Are you capable of loving yourself and your family? Are you capable of loving yourself and your family and your friends? You get you get what I'm saying. Like, I'm not gonna keep extending that because it's it's a never-ending continuation of list, right? Because love is limitless, right? You can love the plants, you can love the trees, you can love the birds, you can love the bees, you can on and on, right? It never fucking ends as long as you don't cap it. You know, you don't put that that limit there. You don't go, okay, here's the bar. This is all I have the capacity for. Excuse me. Still, still dealing with that whole um awakening bleh feeling. Um, I'm not as sick as I was last night. Like, I'm not as sick feeling as I was last night. I feel better this morning, but I'm dealing with a little bit of the um the scratchy voice and the um uh rough throat like coughing. Um, and that's okay. We're we're gonna flow with it, right? We're we're not gonna make that the highlight, you know? Um, so back to embracing chaos. What in your life is going awry? You know, what what is going off track, it seems? What what's the chaos that you're undergoing? And how can you form a new perspective against it, or for it rather, or with it? Um my brain's moving faster than my mouth is. I'm trying to stay on track without jumping, jumping ahead, like my brain likes to do. Anywho, um what can you change internally, whether it be your mindset or your perspective or you know, your reactions, or you know, those types of things, what can you change internally when it comes to addressing or assessing or looking at the chaotic bits that you are undergoing right now? You know, you look at it and go, okay, well, maybe this specific thing was meant to fall away so that something can come in and align better, right? Or maybe, oh damn, I missed that bus. Maybe you missed an accident, baby. Oh shit, I forgot my keys, then I forgot my wallet, then I forgot my my phone. You know, I'm I'm I'm in a rush. I got I got shit to do, I got an appointment to make, like I'm gonna be late. But maybe you were slowed down for a reason. Maybe you were delayed so that you would miss something. Not necessarily your appointment per se, but maybe there was some tragedy or some issue that you were being delayed so that you would not be affected, affected, sorry. So that maybe you would not be affected, or maybe you would not be injured or hindered or shit. The list goes on and on. I'm gonna stop uh I'm gonna stop there. But you get what I'm saying, and honestly, I'm not sure what the what the concept is called, but there is a Japanese theory that maybe that delay saved your life, or maybe that job fell away because it was becoming, you know, a negative space for you, or it would have inadvertently negatively affected you, right? Um, and like I said, I'm not sure what the concept is is coined as. I'm not sure what it's called, but it's beautiful. And I came across it the other day and I was like, hell, I believe that. You know, I I've I've been living by that for fuck ages, really. Um, give me just a moment, Bobby. It's is it dead? Okay, then we gotta charge it, okay? Give me just a moment. I know. I know. We gotta charge it. We should have charged it last night when we went to bed, huh? Hey, stop running. Yep.

SPEAKER_01 14:53

Sorry, give me just a moment. Yep, thank you. Bring me that thing so I can charge it, okay? That way you can have it later. And see, prime example right there, too.

SPEAKER_00 15:19

Um, my child come to me with this little this little thing. It's like a a card reader. Um he he has trouble speaking right now, getting his thoughts into words. And he has this card reader where he has all these cards that you know signify like people, places, items, objects, foods, and so on and so forth, right? And he could put the you didn't trick me. Go on, it still needs to be charged some. Go. Hey, look, Bubba's got one of your cards. This card says shop, and then on the other side it says basketball. Here, go put these up. I know, it's not done. Look, it's red. See? You didn't trick me. I tricked you. Yeah, it's red. You don't have to fucking argue it with me over everything, dude. Look, red. It is red. I I just showed you, dude. I just showed you, see? Red. You see it? No, go. Look at this. Do you see me? I am recording. Go.

SPEAKER_01 16:47

Yeah, he's running out.

SPEAKER_00 16:49

Now pick that card up and go put it with the rest of them. You mean put those cards in the bag so you don't lose them, right? Thank you. So he has this card reader that has um all these different cards. Like, I read that one to you. It's dual-sided. There's something on each side of the card, and he puts it into this little machine and it reads it to him. So, like, if he's wanting something or wanting to go somewhere or wanting to see someone or whatever, if he's wanting something and he doesn't quite have the word for it, he can go find the card, put it in the reader, come to me and push, you know, the read button. And I'm like, oh, okay, that's that's that's the thing, right? Um, but anywho, on a little mini tangent. Um, shit, where was I? Fuck, I then lost my train of thought. Oh my goodness. Are you okay? Oh my goodness, reach for the sky. Or crawl on the ground. That's cool too. Reach! Reach up!

SPEAKER_01 18:01

Help expand your lungs and you stop choking. Reach, reach!

SPEAKER_00 18:10

There you go. Good job, buddy. Good job. All right, you want your toy back now that you're done hacking up a lung? Um see, we were talking about embracing chaos, and I think I was discussing something at the point. Shit, what was it? Give me just a moment. I can't pause this, it'll it'll stop it completely. Just bear with me for a moment. Let me let me regain my train of thought. That thought derailed. Um okay, maybe I was done with that thought. Anywho, so it doesn't matter what aspect of your life that you are experiencing chaos, right? The the art of making it through in a positive manner is not to hold tight and control the you know the the destruction or the upheaval or the derailment or what have you. It's not to control and hold on as tightly as you possibly fucking can, right? You you don't want to hold on for dear life. What you want is to let go and ride the flow. Let go, let it pan out how it's going to and watch. You can observe without being attached. Oh well, I guess that relationship wasn't meant to last. Oh I guess that item wasn't meant to to last, you know, it broke, right? Or oh, I guess that job was no longer fitting, you know, it it no longer aligns with who I'm becoming. Oh, I guess that friend wasn't really a friend. Oh, I guess that family member can't seem to grow. So we're being removed from each other's lives, you know, because I'm growing. And if they wanted to stay bonded, stay a part of my life, whatever's, they would grow too. You know, the the art, it's 919 as I said that the art of letting go is going to open so many avenues, so many avenues of possibilities. Because when you let go the universe, God, source, creator, whatever you label the infinite being, okay, whatever you label, it doesn't matter. It's it's literally the same fucking thing. Um, and a lot of people don't understand that. Uh, but if you're interested in that topic, go check out religious ruminations, excuse me, sorry. Um I had to do a a raspberry to reset my brain, reset my tongue. Go check out religious ruminations. Anywho, make sure that you address my my content with an open mind and an open heart because I don't sugarcoat shit, right? Fuck. That's why you come to me, is because I'm not gonna candy coat it for you. You want The truth, you get the truth. You don't have to like the truth, but it doesn't make it any less true. Um I have a variety of topics and and points that I hit on. This is a rambling session where I just kind of talk at you about something that I feel feel the need to discuss, right? This is a rambling session, and there's no direction per se. I just say what comes to mind, the the points that come to thought. Um I discuss what I feel needs to be mentioned, right? Um, and then there are those episodes, those short tiny miniature clip episodes where I give you a question and you think about it. It has a couple of points to consider to help direct um the the process, but ultimately that work is up to you, right? And then I also have my testimonies. My personal testimonies are currently behind the subscriber wall. So if you want those, you have to go subscribe. Um, I'm not giving away pieces of myself without an energetic exchange, right? And money is energy. Um, I'm not in need of money, but it is an energetic exchange. Excuse me, I'm having to pick up these cards that I asked him to pick up that he's not doing. Anywho, um, so once again, if you're wanting my personal testimonies and and you want to listen to some of the shit that I've been through personally and lessons that I've learned through that shit, um, you you're gonna want to subscribe because you have full access to those once you subscribe. Um shit, where was I going? I got spun off on a tangent. Um, I think that I'm going to end this one there. Um, if you are curious about my other content, make sure that you do go to the link tree that I have. Um, it will be my name, Cataclysm Val. It should be linked below this episode. Um, I I edited my episode descriptions that it applies to all of my episodes to include it to make sure that it's being put out there. Um, I do have my socials on there as well if you want to go give me a follow so that you can stay up to date on all of my shenanigans. No, sir, get off of me. Me being down on the floor picking up your shit is not an invitation for you to climb on my back. Go away. I know, but it is not an invitation. Okay? Yeah, and I'm picking go away. Go away, crazy. You think you're cute stealing my straw out of my drink, but you gonna learn that I'm gonna take it back regardless. Excuse me, little one. Come on, thing two, move out of my way. But yes, um, sorry, this is extending out a little bit further than I anticipated because, like I said, I'm picking up these cards that my eldest son thought was cute to scatter everywhere for his little card reader. Um, I have a bag that I put them all in so that we can keep them contained. Anywho, oh, this was an interesting ramble session. But anyways, um, if you feel called to do so, make sure that you're you're subscribing and following and all the all the lovely things. Um if you if you need to have a heart-to-heart discussion, and it can be about anything, um, something that you're going through, or something that you're experiencing that you need a fresh set of eyes on, or a fresh perspective, or if it's just something that you want a cold hard truth about, you know, from your favorite feral oracle, I do offer paid messaging. Okay, you can have a conversation with me. 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Um, are you if you're grateful for the oh, excuse me. If you're grateful for the the content that I provide or the insights or the perspectives that I I put out there, um you can show your gratitude by dropping a tip or giving a gift, whatever's. But I'm gonna end that there because I don't want to sound clingy or needy or whatever, because I don't need it. I'm just letting you know that that is how you show your gratitude is energetically, whether it be through money, through gift giving, whatever's. Um, and I will be in the process of setting up a throne so that I can put like little trinkets that I like, you know, like gifts, actual gifts that you can send um to show gratitude instead of just doing money. If you feel that money is is is not exactly the avenue that you want to go or travel. What, my love? Yes, it's still stuck up there. Yeah. I don't know how that skinger got in the house, but I killed it the other night. It's still stuck up there. Uh, I haven't had the chance to plant down. I've been flowing with the chaos. But anywho, we're gonna end that right here. Oh, my voice cracked. Yeah, we're done. Um, this was Cataclysm Corner with Val. If something inside of you is twitching, good. That means it's working, baby. I'll catch you in the next disruption. Toodles.