Facing Fuckery

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Welcome to Cataclysm Corner. I'm your host, Thou. I don't give answers. I give awakenings. And if you're here, it's because something inside of you is already shifting. Let's poke it. What if I told you that the things that chase you don't chase you to torment you, but rather because they have something that you are meant to hold or know, or understand, or learn for that matter. I came across something earlier, and it kind of sparked a memory and a realization all at the same time. This reel that was discussing how your shadows and your fears, they they don't control you right. And you you have the control, you can turn around and face them. And turning around and facing them was the point that that triggered um this memory and this realization. When I was younger, I used to have some really, really fucking dark experiences. And I mean full-blown experiences, right? Um one example that I know is particularly universal is you know, the dream of falling or the dream of something lurking just over your shoulder, right? Well, those are two examples, but you get the point. Um and when I was younger, I don't know, maybe five, six years old. Um, I know it was before that before I broke my arm, but my time frame is quite wonky. Courtesy of trauma. But anywho, so I I learned something and I started implementing it. And this was the concept of my life, my rules, in one of its most basic fucking constructs. I stopped having those dreams and those experiences prominently and very repetitively because of one simple choice. Even though it was a simple choice, it was a very difficult choice. So don't undermine that part. Um, don't expect it to be easy if you decide to implement this practice. When I would realize that I was in these these dreams or these experiences or whatever the case or situation warranted, um, I would stop, center, face it, whether that involved me turning around, looking up, whatever. I would face it and put my foot down. You don't run this shit. I do. This is my life, my experience, and I don't want to have to fucking keep looking over my shoulder for you or keep feeling like this, or you know, whatever the case warrants, right? Um, but I would basically turn around and be like, no, I'm not fucking doing this. What do you want? What do you want? What do you need? What do I need? What are you carrying that you keep fucking trying to deliver to me? And for some reason fear is getting the better of me, and I keep running. Nope. Not no more. What the fuck you want? It's that simple. And so that was the memory portion, and the realization is I've unknowingly done this practice my whole life with multiple situations, multiple things or experiences, and hell. I even teach my kid, um, and I'm speaking of my eldest, not my youngest, because my youngest isn't quite to that level of communication and comprehension. Um, but I teach my eldest because my eldest is super sensitive. Uh, and that's fine, that's a gift. But we need to not let it overwhelm you, right? So here's the thing. You get scared at night when we lay down to go to bed because you hear shit or you see shit or what have you. But here's the thing: you can tell them to fucking leave. You have the authority. Oh, you have a bad nightmare. Well, in the nightmare, turn the fuck around and tell them leave you alone. You ain't gotta tolerate that shit. You don't have to fucking put up with that shit. You can very well control that instance, control that outcome. You just have to know that you have the power to do so. You just have to understand that you are a consciousness running around this earth in a fucking meat suit just for the experience. So let me ask you. What do you want to experience? Seriously. Do you want to experience your fear controlling you? Do you want to experience you tearing yourself apart, shredding yourself along the journey? Or do you want to experience being whole? If you do, that involves going back and picking up all the shit that you abandoned on your path so far. Just to fucking, you know, progress forward as whole. You have to do that work. You can't just leave it lying there, otherwise, you're gonna be missing pieces of yourself. Do you want to experience joy and happiness and gratefulness? Cause that starts with loving self, you know. That that has to start somewhere. And it needs a fucking foundation, right? Don't build your foundation on flimsy, whimsical, aloof bullshit that's not gonna last. Don't cement your structure in something that is bound to crumble at a point. Root yourself in itself. That's all you have anyways. Materialistic shit doesn't exist. Not fully. I mean, sure it exists on this plane in this realm in the 3D, but as for substance, it's all energy. There's no uh there's no distinct distinct substance to it. Everything is energy. It is. And I know that sounds quite woo-woo, but it is what it is. Sorry, my kids are playing in the background and I'm trying to stay on this note, not let my brain go, wee left field. Um so seriously though, what do you want to experience? And why are you standing in your own way? Why are you refusing to confront that fear, refusing to confront that feeling of whatever, whether it be shame, guilt, fear, um, abandonment, rejection, uh, everything has a lesson, and you are meant to learn things from everything that you experience. That's that's the goal. May not be your mission, but that's the goal at least. Your point is to be here to experience, to learn, and to grow. That's it. Experience, learn, and grow. Anywho, I'm gonna call this episode there. I have a few things that I have to do. Um, if you enjoy my content, if my content sparks or soothes something within you, and you would like to follow me more, um, you can hop on that link. Uh the link tree in my bio. Um, I think I put it, I think I put it in the description of the episodes. I'm not sure. I'll have to check. But anywho. Anyways, if you feel called to follow me more and see what else I'm up to or other shenanigans that I throw out onto the fucking field, uh all my shit's on my bio. All my shit's on that link. Um, go ahead and wander through my little shadow forest. I'll catch you in the next disruption. Totals.