Healing Ascent [Ext. of Healing Rambler]

Healing Ascent is a milestone celebration marking Cataclysm Corner’s first 100 downloads across 26 countries. This episode extends the journey begun in Healing Rambler, diving deeper into the brutal, beautiful climb of confronting your first mountain. Expect raw honesty, chaotic toddler interruptions, ascension sniffles, gratitude tears, and the truth about what real shadow work demands. If something inside you twitches while listening, good. That means it’s working.

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Welcome. I'm your host, Val. I don't give answers. I give awakenings. And if you're here, it's because something inside of you is already beginning to shift. Let's poke it. Oh, excuse me. I'm a little bit sniffly today. I've got some ascension. Um shit, what's the word? I just lost it. Oh, I have some ascension symptoms going on. That's what I was trying to say. Okay. Hi, welcome. If you're just finding this episode, this episode is a mini celebration of my podcast reaching a hundred episode downloads. So if you're just finding us and this is the one that you decide to go for, let me tell you, you are missing so much more. So much more. Go check out the rest of my shit. Anywho, I just want to start by expressing my gratitude. I am so grateful and so thankful for everyone that has not only downloaded my episodes because it shows that what I am putting out there is resonating with many. And by many, I mean so many. I am astounded that I already have 26 different countries downloading my content. Thank you. So grateful. Oh, excuse me. For this episode, I have decided to extend upon my top performing episode, which is Healing Rambler. So if you're interested in that, go check it out. Um, do excuse the chaos of my children. However, it has some good information and some good keys to the type of work that I do. So, with that said, we're going to dive into it. Um, I am celebrating across all of my forums. Um, my podcast is getting this extended episode of Healing Rambler. Um, my TikTok is getting all sorts of stuff. Um Instagram and Facebook is getting the episode update. You know, hey, hot new episode. Um so if you're curious about the other stuff that I offer and put out there, um do check out my link tree. It's in the description, it's in my bio, it's literally everywhere. So if you're interested or feel called to, or hell, if you're just nosy, that's okay too. Go check it out. Go check it out. There's probably something somewhere for you. Anywho, so we're gonna go ahead and get started. In my healing rambler episode, I talk about how it stems from awareness, awareness of the wound, and how you go on to address that particular shadow. And in this episode, I want to extend and include bits and pieces from that particular episode because, like I said, it is my top performer as of currently. Uh-huh. Um, so sorry, my nose is like stuffy, and I'm draining. Oh my goodness. Okay. Oh, goodness gracious. Bless you, goodness. Oh, my little man was sneezing. He got into some dust. Okay, so I speak on the awareness and how you move forward from said awareness in the episode Healing Rambler. But for this one, I want to talk about the difficulty. Healing an internal wound, whether it be a mother wound, a father wound, a sister wound, rejection, um, doubt of self. It doesn't matter. Okay, it doesn't matter the type of wound, but when it goes to the work that is put in, it's not sunshine and rainbows and kittens and you know, all the pleasant descriptors that I could even imagine. Um, it's hard. And that is the biggest understatement of the year. It is extremely difficult to look at the broken pieces of self. It is extremely difficult because you think by proxy that you are broken. And in some ways you are, but at the same time, the break is part of the journey, it's part of the story, and it's part of your development. And I kind of talk about that a little bit in my episode called Kitsugi's Shadow. Um, and that episode really talks about how you go through and you pick up all your broken pieces and abandoned pieces and all of that, and you apply the art of Kitsugi to repair and and make something far more beautiful than the broken thing that you are currently in possession of, right? Um sorry, excuse me. Um so I just want you to know that healing is not something that someone should take on lightly, and it shouldn't be something that you look at and go, Oh, I can do that easy peasy. Because let me tell you, it's not gonna be easy peasy. It's gonna be very fucking hard. Very fucking hard. It's a series of what the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck? Oh, that's a big emotion, huge emotion. Um, it's being riddled with depression and doubt and scared and and unsure and it's literally destroying the foundation that you have, the broken foundation that you have, so that you can build a solid foundation with all of your parts and pieces. Healing is a difficult but necessary journey. And I mention in Healing Rambler that healing is never done. And it's the truth, it's it's an ongoing journey, it is an ongoing process. But I will tell you this once you get through the brunt of it, the the initial overwhelming overload, once you get through that first mountain, you will develop the tools and the tactics that you need to move forward in your healing journey. And once you have those tools, it is much easier to confront shadows and handle your shadow work. If and I'm not trying to plug myself, so so don't think that I'm doing this for advertisement purposes, but if you need help tackling that first mountain of healing, I do have shadow sessions available, and it's not just for the first mountain, it's for any shadow that you feel that you need assistance with processing or locating the root or whatever's any sort of assistance, okay. I do offer shadow sessions, and that's it. Okay, I'm not gonna be promotional or anything like that. I just wanted to mention it for those that need it. Oh, excuse me, child. Sorry. My children like to intervene in my episodes, and if this is the first episode that you pick, this is a soft episode by comparison because there are many episodes where they are all up in it. Anywho, I just I just want to to say that you are very capable, you are very capable of doing your inner work because there is nothing inside yourself that will harm yourself as long as you do not let it. Yes, things will be difficult. Yes, things make it scary at a point, and yes, everything will fucking crumble when you start on this journey. It will come in like a fucking wrecking ball and absolutely demolish the broken foundations that you have lived upon for so many years, and yeah, it can be scary, and yeah, you may get filled with dread at certain points, but as long as you keep hold of that desire to better yourself, you can make it through. And what's waiting on the other side is better than you can even begin to fathom. There is so much wonder and beauty that waits for you, and the only thing you have to do is make yourself whole again, and that is why that first mountain, that first shadow, is going to be so difficult to navigate and so difficult to conquer because it is the foundation, it is the core, and once you dissolve the core and replace it, the rest of the shadows that come to light, you can work through them as they come along. You don't have to go digging, you don't have to go seeking them out. What you do have to do is address them when they arise. Continue doing the work whenever they appear, whenever the shadows appear. Take the lessons that you learned and the tools that you acquired on that first mountain and apply it to every shadow that arises and comes forward at any given point past that first mountain. You don't have to go digging. Like I said, you don't have to go searching for the next shadow to work on. It will come to you, and when it does, you look at it and you go, Okay, I can deal with you. I can work on you. I have the tools, I am strong, I am capable. Right? Once you conquer that first mountain, you become so certain of yourself, so certain within yourself that you can confront and handle anything that comes your way. Because you tackled that mountain. Yeah, it becomes a pleasant experience at that point because once you tackle that first mountain, once you tackle that first mountain, you look at all the other mountains like oh, a new adventure, oh, a new piece of myself that I can heal and remodel and refurbish, right? You start looking at things differently, it shifts your entire perspective. Why am I crying? I'm okay, baby. I know mom is crying. I'm not sure why. I think it's a mixture of gratitude and and realization that people are doing the work. People are loving my content. I'm making a difference. Thank you. Thank you for wiping my teeth. I'm okay. I'm okay, I promise. Sorry guys, I had my eyes start leaking on me. And then my two-year-old was like so concerned. He was looking at me with that, are you okay, mama? Why are you crying, mama? And then he started wiping my tears. I love you too. I love you too, stinker bud. Yeah, I'm okay. You go play. You go play. Mama's trying to do a celebratory episode extension. Yeah, you go play. Yeah, go play. Okay. Okay. Oh man. Okay, so where was I? Shit. Yes, once you make it through that first mount, everything becomes easier. And it's not to say that everything that will come up after that point is going to be easy to address. That's not what I'm saying. Because every shadow poses its own difficulties and its own triggers and its own problems that you need to resolve and handle and address. Right. But by easier, I mean you're not going to feel as lost, as hopeless, as confused, as destroyed as you do when you take on that first initial mount. There is a lot that comes from that mount, that first mount. Not only does it shred your foundation and give you the space to build a new foundation, a more solid, excuse me, for confirmation. Not only does it allow you to make space and build a solid foundation, but it becomes more flexible. Consider your broken foundation being immovable. You know, you until you start your healing journey, it feels like, oh, this is just who I am, this is how I am, this is what I am, right? But once you start that healing journey, you realize, oh, that wasn't mine. That was something that was projected onto me, or something that was a cage that that you know confined who I truly am. You know, it it it dimmed my light, it caused me to abandon pieces of myself, you know, all of these things, right? It allows you to realize that your foundation is not meant to be unmoving. It is meant to be flexible, it is meant to allow you to go with the flow, to move unhindered, unrestricted. Your foundation is meant to be solid, yes, but it's supposed to be flexible at the same time. And just because those two things contradict each other does not mean that both cannot be true at the same time. Sorry, a moment of peace. I'm trying to gather my thoughts and think if there's anything else that I want to spin off on. I just want to remind you that as I said earlier, and as I've said in much of my content, especially on TikTok, healing is not easy. It is definitely the road less traveled. But your path is not meant to be traveled by others, darling. Your path is for you. And yes, you may find semblance and resonance with others that are on similar paths because we are not a solitary species. We are meant to have community, okay? And some of that community is not meant to be permanent. People come, people go. Okay. Not everybody is meant to be a part of your life forever. Some people serve as lessons, some people serve as confirmation. People serve many purposes, but your overall journey is yours alone. You may find people that will walk alongside you for various periods, whether it be a week, a month, a year, ten years, and they are meant to be a part of your life for those periods. When it comes time to outgrow and move on, you have to release and let go with grace. For example, the past couple weeks up until probably about three, maybe four days ago. I don't know, it was Monday. Today is hold on one second. Today is Wednesday, so it's been today is day three. Oh no, it was Sunday whenever I released it. So four days now. Excuse me, my my time is fluid, it does not conform to societal constraints. Anywho, so the past couple weeks up until a few days ago, I have been participating in a specific Taoist live stream. Um, I felt called to align with this stranger. Hell, I still don't even know his name. But anyways, I felt aligned, I felt called to align with this person for a period. And we had lessons for each other. We didn't specify the lessons, but both of us became aware and uh did the integration to move forward. So this companionship only lasted for probably about two weeks, solidly, completely, right? Um, and I learned several things from him, and he learned several things from me. Um and it was it was very unique, uh in the way that in the way that I discovered him and the way that we developed a symbiotic cooperation because it wasn't a relationship, it was a cooperation within such a short amount of time. Um, I basically became an unofficial moderator for his live stream. I sat in there and I guided and directed viewers, you know. Hey, this is what the live stream does, this is how he operates, this is, you know, what you do to enter the queue. Um, and then this is the queue order, you know. I was I provided structure to his flow, and he taught me how to better embody flow state. Um, I had a lot of self-doubt when it came to my messages and if it was reaching the people that it was meant to reach, and if it was teaching and providing what it was meant to do, right? So he showed me that progress isn't always visible, right? Um, sometimes it's a repeated action with no particular outcome, you know? So where was I even going with this? No, don't throw that at me. This goes on the fridge, dude. Here. Put it on the fridge. Yep. Shit, where was I going? No, not the trash. No, no, no. Are you kidding me, dude? Now it's all dirty. I wanted you to put it on the fridge. The refrigerator. Crazy boy. Okay. Um shit. I was talking about the the symbiotic town moment. But so, oh yes, because I was talking about how people aren't a permanency. Okay. So even though that we had lessons for each other, we took those lessons and then moved forward without clinging. And in all in all honesty, I enjoyed, I enjoyed his live streams for the the energy that was present, the the vibe, I guess you could say, um, as well as the tapestry that was behind him. And it's wild because I sat there for like a week and a half, staring at this tapestry, this this poster, whatever, that was behind him, going, why am I so drawn to this? Why does this keep catching my eye? What is what is calling me? And it finally dawned on me like two days before we moved on, so to speak. Because I do still check in with them. I'll check in and say, good morning, town friend, you know, how you doing, whatever's. Um, and then I log off, log out, you know, go do my own shit, whatever. So we we do have a companionship still, but we're not actively working together anymore. I'm no longer moderating for him. He has finally fully embodied his flow. Um, I brought sovereignty to the mix. Um, I showed him how to shut down um trolls and and the shit starters without breaking flow. I showed him how to keep the flow going with new viewers, you know, like, hey, this is this is what I need from you, this is what I offer. You know, I I showed him the structure for his flow so that he could keep people structurized instead of going chaotic in his live stream chat. Anywho, no, you do not need in the fridge. You just want to play in my sauces. You do not need the sauces. You can be mad, but you're not gonna scream at me. Would you like a yogi? Here, would you like a yogi? Mama, give you a yogi. Yummy. Um. I want a yogi. No? Okay, go. Once again, I apologize for the interruptions. I have feral gremlins. They like to interject themselves into my content. They are never visible. If they are visible, I redo the content. However, vocal, audibly, they are present. Hi. Anyhow. Oh, yes. That's where I was. Okay. So I was staring at this tapestry and I was like, what? You know, what is it? Not what is the tapestry, but what is calling me, what is drawing me, what is summoning my awareness. And then it dawned on me. Like two days before um we finished our collaboration. I know those symbols. I recognize those symbols. Where do I know them from? Something told me. Go look through your decks. Go look through your collection of tarot decks, Oracle decks, all of that stuff. Go look through them. It's like okay. So I went. I started looking. And I found it. I found the reason why I was called to his stream. Not just for the lessons that we had to give each other, but for the discovery that I made. I have an I Ching deck. I have a traditional I Ching deck. The one with the 64 pattern cards. They're called hexagrams. But also, it has the three coins. So I was like, okay. So I got my i ching deck out. And I was like, what? What do I need to do, spirit? You know what what is my purpose of having this? And I will clarify by saying that I did not specifically order this deck. This deck, my I Ching deck, came in a mystery order. I had been called at one point several months ago, um, around my birthday last year, actually, uh, October. So I had been called to gift myself like three mystery decks. Um, and I had ordered these decks and they came in. I didn't know what I was expecting. Like I said, they were mystery. Here. Here you go, my love. Be careful, okay? Do not swallow it. Sorry, I just gave my little one a heart candy. He's old enough. Anywho. Oh, you don't like it? Yeah. Bubba doesn't like him either. I'm the only one that likes butterscotch candies. Anywho. So what do you want, child? You keep interrupting and I keep losing my train of thought. What do you want, honey? Anywho, so I didn't specifically seek out, seek out, sorry, this I ching deck. It came to me. Whether it be randomness, alignment, whatever, whatever the case may be, this deck came to me. It chose me. And so I was sitting there and I was like, okay, what are we doing? You know, what is your purpose for being here, right? You know, why why'd you choose me? What are we doing together? What are we meant to build together? How are we gonna work together? You know, I'm asking all the hard questions, right? And I start shuffling and I'm you know going through it and everything, and then I'm like, oh shit, you're a pattern deck, right? Because the I Ching is built on 64 different patterns, and it's a beautiful deck, really. I love it. Um, I have touched it every fucking day since, and by that I mean I've done work with it, like whether it be bonding, um gossiping, joking, um, insight, whatever. You know, like this has inadvertently become my favorite deck, 100%. I I am obsessed with this deck. I love it. And the way that we work together is so beautifully chaotic, it's unreal. But anywho, that's not the purpose of this this episode. And I'm gonna be wrapping it up shortly because I'm already at 37 minutes. Oh my god. Okay, child, you're driving me nuts, dude. Well, well, you won't. It's the same thing this is crazy. Anywho, so oh yeah. Ooh, rambler rambling sessions are insane, a hundred percent. And I have quite a few that are rambler sessions. Uh and if you've listened to any of my other rambler sessions, you realize that it is pure fucking flow state. Um, whatever comes to me comes to y'all. Um the thoughts, I just follow them. And there's random keys hidden within every single one of my Rambler sessions, and that's the way that they're meant to be. Um, so with that said, I'm gonna go ahead and close this out because I feel like I'm fixing to start cycling and circling back to touch on shit, and I don't want to be repetitive. Um, so with that said, I'm gonna celebrate one more time with you all. Thank you. Thank you so much. I'm so grateful for all of my listeners, all of my viewers, um, and all of the people that are either listening, following, supporting, um, embracing, doing their own fucking work. I love you all. A hundred percent. Um this was Cataclysm Corner with Val. If something inside of you is twitching, good. It's meant to. That means it's working. Be sure to go check out all of my other stuff if you feel called to do so. I will be ending this year. Thank you again. Y'all have a wonderful day. Until next time, I will catch you in the next disruption.