Ep. 9 No Creeps, No Kings, Marketing, Cults, and Vulnerability

This episode gets a bit raw. Unleashing the truth and speaking from my heart. I guess this gets a bit heated and spicy. Just standing on points that I feel in my depths of being. We have a responsibility as humans to make sure our future generations get set up on good solid paths or our existence as a humanity will dimmish. 

I have a heart for protecting certain communities and I clearly voice that opinion in this episode. I almost didn't post this due to pressing of buttons and maybe striking a cord but... We live in a weird weird time right now and speaking one's truth should be a freedom we all can experience and utilize. 

Protect those you care about and don't be in a cult or an asshole.

Much love Peeps!

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Transcript

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Hi, boom, chicka bow bow, chicka, chicka, brown cow. I don't know. It's so good to be here again with you guys. Can you all hear me? Can you all see me? Can you all groove with me? Yes, we are on episode nine. My collie, how fast did we get here? Episode nine, I believe. Yes, yes, yes, yes. I just I just sat down. I I just got into the studio, right? I just got back from the studio and I went out, had some lunch at Paulding Pancake House. Big shout out to Paulding Pancake House. They got a bacon cheeseburger going on today for a special and melted pot scale. So if you guys are like, I want a little breakfast, I want a little bit of a cheeseburger, go to Paulding Paulding Pancake House and get yourself some cheeseburgers, right? Anyway, I'm a big sucker for cheeseburger. This whole episode is not going to be about cheeseburgers, I promise you guys. But I've been getting some good feedback about my podcast. And, you know, like I've said before, this is a creative expression, a creative outlet for me. I'm an auditory person. I like I like audio, right? I'm a I'm a stereo person. I like music. If I could just, you know, submerge myself in lights and sound, it it'd be it'd be a wonderful thing, right? It'd be a lovely, wonderful thing. And you know, sometimes I I think how how cool it would be. So after hours, when I'm I'm either like cleaning or I'm doing something with my massage office, you know, some of you guys know that I have a home-based office. So when I'm when I'm at, you know, it'll be like 10, 10:30, you know, 11 o'clock at night, and I'm just in here hanging out, being a wildling, and I'll I'll like change them, change the lights in the room, right? I have like these color-changing lights on there that used to be in my Fort Wayne office. My Fort Wayne office was more magical, but since combining offices, I'm like, you know what? I've I've really got to have the magic in my holding office because I feel comfortable, right? It's about me feeling comfortable within my own my own body and my own mind to be able to give these transformative sessions to my clients. So that's what I love. So at night, my room kind of transforms a little bit into this this dance club kind of styled place, and I love it. And I often think to myself how cool it would be just to have some like some like bass music going on in here, some like nice club jams, uh, some low tempo fi, right? Chill tempo, right? And doing some some massage to that, you know. I don't know. Definitely not the cranial work because when there's a lot of bait uh oh no, here come the yawns. When there is a lot of drums, I I start to, especially like rhythmic drumming. So I I tend to veer away from like tribal music, stuff like that. I really like frequencies and sounds that are more tones. And like I've I usually when I do a cranial work, I put on a it's like a galaxy like sleep, galaxy sleep sounds or something like that, or like floating through space music. It's just real airy and real slow, and there's not much actual music to it. But anyway, those are good things. And I don't even know why I got into uh talked about this, the things that I do, right? So last night I was having all these epiphanies, I was just hanging out, chilling, doing what I do, and I was just chilling, right? But uh night, it's so funny. I almost recorded a podcast it last night, and I was just I was spitting this stuff out in my head. And I I I I live by myself, right? So I I don't have you know people running around being like, oh, do this, do that, do this, do that for me, right? And it's it's nice, so it's super chill when I have time to buy myself and and I can just kind of really uh you know work on my own things, right? So I can organize around here, I can read. Lately I've been doing some classes to get better at doing mouthwork for my clients, intra or intra-oral work to open up their sinus cavities, open up their their cheekbones, work with their jaw, right? Opening all that stuff up and all that's good fun. But I've been I've been taking classes to get more confident both in my skills and then to also help with clients who might be a little skittish about it and like, I don't know, a massage therapist in my mouth. What do you mean? But if you're already familiar with receiving cranial sacral therapy, it's the same thing, right? So it's that same very gentle feeling, it's very safe, it's very grounded, and it's it's confident now. Now I've I've you know, I I always get in my head, be like, well, am I good enough? Am I confident enough? Am I secure enough? Right. But the thing is, like, I already know it. I know it so well. I know I know it so well because I study it all the time and I love this stuff, and and I love you know doing this. So right now I'm I'm just working on creating a better therapeutic presence so I can be a better therapist, right? And then when I create a better craniocral therapist presence, right, as a as a CST practitioner, when I have a better presence and I'm more aware of what's going on in my own body, and I pay attention to what's going on in my body through listening to my hands and in conversation with your body's inner physician, it's kind of like we're working in synchrony and we're working together to uncover some of the things that are going on that are, you know, subperceptual. So something that I've been working on doing myself is cultivating more of my meditative practice again. And I've been meditating upon waking, waking, wakening, waking up. So in the mornings when I my first roll out of bed, instead of checking my phone, I'll do a gratitude practice, you know, start start thinking of things that I'm gratitude, gratituding for, grateful for, and appreciative of. So I've been doing that, and that's been good. That's been really good. It's a little bit of a game changer. I try to do it before bed, but usually before bedtime is a little f a little funky. So there's a yawn again. There's I don't know, when you first get up out of bed, your brain is in that different state, right? And we're we're we've yet to open up to the world. Remember, you know, we're we're at the place where, you know, right before we have to remember who we are with the things that we're going through, the situations and circumstances, right? Maybe you have to remember the bills. That happened to me yesterday. Full vulner vulnerability moment, right? So I was supposed to go over to the school to do some chair massage for a few staff members as part of an appreciation. And I was really excited the night before, and I I got up the day of and I looked at my emails, and I started seeing, you know, different things popping up, like, hey, you've got this bill coming up, you've got this bill coming up. Oh, remember that electric bill, you know, you've got your car payment coming up. And I started kind of getting into my head, and I, you know, this is full vulnerability, right? So I always think I'm not doing enough. And, you know, I I can study all that I love, I can read all the books, I can create therapeutic presence presence, I can do more meditation, I can do so much for myself. But I I have a really hard time of getting getting my business name in front of other people, right? And I don't know if it's a northwest Ohio thing, you know, our area is not very health conscious, especially mental health conscious. It's just not, you know, it's it's it's not. And a lot of people, they they just kind of I I don't know, I I this is probably self-perceptions, but a lot of it just feels like it's being swept under the rug, and nobody's like, oh, wait a minute, this guy can help me with my pain and my stress in a completely natural, non-invasive, evidence-based, clinical way that my doctor don't even know? Hmm, what's up with that? You know, why not look into that? But a lot of people around here were like, Pishposh, he doesn't have a doctorate, he don't know what he's talking about. He's not a physical therapist, right? Something like that. And it just it it grinds my gears a little bit because I'm I'm trying really hard. And you know, it's I don't know, it's it's just one of those weird things, right? But you know, I I I you know, a lot, a lot of it is I want to find my people. I want to find really good people who are honest, who are caring, who are kind, and who are invested in themselves, right? And I've been taking some trainings to help with that lately, and it's been really good. But you know, I I feel like anytime I I get on Facebook Live, well not Facebook Live, I haven't done a Facebook Live, maybe that's the key. But anytime I I get on and I make like a reel on Facebook or on Instagram or something, you know, it gets like two likes. And it's like, oh man, but that was some really good stuff, you know. I I really spoke from my heart and I'm I'm really trying. And it's like, what, you know, what can I do? You know, but it it really comes down to when you have a small business, it's about who you know. And I don't know a lot of people in in this community, you know, anymore. And I I did when I was younger, and you know, I worked at the grocery store for four years. I worked for Verizon here for I don't know, it was probably about a year when it was here in town. And I worked for Marco's pizza for a little while too when I was just finishing up Bassage Therapy School. Oh my goodness. There's another yawn. And is that three or four? Anyway. But yeah, so I I always think that a lot of people know me here, but they really don't. And I it's hard for me to get out and and mingle a little bit. I'm working on that. I'm really working on that. So I feel like the work that I did a couple weeks ago with my friend doing the Cortina method that I spoke about in last session has helped. You know, even when I'm doing this podcast, even earlier today, I recorded a really cool video for Facebook and I put that out there. But I can tell in the way that I'm speaking, I feel that I'm speaking more from my truth. And I'm I'm so much less worried about how I'm perceived than whatever, but but now it's just it's it's like figuring trying to figure out who you know who I can get in front of where I'm not wasting my time. You know, I don't want to, I don't want to go to, you know, not long ago, I reached out to the local chamber of commerce and I was like, hey guys, I I really need some help with marketing. I really need people to know that there's a small business in this town that's focusing on stress and pain from a specialist perspective, right? From a totally natural health perspective. And all we got to do is just listen to your body. It's so easy, it's so simple. I have a beautiful office, you know, all these things. But their their big option, right, for marketing is come to a Koanis Club meeting. Okay. And I I did that one, a couple times. I went to the Koanis Club and you know, I sat there and it just it really feels culty to me. You know, they were saying the Pledge of Allegiance, they say prayers, they, you know, raise money for children, which is isn't bad, right? But at the same time, there's things that are happening there, like I I don't know. I it maybe it's just me being around too much and like seeing too much and knowing too much and seeing people for who people are. I'm not a surface level person, you know. So when people get around there and they're like, oh, you know, how's how's the cubbies doing or something? I don't know. I I don't talk sports. It's just an example. But you know, when people keep it surface level, you know, and they don't really go deep, I'm just like, ugh, you know, I mean, if if they want to talk about music or something like that that like moves them, you know, I'll be happy to talk about that. But when I hear it's just the same humdrum bibli bum, I'm just like, meh, you know, meh, what is this? So some of that stuff gets to me, right? And one of the very last Kowanas Club meetings that I went to, I was there as a guest and I was just observing and listening, and you know, and there's nice people there. It's not the people, right? There's some very sweethearts in this club, right? Super sweet people who are doing some super sweet things for the community. It's just, it's not my vibe. You know, I I feel like an outsider there. I I seem like an outsider there. When I speak, I'm an outsider there, you know. I have this weird little eclectic knowledge that not a lot of people in my community either know of or appreciate. And that is what it is, right? But the last time that I was there, there was this religious group, right? They're known as LifeWise. Lifewise, perhaps you've heard of it. Perhaps they have come to a small community near you. And LifeWise is super sketch. Okay, I'm not even gonna sugarcoat it. That whole thing is super sketch. Apparently, since they they started in 2018, they've generated 50 million dollars, and it's this organization that goes in and they take children out of school, they have to leave the school property, so they're taken out of school, transported somewhere, so usually close, right? Nothing crazy, not a crazy state lines or anything like that, right? But they're taken out of school where they're protected, they're under security, right? And their family knows that they're there and safe and everything like that. So they're taken away from all that to go learn about Christianity, national Christian nationalism, right? That's what's happening. It's not any other religion, right? If it was, that'd be cool. If it was like, oh, okay, we're just gonna go learn about religion, you know, and every every week we talk about a different religion. That could be interesting, right? Why not? But no, it's not. It's very specific, very Christian nationalism, okay? That's what it is. And then if you look at the the the paper trail behind it, you'll find that it goes to the Heritage Foundation, which links, you know, Trump people, Project 2025 stuff, all these things, right? And it's just it's disgusting, right? It's disgusting. And they've been losing children, they've had multiple liabilities. A lot of the people who teach these children are not educators, they're not teachers, they're not credentialed to be working with kids whatsoever. In fact, well, I'm not even gonna go there, but these people are not to be trusted, right? I I know I know a I know a person who who teaches life-wise, and it's like, what? What he's teaching kids? Oh dear. But yeah, that's that's another thing. But it's it's not good. It's no bueno. So they had uh the day that I went to this marketing thing to meet other business-minded people who like could help me market, this is what I was presented with was this creepy, culty, I don't know. You know, the this this presses some buttons here, I'm sure. And I'm a little button presser, right? But this really has pedophile vibes written all over it. I mean, even if you look at the dude who created the program down in Hilliard, Ohio, Joel something or other, I it sucks that he's got the same name that I do. But dude looks like a big old creep. He looks like a creep. And he actually reminds me of one of my high school buddies who is a super big creep. And yeah, I don't know. I don't I don't deal with creeps anymore. I I had a couple, you know, and I I don't deal with creeps, and I don't deal with people who, you know, like are creepy with kids. Okay. I'm very protective of kids. You know, I've I might have even talked about this already before, but I've taken a lot of life development classes, and I I work with a lot of people who are, you know, have trauma, especially young trauma, when they're younger and they can't voice their their opinions or they're invalidated, right? I I do a lot of trauma resolution with that. So sometimes in a session, the little the inner child, right, will come forward and speak for the adult. And when that happens, it you know, you just you realize how vulnerable kids are and you know how how they're affected by these things. Whether they they're aware that it's happening to them or not, maybe they're they're you know, awful as it to say, but maybe they're just too young to know, right? But I have I've cut ties with people in my life that I know have, you know, manipulated children or done something to coerce children into terrible things, right? One of my really good, uh two of my really good friends, really, really good friends, you know, I had to completely cut ties with him because I had a memory come back. It was like last year, sometime last winter, but I had a memory come back from years ago, where you know, he bait he basically got caught with having these pictures on his phone of like his wife's kid, you know, and and then he all this stuff, right? And it's it's just terrible, right? It's terrible. And she beat beat the shit out of him, which she should have, but she didn't leave him, you know. She didn't leave him, the kid's still over there. It's like, okay, you're in this place with this predator and you know it, and you're fine with it. I don't know that it it really grinds my gears that they're just like walking around like like nothing ain't happened, right? And then they're also a part of this cult that's that's like a pedophile cult, and they have no idea, and they're completely immersed in it. So I had to step away from that friendship and just wash my hands of them and be like, you know what, I'm totally done, and they do not deserve an explanation. This is the most public explanation you'll ever hear, probably, about that. And you know, it it sucks. It really sucks to lose such a good friend in such a small area where there's very few like-minded people, but but I I I won't stand for that stuff anymore. I won't stand for kids being harmed, I won't stand for parents abusing children or putting them in bad situations, right? I will not. It's just it's just not part of part of my ethical moral code, I guess. I don't know. Man, this has been a weird episode. I don't even know where this went, right? I just sat down and I was like, I gotta do this. Time's running out, and I got some plans for Thursday night tonight. So it's it's Thursday when I'm recording this, uh, Thursday, May 14th. And I got some plans for tonight. So I don't have a lot of time this evening to sit down and record, but we're doing it now. So I don't know. That was that was your episode for this week, ladies and gentlemen. It went all over the place, but but the main thing that I want to just instill with you here as we're wrapping this up, right? Like I said, I don't want these to go over 20 minutes because y'all don't know anybody here and me a rant forever. But protect children for real. You know, as we see from the dictator Tot, who is ruling with his golden throne from his his baby fooler style life, right? Pedophilia trip trickles downhill, right? It's no good. No good whatsoever. Right. And now we're starting to see like a lot of people being busted by this stuff because the people who are tired of it, sick and tired of it, are actually standing up and stepping forward and just being like, you know what, no more of this. You're gonna go to jail, you know. It's about about time, bang time. So anyway, as we're recapping, like I said, you know, take care of kids, make sure they're not in shady situations, you know, ask them, get them to tell, get them to open up, get them to talk about it, get them to understand about it, right? I'm not saying you have to force your opinion upon them. I'm saying get them to be able to be more open and like educate and like talk about it. Because as our world gets weird and the weirdos remain in power, right? Because they've got so much so much influence over the the other people, right? We're normalizing that, right? We totally have a a king right now who should be in jail for taking over this country, you know? I don't know. I don't know. And if if you don't agree with that politically and you're like, I'm done with this show, then then then bye bye, you know, bye-bye. But for real, we have to take accountability, we have to speak forward, and we have to get a little bit more courageous about it. But yeah, I don't know. That was today's episode. It was a weird one. Sorry about that. I don't know. Like I said, I just sit down and I pound these out and I speak my truth. A lot of it is just getting my truth out there, you know, whatever it may be. And sure it's opinion, but it's still my show, right? Anyway, thank you for tuning into the Wizard of Wonder podcast. It's been real great, and I hope you guys take good care of yourselves and have a really cool weekend. We'll see you guys on the next show. Bye.