Ep. 14 I See You Human, I've Got You

Today's episode it more light hearted and chill. Afterwork goofing around on a Friday evening. I'm a bit all over in this episode after recording a pretty solid one earlier in the day but forgetting to make sure my recording device was set to my microphone vs laptop mic. Ah well. We still had fun and covered some cool topics. I hope my little yapping sessions with you all resonates on some degree and you are finding encouragement to just be your raw awesome self because the world right now needs more authenticity and badassery as we evolve and churn.

I hope you are all taking good care of your whole being mind, body, and spirit.

Enjoy this episode and enjoy the upcoming Summer Solstice!!

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Transcript

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Hello, my friends. It's so good to be back with you today. So this is the 14th episode of Wizard of Wonder Podcast. You made it. I'm glad you're here. I'm really glad you're here. This is just like I said, you know, my little cozy corner to sit down with you guys and be real with you guys, and it's a creative outlet for me. So I I love sharing. I think I don't know, it it's it's a fun time of uh, you know, really understanding myself. You know, I'm in a really cool space right now. It's difficult, but it's cool to just kind of be with myself. And I I think I've owed myself this for a long time. So the last episode we talked pretty heavily about some heavy things. So thank you guys for listening to that. Anyone who did, I know it's a lot lengthier than my normal sessions. So today we're gonna get back to our normal programming of around 20 minutes. But obviously, as you guys could probably tell, it was it was a really good episode, and I'm I'm very passionate about that subject. I think sharing I was I was just thinking last night, I was like, okay, you know, what am I gonna talk about or whatever? And I, you know, I was planning an episode and I it totally slipped my mind because this week went so fast that it was Thursday night, and I actually had some free time in the evening, a little bit that I could have sat down and recorded this podcast, but lo and behold, it's almost five o'clock here on a Friday, and I'm just kind of finishing my day, so I'm like, okay, let's let's record this. Yeah. But I was thinking last night, it's like, okay, well, you know, why did why did I really feel the need to talk about all that and like open up about it and be a little bit more real, right? And I think it's just because I want to, I'm shedding layers of like vulnerability, right? About who who I used to be and how different I am now. Because I I had to go through a lot of those dark, heavy, difficult experiences. And I mean, I I saw myself into some dark deep places, you know. I I didn't share some stories with you guys. It and you know, once to get once again to reiterate, like I don't really recommend that journey for people. You know, that was my journey, that was my experience. Maybe it resonates with other people. Maybe you might, you know, have had experiences with some of that stuff before, and you're like, okay, like why why did I do that to myself? Or why did I put myself in some of those situations? And honestly, thinking about it, you know, uh for me, I think it was because, you know, as a youngster, I was forced into a lot of situations, you know. So if you listen to episode three where I talk a little bit about my religious stuff that happened when I was a kid, I was always put into like these situations that like I couldn't get out of, right? I had no say in. You know, it was it was like I was conditioned to have to do that kind of stuff. And if I didn't do that stuff, and if I became rebellious about that kind of stuff, I got punished. You know, I would have like a video game taken away, or I wasn't allowed, you know, to play outside or ride my bike or you know, play play with I would always play with my cousins and stuff. They would always come over and and we would hang out and stuff during summer or like before school, after school, stuff like that. I don't know uh how that went, but you know, I I I wasn't allowed to do that, or I wasn't allowed to go somewhere or do something or you know have dessert or whatever, right? Always a little bit of a punishment for for talking back. Did any of you guys ever get in trouble for talking back and then or like smart mouthing or something like that? And then you you would, you know, you were you were just having a conversation, you know. Maybe you were getting a little mouthy, a little smart assery, right? Maybe, but you know, was it really talking back or was it having a conversation? Because now I feel like some people can't speak up or can't speak their truth because oh, I don't want to be talking back, I don't want to be rude, I don't want to like seem like I'm causing a problem for being a little rebel, right? But you know, if we we we don't have to be a rebel without a cause, we could be a rebel with a cause, you know. I don't know. I don't know, however you want to be, however you want to take it, right? However, you like to eat your toast and jelly, you know. Do you like to eat it with marmalade? Are you more like a grape person? Or do you like a good strawberry jelly? I don't know. I don't know. Everybody's a little different. We all have a a different drum or a keyboard or a guitar or something that we jam to, right? We all have a little bit of a musical variation within our life, you know, within our lifestyle. You know, we're, you know, I like to listen to a gentleman, Dr. Gabor Mate. I have talked about him before. And not long ago, I was listening to something where he was talking about how, you know, two siblings, however many siblings are within a house, right? No two, no two siblings has the same like parenting style with that parent, relationship with that parent, as is the other one, right? No two siblings have the same experience being raised in a same household, right? Whether the parents together divorce, whatever, it doesn't matter, but no sibling has the same experience, right? So in turn, right, no one person have this has the same experience growing up as another person. We might have similarities, we might have some things that we might gather together and be like, oh man, that happened to me too. You know, I got smacked around all the time for smart mouthing and talking back, you know. So maybe there's a little bit of overlap, and you're like, Yep, bro, I got you. I follow. I feel you on that, right? And that's cool, that's good, you know. It's nice that we have those, right? We have these little things that remind us that we're human and that we share different things with other people. You know, I've had some friends reach out about my podcast and they're like, oh man, like I'm I'm glad you talk about that because that's something that I resonate with. And uh it's so funny that you mention it because like maybe that's been heavy for me lately, or maybe like they're they're raising their own kids and they're like, man, like like that's something I kind of want to avoid with my kids. You know, I don't want to put them in a box and then put this condition around them, you know. Something that I've been grasping with lately is like like the conditions of where I where I you know spent my time. You know, I always felt like there's a lot of conditional things that I had to adhere to. You know, being a kid who was raised in a religious space, that's something that always was sticky to me, you know, like uh like you have to believe in this, or like if you don't believe in this, like like we're gonna view you differently, right? So getting back to that and tying this all in, like the last episode that I did, you know, that's gonna change your perceptions of me. Maybe you're just like, oh my gosh, like what a terrible troublemaker. You know, I got through 10 minutes of that episode and I was just turned off because I don't want to hear how like bad you are, you know, but it's not bad, you know. I mean, I'm thankful, so thankful that my experiences, you know, that I'm alive to be able to talk about my experiences because I know people who do substances maybe once, maybe twice, maybe thrice, and then they're toast, right? And that's scary. That's scary as hell, you know? And it it terrifies me for younger generations who, you know, have maybe had a bad life when they're younger and like they felt a need to escape. And, you know, as we know, drugs are a reason to like people use drugs to escape, right? It's not necessarily that we have like a chemical imbalance or we have like a disease or anything like that. Like, like, like that's that's some kind of weird stuff right now that that it's like, okay, medical model, uh, Western world, you know, language, you know, what are you putting into our heads uh all these these problems, right? Well, really, I think it's just that we had difficult experiences when we were younger, and we had to we wanted to escape those experiences. So it's not like we were just like, oh yeah, I'm just gonna do these illegal drugs, right? I think it's more of like, you know, you had a difficult experience, and then a drug is more of a coping mechanism, right? So it's not so inherently bad. Does that make sense? I hope it makes sense. Maybe it maybe it does, maybe it doesn't. Maybe you're just like, nope, people who do drugs are bad people. That's it. Okay, right? And if that's the case, then then I don't know what you thought of the last episode, because I definitely went a little deep down that rabbit hole, and you know, there's there's stuff I didn't even share. There's stuff that I'm like, I don't even know, you know. Yeah, but I'm just thankful that I'm alive to talk about it. And I'm also thankful that maybe maybe there's some people who could benefit from hearing that kind of those kind of stories because they're raw, it's gritty, it's it's you know, it's the underturn of the belly of life, really, you know? But yeah, so here we are, episode 14, eight minutes in, nine minutes in now. Would you look at that? Oh, look at the time. Yeah, and I was contemplating on what to really talk about today and like what to get into. Full transparency. Earlier today, I totally recorded a 30-minute episode, and my microphone was not on. It was picking up for my laptop, but my laptop first of all, I was talking into my microphone, like I am right now, and my laptop microphone is kind of a little ways away. So I was like, I'm like relaxing back, leaning back, kicking back, after work, chilling, right? And so yeah, that's what I'm doing now. But earlier in between clients, I recorded an episode and I sat down here and I yapped for 30 minutes actually, and it was an okay episode, but it got a little gripey, got a little ranty. I don't know, I I've I've been feeling a little salty about some things lately. And like I said earlier, you know, it's it's a nice time and a space for me to kind of like understand myself a little bit more and do more inner work and like really sit with myself. So I've been doing a lot more meditations lately, and I I contribute a lot of it to Cortina method that I did, and that I'm I'm you know, not this weekend, but next weekend, I'm gonna be taking Cortina method training the entire weekend, and it's just gonna be fun. I'm so excited for this training. I'm excited to use my knowledge and my skills in a different way rather than just hands-on bodywork. So I've been looking forward to this for a long time. But since doing Cortina method myself, two sessions, uh I'm meditating again, I'm riding my bike again, I'm yawning again. Thank you. Thank you for letting me get that out. And now we're back. Thank you. Little yawn commercial. Anyway, and I'm I'm I'm just I feel so much so much more like me. And I can hold a lot more presence with people. It's so funny. Uh Monday, this past Monday, I went up to there's a uh a business uptown called the Recovery Clubhouse. Okay. I'm not sure if that's the technical name, but it's a clubhouse where people who are going through, you know, substance use and like they're working on getting clean, or they're working on becoming sober, or they're working on maybe even just coming to terms with the fact that they are going through some kind of an addiction, right? And they need some support, they need some help, they need some guidance, right? So I went up there Monday to chat with the maybe you'll say she's the director. I don't know. Very nice, very nice lady. Uh, her name's Kathy. Big shout out to Kathy for taking time to meet with me if you're ever gonna hear this or if uh who knows. But anyway, I just want to publicly say thank you, right? It was nice to sit down and chat, pick your brain for a good hour. We were meeting. She showed me around. It's a really nice facility. I think it needs some love, I think it needs some care. And they're paired with the Foundation's Behavioral Health, uh located in Salina, Ohio. Shout out to you guys for being awesome. And then they have a satellite office in Van Wert and Paulding for therapy, where they meet with people, and you know, it's a mental health therapy office, which is awesome. It's cool that we do have uh some resources here in town for that because it's it's important, it's very important work. A lot of people are on journeys of self-discovery right now, and they're really trying to understand who they are. You know, they're understanding their triggers, they're understanding, you know, just just how they want to be in the world. You know, the world's quickly changing very, very fast. And I think a lot of people just want more space to be themselves, and like, you know, there's a lot of people talking about like masking, you know, we mask, I mask, you know, I've masked. What we mask, we wear masks, we go out in public, we we put on this persona that we think that we have to be based upon the reflection of who or who we think we think we are, you know. But for a lot of people, that's crumbling right now, and that that veil is becoming more thin as our consciousness, the global collective, is changing, right? You might you might not believe in that stuff, right? You might just be like, eh, hooey, right? And that's okay too, but it's it's something's changing, right? People are changing, people are becoming more dynamic. What used to work in, you know, 2019 isn't working in 2026, you know. We've had the great COVID, you know, the great awakening, and it keeps on going. It keeps on going. It's it's changing, it's always always evolving. We're always evolving as people, you know. We have some good things happening, and we have some weird things happening, and we have some bad things happening, right? But you gotta have all that to make the life happen, right? It has to churn that way, you know. The tower has to fall, right? And then from the rubble, you know, the phoenix in fire and flame, right, is reborn. You know, I think that's where we're at. I think I think we're like on this weird little iceberg of change right now. So I'm just I'm becoming more comfortable talking about the weird stuff and finding finding cool people who are talking about the weird stuff, right? But anyway, what I'm getting back into is talking about going up to sorry, tangent, tangent, going up to this recovery clubhouse because I I feel like I want to start working with some different types of people, right? So I love the people that I work with. My clients are the best, right? If you're a client of mine, you're the best. Just know it, okay? Know it in your heart, your soul, your mind, okay. You're awesome people, okay. But I also kind of work, want to work and start helping some people who are really going through some struggle. Because as I'm reading some different textbooks based upon the work of Dr. John Upledger, who I really look up to, he's kind of like a ghostly mentor that I've never met. You know, he he passed away in 2012, so I I got I never got to meet him, right? I never got to learn directly from Dr. John, but I have a lot of his clinical videos on on file that I've I've watched many times, and I love watching the master work. He's just marvelous. And some of the things that he talks about is helping people who are going through addiction recovery, you know, because it's important. It's important for people to reconnect with their body, you know, and understand how their body is talking to them and what their body is needing. Based, you know, like I don't know. I feel like the people who are going through that struggle, you know, you're put into a system. You know, you're either going through like a drug court type system scenarios, situation, probation, you know, you have fines and fees and all this stuff. But like, you know, I was I was I was talking with a client earlier about this while they're on the table, right? And you know, how do I how do I say this? A professional, when you're when you're let's say, hmm, I'm thinking, sorry, when you're when you're somebody who's who struggles with something like using drugs or whatever, I'm not like, you know, to any kind of an extent, right? Any kind of extent, right? But when you're somebody who does that, and then you're talking to a professional and you're trying to seek help or support or something like that, or maybe you're like looking for like help with pain or anything, right? And you start to mention these things to somebody who's a professional, right? Their tone changes with you, and they start to see you as a different person. They're like judgmental and they're like, I don't know, because of the stigma, the propaganda, the different mind, mind-altering conceptions about who we are, based upon this, right? And like a lot of judgment comes forward, you know, from professionals. And when I was talking to this person earlier, they're like, Yeah, like, you know, I they they enjoy coming to me because I'm a safe person for them to talk about things that they're going through or things that they've experimented experimented with or experienced in life, right? And they can talk to me about it, and I'm not gonna be like, oh, damn them. You know what I mean? Like, I'm gonna be like, oh, yeah, like I've I've been there, I've done that, you know. I I see you, human, you know, I've got you, you know, and that's important because I feel like when when people are struggling with that kind of stuff, they get put into a system, like I say, and they feel like a number or they feel like they're not as important, and if it feels like their voice isn't heard, you know, so many people feel like their voice isn't heard or or they can't be themselves, or they can't, you know, show up, or they have like a a limiting belief story, you know? And I I've been there, I was there, and I'm still a little there, and I'm still trying to learn why I feel this way. You know, I'm I'm changing all kinds of different lenses that I have about how I see myself in life and and what I'm trying to do. And and it's it's difficult, you know. And as we're in June, June is men's mental health month or men's men's health month. I don't know. Some some people say it's mental health in the month, some people say it's health month. I don't know, but either way, right? Our ment mental health is just as important as our physical health, and our mental health affects our physical health, and our physical health affects our mental health. So, all in all, men, let's be healthy, right? And if you are somebody who has a man in your life, tell them. Say, hey, I love you, I care for you, I hear you, I'm here for you, but then actually be there for them. Okay? It's good, it's nice, you know? And yeah, I'm in I'm in the throes of some stuff, like, you know, like everybody else. Everybody I feel like we're all just kind of hanging out here churning, you know. And if you're listening to this in another country, maybe you're like, you know, I don't have that problem. I'm over here, the breeze is nice, the trees are nice, we have clean air, you know, we don't have crap in our food to worry about, we don't have as many like plastic nanoparticles running around on our brains, right? And blessed be to you guys, you know, over here in America, it's a little kooky. And I don't know, some of that stuff gets me down a little bit. And earlier when I recorded the podcast that didn't get recorded, I was talking last night with a a really nice client, super nice client, and I've known him for a long time, actually, and we were chatting about some different things that are affecting our community that are a little different of a conversation piece. And it was cool to talk to this type of client because of their type of profession. And like we were talking about chemtrails, we were talking about 5G, we were talking about the chemicals that are sprayed on the crops, and he was going, This person knows a little bit about this, so they were going to some more some detail about how different types of chemicals, like when you mix them with other types of chemicals, like what they'll do, how they'll affect the next year's crops, how they'll affect different things. It was pretty cool breaking this down with somebody who understands this and somebody who can who does this, and then also somebody who is aware that they do this and then adds extra precautions to their work. That was pretty cool to hear about. But you know, they're even sharing with me that there are applications that they can put on that like sterilizes the ground so no weeds will grow for years. That's scary, right? You know, so I don't know, like it's it's just a wild world that we live in, you know what I mean? Because people are damned for one thing, and then we have like this this other thing that's happening over here that is shown to like neurologically affect our body systems and cause like Parkinson's stuff like that, and that's fine, but goodness knows we cannot have cannabis store near a church, right? Weird little detour there, like total like polarity of like weirdness there, right? Like we have something that's like clearly harming us that that some people around this community are like rah-rah rah, you know, and then we have something over here that would probably benefit a lot of people with pain, anxiety, stuff like that, you know, people who are going through cancer treatment who have like no appetite, right? Cannabis is amazing for that because it's gonna decrease their pain, decrease their anxiety, increase their munchies, right? Cool stuff, but you can't have it within 500 feet of a church, right? And what does this community have a lot of? Churches. You know what causes a little bit of a problem with that when there's limited to real estate? Churches. Anyway, little tangent, little rangent, right? Anyway, we're 21 minutes in, and this has been a yappy, goofy little episode, you know? I don't know. A little bit of an icebreaker in between episode 13 and 15, let's say. 15, I don't know what we're gonna talk about, right? I'm not even gonna say it because who knows what's gonna happen that day. But I think we'll probably end up recording that one sooner rather than later, so that way it gets out 6 a.m. on a Friday morning because I like it, right? Anyway, this has been fun. It's been nice chatting with you guys again today. I think the earlier episode was a little bit more of a rubbish episode compared to what we did just record, but I think the one that we just recorded was a little bit more like la di-dah, let's have some fun on a Friday afternoon. I don't know. I'm getting ready to have a good Friday, Friday, and Saturday and Sunday. Like I said, next weekend. Doing some intensive training and I'm so excited. So that will actually start on Friday, next Friday, the 26th. I will not be here. So I will definitely have a podcast recorded ahead of time so that I can load and launch because I'll be in class at 8 a.m. Um 9 a.m. There we go. Anyway, I'm so excited for doing Cortina Method. I think this is really going to help a lot of people. And if you guys are excited about doing Cortina Method, or if you listen to this and you're a client of mine or you want to be a client of mine, head over to fieldsmybody.com. Email me, message me, reach out on here, whatever you want to do, right? However you want to get a hold of me. Find me on Facebook, social media, Instagram, whatever. Reach out and say, hey, I'm curious about this because I'm going to start doing. Sorry, a little segue here, right? I'm going to start doing about 30, 30 minute chats with people ahead of time. These are going to be free calls, but we're going to talk for about 30 minutes about what's going on, right? I don't want you to get into too much story with me about some of the trauma that you've been through, right? That's not the point of the work of Cortina method. Cortina method is very focused on not remembering, not reliving, not re-traumatizing yourself while you're trying to, you know, change your story, right? About any kind of limiting belief. So what I'm going to be doing is I'm going to be doing like these intake chats. So we can chat, either just a phone conversation, you know, we can chat on the phone for 30 minutes, or we can do a video call. And in these sessions, we're going to kind of, I'm going to be really listening and hearing about what you want to talk about. And then I'll be putting my sessions together. I don't even know how to do this, right? Not yet, but I'm going to be taking the training on it. But because I've already gone through the process, I know a little bit about what it's like. So I'm going to be doing these half-hour like clarity calls if you want to call them that or whatever, uh, just to get an understanding and idea of how you want to work together. And then from there, we will book your session. Cortina method sessions are are two hours long. Okay. And they can be done in person or via Zoom. So if you're looking from at this from far away, uh, we can still do it. And it still has a 90% efficacy rate after one, two sessions, perhaps. Yeah. And it just stops limiting beliefs in uh post-traumatic stress and trauma stories that cycle through your subconscious. And it's a brain-based modality that somehow, amazingly, and I don't even know how yet, just open space. It just changes the story and it makes it so the things that you've experienced in in the past, right? In your spiral of healing, uh don't really become relevant anymore to your story. And it's like you don't you don't have to move from that space anymore. It's it's the most beautiful thing that I've found since finding craniosacral therapy and somatoemotional release, right? And that's been eight years ago. So it took me eight years, over eight years now, to to find this. And I'm really excited to be to be diving into this and doing something that's invigorating and fun. And like, you know, the thing about like helping people with trauma resolution, even in a somatic, somatoemotional lens realm, you know, that's that's heavy. Like people experience some heavy emotionality in my my room. There's a lot of tears and stuff like that. It gets it gets intense, even though it's gentle, even though it's very, very slow and gradual and amazing in itself, but it can get intense for people in there. This is not intense. This is fun. This is this is something I'm so sizzling on because I'm ready to have some fun with you all, and really starts changing some limiting beliefs. And I I have a deep calling for this work, you know, it's something that is part of my transformations, and just I just want to move people from one stuck space to another stuck space, whether it's through body work, through coaching, through, you know, teaching people how to meditate, maybe, or doing some breath work with people, or helping them navigate like altered states of consciousness, you know, like I was speaking about in the last episode. So I don't know. There's just a lot to it, and I I'm so excited to be doing this for people. It just it it tickles me to be able to help people in such deep, transformative, effective, badass ways, right? That are fun, they're fun, right? We all need a little bit more fun and chuckle, chuckle big hearty chuckles in our life, right? I think we all need some more of that. You know, humor is the spice of life, and the spice is nice, yes, it is. So, this has been a delightful little episode. Thank you guys so much for tuning in once again. I appreciate every single person listening to this. Please leave like a review, a comment somewhere, anywhere. I don't even know, wherever you hear this, wherever you're tuning in, because I like to hear from you guys, you know, or email me at Joel at Fields F I E L D S Mindbody.com. Anyway, this is another episode of Wizard of Wonder Podcast. I hope you all stay well and have a lovely, lovely weekend. Bye bye.