We back!!!! "People can sale you a dream but can't fathom it"

Hey, everybody. People can sale you a dream but can't fathom it"

Is 1of my own quotes I came up with and stand on...  

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What it do, what it do? Same color, just mismatched. So it's been a little bit of time since I have put something out. But trust and believe I haven't forgot without a doubt. So, so so so. Went on vacation, little rave rave here, rave rave there, you know, rah rah rah. But you know, after the rave and after the party, like then what? People's emotions come down, people's highs come down, people sober up, people come back to reality. But what if we didn't have to get back to reality? Like this is just like I'm I was gonna do it on a different subject, but I'm just going off of like what I feel because I'm in my my feels right now, I'm in my emotions right now. And and to feel some emotions, it kind of really sucks. But when you buckle down and you handle it, it sucks even more like not even gonna bullshit it. But like, how do people cope? Do you think people's coping coping mechanisms come from something they learned? Something they were raised with, something that they just know, is it something that comes from within? Is it something that they need to be taught? I mean, everybody has a different opinion about it because everybody copes in different mech in different ways and everybody has different vices. Just your vice is not better than my vice, my vice is not better than your vice, but even though my vice is dark chocolate, it's a little bit healthier. No, but I mean like everybody has an outlet. Now, vices and and outlets are two different things though. How do you gonna cope? How are you gonna cope when you have nobody answering the phone or nobody there or you can't even like turn to that person because whatever the case may be, or that one person you got you don't have, or you know, whereas like it's like life is like saying, like, sit the fuck down and get with it. And most of us will just deviate and like and and and run from what needs to be done and what needs to be said, but it's like is it really that big for us to be running from, or is it just what is it, laziness? Is it fear of acceptance? Is it fear of acknowledgement? It goes into a lot of different things. So it really comes down into what works for you and what doesn't work for you. And of course they say drugs are bad, alcohol is bad, but honestly, anything that's done right is not bad, you know. If you want to go have a a beer after a long day of work, why not? You know, it's kinda interesting how like they legalize alcohol after the prohibitions and all that stuff. But they legalize the thing that kills most people, whether it's you know, alcohol uh disease, you know, when they come down off of it, they shake, they ha it's like they could die from it. It's one of the few addictions that you could actually die from, but it's but the vice is legal. It's kinda weird, right? But like, but you know, marijuana is barely can become illegal, and that's like the best plant because it can be made in in different ways to help. Whether it's hemp, you know, the best houses should be made from hemp, they're air indestructible, you know, there's pest resistant, fire resistant, like why aren't we making it with hemp? We have so much hemp going around, but now like that's and and they we know that from a world like one of our wars. We use hemp, you know, but now e those things are seem to fade away, just like coping mechanisms. Because the world is so much full of themselves that like hey, when people say, Hey, how are you doing? They're not waiting for an answer back. They're just ready to be like, uh-huh, okay, have a good day. They could like I'm doing bad, and I'm like, Okay, have a good day. Because it's just like a routine. But like how many people stop and really give a fuck or really care? Because when I ask my neighbor how they're doing, I actually care. I don't ask all my neighbors how they're doing for that reason. And I'm not saying I don't care, but like when you ask people questions, you you can get their feelings and raw emotions and you could get some other baggage and it's okay. You could brush it off. Sometimes people need to give you your baggage because their baggage, so you could get rid of that shit, throw that shit away. But I think we all need to be like sharing our ways of how we could cope, you know, physical, whether it's physical, everybody should tire themselves out, whether it's sex, whether it's an activity, whether it's something physical where you're gonna be like, alright, I'm gonna sit down, and the older you get, you're gonna wanna pass the fuck out from it, right? So, you know, I don't have very good coping mechanisms. I know that misery loves company, so I recluse. Uh-huh. That quote that yeah, like that's for real. That's one of my my my sayings that I stand by, that I live by, and uh and it's my motto. And it's my motto, is my quote, my quote. Misery loves company, so I recluse. I don't want my misery to be somebody else's misery, but I know that my triumph can help another person triumph. My me being able to get over something will be able to help and show the light for somebody else to get over it. But how I do it is different than other people because I eat up people's bad energy. Like, people hate on me, hate away because I'm gonna use that as fuel to keep me going. Because it's like, why am I gonna let your badass attitude or your badass whatever you're going through? Because I care, I'm an empath, so I'm gonna be compassionate, I'm gonna listen, and I'm gonna try to find the solution if I can, if it's supposed to be found. And a lot of people don't realize that, like, if you don't have understanding of something, it's okay, leave it the fuck alone. The understanding will uh reveal itself when you're ready. And a lot of times people we think we're ready. Boy, sit the fuck down. Like, straight up, we're not ready for it. Like, I'll like I was just telling my boys, like, you know, the other day, Gabriel, like I'm not I don't ask for certain things in prayer. And it's not that like I know because I know God will give it to me. And I'm I'm not saying I'm a weenie, but I know better. I don't ask for patience because I'm not trying to have those life blessings. I could teach myself that there's certain things that I know that like I'm I rather just teach myself because I know that I like I I don't want that, I don't want to learn the way I should learn, so I rather try to teach myself. And so I don't ask certain things in prayer because I try not to ask for things except just watch over, you know, my family and friends and people who need to be prayed, you know, like prayed for. I don't ask for like, oh, can I have a car and can I have this? Because it's so cliche, like God will always take care of me, like no matter what. Like, he might make me realize to humble yourself, bitch. You're doing too much. But like, sit the fuck down, sit down, sit back, just be still. And I have to be reminded of that. And and it's a good thing, like, you know, old folks used to say, Let me sleep on that. It means like, give me some time to fucking process what's going on. Don't push me to an answer. And a lot of times people are so pushy and want it right then and there because of what they want, they don't give a fuck about the other person or what they want. They don't care if it's gonna affect them. Like, let that person think about it, let them simmer in it, let them feel it. And and people are so me, me, me, me that they don't give a fuck about the next person. People don't give a fuck. But that doesn't mean that you don't need to give a fuck too, because there's enough people that don't give a fuck. As long as you do you and you're you're you're you write for yours, you right for yours. I can't sit here and say that I care about everybody. I do. I want the ever what I want for everybody else is what I want for myself. I want peace. But I know that everybody can't have peace because people don't know God. And I stand in that. People ask me how strong how I'm so strong because of God. Because I can never get so low and like sorrowful or so pity, pity, woe me, pity, pity me. Because God don't let me get like that. Like I can only get so drunk too. God won't let me get blackface, shit faced, like uh-uh. Like I can only go so high and I can only go so low because he got me. It's like a like somebody who has their hand over your on your head and you can't even see them, you're trying to like run and you're just running place. It's like it's silly, you know. But people need to realize, like, how like how are you coping? Are you not coping? Are you hiding it? Are you building it up? Because when you bottle it up, it ain't good because you're gonna explode. And usually you're gonna explode on the shit that you don't need to be exploding on. People use their energy on things that don't need to be energy, like their energy needs to be put on. You know, people need to people are like, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Why isn't it people saying like a lot of things that need to be said? Like, I don't hear Americans, these woke ass people saying, whoop-doop, whoop, we have pedophiles running us. Like, that's weird. But they want to be talking about oh, our rights and oh women's rights and oh this and and I'm a woman, but like, you know, why aren't people awoken to certain things because they need somebody else to jump on it? Because there are a whole bunch of followers. Be a leader, and even if you lead by yourself, you know you're not being led into the wall. And and even if you're standing by yourself, at least you're fucking standing by yourself. Fuck it. I'd rather stand by myself because I know I got God on my on my side. And I know that like I do everything with love. And once you have all your intentions with love, all your jobs with love, even if you don't want to do something, you're like, all right, I gotta do it because God is love. God loves me. Why won't like God has patience for me? Why wouldn't I have patience for the next person? And that's something that I have learned this year. You know, be kind, be kind to others. It's free. Smile, it's free. It don't hurt nobody. If anything, if you could, if you could force a smile, I bet you anything it'll change somebody else's day. Because people don't even know how to react to smiles, and it's sad, and it's just gonna keep getting worse because our fate is our fate for our world, and it's and it is what it is. You know, we're in the end of days, you know. We could get it, we're gonna get into that in another, you know, another little episode. But and I'm gonna break it down because people are like, oh, people say, oh, we've been in the this is a no, we're living in the end of days, and there's reasons of, and it says every like there's re there's certain things that are gonna be shown to us that are shown to us, so we know that it wasn't when Hitler was here, or it wasn't when World World, nah, nah, like all the little dynamics, all the little things have to add up to be. And it was never like that until right now. And so, you know, I sit here and I'm seeing what's unraveling in front of me, what I would hear about when I was a little girl in church, and I would like imagine it a whole different way. You know, but I'm living in it. I never thought I was gonna be living it. I thought like my great-grandkids or I was gonna be long gone. I didn't know I was gonna be a soldier for God today. And and we gotta buckle down with our faith and how we handle things because you know, the chosen ones, the people who who I'm not saying everybody don't matter, but some people have certain gifts that they can't just like forget about, right, or ignore. And I'm one of them. I can't just be like I ignore. I know my purpose is greater than what I who what I understand, but I also know that I need to walk in his will. Is it scary? Hell yeah, scary because I'm used to controlling things. But I know that it's the days of the days, and he needs us to be on our top, our on 10, like for real. Like he needs his people to get it together, and so he's bringing his people together because we are outnumbered and for the strength of and love of God. We need to be the examples of what God is, and God is love, and that's the highest frequency, the highest vibration that you could ever accomplish naturally, genuinely, is love. Because why God is number one, he is love, he's the creator of all, and yeah, he is a merciful God, and yeah, he's a forgiving God, and yeah, he's a jealous God, but he's my father. And and and and no matter if I want to do this or do this, like I'm still able to be able to make that choice, because choices are important, because everybody has a choice. I'm still able to make that choice, like, damn, the fork in the road. And and I'm not gonna sit here and act like I'm perfect because only Jesus was perfect. But I'm gonna sit like here and say like this it is a battle every day to make sure I make the right decisions because I know if I make this wrong decision, I might not understand that 10 like 10 steps forward or even like 20 steps forward, even years forward, it could be affected by that decision. People don't realize that like what you do today could affect you in the future. And it's obvious, right? Like, hey, like hello, you know, but like, but it's real. But like, but if you do things with intention, with love is an intention, then you're doing it with the best frequency, with their best so it's really if something goes wrong, you did it for the best, and you did it for the you're not your intention, not your will, but for the will and love of God. And people need to be reminded and told about God is love. God is so good, if you just trust in Him, He will provide without a doubt, He'll never forsake us. We can forsake each other, we can let each other down, but God's just in there like our Father, waiting. You know, like like you know, kids kids go away from home, but they know that they always have a home, right? And so I know that like I might do this or I did this, but and I might be ashamed sometimes to, you know, put like come to God and come to my father and be like, hey, I'm I did this, I messed up. But he knows my heart and he knows what's already going on. He just needs to see how I'm gonna handle it. If I'm gonna let it destroy me, if I'm gonna let that little thing take me down because of my conscience or because of this, now I'm gonna accept it, I'm gonna handle it, and I gotta figure it out at that moment. Because you know, like you have people's gotta start handling it usually at the moment. If it's not able to be handled at the moment, let it be fixed and closed so you can get over it and move on with your life. Just like I would tell my kids, tell me the truth and I won't you won't get in trouble. But if you lie to me, you're gonna have problems. Did you do your homework? No. Okay, I I can't even get mad because you told me the truth. Do I like it? No, but I respect it and I'll leave it the fuck alone. If I'm paying somebody and I ask them something and they tell me the truth, I might not like it, but I'll respect it and I'll leave it the fuck alone, and I'll never bring it up again because I have closure. Why would I bring it up again to manipulate the situation? Nah, nah, nah, nah. Too grown, too much time spent on some bullshit. And and and you know, we have to make our choices and make our uh pick our battles of what battle is really important and what is what is the most important of how is it gonna affect and deflect our our our situations. It also comes down to integrity. People don't got any integrity, people don't know how to do things on their own without having to be asked. You know, one of the worst things is when you hear a man say, I pray to be a man of integrity, and you gotta stop and go, What? You wanna pray for a man of integrity? You want to pray to be a man of integrity, you just can't be a man of integrity on your own. You can't just be somebody who does things with without somebody looking. You need a fucking star, a happy little gold star. That's weird. That's like putting the blame and putting some shit off on somebody else. Do it even if nobody else is looking, do the right thing. Cause guess what? That's your motherfucking eyes and conscience that's seen it, not other people's. You know, and and and you know, and if we just start like stopping and l like stopping and letting social media and like the world run us, and we just stop and take a breath and look at it, it's not that big of a deal. And so then it's easier to handle it when you when you're faced with it. And sometimes it's overwhelming, overstimulating, whatever the case may be. But if it needs to be handled, handle it. Because why not fucking handle it right then and there when it's all rah-rah-rah, then like down the line when you're like, damn, I'm embarrassed, I should have handled this. It's fucking stupid. It could be a lot of different things, but why don't you do it? So you just let it roll over like a snowmall? Nah, no, thank you. And that's how I go about with my feelings. Like, I will sometimes it takes me days to adjust and understand why I'm feeling the way I feel. And if I'm hurting, I recluse. I I go hide. I go, I don't want to be seen, you know, because I'm people's rock. I'm people's rock. I'm not saying it, that's why. Because I need to digest and I need to understand how and why, and and and trust me, I don't have understanding, but if I could sit there and be honest with myself and break it down, I could have a better understanding on how I'm gonna understand it and how I'm gonna deal with it. I might not have a solution at the moment, but I'll have a better idea so I can have a better understanding of how I'm gonna approach it and how I'm gonna react to it. You know, I grew up a lot, I have a temper, I'm I'm I have impulse I'm impulsive, but I'm human, you know. But it's about how I react, it's about how I impulse, because I don't a lot of people don't have, yes, people don't have control of certain things, but it's about when you have that split second and you have it, everybody has a choice. So when I want to cuss somebody out, I have the choice, like, do I want to cuss them out or not? And and that one second that I don't even realize I'm having, it's either bam bam, and sometimes you know, people gotta work on things, whatever. I gotta work on a lot of things, but my struggle is not better than your struggle, and your struggle is not better than my struggle. But but if you want to stay down and be a little vagina, then you stay the fuck down and be a little vagina because that shit gets tiring. Like it should get annoying when people blame other people. Like, how old are we? After 12 years old, you should have some accountability. And people don't take accountability, they're a waste of motherfuckers' time. You have to know because if you don't take accountability, you can't acknowledge the problem, you can't accept the problem, and you can't fix the problem. So if I don't sit here and am not honest with myself, even if it hurts, how am I gonna get over it and fix it? I'm not. I'm gonna dwell in it, I'm gonna cycle it, I'm gonna fucking become a stupid ass cycle. It's gonna be some bullshit, and it's gonna be like a dumbass excuse and a waste of motherfucking time. And that's how I'm being with a lot of things in life. Like, is it really worth it? Is it not? You know, people are dropping, like, you know, falling off like flies. Thank you, goodbye. Because at the end of the day, people don't need people shit. And when people have friends, people come with baggage. You know, it's something it's one thing coming with baggage, but it's another thing when when people make and manufacture issues. And that's one whole nother thing. It's like, okay, I accept you friends and you're bullshit, but if you're gonna be over here making bullshit, I'm good on that shit, because we're grown. It's like because when they do that manufacture shit, it's a manipulation tool. And I'm good on all that shit. I don't want to break it down because I and then it and then it goes into all these little branches of you're insulting my intelligence. It goes into all these little things, is like, and then it goes into I should have known better because it's not about that he does not know what he's doing, because he's a retard, he knows what he's doing, or him or she, whatever. It's like you ain't gonna waste my time and bullshit me or manipulate me because I don't speak the language bullshit. So then it goes into how am I gonna cope? A lot of times I don't want to tell people, I don't give a damn what you gotta say because you what you're saying is negative, and I don't want that. So I listen and I put it where it needs to be. I don't take it with me. You know, I'm supposed to help people, I'm supposed to heal, I'm here, I hear you. But I don't that doesn't mean I have to feel it, because I feel it. You know, emotions are emotions, they're raw. You can't alter the truth, but you can't alter a real feeling, but you can alter the way you explain how that feeling is because it could be confusing or they might not know. And a lot of these emotions go into all these other emotions, and and most people can't even comprehend basic fucking shit. You know, common sense ain't rare. Is common sense is rare, and and being a true person is rare, and and and just being yourself is rare. So I'll be that rare piece, you know what I mean? But like, but that doesn't mean that the next person is, and that doesn't mean the next person is genuine. That doesn't mean that because you want to do it, the next person wouldn't do it. Don't forget that because it it's all about who they are, what their motives are, do they have good intentions? And at the end of the day, what do they stand for? What do they rock with? You know, I always wonder if people believe in God, because honestly, in relationships, if they don't believe in the same thing you believe in, there's a it's a waste of time, period. Like, yeah, people could change and pe you could show people the way, but at the end of time, that's a lot of waste of fucking time, like honestly. And and honestly, like and let if it's supposed to be, it's meant to be, and that'll be the moment. But like, you know, all that, like, oh I gotta no, if I'm gonna have a person in my life, they're gonna believe in God because I believe in God. And I'm not gonna have no, you know, no, no mishaps. You're gonna understand this, you're gonna understand this because I understand this, and you're gonna understand because you believe in the same thing I believe. Now, people could say they believe in things and they really don't, because they just talk. Don't let somebody's actions contradict their their words. Because people could talk a good game, they could sell you a fucking dream, but they can't even fathom it. Like, think about that shit. Like, people, anybody could sell you anything, they don't even know what the fuck they're selling. Like, they just gotta have an understanding of what it is. And they just gotta have a have an understanding of how to get you. Man, that's some con type shit, you know? But like at the end of the day, once you understand that, it's a whole different thing. And if you and if and once you can be once you could be like okay and be around in a crowd and surrounded by people and not see nobody at all, that's when you could truly live life. Because that's when you realize it doesn't matter what anybody has to say or do, like, do you. And if you do you, like, like who cares what anybody else is doing? People could say this, they could say that, like the better it is. Like, it's like telephone, Mr. Telephone. You know, people add on and shit like that. But if you stand for what you are and who you are, then people will know, like, nah, that ain't her, nah, that ain't him. That's some bullshit, and maybe want to look into it or not even listen to it. But if you are what you uh what people say you are, and people could say whatever, then it is what it is, you know. But like, but once you don't care about what other people think and say, your life begins. And it's a whole new journey. And if you have God on your side, and if you believe in God, then you're it's a whole nother journey. Like that's a whole nother thing. Your life has to begin. And you know, we're living in the times that people don't believe in God. And I just I just recommend to people buckle down with people who believe in the same things you believe in. It makes it a lot easier. It lay makes it less heartbreak. Don't get you know tricked or deceived by people because the devil is a trickster, he's a lie. So don't don't let that become a vulnerability. You trying to seek some f similarities or familiarity. Like, because that could get you caught up in some other shit, you know? Just be you. And if you love God, God is gonna God is gonna let you be you and love you for you. And you know, I do ask for God to only bring people into my life that needs to be my life, because I don't want to take no more losses. You know, when I when I lost my best friends a couple years ago, I had to learn so much, and I know that I lost them for me to understand what I understand now. Their lights, how do you put out for me to see my light? And for me to understand, and for me to feel these feelings that I would never even have to think about and and even explain. But if somebody comes to me and I see their soul weeping, the people's soul weeps, I'll be able to spot it and understand it because that's a that's a cold, cold, cold feeling that I wouldn't wish upon anybody, not even the worst people in the world. Because the soul, when the soul hurts, it's not a heartache, the soul's hurting, and and it's a your whole being hurts. And you know, it doesn't happen all the time, and uh, most people go all their life without feeling those feelings, and I pray that they do. You know, I pray that they don't feel those feelings because most people won't be able to recover for a minute. Because people can't recover from symbols, they definitely ain't gonna recover from their soul weeping, but it does something to you because when you love, that's when you learn love, what love really means. Love is powerful. Love is love, and love is God, God is love, and you know we have to remember that and do that with everything we do. So when I cope, I'm trying to cope. I'm like learning, you know, I like do activities, I need to do activities, and you know, if I don't if I have to play tennis by myself, I will play tennis by myself. Even better. I don't got the energy to have to do it. But I'm trying to be active, I'm trying to do something, and when I'm upset, I need to go help somebody. So that's one of my coping mechanisms because God will put something in my way, like, oh, you're having a bad day? Okay. Somebody end up seeing somebody and God, and and I end up helping them and it makes me feel good. I don't do it for somebody's approval, I don't do it for anybody. I do it because you know what? What what if that was me or my kids? Well, everybody needs a chance. Who is anybody to tell anybody that they should not give them that chance? It's wild to me. People want to be so mean and wicked to people, but want to be like, oh, love me, love me. Nah, like a lot of people don't deserve love. And and if you are blessed enough to have love and reciprocate it equally, then you you hit the lottery right there, like straight up, because I could love somebody and we could be this through the same thing, and they might not have the same feelings of the same love back. It could be like, oh, thank you, like I had to or something. It blows my mind, and it's something that's one of those things that most people can't can't grasp. You know, like how are we gonna be in the same relationship and go and walk through this and you are like this with me or you're like this with me, and it hurts, but guess what? They're not you, and we have to remember those things to be stronger and to get better and to be wiser because if we expect people to be how we are, and I'm not saying everybody's great, for me it personally, I'm a good person and I'm a I have a good heart and I have good intentions, so I want even people who are haters, uh-huh, hate on, suck these nuts, you know. Like, like hate on, but while you're hating, you know, like suck these nuts, and while you're doing that, like just know that I'm okay because your problems aren't my problems, your hate is not my hate. If you're upset with me, that's your personal motherfucking problem. And when people understand that, it makes it a whole different ballgame. Like, like, I'm sorry you're upset with me, but I'm not sorry because that's not my problem. Like, it's as then and if it's the same vice versa. If I'm upset with somebody, that's not their fucking problem. That's my personal problem. Something I have to go through and deal with because I'm the one who's dealing with it. I'm the one hurting. You think I'm gonna hurting it's gonna hurt somebody else? Very rarely. And so we have to remember these things because it's obvious, but we don't fucking realize these things because we're fucking living in the oh, blame you or blame me or justify this or gaslight this. It's a whole bunch of bullshit. It takes fucking one second to destroy trust, and it could take a fucking lifetime to build it. Don't forget that shit. Because you know, when you're over there feeling sorry for yourself, oh I'm all alone, you wonder why you're fucking alone because you're not very nice and you're not very nice to yourself. How you are on the inside shows. You could be the prettiest person on the outside, and you could be the nastiest person on the on the inside, and trust me, it's gonna show you ain't shit. And any and everybody ain't shit. Like, and if you ain't got God, you definitely ain't shit. And I don't give a fuck what anybody has to say because everybody's entitled to their own belief. But I'm gonna tell you like this, I'm the strong woman that everybody sees because I have God and I believe in Jesus Christ, and he was he's my savior, and he like he took he took all the that brunt from me, you know, and I let him because it's like take it to your father, like like ooh, I'm telling my daddy, just wait, and and my father's gonna come through, you know? And and I and I bank on that, and I and I and I'll put my life on that. And if people would just trust in God, everything is possible. So when you trust in God, you vibrate on a different frequency. All these little, you know, bounce off you like blue is stick to me, like whatever the fuck that is, like it don't do shit to you. All these little bullshit little things, it just goes right by you. You're like, oh shit, I thought that was a fly, or I thought it was a bee. It ain't shit. And like when we feel like the world is so big and our problems so big, it's not even that fucking big. It's only that big to you in your perspective, in your thinking. You know, perspective and perception are two fucking different things. And and and we'll go over that another time. We'll go over different like the differences of things, but we could look out two different windows right next to each other and have two different fucking visions and two different like sights. And it goes back to what do you feel, how you feel, your own self, how your you know, the eye, the beauty is the eye of the beholder. The beauty is the eye of the person, okay? Like, it's not about the beholder because you know a motherfucker is ugly than the motherfucker's ugly. It doesn't matter what type you are, because meaning the person's ugly on the out inside, they're fucking ugly, don't matter. Now, if you want to be like, oh, she's nah, nah, nah, nah. She's ugly. Like, if they and if they don't believe in something, if they stand for nothing, they fall for anything, they're even more uglier to me. Because, like, pobre, like pobre, like poor people, but not because it's a choice. Because every ear will hear the truth of God's word, and every ear will have a chance to make a choice. So if I'm the one who's telling the person the truth, because a lot of people have things misconstrued on believing in Christ, believing in God, but I will be the one if I if I'm blessed to be the one to explain it, I will break it down and explain it. I will take my whole day out to explain to somebody because I could be somebody's that we're talking about souls, we're talking about things that will never die, that will never go away. I'll just re-you know, like coming back and stuff like that. Negative. You have one life, you better live it right. And if not, at least be about something at the end. At least know that your word is all you got. So if your word, if you say you're gonna do something, fucking do it. Don't have to be asked to be do it. Don't ask, like, don't wait to be asked, like, oh, you said it. Don't wait for that. Just do it. Because it shows a lot of it shows a different type of character. If I tell my kids I'm gonna do something, it could be a minute, but I don't forget. And if I happen to forget, remind me because I'm I'm gonna fulfill it, especially if I said it. You know, like some people forget, whatever the case may be. But be about your word, because in life, the only thing you got is your word and what you believe in, because your faith is either gonna take you or break you. You know, all these wars of religions, I feel it. I'll go to battle for my belief. I stand on my passion. My passion for my faith for my love of God is what keeps me going and keeps me sucker free, you know, and so people you can defend themselves and have coping mechanisms that are the easiest, the most freest thing. But if you don't, if you don't have the fundamentals of God or knowing God, or even trying to get your toes wet, then you're a lot. I'm not saying you're a lost cause. There's still hope, but like really, like a lot of people's minds are made up, and a lot of people need to see things to believe it. I need to see people's actions because humans are full of shit. The only thing I don't need to see to believe is my faith in God because I know it. I know it. But anybody else, like y'all need to build me to like trust you. Y'all need to let me, you know, I'm not just like I give you the benefit of that. No, fuck no. Why would I do that to myself? That's stupid. I'm setting myself up for failure for me being disappointed. So, in reality, people need to show me and and let me see that I could trust them. I'm not just gonna I trust you. Fuck no. Only person I do with that with it is God because He's my father and I trust him, and he will never forsake me or let me go. Any human being, nah, negative, negative. So when we have our fundamentals of what we stand on, our coping mechanisms become more clear. Now, you don't have to go exercise to cope, you don't have to go do this, but you need to start acknowledging and accepting things and being honest with yourself because if you're not like what the fuck are you doing for real? Like everybody else is like everybody could be everybody, but everybody's following or is a is a follower and wants to be like somebody else. Be a leader, even if you lead by yourself, even if you're your own alpha or your own dominant. I'm a servant. I'm a servant of God. And and and I'm not gonna pertain myself to be better or perfect, but guess what? But I got God, and like honestly, like that gives me a boost that like nobody else can give me. That gives me this powerful feeling that like suck my toes type shit. Like, like, like I'm not saying I'm better than people, but like I don't feel bad for people who don't believe in God because that's a choice. Now, if they don't know, I'll have to explain it to them and ask them why what don't you what don't you understand about God? Why don't you why don't you trust God or why don't you believe in Jesus? You know, you can't go to the only way to heaven is through Jesus Christ, to know Jesus Christ. So the only way to get to heaven to Father is through me. To know me. Can't go to heaven be like, oh hey, Father, how are you doing? He's gonna like, you know your brother, you know your son? No, who the son of the no, no, it don't work like that. Because he gave him to be for us to be okay today. For he gave if you believe in him, all your soul, all your sins are forgiven. And I and I believe in that. And so it just it just trickles down on a whole line of other things, you know. Everything like people can say the Bible is whatever. Like, I do want to read the Ethiopian Bible. I will read the Ethiopian Bible because it's not, you know, watered down. But I don't need to hear or see the I yeah, Bible is good, but I don't need to have a book that I believe in to back up what I know. Like the Holy Spirit shows me what I need to know and shows me what needs to be fulfilled. And I know, I know that that's one of my coping mechanisms. I could get mad, I could be sad, but I'm never like I want to go kill myself. If you guys want to kill yourself, that's some selfish ass shit. That's weird. That's weird. I'm just saying it. And a lot of people don't react right. Oh no, no, it's like whatever. Like, if people are about it, they are not gonna cry about it. And I'm not excusing because I lost a couple people to suicide. It's the most selfish thing you could ever do. It's stupid though. Like, don't be like, I'm just a human. Because people like me like click, because I ain't got time for that shit. It's like grow up. Like, if you want some help, ask for help, or you want to talk to me, I can hear you. But if you're gonna be like, I'm gonna kill myself, click. Because, like, like saying you're gonna kill yourself and stuff like that, that's a waste of energy right there. Like, because if I'm gonna do something so drastic, I'm just gonna do it. I'm not gonna be like, oh, warning, warning. Nah, because if you're that sorrowful, you're gonna do it. You just want attention. And if you need to seek out attention, negative attention, don't be in my life because I will make you like realize like attention seekers are not the business, but everybody is for everybody. There's things that are different for everybody. I just have no patience, and I will never have patience for that because it's so silly. We don't get another chance. So, like, remember, we have one life. You better live it right. And if you're needing to like cope, you fucking learn how to do it. Whether it's fucking drugs, whether it's love, whether it's running, whether it's whatever, stand by what it is that makes you feel like you. And if you don't know who you are, better look in the mirror and ask yourself who you are. And don't lie. No, I'm kidding. You should know who you are, but if most people don't. Ask somebody who you trust. Oh, wait, people don't trust people. Find yourself. And when you know yourself, you don't need, and you have God, you don't need no reassurance or no confirmation from anybody because God will show you what you need to know. Everything I've asked for or even prayed about, He shows me almost immediately, recently, like it's like bam. And I don't know if it's because I don't have time to figure out or I have time to be taught, but God is showing me so many things just this year. I'm just like overloaded, overwhelmed, and I'm just like, damn. It's it makes me tremble inside. And and instead of me sitting here like, oh, I know a secret or this, nah, I need to help people I have people get on their on on their on their on get buckled down with their big boy pants, big girl pants, because it's gonna be a bumpy fucking ride. And you know, however much people have it as a mirage and think it's not here, man babies, we're living in the end of days. So people are just gonna get worse, times are gonna get harder, and things are just gonna crumble. Whether it's in front of your face, behind your back, things are changing, and people are changing. And as long as you know who you are, you're good. But if you don't, shit. Fuck. I don't feel sorry for you. You shouldn't have been fake and been trying to be somebody else your whole time. So here's your chance, you know. So this is my coming back from vacation Raven EDC, baby, same color, just mismatch.