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Um, so I'd like to talk about uh how terrifying it is to be a girl. And um I think like we can all acknowledge that this world that we live in is hypersexual and women are um like become these objects for men to chase and obtain and discard, use, abuse, manipulate, and um it has effects, you know. There's things that um we're all dealing with as a result of this like broad abuse towards women and oversexualized society. There are certain things that women develop in order to protect themselves because in this world it feels very unsafe. And I don't know if a lot of girls or women are cognizant, like consciously, of how terrifying it is to be a girl. Um, because because of things like corn, male brains are hypersexual and they've become highly predatory and opportunistic. And now environments that are meant to be safe and um secure and containers of love and respect are not. Um now they're insidious and leaking with this toxic, predatory, dark energy. Um, men lust after their daughters, they lust after people that they shouldn't be lusting after, like underage, um, and just it's just everything. Men are imprinting their unconscious desires of all these like sick um sexual fantasies that they have onto this world, and it's become that, it's becoming that, it has become that because of things like OnlyFans, like it's being like sexual availability is like at an all-time high, you know, and that's the easiest way for things like darkness, or if you want to call it the devil or ego or the patriarchy. That's the easiest weapon that the devil or darkness or the patriarchy or ego has to weaken men. Men, you are being targeted. It's a very um systemic and conscious attack on masculine energy, upon their strength, their discipline, their honor, their integrity, their consciousness, their conscience. And it's become just like a really bad place that is breaking a lot of girls' hearts, bodies, minds, spirits. And because and because of that, men are being lost with their the spark that women give them, with that God gives them through women, right? That divine spark, that um purpose that is taken action upon in alignment with integrity from God. And I was thinking about this earlier, like I was thinking back on when I was younger and this image that I had of God and of Jesus, and like how the society twists the perception of God and Jesus and um divine beings into being like I don't know, like not that important or like uh questionable or kind of lame, or when in reality, if you look back at the stories and if you really get tuned into truth, these beings and these energies are the most powerful, the coolest, most like intelligent, like energies and beings to ever exist. So I don't, it's just crazy how coming into this world, into this society, how you get brainwashed, right? By by demonic forces, by unconsciousness, by all these um entities and energies that are trying to keep you under a certain illusion so you don't wake up to what is really going on here. And what's really going on going on is an attack on men's energy. Because if you don't have strong men to uphold societies, societies fall. And that's exactly what's happened. We have a bunch of little rats and scoundrels and snakes operating at high levels in our societies, and a lot of really disgusting, shady, scary things have happened that have hurt a lot of people. And because like men are less sensitive, it's easier for them to turn away from their hearts, right? It's harder for women to turn away or feminine energies to turn away from our heart, or those more anchored in love. Um, because there are definitely evolved men that are very anchored in love, where it's very difficult for them to turn away from their heart. But I'm just talking kind of in um broader terms here. It's easy to bring down a society if you hijack the thing that's supposed to be protecting those societies, right? Women are like, and feminine energies are like the heart of a society, right? It feeds, it nourishes the spirit of those that protect and provide. And we just have like this perversion going on of like what a woman's role is and what a man's role is, or of masculine energy and a feminine energy, whatever you identify with. Um and women have become these objects, and we've lost our spirit, we've lost our heart, we've lost our connection to the divine because we are being contorted and molded into what the devil wants us to be, which is discardable, usable objects, right? And also objects to lure men of God away, to lure or to keep men operating in darkness and unconsciousness. And so there's a few like speaking from a like a girl or a woman's perspective, like my body, my experience here on this earth has been very painful. Um, I'm a very sensitive person, so I see things deeply, feel things deeply, and I just I'm highly attuned to truth and to love. And I've just been rocked, I've been rocked my whole life by these dark energies. And I grew up in a family that was pretty dark, and I have been here to transmute those energies out of like an unconscious masculine and an unconscious feminine. Um, and I've seen a lot throughout my experience about what women have had to do, how they've had to adapt to living in a world where they are not safe nearly ever. The only time that they're safe is around men that don't prefer to have sex with women and other women, but also there are women that are highly um dark and adopted into the patriarchy and into masculine energies, so it's not like all women are safe. A vast majority of all beings are not safe. It's terrifying, you know. Like you really like a lot of my life I've just stayed isolated because I really couldn't trust anyone around me for a really long time. And you either become like me and you isolate yourself, but I also, when I was younger, I developed like I intellectualized everything. I I went into my mind and I became the masculine energy that I didn't have around me. Um, my dad had fallen into lust and he was weak and undisciplined and couldn't be there for me while I was suffering under my mom's abuse, and he had also like I was just getting attacked from both ends from my mom being stuck in a narcissistic masculine space and my dad being stuck in a underdeveloped, weakened, lustful, um, masculine space. So he couldn't help me from her attacks, and she couldn't help me from his attacks because they were both lost in darkness, and I had to figure out a way unconsciously to protect myself as a young girl, very sensitive with a big heart, um, in this very scary world, you know, and um there's a few different things that I tried. I tried to gain weight, but that made me feel bad about myself because I didn't feel beautiful anymore. But when I gained weight, then men wouldn't target me, essentially is what it is, and my mom also wouldn't target me. So it but then I would also, I would just want to feel beautiful. I would want to be these girls that are lusted after, that are desired, that are objectified. So I would, you know, lose weight, starve myself, and that's how I developed an eating disorder, a pretty bad eating disorder that took away most of my life force. I didn't have creativity, I didn't really have friendships. I just had this pattern that kept me, my spirit and my heart kind of like um submerged beneath it. So I was either binging and purging and isolating at home or whenever I was able to get out of that and restrict and lose the weight and get back out into the world, and it was safe enough for me to be around other people because I didn't want to be judged by people at the same time. Um, then I and I could start, you know, working and operating in the world again, but then it would feel terrifying because I would start getting lusted after, and like the part of me that had been sexually abused when I was younger, like I I didn't want to be, you know, so I put weight on again and I I I oscillated back and forth between um these two spaces for a really long time, and the amount of torment mentally that and emotionally and spiritually that I went through, not ever feeling like stable in myself, not ever feeling worthy in my body, not ever feeling like I had value or was worthy of protecting or loving. Because I learned from my mom I wasn't worthy of loving, and I learned from my dad that I wasn't worthy of protecting, because my mom had been so abused that she abused me and called me things that a mom shouldn't be calling a daughter. Um, and my dad was lost in his lust, so instead of protecting me, he targeted me. And this is how it goes for a lot of us, girls and women, you know, like it's not corn has turned our society into a very scary place. It's almost like inhospitable for people that are genuine heart-centered people. These societies toxify the hearts and the energies of people. And it's taken me a long time to detoxify myself from the society, from the energies I was brought up in. Um, and I've had a lot of health struggles because of my experiences and the environments that I was raised in and the culture I grew up in. I got lost in partying and became promiscuous at a pretty young age, and because that's what the world wanted from me, you know? And I didn't have a strong masculine figure telling me or guiding me or protecting me or showing me how to respect myself or discerning what men were safe, what men weren't. Like I had nothing, and I didn't have a mom that was teaching me that I was loved as I am, that I'm enough as I am, that I'm worthy of being protected by a man. Like I I felt like a like a very soft, very easily like breakable or something that is just like so easily broken without any shell, like a turtle without a shell or something like that. That's how it felt. And I just kept getting stabbed and stepped on and um cast aside and used, and um that does something to someone, right? And it's not just like what you see in the media when a girl gets scorned or cheated on or manipulated, like they just become angry and revengeful and all these things. It it's not, it's a highly heartbreaking thing to be to be a woman in this world, a girl in this world, and to have this just this bright light inside of you, and this heart energy that just like wants to receive that back in a world that is so scary, and then she just keeps getting she gets lured into these traps where she's just used, manipulated, attacked, and discarded. Like it's just it's it's devastating, like it's absolutely like devastating to a girl's heart to go through that over and over and over again. And what do we expect as men in a society? What do we expect women to adapt into? Right? We're evolutionary beings, we learn from past behaviors collectively. So why do we have women putting on weight? Why do we have hypermasculinized women? Why do we have women that are assimilating into being these promiscuous women? You know, like we're adapting into these things that we aren't really at our core, but it's all for survival. If we just become what they want us to be, then you know, we can just be ahead of the game, or um, we can even play them like they play us, and we adopt these energies that we never were born with. And these like these shadowy masculine um energies in our societies, it's just it's it's toxifying women's hearts, and then men are like, Where are all the good women? I'm so confused, where are the good women? You know, it's just like, are you are you serious? Are you serious? Like, are you seeing the same thing that I am seeing here, sir? Because it's very clear what's happening. The power is in your hands, sir. If you want women that are powerful and beautiful and regal and to be served, then don't use them like they're not. You know? We all need to stay take a step back, and um, women, we need to reclaim our hearts, our spirit, our our integrity through God and through nature and through um just loving ourselves. Excuse my lisp, I just got a retainer. I won't wear it the next time. Um but and men need to take a step back too and reevaluate like the way that you're treating women is the way that you are showing that you would treat God, because God gives man women, right? And what are you doing to God's gift to you? And everything that you do to women is not being, it's not like God's casting a um He's not He's casting a blind eye. Everything you do is being seen, my guy. Like everything. And even though karma may might not have caught up with these men, it will one day. I just took down someone who has gone away with this for years. But karma hits, and when it hits, it hits hard sometimes. If you've done enough, if you've been one of these men that just do the most and become so evil and so heartless, it just like you you can't get away with it, and that very darkness that you use and use as a weapon to um attack other people, to feed off of their energy, whether that's sexual or otherwise, that's how the devil is gonna turn around and use you. You get what you give, and that is true to the very it's just true. It's just true it through and through. You can't escape how you've treated other people. It doesn't it doesn't exist in a vacuum. You know? And um since like I was pretty young, I was like lost in the party thing. But at a very young age, I also had this burning fire to like heal myself because I wanted to be happy. I wanted my heart back, I wanted my spirit back, and I just didn't really know how to do that. But at a young age, like uh I was just craving, like I learned from psychology, metaphysics, like um those are the main things. I went into kind of like the spirituality route and psychology, and I tried to learn like how to get myself back, how to heal from everything that I was living through. And it took me a long time because the environments that I grew up in were they destabilized me, but because it destabilized me to a degree where I wasn't functionable in the society, like I wasn't able to work because I was so terrified of being seen, I was so terrified of being around men, I was so terrified of being seen like with in a bigger body because I would get judged and I wouldn't be seen as desirable, and I was terrified of being seen in a smaller body because then I would be sexualized and targeted and manipulated and used and discarded. I didn't really know what to do with all of this, and along with the other sexual, mental, verbal um uh trauma that I had lived through. Like I just didn't know what to do with all that, you know? So I escaped into alcohol, I escaped into weed for a little bit, and I escaped into certain drugs for a little bit. Um but that just hurt me more, uh obviously. Um it showed me the darkness in men even more. And I think looking now like my body is falling apart because I because of all the trauma that I've been through and how scared I am. Um and the energy that I came here to clear in my bloodline is a very toxic, um, predatory sexual um demon that predates on innocence uh and is very like gross and um just like think of the worst predator you could think of, and that's the energy that's been operating in my bloodlines or in the bloodlines that I was born into, and that I came here to clear and defeat. Um and so that kind of has been like oppressing me my whole life as well. Um, so that's had me connect with men in relationships that were highly predatory and very covertly or overtly narcissistic and just used me, um, manipulated me heavily. I picked up on everything all the time, looking back now every time. I was like, I was like everything that the red pill says that they want in a girl, right? Like I was in qualities, like I was sweet, I was submissive, I was like giggly, happy, like I would do things around the house. Um, but also I had the quality of like high priestess of being like highly discerning, highly intuitive, and I would call guys out on their shit, and I would like, well, I wouldn't do it that I say it like I was all like bossy about it, but I wasn't. I would come to them just like sensitively and like vulnerably and be like, I'm feeling this, like I think that this is going on. Like, can you just tell me? Because like I feel it and it hurts. And you know, like I would just get lied to. I would just get gaslit so heavily. You know? And this one relationship, two relationships ago, I was with this guy, and my mental health was so awful, and my physical health was so awful because of this energy that I'm carrying, right? All of this abuse, all of this like um lustful attack that I've had on men, and this like on my mom's side, just like this devaluation of who I am, like I'm worthless. Like it for many years, it just felt like I was entirely worthless. Um and you know, when I met this guy, I was beginning to purge a lot of this energy for me. So I would cry uncontrollably, and I would need to like find ways to let all my anger. So he would help me, and we would like throw eggs in the shower, and I would punch his fists or punch his hands, and um he'd like scream into pillows, and um, you know, just trying to find ways. Like I was just like an emotional mess. And this guy, he saw this vulnerability for me, and I was so sweet. I was such a sweet little, like that's just my energy, right? I'm just like very um, I'm just like a very sweet energy. I have like a very sweet, like innocent heart. And he 100% just took advantage of that. And I thought he was a sweet guy. He was kind of like my dad, like presented sweet, but has a very lustful, deceptive, manipulative energy underneath. And I didn't see that because my dad was my dad, and I hadn't woken up from that abuse yet, and I hadn't seen that clearly, so I attracted someone that was like my father, and the whole time he was watching me fall apart. I actually had like a few, like um trying to self-exit myself a few times, and he saw that he took me to the emergency room. I had to get pick picked up by a police car one time because they had to bring me into like the psych war to stay overnight because they were scared of what I was gonna do. And it was because I picked up on him cheating on me, and he was lying to me the whole time, and he was cheating on me the whole time. He didn't leave me when he saw I was going crazy, he didn't think there wasn't part of him that had a conscious conscience to be like, wow, this girl almost took her life. I should probably either leave her alone or I should tell her the truth. But he didn't do either of those things. He just kept doing what he was doing. And I I just I can't really understand, like, you know, there's girls that are just like so aggressively masculine and so like dominant, like they just don't give the man any room or safety, emotional safety or sweetness for him to step up and have integrity and to stand in his truth and to be honest and to be a good man. But I I wasn't that girl. I gave him all the space in the world. I was so sweet with him, I was so vulnerable with him. I let him, I let him be like the leader for me. But because I had had a man that wasn't a leader when I was younger and was actually a predator, I attracted the same because I hadn't healed from my energy yet. But I almost took my life because my intuition was going off that this man wasn't safe, but he was presenting to me like he was safe, but I didn't have enough stability because of all the abuse that I had gone through. So I relied on him financially and I relied on my mom financially. So I didn't have enough stability in my energy because I've been just like kind of demolished at a pretty young age. Like I didn't have any safety, any safe ground to stand on. And I just like hoped that, you know, I would find that. And I tried so hard to like learn these healing modalities. I became like an energetic healer, a yoga instructor. I read a thousand of books on healing and metaphysics and spirituality and psychology, and um I just delved into it so deep, and I was always trying to figure it out. And um, yeah, just like anyone that I let come close to me when I was in those vulnerable parts of my life, just took advantage of me when and whenever they could. And because of my naivety, my my innocent nature, because I wanted to believe that I could trust, I wanted to find that like safe space. So I believed in the good of people. I saw the good in people, and I trusted what they told me because I would never lie to people, the degree to which I was lied to. Like I really, to this day, I don't understand. It must just be that I'm different to the people I've been around, you know. But there's just some people that can't physically be okay with lying, and I'm one of those people, and I cannot physically be okay with hurting another person without it devastating me at the same time, you know. Like I just am I can't harm someone and not feel bad about it. Um, and I've been around people that are the opposite. And my digestive issues, like because of this, have been crazy, you know, like it's been so hard for me to hold down a job. It's been hard for me to eat normal food. Um, it's been hard for like I don't have friendships. Um, I don't have a job. Like I'm still because of this last X, it was kind of like the explosion. I came toe-to-toe with the devil pretty much. Um and was able to walk away, and he is kind of collapsing and facing his own judgment now. Um, but it took that degree of darkness because that's the darkness that I came into this world to clear from my this bloodline, and it took that level of darkness, you know, and I told him, this past guy, I had told him about like I'm not able to work because of my health, like, and my mental health is really shit, and um told him about my tr uh acclaims to or my attempts to self-exit because of my past with men and how they've treated me, and he did the worst that any man has done against me. And it's just like now I know that evil truly exists and he really was a devil because I can't even the things that I shared with him. No person that has a decent heart, not even like a good, but a person that had even like a crumb of goodness in their heart wouldn't be able to treat me the way that he did. You know, I um yeah, I guess I just I'm still trying to understand that level of evil, you know. Here I am like finding out about the truth of who he is and what he did to me, and um my body is breaking down. Like I I have severe infections and um overgrowths in my gut, and for years I've had just these overgrowths of energy, of this toxic energy in my body that I couldn't get out because I was still in environments and around people externally that were mirroring that energy from me, you know, and all of these like illnesses that have kind of impeded me from living a full life or being able to nourish myself properly or take care of myself properly, or you know, just my my ability to live like is so small because of everything that I've been through, and all of that energy, all of that trauma is mirrored in my physical body through these illnesses. Um and it's just like because of the darkness of men, my life is like been destroyed. Like most of my life, I've just been consistently, like constantly abused. And I just kept like, after it would happen, I would heal my heart, I would cry, you know, I would, I didn't know it, but I was spending time with God and God would heal me, right? And I would get a glimpse of what I needed to do, and I'd start to try to do that, and then I would meet another man and he'd pull me back into the darkness and destroy me again. Um and I take responsibility for choosing these men, right? Because I could have left earlier, but I was used to the energy that I grew up around, I was used to the energy that was passed down to me. I was used to men that are around in the society. There weren't any, I'm very small few, of like healthy masculine representation in my life. And everyone around me ignored all of the abuse that I went through, both from my mom and from my dad. We are letting innocence, we are letting the divine feminine fall through the cracks, and she is just getting swallowed into darkness. And it's it's I don't want it to keep happening. I really want men to hear this, and I really want men and boys to understand that we need you. Us girls and women, we need you desperately. We need you to be strong, we need you to be disciplined, we need you to choose us over lust. I know that lust feels good in the moment, right? And you don't have to face the messiness of life, you don't have to build up resilience, you don't have to search for God or develop a relationship with God or um your own authenticity. I know it's easier to just assimilate and to just become these like alpha bros or whatever this world is called is saying that you need to be in order to be a man. Being a real man isn't what showed out here in the in our culture, in our society. It's not because this culture, this society, it's been taken over by demonic shit as not real, it's all illusory. Excuse me. It's all a lie. It really is though. Like, um, once you start fighting these forces, these dark forces in yourself, you start to wake up and you feel a liberation inside of you. I promise you, it feels a thousand times better to live for truth and to live for love and to live for God than it does to live for the devil. The devil momentarily feels good and you just chase high after high after high and ego um ego puff after ego puff. I don't know how to say it. Um but yeah, you might be acknowledged by the society as like a big dog or something, but in the spirit realm, you're looked at as like weak and subservient, right? It takes true strength, it takes true like masculine strength to turn away from the things that are false, to turn away from the fear-mongering, to turn away from the culture of men doing things for men's approval. So that's what a lot of men are doing, right? It's living for the approval of other men, for the patriarchy. And in doing so, you're enslaved in this prison. You're not able to have feelings, you can't have dreams, right? You can't have your authentic, like whatever your authentic energy or nature is. You can't be whatever you are, you have to be this other thing, and that clamps you down and contorts you and perverts you and toxicies you. And that like residue of energy that comes off of you is repelling women. Women that are truly worthy of your time, your energy, and your effort will be turned off from society's version of what a man is. But a lot of men don't want good women, a lot of men just want a cascade of one hot woman after the next, right? Because our attention spans, like we can escape into so many things to avoid our own conscience, to avoid our own evolution, to avoid our own maturity, from to avoid God's voice from reaching us, and to numb ourselves from God's eyes from hitting us. But God's still looking at us, even though we're distracting ourselves from feeling it. And I think like um you men have a choice, right? Um you can choose to indulge in lust, you can choose to fulfill the role that the society deems equivalent to what a man is. But if you choose that, if you choose lust, you lose God's favor, you lose power, passion, and purpose. You know, my my last experience with this devil guy, he had been like a player his whole life, right? Ran through 450 girls, been in and out of prison, right? Like just that kind of guy. Um but he made it with guys too while he's been in prison, he kept that secret, but you know. But I just watched his life has been destroyed by lust, by the devil. Like he has a son he has no contact with. He's age 38 sitting in federal prison. And you know what he does with his time? He plays with he plays with women and with men. He fucks with their head, he manipulates them. He dri he drives women to almost wanting to off themselves. Like he is like his spirit is so dark. And all because of lust. You know, he told me at a pretty young age, like he's like, you know, sometimes I wonder why I'm like this. And at the time I didn't know what he was really talking about, but now I know what it is. He's like, I was stayed in the same room as my brother, and my brother, like, he would bring back girls and like have sex with girls in the bed beside me when I was really young, and he watched his mom like cheat on his dad, and his dad was like a good guy, and he just like you know, he was born into a broken home, and lust was the thing that's that gave him energy of life, I guess. And now he is turned into a a a monster, like he's actually a monster to society. Like he's a sadistic predator. You know, and he doesn't have a home, he doesn't have money. Lust will strip you of everything. Everything. You know, and I've watched like my past boyfriends before him, they obviously both they all cheated. Um, and after I left them, their fortune, like their their lives went downhill. You know? And there's something to that. You can't just play with a gift from God. You can't. Don't get wrapped up in what the society tells you is normal or okay. That it's just normal to cheat on women, or it's normal to, you know, run your game on women. No, it's not okay. That's what the devil says is okay. Do you want to live from the devil's rules or God's rules? Because I'll tell you what, if you live by the devil's rules, you're gonna end up getting fucked. Straight up. That's gonna have you bent over, taking it for years, in a way you don't want to be taking it. I seen it. It happens. You can't live for the devil. Like, this is how it works, I think. Like, this is how I've seen it happen. You know, you get inducted into the devil energy, like you you take the bait, right? You create that that contract with the devil with lust. If you give in, I'll give you pleasure, you know? And you know, you ride that high for X amount of time, but the devil always comes back to collect. And what will he come back to collect? Your dignity, your self-respect, your honor, your purpose, your life force, whatever is important to you. That's up for grabs. Right? So I think it's just important for this to be talked about more, you know, because there's a reality beyond this reality that's more real than what we're seeing. We need to tune into that a little bit more so we stop this abuse, so we stop stomping down on what God has given all of us. It's this life, it's this body, it's the ability to rise and grow and ascend together. The only way to truly become great, become your greatest version is through God. If you try to do that through the road of the devil, you know what at what's at the end of that road? Humiliation rituals, mass downfalls in the public eye, and we're seeing it. There's no integrity, there's no honor, there's no coolness in playing women. It's not cool. It's not cool to destroy a woman's psyche, it's not cool to destroy the gifts that God gave her through manipulating, gaslighting her own intuition and her own heart, her own body. So just things to think about. I think it's important to talk about because the it's gotten to a point where women are just we need more, we need better, we need protection. And this is kind of me being like, Can you please can you please like um protect us now? We need you, like we truly do need you. It's not this feminist thing of like we don't need men, F men. No, we need you, but we need you right. We need you straightened out, we need you detoxified from the devil. We need you like living in reality and not in the illusion the devil wants you living in. Okay, goodbye.