#MLILAS - SCHIZOPHRENIA PSYCHOSIS DEPRESSION (MLILASSPD)

MY LIFE IS LIKE A STORY (MLILAS)

E08 - #MLILAS - SCHIZOPHRENIA PSYCHOSIS DEPRESSION (MLILASSPD)

CHRISTOPHER LIAM ROSE TALKS ABOUT #MLILAS - SCHIZOPHRENIA PSYCHOSIS DEPRESSION (MLILASSPD)

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Hello everyone, my name is Christopher Leon Rose. I'm an author, mentor, life coach, motivational speaker, evangelist, musician, and activist. In my Life is Like a Story podcast, we're going to be sharing a bit about myself, about my mental health conditions of schizophrenia, psychosis and depression, and my journey in being in mental health services and also working in mental health. My life is like a story podcast was created because I wanted to share parts of my life that are very important to me, and by storytelling and sharing my spiritual life lessons, I hope it can inspire and help other people to find faith, spirituality, faith, and religion, Jesus Christ, Jehovah, and Buddha. So that's the reason why I created a podcast. So today we're going to be talking about schizophrenia, psychosis, and depression. So um my mental health journey started when I was about 15. I was going through a lot of uh like mental health difficulties and challenges. So at the beginning of my mental health journey, I had depression because I was very upset with life, um, my past experiences, um, abuse, um, challenges with ex-partners, abortions, gang and violence and crime, and just living a negative lifestyle, a negative life. So depression came into my life when I was very young, about 15. When I was 15, I took an overdose of prescription drugs and where to commit suicide because I couldn't handle the pain of the suffering, pain, and adversity that I was going through. That led me into going into mental health services in Springfield Hospital for a mental health condition, and that's when my mental health journey started. So I had a mental health breakdown, a relapse of mental health difficulties and challenges, and then that's when my journey in mental health services began. Um, I was about 15 at the time, due to my past, and most of the things that happened in the past was based on my actions, so I can't say, you know, it's down to another person that the reason why I went through what I went through. Um, some of the things I went through was based on me, my mistakes, my failures, and not learning and not understanding and being young. Um as I was going through depression, I had many relationships with women, I had many relationships with friends and family, but my mental health was suffering, and I was going through a lot of adversity adversity, suffering pain, and just going through a lot of things and emotions, and I wasn't happy with myself, I wasn't content, I wasn't spiritual, I wasn't faithful, and I was just going for a really dark time of my life. So in my life, there's been times where it's been vulnerable, depressive, um, negative. I was always thinking negatively, ruminating thoughts, paranoia, and then my mental health conditions started to develop, and then I started to dis discover that I had schizophrenia and psychosis, and you know, as I was having schizophrenia and psychosis, my mental health was just getting worse and worse. A lot of admissions into hospital for mental health, dealing with my schizophrenia, psychosis, and depression, and being vulnerable and unhappy. Um, and then in the 30th of September 2014, I lost my home and all of my possessions in a fire. I lost my relationship at the time with my ex-partner, and I became homeless, and that was the last and final mental health relapse and mental health breakdown that I had. My life was falling apart, my ex-partner broke up with me, I lost my home and all of my possessions, I became homeless, I went through the trauma of a near-death experience, and my life was in misery, um, my life was in pain, suffering, and adversity. And at the time I never thought I would get out of that situation or find a way to recover from a mental health condition because I already gone through suicide attempts, oh overdoses, drug overdoses, um, near death experiences, gang and violence, crime, corruption, losing friends, losing family, losing loved ones. So I had a lot of suffering, pain, and adversity in my life, and I never thought I would able to get out of it. Um then with my schizophrenia psychosis and depression, I needed to get support and help when I was homeless. So as I was homeless in the streets of the west end of London in an area called Marble Arch, I basically needed to get sectioned because I was homeless, I needed somewhere to stay, and I didn't want to be sleeping on the streets in the cold and being homeless without no property, no food, no drinks, no income, or no job and career. So when I got um into Springford Hospital for the final time when I was sectioned, I met my basically my spiritual hero, Paul Dorrington. He's a lead and employment specialist, he came to the world of where I was at the Pacific time and helped me. Um Paul was the first person I ever told about my life experiences, my past, my trauma, where I came from, um, my background in gangs and crime and uh drugs and women and alcohol, and um Paul was the first person that helped me. Um Paul basically said to me he can help me to come out of the ward and get me out of hospital. So eventually after the homelessness and mental health relapse, I was um placed in hostels to live in while my flat was getting refurbished because my flat had a fire and everything burnt away, and I never thought I'd be coming back into the flat that like burnt down. Um then um as my flat was getting refurbished, I um was living in hostels, so I lived in Pearley for a while, I lived in Wandsworth, and then I lived in Stratham, and that was a very dark time of my life. I was vulnerable, I was depressed, I was unhappy, I was suicidal, and my life was in a very negative place, even though I was getting support from Paul Dorrington. And then Paul Dorenton referred me to a clinical psychologist named Dr. Karen Mitchigan, and Dr. Karen Mitchigan helped me when I was young. This all happened around 24-25, and then I started to receive the support from Karen Mitchigan and Paul Doranton both helping me in the community, and then eventually my life changed and I got out of the hostels and moved back into my property that I live in today, which is flat 24 Warden House, Dagnell Street, London, SW115DB. So this flat was burnt down and then it got refurbished, and I moved back in because my father told me to move back in. I didn't want to move back in because of the trauma, but I had no options because I was homeless, I had nowhere to go. And then basically, as I was going through my mental health journey, this is where the recovery comes from in my journey, and then Paul helped me to get my first ever mental health job as a co-facilitator running the Hair and Voices group, and that was the opportunity that I was looking for because I was young, I was about 24-25. Um, I actually got the job on my 25th birthday, and my life began, and then I started to build my career within mental health, and then Karen Michigan helped me and taught me how to manage my moods, manage my feelings, taught me how to journal in books, taught me how to you know overcome suffering pain and adversity, and taught me the skills that I needed to recover from my life. So, with the support of Paul Doro to the Doctor Care in Michigan, my life changed, and then I basically found out while working with Paul Doran to the Doctor Care in Michigan that I worked to help other people give back. So I built my career in helping other people giving back, and overall I've had about maybe 23 to 25 jobs in helping other people. Um, all my jobs have been different. I've worked in peer support, I've worked in an employment specialist, I worked in senior peer support, I worked in mental health recovery, senior mental health recovery, bank support worker roles, um, support worker roles. I've I've done a lot within my time and um built my career from scratch. So I don't have any degree background, I don't have any education, um, other than my life coaching diploma, which I recently got recently, which I studied, but other than that, I'm not academic. Um I failed in university, college, and school um due to my mental health conditions, and my life was in a very negative place back then, but now it's changed. So the essence of my story with my schizophrenia, psychosis, and depression is that I was able to rebuild my life even though I experienced suffering pain adversity and traumas, and um I'm not saying I'm a perfect individual, and I'm not saying that um you know some of my suffering pain adversity doesn't come from my own mistakes, but what I learned from Paul Duranton and Dr. Karen Mitchell is that you can recover from your mental health condition, you can find freedom, you can find liberation, and you can have a life beyond illness, which is very important to me. So, you know, um mental health is part of my life, it's part of who I am. But it I've tried not to think of myself as a label or a name or a title, so it doesn't define me of who I am, even though I've got schizophrenia, psychosis, depression, dyslexion, my learning disability of difficulties, and also diabetes for my physical health. But I'm not defined as those labels, I'm not defined as those names, I'm not defined as those titles. So I tried to look at life beyond illness, what do I want to create, what do I want to do, and now I felt my passion and helping other people, spiritual music and faith, and then I felt my relationship with Jesus Christ Jehovah and Buddha. So I got baptized in Christianity, I started to do meditation and Buddhism, and my life has changed drastically. So from the 30th of September 2014 up until today, which is the 29th of the 5th, 2026, it's been about 12 to 13 years since I transformed and I went through a spiritual change and spiritual alignment. So the message of my life is like a story is this is that you can overcome your past. It's not gonna be easy to go through the suffering, pain, adversity, but it can be overcome. And just remember that in life, everything's always moving forward, so nothing stays the same. So even your life, like even though you may be going through suffering, you may be going through pain, you may be going through adversity or past trauma or challenges or difficulties or hardships or disappointments, that doesn't mean that's gonna be for the end of the rest of your life. It means that life is always moving forward, you're learning, you're growing, you're developing, you're evolving, and you can become who you want to be, you can live the life you want to live. And for me, my life is based on helping other people, spiritual music, and faith, and that's what I've discovered: the no-self, selflessness, and know that self. And um I do believe I'm on a spiritual journey, spiritual life path, spiritual life purpose, spiritual calling, a spiritual divine design to make the biggest difference and the impact that I can make while I'm here and to follow that path of where I came from. So that's my story of mental health, that's my story with homelessness as well. And I hope it inspires those people that listen that you can become who you want to be. You don't have to be a perfect individual to live the life that you want to live and move forward into the future and create what you want to create because the future is created. So thank you for listening now. Have a good day. Take care now. Bye bye. Thanks. Bye.