EP #3 — Betting on Yourself: What 75 Hard Taught Me About Discipline, Failure & Starting Again

EP #3 — Betting on Yourself: What 75 Hard Taught Me About Discipline, Failure & Starting Again

What happens when you get tired of abandoning yourself?

In Episode 3 of Level 40: The Rebirth Edition, we’re having an honest conversation about discipline, self-trust, starting over, and what it really means to bet on yourself — even after setbacks.

This episode goes beyond fitness and dives into the deeper transformation behind my 75 Hard journey. From failed attempts, public restarts, and burnout to rebuilding confidence, creating healthier habits, and learning grace, this conversation is for anyone who has ever felt stuck, discouraged, or afraid to begin again.

We’re talking about:

✨ self-discipline vs. self-punishment
 ✨ rebuilding trust with yourself
 ✨ overcoming the shame of starting over
 ✨ giving yourself grace during growth
 ✨ why sustainable change matters more than perfection
 ✨ learning to choose yourself again

Plus, I’m sharing a personal announcement about restarting 75 Hard on June 1st and why this time I’m approaching the journey differently.

Featured scripture: Galatians 6:9
“Let us not become weary in doing good…”

Because your comeback doesn’t begin when life gets easier…
 it begins the moment you stop giving up on yourself.

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✨ Healing • Reinvention • Becoming Unapologetically

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Hey girl, hey, welcome back to another episode of Level 40 The Rebirth Edition, the space where we heal, we grow, we evolve, and we learn how to stop shrinking ourselves. I am your host, Siobhan, and today, oh girl, this episode is for the women who keep starting over, the women who keep saying, I'm gonna do it this time, but life happens and things change. The woman who secretly wonders, can I trust myself again? Today we are talking about it. So buckle up, get ready.

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SPEAKER_01 1:10

So today, everyone, we are talking about betting on yourself. And I know we are almost done with the second quarter of 2026, but I want to say that we have to allow ourselves to bet on ourselves for us to be the best version of ourselves. So this topic, um, so we're gonna talk about what the 75 Hard Challenge taught me about discipline, failure, and starting over. And before we even start, let me say this. This episode is not about perfection, it's not about look at me, hey, I completed something perfectly. Mm-mm. Not even a little bit. This episode is about what happens when a woman gets tired of abandoning herself. Because that's what this journey has become to me. It's not about weight loss, it's not about you know the cutesies, it's not about providing something, it's not about you know what, it's about returning to myself. So let's talk about the hamster wheel, let's talk about how it all started. So before I started the 75 Hard Challenge, I was tired. I wasn't physically tired, I was just like my soul was tired. If you understand, if you know, you know. Is that what they say? If you know, you know. I felt like I was like living the same day over and over again, like 41st dates, the moon, the movie I believe with Adam Sandler or something. Um, but you know, work, volleyball, family, responsibilities, repeat, work, volleyball, family, business, repeat. And I'm grateful, I am truly grateful. Um, but I just felt stuck. Like I was moving but not growing. I was doing but not becoming. I need to do something different. So I went on YouTube and I went to Googling about challenges, and I remember that there was this challenge. I was like, you know what? I need a challenge, I need movement, I need discomfort, I need disruption. Because I was on autopilot, and I think a lot of women understand what I'm feeling, especially the women who pour into everybody else. You become dependable, you become reliable, needed, but somewhere in all of that, you stop checking in on yourself. And I want to ask you guys, listen in, I want to ask you guys something. When was the last time you did something hard for you? Not for the kids, not for work, not for family, but for you. One thing people don't talk about enough, how hard it is to restart publicly. Because I was documenting the 75 Hard Challenge on my YouTube channel, you know, becoming Siobhan Speaks, and every restart felt so embarrassing. I was scared, I was ashamed. I'm thinking, people are really gonna look at me like she is really going through it over there. Is she really gonna do it again? The first time, it was my cycle that threw me off whack. The second time, I didn't even meal prep because I thought I was in it to win it, and the third time, I worked out so hard, girl. The recovery became so difficult. And that attempt taught me something. I have the ability to push myself so hard that I burn out myself. Burn myself out. And anybody else overgive, overperform, overextend, overwork, then crash. Am I just the only woman? Well, especially women, especially mothers, especially women who spent years putting everybody else first. We go so hard for everyone else, then have nothing else left for ourselves. And maybe discipline's and maybe discipline isn't always push harder. Maybe discipline looks like recovery, or maybe pacing, listening more, adjusting to you know the whims and the ways of your days, maybe it's learning because sustainable growth beats burn out every single time. After the third attempt, the truth finally hit me, y'all. Yes, I wanted to lose weight, yes, I wanted to feel better, and for the record, when I started the 75 hard challenge and failed all those times, I started at 210 pounds, and then today I'm like 189, and I'm so proud of that. But see, it wasn't even about the weight, the deeper transformation, that's what happened inside. Because when I became clear on what I wanted, I knew I needed to rebuild trust with myself, not with the world, not social media, not anybody else but me. Because somewhere along the way, I stopped believing in my own promises. I needed to become a woman who says, I'm doing this, and follows through. And maybe that's where some of us are, not lacking motivation, not lacking talent, not even lacking the dream, just trying to reconnect ourselves again. How many promises have we really broken with ourselves? The business, the gym workouts, going to class or learning something new, the dreams, the boundaries, the healing, and the rest. Every broken promise chips away at our confidence. So it's not because we're lazy, because we stopped choosing ourselves. I recently started reading a new book with my book club. I told y'all when joining the book club. I was not playing. Um, I recently started a book. It's called The Year of Yes by Chandra Rhymes. And I don't know if you know who Shandra Rhymes is, but I did not know that she was the same writer, producer for Bridgerton. I love that show so much. I will sit back, relax after a long day, and binge watch Bridgerton. But I'm all done with my seasons for now, but we will be back to Bridgerton. But yes, I read I started reading to I started to read this book. It's called The Year of Yes, and it was a quote that hit me. It says, saying yes brought me to a place where I could love and find myself. Because how often do we say yes to everybody else and say no to ourselves? We say yes to responsibility and no to rest. We say yes to service, but no to our dreams. We say yes to surviving, but not to becoming. So maybe, just maybe, this is our year of yes. One lesson this journey edged into me was this grace and discipline belong in the same room. Let me say that again. Grace and discipline belongs in the same room. See, for years I thought growth had to hurt. Push harder, go harder, no breaks, no softness, no rest. But growth also needs recovery, it needs compassion, it needs wisdom, it needs adjustment, and it needs alignment. And that changed everything because instead of asking, why did I fail? I started asking, what is this trying to teach me? And every see and every restart taught me something. I am stronger than I thought, I am smarter than I thought, and I am more resentless than I ever thought, and I don't need approval to become the best version of myself. I will not dim my light so someone else can shine. We all shine, and I think we as women need to hear that more often. Our growth is not betrayal, your evolution is not selfish, your healing does not take away from everyone else. So I want you to sit with this. Where have you stopped betting on yourself? Your health, maybe your dreams, maybe your faith, creativity, maybe confidence, maybe your voice. Where? And what promises have you been making to yourself that you keep propo postponing? You know what's crazy? Even though I stopped and started several times with the 75 Heart Challenge, the habits stayed, the healthier relationships with food, the journaling, you know, reading my Bible, less overthinking, more grace, and honestly, that's how I know the transformation was real. Because the challenge ended, but the woman who I was becoming didn't. And recording this podcast talking to my level 40 women has been extremely something in me. It makes me want to go again. Not because I hate myself, but because I finally love myself enough to continue. So I want to say it out loud because accountability matters. June 1st, I am starting the 75 Hard again, and this time I am not allowing circumstances to stop me. Not because I have something to prove, not because I'm chasing perfection, but because I'm betting on myself again. And this time I'm doing it differently. I learned that when you're building a new routine, you don't have to make it a sprint. You don't have to destroy yourself to prove you're committed. You don't even have to overwork yourself. You must simply build slowly, intentionally, and with wisdom. Because sustainable growth outbeats burnout any day and every time. And maybe somebody listening needs a reminder. You don't have to destroy yourself to transform yourself. So y'all know I be in my Bible, right? And lately, this verse has been sitting with me, so I wanted to share it. Galatians 6 9. Let us not become weary in doing good. For at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Honey, let me say this. That hit me every single day because the journey is gonna be difficult, but the transformation comes in the journey. So don't give up. Not on your healing, don't give up on your body. Don't give up on yourself. Don't give up on your dreams. Don't be give up on becoming. Because the harvest still belongs to you. So this week, keep one promise to yourself. Just one. Take the walk, journal, set some time to pray. Don't forget to apply what you're learning. Don't forget to rest. Drink your water. Move your body. Read that chapter, girl. But whatever it is, do it. Because self-trust is built one promise at a time. And if this episode spoke to you, come hang out with me on YouTube, Becoming Siobhan Speaks, because this journey of healing, discipline, growth, and becoming is happening in real time. And I would love to have you there. If you remember nothing else, I would love for you to remember that starting over is not failure. You are not behind. You are simply becoming.

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