The Space Between Promise and Fulfillment | Waiting on God

Are you in a season of waiting for something God promised?

Waiting on the Lord can be both painful and beautiful. It can stretch your faith, test your patience, and shape your heart in ways you don’t always understand at first.

In this episode, we talk about the space between promise and fulfillment, what it means to wait with intention, and how to trust God’s timing without wasting the waiting season.

My prayer is that this episode brings you peace, strengthens your faith, and reminds you that God is working even in the silence.

If this episode speaks to you, feel free to reach out or connect with me on social media.

Love you all and praying for you 🤍

Transcript

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Hey everyone, welcome back. It's been a minute. I think I haven't posted in over a month, maybe almost two months. And it's been a crazy ride. The Lord is taking me everywhere. He has basically changed my entire life in the last month and a half. Um, and I could post a separate video on all that the Lord is doing and just his hand moving. But in that month and a half, the Lord has had me kind of wait and ponder about this podcast or this YouTube channel and all of that. And I want to do a sort of rebranding. There's only three videos out, so I think now's the perfect time to kind of align myself with what the Lord wants. So if you can't already tell by the name of this channel, or if you're new here, welcome to our first episode as the Not Easy But Simple podcast. Um, the whole heart behind it is that our walk with the Lord, while it is not easy, it will have its challenges. We are promised to have our sufferings and to suffer alongside Christ. Although it is not easy, it is simple. We are called to live for the Lord. And as much as it pains us, as much as these roads are turning and winding, the Lord wants us to be in his presence. And I think the goal of this podcast is to kind of simplify the lies that we've been told as we've been growing up, or that we've believed in our heads and our minds and in the opinions of our friends and all of those different kinds of um sources, I guess you could say, kind of the different sources that we allow to speak into our lives. I kind of want to eliminate those noises and bring us back to a biblical lifestyle and what that means, what that looks like, and just living the way that the Lord intended. Because why wouldn't we? Why wouldn't we strive for that, right? So I wanted to talk kind of openly about the season of waiting and what that looks like, why we need to wait, how we wait with intention and not just kind of sit back idly. Um, because I feel like that's kind of what the Lord is putting me in is kind of a season of waiting. So I guess let's just jump right in. I don't think I have anything more to say. So for me, the season of waiting, I want to be raw and real and honest because it's very easy, I think, to look at people on a podcast or on TikTok or whatever, and you may not even know these people, they might not even be famous. But just because we get to see them on the other side of the screen and we know nothing about their personal lives, nothing about their personal struggles, it's very easy to be like, oh, they have their entire life figured out because you can't see the negative impacts that they have in their lives going on. You only see the positives, you only see the parts where we are encouraging people, we are telling them how to do the right thing, right? So I'm gonna be very real and raw in this season of waiting. I want to be open with you guys because that's what this is all about is genuine relationship and actually helping each other walk this life out. Um, in my season of waiting, it's been a it's been a wild ride. I I have found myself in a in a season of doubt. I have found myself found myself almost slacking with the Lord. Um, if you know me personally, um, you know that I do love my alone time with the Lord. I love to worship and just sit in my room and and just be with him. I hate distractions and I try to do that as much as possible. And there was a point about a month and a half ago where everything in my life kind of turned upside down. Um, the Lord called me to leave my church and to help start a new church, help start a ministry. Um, and I was heavily involved in my church and it kind of came out of nowhere, but the Lord spoke and I got confirmation and I obeyed. And it has been a very challenging season. I won't say it's the most challenging because I've gone through a couple worse ones, but the sense of doubt, the sense of almost struggle, I guess, and distraction. I think that when we are in a season of waiting, it is so easy to get distracted. I have found myself filled with other things. My mind is running rampant on other things that I could be doing instead of being with the Lord and honing in on the skills that the Lord has asked me to hone in on. So when I'm going through this season, again, a month and a half, I have found myself, I get home from work, I'm exhausted, I'm scrolling on Instagram, scrolling on TikTok, I'm watching a show, I'm watching a movie, I'm on my computer, I'm surfing the web, I'm going internet shopping, whatever. And I've I've lost the drive to seek the Lord. And not every day is like that. Sometimes I gotta push through. But I will be real and I will say that in this season of waiting, I feel like my spirit doesn't want to do these things, but my flesh is just like, ugh, I just really don't want to do any of that right now. And I want to preface everything about this episode with that so that you are able to understand where I'm coming from. When when we talk about intentionally waiting and seeking the Lord and being able to grow in the season of waiting, I want you to know that I'm falling short right now, and that's okay. I am aware of it, and the whole point of being aware is to make changes, to do something to be better at it. Even doing sitting down and filming this podcast, the Lord has been telling me for literally a week and a half to film a podcast on waiting, and I have waited. I literally I was supposed to film this on Sunday, and it is Thursday. I think when the Lord has spoken into our lives and he has said, this and this and this and this is going to happen for you. And the world in which we live, we are so easily consumed by instant gratification that when the Lord tells us something, we expect it to happen at least within six months, right? At least, like, oh Lord, you told me that I will have this soon. But it's been a year. When is soon for you? And we have to remember God is eternal, God is omniscient, time doesn't really bother him, right? And we have constructed this time frame for our lives. I'm 28, I need to have things done by the time I'm 30, I have to have my life together by the time I'm 30. And it's like the Lord has a substantial amount of time to work in your life, but you are giving him a deadline. And on top of it, again, speaking to myself included, we are wasting the waiting. We are sitting in this waiting season doing absolutely nothing. The waiting season is for us to be able to grow into what he has promised us. If the Lord provides everything he promises us immediately, we would destroy it. Especially when it comes to calling purpose-driven uh promises. So for me, like being a worship leader and having this podcast, being able to be um to help people, all of these things that I've I've had visions of. If the Lord were to just do everything without me having to lift a finger, without me having to get up off my couch, I would destroy the calling over my life. Because I am not capable. There are still parts of my flesh that are very active that need to be crucified, and I know that's harsh language, but when we're talking about the Lord and his kingdom, we can't afford to let any part of our flesh in because we are so quick to destroy, we are so quick to be led astray, even in, I would like to say that I've grown as a Christian and I, you know, I'll get I'm nowhere near perfect, but I've grown, I've matured, and yet here I am in this waiting season, waiting for a promise that the Lord has given me, and I'm distracted. And if I can't grow past the distraction, if I cannot force my flesh to serve the Lord even when it doesn't want to, how can he trust me to lead others? If I if my faith and my obedience is so flimsy, if it's so wavering, because I don't feel like worshiping today, I don't feel like reading my word today. How is he going to trust me to lead worship and lead others into worship if I'm not feeling it? That's not how that works, and there's a whole spiritual element to being a worship leader and all that, and we can do an episode on that and like callings and what they really mean. And I would love to do that, but that's for another time because it'll get deep. But when we're in that season of Lord, what are you doing? What's going on? We need to remind ourselves that there is a purpose. Now, whenever I think of a season of waiting and growing, I think of a fruit, right? The Bible parallels fruits all the time. Fruits of the spirit, we are um, he is the vine, we are the branches, we are producing fruit, etc. If you go into a field where the fruit is growing and you pick it before it is ready, it's bitter, sour, it's it hasn't reached the potential that is fully able to reach because you picked it early. And you might honestly end up spitting it out. You might end up getting rid of it prematurely because it wasn't ready. I also think of this like when you're baking something. If you are constantly opening the door to check if it's ready or you're pulling it out prematurely when the time isn't done, you're gonna get an underbaked, unevenly baked raw chicken, brownies, whatever you're making. If you're opening the door or if you're pulling it out, it's not going to cook correctly and evenly because you are removing it from the fire that it needs to be in. You cannot pass the fire and expect to be fully baked, if that makes sense. So as we sit here in this time frame, we can think of just biblical backgrounds, right? The David gets anointed as king and then immediately goes back to being a shepherd. He is in the fields alone, but through that, he has to fight off a lion, he kills Goliath, he has to go and sit at the feet of the king and play music for him so that he is able to soothe him. He is basically chased by the king to be killed all before he gets to be king. But remember, he was already anointed to be it. Because before you get appointed, you must be anointed. But when we are in that season of waiting, like, Lord, you've promised me this, you've promised me this, you've shown me this, you've shown me this. Instead of saying, Lord, where is your promise? Say, Lord, where do you need me to be? What are you showing me in this season? What am I not doing to move me? We think of Israel in the wilderness. They were supposed to be wandering for 40 days, it ended up into 40 years because of their own delay. The Lord never intended that, but we delay our promised land because we are not ready to enter. We need to keep our eyes on the prize. Enough is enough. The Lord is coming and he is coming soon. And there are lives that need to be reached because you take the step. The Lord wants to use you. And don't get me wrong, the Lord will use someone else if you say no. The calling of the Lord is irrevocable, yes. But there are lives that are counting on you to step into your call. There are lives depending on you stepping into the calling that the Lord has placed on you. And if you don't do it every single day you don't do it, it delays, it delays their blessing. Would you not delay someone else's blessing? We're so selfish in the way that we think. Lord, give me what I've been asking for, give me what I've been praying for, give me what you have shown me. And that's why He hasn't given it to you. I remember there was a season of my life, you know, being a worship leader, that I was like, Lord, I just want to be on a stage. I want to worship you, I want to worship you. I didn't know why. I didn't know why I wanted to be on that stage. Well, I do now, it was because of pride. I wanted, I wanted to be on the stage. The Lord couldn't move unless I was on that stage because he has anointed me as a worship leader. And the Lord's in his gracious kindness being, he said, no. Because if you get on that stage with that attitude, you're going to lead people astray. The reason I want to be on a stage now is that so I am able to truly show people what it is to worship the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. And the best part about that is knowing that I don't have to be on the stage. Just being in the room where there is true worship, that is all that matters. It is no longer a heart cry of I want to be a worship leader and I want to be on a stage. No, Lord, I want to be in a room that is full of your genuine worship. Whether that is being on the altar team, being able to pray over people, whether it's on the stage, whether it's in production, whether it's as an attendee, whatever that looks like, Lord, I want to be in the room because miracles happen when true worship falls. And that is what he does in the waiting. And again, I'm still not perfect and I'm still not there. Because if I was there, I'd be on, you know, I'd be living out my calling. But every day, Lord, would you humble me? Would you bring me to your feet? Show me the reason that you've given me this gift, show me the why you have placed me on this earth, and he'll reveal it. But we need to have that hunger for it. The Lord is eagerly searching for people, and I think specifically young people that are after his own heart, just like David, to advance his kingdom, not to build a platform, not to build a brand, not to become wealthy and rich preachers, people that are actually after the giftings of the Lord, the fruit of the Spirit. If we go after our callings in a sense of Lord, I just want to be seen, we're not ready. We need to reduce ourselves so that He may increase. Lord, would you increase your Holy Spirit in my life? Would you increase the way that people get to see your face in my life? Would I be a mirror that reflects you, not a distorted image? Because the last thing I ever want to do is poorly misrepresent Jesus. All that to say. How do we be intentional in our waiting? We don't give in to our flesh. Every day, if you are feeling like I don't want to pray, I don't want to read my Bible, even if it's just for five minutes, get in your word. Get in your word, speak to the Lord. He is so eager to speak to you. He is literally just sitting down and waiting for you. How can we not be eager to speak to the man that died on a cross for us that endured so much agonizing pain but knew it would be worth it because we would have the opportunity to speak to him face to heaven face to face and one day be reunited with him in heaven? How could we pass that up? When we're sitting and we're waiting. Ask him every day, Lord, what are you showing me today? What are you showing me today that I need to grow and that I need to work on? What are you showing me today? That is going to bring me closer to where you want me. Guide me, Lord. Guide my feet. Fill my spirit with only you. Remove everything that is not of you. Crucify my flesh every single day. Every day would you crucify my flesh, Lord, so that I may live by the Spirit. And when it gets hard, and when you feel like you're doing a bad job, because that's when the enemy likes to creep in and say, Oh, you haven't you haven't been on your A game. The Lord forgot about you. He forgot about the promise he's given you. No. Push past those thoughts and ask him, Lord, have you forgotten me? Have you forgotten me? And watch how quickly he floods you. How he floods you with his love, with his mercy, with his grace. Because all he wants is your presence. Everything else we get to do is additional. Every single thing that we get from the Lord is additional to our relationship. Isn't that amazing? The best thing he could have ever done was grant us access to him. And everything else that he gives us is additional. He's so cool. But I don't know. I think just in my season of waiting, it's just it's been hard, but it's also been beautiful. I get to look back on days where I may not have felt like myself and days that I've seen his hand move so graciously. And it's a process, and we're gonna get there. It's hard, but it's it's worth it. And I would say another huge thing is having people in your corner that are on the same race as you. Not necessarily they're going to the same promise, they're going to the same calling, whatever, but they are actively seeking the Lord the same that you are, and you get to lift each other up. That's what this channel is all about. If you're going through something, if you are experiencing this waiting season like I am and you're struggling, man, reach out. DM me. I would be happy to help lift your arms as you get to worship the Lord. We see it in with Moses when he is lifting up his arms so that Israel can win the war. And as soon as he drops them, they start losing. But then he has to come by him and raise his arms and help him. That is what we are all about. That is what the body of Christ should be about. Not tearing each other apart, but lifting each other up. Will we look past our differences? Will we look past the inconsistencies? And would we just allow the Holy Spirit to bring revelation? And would we be there for each other? Show up for each other. Get inconvenienced for each other and for the Lord. The cross wasn't convenient. It's not convenient to show someone you love them. But it's worth it. I don't know why I just said that. Holy Spirit, thank you. But that's all for me today, I think. I hope you guys like this podcast. I hope that this is edifying to you. If it was, thank you, Jesus. Um, I pray that if you know someone that's in a season of waiting, that you would share this with them, that this would help them as well. If you have any prayer requests or anything like that, please drop them in the comments below or message me if they're private, anything of the sort. I am always here for you guys. And I guess I'll see you in the next one. Or back, baby. I love you guys so much, but Jesus loves you so much more. Never forget it. All right, I'll see you next week. Bye.