024 - Prayer for Knowing God

Prayer as a living relationship with God—releasing fear, religious wounding, emotional suppression, and the false belief that we must be perfect to be loved by the Creator. Through vulnerable prayer, contemplation, worship, and honest communion, this episode invites us to remember that God is not distant, condemning, or absent, but intimately present within every moment of our lives, guiding us gently back into peace, trust, and Divine intimacy.

Themes of hearing God’s voice, surrender, childlike trust, healing the heart through authentic prayer, the nurturing presence of Divine Love, and returning to direct relationship with the Creator emerge as we soften into the understanding that we are already worthy of God’s love simply because we exist. This transmission offers a gentle pathway back into prayer as conversation, connection, remembrance, and sacred companionship with the Divine.

Perfect for moments of anxiety, spiritual confusion, emotional heaviness, loneliness, religious deconstruction, fear about the future, or when you need to reconnect with the loving presence of God surrounding and guiding your life.

In Eternal Love of our One Infinite Creator,
Xi (XiangMing) | EarthStar Academy

📖 Matthew 7:7 — “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and you shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01 3:34

Grand rising family. Welcome to another morning in heaven. I missed you. And I'm greeting you this morning. The sunlight shining through the trees and the birds. I think you can hear some of them in the loop. I'm overjoyed to be back this week. The theme that God has placed upon my heart is how to know God, how to hear from God, how to allow God's wisdom into our life. So let's open up with our prayer. Beloved God, eternal creator, my holy mother, my eternal father, my creator of all things, majestic, eternal, perfect, and beautiful, the maker of my soul, my body. I greet you this day with my open heart and I thank you, God, for all the things in my life, for all the ways that you are orchestrating and developing and bringing together. To get to be a witness of your greatest work to ever unfold. That I get to know your heart. What a profound honor it is to get to have this vision, this sight, this understanding, to get to see into the inner workings of your creation and to know what's coming for all of humanity. And so, beloved God, thank you so much for entrusting me, for placing these sacred memories in my heart and my soul. And if at any time I ever forget what a great honor it truly is, you know, sometimes my human just needs to have a tantrum, just needs to be dramatic about things and complain. And I know you know that it's hard for me sometimes to be here on the earth, God. I know that you have so much grace for me, and you know that it's not easy being a human, especially one that is so sensitive, God, but I'm still sorry that I forget. And I lose contact with what and who you created me to be. So, beloved God, I dedicate this week to deepening my relationship with you. I dedicate this week to seeking understanding and how I can hear you better, how I can live my life in closer proximity to you. And I pray that through my seeking that you will meet me here and reveal to me how peaceful, how holy, how secure, how stable, how nourished I can feel. Like a sparkly little child that is just so cherished in every way. Thank you, God. Thank you, God, thank you, God. And God is reaching out to people outside of the institutions, outside of the church, because for so long the church has misrepresented God's heart. And if I remember correctly, when Jesus walked the earth, the only people that he was really angry with were those of religion for this very same thing of misrepresenting God's heart. And so whether you have been born into a religious household or you are recovering from religious wounding, or you grew up with no religion, there is a wound in the collective. This perception that God is this man that is emotionally distant, a bearded man in the sky, silently judging us. It wants us to do the right thing, but it's not there to tell us what the right thing is, so we're guessing. We're scared. We feel shameful for not knowing and not being perfect. And this keeps us from being able to reach out and to create a relationship. And this wounding is also deepened by our own relationship with our parents. One thing that continues to humble me is that as a human, my love can never be as perfect as God's love. So something that I'm sharing with my children early on is prayer. For them to feel the perfect love of God and to understand that we are on a journey together to seek that love. So this is why it's so helpful for us to tune into the Creator in a feminine way. Not that our God is a goddess or a god in that it is like a person. God is really a force of creation beyond gender. But mother is a principle that is familiar to us. We were born of her body, and we were fed and nourished by her. And this feminine aspect of God, perhaps it's without agenda. Perhaps she loves you just because you exist. Perhaps you are worthy of that love just for having been created to begin with. So understanding that God just loves you first and foremost. Before you being on a mission, before you needing to become a Christed being, before you needing to change and improve in any way, just you sitting there now, just as you are. And this I know for certain that if God is anything, God is love. Now, like any loving parent, a loving God guides you towards greater things. You know, how I have been deepening in my relationship with God. God has been telling me that no matter what I'm going through or what I'm trying to figure out, I can always bring God into the picture. Like there's nothing you need to go through in life without the presence of God. And it can seem awkward at first to, you know, have a disagreement or not sure about a decision you're making in a very grounded life, thinking that 3D is separate from other worlds, thinking that God isn't present in our mundane. Well, I've just been breaking down that wall through prayer. And if you find that you want to pray more, but you feel this presence suffocating you and feeling like their words just can't come out, like you want to pray, but you just can't, we're going to cast out that spirit today. And so, you know, my prayers is less about creating perfect words. It's not about memorizing perfect prayer. It really is just about coming to God and being yourself and just laying your heart out. The things that you think God doesn't want to hear about, God does. Beloved God, my heavenly mother, my eternal father. You know, I'm just having a really hard time today, and I know I want to be grateful and I want to be loving, I want to be all those things, but I'm just having a really hard time being any of that right now. And God, I pray that you will just lend me your strength. I pray that you will expand my capacity for peace and calm and trust and surrender. There's a part of me that knows that your hand is on the steering wheel. I know that you are creating all things for good. But my human body is just having a really hard time with that today. So, God, I pray that you will come and just meet me here where I am. Just come meet me here where I am and reveal to me your love. Show me where I'm holding on to the past and show me how I can let it go. And I know maybe I had a difficult conversation with someone and it's left me feeling a certain way. And God, I don't want to feel that way in my heart, but I'm just feeling the limitation of my humanness right now, and I pray that you will open my heart so that I can be more like you, God. That the love inside of my heart can become greater, can overcome the anxiety. God, I'm really worried about this situation, this thing in my workplace. And whatever it is, you know, it just it makes me so worried and fearful. My God, I know that I can just bring these things to you at any time, that if at any moment I'm feeling anything, I can just start opening up and allowing you to be right there with me. And I know that you will call me forward. You will show me how to be a better person, you will show me how to love in a greater way. You will teach me how to trust you. And I'm just gonna keep being here until I feel like the person you created me to be. Allow God to do what God does best, creating. Allowing God to sculpt us and mold us. Beloved God, if there is any part of us that is hindered, blocked, suppressed by a muting spirit, a spirit that mutes our prayers, that blocks us from being able to speak to you, that oppresses our voice in our chest and covers our voice and keeps us from being able to speak passionately to you directly, God. I pray that the Holy Spirit will come down into the space. And we cast that spirit out now in the name of Jesus, that all spirits blocking us from being able to pray openly and freely, and all energy is keeping us from being in communion and remembering that God is here with us all the time, and God is love and God is wisdom and God is power. God is so much more than what is presented to us in the institutions of religion. And you don't need a book to be in relationship with God in all times of the day. So, beloved God, I pray that you will descend into this space, that you will make your presence known unto your children. Your true spirit, your true essence, all-encompassing peace and love and all-knowingness available to us. I mean, you are a trillion times cooler than Chat GPT, and yet we defer our questioning, our therapy, our questions to AI. But what are you, God? You are original intelligence, you are divine intelligence, you are infinite intelligence. So, beloved God, I pray that we can allow this week to deepen our relationship with you, to seek and to know you. Seek and you shall find. Knock, and it shall be open to you. For everyone that asks receives, and he that seeks finds, and to him that knocks it shall be opened. And he says, Enter in at the straight gate, for wide is the gate, and broad is the way that leads to destruction. And many there be which go in there, because straight is the gate, and narrow is the way which leads onto life, and few there be that find it. To allow that presence to transform us on a cellular frequency level to become the full absolute presence of love. And if you ever wander off, it's as easy as sitting down, opening your eyes, opening your hands, saying, God, I don't know where I am. Come get me, please. That's it. Please pick me up. Wishing you this peace to take this into your day. Drop me a comment in the recordings later and let me know how God is showing up for you. And thanks for tuning in to Mornings in Heaven.