004 - The Three Peak Challenge and death of Roy

My daughter Anna joins me to chat about our Three Peak Challenge we did. It was gruelling! And we came home to sad news that one of our dogs had died.

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Hi everybody, welcome to another episode of More Than Fridays. The last time I was talking to you on this podcast, myself and my daughter were going off for our three pigs challenge. When I say this week has not gone to plan at all, it has not gone on to plan at all. Um starting off with really kind of going over what's happened. We did the three peaks. Um and yeah, this episode is starting off with a bit of a hard one. Um the week didn't go as planned. Something happened when we got back that we definitely when you think about it, it it it is yes, this was this could have happened, but we just are in such shock. We got a telephone call on the day um that we were coming home and we had some really bad news. As you all know, I've got seven dogs, and uh sadly Roy passed away. We are absolutely gutted. Um, this is probably those of you who've been following Roy was quite the character. This is Roy, and um we have spent probably the last two days absolutely heartbroken. I think one of the biggest things about losing a pet is if you weren't there, and so me and my daughter, my daughter's actually with me right now because we haven't managed to unpack anything from the three peaks in a sense of taking it on board. It's just been quite a whirlwind, hasn't it, really, of us coming home, dealing with everything. Um, yesterday we went to a really beautiful um crematorium. He sadly had died um pretty much when we were on the phone too. Um we had a great we had great people here with him. He had was with his dog sitter who is absolutely amazing. She was absolutely amazing, she loves all the dogs. We've got two of the best dog sitters. Um, my PA was here as well, and they just love Roy. They love him. I've got housekeepers well, everybody loves Roy, he's such a character. And we, you know, when they were on the phone to me, we were sort of they were asking for the vet's number, but it was kind of it was too late. You know, we had been medicating Roy and he had been doing so well. We never in a million years he'd he had basically perked up uh since we'd taken him in. Because we we found out in January that he had um uh a heart murmur, was it?

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He had a heart murmur initially, and they were like, you know, it's not bothering him. We were shocked. We were like, well, what does this mean? Um eventually he had a really bad day, probably end of January or something like that. And that's when we had to put him on um medication. Was it called Vetmidin? Uh it was a couple. There was a few a few of them, and Yeah. Um Furomide. And he bounced back, didn't he? He really bounced back, and I I think Hawaii it's been so hard these last couple of days. Today's the first day that we feel okay. We've kind of found ways. It was really the on the day it was just so all of us were in here, we were crying when there was a what was about oh because um it was Donna and Isabel, they were both here, and we were just crying our eyes out. It was such a shock, and I do feel I don't think I ever thought I'd ever see the day where I sort of wasn't gonna be there for one of my dogs. And I just really have this understanding now that these things happen, um, and with all the planning in the world, life is life, you know. Um so I'm gonna talk about that a little bit, but obviously I've got Anna here because we're gonna unpack the three pigs together on the podcast with you with us. Um so just a bit about Roy um and how we kind of I I have a lot of dogs, and I'm obviously gonna go through the experience of losing animals a lot more. And what have learned is there's a certain I think when a dog passes you can sort of do things that you regret. So I had a a dog that passed away. Oh gosh, Rudy, when was Rudy? Did Rudy pass? I think it was 2023. So about 2023. And we I really wanted to do everything right, okay, which was have somebody come to the home, and and I think there's something about being in control of their final moments, make sure they don't suffer and things like that. I think that's the difference here, where how I could kind of deal with that grief of that animal a lot better than the grief of Roy, because I wasn't in control. I really thought I was going to be able to identify exactly the moment when Roy, because I I I could I've sort of seen it before when their heart goes, what's you know, when they start not eating or becoming consummant, then you can kind of plan for that um to for them to be put to sleep. And that's that's the beauty about having dogs is that you can do euthanasia where it's a bit more comfortable for them. So there's a lot of self-reflection in this one, going, did I leave it so long? And I didn't, you know, he really did. He was in such good spirits, and and everyone's like, he was just like it literally, he just went that morning, um, which has been so hard because she just wouldn't say goodbye. It's just like a human thing where you just really want to say goodbye. So that was pretty difficult. So with all of this, I was still in a bit of shock, and I was on the phone to his dog sitter, and she was absolutely amazing. She said, you know, I'm at the vet. Uh you know, what do you want me to do? And I was like, God, can I I want I want his body, I want him to be brought back. I I need to see him, you know, I know he's gone. And she and I said, I was like, can you bring him back? And I I there was a bit of my head that was like, I've never asked somebody to please can you take my dead dog and bring them back. It was all so it was all so out of my control, and I didn't I w I just couldn't get there fast enough. It was, you know, there's a lot going on. We were in Birmingham at the time, and um we um she's she said yeah, absolutely. Um so she brought him back and it was so sweet because they love Roy as well. And when we got back, um every you know, we had a catch up with him, and me and Anna were like, we really want to see him. So we went upstairs and they had wrapped him up. Um he had flowers all by him and everything, and we just absolutely like broke heart. I can feel my throat going now because it just was one of the saddest things ever. Your dogs, or your pets, or you form relationships and they're like family. My dogs mean the world to me, and their lives are they can be really short and they can go on, and things can happen, accidents happen, shocks, illnesses, whatever. And that's something I'll sign up to again and again. Roy was such a character, he really was. He was loved, he was such a little shit. I've got this dog because Roy basically bit everyone, he bit everyone, and Roy had kind of just started to like me and let me stroke him, which was so bizarre. And I and someone was saying to me, you know, when dogs kind of got this feeling that it is sort of their and they do tend to change, they can tend to um change their behaviour. But he loved my daughter, he loved Anna. He um Anna was his mum, became his mum, and you know, we just really struggled with not knowing because when we come home, Roy would always be the one to greet us, and the last two days we have just been so sad. I think this is that I wouldn't have been able to talk about this Friday or whatever, and I'm quite a resilient woman, you know. Some people wouldn't have been able to talk about this for even longer, but today's been like the first day that we've been able to talk, talk fondly, have a few jokes and things, and I think that's because we managed to get a really um a quick appointment. We managed to spend 24 hours with him, and we managed to let all the dogs say goodbye to him, and the dog that really was like showing signs of kind of understanding was Sassy, because Sassy was always like his best mate, and he he only got on with Sassy, and she's here, and she was doing things like sort of trying to wake him up and things, and that was pretty sad. But we took her with us to the uh crematorium, it's uh one in Suffolk, and it's for horses and and um animals, and they were just amazing, and we got some little bits um like to his paw print and things like that, and getting some pictures and things because he's just gonna be so missed. Um, Anna and I were very depressed, we were so down. I had a real breakdown, didn't I, in the kitchen, and I I just couldn't accept it. There was this I knew I had to go through this as part of a grief, and I just said, I I just was like a child. I was just like, I don't want this happening, and I just knew that I had to do these things and let it go as a as a way of grieving the grieving process. I just for me seeing him there and not that I wasn't there, I screamed or saying, I'm so sorry, Roy. And it's just you've got to let yourself do what it's gonna do, you've got to express what needs to come out, and I did. And it was great. Anna listened to me. It was very strange because the pair of us, when I was okay, she was breaking down, and when she was breaking down, I was okay, so we were able to comfort each other, and it was really hard, and it was a bit sad around here. So I said, you know what, let's just let's get out of the house. You know, we'd just got back from the three peaks, we were exhausted, we could hardly walk, and we decided to we just went to Waitros, didn't we? We just had to get out of the house, went to Waitros, and I Anna bought a drink because I don't drink, and I I think I bought a Guinea Zero, and um we bought some cakes or something like that. We were just we need to cheer ourselves up. We we they did help a little bit, and we were just sort of we didn't do anything, the kitchen was a mess, we were very much pretty, really sad. Um, and I really felt it. You were feeling pretty heavy too. The next day we woke up and we still had Royal, went and sit saw him, and we'd bought some candles and some flowers, and like I even left some just some treats like with these candles, and it just made me feel better. I was doing whatever I could to make us both feel better, and um, we'd organised with this um here the the crematorium had actually offered on that day that I'd phoned up. He said, Do you want to come in this evening? I said, No, I said it's it's just too soon. So we organised to go in at 12 yesterday. I'd had two people recommend my coach who I was with, and she was just so lovely. She goes, That's where I took my dog. She goes, they care. She goes, they really care. She goes, Look, vets are there to look after the dog when they're living. And I do feel, and no disrespect to vets, look, they do a great job. But when we Rudy went, the guy just wanted to take him and leave. And I wish that we'd kept him a little bit longer just to like process it all, really. And and if I had known, I did the thing is, I didn't know about these private crematorium places where it's a little bit more compassionate, a bit more kind, a bit more slower, a bit more take your time and a bit more about that moment. And what they were trying to explain is when it's a human being, you don't have as much control, you can't take their hand print and the nose print. But with your animals, you can pretty much, you know, you can ask, you know, can you take their paw print? Can you have a nose print? And you know, and things like that. So there's all these nice things that you can do for for you to um memory keep that memory. So we it was quite a nice process, wasn't it? Because it was all nice in there, and we we laid Roy was with us and we were able, she said, what would you like? Would you like him to be wrapped up and cremated in a blanket? Or and we had bought him in his bed, we'd put a little blanket over and we put put some flowers around it, and we said, I said to Anna, should we just let him have his bed? You know, and I said, you know, I said, Is it do people do that? You know, in with his ashes, like having the bed and I don't mind. And we were like, Yeah, you know, let's t let's let him go in, be comfortable as he is, and um that's what we agreed, and we chose a little box. His name was Royston Funk Jr. And it was we've just chosen to have Royston uh on the box. And his the reason Royston came to me is because he um his old mum and dad, they had a child, and basically Roy didn't like the kid, would bite it if he wanted to, bite everyone. And they actually stayed in touch and they love Roy. They managed to come and see Roy about when we found out about the weak heart, and um they got to say goodbye then, and they thought they'd be able to come back and see him, but he sadly passed away, and I'm sending her like a little package with his nose, his paw print. Um, I've got a little sachet of his ashes, and um what else have I? I'm sending her a little bit of his hair. Do you know what? Like, she's really grateful. But I just love that there's some that she really loved him as well. And I felt I felt very much like a foster, foster mum to a wake as why he was like, never letting me cuddle in away or anything. But you, Anna, you really did have that close relationship with him, didn't you? When you when you came back, he just really took to you, didn't he? Just you just had this lovely little relationship. And I do think that in his last few months, he massively changed, didn't he? With just such a little cutie. Um, but he is missed that little face. Um so adorable. It's so adorable. We're gonna pick him up on probably not Mumday. She did say Monday, it's bank holiday. We'll probably go on Tuesday. We are going to both get his ashes, we're gonna get some jewellery, uh, so you know, because you can separate the ashes. Because I thought it was I think there's quite a lot, isn't there, when you have the ashes. We've got a little box coming and we've got a picture made of him. And the thing is, is we're obsessed with our dogs. I'm obsessed with my dogs. You know, I've got six here, um, and they're probably you know, they're gonna live beautiful lives, and the day everybody everybody dies, you know. And Roy is Roy is just really unique because he was so particular with what he liked, and I just happened to understand what that was. You so that's why he liked me. But if you take the time to understand his really extremely particular ways, then he does like you. And I think the Monday he first had a heart scare in December, yeah. That's when you started to learn his way. Yes, and that's when you became close. But he the to be fair, I had discovered he liked if so the vets would use pate, wouldn't they? And all the dogs loved it. So I was like, right, I'll get pate. And we wrapped his tablets up in pate, and it was like, started doing fucking hors d'oeuvres for this dog. We'd come in, you know, I'd be like, Oh, it's hors d'oeuvre time, right? Um, it was all very funny, and he really did. Obviously, with me doing those high quality treats, I think that was a way in, wasn't it? And he started to let me stroke him, which was absolutely lovely. And he was just such I had this little one-to-one with him, okay. And I told Anna about it, and I looked at him and I said, something along the lines of Roy, I know, you know, we've had our, you know, I don't like it when you bite me. But I tell you what, Roy, I fucking love you. And he just came, he put his and he just came over to me and he just turned round, he let me stroke him. So we had this massive understanding, and we just I think in his last few months we really became close. Um so there's a bittersweet to I'd say our success, our week has been heartbreaking, but there's been a bittersweet success, and this is the first time me and Anna are actually going to sit down and talk about the three peaks. Um, I said, please we sit on on my podcast today so as we can just chat about it, really, because it was very successful, but there's a part of it. We had to abort on Snowdonia. I think some of you may have been following us on Instagram. We we did three peaks. Anna, tell us a bit about Three Peaks while you're here, because Three Peaks was your idea. It wasn't my idea. I know I'm the adventurous one, but I am not a hiker in the slightest. Um we do have some of our kit here as well. Um, tell us um how this came about and and what the what the charity was that we did it for. So the Three Peaks Challenge is you've got to hike the tallest mountains in the UK. So Ben Nevis in Scotland, Scarfell Pike in Lake District, and Snowden in Snowdia. And you've got to do it in 24 hours. We were doing it as a fundraising challenge for Blind Veterans UK, and our goal was £5,000, which we did hit. Yeah. We're really proud of that. We actually hit it just before we were going up Snowdenia, didn't we? Yeah. Yeah. So I will take you back through it all. It was very funny, the whole thing. It's hard work. I'm actually scared of heights. Um, Anna knows this. Anna is actually quite a confident hiker, aren't you? Yeah, I've I've had some experience hiking because I lived in the late districts for a little bit. Those who know the area, what pub did you work in? So the Wasdale heading, literally right in the middle of nowhere at the end of the valley. Yeah, so Anna, Anna's, you know, you'd send me these amazing pictures. It's stunning. Uh, that area is probably for me was the most beautiful because we went to Ben Nevis, all beautiful areas, but Wasdale, wow, it's absolutely gorgeous. Just a picture path. It really is. So I'll take you back. So Anna had said earlier, was it early in this year or it was late last year? It was last year, it was like November last year. And then we kind of booked everything, didn't we, in January? So, so really, I'd like to say I am probably a sponsor of this kind of thing. So Anna said, Mum, this is what I want to do. I went, absolutely. Now, I had no idea what the three peaks 24 hour hour challenge involved. I had, I thought three peaks are next to each other. I thought you walked three peaks right next to each other. I had no idea they're all six, about six hours apart. So that's part of that, and that blew my mind that that's actually part of the challenge. So we had to find, because I was like, okay, I said, I'll be the driver. We were all discussing all this sort of stuff. I said, well, you might have to do it on your own. I'm glad I was with you because it's pretty bloody dangerous. Um, and we'll get to the proper dangerous bit. Everybody knows you're probably listening a lot about hiking and that it's dangerous stuff. Like the weather can change dramatically. Um, and we we we've had first hand experience of that. Um, so we I'll take you back. I remember Anna mentioning it, and I said, I will do this with you. And we didn't have a support team. So I phoned my coach and I said, Can you train us for this? And then she offered, didn't she? Um, my coach is absolutely amazing. We couldn't have had a better support team. My coach is, as far as I'm concerned, is a proper coach. She is so supportive, she loves seeing her athletes do well. Her, she it was initially going to be just her, and then our other friend was gonna come. But she actually um, I would like to use the term roped her other half into it. No, her other half is amazing. He um he could be a rally driver, I swear, but he was um paramedic. So and I think he did a bit of test driving of the car. He was such a good driver, wasn't he? He was insane. He was brilliant. He was absolutely brilliant. But not only that, if anything had happened, we've got paramedic with us. He's like, this is brilliant. They were such good value, weren't they? Yeah, we we really are so grateful to them. Didn't like there was no complaining at all. Like I just everyone was really part of a team, and just the morale was high the entire time. And and I think that's so important. If you're thinking of doing this challenge and you are like it, don't drive, just don't. I think anybody that does that is insane and you're asking for trouble to do the 20. You can do it on a jolly, do you know what I mean? Over a period of days, but the 24 hour to try and hit that 24 hour. When we were going up Snowdenia in this mental wind, and I will come back to this because I remember thinking, well, we're not gonna make it anyway. We're not gonna make because I remember the wind, wind always slows me down, whether I'm doing like a triathlon or something, it always means we're not gonna make it. Not gonna make a top, yeah, not uh I thought we were gonna do it, yeah, but I went, we're probably gonna I I was like, we're gonna do 26 hours or something. Yeah. Anyway. So we see it anyway. So we um some of the kit, so we had to get all kit. I want to show you some of my kit. Now I have polls. These are my poles. And I wasn't going to get poles. I thought, these are like for people that don't know what they're doing. I needed these. I needed these. These were fantastic for me, weren't they? And I didn't bother with polls. Would you would you get polls if you were to do it again? No, I would get polls if I was going to do it every day. Yeah, got you. But uh just like a short-term thing, no. Yeah, these honestly, for Ben Nevis, I used them all the time, didn't I? And our we got a guide for Ben Nevis. I'm so glad we did. We needed a guide for Ben Nevis because at the top it was it was pretty scary. If I was to do this again as well, this was the end of April, everything was nice, and we did manage to do it without crampons. Just my own confidence and to do it slightly faster, I would have got crampons. Absolutely needed crampons in the shore. Needed crampons, we didn't have crampons, we managed to do it. I reckon we would have been 40 minutes faster. Yeah, I did, yeah. I think crampons really the fact we didn't have now when I was doing it, I was just thinking, why did we because like why did we think like not crampons? Because the guide, I was like, shall we hire crampons? And the guides were kind of like, Yeah, if you've got them, bring them with you, but you don't really need them. I wish the guide had said, you need crampons, get them crampons. I'm telling you now, get the crampons. I don't know why they didn't, and it wasn't a case of it was scary or anything like that. You could we did it without crampons, it was slow, yeah. Then crampons, we could have already charged up because at times essentially it was like vertical snow and it wasn't soft, it wasn't smooth, it was just like hard snow. Yeah, but we were really lucky that were there were footsteps already in the snow. That was great. We used other people's feet as like stairways. Um we started our venture. We got up at four in the morning and we had to meet our guide at 5 a.m. We had a knock at the door in our hotel. We had got up, we had a knock at the door at 4 20 to 4, 2020 5. And it was my coach, and I was like, Oh yeah, hi guys, like chill out. I'm like, I'm just yeah, I was like, Oh yeah, we're just about to have our porridge, like, and she went, Yeah, you're meeting the guide. And I looked at my watch, I was like, oh my god, like my brain was not working properly. So he started rushing, and she comes into him, she went, relax, relax. And that was the good thing about her, is like I thought we were gonna get bollocking, but we didn't, and we're just like packing up and everything. So then we headed off there, we get there, and I'm not joking, I'm a let's have he's not there. It's two minutes past five. I'm phoning this guy. Then we see a van come past and he's trying to act all chill. A van speeding, beating, speeding, speeding past. You so we went from the youth hostel. There's two start points. We obviously wanted the close one. Yeah. And he just he came hammer. He was his name's Mike from what were they called? Um, Elite Guide. Elite Guide, I would highly recommend them. To be fair, they weren't cheap, you know. Um but he was amazing. We we didn't feel worth every penny for me. I would definitely book him again, but I wouldn't I would say they're worth their money. Um, and he he was great, he was really great. He kind of set the pace for us as well. Yeah. Um, and he was really good. Um, I definitely I've got to leave them a Google review. So we came back down, we were so happy with our time. We did Ben Nevis up and down in how long? Um, five hours 19 minutes. Five hours nineteen minutes. We got down, and honestly, the weather was amazing at the bottom. It's just amazing. There's so many people like starting to come up now. I was smug as anything that we'd done it. On the way back down, there's lots of men coming up, and I think they're like, Fuck, what time did you start then? And I think there is this kind of like, oh right, so you've already done it. Like, did you do it? Like the sort of and I was like, This is this is like pattern coming down. This is a pattern. We've we bumped in some really funny guys, and they were like, you know, I'm all cooky because I've done it so coming back down, and they were like, Oh, oh no, crampons, oh, it's doable then blah blah blah. We go back down. I went, Yeah, you could probably run the top bit. I was just like so uh yeah, we were just having fun, we felt good, we felt confident coming back down, got straight back into the we ran. I said, Bye, Mike, by the like, we're not even down the bottom, just start running. Goodbye. Just I like ran off. I was like, bye Mike. And I was like, I didn't realise that was goodbye. I was like, yes, we want to do this in 24 hours or below. So we see my coach, everyone's heading back to the van, we get in and we head straight to Scaffell. Yeah. We get to, and that drive was six hours. Yeah, so there was a lot of diversions and traffic, it would usually be six hours. I think we got there in six hours, 40 minutes. Yeah. Um, so not ideal. And the drive, and this was the thing, is our speeds on the mountain. I was like, we're gonna do snow donia. We're gonna we're gonna smash it. We had a really good sleep after Scafell, Scafell. I'm gonna show you my boots actually. I think it's actually pronounced Scarfell. Oh, is it Scarfell? No, I'm not sure though. These were brilliant. How these are these are called Scott Scarpa? Scott, is that how you say it? Yeah, they're they're like one of the best. If you see that on the boot, then you know you've got a good boot. So is Scarpa. These for us, we got these from can't remember what the name of the show. Shaped the the scarpa bit was. Oh yeah, is that it? Yeah, we got these. These were so comfortable. These got us up all the mountains, really comfortable, waterproof, just fantastic. Yeah. I can't remember how much they were. They were about 200. They they were expensive. I think they were 250 or something. Yeah, that'll last for years. Yeah, these were absolutely amazing. I love these boots, so happy with them and some shit winding. But they were amazing. I would give these boots 10 out of 10. Um, so by this time we scaffold, okay. So we get there and we we've had a little nap. We are we are buzzing, but also we've got to come back and talk about diet as well. Like we we ate porridge, we carb loaded and all that kind of thing. By this point, we're sort of the diet's not the best, I don't think, when you're doing this stuff. Is it a lot of sugar, isn't it? Survival. It's it's kind of survival. We were drinking loads, we're doing really well. I I didn't bring my backpack in. I had a brilliant backpack. My coach lent me her backpack from when she ran in the desert, and I'd it was quite heavy, wasn't it? My back, yeah. It's you know, it had these drinks, but it was brilliant. It was so when you are packing to go up a mountain, you you could have really amazing weather, no clouds, but you have to be prepared for all sorts of weather because the mountains do have their own climate, and half of the weight of the bag is kit that you probably won't even use. Yeah. And that's just hiking. You just got to. We did see a lot of guys with no backpacks. Yeah, no water, no backpacks. Couldn't believe it. There's so and and to be honest, Mike was not impressed with it. Our guide on the Ben Nevis one, he just he was just like, Yeah, you see it all the time. He was like, You see it all the time. Is and and he says, I've lost it a few times with people, like, what are you doing? But there's a lot of that on social media as well. But me and Anna, we're not those. So our bag was packed really well. We had Biffy bags, we had our first aid kit, Vivi. Vivi, sorry, Vivi bags. And she was like, Whatever you do, don't open these before you need them. Vivi bags, um, what else do we have? We had balaclavas, yeah. Um, we had extra layers. Gore-tex jackets. Yeah, Gore-Tex jackets, we had snacks, water, extra salt, yeah, all that, all that kind of thing. We both had that compass, etc. Um, so we decided to have less stuff for um Scarfell because Scarfell, we did feel like we could go up that and down pretty quickly, didn't we? Yeah. What happened there? We went up how how long did it take? So it took us one hour 37 minutes to ascend the mountain, and then it did take us a little bit slower coming down. Because my knees started to hurt. My it was my left knee, wasn't it? And I just think that I'm I'm actually not used to that level of uh it was kind of the hard stones coming down on these different levels. I feel that my body was just like a bit stressed because I was quite stressed with it all, because I'm a bit fearful as well. So my body's like very under a lot of stress for a long time. So I think you did really, really well for someone who's afraid of height, and it is just strenuous floor, like it's just constant, yeah, hard, like it's because on the flats I could run, couldn't I? As soon as I hit a flat, I was like, Oh, thank God for that I can run. Yeah. My body was starting to go, this is enough. And truly, a scar at the top of Scarfell, I was like, um, I don't I can't stand on this. I really was a bit scared, scared. There was a bit of a move, the floor was moving. And the funniest thing was when we got to the top of Scarfell, there's these two lads coming down in shorts and t-shirt. We'd just seen them up at Ben Nevis, but we had less clothes on. We were like stripped off at this time. And I went, I saw you two at the top of Ben Nevis. Their faces were like delighted and shocked at the same time, and they really wanted to talk to us and I explained to them where we'd seen them. And I said, We got less clothes on now, and we just kept walking past them, and they were just like, We're training for the 25 hours. He goes, Are you thinking now? And they were like kind of impressed, weren't they? They're like really wanted a chat, we wanted time. We were just like, We're pushing on, boys, have a good. I went, You're gonna do great. Bye. We just went up to the top, and then um Anna. Our plan was is that Anna would cut um we'd get a photo. We got a photo at the top of Ben Nevis with the blind veterans um logo and things like that. Because that's what it was all about. It was all about blind veterans and raising the money for it. And so we were doing social media as we're going along, and everybody's been brilliant supportive. And we get our second picture, and then we're going back down. We're going, right, this is the hard one now. It's sunset, we've got back down, the team are together. We we basically we have a we've run out of water, we pick up some water, get some petrol, and it's night time. So I'm like, I best get some sleep now. I don't sleep too well, but we knew that snow donut was going to be the tough one. We were going through the night, we were gonna arrive, we wanted to arrive there. What time about midnight? We wanted to, but we ended up because of the road work. It was like half one. It was it was I think we got there about quarter past one. Yeah, and we set off. Now, the funny thing was Anna told me in the morning, Anna, Anna, my coach, and there's Anna and my daughter, Anna my coach, she told me the morning when it was all over. She said, You do realise that when because Anna, you downloaded the map on your phone, hadn't you? Anna said, You do realise that when Anna went, was that the train station back there? You had made him come back to the train station. He'd actually dropped us closer. Oh. Did you do that? Yeah, but oh, it it just wasn't, I don't think he I get what you were doing because you you knew that the like it was from the train station, but he says, I I had actually goes there going to Alan. Really? Yeah. Oh I was like, do you know what, Anna? I just we had to I said fair. I said I didn't care. We had just woken up and I just had no idea where he had dropped us because I'm looking at the map. This dubs are about to freak out of that. Ethel, come on, sorry, two sex. Ethel, come on up. No, Simon, that is rude. No, this is very rude. Go on, let Ethel. You would not have wanted this. Mum, Pat. No, Ethel, come on. Good girl. Come on. Roman Roman. Roman Roman, you'll go out. Come on, Ethel up. I'm so bad. I can't want to be all this. He dropped us closer. Yeah, don't worry. Why didn't she tell me? I wish she told I w I d I yeah, I think they just sort of like forgot a show. So yeah, I was like, oh well, it is what it is. It was just Roman. Good girl. Right, there we go. Ethel's up now. Can you give Ethel a stroke? No, darling. Good girl. We've got a foot. Yeah, we've got the dogs in with us today. A bit more comfort. Yeah, so we started and it was the moon was bright. So we had torches on for a bit and then we didn't need them. So we set off and it and it was hard. It was hard. We were tired. Our bodies were tired. Anna, you were. We now knew the fitness levels. So I'm I've always prided myself on being really fit and I I've got endurance. But you could start seeing the age difference, Anna's spring along. And I'm really like, I'm like, right, I'm gonna put, I'm gonna dig in now, I'm gonna take all the years of endurance that I've you know that I churned through. I don't care, my body can take pain and I can do this. So I was just, I was quite quite we were quiet for a very long time, weren't we? We're not really talking because we're both tired at this stage. We get halfway up and the wind is starting to. I'm not, I'm I'm I'm delusional. Like I'm just thinking, oh, it's night time, it's quite windy. Wind's noisy, right? It's really noisy, but I don't really think anything of it. I'm thinking, oh God, you know, I was thinking, oh glad not for my gloves, and I've got my gloves on. We start slightly putting more layers on. I went, do you know what, Anna? I said, I'm gonna sit down here, I'm gonna juice up, get some uh sugar in me and that, because I'm starting to feel this because you're pushing against the wind, so it's like Yeah. It was gusts of wind, and you could actually hear it like rolling down the mountain. It was it was not nice, and we I said, let's stop. We're gonna stop because you really wanted this 24 hours, and I really wanted I knew she did, and there was a part of me that's like I might have to tell her in a minute that look, you might have to, you know, if you really want to push on, but I'm struggling now, and I need you to understand that I can't go at your speed. I'm my body is physically tired. We didn't get to that though. No, I didn't, but this was this was going on in my head. We didn't get to that, so we'll I'll take you through it. So at the point I went, Anna, because everything now we're really tight, you know. The driving has like um to cut away our time. You know, we're trying to get this fucking time, and Anna's going, let's try and get this time. So I'm going, I'm like, we need to stop Anna because I need to put my balaclava on. I need to, you know, my face is getting weak, it's starting, you know, wind is coming, and I was thinking, I wish I'd had we pair of us didn't have any clear glasses, get clear glasses because if it's windy, well, if it's windy as it was, we should have stopped running a little while earlier, but you know, the wind was going nice, it was crazy, it was so such heavy wind. But we pushed on, we got part, we've had our balaclavers on, we got past halfway house and we kept going, and it was absolutely fine. You know, I just thought, I thought, fucking hell, this is whittledy. And we keep going, we're just churning on, churning on. And I just to be honest, I'm in a system. I'm actually a little bit ahead of you now, aren't I? We're in a system, we're not mentioning anything to each other, we're just fuck, it's quite windy. And I'd say, uh, my I'm hunched over now, I'm just pushing against the swim, thinking, I'm thinking we're not gonna do this in 24 hours. I wasn't gonna say it to her because I didn't want to upset her. I was like, I reckon 26 hours. Can I just say what? Yeah. So I kind of accepted at this point that we weren't doing it in 24 hours. We hadn't communicated to each other. We're still just weren't talking. We had had a little tiff at the bottom, anyway, which it was tiredness. I was kind of dragging a little bit. I'd had a wee, and Anna was like, Can we? And I was like, and I just think that's tiredness that's mum and daughter. So we've been in silence for a quite a long period of this fight. Yeah, but when the wind had started at that point, I kind of knew that we weren't gonna cut it. So I just started pacing myself with my mum and stopped being a control freak. Yeah, and so so we got to the top and it was blowing us over, wasn't it? At this beginning bit, but no, no, not at the it was it was harsh. I wouldn't say it was blowing us over. But is it wasn't of any concern to us? No, there was absolutely no concern to a bought mission at all. So we get to this like tunnel, and I all I remember is Anna saying to me, Mum, I need you to go in on the right, and I because I was on the left, and I was like, Why do you want to do that? And we keep walking, and what I saw was nothing but a fucking sheer drop. And I went right, and I was just like, the the other time I felt this is when I've gone skiing and you can't see fuck all. All you can see is a sheer drop, and it's like, and I went, is that as bad as it? And Anna was just like kind of like, yeah, yeah, like I wasn't gonna tell you about this because it would give me time to think about it. I didn't freak out because I did trust Anna. Anna's a really amazing leader and an amazing hiking leader. I was like the the weaker link, so to speak. Yeah, and I I trust Anna. And we kept going. I at this point, I wasn't feeling like I needed to make the decision. I was like, I was committed to getting to uh what is it they call it? The summit. The summit. So we go in and I'm shit you not, I shit you not, this fucking wind from this side from getting through the tunnel, like this screaming and stuff. I went, it's all right, Anna. If I just hold on to this fence, I crawl up. And I went, and that's what we're going. I went, I didn't want it. I went, and I just I just don't know. Like at this point, terrifying. We can't stand up. And with that, Anna turns and looks to me and she goes, Mum, I just don't think it's safe anymore. And I go, Thank fuck, I know right then. But at this point, it's got worse. It is got worse. Can I just make a point that we're actually not that far through the tunnel before anyone thinks that we've gone really far? No, we're like we're just looking up the hill, going, How the fuck are we gonna get up there? Like the wind is going, you shall not pass, is it's it's terrifying. Yeah. So I'm just like, I'm surrendering. So I'm like, right, I'm gonna slide, I'm gonna slide down this fucking hill, or whatever it is. So Anna just like calmly walks back, and I'm thinking, I'm I'm not standing up, I'm not fucking standing up because I'm shit scared. So I just I'm like, I don't even know if I can move anymore. And Anna knows that once we're in the tunnel, even though the wind is just blowing like a fucking car, just screaming. And my thought is, I need to record this. At that point, I was like, I need evidence because I my ego is like, Well, we've given up, you know. People are not gonna believe us, or if they don't believe us, there's no evidence. By the way, we haven't checked our phone, we don't know what our coach is thinking. That's another story, excuse me. But I'll just add, mum said she was a weak hiker. She's absolutely not, she's belligerent as prick, and she wasn't actually going to give up until I said she was just like, Yeah, it's fine, Anna. I'll just crawl up the mountain in this like 40 mile an hour gusts of wind. I wasn't gonna leave you, and there's there's this all there's all these sorts of things that go on. Like, and I just thought there was a slight moment I was like, we're not gonna be those fucking dicks. No, have to call out mountain rescue. We're not we're not doing that today. Like, we've just got to put our own safety first. Anyway, we get into this tunnel and I pull out the phone. I'm like, we're safe enough to record this, it's safe enough to get this. And I was like, hi, and you can fucking you can't even hear us talk. And I'm showing on the phone where we are and stuff. We put it on Instagram, and all I see is our cute little faces, like with these bellaglabs, like, yeah, we're gonna we're gonna report mission. And um, there was a point before that actually that I'm I don't I literally can't move and I'm so scared. And Anna just goes, Mum, glad my hand, take my hand, and then by that point we're together. It was so dramatic that by the time that we had done the video and we'd sort of come out of that side was really fucking windy. By the time the picture, sorry. Oh, yeah, the picture of those those ones that I took in the daytime. Or yeah, the one of the just so everyone knows what the tunnel looks like. Let me get it. I'll get I'll see if I'll send it to Rick as well, see if we can get it on the screen. This is the tunnel. This is the side that you're safe. Yeah. This is the side that you're safe, okay. And so that's my view. See that sheer drop? That's the sheer drop I saw. Um, and then that's the tunnel again. That is, yeah, that's the tunnel. That is a sheer drop there. Um one's out there it is, yeah, there it is. I would like to go and see I would like to go and do that again in nice weather. In nice weather, because just to see what I was up against. That was the fence I was clinging to. I said, oh no, I'm just gonna cling to this fence. Now that, so for me, I can see how dangerous that is, because that wind was just pushing. We it would just been it would just been horrible. Yeah, that would have been absolutely that would have been awful. That was so that's exposed as fuck. I think it probably took us about three minutes to walk through that tunnel and decide to turn back. Yeah, but it felt longer. Yeah, it was it was you were saying we were as you got back out. Yeah. So as we started to um coming back down, the wind, it was a bit more safe, and we started laughing and we were just finding it really funny because we were safe. We checked our phone, our coach had text us going, Are you okay? Like, don't take any stupid risks. I know there's wind up there. How is it? She, when we by the time we got back down, she came to someone said, Oh, she was really scared. Like, our coach is really funny. Like, she's not the most tactile person, but she'll show you when she needs to. She was just so happy. She said, I'm so proud of you. She goes, Oh, well, she had to wait because he was asleep, her husband, and she was like, Wake up, wake up. She goes, I think we're gonna have to send Mountain rescue. She goes, and she said she was so proud of us that we had made the decision. She goes, that that we had the sense to make that decision to just not do it. Um there was a part of us on our way down. I know you felt that you found your dad, didn't you, at really early hours in the morning. You just there was a bit of you that was like, I've got to tell everybody that I didn't do the that I didn't do the um challenge. And I think that's just and I I think it was harder for you really. I think that's more like it's natural to feel that you gave up, but this just it was the right decision, I think. Could you imagine it if we Oh absolutely like I wasn't upset like I wasn't gutted or upset, I was happy with what we had done. Like we had really good times on Ben Nevis and Scarfell. We wanted the perfect done, done, yeah, got it. It was more just like, oh my god, I just can't have can't be asked to grab and tell me what. Yeah. I know what you mean. Like it almost sort of you don't want, but honestly, I told people, didn't I? Because I was looking on my socials and every not one person said wind or anything like that. Everyone was like, Yeah, we heard about it. And people, so this is what happened, right? So we didn't see anyone on, and I was thinking, oh, is that a reason we saw no one? But on the way down, we saw one couple coming up with a dog, and we were like, We need, you know, we're gonna tell them, like, go what experience we had. I'm not joking. The bloke was so rude, he literally just like totally dismissed us, and I was like, Oh, right, is that what we'd like to go against like hiking culture? I was just like, I said, and it was kind of a bit defeating, wasn't it? Yeah, it was like it do you know what he he just doesn't like to be told what to do. Like hikers communicate and tell each other what the conditions are like. Yeah. And it was for me, because I really I'm not really a hiker and I didn't know, I just thought we were being nice. It was almost like they sort of looked at us like idiots. And I was like, it started making it getting in my head and thinking, God, did we give up two so you know? Is it like was you know, it started getting in my head, didn't it? And I said, Do you know what, Anna? I said, I'm not gonna let it get in my head. And I I I went back down. I was thinking, I was just thinking about their dog as well. Like they had a little dog with them, and it was just like hope obviously they're gonna have the sense like to just get as far as they want, but they just weren't friendly at all. And then this, I was then, Anna, do you know what we're just gonna just be like, if they want to talk, they'll talk. They sort of put us off that couple. So we're just like, hi. So this next couple, just like walking out, and this woman really wanted to talk to us, didn't she? She said, Oh, hello, where have you come from? You know, that was they look like she was really pretty, wouldn't you? Yeah, they were a lovely couple had a full face of makeup on it like three in the morning. She had make torches, whereas the other couple didn't, did they? They were a young couple, the first one. He um, and yeah, they were just like thunky. Anyway, I got over that obviously, but the second couple were absolutely lovely. And then we saw a bloody solo female hiker, which I was like, what the fuck? And it was pitch black. I was like, you're so brave. I I think that's really bloody brave. Um, because you know, I I think it's pretty scary stuff, you know. You guys, if you're listening to this, women live in fear of being of being on a a hike and you're you come into path with two men or one man. I would never go on a solo hike. There are people and women out there that will do it, good for you. I I think fantastic. But I err on the side of caution, and that's a horrible thing to say. But I had a few words with Anna about, you know, if we were to come into um contact with any issues, what we would do, how we would handle that, and we have safety protocols that we take as women because you know, and even Andy in the he said, could do that he goes, he was shocked at how women think. I was like, Yeah, it's like this, you know. We you know, even on Snowdonio, you you know, we don't know the people that are gonna be out there or anything like that. It is like that. Um, and yeah, we just thought she was fucking mental to be out on her own. But we knew we'd been up and we'd been down that she was gonna be perfectly safe, the people that were there. She was um a regular hike, you could just tell because she knew what the conditions were. Yeah, just by being there. She was like, Yeah, I could feel the could feel it. I so just from her being at the bottom and feeling the light wind, yeah, she knew it was gonna be because she had started changing her clothes and she. And so we started, we were looking back, so I was obsessed with this first couple. I was thinking, fucking fuck it. I wonder how far they're gonna get. And I looked, I went, uh huh, they're descending. I was like, see they I was like, yeah, they had this massive low torch or whatever it was. But yeah, they're they weren't very friendly. So excuse me, we then got down, everybody was so happy to see us. Thank great, grateful for our sport team. We got in the back and we went straight to sleep, didn't we? Yeah. And we drove and drove and drove. Where did we drive to? So at that time, what time was it? It was about four or something. So we drove to find breakfast because you were gonna, you, you, she Anna was going to have an interview with um Blind Veterans. Yeah, one of the she lived close by, but it was like, and I've got to tell you something so funny. Well, Anna, our coach, was like, I think it's outrageous that she didn't come and meet me shrinking. Yeah, she was just raised, my glancing blind veterans, get her out of your bed and come and meet her at the bottom of that mountain. Like, my coach is just she'll say it as it is. And so we ended up going to McDonald's first, didn't we? We didn't, I I was like, look, Andy has been driving non-stop, and Andy is, you know, we're all gonna go for a breakfast. We couldn't find anything for breakfast because obviously it's like really early. And that again is where you need time when how you're gonna do things. What would we do differently? We said we'd either set off Ben Nevis at 12 or 5 pm. I think what we did was great. I loved it. I don't think it it even needs to be changed, but we could attempt setting off at 5 pm because that means we would do most of the driving during the night and one of the mountains would just be a sunrise walk. Yeah. So Anna, we we said obviously we didn't complete it. Will we do it again? I would like to do it again. I'd like to do the 24-hour challenge again for my 50th. Yeah, I think I don't want to do it for a little while. I'd I'm gonna go back to Snowdonia and see what's going down there. And I've got like what, four more years to do more hiking and stuff. I'd definitely like to do it again. So going back to what happened, we went to McDonald's, we never have a McDonald's, the only thing that was bloody open. So we went to McDonald's, and the support team, they were absolutely shattered. And the problem is, check it. We didn't have a hotel booked because I was like, oh, and and I was like, just book it on the day. We basically needed a hotel now. So I was like, look, leave it with me. I could see that Andy is struggling big time now. I've had a sleep, so I'm fine. I was like, I'm gonna drive. And I hadn't driven at all. She literally hadn't, and I was like, Do you know what? You're not driving, you're not driving. Because by this time we're fine, they're tired, and that's when an accident's gonna happen. So I said, let me get on the phone. I managed to organise a hotel Birmingham area. There was a spa there, and I there was a lovely woman called Sarah. What was the hotel called? Um, was it New Hall? New I think it was hold on. Let me have a look. It was. It was called New Hall Hotel in Birmingham, and it was like it's yeah, that was it. New Hall Hotel and Spa Birmingham Birmingham. I phoned him up, there's a woman on reception called Sarah, absolute legend. I said, listen, this is what's happened. I said, We've been doing the three peaks. I explained about support drive. I said, I really need two rooms now, I'm willing to pay extra. But hello, my dog's come to join me. Come up here then. Hello, honey's here. Can you give Ethel a pat on the head? Yes, hello Ethel. Hello, baby. Being a good girl. Yes. Um, I said, um, I just really need to get in, get them into bed and get them to sleep. She was fabulous. And so she said, let me just sort something out. She came back, she said, I've got these two rooms. She goes, I've got a suite and I've got this. I went, give us the suite for the for the for them. Me and Anna will take the other room. I said, Can you have a bottle of champagne in the nice coach? Oh, have us a bit of champagne. I was like, they've just smashed it, they've been the best port drivers. She didn't even take my card details. She knew I was good for it. Only took them by the time I got to the hotel. So she goes, How long would you be out? I said, I'd be half an hour. So we got there and uh I said I insisted on driving because Andy was just done. He'd done like 10 hours of driving or something. He was mental. He was insane. And he he looked so tired. He did not moan once. He was amazing. Got there and it was just like brilliant. So we then um went to the spa, you know, had a bit of food. I think what did we do for dinner that evening? Did we have dinner? Yeah, uh what is this yeah? I know it's the day, wasn't it? Oh no. That was it. We got there in the day, and then we slept overnight, and that that was it. We all met. I went and met my coach in the morning to go and have sworn, and then I came back and I had a love a lion. I'm just looking at my phone and my it rings up, the dog, dog sitter, she and she's just panicking, screaming, she goes, I need your vet's number. Because Roy's having a seizure and I think fuck I my brain goes, I'm like, oh fuck, fuck, fuck. But this is she said, This is really bad. And um I just I I said to Anna, she said, What's the vet's name? What's the vet's name? And um I give it to her and I I look on the cameras because she's taken and I can see that Roy's, you know, he's passed away. I spoke to Anna, and you just burst into tears straight away. But at this point, I'm not able to function. I've gone into complete organisation mode. I didn't didn't really cry, did I, for a very, very long time. I don't think I cried. No, I don't think because I was trying to organise everything. Yeah. I was trying I was saying I don't think we're gonna see Roy again, but there was part of me that was trying to organise, okay, get him to the vet, it's it's gonna be alright. And then I was like, no, no, this is he's not he's not gonna be able to come back. Like we knew that this was his last, like he was going kind of thing. Yeah. Um I've got like a puppy dashined here, licking the she's just a divil. Um so it was just hard, and I I told the sport we rushed to breakfast and um and I said and I knew I knew he was gone. I knew he was gone. And so we were just I lost my appetite and everything, and so we dropped the support team off and we came back home, and it was just so sad. Oh our dog sit was absolutely bawling her eyes out, and we were quite composed. And you know, we were I think by the time you know, our lovely PA, she was also so upset she said he's upstairs. So he went upstairs, and when we saw him, oh god, just the emotions. I think my brain was telling me he's still breathing and he's gonna wake up, and it was really it was a bit messed up. I was like, it was so hard to accept we're never gonna see that face again. Yeah, never gonna see him running through again. And the pain from there for another 24 hours was unbearable. It was I I kept sort of saying to myself, I'm bigger than this, I'm bigger than this, I can accept this, but I couldn't. My my monkey, my monkey was going off, going, I'm not accepting it, I'm not accepting it, my child, you know, it was really, and then we just found ways. I'll tell you what, I've been spending uh excuse me, not a picture of Roy, thank you very much. I've been spending. We went out and bought some uh some plants and stuff like that from the um Brit Garden Centre. I'd bought, we'd bought just just didn't give a shit anymore. I was like buying some drinks and some sweets, you know. I'm usually much more sensible than the than the No, I was just we went out for a a fancy meal last night. We just had to cheer ourselves up, didn't we? And we've we have healed in the last we're quite able to talk about it. We're not burst bursting into tears, are we, all the time? No. I think today's been the first day. Today has definitely been the first day of like feeling not absolutely broken, but we will miss him again, we will miss him. He was such a character. It is so quiet in this house without him. This dog was a little menace, he was a little mafia boss, he was just so funny. He literally was so spoiled any other dog because he demanded it, yeah. He he literally was a house, all the other dogs they have to go outside at some stage. But Roy just, you know, he got patty three times a day, he threw his own little spot by the oven. And we just every single person he took commanded it. I could learn a lot from Roy. Yeah, yeah. He everybody had he had everybody wrapped around his little finger, and he was a prick. Yeah, everyone still loved him. He's so bloody got away with it. He got away with murder, he was so funny, and um he is he will be so missed. I hope we're gonna share some pictures of him. Um, this podcast is dedicated to his memory. We love you, Roy. Thank you for you know being alive. Um, I think I had him for about three years or so. And um, I've got a little something. Um, I think I wrote down here. Where was it? Coming to the end of the podcast. Yeah, I wrote down a few things um about yeah, you know, I've put some key messages about this podcast about finishing isn't everything. Safety matters, doesn't it? Yeah, and people, pets matter so much more than achievements and being present. We were really present on the walk, and we've just been really present with the other dogs and everything, and together since we've been back. Um, if you're listening to this, go and hug your family, go and hug your dog and let your doggie know that you bloody love him. We are really, you know, we're giving these guys these since it's happened, you know, we had so much consumed us about organising his ashes and just processing it all. We're we're spending more time with these guys now as well, because um that you know, we're gonna take them out for a walk, and take them to one of the fields and that. And um, it does the the pack feels smaller, doesn't it? Yeah, you know, it was seven. Roy was such a big energy. Roy was like five dogs in one. So, yeah, we didn't finish the mountain, but I'm so proud of what we did do. How much did we raise? But like saying that, we didn't finish the bloody mountain. We got literally were right by the summit. Yeah, true. We were right beside it. We didn't complete the 24 hour we climbed the mountain, all right. No, we could climb the mountain, but we did resummit bar. Yeah, we didn't do the 24-hour. We did the legwork. The best was just a doddle if it wasn't for the weather. Yeah, and um and right now we trade all the summits just for a little moment back with Roy, wouldn't we? Like we would, you know, if we if we knew that this was gonna happen, we would have never have gone away, would we? We wouldn't we would trade it all. It's process, you know. I said to Anna, I said, what the fuck would we have done had it been on the earlier or you know, what an awful situation. I just don't know if I would have been able I know it's it's such a in in in many ways we I said to Anna, I said it's it's kind of like a hard situation to be in because we'd just finished, but we were in Birmingham, and so we couldn't get back quick enough. But also, in many ways, we had completed a mission, you know. Yeah, which dogs bloody see, she's gone. She is unreal, honestly. Um, so yeah, thank you, Roy, for all the memories. Yeah, we are so proud of ourselves. I'm so proud of you, Anna. You're you know, I'm so glad that we got to do it together. We got to raise how much? 5,205, I think. Yeah, thank you to everybody that sponsored us. We're so grateful. It was such an incredible experience. I would absolutely do it again. I would totally recommend it. Um, the 24 thing is just insane, and that money's gonna go so far because it literally takes like 15 quid for a cane for a blind person. Wow, yeah. 15, I think I'm pretty sure it's 15 quid for a cane and then 25 for a heat thing for your mug. So when you fill the kettle up, it beeps when it's hit the top of the mug. That's actually incredible. Do you know what we should definitely do, Anna? Is it would be great for us if we could speak to the charity. The charity are really good with you, aren't they? If we can speak to some and just find out where some of that money goes, because I think it's I think we will continue to raise money for Blind Veterans UK. And I think it's all part of sort of like people understanding where the money goes, which helps people kind of have that awareness and to be open to sponsoring and things like that. Yeah, definitely. Um, people have asked us what next, you know. That when we had the interview, they were always like, what now? We're like, okay, chill. Um, we're probably gonna do a swim. Yeah. I'm gonna do a swim. We are going to lower the goal. Yeah. That was a big, big goal. That was a big that was a big challenge and a big goal. We're probably gonna make it lower. Um, and just just, you know, steadily keep raising for this incredible charity that's really helped your dad. Yeah. So thanks everybody. Check out Blind Veterans UK and we will see you. I hope you've enjoyed this. By the way, thank you, Anna, for joining me. Anna, who's not on camera, Anna's like not into being on camera too much. She just makes an appearance, she's like, Mom, I'm not, you know, I've just blessed my dog. I've come, you know, the 24 hours. She's always so failed. Like, it's been a big week. Anna's like, I'm not getting glad, but this is what I do. I just do this, but you know, I was like, Anna, I'd love you to be on there, and I'm really thank you for sitting on here. It's just been really nice, uh, because it's been a hard week for us both, haven't we? We've been grieving together. But we've had each other. Yeah, we've had each other. We've God, we've been through the emotions, and we anyway. Thank you. Hope you've enjoyed this, and we're gonna be back again. I'm gonna be back. Also, you're gonna be seeing a lot more of Emily and Sienna. I hope you're enjoying the uh the reality shows we're doing. There's gonna be more, gonna be more vlogs, and we'll speak to you soon. Bye. This is Roy. This is this is Heart Failure, Roy. He looks pretty good though. He has been through it, right?

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Little Roy with the gangster stair. Tiny teeth and don't you.

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It might get confusing after this.

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But the dog like a mafia. On the windows.

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So here's to Roger. The Grumpy Dawn, the perfect loser, gone from our arms, and never too far.

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Royston Funk Jr., our little superstar.