NiCole's Notes
NiCole's Notes: The study guide for adulting. Witty, rigorous analysis of everything that matters: politics, love, illness, friendship, technology, aging, and the contradictions we live with. Sarcastic scholarship for the thinking Gen-X mind. Smart when it matters and Witty always.
A graduate from the University of Calgary, B.A. Political Science '95, B.A.Spanish '08, born with cystic fibrosis, a lung disease that has been trying to kill me since birth. Hanging on to life by the horns with only 26% lung function. I have 20+ years of experience building organizations and understanding how systems actually work.
Founder of the Summit Foundation for Cystic Fibrosis, raising 3.5+ million dollars for local research, Philanthropist of the year for Alberta in 2014, Honoured with the naming of a research lab at the Cumming School of Medicine, Snyder Institute for Chronic Diseases, at the University of Calgary in 2013. Featured in a documentary about my journey with CF and being a CrossFit athlete, while owning my own gym in 2018. I have been a part of a 350 million dollar fundraising campaign and had a 50' banner of my mug hanging off the Foothills Hospital for 4 years from 2003-2007.
Currently finishing two programs at the University of Calgary, one in Graphic Design (graduating June 15, 2026) and the other in Integrated Digital Media (graduating May 2027), my friends would consider me the Sassy Smurf out of the group.
I may have been given a cactus, but I don't have to sit on it.
NiCole's Notes
Un-Believing in God- Ep. 1 of 3
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For most of her life, Nicole Zeller negotiated with God. Struck deals. Prayed during CF exacerbations. Promised to be better, do better, live better, if only her body would cooperate. If only she could breathe again. In this episode, she names what she's been circling for years: she doesn't believe anymore. Not in anger. In clarity.
Nicole unpacks the question she was asking wrong; why does God allow suffering? and explains why the honest answer wasn't a theological argument. It was a math problem. The ledger never balanced. And at 53, she stopped trying to make it.
This is the first episode in a 3-part arc on faith, evolution, and the construction of a purposeful life without a deity. If you've ever felt guilty for not believing or relieved for the same reason, this one is for you.
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